#what if i just overreacted

[corvidae-corvus]

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

My mind wants to be loud I want noise I want distraction and noise and it's way too quiet in my mind right now it's sickening. I don't even want to comprehend the words in my head I just want to scream. I want to scream in my head just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh but like lowercase or uppercase?? More like a shrill AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

My ears aren't hurting but they are aching and not acheing to screeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaammmmmm

I want to watch a video on YouTube and focus all of my attention on it with some earphones and stuff. But I also don't want to I want to draw and read something or listen to music at the same time and comprehend both.

But it's night time and I need to sleep but I don't want to!

I'm feeling better. The urge to feel.

My head is empty now I only hear my thoughts and I'm writing my thoughts down and it's so empty in my head but I want to listen to my thoughts but I also don't want to. This is so weird like wtf is this experience.

Like it's soooo weird. Is this ADHD? I have no idea like what. Like I'm going crazy. Ok that's an exaggeration but still. Like what is this feeling?

Will listening to music help? Or putting on a video maybe I don't want to comprehend anything I just want to hear something I need to fill my head with thoughts or silence without my thoughts or noise without my thoughts?

I feel underwhelmed? I feel overwhelmed by the underwhelming? Or the opposite?

I'm feeling much better now.

I have so many ideas in my head and I'm paralyzed by all the things I wanna do and all the choices I want to make and all the paranoia I'm fucking paranoid holy shit I'm a paranoid person.

Listening to music I feel a little better maybe I should just listen to music. But I also want to draw. Putting the volume all the way up bro I might actually go death lmao.

So do I have ADHD cause I've been thinking about it for well over a year now and I'm not sure and like wtf happened to me right there like I was fine I was just feeling weird. Like I was just sitting in the same position typing on my phone this whole time. Like a shrimp 🦐 lmao.

Was that even ADHD? What if it's like my depression or anxiety or something. Like I only have a bit of social anxiety but idk I'm home and fine rn.

Well that was weird, just had to vent a bit lmao

Anyways....have a nice day 😃

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF Baby just wanted to be friends with Abby..

[dreamyintersexouppy]

ok babies! time to learn what dogwhistle means, can anyone tell me what dogwhistle means? thats right! a dogwhistle is a rhetorical strategy that obfuscates less popular rhetoric of an ideology in order to spread it to wider culture and signal subtle agreement with the ideology, and often they are hidden through obscure or seemingly nonsensical quirks of linguistics or culture. now can anyone tell me what to do when you think the tranny is being too annoying about a dogwhistle that you've arbitrarily decided is not real even though she clearly and calmly explained it to you? that's right! you keep reminding her that you think she's dumb and talk down to her like she doesn't understand anything and she's overreacting, good job! you successfully "unintentionally" signaled to terfs that you are susceptible to conversion

[jamietwat]

3/?

[lycandrophile]

just here to say to straight trans men that there are straight cis women out there who think you're twice the man cis men are. another day another time i ask sam collins please i am begging you fuck me like the whore i am

reading this ask was such a rollercoaster…the first sentence is a nice sentiment and then it just takes a hard left turn into wild fetishization.

in case anybody else didn’t know this, talking like that about real life trans men you don’t know (or about anyone you don’t know!) is super weird and generally not going to go over well at all! in fact, if you said this to him and not a random other trans man, it would be sexual harassment. so if you honestly think this is what affirming trans men’s gender sounds like, please take two seconds to actually talk to a trans man because i genuinely believe that the only way someone could possibly think is appropriate is if they’ve never interacted with a trans man in real life before and just see us as attractive faces on a screen.

please take some time to really think about the way you think about and talk to trans men. finding a person attractive doesn’t automatically mean you respect them, so you do actually still have to put some work into the respect part even if you think we’re hot.

[def-not-kaz-brekker]

I hate it when people don’t take aromanticism seriously. I hate it when they say “oh it’s just a phase I also thought I was aromantic but then I got a partner.” It doesn’t apply to everyone.

Respect aromanticism as you would respect any other identity

[mageofquandrix]

me: I wish there was an option for 'you dated Solas but it's been 10 years and you've moved on.' @postcardsfromheapside : put her with Pete Davidson

[asmogorna]

latest days on twitter have been fruitful

tw: fun, people kissing, waywood kissing (scary)

im still a huge pussy abt sharing all this cus what if the haters are gonna get meeee but at the same time idrc

my stance on rpf is if the people involved dgaf (gerard certainly doesnt care and will would like. get a laugh out of this max) and as long as the content stays sfw then theres no issue w having a little bit of fun :3

so yeah thats what i do know

[realbeefman]

stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

[sobashahzadi]

I want them no joke

Decided to get back into Pokémon again while my nail polish dried

[halfdeadwallfly]

[firelxdykatara]

Oh, also, why is this fandom in general so allergic to just... not listening to creators when they say things about their project you don't like. Once a story has been published it's out in the world and free to be interpreted and the creators' intention or thoughts behind it are no more or less important than you want them to be! They are essentially headcanons at that point and if you want to ignore them you can! Some Reddit AMA should not be igniting a goddamn fandom apocalypse I'm sorry, it is so genuinely like entirely not that serious.

[sonknuxadow]

crazy how ive been seeing people absolutely losing their minds over the way amy is written in the generations remaster and how she was character assassinated and her crush on sonic was removed and im playing it right now and the literal first thing she does when you free her from white space is call sonic cute which is nowhere close to what she said in the original. wtf are you people on about

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

I feel bad for Starlo.

Star has a point, idk what the four were ticked off about, there is like 99% chance everyone willingly participated in the trolley problem, based on what we've seen of his behavior thus far it's not like Starlo to be that big of a jerk/drag them by force/yell at them to do it. Ed's words:

he does it because Star asks NICELY

clearly jealous

It genuinely seemed like a fun time/fun roleplay, especially since every day is the same. Like, the five are supposed to be a rowdy and adventures bunch, what exactly did Starlo do wrong, I'm genuinely confused and curious. Except taking a big liking in Clover (his posse should know that this is a big moment for him, according to Blackjack they've known each other since high school and had the same liking for westerns. So they were basically a nerd gang.) Starlo was kind, patient and considerate towards Clover the whole time, even warned Mooch about them not being bandits, taught Clover gun safety, wanted to bring his posse along for a fun time, thanked Ace for telling him about getting Clover a new hat...

Sure, at first he only liked Clover for being a human, but as Ceroba says, that changed and he grew to genuinely care about them, plus I can't help but think Star saw himself in Clover and that's part of the reason he was so proud of them all the time even when they messed up (I'll talk more about this at some point)

What exactly made Ace want to leave the gang? He even said how he doesn't mind "getting run over by the fake train"

he's so nice. says sorry for forgetting the safety goggles even when he was scatterbrained due to his excitement. I love him so much

The only real "faults" (I'll call them temporary faults) I saw in Star during the Wild East section was that he was even more enthusiastic and more proud than usual. But how couldn't he be when he met a member of the species that he has admired for so long because they have real cowboys and sheriffs on the surface (who are seen as brave heroes who deliver justice, while Star canonically feels like a nobody farmer). His posse should have realized Clover wouldn't be there forever and just let their boss enjoy himself with his "deputy who'd have to leave sooner or later anyway"(or be more patient with him/ask him why he feels this strongly towards Clover/if there's a deeper reason for that). His friends including Ceroba just turn their back on him so quickly instead. The moment he's gotten the chance to feel valued for once and put himself first and not have to take care of this whole town and everyone in it and live his dream of meeting a real human, suddenly "his personality is damaged?"

Star's literally built this whole town, organised everything, he worries about everyone, Ceroba (plus was the one to give her emotional strength before and after Clover's sacrifice), Kanako, the monsters, his family, struggles with feelings of worthlessness yet never wipes that smile off his face, always does his best to be hopeful and optimistic and make others laugh, gave his posse a nap time so they don't become exhausted, gave Ceroba a free home, didn't act upon his feelings towards her and was a 110% supportive, caring friend instead. THAT'S who he is. He's the papa bear of this friend group, the glue holding everyone together.

He was just *really* excited. Y'all know he's insecure and just wishes to escape who he is and yet y'all blame him for liking Clover so much. Yeah, the four are very clearly jealous. But why won't the four of you control your feelings for a while? As mentioned, Clover WILL HAVE TO LEAVE EVENTUALLY. They won't be Star's "deputy" forever (the kid who's just as into westerns as he is, who values justice just as much, who also values doing the right thing. Someone he clearly felt understood in the presence of, whom he loved; just look at the way he talks about Clove during Showdown). Star seems genuinely confused of what he did wrong poor guy just wanted to live his fantasy for once and feel important:

Even at the beginning Moray's like "oh no Martlet is upset" Mooch replies "don't be a buzzkill nothing exciting ever happens around here" and Ray's like "Yeah you've got a point"

If you all agreed to have a little fun with a human who will very soon leave forever why is Starlo's enthusiasm such a big problem? If the posse weren't into this after all (unless they were simply too jealous which could have been solved with a honest talk and a little patience) why are you doing this "rowdy" job with Star in the first place? Do you want your boring routine day to day life so much back? Or just for Clover to leave (which they will soon enough)? You, western enthusiasts, literally met a real human, A HUMAN FROM WESTERNS YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PASSIONATELY INTO (clearly not as passionate as Star but passionate ENOUGH to understand where he's coming from).

... okay.

[effemimaniac]

feels kind of, how do you say, "le ironic" that one of the biggest tensions immediately post-breakup was my posting about it, anything to do with it beyond vague nothing statements about my feelings was ~too personal~, didn't matter how tongue-in-cheek it was, postcoping was off the table so to speak. but every time they brought it up to me I took it seriously and communicated my feelings and adjusted my behaviour because I thought there was something there to salvage. then just a couple weeks after the move he's talking shit about me on his blog in a really deceptive way, and when I bring it up to him his private response was basically a complete denial to engage or take any kind of accountability, and afterwards his public defense was that he thought I wouldn't see it. which is provably untrue, I mean in the week before we moved out we had a conversation where I said I still checked in on his blog, I just didn't follow him because I didn't want it showing up on my feed. we weren't talking all the time but we were normal at that point. that part was pretty confusing, but I guess that defense wasn't for me, it was for everyone else that didn't know the situation and might believe it absent of any other information. but aside from the fact it was blatantly false it was also just kind of a stupid defense? "oh I thought this person I told I wanted to still be friends with and still checks my blog wouldn't see my post misrepresenting her. yeah it was meant to be behind her back. that makes it better somehow." who is that for? it's insane.

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Dont mind me just screaming into the void