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Ain't Right part 2
Pairing: Joel Miller x f!reader
Summary: It's the holiday season and Joel is a Scrooge.
Warnings: 18+ SMUT MDNI, age gap (56/20), swearing, p in v, unprotected sex, size kink, oral sex (m!receiving), SQUIRT, creampie, threats of violence, alcohol
Celia's note: uhm hello??? what the flip thank y'all sm for all the love on my first post!! I got so many requests to make a part 2 so dinner's ready y'all dig in!!!!
Read the first part! > part 1
Jackson looked so pretty this time of year. The Christmas lights, the snowmen, the comfy sweaters and chocolate chip cookies; you loved it all.
Especially gift-giving.
To you, there was really nothing better than seeing someone's face light up when they open a present.
This year, there was someone special you planned to go all out for.
It had been 3 days since Joel Miller fucked you in his house, on his bed.
You hadn't stopped replaying the moment in your mind, especially the part when he finished all over your stomach.
However, it just so happens that after those amazing thirty minutes, Joel was called away by Tommy.
He had to leave and do something that you weren't allowed to know about. Undoubtedly some dangerous mission that pained you to think about.
So your victory was short-lived.
But, like the gentleman he was, he walked you home and made sure you were okay before he left. You wanted to kiss him goodbye, but felt too nervous to do so.
You don't know whyāhe literally had his cock in you a few moments prior.
Yet you couldn't, and just had to watch him walk away.
Now, you haven't seen him in three days and were starting to get serious withdrawals. Whatever he was up to couldn't have come at a worse time.
You finally had the taste of his perfection, now he was gone, leaving you to deal with your desire alone.
You tried to preoccupy yourself with helping set up all the Christmas decorations around town as well as baking an absurd amount of treats.
You also managed to get him a little gift in the meantime, stuffing it in the cutest box with the prettiest wrapping paper.
God, you hoped he'd come back soon.
And luckily, he did!
You had heard from Maria that everyone had returned from their tripāsafe and sound.
She had also told you that she was throwing a little Christmas get-together at her and Tommy's house to celebrate.
She was careful to mention that Joel would be in attendance.
So, that night, you whipped up your signature cinnamon apple recipe and put on your cutest outfit.
You topped it with some fuzzy reindeer antlers because you were in a very festive mood.
As you walked alone to Maria and Tommy's, you were freezing your ass off in your skirt and sweater. You wore tights with your skirt in hopes that it would help with the cold, but who were you kidding?
You didn't care, though. You just cared if Joel thought you looked pretty or not.
You pranced up the steps of their porch, letting yourself into the house and getting immediately bombarded by the hoard of people inside.
Maria made it seem like it was going to be a small thing, but the entire Jackson population seemed to be in her living room.
Thankfully, Tommy catches you come in and walks up to greet you. "Hey there stranger," He grins, looking down at the dish in your hands. "What you got there?"
"Brought desert," You chirp, handing it to him with a proud smile.
"Well well," He muses as he takes the glass container from you, looking it over with surprise. "Didn't think you could tie your own shoes, let alone bake anything."
You roll your eyes before scoffing. "You're just mad because I can tie my shoes and bake something before you can conjure a coherent thought."
Tommy fakes a wince before chuckling. "Alright, touchƩ kid. We're gonna be playing charades in a little bit so stick around, alright?"
You nod, having absolutely no intention of 'sticking around' for charades. Tommy wanders off with your apples, finally giving you a moment to survey the party.
Obviously, you were looking for one person in particular.
You squeezed through all the crowds of people, scouring what felt like every room in the house.
But no dice.
Joel was nowhere to be found and sadness washes over you like a tidal wave.
Was he doing this on purpose?
Torturing you by depriving you of his presence? This was hell.
You plant yourself by the special eggnog and down several glasses to take the edge off.
You were tipsy in no time, it really didn't take much. It was like Maria just dumped an entire bottle of vodka in the bowl and splashed some milk in it. It was disgusting, really, but it was getting its job done.
As you hunched yourself over the bowl, someone tapped you on your shoulder.
You spin around, your hopes high.
"Joel!āOh. Hi Connor." The disappointment you feel inside displays clearly in your tone.
You're now face to face with the boy who has been unsubtly trying to sleep with you for months.
"Hey there! You look fucking great tonight." He flirts, a smug grin on his face.
You grimace because you know he thinks he's so cool, even though you'd rather die than stand here with him right now.
"Thanks." You say flatly, turning back towards the eggnog and pouring yourself another glass. For some reason, Connor takes this as an invitation to step closer, now invading your space.
You don't even bother trying to hide your disgusted expression. His cologne is attacking your nostrils, and it doesn't even smell good.
"That skirt looks amazing on you." His eyes unabashedly drag along the skin of your legs, making you shiver in disgust. He takes it too far when his hand comes up to brush your arm.
"You come here with anyone?" He coos, leaning against the food table like he was hot shit or something.
You couldn't stand this douche. Just as you were about to tell him to fuck off or something, you feel someone looming over you.
"She did." A gruff voice comes from behind you, and you immediately recognize that it could only be one person.
You whip around, your face lighting up at the sight of Joel.
His expression is settled into a natural scowl, his jaw clenched and his eyes narrowed at the boy in front of you both. Even though he looked scary as shit, he was so fucking hot.
You're instantly horny just at the sight of him.
Connor scoffs, looking between the two of you, but your eyes stayed glued to Joel.
"Really? Him? But he's likeāan old man." Connor spits, which immediately earns a glare from you.
Just as you're about to cuss him out, Joel beats you to it.
"Walk away before this old man breaks your jaw." His voice is stern, not to be tested.
It makes your core tighten with need.
Hearing the threat that he assumes to be all too real, Connor doesn't waste time scurrying off.
You turn back towards Joel, a warm, relieved smile spreading across your face. āHi,ā You whisper, wanting to hug him so bad but holding yourself back because he wasnāt a big fan of PDA. āM'so glad you're back." You do, however, step closer into his personal bubble.
His face softens when he finally looks down at you, and you can almost swear you see his lips curling up into a smile.
"Yeah, me too, kid." He husks out, looking between you and the bowl of half-empty eggnog. "Enjoyin' yourself?" He asks with somewhat of a disappointed look on his face, clocking that you were a little tipsy.
"Now I am." You answer truthfully, beaming up at him. "Have you been here the whole time? I was looking for you earlier but I couldn't find you."
Joel shifted on his feet, sliding his hands in his pockets. "Just got here. Tommy was talkin' my ear off at the door." He explained, an exasperated look on his face.
You laughed and nodded, knowing you both shared that experience.
"Are you having a good time, though?" You ask, actually curious because he seemed like he would rather be anywhere else right now.
He shrugs, brushing a hand through his short hair. "This Christmas holiday crap is givin' me a fuckin' aneurysm." He huffs out with complete honestly, scratching the back of his neck.
"What? Really? Why?" The shock and bewilderment in your voice isn't lost on Joel.
He sighs out, knowing you're about to explain the magical spirit of the season or whatever.
"The blizzards, people spazzin' out over gifts, all 'cause some fat guy is coming down chimneysās'all just ridiculous."
You want to giggle at how actually annoyed he sounded, but you hold it down.
Grouchy old man.
"I'd let you come down my chimney," you flirt, but then correct yourself. "I have let you come down myā"
Joel shoots you a glare, daring you to finish your sentence.
You know when to cut your losses, so you don't.
"Well, speaking of gifts," You start, rummaging in your bag to pull out your present for him. You hold it up, the pink wrapping paper making him cock an eyebrow. "Merry Christmas, Scrooge."
Joel feels an unfamiliar feeling swimming around in his stomach at the sight.
He slowly takes the box from you, looking at it like it was a puzzle.
He really wasn't expecting anything from you. But he supposed people who have had the other persons genitals inside them should probably give them something for Christmas.
He finds himself very pleasantly surprised.
After a moment, he finds something to say.
"Couldn't find some manlier wrapping paper?" He coughs, his voice low but it's obvious he's joking with you.
You roll your eyes and scoff. "Just open it!"
Joel somewhat grins at your impatience but finally starts to open the box.
That grin drops off his face after he sees the contents, an immediate bittersweet feeling swelling in his chest.
You're watching his face so intently, so scared that he didn't like it based on his reaction.
Joel pulls out the watch from the box, clutching it tightly. He's not saying anything, so you hear yourself start to ramble.
"Do you like it? I just saw that the watch you wear is broken so I figured I'd get you a new one. If you don't like it I can take it back."
You're starting to crumble underneath the weight of his silence, anxiety bubbling in your gut. Just as you're about to ask him if he's okay, Joel finally looks back at you.
"S'real great. Thank you." His tone is genuine, you can tell he's telling the truth. But why does he look so pained?
"Of course." Your murmur, your eyes searching his. After a moment of silence, you clear your throat. "There's one more thing, actually."
Joel's shoulder slump. "You got me another present?" He asked tiredly, looking at you with disbelief.
A guilty smile paints your face before you gesture for Joel to follow you. "It's upstairs. C'mon."
He doesn't know how much more his heart could handle.
Reluctantly, he follows you up the stairs, wondering why you had a gift waiting for him in Tommy's guest bedroom.
You open the door and close it behind you both, purposefully not turning the lights on.
Joel walks into the center of the room, standing aimlessly and confused as to why you hadnāt flipped the light switch yet.
But then he hears the rustling of clothes and when you eventually turn the lights on, you're wearing nothing but a bra and panties.
His cock immediately gets hard.
"What do ya think you're doin'?" He whisper yells, trying to keep his eyes on your face but that proves to be impossible because your tits looked so good in lace.
"What? You don't like it? I bought it for you." You give him a 360 and he has to brace himself against the bed.
Fuck you looked good.
He sits down on the mattress, dragging a hand down his jaw in thought.
He's debating if he's really about to fuck you in his brother's house.
Why were you always making him go against his morals?
A few seconds of silence pass between the two of you before Joel snaps his eyes back to your figure.
"C'mere."
Got 'em.
You squeal excitedly before running over, slotting yourself between his legs and placing your hands on his shoulders.
In turn, his large hands come out to hold your hips, his gaze zeroing in on your perfect-looking cleavage that he was now eye-level with.
Just as he was about to slide his hands up to grope your breasts, you sink down to the floor.
Joel's puzzled as he watches you get on your knees, looking up at him with those mischievous eyes. He truly has no clue what you're up to, that is, until you bring your lips to the bulge in his jeans.
You place the softest kiss on his clothed hard-on, earning a groan from him.
Now he knows what you're trying to do.
He juts his hand out, holding you firm by your shoulder.
"You ain't gotta do that, sweetheart." Joel says softly, probably the softest you've ever heard him say anything.
Your body erupts in goosebumps when you hear the endearing pet name slip so effortlessly from his lips.
"I want toābeen wanting to since, like, forever." You murmur, nuzzling your cheek against his inner thigh.
Joel wasn't sure what to think right now.
His past romantic experiences taught him that blowjobs were a hassle for womenāsomething that they did only if they felt they had to.
But here you were, looking up at him with those wide eyes and wanting nothing more than his dick in your mouth.
You surprise him everyday.
His dick has literally never been harder, especially when you finally start unzipping his pants to let it spring free.
You gaze up at him again, waiting for his green light.
Joel had one hand white-knuckling the edge of the bed, while the other gently caressed the side of your head.
He offers a short nod of approval, already trying not to come just by the sight of his cock so close to your face.
You waste absolutely no time in grabbing the base of his dick with both hands, gingerly licking at his tip to warm him up.
Joel throws his head back, groaning at the feeling.
You tilt it up so you can drag your tongue all the way up his shaft, then bring your mouth down on his tip.
"Fuck," Joel curses, his eyes squeezing shut for a moment before snapping back open, not being able to look away from you.
Tears are falling from your eyes the farther you go down on him, the sensation of his head poking the back of your throat was making you dizzy.
But you don't stop. You're eager to please.
Your hands pump at the length you can't reach, while your warm mouth and tongue swirl around him.
You're too good at this, and Joel knows he's not gonna last long.
He can't help it when his hand in your hair turns into a fist, tightly gripping the strands like he was afraid you might go somewhere.
You moan when he accidentally pulls your hair forwards, forcing you deep on his cock. You bet he didn't even realize what he just did, based on the way his chest was heaving and his face looked so lost in pleasure.
You gag and more tears spill from your eyes, but you don't even dream about lifting off. If Joel was getting off on this, you were going to do more of it.
You moan, still keeping his cock in your mouth as you try to go even deeper down on it.
"Oh fuckā" Joel suddenly yanks your mouth off his cock, breathing heavily as he stares down at you.
You cough and sputter at the loss, looking up at him with that same fucked out expression you had last time.
"Why?" You manage to whine, wondering why he stopped you before he came.
Joel doesn't answerāinstead he picks you up by your armpits and places you on the bed.
The quick change almost gives you whiplash, but Joel's surprisingly steady and husky voice guides you.
"On your stomach, pretty girl." He mutters as he taps your leg in a gesturing manner.
...Was he trying to kill you with that bedroom voice of his?
A whimper crawls its way out of your throat, your body having an audible reaction to his sweet words.
You flip over onto your stomach, instantly arching your back for him.
Being the impatient man he was, he rips your panties and throws them to the side in a lust-driven blur.
You literally didn't even care. Sure, they were new, but you'd just find another pair. The only two thoughts in your mind right now was Joel and Joel's dick.
Something warm and soft prods at your entrance before slipping to wedge between your folds, gathering up your slick.
You try to push back on it, but Joel holds you still, making you lose the rest of the small amount of composure you had left.
"Joelpleasefuckme," You sob, your cunt weeping for his cock. "need you so bad it hurts,"
You reach back, your hand finding his that was holding your hip and squeezing it.
Joel didn't want to admit to himself how much he loved the neediness in your voice, your obvious desperation made him harder.
"M'gettin' there, don't gotta beg me baby." He mutters, his hand that you grabbed intertwining with your fingers. His other hand was rubbing circles in the skin around your hips.
You feel that same sensation of his tip, but then Joel also brings his chest down to engulf your back.
You're already trembling, but when he begins to pepper kisses down the nape of your neck and back, all while slowly sheathing himself inside your pussy...
You effectively lose your mind.
"OhFUCKJoelloveitsomuch," You blabber, not having enough strength to hold yourself up anymore so your head drops into a pillow, muffling your moans.
Effortlessly, he pulls you back up so that your back is flush with his chest, his one arm wrapped around your stomach to keep you secure.
You rest the back of your head on his shoulder as she starts rocking into you, letting your body go limp because you know he's got you.
"Can you take it or do I need'a stop?" He asks, his tone making you dizzier.
You frantically nod, turning your head to the side to look at him. "I can take it, promise I can," you muster out between moans. "please don't stopāwant your cock in me forever-"
Joel chuckles.
God, he really never stood a chance against you.
"I don't know about forever sweet thing, but I'll see what I can do for tonight, yeah?"
You giggle airily, like you weren't all there, nodding your head in acknowledgement. Your eyes are closed for a second but you feel his lips on yours, hungrily taking whatever they wanted.
You passionately return his kiss, mewling into it because his lips paired with the slow thrust of his dick was enough to drive you crazy.
The stretch of his cock is as close to heaven as you're ever gonna get.
His speed picks up which means your moans get louder, and Joel has no choice put to bring his other hand up and cover your mouth.
There's still a party going on downstairs, after all.
"Gotta be quieter baby," he pants, even though he's not slowing down his speed at all.
You whine into his hand, surprisingly loving the feeling of it because it's like he's swallowing you whole.
You feel that tight coil in your stomach slowly start to come undone, and you know you won't last long now. You try to tell Joel, but his hand is muffling your noises.
All the sudden, he speaks in your earāhis voice low and raspy. "Don't want you doin' this with anyone else, hear me?"
...Well.
You weren't expecting that.
His words probably made you soak the sheets because of how wet you became.
He sounded so stern when he said it too, making your heart flutter even more.
You nod, tears pouring from your eyes. He lets his hand off your mouth for a moment and you immediately jump at the opportunity to speak.
"Only want you, only ever wanted you, Joelām'all yours, always been yours," You mewl after gasping for air, your body jolting with each of his deep thrusts.
"Fuck," Joel swears, quickly but carefully putting you down only to flip you over onto your back. Now in missionary, he buries himself all the way inside you again before dropping down so your faces are centimeters apart. "All mine, huh?" Joel reiterates, and you can't tell if he's mocking you or maybe asking for clarification.
Probably the ladder.
You agree nonetheless, a string of yes's spilling from your mouth.
"Yeah, just for me." He pants, slamming into you with more vigor than before. Your cunt is constricting around him like a vice, he'sānot planning to last much longer either.
"M'gonna cum," you whine, wrapping your arms around his shoulders for support.
When Joel hears this, he drops a hand down to rub at your clit, making you come undone altogether.
"Ohfuckohfuckohfuck waitwait Joel-" You feel something..unique boiling, but then Joel's expert fingers release the flood gates.
You scream as you squirt all over his cock, your entire body writhing with the overstimulating pleasure.
Your juices soak him. When he see's this, he comes immediately.
He groans as he finishes inside you, unloading into your snug cunt. The feeling is incomparable for the both of you.
Once the haze of perfect pleasure dissipates, Joel realizes what he's just done.
"Shit," he grits, pulling out and watching his seed drip from your hole. "Fuck."
You manage to sit up on your elbows, looking up at him with teary eyes. "Don't worry," Your voice is quiet and crackedāyou just had the squirt fucked out of you, after all. "I've been on the pill since we had sex the first time."
Joel looks down at you, stupefied.
Eventually, he feels his heart start beating again and huffs out a sigh of relief. "Thank christ." He leans back against the headboard, raking a hand through his hair and thinking about how that was a fucking close one.
You're lying next to him, still trying to catch your breath. "That felt so good," You manage to murmur, your body still shivering from the after shocks.
After you catch your breath, you turn your head to look up at him. "M'serious about what I said, about bein' yours."
He looks at you and your serious face for a moment, then brings his hand down to gently ruffle the top of your head.
"Yeah, I know you are." His texan drawl prominent.
"I'd let you brand me with a fire poker if thats what you wanted." You say flatly, no joking tone in your voice whatsoever.
Joel is taken back by the sudden jump in intensity, assessing you to make sure you were being for real.
You were, and when he realizes this, he shakes his head. "You've lost your damn mind." He grunts, dragging a hand down his face.
You shrug.
"I think a ring would do the trick." Joel mutters, not meaning for it to have some kind of underlying message or anything. But you're quick to jump to conclusions.
"A ring?" You squeal, moving to lay on his chest which earns a huff from him. "Didn't know we were already goin' steady like that, Miller!" You tease, the giddiest smile on your face.
"I didn't meanāquit. You know what I was sayin'." Joel grunts, looking at you with an unamused expression.
You don't quit though.
"My ring finger is a size 6, would love 2 carats but if you can swing for 3 that would be perfectāalso, I hate silver bands, it has to be goldābut make sure it's not that super yellow fake gold, I like more rustic looks, I mean, if that wasn't obvious-" You cast him a glance, alluding to the fact that he was rustic looking.
Joel rolls his eyes before gently nudging you off him, getting off the bed and walking over to your clothes that you discarded a long time ago.
You continue rambling from your position on the sheets, staring up at the ceiling as you recited, in extreme detail, how you loved oval shaped diamonds the most.
He walks back over and manhandles you to sit up. "Lift up your arms." He mutters, putting your sweater back on you.
"Hm, gettin' some serious deja vu right now." You murmur, smiling up at him.
"Yeah, yeah, hush." He grumbles before sliding your tights and skirt back on as well.
The act is so kind and heartwarming. You mumble a thank you before standing up, almost falling back down because your legs were still a bit weak.
Joel made a motion like he would've caught you, reaching his arms out. "Careful." He warns, planting a hand on your lower back for stability. You giggle and nod, regaining your ability to walk slowly but surely.
You guys tried to discretely walk back down the stairs, but with Joel's hand on your back and your happy expression--it wasn't hard for people to guess what happened.
***
A couple days had passed since Tommy and Maria's party.
You were finishing up some hand-made Christmas cards on your desk when you heard a knock at your door.
"Coming!" You shout, leisurely making your way to the front door.
When you open it, no one's there. You look around, only seeing a familiar male figure walking away in the distance. When you step outside to shout after him, you feel yourself kick something.
Upon looking down, a small velvet box lays at your feet.
You pick it up carefully, opening it to reveal a gold ring placed so delicately inside. The small note inside reads:
Merry Christmas. -Scrooge
#smut#joel miller x reader#joel miller smut#joel miller#joel tlou#the last of us hbo#the last of us#tlou fanfiction#drabble#I need him so carnally
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The mothman bit gives me life xD oh hey, what's Drift up to while the bois are having their hellish excursion?
Anon asked: Come on canon Vox and Alā¦YOUāRE SO CLOSE! Just look at your AU selves, that can be you again if you just try!
Just talk to each other; the AU versions are still you guys after all. If you can learn to like them, get so close, and comfortable with them then anything is possible for you and your fellow canon counterpart!
Anon asked: I'm gonna need human Alastor to have a word or two with demon Alastor. After all, Vox's "everything you did" implies that Alastor is the reason why they're no longer friends in the demonverse.
@a-lien-kai asked: now that I'm up to date on the au, can I ask to see more of the Vox fights, they are so funny, exactly like that pokemon short, it is so funny, i love them so much! Heck, i would love to see the Alastors interact some more too :] <3
@grownupchangeling asked: Your AU!Vox asking canon Vox what happened with him and canon Alastor? Like, not in the comic you just posted, but in the canon timeline
Okay, there were a looooot of asks, so if I missed one Iām sorry. Hereās the last of the AU\Canon asks bits for a little while X)
The real question is who is unintentionally playing the boss music.
Thanks for all the asks, everyone!
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel au#ask reply#ask#art#hazbin hotel vox#vox#hazbin vox#reply#hazbin hotel art#hazbin hotel alastor#human alastor#alastor#human vox#hazbin hotel oc#one sided radiostatic#radiostatic#radiosilence#voxal#vox x alastor#staticlovetune#charlie morningstar#angel dust#husk#niffty#vaggie#hazbin hotel comic
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I'm here to confess a crazy fantasy... with the possibility of experiencing it.
I've had a rapevand gangrape kink for as long as I can remember.
I've been part of many gangbangs, bondage gangbangs and cnc play as well as two gangbangs without a safeword - however with men I knew. None of this has quite satisfied the rape/gangrape desires.
Their is a neighborhood near me that quote notorious for gang activity and on a list of no-go areas for women not just at night but at any time.
I have been issues a task by my Dom (with no consequences for failing or succeeding) to put on something short and revealing and go for a walk through this neighborhood which is virtually guaranteed to have me gang raped... the thought makes me both soaking wet and terrified at the same time.
Please help a 27f figure it out.
There is a dodgy neighborhood nearby and he has a fantasy of making me walk through there at night in a short dress and heels and it sounds so scary but makes me so aroused at the same time.
anything is possible if you just commit. if you simply black out all the fear, the nervousness, the anxieties, what's left? the desire. keeping your true self locked away isn't gonna get you what you need. if you wanna be raped for real, then you gotta go and get it.
besides, isn't that what your owner would want? wouldn't you do anything just to please them?
LETS MAKE A DEAL.
IF THIS POST GETS 30 NOTES IN THE NEXT HOUR, YOU HAVE TO DO IT. AND IF YOU DO IT, YOU HAVE TO SEND ANOTHER ASK AND TELL EVERYONE ON MY BLOG WHAT HAPPENED.
#repulsiveanon#r@pe fantasy#cnc free use#cnc k!nk#r@pe b@it#r@pe kink#r@pe k1nk#r@pe play#r4p3 kink#r@pe#r@pe k!nk
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So, in the My Friendly Neighborhood universe, puppets and humans co-exist.
Seeing a sentient puppet seems to be as normal as seeing a stray cat. Nothing weird there.
We know this because of the way Gordon reacts to Ricky, because of how, in one of the newspapers, the token human actor talks about them as if they were thier own people and not costumes ir props, and because of how they weren't allowed to watch TV while they were on production.
There was no twisted experimentation, no strange rituals, or anything or the sort. They just are.
Which makes the game even sadder for them.
These were living sentient creatures that got no experience in the real world because they weren't allowed to, but they still got abandoned when their show was canceled. Nobody stayed behind or came back to check on them every now and then. Nobody came to guide them through the world outside and teach them how to deal with it (they could already tell right from wrong, as implied on Ricky's dialogue: "...it was mean... it felt like we were dying..." they just didn'thave the means to deal with that level of mean), nobody was there to tell them that, yeah, it sucked, but it was going to be alright...
But I think that's part of the point. People on the mfn universe got a survivor attitude. The general sentiment is that kindness and friendliness are harmful because, to survive, you need to put yourself first and stop caring about others, so, under these circumstances, it's understandable the crew would just left them there on their own; it was easier than helping them adapt to the real world. If they face reality, they should deal with it themselves. And so they did.
And that's the nice part.
Though some of them got twsited beyond repair, others (specifically Ricky, for the purpose of this... mini essay) understood that people needed hope and light in their lives. He (along with others, maybe) saw the darkness and doom of the real world and eventually and was like, "Nah, let's fix that."
Did he orchestrate the events of the game by broadcasting knowing that maybe someone would come and then subtly guiding them?"
Possibly.
And, if that was the case, it worked:
One of the things I take from the game is that, yeah, things can be pretty bad, but we can always choose kindness, we can chose to be a good neighbor, orbat least try. even after seeing how bad things can be.
(Hey, I never said that was easy. It just how it is)
#my friendly neighborhood#mfn game#ricky the sock#ricky mfn#what happened? this was gonna be a short post???#it's like 2am... am I rven coherent?
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never change, man !
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Double Indemnity, Veritas Ratio and Aventurine
This was originally a part of my compilation post as a short analysis on the Double Indemnity references, linking to this great thread by Manya on Twitter. However, I've recently watched the movie and found that the parallels run much deeper than just the mission name and the light cone itself, plus as the short synopsis I've read online. Since there isn't really an in-depth attempt at an analysis on the film in relation to the way Aventurine and Ratio present themselves throughout Penacony, I thought I'd take a stab at doing just that. I will also be bringing up things from Manya's thread as well as another thread that has some extra points.
Disclaimer that I... don't do analyses very often. Or write, in general ā I'm someone who likes to illustrate their thoughts (in the artistic sense) more than write. There's just something about these two that makes me want to rip into them so badly, so here we are. If there's anything you'd like to add or correct me on, feel free to let me know in the replies or reblogs, or asks. This ended up being a rather extensive deep dive into the movie and its influences on the pairing, so please keep that in mind when pressing Read More.
There are two distinct layers on display in Ratio and Aventurine's relationship throughout Penacony, which are references to the two most important relationships in the movie ā where they act like they hate/donāt know each other, and where they trust each other.
SPOILER WARNING for the entire movie, by the way. You can watch the film for free here on archive.org, as well as follow along with the screenplay here. I will also be taking dialogue and such from the screenplay, and cite quotes from the original novel in its own dedicated section. SPOILER WARNING for the Cat Among Pigeons Trailblaze mission, as well.
CONTENT WARNING FOR MENTIONS OF SUICIDE. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.
To start, Double Indemnity (1944) is a film noir by Billy Wilder (and co-written by Raymond Chandler) based on the novel of the same name by James M. Cain (1927). There are stark differences between the movie adaptation and the original novel which I will get into later on in this post, albeit in a smaller section, as this analysis is mainly focused on the movie adaptation. I will talk about the basics (summaries for the movie and the game, specifically the Penacony mission in tandem with Ratio and Aventurine) before diving into the character and scene parallels, among other things.
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[THE NAME]
The term "double indemnity" is a clause in which if thereās a case of accidental death of a statistically rare variety, the insurance company has to pay out multiple of the original amount. This excludes deaths by murder, suicide, gross negligence, and natural causes.
The part of the mission in Cat Among Pigeons where Ratio and Aventurine meet with Sunday is named after the movie. And before we get further into things, let's get this part out of the way: The Chinese name used in the mission is the CN title of the movie, so there's no liberties taken with the localization ā this makes it clear that itās a nod to the movie and not localization doing its own thing like with the mission name for Heaven Is A Place On Earth (EN) / This Side of Paradise (äŗŗé“天å ) (CN).
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[SUMMARY OF THE 1944 MOVIE]
Here I summarised the important parts that will eventually be relevant in the analysis related to the game.
Insurance salesman Walter Neff, wounded from a gunshot, enters his office and confesses his crime on a dictaphone to his boss Barton Keyes, the claims manager. Much earlier, he had met Phyllis Dietrichson, the wife of Mr. Dietrichson and former nurse. Neff had initially wanted to meet Mr. Dietrichson because of car insurance. Phyllis claims her husband is mean to her and that his life insurance goes to his daughter Lola. With Neff seduced by Phyllis, they eventually brew up a scheme to murder Mr. Dietrichson in such a way that they activate the "double indemnity" clause, and the plan goes off almost perfectly. Initially, the death is labeled a suicide by the president of the company, Norton.ļæ½ļæ½
Keyes finds the whole situation suspicious, and starts to suspect Phyllis may have had an accomplice. The label on the death goes from accidental, to suicide, to then murder. When itās ruled that the husband had no idea of the accidental policy, the company refuses to pay. Neff befriends Phyllisā stepdaughter Lola, and after finding out Phyllis may have played a part in the death of her fatherās previous wife, Neff begins to fear for Lola and himself, as the life insurance would go all towards her, not Phyllis.
After the plan begins to unravel as a witness is found, it comes out that Lolaās boyfriend Nino Zachette has been visiting Phyllis every night after the murder. Neff goes to confront Phyllis, intending to kill her. Phyllis has her own plans, and ends up shooting him, but is unable to fire any more shots once she realises she did love him. Neff kills her in two shots. Soon after telling Zachette not to go inside the house, Neff drives to his office to record the confession. When Keyes arrives, Neff tells him he will go to Mexico, but he collapses before he could get out of the building.
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[THE PENACONY MISSION TIMELINE]
I wonāt be summarising the entirety of Aventurine and Ratioās endeavours from the beginning of their relationship to their final conversation in Heaven Is A Place On Earth the same way as I summarised the plot of the movie, so I will instead present a timeline. Bolded parts means they are important and have clear parallels, and texts that are in [brackets] and italics stand for the names of either the light cone, or the mission names.
[Final Victor] Their first meeting. Ratioās ideals are turned on its head as he finally meets his match.
Several missions happen in-between their first encounter and the Penacony project. They come to grow so close and trusting with each other that they can guess, understand each otherās thoughts, way of thinking and minds even in high stakes missions. Enough to pull off the Prisonerās Dilemma (Aventurineās E1) and Stag Hunt Game (Aventurineās E6) and come out on top.
Aventurine turns towards Ratio for assisting him in the Penacony project. Ratio's involvement in the project is implied to be done without the knowledge of Jade, Topaz, and the IPC in general, as he was only sent to Penacony to represent the Intelligentsia Guild, and the two other Stonehearts never mention Ratio.
Aventurine and Ratio cook up the plan to deceive Sunday before ever setting foot on Penacony. Aventurine does not tell Ratio the entirety of his plan.
Aventurine convinces Topaz and Jade to trust him with their Cornerstones. Aventurine also breaks his own Cornerstone and hides it along with the jade within a bag of gift money.
[The Youth Who Chase Dreams] They enter Penacony in the Reverie Hotel. Aventurine is taken to the side by Sunday and has all his valuables taken, which includes the gift money that contains the broken aventurine stone, the jade, and the case containing the topaz.
Aventurine and Ratio speak in a āprivateā room about how Aventurine messed up the plan. After faking an argument to the all-seeing eyes of Sunday, Ratio leaves in a huff.
Ratio, wearing his alabaster head, is seen around Golden Hour in the (Dusk) Auction House by March 7th.
[Double Indemnity] Ratio meets up with Sunday and āexposesā Aventurine to him. Sunday buys his ābetrayalā, and is now in possession of the topaz and jade. Note that this is in truth Ratio betraying Sunday all along.
Ratio meets up with Aventurine again at the bar. Ratio tells Aventurine Sunday wants to see him again.
They go to Dewlight Pavilion and solve a bunch of puzzles to prove their worth to Sunday.
They meet up with Sunday. Sunday forces Aventurine to tell the truth using his Harmony powers. Ratio cannot watch on. It ends with Aventurine taking the gift money with his Cornerstone.
[Heaven Is A Place On Earth] They are in Golden Hour. Ratio tries to pry Aventurine about his plan, but Aventurine reins him in to stop breaking character. Ratio gives him the Mundaniteās Insight before leaving. This is their final conversation before Aventurineās grandest death.
Now how exactly does the word ādouble indemnityā relate to their mission in-game? What is their payout? For the IPC, this would be Penacony itself ā Aventurine, as the IPC ambassador, handing in the Jade Cornerstone as well as orchestrating a huge show for everybody to witness his death, means the IPC have a reason to reclaim the former prison frontier. As for Ratio, his payout would be information on Penaconyās Stellaron, although whether or not this was actually something he sought out is debatable. And Aventurine? Itās highly implied that he seeks an audience with Diamond, and breaking the Aventurine Cornerstone is a one way trip to getting into hot water with Diamond. With Aventurineās self-destructive behaviour, however, it would also make sense to say that death would be his potential payout, had he taken that path in the realm of IX.
Compared to the movie, the timeline happens in reverse and opposite in some aspects. I will get into it later. As for the intended parallels, these are pretty clear and cut:
Veritas Ratio - Walter Neff
Aventurine - Phyllis Dietrichson
Sunday - Mr. Dietrichson
There is one other character who I feel also is represented in Ratio, but I wonāt bring them up until later down the line.
For the sake of this analysis, I wonāt be exploring Sundayās parallel to Mr. Dietrichson, as there isnāt much on Dietrichsonās character in the first place in both the movie and the novel. He just kind of exists to be a bastard that is killed off at the halfway point. Plus, the analysis is specifically hyper focused on the other two.
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[SO, WHATāS THE PLAN?]
To make things less confusing in the long run whenever I mention the words āschemeā and āplanā, I will be going through the details of Phyllis and Neffās scheme, and Aventurine and Ratioās plan respectively. Anything that happens after either pair separate from another isnāt going to be included. Written in a way for the plans to have gone perfectly with no outside problems.
Phyllis and Neff ā> Mr. Dietrichson
Goal: Activate the double indemnity clause by killing Mr. Dietrichson and making it look like a freak train accident
Payout: Twice or more of the face value of the life insurance ($100,000)
Main Actor: Walter NeffĀ Ā |Ā Ā Accomplice: Phyllis Dietrichson
During the entire time until the payout, Phyllis and Neff have to make sure to any outsiders that they look like complete strangers instead of lovers in an affair.
Step-by-step:
Neff convinces Mr. Dietrichson to sign the policy with the clause without him suspecting foul play, preferably with a third party to act as an alibi. This is done discreetly, making Mr. Dietrichson not read the policy closely and being told to just sign.
Neff and Phyllis talk to each other about small details through the phone (specified to be never at Phyllisā own house and never when Neff was in his office) and in the marketplace only, to make their meetings look accidental. They shouldnāt be seen nor tracked together, after all.
Phyllis asks Mr. Dietrichson to take the train. She will be the one driving him to the train station.
On the night of the murder, after making sure his alibi is airtight, Neff sneaks into their residence and hides in their car in the second row seating, behind the front row passenger seat. He wears the same colour of clothes as Mr. Dietrichson.
Phyllis and Mr. Dietrichson get inside the car ā Phyllis in the driverās seat and Mr. Dietrichson in the passenger seat. Phyllis drives. On the way to the train station, she makes a detour into an alley. She honks the horn three times.
After the third honk, Neff breaks Mr. Dietrichsonās neck. The body is then hidden in the second row seating under a rug.
They drive to the train station. Phyllis helps Neff, now posing as Mr. Dietrichson, onto the train. The train leaves the station.
Neff makes it to the observation platform of the parlour car and drops onto the train tracks when nobody else is there.
Phyllis is at the dump beside the tracks. She makes the car blink twice as a signal.
The two drag Mr. Dietrichsonās corpse onto the tracks.
They leave.
When Phyllis eventually gets questioned by the insurance company, she pretends she has no idea what they are talking about and eventually storms off.
Phyllis and Neff continue to lay low until the insurance company pays out.
Profit!
Actual Result: The actual murder plan goes almost smoothly, with a bonus of Mr. Dietrichson having broken a leg. But with him not filing a claim for the broken leg, a witness at the observation platform, and Zachette visiting Phyllis every night after the murder, Keyes works out the murder scheme on his own, but pins the blame on Phyllis and Zachette, not Neff.
Now for Aventurine and Ratio. You can skip this section if you understand how deep their act goes, but to those who need a refresher, hereās a thorough explanation:
Aventurine and Ratio ā> Sunday
Goal: Collect the aventurine stone without Sunday knowing, ruin the dream (and create the grandest death)
Payout: Penacony for the IPC, information on the Stellaron for Ratio, a meeting with Diamond / death for Aventurine
Main Actor: AventurineĀ Ā |Ā Ā Accomplice: Veritas Ratio
From the moment they step onto Penacony, they are under Sundayās ever present and watchful eyes. āPrivacyā is a foreign word to The Family. They have to act like they donāt like each otherās company the entire time and feed Sunday information through indirect means so that the eventual ābetrayalā by Ratio seems truthful to Sunday. Despite what it looks like, they are closer than one would ever think, and Ratio would never sell out a person purely for information.
Step-by-step:
After Sunday takes away the bag of gift money and box, Aventurine and Ratio talk in a room in the Reverie Hotel.
Aventurine establishes the Cornerstonesā importance, and how he lost the gift money and the case containing the Cornerstones to Sunday. Ratio turns to leave, saying āsome idiot ruined everythingā, meaning the Cornerstones were vital to their plan. (Note that Ratio is not wearing his alabaster head while saying it to said āidiotā.)
Aventurine then proceeds to downplay the importance of the Cornerstones, stating they are ānothing more than a few rocksā and āwho cares if they are goneā. This lets Sunday know that something suspicious may be going on for him to act like itās nothing, and the mention of multiple stones, and leaves him to look up what a Cornerstone is to the Ten Stonehearts of the IPC.
Ratio points out his absurd choice of outfit, mentioning the Attini Peacock and their song.
Ratio implies that without the aventurine stone, he is useless to the IPC. He also establishes that Aventurine is from Sigonia(-IV), and points out the mark on his neck. To Sunday, this means that Aventurine is shackled to the IPC, and how Aventurine may possibly go through extreme lengths to get the stone back, because a death sentence always looms above him.
Aventurine claims Ratio had done his homework on his background, which can be taken that this is their very first time working together. (It isnāt, and it only takes one look to know that Aventurine is an Avgin because of his unique eyes, so this comment does not make sense even in a āsincereā way, a running theme for the interaction.)
Ratio mentions how the true goal is to reclaim Penacony for the IPC, establishing their ulterior motive for attending the banquet.
Ratio asks if Aventurine went to pre-school in Sigonia after saying trust was reliant on cooperation. Aventurine mentions how he didnāt go to school and how he doesnāt have any parents. He even brings up how friends are weapons of the Avgins. This tells Sunday that the Avgins supposedly are good at manipulation and potentially sees Ratio possibly betraying Aventurine due to his carelessness with his āfriendsā. Sunday would also then research about the Avgins in general (and research about Sigonia-IV comes straight from the Intelligentsia Guild.)
Ratio goes to Dewlight Pavilion in Sundayās Mansion and exposes a part of Aventurineās āplanā. When being handed the suitcase, Ratio opens it up due to his apparent high status in the IPC. He tells Sunday that the Cornerstone in the suitcase is a topaz, not an aventurine, and that the real aventurine stone is in the bag of gift money. This is a double betrayal ā on Aventurine (who knows) and Sunday (who doesnāt). Note that while Ratio is not officially an IPC member in name ā the Intelligentsia Guild (which is run by the IPC head of the Technology Department Yabuli) frequently collaborates with the IPC. Either Aventurine had given him access to the box, or Ratioās status in general is ambiguous enough for Sunday not to question him further. He then explains parts of Aventurineās gamble to Sunday in order to sell the betrayal. Note that Ratio does not ever mention Aventurineās race to Sunday.
Ratio brings Aventurine to Sunday. Aventurine offers help in the investigation of Robin's death, requesting the gift money and the box in return.
Sunday objects to the trade offer. Aventurine then asks for just the bag. A classic car insurance sales tactic. Sunday then interrogates Aventurine, and uses everything Ratio and Aventurine brought up in the Reverie Hotel conversation and their interactions in the Mansion, as well as aspects that Ratio had brought up to Sunday himself.
Aventurine feigns defeat and ignorance enough so that Sunday willingly lets him go with the gift bag. After all is said and done, Aventurine leaves with the gift money, where the Aventurine Cornerstone is stored all along.
Ratio and Aventurine continue to pretend they dislike each other until they go their separate ways for their respective goals and plans. Aventurine would go on to orchestrate his own demise at the hands of Acheron, and Ratioā¦ lurks in the shadows like the owl he is.
Profit!
Actual Result: The plan goes perfectly, even with minor hiccups like Ratio coming close to breaking character several times and Aventurine being sentenced to execution by Sunday.
This is how Sunday uses the information he gathered against Aventurine:
ā¢ Sunday going on a tirade about the way Aventurine dresses and how heās not one to take risks ā Ratioās comment about Aventurineās outfit being peacock-esque and how heās āshort of a feather or twoā. ā¢ āDo you own a Cornerstone?ā ā Ratio talked about the aventurine stone. ā¢ āDid you hand over the Cornerstone to The Family when you entered Penacony?ā ā Aventurine mentioned the box containing the Cornerstones. ā¢ āDoes the Cornerstone you handed over to The Family belong to you?ā ā Aventurine specifically pluralized the word Cornerstone and āa bunch of rocksā when talking to Ratio. ā¢ āIs your Cornerstone in this room right now?ā ā The box in the room supposedly contained Aventurineās own cornerstone, when Aventurine mentioned multiple stones. ā¢ āAre you an Avgin from Sigonia?ā āAventurine mentioned that heās an Avgin, and Ratio brought up Sigonia. ā¢ āDo the Avgins have any ability to read, control, and manipulate oneās own or anotherās minds?ā ā Aventurineās comment on how friends are weapons, as well as Sundayās own research on the Avgins, leading him to find out about the negative stereotypes associated with them. ā¢ āDo you love your family more than yourself?ā ā His lost parents. āAll the Avgins were killed in a massacre. Am I right?ā ā Based on Sundayās research into his background. ā¢ āAre you your clanās sole survivor?ā ā Same as the last point. āDo you hate and wish to destroy this world with your own hands?ā ā Ratio mentioned the IPCās goal to regain Penacony, and Aventurineās whole shtick is āall or nothingā. ā¢ āCan you swear that at this very moment, the aventurine stone is safe and sound in this box?ā ā Repeat.
As seen here, both duos have convoluted plans that involve the deception of one or more parties while also pretending that the relationship between each other isnāt as close as in reality. Unless you knew both of them personally and their histories, there was no way you could tell that they have something else going on.Ā
On to the next point: Comparing Aventurine and Ratio with Phyllis and Neff.
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[NEFF & PHYLLIS ā RATIO & AVENTURINE]
With the short summaries of the movie and the mission out of the way, letās look at Phyllis and Neff as characters and how Aventurine and Ratio are similar or opposite to them.
Starting off with Aventurine and Phyllis. Here is where they are the most similar:
Phyllis is blonde and described as a provocative woman. Aventurine is also a blond and eyes Ratio provocatively in the Final Victor light cone.
Phyllis was put under surveillance after Keyes starts figuring out that the so-called accidental death/suicide may have been a murder after all. Similarly, Aventurine was watched by Sunday the entire time in Penacony.
Phyllis never tells Neff how she's seeing another man on the side to possibly kill him too (as well as how she was responsible for the death of her husbandās previous wife). Aventurine also didn't tell Ratio the entirety of his plan of his own death.
Phyllis puts on a somewhat helpless act at first but is incredibly capable of making things go her way, having everything seemingly wrapped around her finger. Aventurine ā even when putting on a facade that masks his true motives ā always comes out at the top.
Now the differences between Aventurine and Phyllis:
Phyllis does not care about her family and has no issue with killing her husband, his previous wife, and possibly her daughter Lola. Opposite of that, Aventurine is a family manā¦ with no family left, as well as feeling an insane level of survivorās guilt.
Really, Phyllis justā¦ does not care at all about anyone but herself and the money. Aventurine, while he uses every trick in the book to get out on top, does care about the way Jade and Topaz had entrusted him with their Cornerstones, in spite of the stones being worth their lives.Ā
Phyllis also uses other people to her advantage to get what she wants, often behind other people's backs, with the way she treats Neff and Zachette. Aventurine does as well (what with him making deals with the Trailblazer while also making a deal with Black Swan that involves the Trailblazer). The difference here is Phyllis uses her allure deliberately to seduce men while Aventurine simply uses others as pawns while also allowing others to do the same to himself.
Phyllis makes no attempt at compromising the policy when questioned by Norton. Aventurine ends up compromising by only taking the gift money (which is exactly what he needs).
The wig that Barbara Stanwyck (the actress of Phyllis) wore was chosen to make her look as āsleazyā as possible, make her look insincere and a fraud, a manipulator. A sort of cheapness. Aventurineās flashy peacock-esque outfit can be sort of seen as something similar, except the outfit isnāt cheap.
Moving on to Ratioās similarities to Neffā¦ There isnāt much to extrapolate here as Ratio is more of a side character in the grand scheme of Penacony, however this is what Iāve figured out.
Neff has dark hair. Ratio has dark purple hair.
Neff almost never refers to Phyllis by her name when speaking with her, only as ābabyā. The few times he refers to her as Phyllis or Mrs. Dietrichson is during their first conversations and when he has to act like he doesnāt know her. Ratio never calls Aventurine by his name when heās around him ā only as āgamblerā, sometimes ādamnedā or ādearā (EN-only) gambler. Only in the Aventurine's Keeping Up With Star Rail episode does Ratio repeatedly say his name, and yet he still calls him by monikers like āgamblerā or, bafflingly, a āsystem of chaos devoid of logicā.
Both Neff and Ratio committed two betrayals: Neff on Mr. Dietrichson and Keyes, and Ratio on Sunday and Aventurine. With the former cases it was to reach the end of the trolley line, and with the latter it was on a man who had put his trust in him.
As for the differencesā¦
Neff is described as someone whoās not smart by his peers. Ratio is someone who is repeatedly idolised and put on a pedestal by other people.
Neff is excellent at pretending to not know nor care for Phyllis whenever he speaks about her with Keyes or when he and she are in a place that could land them in hot water (the office, the mansion when there are witnesses). His acting is on the same level as Phyllis. With Ratio itāsā¦ complicated. While he does pull off the hater act well, he straight up isnāt great at pretending not to care about Aventurineās wellbeing.
Instead of getting his gunshot wound treated in the hospital like a normal person, Neff makes the absolutely brilliant decision of driving to his office and talking to a dictaphone for hours. Needless to say, this is something a medical doctor like Ratio would never do.
Now here's the thing. Though it's very easy to just look at Phyllis and Neff in the movie and go "okay, Aventurine is Phyllis and Ratio is Neff ā end of story" and leave it at that, I find that they both take from the two leads in different ways. Let me explain. Beginning with Aventurine and Neffā¦
Neff is the one who hatches the plan and encourages Phyllis to go through and claim the double indemnity clause in the first place. He is also the key player of his own risky plan, having to fake being the husband to enter the train as well as fake the death. Aventurine puts himself at great risk just by being in Sundayās presence, and hoping that Sunday wouldnāt figure out that the green stone he had uncovered wasnāt the aventurine stone.
Adding onto the last point, Neff had fantasised about pulling off the perfect murder for a long time ā the catalyst was simply him meeting Phyllis. Aventurine presumably sought out Ratio alone for his plan against Sunday.
Neff makes a roulette wheel analogy and talks about a pile of blue and yellow poker chips (the latter in the script only). I donāt even have to explain why this is relevant here. (Aventurineās Ultimate features a roulette wheel and the motif is on his belt, thigh strap, and back, too. And of course, Aventurine is all about his chips.)
Neff has certain ways to hide when heās nervous, which include hiding his hands in his pockets when they were shaking, putting on glasses so people couldnāt see his eyes. Aventurine hides his left hand behind his back when heās nervous: Future Aventurine says that "they don't know the other hand is below the table, clutching [his] chips for dear life", and in multiple occasions such as the Final Victor LC, his character trailer, and even in his boss form in the overworld you can see that Aventurine hides his left hand behind his back. And he is also seen with his glasses on sometimes.
Neff says a bunch of stuff to make sure that Phyllis acts her part and does not act out of character (i.e. during their interactions at the market), like how Aventurine repeatedly tries to get Ratio back on track from his subpar acting.
Neff is always one step ahead of the game, and the only reason the plan blows up in his face is due to outside forces that he could not have foreseen (a witness, Keyes figuring out the plan, the broken leg). Aventurine meanwhile plays 5D chess and even with the odds against him, he uses everything he can to come out on the top (i. e. getting Acheron to kill him in the dream).
Even after coming home on the night of the murder, Neff still felt that everything could have gone wrong. Aventurine, with his blessed luck, occasionally wavers and fears everything could go wrong whenever he takes a gamble.
Neff was not put under surveillance by Keyes due to him being extensive with his alibi. After witnessing Robinās death with eyewitnesses at the scene, the Family had accepted Aventurineās alibi, though he would be under watch from the Bloodhounds according to Ratio.
Neff talks about the entire murder scheme to the dictaphone. Aventurine during Cat Among Pigeons also retells his plan, albeit in a more convoluted manner, what with his future self and all.
Continuing with Ratio and Phyllis, even with their personalities and motivations being quite different, they do have a few commonalities.
Phyllis was a nurse. Ratio is a medical doctor.
Her name is Greek of origin. Veritas Ratio, though his name is Latin, has Greco-Roman influences throughout his entire character.
The very first scene Phyllis appears in has her wearing a bath towel around her torso. Ratio loves to take baths to clear his mind.
Phyllis was instructed by Neff to be at the market every morning at eleven buying things. Ratio is seen in an auction house with his alabaster head on so no one could recognize him.
Phyllis mostly acts as an accomplice to the scheme, being the one to convince her husband to take the train instead. She is also generally seen only when Neff is involved. Ratio plays the same role as well, only really appearing in the story in relation to Aventurine as well as being the accomplice in Aventurineās own death. Even him standing in the auction house randomly can be explained by the theory that he and Aventurine had attempted to destabilise Penaconyās economy through a pump and dump scheme.
With these pointers out of the way, letās take a closer look at select scenes from the film and their relation to the mission and the pair.Ā
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[THE PHONE CALL ā THE REVERIE HOTEL]
Before the murder, there is a scene with a phone call between Phyllis and Neff discussing the plan while Keyes is in the same room as Neff. Neff has to make sure that Keyes doesnāt think of anything of the phone call, so he acts like heās calling a āMargieā, and says a bunch of stuff that sounds innocent out of context (āCanāt I call you back, āMargieā?ā āWhat color did you pick out?ā āNavy blue. I like that fineā), but are actually hinting at the real plan all along (the suit that Mr. Dietrichson wears.)
In a roundabout way, the conversation between Ratio and Aventurine in the Reverie Hotel can be seen as the opposite of that scene ā with the two talking about their supposed plan out loud on Penacony ground, a place where the Family (and in turn, Sunday) has eyes everywhere. Despite being in a āprivateā room, they still act like they hate each other while airing out details that really do not make sense to air out if they really did meet the first time in Penacony (which they didnāt ā theyāve been on several missions beforehand). Itās almost like they want a secret third person to know what they were doing, instead of trying to be hushed up about it. The TVs in the room that Sunday can look through based on Inherently Unjust Destiny ā A Moment Among The Stars, the Bloodhound statue that disappears upon being inspected, the owl clock on the left which side eyes Ratio and Aventurine, all point to that Sunday is watching their every move, listening to every word.
Rewinding back to before the phone call, in one of the encounters at the marketplace where they āaccidentallyā run into each other, Phyllis talks about how the trip was off. How her husband wouldnāt get on the train, which was vital for their plan, because of a broken leg. All this, while pretending to be strangers by the passersby. You could say that the part where Ratio almost leaves because Aventurine had āruined the planā is the opposite of this, as the husband breaking his leg was something they couldnāt account for, while Aventurine ābeing short of a few feathersā was entirely part of the plan.
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[QUESTIONING PHYLLIS ā THE INTERROGATION]
This section is going to be a little longer as I will cover two scenes in the movie in a more detailed manner ā Mr. Dietrichson signing the policy, and Phyllis being questioned ā and how they are represented in the Sunday-Aventurine interrogation and the prior conversation between Ratio and Sunday in multitudes of ways.
Going about their plan, Neff has to make sure that Mr. Dietrichson signs the policy with the double indemnity clause without him knowing the details, all the while having Phyllis (and Lola) in the same room. He and Phyllis have to pretend that they donāt know each other, and that this is just the standard accidental insurance process, instead of signing what would be his downfall. To sell it, he gets Mr. Dietrichson to sign two ācopiesā of the form, except with Mr. Dietrichsonās second signature, heās duped into signing the accident insurance policy with the respective clause.
You can tie this to how Ratio goes to Sunday in order to āexposeā the lie that the suitcase didnāt actually contain the Aventurine Cornerstone, as well as there being more than one Cornerstone involved in the scheme. Ratio must make sure that Sunday truly believes that he dislikes Aventurineās company, while also making sure that Sunday doesnāt figure out the actual aventurine stone is broken and hidden in the gift bag. The scheme turns out to be successful, as Sunday retrieves the two Cornerstones, but not the aventurine stone, and truly does think that the green stone he has in his possession is the aventurine.
This whole scene with Sunday is also reminiscent of the interrogation scene in the middle of the movie, where Phyllis was questioned by the boss (Norton) who was deducing that Mr. Dietrichson's death was a suicide, not accidental death. Neff, Phyllis, Keyes and Norton were all in the same room, and Neff and Phyllis had to act like they never knew the other. Phyllis acts like she knows nothing about what Norton insinuates about her husband and eventually, Phyllis explodes in anger and storms out the room, even slamming the door. Her act is very believable to any outsider.
Now back to the Ratio and Sunday conversation. One glaring difference between the movie and here is that his acting isnāt great compared to either Phyllis nor Neff. It never was throughout the Penacony mission. He even comes very close to breaking character several times, and is even defending Aventurine in a somewhat aggressive manner during his one-on-one conversation with Sunday, as in he literally tells Sunday to see a shrink. Itās very different from the way he was acting in Herta Space Station ā like Ratio cares about Aventurine too much to keep his hands off.
It's also worth pointing out that Neff doesn't speak a word when Phyllis was being interrogated. Similarly, Ratio is silent throughout the entire scene with Sunday and Aventurine, with his only ālineā being a āhmā. When Aventurine calls him a wretch to his face, all he does is look to the side. In fact, he can only look at Aventurine when the other isnāt staring back. Almost like him uttering a single word would give them away. Or his acting is terrible when it has to do with Aventurine, as he has no issue doing the same thing in Crown of the Mundane and Divine (Mundane Troubles).
So, Sunday finds out about the Cornerstones and reveals them to Aventurine, and reasons that he cannot give them back to him because Aventurine had lied. Note that in that same scene, Aventurine attempted to use the two murders that had occurred beforehand against Sunday to retrieve his own cornerstone. Similarly, when it was revealed that Mr. Dietrichson did not know about the accident policy and that the so-called āaccidental deathā was not, in fact, accidental, the insurance company refused to pay out the money.
Unlike the movie, this was all planned, however. The double-crossing by Ratio, the gift money being the only thing required for Aventurineās real plan. All of it was an act of betrayal against Sunday, in the same manner as the meticulous planning as Mr. Dietrichsonās murder ā To sign the policy, get him to take the train, kill him on the way, and to have Neff pose as the husband on the train until the time is right to get off and lay the body on the tracks. A key difference is that they could not have expected their scheme to be busted wide open due to forces outside of their control, while Ratio and Aventurine went straight down the line for the both of them no matter what.
From here on out, we can conclude that the way Ratio and Aventurine present themselves in Penacony to onlookers is in line with Neff and Phyllis.
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[āGOODBYE, BABYā ā FINAL VICTOR]
And now for the (in)famous light cone, Final Victor. The thing that truly kickstarted the Ratio and Aventurine ship in the fanbase, and the partnership between the two in general. Itās a direct reference to the final confrontation between Neff and Phyllis in the movie.
Iāll fire through all the similarities between the two scenes.
During the respective scenes, Aventurine and Phyllis both outsmart their partner one way or the other: Aventurine with his one-sided game of Russian Roulette, and Phyllis hiding her gun underneath the cushions until Neff turned away.
The guns are owned by Phyllis and Aventurine, not Neff and Ratio.
Phyllis couldnāt bring herself to fire any more shots after she realised she truly did love Neff. Ratio could do nothing but watch as Aventurine did what he did ā he couldnāt even pull away if the LC animation is anything to go by him struggling as Aventurine firmly keeps the gun to his chest.
Neff says he doesnāt buy (believe) that Phyllis loved him. She then goes āIām not asking you to buy [ā¦]ā. The LC description has Aventurine ask Ratio āYou donāt believe me?ā, while in the LC animation Ratio straight up says āYou expect me to believe you?ā and Aventurine answering āWhy not, doctor/professor?ā
The visual composition of the LC and the scene are nearly identical, from the lighting to the posing to the way Aventurine looks at Ratio ā Aventurine and Ratio are even wearing different outfits to fit the scene better. The background in the LC is also like the blinders in the movie, just horizontal.
In the shot where Phyllisā face is more visible, the way she looks at Neff is strikingly like the way provocatively looks at Ratio. Even their eyes have a visible shine ā Phyllisā eyes brightly shining the moment she realised she really fell in love with Neff, and Aventurine having just a little light return to his eyes in that specific moment.
And now the differences!
Neff holds the gun in his right hand. Aventurine makes Ratio hold his gun in his left.
Neff is the one who takes the gun from Phyllisā hand. Aventurine is the one who places the gun in Ratioās hand and fires it.
Three gunshots are fired. In the movie, Phyllis shoots the first shot and Neff the second and third. Aventurine unloads the gun and leaves only one bullet for this game of Russian Roulette. He pulls the trigger three times, but they all turn out to be blanks.
Phyllis does not break her faƧade of not smiling until the very last moment where she gets shot. Aventurine is smiling the entire time according to the light cone description, whilst in the animation, itās only when he guides the gun to his chest that he puts it on.
So, you know how Neff meets Phyllis and it all goes off the rails from there. The way Neff goes from a decent guy to willingly involve himself in a murder scheme, having his morals corrupted by Phyllis. His world having been turned upside down the moment he lays eyes on Phyllis in that first meeting. Doesnāt that sound like something that happened with the Final Victor LC? Ratio, a man all about logic and rationality ā a scholar with eight PhDs to his name ā all of that is flipped on its head the moment Aventurine pulls out his gun in their first meeting and forces Ratio to play a game of Russian roulette with him. Aventurine casually gambles using his own life like itās nothing and seemingly without fear (barring his hidden left hand). All or nothing ā and yet Aventurine comes out alive after three blanks. Poetic, considering thereās a consumable in the game called āAll or Nothingā which features a broken chess piece and a poker chip bound together by a tie. The poker chip obviously represents the gambler, but the chess piece specifically stands for Ratio because he plays chess in his character trailer, his Keeping Up With Star Rail episode and his introduction is centred around him playing chess with himself. Plus, the design of the chess piece has golden accents, similar to his own chess set. In the end, Aventurine will always be the final victor.
Furthermore, Neff had deduced that Phyllis wanted to kill her husband and initially wanted no part in it, but in a subsequent visit it was his own idea that they trigger the double indemnity clause for more money. As the movie progresses though, he starts to have his doubts (thanks in part to him befriending Lola) and makes the move to kill Phyllis when everything starts to come to light. Itās strikingly similar to how Ratio initially wanted no part in whatever Aventurine had in mind when they first met, but in the subsequent missions where they were paired up, he willingly goes along with Aventurine's risky plans, and they come to trust each other. Enough so that Aventurine and Ratio can go to Penacony all on their own and put on an act, knowing that nobody inĀ the IPC other than them can enter the Dreamscape. The mutual respect grew over time, instead of burning passionately before quickly fizzling out like in the movie.
Basically, in one scene, three shots (blanks) start a relationship, and in the other, it ends a relationship. In the anan magazine interview with Aventurine, he says himself that āform[ing] an alliance with just one bulletā with Ratio was one of his personal achievements. The moment itself was so impactful for both parties that it was immortalised and turned into a light cone.
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[THE ENDING ā GOLDEN HOUR]
The ending of Double Indemnity that made it into the final cut has Neff continue his confession on the dictaphone until he realised that he wasnāt alone in the room. Keyes had come inside at some point, but none had said a thing, only listening to a dead man speak of his crime. When Neff sees Keyes, they talk for a moment, Neff says he plans on fleeing to Mexico. Keyes does not think he will make it. He tries to leave, only to collapse at the front of the elevator, Keyes following just behind him. Neff attempts to light a cigar but is too weak to do so, so Keyes does it for him.
Parts of the ending can still be attributed to the interrogation scene between Sunday and Aventurine, so Iāll make this quick before moving on to the conversation in Heaven Is A Place On Earth, Ratio and Aventurineās final conversation together. Once Sunday mentions how quickly Aventurine gave up the suitcase, he inflicts the Harmonyās consecration on him, which forces Aventurine to confess everything that Sunday asks of. In a way, itās the opposite of what happens in the movie ā where Neff willingly tells the truth about the murder to his coworker. Aventurine does not like Sunday, and Neff is close to Keyes. Ratio also does not speak, similarly to how Keyes didnāt speak and stood silently off to the side.
Post-interrogation in Golden Hour, Ratio worriedly prods at Aventurine and asks him about his plan. He then gives him the Mundaniteās Insight with the Doctorās Advice inside when Aventurine tells him to leave. Throughout Heaven Is A Place On Earth, Aventurine gets weaker and his head starts to buzz, until he falls to the ground before he can hand in the final gems. Similarly, Neff progressively grows weaker as he records his confession. Keyes says heās going to call a doctor and Neff says heās planning to go to Mexico. And when Neff collapses near the elevator, they talk one final time and Keyes lights Neffās cigar as the other was too weak to do so himself.
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[OPPOSITE TIMELINES AND DEVELOPMENTS]
Remember how I said the way certain events happen in the movie and the game are mostly opposite and reverse of one another?Ā
The Final Victor LC is the first meeting of Ratio and Aventurine, and Neff killing Phyllis is their final meeting.
Between that first and last meeting between Phyllis and Neffās whirlwind romance, their relationship becomes strained which ultimately leads to Neff not trusting whatever Phyllis has to say at the end point of the movie. As for Ratio and Aventurine, the exact opposite had happened, to the point where Ratio trusts Aventurine enough to go along with his plans even if they went against his own ideals. The basis of the mission involved Veritas Ratio, whose full name includes the Latin word for ātruthā, lying the entire time on Penacony.
Aventurine is sentenced to the gallows by Sunday after his unwilling interrogation. The movie starts and ends with Neff willingly confessing everything to Keyes.
It bears repeating, but I have to make it so clear that the trust between Ratio and Aventurine runs incredibly deep. Being able to predict what your partner says and thinks and plans in a mission as critical as the Penacony project is not something first-time co-workers can pull off flawlessly. All the while having to put on masks that prevent you from speaking sincerely towards one another lest you rat yourselves out. You have no way of contacting outside reinforcements from within Penacony, as the rest of the IPC are barred from entering. To be able to play everybody for fools while said fools believe you yourselves have handed your case on a silver platter requires a lot ā trust, knowledge of the other, past experience, and so on. With Phyllis and Neff, the trust they had had been snuffed out when Neff grew closer to Lola and found out what kind of person Phyllis truly was on the inside. Phyllis did not trust nor love Neff enough and was going behind his back to meet with Zachette to possibly take Neff and Lola out. And the whole reason Neff wanted to perpetrate the murder was due to him being initially taken by Phyllis' appearance, which single handedly got the ball rolling on the crime.
Now then, how come trust is one of the defining aspects of Aventurine and Ratioās relationship, when Phyllis and Neffās trust eventually lead to both their deaths at the hands of the other? Sure, this can be explained away with the opposite theory, but thereās one other relationship involving Neff which I havenāt brought up in excruciating detail yet. The other side of Ratio and Aventurineās relationship.
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[NEFF & KEYES ā AVENTURINE & RATIO]
Here is where it gets more interesting ā while Phyllis and Neff are at the centre point of the movie, there is another character to whom Neff has a close relationship with ā Keyes. Itās also the only relationship with no pretences, at least, until the whole murder thing happened and Neff had to hide his involvement from Keyes. Watching the movie, I couldn't help but feel there was something more to the two than meets the eye. I knew that queer readings of the film existed, but I didn't think too much of them until now. And though Aventurine and Ratio parallel Phyllis and Neff respectively, the fact that they also have traits of their opposite means that it wouldnāt be completely out of the question if parts of their relationship were also influenced by Keyes and Neff on a deeper and personal level. Let me explain.
Keyes and Neff were intimate friends for eleven years and have shown mutual respect and trust towards one another. They understood each other on a level not seen with Phyllis and Neff. Even after hearing Neff confess his crimes through the dictaphone (and eventually standing in the same room while Neff confessed), he still cared for the other man, and stayed with him when Neff collapsed at the front door. The only reason Keyes hadnāt deduced that it was Neff who was behind the murder was because he had his absolute trust in him. Keyes is also Neffās boss, and they are always seen exchanging playful banter when they are on screen together. Neff even says the words āI love you, tooā twice in the movie ā first at the beginning and second at the end, as the final line. Thereās also the persistent theme of Neff lighting Keyesā cigarettes (which happens in every scene where they are face-to-face), except in the end where itās Keyes who lights Neffās.
Doesnāt that sound familiar? Mutual respect, caring too much about the other person, the immense amount of trustā¦ Ratio says heās even the manager of the Penacony project (which may or may not be a lie), and despite their banter being laced with them acting as āenemiesā, you can tell that in Dewlight Pavilion pre-Sunday confrontation that Aventurine genuinely likes Ratioās company and believes him to be a reliable person. From the way he acts carefree in his words to the thoughts in his head, as seen in the mission descriptions for Double Indemnity. Their interactions in that specific mission are possibly the closest thing to their normal way of speaking that we get to see on Penacony.
Not to mention, this is the way Neff describes Keyes. He even says (not in the script) āyou never fooled me with your song and dance, not for a second.ā Apart from the line about the cigar ashes, doesnāt this ring a bell to a certain doctor? āJerkā with a heart of gold?
After solving the puzzle with the statues, Ratio jokingly offers Aventurine to join the Genius Society. Aventurine then goes "Really? I thought youāve given up on that already", and then Ratio says it was, in fact, a joke. Solving the puzzle through brute force has Ratio telling Aventurine that the Council of Mundanites (which Ratio himself is a part of) should consider him a member. In the movie, where the scene with the phone call with Neff and Phyllis reiterating details of their plan happens, Keyes actually offered Neff a better job (specifically a desk job, as Keyesā assistant). The two pairs saw the other as smart, equals, and were invested in each otherās careers one way or another.
Because of all this, the character parallels for this side of the relationship are as follows:
Aventurine - Walter Neff
Veritas Ratio - Barton Keyes
With the way Iāve talked about how Aventurine and Ratio take from both leads in terms, it does fit to say that Aventurine is Neff, and Ratio is Keyes in this layer of their relationship. Since weāre on the topic of Keyes, let me also go through some similarities with him and Ratio specifically.
Keyes says the words ādimwitted amateursā in his first on-screen conversation with Neff. You canāt have Dr. Ratio without him talking about idiocy in some way.
Keyes almost only appears in the movie in relation to Neff, and barring a single interaction in Neffās house, is also only seen in the office. Same with Phyllis, Ratio also only ever appears regarding Aventurine.
Keyes genuinely wanted the best for Neff, even offering to celebrate with him when he thought the case truly had been busted wide open by forces when Zachette entered the picture. You could say the same for Ratio, as he hoped that Aventurine wouldnāt dwell on the past according to his response on Aventurineās Interview, as well as telling him to āstay alive/live on (CN)ā and wishing him the best of luck in his Doctorās Advice note.
Whether or not you believe that there was more going on with Neff and Keyes is up to you, but what matters is that the two were very close. Just like Ratio and Aventurine.
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[THE ORIGINAL FILM ENDING]
Something that I hadnāt seen brought up is the original ending of Double Indemnity, where Neff is executed in a gas chamber while Keyes watches on, shocked, and afterwards leaves somberly. The ending was taken out because they were worried about the Hays Code, but I felt it was important to bring it up, because in a way, you can kind of see the Sunday interrogation scene as Sunday sending Aventurine to his death in seventeen system hours. And Ratio doesnāt speak at all in that scene, and Keyes doesnāt either according to the script.
Another thing thatās noteworthy is that Wilder himself said āthe story was about the two guysā in Conversations with Wilder. The two guys in question are Keyes and Neff.
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[THE NOVEL]
With the original film ending covered, now it is time to bring up the novel by James M. Cain. I bought the book just to read about the differences between the adaptation and the original source material, and to list a few more similarities and opposites I could gather. For this section alone, due to the changes in the (last) names of certain characters, I will be referring to Walter Huff (Neff in the movie) as Walter, and Mr. Dietrichson as Nirdlinger. The plot is pretty much the same as the movieās apart from a couple of changes so there isnāt a need to recount everything.
From my two read-throughs of the novel, these are the following passages that stood out to me the most. Starting with Aventurine:
Walter, as a top businessman of the company, knows how to sway a deal and to get what he truly wants with what the other gives him. Aventurine is the same, reliant on his intuition, experience and whatever information he has on the table to claim the win. Him luring out Sparkle in Heaven Is A Place On Earth and his conversation with Acheron in the Nihility is indicative of that.
ā¢ "But you sell as many people as I do, you don't go by what they say. You feel it, how the deal is going. And after a while I knew this woman didn't care anything about the Automobile Club. Maybe the husband did, but she didn't. There was something else, and this was nothing but a stall. I figured it would be some kind of a proposition to split the commission, maybe so she could get a ten-spot out of it without the husband knowing. There's plenty of that going on. And I was just wondering what I would say to her."Ā
Phyllis, like in the movie, had been hiding her true intentions of talking to Walter in their first conversations, always saying things that she didnāt actually mean. In a similar vein, Aventurine consistently says stuff but almost never truly means any of it, which is all part of his faƧade.
ā¢ "And I could feel it again, that she wasn't saying what she meant. It was the same as it was the first afternoon I met her, that there was something else, besides what she was telling me. And I couldn't shake it off, that I had to call it on her."
When discussing the murder plan with Phyllis, Walter makes this comment, kind of like how Aventurine seems to operate in a way where he has a plan, but is ready to improvise and think fast when needed.
ā¢ "And then it's one of those things where you've got to watch for your chance, and you can't plan it in advance, and know where you're going to come out to the last decimal point."
Remember the roulette wheel line from the movie? In the novel, the gambling metaphor that Walter makes about the insurance business goes on for two paragraphs, mentioning a gambling wheel, stack of chips, a place with a big casino and the little ivory ball, even about a bet on the table. Walter also talks about how he thinks of tricks at night after being in the business for so long, and how he could game the system. Needless to say, insanely reminiscent of Aventurine.
ā¢ "You think Iām nuts? All right, maybe I am. But you spend fifteen years in the business Iām in, and maybe a little better than that, itās the friend of the widow, the orphan, and the needy in time of trouble? Itās not. Itās the biggest gambling wheel in the world. It donāt look like it, but it is, from the way they figure the percentage on the oo to the look on their face when they cash your chips. You bet that your house will burn down, they bet it wonāt, thatās all. What fools you is that you didnāt want your house to burn down when you made the bet, and so you forget itās a bet. To them, a bet is a bet, and a hedge bet donāt look any different than any other bet. But there comes a time, maybe, when you do want your house to burn down, when the money is worth more than the house. And right there is where the trouble starts." ā¢ "Alright, Iām an agent. Iām a croupier in that game. I know all their tricks, I lie awake thinking up tricks, so Iāll be ready for them when they come at me. And then one night I think up a trick, and get to thinking I could crook the wheel myself if I could only put a plant out there to put down my bet." ā¢ "I had seen so many houses burned down, so many cars wrecked, so many corpses with blue holes in their temples, so many awful things that people had pulled to crook the wheel, that that stuff didnāt seem real to me anymore. If you donāt understand that, go to Monte Carlo or some other place where thereās a big casino, sit at a table, and watch the face of the man that spins the little ivory ball. After youāve watched it a while, ask yourself how much he would care if you went out and plugged yourself in the head. His eyes might drop when he heard the shot, but it wouldnāt be from the worry whether you lived or died. It would be to make sure you didnāt leave a bet on the table, that he would have to cash for your estate. No, he wouldnāt care."
Returning home from the murder, Walter attempted to pray, but was unable to do it. Some time passed and after speaking to Phyllis, he prayed. Aventurine presumably hadnāt done the prayer ever since the day of the massacre, and the first time he does it again, he does it with his child self.
ā¢ "I went to the dining room and took a drink. I took another drink. I started mumbling to myself, trying to get so I could talk. I had to have something to mumble. I thought of the Lord's Prayer. I mumbled that, a couple of times. I tried to mumble it another time, and couldn't remember how it went." ā¢ "That night I did something I hadnāt done in years. I prayed."
Phyllis in the book is much more inclined towards death than her movie version, even thinking of herself as a personification of death. Sheās killed ten other people (including infants) prior to the events of the novel. Something to keep in mind as Aventurine had mentioned several times that he attempted to kill himself in the dream, plus his leadup to his āgrandest deathā. Just like Phyllis, heās even killed at least a few people before, though the circumstances of that were less on his own volition and more so for the sake of his survival (i.e. the death game in the maze involving the 34 other slaves where he was the winner and another time where he murdered his own master). Instead of Phyllis playing the active role of Death towards everybody else, Aventurine himself dances with Death with every gamble, every time his luck comes into play. Danse Macabre.
ā¢ "But thereās something in me, I donāt know what. Maybe Iām crazy. But thereās something in me that loves Death. I think of myself as Death, sometimes." ā¢ "Walter, The time has come. For me to meet my bridegroom [Death]. The only one I ever loved."
Moving on to Ratio:
Walter says several times that itās hard to get along with Keyes, and how he says nice things after getting you all worked up. A hard-headed man to get along with, but damn good at his job. Sound like someone familiar?
ā¢ "That would be like Keyes, that even when he wanted to say something nice to you, he had to make you sore first."Ā ā¢ "It makes your head ache to be around him, but heās the best claim man on the Coast, and he was the one I was afraid of."
Keyes sees Walter as smarter than half the fools in the company. Ratio can only stand the company of Aventurine in regards to the IPC.
ā¢ "Walter, I'm not beefing with you. I know you said he ought to be investigated. I've got your memo right here on my desk. That's what I wanted to tell you. If other departments of this company would show half the sense that you showā" ā¢ "Oh, he confessed. He's taking a plea tomorrow morning, and that ends it. But my point is, that if you, just by looking at that man, could have your suspicions, why couldn't theyā! Oh well, what's the use? I just wanted you to know it."
After going on a rant about the H.S. Nirdlinger case (Phyllisā husband) and how Norton is doing a horrible job, he ends it by saying that itās sheer stupidity. āSupreme idiocyā, anybody?
ā¢ "You canāt take many body blows like this and last. Holy smoke. Fifty thousand bucks, and all from dumbness. Just sheer, willful, stupidity!"
Phyllisā former occupation as a nurse is more elaborated on, including her specialization ā pulmonary diseases. One of Ratioās crowning achievements is curing lithogenesis, the āKing of Diseasesā.
ā¢ "Sheās one of the best nurses in the city of Los Angeles. [ā¦] Sheās a nurse, and she specialized in pulmonary diseases. She would know the time of crisis, almost to a minute, as well as any doctor would."
As for the murder scheme, they talk about it a lot more explicitly in the novel. Specifically, Walter mentions how a single person cannot get away with it and that it requires more people to be involved. How everything is known to the party committing the crime, but not the victim. And most importantly: Audacity.
"Say, this is a beauty, if I do say it myself. I didn't spend all this time in the business for nothing, did I? Listen, he knows all about this policy, and yet he don't know a thing about it. He applies for it, in writing, and yet he don't apply for it. He pays me for it with his own check, and yet he don't pay me. He has an accident happen to him and yet he don't have an accident happen to him. He gets on the train, and yet he don't get on it."
"The first is, help. One person can't get away with it, that is unless they're going to admit it and plead the unwritten law or something. It takes more than one. The second is, the time, the place, the way, all known in advanceāto us, but not him. The third is, audacity. That's the one that all amateur murderers forget. They know the first two, sometimes, but that third, only a professional knows. There comes a time in any murder when the only thing that can see you through is audacity, and I can't tell you why."
"And if we want to get away with it, we've got to do it the way they do it, [ā¦]" "Be bold?" "Be bold. It's the only way."
"I still don't knowāwhat we're going to do." "You'll know. You'll know in plenty of time."
"We were right up with it, the moment of audacity that has to be be part of any successful murder."
It fits the situation that Aventurine and Ratio find themselves in extremely well: For the first pointā Aventurine would not be able to get away with simply airing out details by himself, as that would immediately cast suspicion on him. Having another person accompany him who not only isnāt really a part of the IPC in name (as the IPC and The Family have a strenuous relationship) but would probably be able to get closer to Sunday because of that means they can simply bounce off each other without risking as much suspicion with a one-man army. Which is exactly what Ratio and Aventurine do in the conversations they have on Penacony. Secondly ā they knew how Sunday operates: as a control freak, he leaves no stone unturned, which is how he became Head of the Oak Family, so their acting required them to give off the impression that a. they hated each other, b. Ratio would go against Aventurineās wishes and expose him in return for knowledge, c. there were only the two Cornerstones that were hidden. This would give Sunday the illusion of control, and lead to Sunday to lower his guard long enough for Aventurine to take the gift money in the end. The pair knew this in advance, but not Sunday. And thirdly ā the plan hinged on a high-level of risk. From breaking the Aventurine Cornerstone, to hoping that Sunday wouldnāt find it in the gift bag, to not telling Ratio what the true plan is (meaning Ratio had to figure it out on his own later on), to Sunday even buying Ratioās story, it was practically the only way they could go about it. āCharming audacityā, indeed.
An interesting aspect about the novel is that the ending of the novel is divergent from the movieās final cut and the original ending: Phyllis and Walter commit suicide during a ferry ride to Mexico. The main reason this was changed for the movie was because of the Hays Code, and they wouldnāt allow a double suicide to be screened without reprecussions for criminals. Thereās also a bunch of other aspects that differentiate the novel from the movie (no narration-confession as the confession happens in a hospital, less characterization for Keyes and instead a bigger focus on Lola and her boyfriend, the focus on the murderous aspect of Walter and Phyllisā relationship instead of actual romance, Walter falling in love with Lola (with an unfortunately large age gap attached), etc.)
As for the ending, this wouldnāt even be the first romance media reference related to Aventurine and Ratio where both the leads die, with the other being The Happy Prince and San Junipero (in relation to the EN-only Heaven Is A Place On Earth reference), which I normally would chalk up as a coincidence, though with the opposite line-of-thought I have going on here (and the fact that itās three out of four media references where the couple die at the endā¦), I think itās reasonable to say that Ratio and Aventurine will get that happy ending. Subverting expectations, hopefully.
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[THE HAYS CODE ā LGBT CENSORSHIP IN CHINA]
Iāve brought up the Hays code twice now in the previous two sections, but I havenāt actually explained what exactly it entails.
The Hays Code (also known as the Motion Picture Production Code) is a set of rules and guidelines imposed on all American films from around 1934 to 1968, intended to make films less scandalous, morally acceptable and more āsafeā for the general audiences. Some of the āDonātsā and āBe Carefulsā include but are not limited toā¦
(Donāt) Pointed profanity
(Donāt) Inference of sex perversion (which includes homosexuality)
(Donāt) Nudity
(Be Careful) Sympathy for criminals
(Be Careful) Use of firearms
(Be Careful) Man and woman in bed together
What does this have to do with a Chinese gacha game released in 2023? If you know a little bit about miHoYoās past, you would know that pre-censorship laws being upheld to a much stronger and stricter degree, they had no problem showcasing their gay couples in Guns Girl Z (Honkai Gakuen 2/GGZ) and Honkai Impact 3rd, with the main three being Bronya/Seele, Kiana/Mei (admittedly the latter one is a more recent example, from 2023), and Sakura/Kallen. Ever since the Bronya and Seele kiss, censorship in regards to LGBT content ramped up, causing the kiss to be removed on the CN side, and they had to lay low with the way they present two same-sex characters who are meant to be together. They canāt explicitly say that two female or male characters are romantically involved, but they can lace their dynamics with references for those āin the knowā ā Subtext. Just enough to imply something more but not too much that they get censored to hell and back.
So what Iām getting at is this: The trouble that Double Indemnity had to go through in order to be made while also keeping the dialogue of Phyllis and Neff as flirtatious as they could under the Hays Code among other things is quite similar to the way Ratio and Aventurine are presented as of now. We never see them interact outside of Penacony (at least up until 2.2, when this post was drafted), so we can only infer those interactions specifically until they actually talk without the fear of being found out by Sunday. But, thereās still some small moments scattered here and there, such as when Aventurine goes near Ratio in the Dewlight Pavilion Sandpit, he exclaims that āthe view here is breathtakingā (he can only see Ratioās chest from that distance) and that Ratio could āeasily squash [him] with just a pinchā. Ratio then goes āIf that is your wish, I will do so without a momentās hesitation.ā Not to mention the (in)famous āDoctor, youāre huge!ā quote.
Itās not a coincidence that Ratio and Aventurine have three explicit references to romance media (Double Indemnity, Spellbound, Oscar Wildeās The Happy Prince), possibly even four if you take the EN-only Heaven Is A Place On Earth as a reference to Black Mirrorās San Junipero. Itās not a coincidence that the storylines or characters of said references parallel the pairing, from surface-level to deep cuts. Itās not a coincidence that the CN voice actors were asked to ātone it downā by the voice director when it came to their chemistry. Itās not a coincidence that Aventurine has only flirted with (three) men throughout Penacony, even referring to a Bloodhound NPC as a āhunk of a manā inside his thoughts, all the while ignoring Himeko and Robin when it came to their looks ā women who are known across the cosmos with a myriad of adoring fans. There are so many other so-called ācoincidencesā related to the two that you could make an iceberg just based on versions 2.0-2.2 as well as content miHoYo themselves have put out on social media. They absolutely knew what they were doing, and were trying to get their point across through subtle means ā the extent they went to with the Double Indemnity reference while also keeping it under wraps from a āsurfaceā level point of view is proof of this ā the implications are there if you take the time to look for them, and are simply hard to ignore or deny once you do find them.
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[CONCLUSION]
This was supposed to be short considering the other analyses Iāve seen were also pretty short in comparison, but I couldnāt get the movie out of my head and ended up getting carried away in the brainrot. I hope you could follow along with my line of thinking, even with the absurd length of this post, and the thirty-image limit. I tried to supplement context with some links to videos and wiki pages among other sources wherever I can to get around it.
I will end it with this though ā the love in the movie turned out to be fake and a farce, going off track from what was a passionate romance in the beginning because of the murder scheme. Meanwhile, the whole reason why Ratio and Aventurine can pull off whatever they want is because of their immense trust in one another. What was initially shown to be distrust in the Final Victor LC grew into something more, for Ratio, someone who would have never put faith into mere chance and probability before this, put his trust in Aventurine, of all people.
TL;DR ā (I get it, itās over ten thousand words.)
Not only is the relationship between Neff and Phyllis represented in the deception and acting side of Ratio and Aventurine, but the real and trusting side is shown in Neff and Keyes. They have a fascinating, multi-layered dynamic that is extremely fun to pick apart once you realise whatās going on underneath the bickering and āhatredā they display.
Many thanks to Manya again for making the original thread on the movie. I wouldnāt be here comparing the game and movie myself if it werenāt for that.
By the way, I really do believe that Shaoji totally watched this movie at least once and really wanted that Double Indemnity AU for his OCs. I know exactly how it feels.
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Other points I'd like to mention that didn't fit anywhere else in the main analysis and/or donāt hold much significance, have nothing to do with the Penacony mission, or may even be considered reaching (...if some of the other points werenāt). Just some potentially interesting side bits.
Phyllis honks three times to signal Neff to go for the kill. That, and the three gunshots in the confrontation. Aventurine is all about the number three.
The height difference Aventurine and Ratio have going on is close to Phyllis and Neffās.
Phyllis had killed her husbandās previous wife and went on to marry Mr. Dietrichson, pretty much taking the wifeās place. Aventurine killed his previous master, and had taken certain attributes from him like his wristwatch and the rings on his hand and the āall or nothingā mantra.
When calling Ratio a wretch (bastard), Aventurine smiles for a moment. This is exclusive to the EN, KR and JP voiceovers, as in CN, he does not smile at all. (Most definitely a quirk from the AI they use for lip syncing, but the smile is something thatās been pointed out quite a few times so I thought Iād mention it here.)
Sunday specifically says in the CN version that he knew of Aventurine's plans the moment Aventurine left the mansion, meaning that he realized he had been played the fool the moment Ratio and Aventurine talked in Golden Hour
In the description for the "All or Nothing" consumable, teenage Aventurine says this specific line: "Temptation is a virtue for mortals, whereas hesitation proves to be a fatal flaw for gamblers." According to Ratio, this is Aventurine's motto - he says as such in Aventurine's Keeping Up With Star Rail episode. Note that in the anan interview he explicitly says he does not have a motto, and yet Ratio in the video says otherwise. They definitely have to know each other for a while for Ratio to even know this.
A big reason why Neff even pulled off the murder scheme in the first place was because he wanted to see if his good friend Keyes could figure it out, the Mundane Troubles Trailblaze Continuance showcases Ratio attempting to teach the Herta Space Station researches a lesson to not trust the Genius society as much as they did.
In Keyesā first scene heās exposing a worker for writing a policy on his truck that he claimed had burnt down on its own, when he was the one who burnt it down. Ratio gets into an Ace Attorney-style argument with the Trailblazer in Mundane Troubles.
Neff talks repeatedly about how it wonāt be sloppy. Nothing weak. And how itāll be perfect to Phyllis, and how sheās going to do it and heās going to help her. Doing it right ā āstraight down the lineā. Beautifully ironic, considering what happens in the movie, and even more ironic as Ratio and Aventurineās scheme went exactly the way they wanted to in the end. Straight down the line.
#honkai star rail#double indemnity#veritas ratio#aventurine#golden ratio#ratiorine#an attempt at analysis by one a-u#relationship analysis#you know whatā i guess i can tag the other names of this ship#aventio#raturine#you could make a fucking tierlist of these names#umā dynamics (yk what i mean) dont really matter here in the analysis just fyi if youre wondering its general enough#also if you're wondering about the compilation thread - its not done. it'll take a while (a long while.)#this post was so long it was initially just a tumblr draft that i then put into google docs. and it ended up being over 2k+ words long#is this a research paperā thesisā or essay? who knows! this just started as just a short analysis after watching the movie on may 5#final word count according to docs (excluding alt text): 13013 - 43 pages with formatting#i wish i could have added more images to thisā 10k words vs 30 images really is not doing me any favoursā¦#plusā i hit the character limit for alt text for one of the images.#if you see me mixing up british and american spellingā you probably have!#oh yeah. if any of the links happen to break at some point. do tell. i have everything backed up#there also may be multiple links strung togetherā just so you know.#I link videos using the EN and CN voiceovers. Just keep that in mind if the jump between two languages seems sudden.#I had to copy and paste this thing from the original tumblr draft onto a new post because tumblr wouldn't let me edit the old one anymore.#Feels just like when I was finalising my song comicā¦#(Note: I had to do this three times.)#I started this at May 5 as a way to pass the time before 2.2. You can probably tell how that turned out.#Did you know there is a limit to the amount of links you can add to a single tumblr post? It's 100. I hit that limit as well.#So if you want context for some of these parts... just ask.#I'm gonna stop here before I hit the tag limit (30) as well LMAOO (never mind I just did.)
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Iām legitimately gonna explode if I donāt find someone else who understand the background tragedy of the Gleeful Family in Gravity falls.
#Gravity falls#Gideon Gravity Falls#Gideon Gleeful#Bud Gleeful#I HC the momās name as Karen - a play on Caring - just with the Accent#Carinā Gleefulā¦ā¦#ANYWAYS#Gideon is a child star at the age of 10 with a powerful corrupting force around his neck and a VERY weird coded behavior.#AND THE BEHAVIOR HAS TO BE LEARNED OR INFLUENCED. Heās TEN.#And heās being weird from anywhere to kids a bit older to him to mentioning having a crush on an older woman (in a prison short)#Can we get this kid some COUNSELING#Also#Itās heavily suggested he was born with the white hair which mightāve made him just as outcast as many of the castā¦..#I also have to shoutout Bud. Because while heās permissive I donāt think heās *bad*.#Heās in the weirdest possible situation as a parent because uhhhh! People forget that amulet does change the Power Dynamic#Like. The amulet makes Gideon a giant physical threat and people Forget That. The entire house is BUILT around that#Smaller Bud personal take -#I do heavily get the vibe heās been not-so-well-off before (āItās all brand name foods-ā) but Idk what to do with that#AND THE MOM. WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU šØ#THE BOOK DIDNT EVEN NEED TO BE BURRIED THERE IāM SO UPSET OVER THE GLEEFULS IāM GONNA EXPLODE#I have a LOT of HCs about the Gleefuls I could just drop in the tags of this post tbh#Example;#Bud used to be a holy man IMO - Is this anything?
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#undertale#frisk#flowey#utau#undertale au#premaposting#no idea what to name this yet but its an au ive been building for a while now#also yes frisk's hair intentionally mimicks the floppy ears the dreemur family has#um i dont know when im gonna post this#so if i post this before really explaining the au#heres the explaination:#in short this happens at the end of true pacifist where the game continues on than having a definite end#a few months after. frisk and papyrus leave to the underground to meet everyone and p much uproot flowey and bring him to the surface#even though he can choose to leave or not. though didnt want to initially#i think i placed winter alarm 6 months post true pacifist end?#so about another half year later. or a full year since the route. flowey kinda gets adopted?????#chilled around frisk a lot anf accidentally ended up as their brother#and then they grewed up. this is like#7 years since true pacifist#a pretty good amount of stuff has changed#so thats why they look a lot older#OH WAIT I FORGOT TO MENTION#like frisk and toriel decided to have flowey pick a bday since he forgor in this au#like what it was#its now like november 2nd bc all souls day and marigolds associated with the holiday#IK HE ISNT A MARIGOLD#BUT THATS THE CLOSEST IM GETTING#oh so on like the 2nd bday frisk w alphys get him a soul and that why he can life now#proceeds to post this without lore explaination because school look in tags yall#utpyrt
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i see the opinion that āwriters favour tory over samā A LOT, and i dislike this take. itās genuinely so dumb to me
i could debate it but i just canāt be asked, iāll be honest.
i donāt believe that writers have shown favouritism towards tory, for sam literally ever. so in season 6, the last season if theyāre giving tory more attention than sam (if thatās why you think) then so be it. seriously.
like maybe iām bias cause tory is my favourite, but truly, i donāt see the favouritism that theyāre seeing? like point me too it right now šš
ik this an unpopular opinion most folk are gonna disagree with but idc #SPEAKINGMYTRUTH
#lil rant#rambles#short yap session this time tbh#tory nichols#like atp i feel like yāall lying for fun#cs in what actual world does this reign true#i try to respect all opinions .. that one i cant SORRY!#cobra kai#ck season 6#writers donāt give a shit abt her actually#anyway#itās such a funny take iāll be honest#like thereās no way you actually believe that after what weāve seen for 6 seasons#gonna do a yap session on torys character at some point#needs to happen iāll be honest#actually i might make a longer post = yap on why i disagree and why itās dumb#ok done now
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Before I write out this long post (I might not even finish it today tbh) about that conversation, just know that that conversation NEEDED TO HAPPEN, but it being framed around the dragonseeds when the dragonseeds were literally his idea (and there was no mention of it only being higher born people my god did these writers read their own scripts??? like in the SHOW they are his idea AND in the book and they are acting like Rhaenyra came up with it now b/c they forgot what they wrote) but the conversation about his insecurities about when his mother dies / will there be another civil war after because of his obviously not Targaryen appearance? He has a dragon that hatched to him in the cradle - that strength is there, like he obviously is a Dragonrider. He's got the Targaryen claim, but the bastard rumors circle and he has two brothers who are true born and fully Targaryen (through his mother and Daemon) and who people might see as having a more powerful claim than him or Joffrey (or Luke pre-Dance b/c he had similar thoughts but not about a whole full fledged war).
I'm mostly asking to thread out that conversation at it should have happened, probably even before the Dance started (though could also fit during because those thoughts are 10 times stronger once he realizes how easy it is for the country to fall to war over the inheritance), tbh so like if any Rhaenyra's are down~~~.
#ooc / a whole ass yikes#to be deleted / trash#hotd critical ;#hotd spoilers ;#[ honestly the conversation could happen with several characters ]#[ daemon and baela for sure to o]#[ but he'd be hesitant about daemon b/c he'd be like 'what if your sons try to claim it over me' and awkward ]#[ i have a lot of thoughts and feelings about jacaerys and i'm gonna shout them from the rooftops on this blog constantly so ]#[ me; this is gonna be a short post ]#[ also me; AND ANOTHER THING ]
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life is cruel.
it's tragic, horrific, and unfair. it gives us the worst of things, causes us to feel and experience things that are so unspeakably painful that sometimes I can't even. I can't even.
and it seems even more cruel in those moments of pain and grief and loss when you see something beautiful, like fall colors, or the color of the sky at sunset, or how the holidays typically are meant to bring joy to people but all you can think about now is that every year when this time of year comes, you'll just think about how tragic it is.
and cruel.
and horrific.
and unfair.
and beautiful.
#grief#grief tw#so i'm dealing with grief intimately for the first time like. ever. and i'm having a lot of emotions#and i can't help but observe that the way i write it in fic feels. kinda like how i feel right now? in some ways?#but also like. everyone goes through it differently and there's no like correct way to process#for me i'm. okay most of the time when i have a lot of stuff to do#which is like 90% of the time#but i'm also just feeling a lot of things and trying to figure out how to move forward#especially with the knowledge that life is short and cruel and you just never know what might happen#and i can't just not do the things i truly want to do with my life because i'm SCARED#because. you never know what might happen#you never know when the end is gonna come#anyways i drove back to my apartment today and i saw beautiful fall colors on the way#and all i can think is ''how can the world be so beautiful and so horrible at the same time''#''so beautiful and so fucking CRUEL at the same time''#''and to the people who least deserve its cruelty''#anyways that's where i'm at ig#still got two classes moving and a full time job to do while all of this is happening š#all things considered. i'm okay. not great but i'm doing my best#really in my post tpm obi-wan era except to a lesser degree#but i certainly have a LOT of responsibilities to deal with along with my grief so. yeah.
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since ofmd season is coming up hereās a little edit that iāve never posted on here :)
#idk man first and only time iāve done an edit#but i love it#made on imovie lmaoa#sorry if itās bad quality#i actually originally posted this on insta & if you knew me thereā¦ur a real one#lollll#but yeah everyone would always talk abt how never love an anchor was the perfect song for the show#but i never saw any edits so i had just decided to make one#i honestly was originally gonna do it from stedeās percy#but this was more fun for me#esp bc it kind of deviates from how it actually happens#so i can kind of tell that story#it could also be interpreted as how ed views it in retrospect#bc when you think of it yeah stede was the one who left#but ed rlly blamed himself so i thatās kind of what this edit it reflecting#(iām pretending this is a short film and iām being interviewed by a magazine.)#(also hi if youāre actually reading this ššš)#ofmd#our flag means death#our flag means gay#ofmd edit#ofmd ed teach#edward teach#edward teach born on a beach#ofmd blackbeard#ofmd s2#ed x stede#gentlebeard#ofmd stede#stede bonnet
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i've written 36k for this fic but my brain has reached the point where it keeps telling me im a sucky writer and should just quit and ahhh i need the anxiety to shut up and just let me have fun and not have imposter syndrome
#im actually really self conscious about my writing like even if i do think im good if i say anything more the anxiety is like nope :)#and it all comes from mean kids in high school not liking m short story about an alien getting adopted#which like yeah sounds dumb but i LIKED IT#anyways write for yourself yes but what do i do when im my own worse critic and it keeps telling me to quit#i dont think im going to but im afraid that what happened to me in the ml fandom is gonna happen again and ill get burnt out by#my own stupid high standards and expectations for myself#anyways#i need to eat#maybe im just hangry#maybe i do need a break and i think i will take one once i finish chapter 3 and since im going camping this weekend#but i want to post chapter 2 before i go so we shall see#bushy rants
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Finished Lolo's family tree !!
Here's all their names (from up left to right)
Fathers side
The first woman is the representative of the Cumanagoto people but she doesn't have a name yet
NaiguatƔ MaicƔn: personification of the kariƱa people
Yolanda MaicƔn: Lolo's grandma (there's some country lore there but she's not directly NaiguatƔ sibling)
Juan Sulbaran: Lolo's grandpa
Felipe Sulbaran MaicƔn: Lolo's father
Mother's side
Maite CarabalĆ: Lolo's grandma
JosƩ-Luis PƔez: Lolo's grandpa
Manola PĆ”ez CarabalĆ: Lolo's mother
And then ofc Lolo himself, personification of the country of Venezuela.
Extra inside joke ?? Thing ?? That I have with friends lol
(Argentina oc belongs to @m4ruk4ts I already apologize for the tag sbdodbx)
#What a nice family I hope nothing bad ever happens#And i hope none of them ever had to suffer#Because of somebody named Antonio FernƔndez#I have A LOT of stuff planned for them#But I'm gonna cut it short and just post the family tree for now#Tw humans in the hetalia fandom lol#Hetalia#Aph#Hws#Hetalia oc#Aph oc#Hws oc#Hetalia Venezuela#Aph Venezuela#Hws Venezuela#Hetalia Cumanagoto#Aph cumangoto#Hws Cumanagoto#Hetalia KariƱa#Hws kariƱa#Aph kariƱa#My oc#my art#Lolo family#Meitoswords
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I will not start a project with denim when I've been awake for 19 hours. I will not start a project with denim with I've been awake for 19 hours. I will not start a project with denim when I've been awake for 19 hours. I will not-
#repetitive text;#manic posting;#i remembered in hs when i'd spend my manic nights writing somg lyrics in sharpie on my arms and legs and jeans#and then had the idea to stitch/embroider lyrics into said jeans bc i was PRETTY sure i still had them bc they were ny favorite and#idr them wearing out. but APPARENTLY not. i looked everywhere short of digging out the closet i've wanted to for a month#but that's got years worth of chewy boxes broken down amd stacked in front of it bc i am a disaster#(i mean to recycle them. that never happened. at this point i'll just put them in thw dumpster. when i get around to getting them out of#the corner and down the stairs#i took my meds at least (not the tegretol. i don't want to intentionally kill my first proper manic episode in /so/ long)#BUT i was then thinking about canabilizing old jeans to create the cut i loved about the old ones (but half what i loved was texture)#and then embroidering that#but my last manic project with denim left my fingers so fuckin bloody#bc manic me can and will not use a sewing machine and thimbles get in my way#and that was. back in 2013-2015. wish i still had that. never wore it bc course not.#i also don't have the manic project of the L (death note) inspired Lolita skirt#think theu both stayed in NC#man i left all the good shit in NC#but yeah like. to say nothing of the fact that ostensibly the roommate will be home and wanting to sleep at some point#and manic me and headphones are fucking rivals#manic me has a lot of beefs#it's almost like (and this might shock you) i'm manic!#(i promise i'm trying to go to bed at this point)#(it's bed or cleaning my room or denim project and i would like SOME sleep if i'm gonna do either)#(to say nothing of i need to do 3 expert roulettes in XIV and can you imagine that shit after literally not sleep?)#(mania will NOT save my ass from micronapping)#personal;#i'm so sorry for anyone actually reading all these posts and tags#but! if you are! welcome to my oversharing corner <3#also i am still planning on helping a friend clean and assmeble a chair tomorrow#which! mania is good for! i can clean! i love cleaning when manic! (my OCD ramps up when manic)
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Ok I'm going to start rereading ITNL today
This is part of my journey for continuing my great big beast of a project
#speculation nation#itnl shit#ITNL READERS REJOICE!!!!!!! i am taking steps to prepare myself for the experience once again.#now as for when this will actually lead to a chapter posted. um uh. uhm.#depends entirely on how my brain latches onto it and also fucking school. Fucking School.#if it werent for my exams and giant presentation etc etc ykno it'd be pretty alright actually#realistically speaking i probably wont be able to really get to writing for at least another week or so#buuuUuUuUuUUt the GOOD news is that the writing i Do have impending. will be rather exciting for me.#so i have a feeling that 20-22 are going to be written in relatively short succession.#big moments of the fic and all that. ya kno.#But First i must reread the fic. to remind myself of everything that has happened. and to get back into the headspace of itnl vash.#my wonderful guy. hes so frustrating. i love him. hes not going to be doing what Anyone wants him to and thats so fair of him.#anyways uhmmmm if ur excited for this id love to hear about it for writer's encouragement etc etc.#even if it's just a like on my posts about it lol.#getting caught up in my head about it again. ya kno. would love some cheering on if anyone's up for it.#gonna prep some lunch then get to reading WAHOOOO
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