#what BUCK lost

[versatileversion]

Just found out Tommy and Buck broke up.

Bullshit.

I love buddie just as much as the next person, but buddie is a relationship that will have angst and problems needing fixing, and i understand ppl who might like that more, but Tommy was honestly what Buck deserved.

Buck has always given, he gives a piece of himself to every person he loves and on so so many occasions his love for someone hasn’t worked out or has hurt him, because they didn’t look deep enough to give him some grace.

And then there was Tommy.

Tommy was so gentle and sweet to Buck, and he was supportive and Buck was finally getting taken care of- he was happy, and you just break that up?

Again, bullshit.

I am literally so devastated, Buck can’t get treated fairly irl let alone in canon.

[bucksdaffy]

will never not be insane about this

[eh-33]

Also Tommy turning up to the hospital - instead of you know, where the wedding was actually gonna take place - implies that Buck has been keeping Tommy updated on everything that’s been happening. And that’s cute, I like that idea.

[haydenthewitch]

hey so. to everyone who told/influnced me to watch 911

a personal hand delivered fuck you

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN EDDIE CHANGED HIS WILL. SO THAT BUCK IS A LEGAL GARDIAN OF HIS SON. AND THEY AREN'T FUCKING CANNON. IT'S ONLY SEASON FOUR, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. ARE YOU KIDDING.

"Becuse, Evan..." I'M GOING TO [REDACTED]

LIKE. I'M GOING TO LOSE MY MIND. WHAT DO YOU MEANNNN BUCK GOT A TEXT SAYING THAT EDDIE WAS OKAY AND HE WAS SO RELEAVED HE STARTED CRYING. HE WAS SO RELIVED THAT EDDIE WAS GOING TO BE OKAY HE BROKE DOWN, SITTING ON CHRIS'S BED WEEPING

AND I'M TELLING FRENIDS ABOUT IT. AND LOWKEY RANTING ABOUT IT. AND PEPOLE KEEP FUCKING SAYING "DON'T WORRY IT GETS WORSE" WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN IT GETS WORSE. THERE IS NO WORSE. THEY ARE SO IN LOVE IT'S FRANKLY HOMOPHOBIC THAT THEY AREN'T TOGETHER ALREADY (disclaimer that part is a joke don't have my head ((it's kinda a joke. i'm also kinda serouis.))) BECUSE WHAT THE FUCK

EDDIE IS CHRIS'S BIO DAD. BUCK IS ALSO, CRIS'S DAD. BUT THEY AREN'T TOGETHER?? AND IT'S CO-PARENTING, BUT ITS NOT LIKE THEY ARE DIVORCED OR ANYTHING. THEY ARE JUST LIKE THAT???? LET ME GET THIS STRAIGHT (impossible) BECUSE IF 1+1 IS 2 AND 2+2 IS FOUR, THEN WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS??????

[jess-bradford]

if tim is writing bucktommy as a love story/romcom we are currently at the all is lost moment - the moment where a seemingly permanent obstacle arises to halt the lovers' journey to a happy ending. it usually involves someone from one of the characters' pasts (often another woman) and misunderstanding.

[alienoresimagines]

Store worker: Would a "Buck Cleven" please come to the front desk?

Buck, arriving at the desk: Is there a problem?

Store worker, pointing to Bucky : I believe he belongs to you?

Bucky : I got lost :(

Buck: I didn’t even bring you here with me—

[deadnatura11]

If anything, Tim Minear sending Chris away for season 8 gives credence to all the people who said Eddie would never realize his feelings for Buck until Chris went away for college the thing is Tim's not that patient lol

[wikiangela]

tease tidbit tuesday

tagged by @bidisasterevankinard @tizniz 💖

more bucktommy the will talk (they're getting there, the conversation went a bit off track lol) - it might be done this week, and then I can focus on the smut, and the buddie fics, and I have a new bucktommy idea inspired by that video of lou barbecuing with his shirt off that I sooo wanna write🙈

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“Well, yeah, of course.” Buck answers easily, his heartbeat speeding up. He’s a little anxious about putting too much pressure, too many expectations out there, but he also knows that even if he did, they’d get back on track, they’d be fine. And besides, Tommy’s smiling, he doesn’t seem freaked out at all. And that’s after Buck brought up children. But if they’re moving forward with their relationship, they need to know what they want out of life. It seems reasonable to have this conversation this early on.

“Good.” he responds, grinning widely. “Now I won't have to stress about your answer when I ask.” he adds, and Buck feels himself blush, butterflies in his stomach going wild. Oh. Oh. This is- this is real. They’re talking about it, and maybe someday soon- he might marry this man. He will marry this man. Tommy wants him forever. Tommy wants him. Tommy wants to marry him and have children with him, and just be with him. Sometimes it’s still so shocking to Buck that someone as great and amazing as Tommy wants him, but he does. Buck’s not sure he remembers the last time he felt this wanted.

“How- how do you know I won’t ask first?” Buck asks, moving his head slightly closer to Tommy, just enough to look into his beautiful blue eyes. It feels surreal, talking about this, when they only dated for a few months, but it also feels… right. It feels like they’re on the right track to get there one day.

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[eddiediazismyhusband]

new buddie lore dropped in that part of the fandom:

apparently eddie stans only like eddie bc of chris…. and somehow wanting chris to come back is…. toxic?

yeah idk but anyway apparently all of us eddie/buddie stans are just gonna be whining about christopher come s8 which…. idk about yall but i wasn’t personally planning on making my eddie/buddie blog purely about chris going to texas but apparently since i have an eddie pfp and a bt stan said so then that means all i’m going to talk about for s8 is chris?

bc apparently the only reason that i as an eddie fan like eddie isn’t actually bc i like the character, but bc i…. just like his son…..? which makes perfect sense why i have an eddie diaz pfp and url instead of a christopher one… like that just makes perfect sense!

oh and also apparently we are all turning on buck now bc we wanna see him in an actual fulfilling relationship so… there’s that too…

anyway, just wanted to let all eddie stans know that apparently we need to switch gears bc this person who’s a “recovering buddie fan” said this so and we all know that they are never wrong about anything

just incase yall missed the “bob” patch notes that were released in the bt fandom

[allergic-to-fruits]

a duck walks into a casino

[bidisasterevankinard]

Wip Wednesday

do I have the stage where I start new wips but barely write the one's I have because I'm super indecisive and not inspired? yes. let's hope soon I will be fine and work on my wips I want to work on. Anyway meet new wip where bucktommy will have long angst in their relationship because Tommy needs to grief "what ifs" with Sal he never thought about till he sees Sal as Captain of 118 (it's an au where Sal is a captain instead of Gerass)(it's only the start of the fic btw)

thanks to nonny @racerchix21 and this song (the title taken from the song and it's "I tried to go on like I never knew you"

Tommy knows it all should be in the past. In stolen kisses in bars they knew Gerrard and the team would never come too. In usually passionate and wild - almost never tender and sweet - sex. In secrets they shared under sheets, when they both knew that the moment their fabric cover was gone they couldn't talk about those moments of comfort and vulnerability they shared. In breakfast’s Sal made for him and his nonna's lasagna recipe Tommy cooked for the man. In wild dreams Tommy knew could never be a reality. Especially not when Sal changed stations and firstly their meetups were less and less frequent until they stopped after Sal’s wedding. 

And Tommy swears he thought he was over it. Over Sal. Over dreams of the future they could never share. But one look at the man whose appearance barely changed since Tommy last saw him five years ago, staying near 118 trucks the same way he always did, while talking with Chim, and all that got back at him. All the memories of stolen love and painful hope to be happy, proud and loved. Preferably by his “best friend”. By the one of the best men he ever met even if they could be rough with each other or rude or just wrong. Sal always came back with sorry, that Tommy knew was genuine. They were so wrong together, but also so wrongly perfect. So electric. Sal made him feel how almost no one could. Only his first crush Eric from the army, Sal and …

“Hey, handsome, sorry for the delay, Hen needed help to choose a present for Karen,” Evan kissed his cheeks, smiling like thousands of suns.

If Tommy didn’t know and was pretty acquainted with Evan’s quirks and little signs of his fatigue, he would never think the man just ended his 48 hour shift.

“It’s fine, baby.”

Tommy smiles and he hopes his inner turmoil of seeing an old friend is not shown on his face.

“Have you met my new captain yet?”

“No, but I don’t need to.”

Evan adorably tits his head and Tommy wants his heart to be so fast only because of it and the taste of Evan’s lip balm on his cheek, but he swears he can feel the taste of liquor he and Sal were drinking last time they kissed. Right before Sal asked Jennifer out on their first date.

“I worked with Sal. Even more than Chim and Hen,” Tommy says and Evan for a second frowns and then hits his face.

“And they were no less inseparable as you and Eddie,” Chim says, with the loud sound of gum bubbles breaking.

Tommy doesn’t know when he and Sal got closer to them, but he would really happy if they never see that Tommy was there at all. 

“God, of course. In my defense it was so long ago I just haven’t even thought that all three of you were a team.”

“Yeah, I left the station almost a decade ago and it feels like it was in another life, so it’s fine, Buck.” 

Sal smiles at his boyfriend and Tommy wants to make as much room between them as possible. Maybe it will help him to to separate all these feelings of worry and anxiety and love and confusion from the sight of the man he had loved for years, but had never had the opportunity to own his love completely for himself, never feeling that Sal had given him his heart, and a man who he knows is step away from get into his own chest and rip out his heart with all the vessels and give it to Tommy if he just says the word. Sal would never do it even if Tommy would beg

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[livelovecaliforniadreams]

Favorite Buddie Moments Per Episode: 6x16 Lost & Found

[ell-begins]

genuinely what happened to oliver wanting buck to fight for his relationships 😭❓ like girl ur boyfriend just left RUN AFTER HIM?? HAVE UR ROM COM MOMENT IN THE RAIN WHAT ARE YOU DOINGGG 🙁🙁

[dadvans]

on shannon.

shannon was not the great love of eddie's life, she was the biggest mistake that he could never reconcile, because she died. her death i think prevented eddie from ever doing any sort of meaningful self reflection on what kind of partner he was trying to fight for when shannon left him.

they were so young, and eddie liked the idea of having a wife who was a mother to his kid that he could escape from, because it meant he didn't have to put in the effort to maintain a relationship. whenever he was actually with shannon, he never allowed her any grace to suffer or make mistakes or be her own person. the only time he ever met her halfway was when he was chasing her, and he would chase her to the original line she had set in the sand, hoping after hope that he would finally step over it, which he still never did.

shannon wasn't the great love of eddie's life, and eddie should never have been the only love of hers. she deserved to find someone who would give and take to be with her. eddie deserved to see what shannon looked like when she was actually loved, and how she could have thrived in a partnership with someone who wanted more than just the idea of her.

and he still is just chasing the idea of her! beyond high school sweethearts, did he ever know or love the woman that she grew into while he was away, when she was being a mom, when she was dealing with her mother's breast cancer and a disabled child all on her own? he was so good at putting her in a box labeled Shannon and taking her off and on the shelf when he needed her, and he keeps taking that box out now and sorting through it without realizing or loving who she was outside of it. he deserved to be left by her, and it's a shame that she died, because he deserved to live with the weight of knowing she could have left for good and still lived and thrived. he deserved to be slapped in the face with all the things he never provided by seeing it in someone else.

so many of eddie's relationships are based on what they can give him, how he can be supported by them. i don't think he's ever been able to realistically support himself long term. i do really hope in the next episode we see him go scorched earth with everyone in a way that he has to learn how to live with himself without other people. and i hope that's how he gains closure on shannon. he needs to learn that she was never the love of his life because she gave him what she needed while living in the absence of his own affection and sacrifice. he wants to repent for something so bad, but he doesn't realize this is what it is.

[feyd-meowtha]

If I were to say the words 'Clegan Mad Max AU' how would that make people feel?

For academic purposes of course 👀

[warpedpuppeteer]

Do you ever cry when you think about how Eddie was probably a gentle soul when he was younger? Shy and quiet, loves to listen to people talk with sparkles in his eyes and a sweet shy smile that made his dimple pop, loved helping his abuela and mom and sisters at home. Then everything was destroyed when toxic masculinity was forced onto him and Eddie has never since been allowed the chance to ever be as soft or as gentle as he was before? How this poor little baby was sent off to war, breaking him in ways he couldn't even imagine. How since then all he's done is be afraid and confused and angry and frustrated.

Because nothing feels right even when he did all the things he was told he should do.

Be a man when I'm not around son. Be a man and marry her. Be a man and provide for your family. Be a man and kill for your country. Be a man and forget about your PTSD. Be a man and take care of your child. Be a man, be a man, be a man.

And he did! He did all of it like everyone told him to! But then why isn't he better? Why is he still broken??

But he's not. He's healing. All the cracks in his soul are being filled with gold. Like kintsugi. He's learning how to be whole again. He's found the 118, a family not of blood who loves him the way he deserves. He's found Buck, who accepts him as he is; all his flaws and imperfections; everything that makes him Eddie.

It's a slow process and sometimes it's painful but he'll get there. Eddie Diaz is not broken. He's a piece of art, beautiful and loved, his scars lined in gold.

He will learn to be gentle again; to himself most of all. He will learn to be soft; to ask for things. He will learn to be honest; to express his needs. He will learn to be Eddie once more, slowly.