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KINKTOBER DAY NINE: dumbification with dom!gojo
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so short. im so sorry no one look at me
satoru sees it as a service to you, fucking your every last thought away. how else are you to decompress? a pretty thing like you doesn't need to think about the big things, doesn't need to worry about the woes of life, doesn't need to feel anything other than the round-after-round of blinding pleasure he gifts you.
satoru loves the feel of it, taking away your comprehensive ability to exist without him. god your eyes are just so glossy and your vision so blurred that he doubts you'd make it out of bed without his hand in yours. he loves the way your body shakes in his grasp, pleasure overwhelming your every last sense until all thats left is your ability to feel the way his cock sits inside of you.
satoru loves the sound of it, the way your words don't quite meet your lips; how they get lost in the column of your throat because it's all too much and not enough at the same time. the way you moan into the air around you, a testament to just how good you feel. how, when he looks down at you and asks if he's fucked you stupid yet, you can't even manage a fucking nod, which is more of a yes than you could have ever given him.
satoru loves talking you through it, though he knows your dumb little mind can hardly register his words. he coos at you nonetheless, brushes his lips over your ear as he speaks; 'that's it, baby, gotta stop thinking huh? pretty things like you don't need a single thought in your head, gotta let me take care of all that thinking. all you need to do is lay back and cum on my tongue again, sound good?'
satoru loves watching the thought drain from behind your eyes; especially if you've had a long day. he would bathe in the sight of you going stupid if he could, watching the overthinking and insecurity wash from the furrow in your brow and the frown on your lips the second you get a feel of his cock. he loves sending you mindless, protecting you from the lack of pleasure that thought brings—if he could strip your mind with just a touch he would.
for now, though, he'll settle for sending you stupid with orgasms, and kissing the sweetest of words against your skin for when you finally come back to thought... and beg to be fucked mindless again.
#we dont talk about this one im not proud#anways#gojo smut#satoru gojo smut#gojo x reader#satoru gojo x reader#jjk smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#jjk x reader#gojo x you#kinktober 2024
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Hey when your art friends share their work with you, please take note to not turn that into a vent session about how your own stuff sucks... It's just gonna make your friend feel like their art is hurting you, and they're not gonna share anymore.
#talking about this with someone#and realizing how little i share my work#cause of how often it's immediately met with some insecurities#and then after a conversation of me comforting someone and complimenting them#we get to the other side. and they never even said anything nice about my art#its happened. more often than i feel should be happening#but i know a lot of artists are insecure#and feeling jealous is normal#but like. feelings and actions...#making your friends feel bad cause youre jealous of them is not normal. dont do that#i dont even share all my work on social media lmfao#cause ive posted and then 5 minutes later seen someone post the same insecurities they did in dms#so genuinely i only share when its like. funny?#or if i just. am really proud of something#and just want to hear something nice about it#hurts to be met with silence but it happens#no one is obligated to give me compliments#its my job to create and when i do a good job i will be rewarded for that#but if im not doing a good job then. i wont! and thats on me!#but people ARE obligated to not be treating me as an object of their jealousy#and putting their emotional pain on me just cause i (looks at smudged writing on hand) drew something they liked#whatever#just thinking about it#my thoughts are not complete and i dont want this going around LOL#delete later
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2023 Qatar Grand Prix - Sprint - Oscar Piastri
#not my best ever gifs i dont think BUT IM SOOOOO HAPPPYYYYYYYY!!!!!!#OSCAR P1!!!!!! OSCAR WIN!!!!!! OSCAR ROOKIE WIN LETS GOOOOO#i still cant believe it this is absolutely insane#i feel like i find myself saying this every week about oscar but wow#back in bahrain i could never have imagined him winning a race this year!! IN HIS ROOKIE SEASON!!!!#I was shocked when i woke up to see him have gotten pole in the shootout#AND THEN TO WATCH HIM WIN!!!! SOOOOOOO GOOD#Im so proud of him sob sob sob#again: throwbacl to me and dru talking abt the possibility of him podiuming or even winning#and i was like no way i doubt it with this car. nevermind :) ive never been so happy to be incorrect#WHERE IS MARK!??!!?!??!!? WHERE ARE YOU???? YOUR BOY JUST FUCKING WON!!!! WHERE IS THE HUG???? WHERE IS THE CONGRATS???#i swear to god if i check his insta and theres yet another animal vid on his story im going to kill the old man#HE WAS WANDERING AROUND THE GARAGE YESTERDAY FOR QUALI!! WHERE WAS HE TODAY AAAGHHHHHH#oscar piastri#f1#formula 1#formula one#2023 qatar grand prix#2023 qatar gp#we do a little bit of f1
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FOR A BEAT OF HEART, THE BREATH IS SHOT. AND WITHIN A BREATH, THE HEART IS CAUGHT. THE PIPES ARE BURSTING, UNDER GREAT STRESS, BOLTS TORN ASUNDER, MAKING A MESS. A FINAL COUGH, A FINAL RETCH, A GOREY SLOUGH, CLAIMED BY WRETCH.
#cw gore#jrwi riptide#jrwi riptide spoilers#chip jrwi#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#I LLOOOVE POETRYYY I LOVE MAKING WORDS RHYME IN STRANGE WAYS AND DESCRIBING VISCERA AND VIOLENCE OR WAHTEVER. YKNOW WHAT ELSE I LOVE#CHHHIIIIIIIBBOOOOO MY BEAUTIFUL MAAANN WWHAT. WHAT HAPPENED. OH MY GOD. IVE BEEN SAYING FOREVER. I NEEED CHIP TO GET SCARIER.#HE HAS THE POTENTIAL! I KNOW HE DOES! HAUNTED BOY WITH THE HAUNTED EYES WHAT TRAUMAS HAVE YOU SEEN? AND WERE THEY YOUR FAULT? THINK ABOUT I#EVERY FAMILY HAS CRUMBLED AROUND HIM. HIS BIRTH FAMILY CRUMBLED BEFORE HE KNEW IT. HIS SECOND FAMILY DROWNED. THIRD BURNED TO THE GROUND#AND SHALL THIS NEXT FAMILY JOIN THEM? CHIIIIP YOU UNFORTUNATE BOY YOU HAVE WITNESSED SO MUCH CALAMITY#YOU ARE CALAMITY BOYYY AHAHAHAHA DONT YOU SEEE!! ZOMBIFIED AND DEAD. TRUELY MORE HAUNTED THAN EVER BEFORE. THIS WILL BE FUN#THE FIRE HURTS WHEN IT BURNS TOO LONG. BUT NOW YOUR NERVES ARE DEAD AND YOUR MIND IS FREE. BURN THIS CORPSE AS YOU WISH TO GET WHAT YOU WAN#CHIP IS NOT THE FIRE HE IS THE MATCH. I LOVE THAT IDEA SO MUCH IM SO PROUD OF IT. OHHH AND CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE CORRUPTION#bizly mentioned that chip wants to be a good captain. in his most corrupted state however. he would be the BEST captain..#thAT DOESNT MEAn hes gonna just suddenly be all controlling. the BEST captain keeps his crew safe. keeps them together. keeps them alive.#and chip is doing just that! he doesnt need to stop being a good captain just bc of the corruption! he just needs to be the BEST CAPTAIN#AND THATS SUBJECTIVE BABY!! im so excited to see where chips zombie arc goes. neeeed him to get scarier and just a little more fucked up.#neEED HIM TO PERFORM ABHORANT ACTIONS THAT HAVE JAY N GILL GOING ' dude woah what the fuck...'#RIGHT I SHOULD TALK ABT MY ART TOO. this one took TOO LONGGGstarted out witha sketch how did it end up like this...#the heart and the blood KILLED ME. LOOK AT MY RENDERING LIKE HWAAATT#better not see any more mistakes after i post this.... i cant fight withit anymore....STILL RLY PROUD THO..#I WAnted to make it visually LOOK like the grossest vomiting sound possible#i want it to make your throat feel uncomfortable. am i achieving that? i hope i am. thats tubes dude!!! like cmahn!
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shamelessly plugs my silly animatic
#im actually proud of this one#except for the hands. we dont talk about the hands#woohoo#anyway tags uhh#davejade#dave strider#jade harley#jadedave#animatic#homestuck animatic#homestuck#homestuck fanart#cool#Youtube
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"Him? Oh, you know, he's kind of a loser." - probably everyone except for his younger brother.
Germaine is based on the layer of hell (Dante's Inferno) for material wealth before self, others, and god. So basically very materialistic and possessive of his belongings. Unfortunately, his younger brother qualifies as a belonging in his mind. So he does his absolute best to keep his brother safe and sound and scratch free - which is a bit tough in a post apocalyptic setting but he mostly manages.
Also a fact I just like to mention: he is incapable of lying.
#my characters#germaine wellington#welp guess who watched an anime recently (its not complete) and the dad of the mc made em think of a loserman big brother oc#its me! correct! the dad just reminded me a bit of germaine and i blame appearances mostly but also the dad was kind of a loser (i love him#and germaine does practically raise tremaine which further messes up their absolutely awful codependency#like yeah both brothers would kill for many reasons (survival and resources mainly) but !#if tremaine lost germaine hed probably cry and become incapable of moving on and eventually just dying w no reason to live#but if germaine lost tremaine hed go insane cause no no no thats HIS brother and hed start blaming everyone#and lose all rationale and logic while hes actually one of the most logic based in the group#hes a loser but dont let him lose things or he loses it more#but when hes really mad at tremaine for whatever reason his best friend is like uh huh what are you gonna do about it#and germaine is like........... we both know i will sigh and accept it and probably pat him on the head next i see him#which is incredibly honest and exactly what he does because yeah hes mad but even mad he cannot say#im gonna slap some sense into him because thats a lie he wouldn't hurt his brother#everyone in their group knows he cant lie so when he gets hesitant after being asked something they just know#hes trying to plot the best way to skirt the answer bc its apparently Not Good#he looks angry and annoyed often but its just resting bitch face#he lights up when he sees tremaine and he lightens up a little with his best friend#like lil smiles for his bestie and brother but when talking ABOUT his brother? he lights up and beams because hes so proud#of the coolest and smartest thing in his life (his brother)
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i'm the antonymph of the internet
#how many tributes to this song will i make in my life#MANY ! it literally changed my life and means a lot to me. i love antonymph and vylet pony's music is worth checking out - please do.#unsupervised internet access as a queer neurodivergent kid anthem !!#i chose to do misty since we all know i like drawing her in experimental pieces and putting her in outfits. she also has art in a gir hoodi#from the clash team in treasure trove!! :D#this is also experimental/stylistic as well!! had fun!! nice to just draw something in one day and not worry. leaves me tired but...#haven't done a nice piece like so in one day in a while!!! i'm very proud :] it's a fun one#anyways... both a little tribute to the song and misty as a character#ihave so many thoughts about misty even if i dont talk publicly on them. shes a very interesting character to me and i care about her so#much. i compared her to fluttershy in the past - and realized that if i liked ttcc as a kid she would've been my favorite.#fluttershy on her own meant a lot to me as a child. including mlp itself as it's one of the core things that got me into drawing art online#a lot of my analysis on misty and headcanons at least on the more emotional scale do come from a bit of projecting but...it makes it more#fun to me when i can put myself into the shoes of a character like her who i already relate to. rrghh too bad im scared to talk about her#too much in nuanced detail in public since some people are... not so nice about her. though i know the tumblr audience is nice and unders#standing!!#anyways from me just having fun being me#i let misty have a little bit of fun... something i think she would possibly enjoy? i do see her as someone who gets nostalgic#and is stuck in more childish things and matters. she wants to play ip dip with you...its very sweet to me. letting myself and her be#confident through a song that means so much to me is kind of powerful to me. i had a lot of fun making this drawing.#anyways. love this song. love ttcc. love mity /p. be swag and be self indulgent and have fun. you can do anything u want forevah#toontown#toontown corporate clash#antonymph#guz art#rainmaker
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OH WAIT I FORGOT TO POST THIS!
I title this: Smoking is cool and all 7 year olds should try it.
My DND OC Violet (shadow monk/rogue) in a baseball pinup sort of vibe, I'm obsessed with her. Heavily inspired by my time in the TF2 fandom and a certain type of scout art.
Violet hits things with a stick until they die too, so it kinda fits lmao. I may do more inspired by other TF2 classes? We will see.
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#dnd#dungeons and dragons#ocs#tf2#illustration#feel free to reblog :)#listen. we dont need to talk about how i never considered baseball sexy poses until i indulged in scout art.#i am a product of my hyperfixations there is no denying that#also you can tell by how i draw Violet that i am an ass man. its hard to have your art tell you that#VERY proud of how the smoke came out; ive never rendered smoke before but it look great IMO#also if it wasn't extremely clear; the phalic imagery was very intentional. she got that metaphorical big dick#i think this is the first time ive drawn her in 'modern' clothes. very funny#ALSO i tried a new trick to make the color more harmonious and i like it. everything is tinged a little blue and it makes everything meld#also; what is she sitting on? fuck you; a nondescript cube#one last thing: ive given up posting to my old art blog; im just gonna post stuff hefe since i draw so infrequently#and reblog to my OC blog when applicable#kay bye like and reblog pls *kisses*
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for a while now, I've really been doubting my career choices with nursing. I know a lot of it is burn out and depression, and being so overwhelmed between work, school, and clinical, that I didn't have time to breathe. I was in the hospital/on campus for 60 hours a week last semester, and that's not counting the time I had to study outside of that. It was awful. I quit my job because of it, I was almost involuntarily committed because of it.
But the scariest part for me has been how much I've hated clinical. It makes me miserable. And that's terrifying, because once I graduate? That's what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. So if I already hate it now, what does that mean for my future?
Sometimes, though... Sometimes I'll have a clinical that is just so good, it reminds me of why I'm doing this. Why I'm putting myself through the pain and suffering of becoming a nurse, which is honestly one of the hardest careers a person can have. It's mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausting. It destroys your body and your mental health. Most of the time it's thankless. It doesn't pay nearly enough for what we go through.
Despite all of the reasons there are not to become a nurse, there are some patients that will remind you why it's all worth it anyway.
Last week, I had a crotchety old bitch of a patient. She had been in the hospital for 10 days, was refusing all of her treatments, screamed at anyone that came in her room, and demanded dilaudid around the clock, despite having no injuries to justify it. Everyone hated her. Her own nurses went in her room as little as possible; I think in the entire 12 hours I was there, her nurse spent maybe a total of 20 minutes in her room. I was in there for hours. A couple minutes at a time in the beginning just so she could warm up to me. Then I spent 2 straight hours at her bedside just talking to her. Letting her tell me her life story. Which was tragic, of course, and no wonder she was so run down and bitter and wanted to get high off narcotics. She was miserable, lonely, and in chronic pain from a body that was deteriorating around her.
So I spent as much time with her as possible. Sure enough, she didn't ask me for any pain medications a single time, once she realized she could trust I was going to look after her. I Explained her medications and her treatments, and the reasoning behind them. I offered to reach out to out chaplain when I noticed she was hyper focused on some televangical broadcast. I got her to call her son to come visit her. I got her to agree to take her medications and allow us to take blood sample for her labs, which were days overdue. I got her up and working with physical therapy so she could start walking again.
By the end of the day, that patient loved me. Not a single complaint all day, she wasn't screaming down the halls and cursing everyone's existence. She was still crotchety and mean in that way old hillbillies are, but she wasn't angry. She wasn't lashing out. She was finally being cooperative. All because I took the time to talk to her and offer her company.
Tonight, I had a shift in our mental health unit. There was a patient who I noticed was very withdrawn and avoiding everyone, mostly just standing in a corner at the end of the hall, by a window. I went down and talked to him. Kind of stilted at first, but slowly he opened up to me. I really only meant to talk for a few minutes, mostly for my own sake, to get used to interacting with mental health patients like this.
Instead, we talked for hours. Nearly 3 hours straight at the start of the day alone, and then more throughout the day. My feet were killing me by the end of it, but it was completely worth it to see the way this poor guy came to life. We talked about everything from social topics like music and movies, to his medications and treatments, and how to manage his depression once he leaves. Something I was able to connect with him about on a personal level in a way his nurse hadn't, because I've been living with depression for a decade, I've been on antidepressants, and I understand. I think that was the point it clicked for him, when he really started reaching out to me, instead of answering when I prompted him. Because humans need connection and understanding.
By the end of the day he was talking freely and smiling nearly non-stop. We'd made plans for him to get back into an old hobby he hadn't touched in years, and he seemed genuinely excited to start it back up again. He was nearly bouncing in place when I went to say goodbye to him at the end of the night, and thanked me for talking to him all day. Even the staff nurses noticed the way his demeanor had completely changed.
Another patient (my actual patient for the night) started the day very combative. To the point she had to be redirected to her room (not locked up, just strongly encouraged to go and cool down). She was screaming at everyone, having some very serious and severe delusions. Same story; I talked to her throughout the day, little bits whenever she was feeling calm. I noticed she had a tattoo from an old semi-niche XBox game I used to play, and we bonded over that. By the end of the shift she loved me. Kept asking me if I'd gotten lunch/dinner, made sure all the other patients on the unit got their snacks, told us all to get some rest once it was curfew for the unit (we had to stay another 2 hours) and said we could use the spare bed in her room if we needed. Which sounds really weird but coming from her was incredibly sweet. Again, total attitude change.
I am very cognizant of the fact that the way I approach my patient care is largely a privilege of still being a student. It's easy for me to stand at a patient's bedside for 2 hours straight and listen to her life story when I have nothing better to do, let alone 3 other patients to take care of. But that nurse didn't talk to her at all. Even when she was in the room, she dismissed everything the patient said. The mental health nurses? Most of their time is spent in the nursing station gossiping and messing on their phones. There's no reason for them not to put in the extra effort of spending time with their patients. And especially there, it can have such an impact.
All of that is to say, I love the relationships I'm able to build with my patients. It's so important for me to be able to connect with people like this, to make them feel seen and cared for and important. No one wants to be treated like an inconvenience, especially not while they're in the hospital, sick and hurt and exhausted and in pain.
Nights like these are why I'm going into this field. I love medicine and I always knew I would end up in the hospital, I've always wanted to be able to save someone's life. But I think now that I've grown up and I'm actually working with these patients, I've come to see not only how rewarding it is to save someone's life, but to nurture that life, too.
#cookie speaks#dont mind me i'm just feeling really sappy#im really proud of what i was able to accomplish with that patient today#he's going home tomorrow and i really hope he's able to do the things we talked about#i truly love being able to help people this way#i want to be the kind of nurse that people remember#i want my patients to feel taken care of and cared for#i dont have a single maternal bone in my body and i never thought i was much of a caretaker#but this is genuinely such a rewarding experience#i dont care how hard nursing is when I get to have days like these#I know it won't be nearly as easy once I start nursing for real#ill have so much more responsibility#but for now I'm going to take advantage of my ability to sit and talk with my patients for hours at a time#i think even if they aren't psychiatric patients#everyone wants to be heard#having someone's undivided attention makes you feel good#especially in this day and age where people are constantly talking over each other and distracted by their phones and never really present#in a conversation#so I always try to give that to others#i love therapeutic communication lol#one of my favorite parts of nursing#anyway
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time to stop and think woah i love my little sister so much.. i saw her yesterday and she told me she broke up w her boyfriend of 6 months a couple days ago and we talked about it for a while (i think hes a dick, she thinks its not that bad, im probably just overprotective of her lol but whatever) and she mentioned that during the breakup he said she had done nothing wrong in the relationship and it was all on him, which it was, and i was just thinking like. "yeah obviously. youre the one person i know who has literally no flaws." like i thought about it for a sec and i cant think of a single trait of hers that i find annoying or that causes me problems or whatever. the only times ive ever found her to be like, a bit too harsh or moody or something is when shes responding aggressively to our mom, and having grown up w our mom i honestly cant blame her at all cause ik she can be really hard to bear with sometimes lol. but like. i dont think weve ever had a single fight in our lives yknow. its rare and precious to have someone so great in your family and im so glad she is there :)
#97#the only thing that saddens me is we dont see each other that often#and its often bc she doesnt ask me to hang out bc shes always anxious about bothering me or something#and its like you never bother me! i always wanna hear from you!#like i was a bit sad that when the breakup happened im not one of the people she called.#i do get that it makes more sense to go talk to your friends but also she did call mom.#and i wish i could get her to think of me as someone she can count on more#but idk how to do that#also for context she is 17. she has the right to be kinda bratty to her parents sometimes shes a teenager lol#and yknow i think in some ways just her being around pushes me to be better..#like sometimes i think 'i want to accomplish more so my sister can be proud of me'#or like 'i want to put more effort into looking the way i want bc i wanna make her look cool when she introduces me to her friends' lol#im like.. too paranoid and anxious and fucked up to get my drivers license still (i want to though)#but often i think 'if i get a bikers license i could go pick her up from school on a bike and thatd make her look cool at school' lol#like im often more concerned about appearing as a cool and interesting person so that my sister can be proud of me moreso than for myself
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I played side order last weekend and the splatoon insanity is starting to come back so heres my favorite skrunkle wunkle Zale as an inkling
#splatoon#inkling#oc#splatoon oc#my art#bro singlehandedly saving my art/creativity block rn#him and honkai star rail#but we dont talk about hsr here#all that aside im actually rlly proud of the colors on this one#:D#zale(oc)
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man. a person i care about shouldnt treat me like this. onto better love to nurture.
#cowboy's crypt#ur my 'best friend' but all the sudden im not good enough for you .#bc ur off abroad living it big and i had to move back home after my life fell apart at the hands of another.#and it makes me realize youve ALWAYS treated me like this. blown me off.#yknow what? whatever. there are other people who love and care about me and i dont have to be treated like that.#and ive always been so proud of you and extended hands for u to take so we can hang out or talk#but its one word answers ans blowing me off. all the sudden im not good enough for someone ive known since i was a baby.#ok! fine. onto better things.
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#LMAO I FUCKING CANT.#so missionaries came to my doorstep-- which is literally just hilarious. even more hilarious? one of them was from hawaii.#they ask about my religion&i tell them bc i dont see any point not to&the yt man speaking to me tells me#he was a surfer back in the day so--&this is a literal quote-- 'i went to hawaii&heard it all as a haole on the beach'#remember this is literally entirely unprompted from a missionary who knocked on my door in response to my answering a question#about my religion. so why did this come up? probably the same reason that he then went to on to ask me what would happen if HE wanted#to join my religion&when i answer 'you would probably have to handle that yourself as religion is entirely personal'#he literally stands there w no answer before going 'well our church accepts EVERYONE no matter what theyve done'#&--again this is a direct quote-- 'we have ppl who have done blood sacrifices to their ancestors who have found the REAL god' LMAO.#he then started talking about how the neighboring apartment complex has a primarily east european community?#like with actual statistics bc appartently he just knows that the next apartment complex over is 80% yt immigrants?#not entirely sure how they had anything at all to do w anything so thats around when i stopped laughing openly at him#&told him my neighbors were coming up the stairs&i found taking up the entire staircase to be incredibly rude#so they needed to get the fuck out lmao&the missionary from hawaii-- who had said almost nothing the whole time lmao--#wouldnt look me in the eye while telling me thank you for my time probably bc he now had to continue doing missionary work#w a man who spent a solid five minutes trying to prove im racist&exclusionay as a default#literally ONLY bc im hawaiian v traditional about it&proud as FUCK about all those facts#whiiiiich only made him look&sound. fucking TERRIBE lmao.#anyway its good to know that several hundreds of years later&a move away from my colonized home where yt missionaries destroyed my culture#i STILL cant fucking get away from yt missionaries&their ABHORRENT behaviour lmao.#i need to start checking who the fuck is at my door before opening it.#or at the v least start letting roxy just fucking tear ppl like this to shreds like she wants bc their vibes are so rank#my dog can't stand at my side w/o her ridge going so far up she doesnt NEED to growl to get the point across lmao.
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literally why does leaving people that cause you literally so much harm hurt so much
#finally wrote back to [redacted] after a full month after he reached out and asked to reconnect and catch up#we havent talked in years#he says he is 52 months sober now#which is. impressive#thats like#over 4 years#but still like. aah#listening to his playlist on spotify rn#i said i wanted to reconnect but i literally shouldnt#he knows where i go to college and im scared he might come find me next year if we talk too much#he was always there for me. even if he wasnt ever what i needed or deserved to have to put up with#im so ashamed of him and the situation that i cant even talk about in therapy i dont know why im tyoing all of this in a tumblr post that m#friends can see#sometimes u gotta#idk let these things out. i guess#remember to delete this later#we talked a little bit today. he said hes impressed with me that i made it to college#he said hes proud of me#no one says they are proud of me#he sent me a picture of him before and after gettign sober. he looks like ten years younger#its kind of insane#he said hes studying the bible now. what the fuck#“Remember me when you're big n famous. Well. Remember the good parts of me”#<- actual quote from him#fuck this fuck this fuck this fuck this#i dont even know if there are any good parts#man who i love so much and who was the only one there for me but who i am so scared of#actually looking back at messages we have talked a little bit in the last few years i have just blocked it out or something#last time i got a message from him that i remember i started shaking in the dining hall and had to make a friend come get me#🦷
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i wanted to talk about pppppp recent chs in regards to gran & akira, but i cant make the topic go to them without first writing a billion words about ppp
#stardust speaking !#ITS...THE THEMES OF KINDNESS. BIG TIME#lucky who lesrned kindness from shows n books. used it. and was praised for it#sorachika who talked about dont force kindness onto others......#fanta who trusts his mom did mean it when she said i love you. but she didnt choose him so he wont choose her either#fanta who deciddd to love himself....#the not choosing someone hit hard. i think fantas monologue ch is like. rly great#'will my genius betray me?' @_@ dizzy#i think those topics resonate w gran especially#but my views of akira very much stems from similar topics in ppp so im. rattles cage#pppppp is so good.........im sooo sad we didnt get an anime announcement#when mapollos imagery is like. rly stunning a lot of the time#melolin...............#speaking of fun manga topics but i was looking thro my manga screenshots#and saw one from jjk. about maki 'maki nvr had teachers. it wasnt that she was too proud or rejected it. it just didnt occur to her to rely#on others to become stronger' AND I THINK THAAAAAAAAAAAAT#?#can u tell ive been catcjing up w manga recently#anyway comments on mangaplus r way too funny. like. theres some actual gold ones in there#OKAY WHATEVER IM DONE. read pppppp for me
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is heterophobia real
#genuine question btw#gay#lesbian#lgbtq#homophobia#heterophobia#i dont think it is !!! but if it was id be a proud heterophobe#see i say these things and everyone just takes me so seriously#and then im confused like do u actually think im heterophobic as in its a real thing that a person can be or#Y R U MAD AT ME LIKEE#told my first and last situationship that heterosexual people annoy me and i was joking about it and she went off on a 5 minute tangent how#we shoudlnt bully straights bc theyre just people who chose their sexuality just like we did !#bitch WHO THE FUCK IS WE ?!?!?#anyway#and my queer friend also thinks its a real thing and like ???#but yea i do say out of pocket shit like idgaf#girl id be fine if i never saw or talked to a straight person ever in my life and obviously i dont have any prejudice or hate against them#and people turn that around on me and r like well what if a straight person said the same thing about gays#and i dont think thats the same thing at all and i dont think it makes any sense#but still genuine question#also i do enjoy straight romances in movies or shows but i would never pick up a tiktok ya straight romance in my life no thanks#and my friend says thats heterophobic#the queer friend btw#the one who is literally unable to enjoy a romance if it doesn't revolve around a man or gay men
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