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gardenerofstars · 2 years ago

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literally why does leaving people that cause you literally so much harm hurt so much

#finally wrote back to [redacted] after a full month after he reached out and asked to reconnect and catch up #we havent talked in years #he says he is 52 months sober now #which is. impressive #thats like #over 4 years #but still like. aah #listening to his playlist on spotify rn #i said i wanted to reconnect but i literally shouldnt #he knows where i go to college and im scared he might come find me next year if we talk too much #he was always there for me. even if he wasnt ever what i needed or deserved to have to put up with #im so ashamed of him and the situation that i cant even talk about in therapy i dont know why im tyoing all of this in a tumblr post that m #friends can see #sometimes u gotta #idk let these things out. i guess #remember to delete this later #we talked a little bit today. he said hes impressed with me that i made it to college #he said hes proud of me #no one says they are proud of me #he sent me a picture of him before and after gettign sober. he looks like ten years younger #its kind of insane #he said hes studying the bible now. what the fuck #“Remember me when you're big n famous. Well. Remember the good parts of me”#<- actual quote from him #fuck this fuck this fuck this fuck this #i dont even know if there are any good parts #man who i love so much and who was the only one there for me but who i am so scared of #actually looking back at messages we have talked a little bit in the last few years i have just blocked it out or something #last time i got a message from him that i remember i started shaking in the dining hall and had to make a friend come get me #🦷

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maple-and-pie · 6 months ago

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Pride Eeveelutions!

Edit: now as stickers!

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hinamie · 4 months ago

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unconditionally

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #megumi fushiguro #itafushi #fushiita #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #megumi #yuuji #im shaky and numb the way this took years off my life #genuinely cannot believe i thought it was smart to make it a comic i could have stuck at a painting and it would have been fine #but nooooooo in my hubris i thought Surely im an expert at this longform stuff now Surely i can do it :)#and then it killed me it killed me dead this is like over twice as long as the train comic and 4 times as detailed #backgrounds . angles. i yearn fr death.#AND I HAD 2 WRITE THEM ACTUALLY TALKING GGSDH i am actually so insecure abt the way the dialogue flows gomen....#i wanted to add more to it to fix how clipped and rushed i think it reads #but that would mean drawing more expressions would mean drawing more panels would mean more gd hyDRANGEAS #so ultimately i decided 2 have the conversation take the hit because let me tell u.#if i have to draw. one more blue petal i will snap i will lose it #i knew tht would happen n wanted to alleviate some of the pain so i found a few brushes that helped speed up the process #but the thing w a lot of premade flower brushes is they also come preshaded n look uniform in a way that stands out badly against my style #so i had 2 render over them anyway........#yuuji's domain rly putting me through the wringer first the train station now death by a bajillion petals smh #all that to say tho . my labour of love . i am going to take a nap #hina.comic

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arielluva · 2 months ago

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spiritual successor to my first post on here

#my art #jojo's bizarre adventure #jojos bizarre adventure #jjba #stone ocean #jolyne cujoh #jolyne kujo #my first post was not nearly as exciting looking as this hence why im not calling it a redraw #but yknow. its a redraw in spirit #happy over 4 years of being on this site to me #2024

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ohbother2 · 10 months ago

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do you know what?

I miss long seasons.

I miss seasons that had 20 episodes and half of them could be cut and nothing would be lost to the story.

I miss the episodes where nothing fucking happens but you get to see the main cast goofing around with one another. You get to see their interactions, their relationships develop, their day-to-day lives and how they all fit together in them.

You get the Christmas/halloween/valentine's special -is it needed? certainly not. but is it good? is it entertaining? does it give the show and characters life? do we, the viewers, enjoy it? YES!

give me long stories!! give me little quarrelling spats between characters that can be resolved in one episode with no need to have an impact on the greater story! make these stories real!

let me enjoy them before they end!!!

I absolutely love Hazbin Hotel and the little world that's been created, but I can't help but feel disappointed we're only getting two seasons of 8 episodes.

back in the early 2000's 16 episodes would have been ONE season, never mind the entire thing.

show my angel dust and husk and nifty and sir penthouse living their daily lives in the hotel! show me Charlie brainstorming ways to redeem sinners! give me Charlie forcing the hotel staff to do cringe-y exercises! give me an entire episode of Vox trying to follow alastor through security cameras! Give me husks typical day! Give me a special through the eyes of nifty on a mission to irradiate the hotel of bugs! Give me sir penthouse and the egg boys up to no good!

give me something other than the bare necessities to make the story flow

6 months have nearly gone by in the hotel, and it feels like 1 month.