#no one says they are proud of me
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literally why does leaving people that cause you literally so much harm hurt so much
#finally wrote back to [redacted] after a full month after he reached out and asked to reconnect and catch up#we havent talked in years#he says he is 52 months sober now#which is. impressive#thats like#over 4 years#but still like. aah#listening to his playlist on spotify rn#i said i wanted to reconnect but i literally shouldnt#he knows where i go to college and im scared he might come find me next year if we talk too much#he was always there for me. even if he wasnt ever what i needed or deserved to have to put up with#im so ashamed of him and the situation that i cant even talk about in therapy i dont know why im tyoing all of this in a tumblr post that m#friends can see#sometimes u gotta#idk let these things out. i guess#remember to delete this later#we talked a little bit today. he said hes impressed with me that i made it to college#he said hes proud of me#no one says they are proud of me#he sent me a picture of him before and after gettign sober. he looks like ten years younger#its kind of insane#he said hes studying the bible now. what the fuck#“Remember me when you're big n famous. Well. Remember the good parts of me”#<- actual quote from him#fuck this fuck this fuck this fuck this#i dont even know if there are any good parts#man who i love so much and who was the only one there for me but who i am so scared of#actually looking back at messages we have talked a little bit in the last few years i have just blocked it out or something#last time i got a message from him that i remember i started shaking in the dining hall and had to make a friend come get me#🦷
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to moving forward
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#jjk spoilers#satoru gojo#jjk manga spoilers#hina.comic#before any1 says anything i KNOw his birthday is in december ik ik ik this is just 2 show some post-battle bonding after the trauma#its winter in canon n megumi's birthday has passed and he spent it being piloted like a mech so they need to celebrate Now!!#also this was technically a request lmao anon wanted megumi birthday angst hehehehhe i hope u like it <3 bc it KILLED ME DEAD#im going to collapse remember when i said this wasnt harder than the hydrangeas im having second thoughts#page 8 made me want to bash my head in#could have stuck with one flashback image could have left them monochrome could have done literally anything 2 ease the workload#but noooo the chronic overachiever in me would not allow it#rule of threes i had to include all of them and they Had to be in colour it wouldn't have hit the same if i had kept it monochrome#i needed it to look how childhood memories look i needed it to look oversaturated and hazy and fond but unmistakably Gone#it may have killed me but im so proud of this rn like from an art style perspective these megumis and yuujis r top tier by my standards#personal favourites r the first and last panel of crying megumi like not 2 pat myself on th back but expression?????? hello??????#enjoy your cake megumi you've earned it <333 sorry fr hurting ur feelings it will happen again#oh my god i can sleep tonight bless <333 and i met my 3 day deadline NICE im so good at what i do
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I feel the room swayin'
While the band's playin'
One of our old favourite songs from way back when 🎵
#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#hazbin alastor#hazbin rosie#alastor#alastor x rosie#radiorose#my art#digital art#autodesk sketchbook#I've fallen into radiorose and I can't get up they captivate me#ALSO I AM SO SO PROUD OF THE SECOND DRAWING U DON'T EVEN KNOW#I like this one so so much probably one of my favourite drawing ever I'm not even kidding#this idea was from a tweet that popped on my tl saying Rosie should dip Alastor the same way he diped her in Ready For This#I got struck with inspiration and needed to draw it out
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they'll find each other again, eventually
#yugioh#ygo dm#ygo#yugi mutou#yuugi mutou#yami yugi#pharaoh atem#atem#yugioh atem#puzzleshipping#blindshipping#my art tag#artists on tumblr#illustration#hello . i drew this like 2 yrs ago atp and i realized i. never posted it lol oospie xP#im still rlly proud of it !! fond of how atem came out in particular#did yuugi die? was atem brought back to life?? u tell me!#(its the second one imo..)#u cant just go from having contsant access to cheeseburgers and britney spears to a time before ketchup and ipods#anyway . thought id post this while i remembered its existance. *fades into the darkness*#or should i say. the shadow realm . sorry
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john price x reader, but accidentally running into the 141 after only going on a few dates with Price wc: 0.9K warnings: mentions of sex, age gap, daddy kink, dacryphilia, use of sweetheart + angel a/n: I make such a stupid joke in this about Ghost and Soap LMAO forgive me
The pub was warm, a sweet haven from the chill outside. It was already decked out with cheap garlands and holiday lights, all hung with care. Your friends tear off to the bar to order a few drinks, leaving you to find a booth.
You slink through the chairs and the tables, making a beeline to the one available booth. You’re about to get nice and cozy when you stop in your tracks.
He’s here.
You didn’t know John terribly well. The two of you had only gone on a few very successful dates, but you were not close enough to know who he was sitting with.
What you did know was this:
1. John was older than you.
2. He was an absolute gentleman whenever he took you out.
3. He really liked when you called him daddy and liked fucking you until you were in tears (and after...especially after).
Back to the three men at the table with him. Given their demeanor, it was safe to assume they were also military. One of them was maybe Gaz/Kyle...bu that was it.
Your feet move automatically. (Somewhere, in the back of your mind, you wonder if you should stop walking and go back to the booth you found. Maybe it’s too early to meet his friends.)
The men’s boisterous voices quiet as you approach, and the one with a mohawk elbows one who's masked. You ignore them, focusing on John, whose face softens a smidge (and his eyes light up).
“Hi, John.” You’re a little more nervous than you thought you would be. (He had you creaming on his cock and whining like you were in heat the other night. This should be nothing!)
“Hi, Sweetheart,” he answers, standing to kiss your cheek. “What’re you doing here?” His eyes are warm and earnest, immediately putting your anxieties to rest.
“Just getting a drink with my friends before the new year. Things are about to pick up, so we’re trying to just get a drink one last time.” John looks at you so fondly, it warms your heart. Fuck the alcohol, fuck the fire or radiator or whatever’s in here, all you need is John Price to look at you like this to make you warm and toasty.
“Would you all want to sit with us?” He asks, knocking on the table. You glance at the table full table, trying not to laugh at his friend's expressions (shock and disbelief coupled with some respect for Price).
Remembering his manners, John introduces you to his men and places one large, strong, hand on the small of your back. You lean into him slightly, trying to not seem too pleased to be here with him.
“This is Gaz, Soap, and Ghost,” John introduces. You freeze, confused for a second. You thought..... Oh. Oh.
“Oh.” You say aloud. Stupidly. John quirks a brow at you, prompting you to ramble on.
“I’m sorry. To be candid, I thought Soap and Ghost were your dogs..." you say trailing off at the end.
To be fair, he had only ever been to your place. You stare at Soap and Ghost. Based on the small amount of information you knew, you had just assumed...
John lets out a deep laugh and pulls you closer into his side.
“What?” Soap yells. He’s no longer checking you out appreciatively and just looks at you in disbelief. “How could you think that, lassie?”
“Well, John seems like a man who lives alone with two big dogs that have manly names.” You explain, sinking more into John’s side, trying to embed yourself into this warmth.
His thumb lightly strokes your back, sending shivers up your spine. He's so big and strong and... Your brain turns to mush for a second.
“Well, what about Gaz?” Soap gestures to said man, trying desperately to make any ground in this. Your push away your vaguely horny thoughts. You have to lock back in for Kyle's sake. You smile at Gaz and politely extend your hand.
“No, I knew Kyle was a man. A pleasure to meet you.” Gaz shakes your hand and beams while Soap slumps over, and Ghost looks like he’s rethinking how he got here.
“Need to work on your manners. That way when Captain talks about you, people don’t think you're dogs,” Gaz says drawing out and emphasizing dogs with a cheeky smile. Soap just grumbles.
“Anyway,” you start to say, turning your attention back to John. “My friends and I are about to take that booth back there, but thank you for the offer. But call me. Or text.” He nods and leans in to press a quick, chaste to your lips.
“Have a good night, Sweetheart.” You nod before going to finally claim your booth.
You hear Soap ask why John ‘calls Kyle by his name but not me or Simon’, making you smile. They seem nice.
And then you hear what you assume to be Ghost, say, “Not bad, Captain. Not bad at all.”
You preen at that, chipper mood carrying you through the night, even as your friends bombard you with questions once they’re all seated.
You wave shyly at John and his friends when they eventually file out into the cold. John sends you a wink that has you sinking into the booth. You’re so fucked.
About 15 minutes later, your phone buzzes.
Can’t stop thinking about you, angel
Apparently, he’s fucked too.
#john price x reader#cod x reader#john price smut#cod smut#captain price x reader#captain price smut#its such a dumb joke#im sorry its been stuck in my head tho LMAO#when Soap says “What?!” i need you all to know im hearing the Oscar Proud echoey “WHAT” when he's off camera#no one will know what that means but its important to me
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Chillin and getting a drink after a day of manipulating the masses 🫶
#myart#Transformers One#TF One#Sentinel Prime#Airachnid#Zuka said that and it was so funny#Ermm I just wanna say that I don't know anything abour drawing transformers or robots 😶#So plz excuse me if it's a lil ugly here and there#I just hadd to draw the baddies 🙈#It's not a surprise that I'd be falling for them lol#Kept it a lil messy than how I usually draw so I don't focus on trying to make it look good :p#Anyways hope yall like this one!#I'm pretty proud of it! :D#tfo sentinel prime#tfo airachnid
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Happy birthday, @fanaticsnail 💙
Happy birthday, my dearest Snail. How glad I am to be able to call you my friend and do this for you. I am glad for all the times I managed to get to know you better through our messages. And I am glad for being able to wish you a happy birthday and gift you this Cora pic I drew just for you. I drew it quite a while ago always with the intention of gifting it to you, but when I found out when your birthday is, I decided to make it a little bit more special. I love you, Snail, and I'm happy to have you in my life. With all that said, once more, happy birthday, and I hope you have lots of fun. Enjoy your Rosi like this, peaceful.
#i finished this a long time and my friend had to physically restrain me from not gifting it to you early#shoutout to her#one piece#digital art#my art#skullfaced snail#i love our tag#skullfacedlady draws#donquixote rosinante#one piece fanart#donquixote corazon#he is laying down in shallow waters#i wanna join him#i used to do the same when goibg to this one beach that had a lot of shallow parts#it was beautiful#reminded me of that#it was lowkey what inspired it#i wanted to draw him in some valley laying in fields of flowers but honestly#i like the sea more so i went with that#love you and adore you snail#i wanted to say that im proud of you#and for all that youve been writing#you did an insane job and i applaud you#thank you for being a friend
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bonclay time
(timeline)
#one piece#monkey d luffy#nico robin#sir crocodile#bon clay#crocodad au#my art#my comic#described in alt text#i had one (1) comic planned with bonclay but this ask got me thinking about how hilarious the dynamic between out and proud genderqueer#bonclay vs closeted trans man croc is. even thought they never meet face to face. croc must get nervous sweats at first hearing luffy#saying 'okama' because of bonclay. with time he gets used to it/no longer feels like a slur to him.
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@mattmelloweek 2024 - Day 3: New beginnings
#ok#I’m gonna say it#here I go#I’M PROUD OF THIS ONE#WTFFFFFFF#but I’m giving them for adoption again before I go mad noticing things wrong#rudolph!matt I guess#“Nadiu why is he so cold?! Give him his coat!!”#NO UGLY COATS FOR MATT#MELLO WOULD THANK ME#they survived AU btw#that’s their new beginning#CAN WE ALL APPRECIATE MATT’S PUPPY EYES PLS??#MELLO GIVE HIM A TREATO#my art#death note#mattmelloweek2024#mellodramattic#matt x mello#mello x matt#matt#mello#mail jeevas#mihael keehl
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*appears with a note saying "odypen art pls?"*
mwah!
*skidaddles*
russet potato & banana peel <3
#i fear i cooked with this one#what waiting for the ithaca saga does to a mf#lol#im very proud of this#never would have guessed it would turn out this good#forgive me for the lack of facial features my braincells can only go so far. also turns out i cant draw noses to save my life#yay me#epic the musical#epic the ithaca saga#ithaca saga#would you fall in love with me again#my art#grey hairs whoop whoop!!#the scarsssss#sorry this took forever to answer lol#hope u liek <3#inbox shenanigans#do i do requests now?#whos to say#odypen#odysseus#penelope#so many tags lol
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does anybody feel Zesty abt ldr Sun?? oh hey yeah not me pffft nah. spirals
love death and rollerskates by @spadillelicious
#fnaf#dca fandom#scribbits art#art#lovely magma w sneeb and slime last night :DDDD#i didnt include bikini sun because i wasnt proud of that one but#yk#sneeb sleeps on sun ever so happily#wish that were me fr fr#also my dad walked in while i was writing the dialogue for the last image#he only saw “c-can you kill me” and he was upset and told me not to write that sorta stuff but#i think he would have many more words to say if i zoomed out a little#love death and rollerskates#sun fnaf#fnaf sun#tw suggestive#suggestive#cw suggestive
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pinned like a butterfly
hes fine lamb just wanted to take a closer look at him
(its much better with brightness up)
#pins him up to study like a bug#cotl#cult of the lamb#cotl narinder#narinder#my art#hheyyyyy its been ages since i did a painting i did this all in one night#corkboard .png background#it took like 7 hrs probably actually like 5 cause i was doing htings in the middle but still aaages#tw gore#tw blood#tw needles#cw gore#cw blood#cw needles#i think thats everything but if theres more shoot me a message#you know how ppl say 'don't look too close at this' well feel free to look close im proud of it i like how it turned out#i can only do paintings if i have a really detailed image in my brain of what i want and its been a while#cw: scopophobia#tw: scopophobia#cw scopophobia#tw scopophobia
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His mind flashes to Henry.
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#red white and royal blue#rwrb#rwrbedit#firstprince#rwrb spoilers#alex claremont diaz#prince henry#lgbtq#filmedit#dailylgbtq#lgbtedit#*#alex x henry#book v movie#nicholas galitzine who told you you were allowed to make *that* face?? god#i'm pretty proud of this one ngl :')#there are many lines that arent iconic but means a lot to me#and that makes me stop and say wow casey so real#this is one of them#the one is when alex is watching henry 'create Prince Henry of Wales for the day.'
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Younger Steven and Mclooy Rudboys lore because they're my faves and I love them dearly
#thats not my neighbor#tnmn#steven rudboys#mclooy rudboys#tnmn fanart#i want what they have (a healthy loving father-son relationship)#mclooy to me seems like the type of dad who cares deeply about his son#but also would let steven have his first drink of whiskey as soon as he was old enough to ask what papá was drinking#bc he “wants his son to be A MAN!!!!!*TM*”#he has old fashioned values but his heart is in the right place#he's very proud of steven even though he doesn't always say it out loud#hc that his own papá was the one to give him his buzzcut when he first joined the airforce so he was very proud to do it for his own son to#oh i love them so much
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senshi stimboard
if you’re seeing this, then senshi wants you to take care of yourself and go eat some food <3
sources: 🧡🧡🤎 | 🥘🍲🥘 | 🤎🧡🧡
#senshi says the kind of food doesn’t matter bc all food is good food! just try to go have a snack rn! senshi will be very proud if u do :))#stimboard#senshi#senshi of izganda#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#food stim#cooking#knives#sharps#tw raw meat#stim board#my boards#personal boards#food#brown#green#yellow#red#oughhh this is definitely one of my favorite boards I’ve made in a LONG time..#love that I was able to both make a senshi board (delightful) AND use it as an excuse to just fill a board with cozy food stims#man senshi is literally so important to me.. I love him….#I swear bro is literally the patron saint of ed recovery rn lmaooo#bless him <33 he is genuinely motivating me to eat. and to make boards again apparently!
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what's better than Hawks AND baby Hawks?
#my hero academia#bnha#fanart#hawks#keigo takami#this is super healing for me to draw#idk why#like#i smiled the whole time drawing it omg#just wanna ruffle his hair and call him a good boi ;-;#i drew this bc i came across a post like “what would your 8 yo self would say to you now”#ye baby Hawks would be proud of him#anyway guys i like both versions of his hair#couldn't choose one to draw
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