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servingcuntry · 5 months ago

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fun fact: you don't always have to open your fucking mouth, you don't have to talk, you don't have to make everything about you. like, JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP! (talking about myself <3)

#feeling dramatic again #aka mentally ill #i am so sorry #idfk what is wrong with me rn #tw vent #wanna love myself more too #but idfk how to #i just feel so bad right now #what the hell #off to shower #laera ☆ yaps

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customboytoyz · 8 days ago

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I make posts for hypersexual trans guys who never had a fear of sex but a fascination with it. who had their sex awakening so intensely and so early that the gender awakening had to play catch up.

who were undeniably and rabidly attracted to men but completely bugged out when men reciprocated and couldnt comprehend why. because the answer definitely wasnt lesbianism.

dudes who have such an intense dysphoria and hate themselves, but not in the way that they need to be used like a fucktoy with no worth, im the way that they want to shove their cock in something but cant. Dudes that want to be seen like a god when they fuck and agonize when they cant get that.

#proudly never been scared of sex #lesbian masterdoc had me thinking it was comphet no i needed to stick my dick in them #sighs #thinking of an old coworker i had years ago who was russian and i was like fresh 18 #we even went on a semi date but after i let it get awkward #like genuinely i hated myself so much if i loved myself n my body more i wouldve swung it #boyposting #like nooo i dont wanna be a sub girl to u i want to rail you sooo bad #ftm nsft #like dudes who were into american psycho and correctly think they can top patrick bateman w their covk #and hed take it too

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savefrog · 3 months ago

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thank you to that tumblr post that said to create a trollsona in 2023 because a friendgroup of mine did all the quizzes and shit and then descended into goddamn madness and ended up with a goddamn sburb session spreadsheet with lands, classpects, consorts, strife specibi, THE WHOLE SHEBANG even wikipedia diving for Denizen names with THEMATIC MEANINGS and shit it was the most free and healing 24 hours of my life i think of it fondly on this day, apparently the anniversary of Cascade which I didn't learn until AFTER I dredged all this back up. mad world.

#cringe...but free #i never even finished homestuck lmao...#honestly more attached to my new trollsona than i ever was to the one i tried to make in highschool as an actual homestuck fan #this is less because i suddenly love homestuck again and more bc i just wanna see myself in dude form over and over #and really the only thing i had to do was trans him n suddenly i was invested #it was funny i had issues making self inserts and figured i hated myself too much to do it until i figured that one out LMAO #his fetch modus is the spectrobes/pokemon diamond and pearl fossil mining minigame #ill only post him if someone begs #dullblogging #sorry to homestuck post in 2024 it wont happen again officer

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turtleblogatlast · 11 months ago

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Leo getting hit with a truth curse but instead of forcing him to admit to super sad or worrying things it’s things like “it was me who broke the remote” “I saw Mikey prank Donnie and helped hide it because it’s way funnier if he didn’t know who it was” “I rip my clothes to look more like Raph’s because he’s really cool” “my stripes aren’t even red they’re pink!”

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #plot twist he COULD be admitting angsty stuff but he’s pushing the less oof truths forward instead on purpose #raph: hey leo what do you want for dinner #leo: *about to bare his soul on all his internal torment but pivots* I’m afraid of snakes #(no but fr Leo’s stripes being technically more pink instead of red is cute ngl)#(a very reddish pink to the point that in certain lighting it looks red but at the base they’re p pink)#(i also am very fond of the idea that Leo doesn’t just have questionable taste in fashion he also just loves Raph a lot and looks up to him)#but yeah I think that something like this would be 99% Leo admitting to unimportant things or admitting to how much he values everyone #like they all KNOW Leo loves them and he’s talked them up enough for them to know but it’s different when he’s like #‘I just wanna read my comics with you guys around - it’s my favorite place to be’#or again just random bs that doesn’t REALLY have a lot of weight like #‘I like using my portals to prank random people around the world’#‘I’m worried about being a bad influence on hueso jr’#‘sometimes I kinda wanna see hypno’s plans succeed’#‘it’s been way too long since I found this out and honestly it’s embarrassing but I actually don’t have a di-‘#SORRY COULDNT HELP MYSELF #(<-but did u know that that pink rather than red observation actually ties into this headcanon as well if u know about red eared sliders)

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deoidesign · 4 months ago

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I met the me who made different choices

#idk what this means so dont ask #got the words stuck in my head and this is what I wanted to draw for it immediately #me at my desk. so.#I dont look exactly like this obviously. doesnt matter. anyways #hard time recently in a lot of different ways #lots of work to do!#given up on getting everything done I kind of failed at that. it was too much #so now I'm just trying to get anything done that will make the next 6 months not kill me again #ideally. 3 episodes. or the book #or like at least close enough to that that its basically that #I'm feeling really screwed LOL #I dont know how I've been working every day for so long and still havent done enough...#(its because the work load is way too much)#every time I take 1 hour for myself. to cook. or clean. or draw something else. or play a game. I feel so guilty auauau #I hate webtoon I hate this damn green app...#DOESNT MATTER!!!#what DOES matter is my art is good as hell... look at this shit...#the light. the colors. I love you red I love you green #I need to get more red pants I only have the one pair.#I saw this guy with red pants that had skeleton legs on them and I was like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!! I need them!!!!#I need to start sewing again. I dont have a sewing machine cause my apartment is too small so I havent sewn in years but I really want to..#I want to make clothes again... I need some vests I need some dresses..#I will not make pants or sleeved shirts because I dont hate myself #sketch #art #vent art I guess LMFAO its not #its just this fun little thing we like to call self expression #also this isnt how my desk setup actually is I scooted things around cause I didnt wanna draw anything twice. fuck it we ball #ok back to work

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surreal-duck · 6 months ago

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live drama adaptations part 2 (prev)

cast reveal and girls movie night 🔥

#i actually had the first three pages done for like. months now. and then i just forgot 🧍‍♂️#theres one more part to this but as to when ill finish that. haha #duck scribbles #minicomic tag #midoyuzu #and a bit of tomohaji on the side #doodles #enstars #midori takamine #hajime shino #yuzuru fushimi #tori himemiya #ibara saegusa #this is. a lot better quality than the first initial one amsdkjgshdgsmd i kindaa wanna redo it but its already a multiple part one i dont #think ill do that to myself rn akjdgskjwkjgjkd #its been 8 months i doubt anyone would remember the initial one but its ok u dont have to read it #i completely made up this manga and am now a little sad its not a thing that exists #i wish haruno was a real character i could post mangacaps of #thought too hard about it and there isnt any way to fit it into here but there is also a fourth character harunos childhood gyaru friend #also in love w her. she ends up having some sort of alliance with naoto but obviously its in vain too but its all chill #manga ends with haruno opening her dream cafe and asahi later joins her there after training a new team to take care of their old one #naoto becomes a regular there also w his new bf :] happy ending !!!#wow i have drawn Way too much lately. forgive me for such behavior ill probably be posting a lot less from here on out askjdgksjhgs #needed the food for when im away from my laptop for a week....#guess ill never get to finish that other lil comic i had planned for that sleepover drawing i made back during rarepair week </3 #does anyone actually read these anyhow. i talk too much maybe

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kj-beastboy · 2 months ago

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Pregnancy as a kink makes me uncomfortable so man am I glad your pregg Flug stuff is explicitly not kink oriented!

yeah I... don't wanna judge anyone... but it's more than that, it's downright terrifying to me. Blame my hormones bc I'm expecting irl but wow... I'm very sensitive and it feels dehumanizing. but ig that is kinda the point of the kink(?)

it's so common in fandoms!

I'm completely vanilla anyway tho, so not surprising.

I've tried to pretend for a super long time that I'm into kink, but most of them are off putting and I consider them intrusive thoughts, not fantasies. I'm kinda fluctuating between sex-repulsed and neutral (aroace) even fictional... ig kink just isn't for me. I tried so hard to get over it. I know some people in my asks/requests are gonna be disappointed but I'm sorry💔

I'm slightly ashamed of how boring I am and I have serious trouble connecting to anyone in fandoms due to this actually🤕 feel like the most NT autistic person ever.

anyway here's a doodle!

#that's autism for you #I'm sadly really picky and easily grossed out by things #I'm not even trying to be judgemental #I wish I was such a person that is just chill with everything but I have more icks than likes #so my fandom experience is like 80% discomfort and trying to avoid things without shutting out the majority of content in the first place #from what I heard I seem to have this problem particularly in this fandom bc the series is horror.#and I ship a toxic ship.#but I neither enjoy horror nor this trope. so what the fuck am I doing here #how did I get here. I'm lost guys #but yeah; it naturally attracts more people that are into quite dark or hardcore things #and I'm just sitting here with my soft dick in my hand wondering where it all went wrong #i don't belong here #I can't relate to 99% of people #honestly? I just... like Flug....... I just adore the autistic scientist #and I wanna SMOOCH him but I can't identify too well with myself or thus my sona #so how the fuck am I gonna smooch and love on this man #I need SOME second character for this!!#well Black Hat is pretty cool and easier to draw than the rest; I like his design...#so here we are.#I'm not really in it with my heart. I don't understand the essence of this ship. I'm a fandom blep #that's why a lot of content is probably disturbing and upsetting as hell to me.#but that's just my theroy..... a Joshi™ theory #sorry for rant I am bored and tired😔#enjoy #villainous #villanos #dr flug #kenning flugslys #my art #ask reply

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housecow · 8 months ago

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Girl please stop romanticizing obesity, it will literally kill you eventually (and I know it’s not the first time someone says it to you). Like are you even ok? Romanticizing being immobile & being humiliated on the street? Why would you even aspire to this? For some attention of questionable men on this app? Girl they don’t deserve you. This message comes from a place of concern, it is not intended as an insult. You said you want a career in the future, maybe focus on that, I’m not sure how possible it is do all that while being immobile or having whatever condition.

omfg �� i apologize for writing little stories to get myself off, i guess?? lmfao. i have a fetish. i state clearly in my bio that this is what to expect. sorry im horny posting anonymously on tumblr.com ???? stop being weird when u don’t even belong in these spaces

#this is so silly #like i really have any choice but to focus on my career #and i’ve literally said before that i don’t plan on reaching immobility #i really doubt i could. i have tummy issues and am literally allergic to garlic #and i’ve also definitely stated before that what i do requires me to have some level of fitness #permits went thru and i have. a massive project out in west TX in september #also. why does this person assume i’m not doing it for myself??#i was fat before posting here. and i will be fat after #i love my body and i’d love it even more if i was bigger #but i’m fine where i am and i’d be fine losing 50lbs too #tho i don’t wanna be under 200lbs bc that’s where body dysmorphia starts #i am predominantly attracted to fat women so. let me be that pls lol #anon. we have one life and i’m genuinely blessed to have attraction to smthn outside of the norm #this variation is normal within a population and i will have a normal life despite what ppl like you think #talk #ask

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wheatcak3 · 6 months ago

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felt like doing a little redraw of the sillies uwu 💖

original from 2022:

#it's been two years and i still havent gotten myself star shaped sunglasses 💔#ONE DAY!!! ONE DAY THEY'LL BE MINE #i think i have a love hate relationship with the old art style #granted im sure that is how a lot of people feel about their old art haha #I wanna do more redraws someday #i am too eepy though uwu (i say after sleeping for 12 hours)#genshin impact #nameless bard #venti #wheat art

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kopifurann · 3 months ago

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Hetalia X Alien Stage

Round 5

#hetalia #aph france #Francis Bonnefoy #aph belarus #aph taiwan #hws #BelaTai #Hetalia x Alien Stage AU #holy shit yall can't you believe i did this in a span of like three days??? The thirst of seeing sociopathic Francis Bonnefoy is like drug #to me #ANYWAY GO WATCH ALIEN STAGE BY VIVINOS AND QMENG IT SO GOOD #this is so fun actually ended up practicing framing and colour for vibes!! i might do more this kind of screen redraw thing #Especially final round #Arthur as Till and Fran as Luka for the absolute Toxic Yaoi #Love Arthur as sad loser puppy heheh #so if ur wondering why i pick Taiwan and Belarus as Mizi and Sua when nyotalia cast def would be better suited for it #i just wanna challenge myself plus Fem Heta character is just too underrated so why not #im imagining the Alien Stage AU as if its a movie/Musical and they're actors lol #kopifuran

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andro-dino · 2 months ago

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currently on episode 8 of eom and I think I can confidently say I already definitely have a favorite

as I put it so eloquently on my priv Twitter,

I love all of the party actually they’re all really great. they r all very cutesy and charming and I like them all a lot. Marius is the only other one I’ve drawn so far bc I’m lazy and humanoids are easy to draw <3

I love his big ass goofy grins whenever he shows people his fangs he’s such a dork I love him

^ moment from ep 6 that I went crazy for. it’s funny knowing what ships are popular going into a campaign bc it always ends up with me either going “okay when r the moments gonna happen im ready i know they’re coming when are they coming” or just

I am already very obsessed with them I can’t wait to see more of them I JUST REALLY LIKE THIS CAMPAIGN SO FAR IN GENERAL IM HAVING A GREAT TIME EVEN WITH ALL THE VIOLENT SHUDDERS OF VISCERAL DISGUST THAT FREQUENTLY OVERTAKE ME LISTENING TO HOW NIKKIE DESCRIBES THE HORRIFIC BITS 🫶🫶🫶🫶

#legends of avantris #edge of midnight #lethica nightborne #marius renathyr #I cannot understand or describe enough how much I love lethica she is everything to me #I wanna look up fanart and things so bad but I am trying to avoid spoilers like the plague until I’m caught up #I’ve already seen a few too many for my liking I cannot subject myself to more #also shoutout to my priv Twitter’s bird kazami/team persona layout #this entire post was actually just me subliminally telling you to watch beyblade x it’s so banger

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kinokoshoujoart · 10 months ago

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oops all rock (springtime edition)

i’ll be able to draw digitally again soon! ;w; in the meantime i’ve been scribbling a lot on paper…

could not wait for Soon, so i resorted to coloring it using the markup tool in default iphone photos app (don’t do that ever again)

#my art #sos awl #debating whether to just dump my sketches from my soujourn to hell or save them to be transferred and finished as digital stuff #or like both idk. i don’t know how ppl feel about WIPs #i’m happy to post art again ;w; thank you everyone who welcomed me back i’m slowly getting through everything i missed while i was y’know #and thank you for the sweet messages while i was gone i am bbghkjh i need to calm myself and respond !!!! love #rock tumbling (sos)#story of seasons a wonderful life #bokumono #story of seasons #harvest moon #hm awl #harvest moon a wonderful life #bunny sighting 😳 i still have THOSE wips too #there’s certain things i wanna prioritize once i can use my tablet again and those are one of them #but i will also probably post new stuff alongside finishing old unfinished stuff….. i hope that is OK……#idk i’ll have to talk more later! right now i am nervous!!! i love you all!!!!#fanart #awl rock #bokujou monogatari #hm anwl #unfortunately this scum neet still has my entire heart so. most of the notebook is just him pulling goofy faces… sorry……..#also a lot of lumina and nami…. and molly…. they r really cool…#ceci is also cool and i’ve drawn a collage of her that i just. never posted #mostly drawing HMDS related stuff about the descendant characters #OK I’LL STOP TAGBLOGGING #i am once again back in DS for girl hell. i want to make a series of posts about differences in the English vs the Japanese version #and also fun secret things related to DS #this is all in the future i gotta finish all my unfinished stuff…. uuuu….#i love you all mmmmmwah (i cast sleepy time blanket and sleep forever)

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waywardstation · 5 months ago

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I still browse the submas tag so regularly but after all these inactive periods I used to take, I’d fallen into this sort of self-conscious slump of being too shy to interact with posts and the fandom for a long time and I know it’s been like that for months. Trying to do better about that now instead of being so nervous about it ^^

#I’ve been running around following a lot of people now after a period of inactivity so if anyone’s wondering why this is why #nothing to be nervous about cause there are so many kind people here #just a general anxiety thing that happens and I know it’s kept me from feeling like I can interact for a while I WANNA GET OVER THAT #it’s been a bit of an exhaustion thing too from irl stuff not letting up but I love this fandom and want to be more active in showing that #I know I’ve just kind of contained myself to this blog again out of just anxiety but that’s not fun #I’ve tried a lot of times but keep wimping out and going ‘no I can start again another day’ but I can’t keep saying that every time #TODAY IS THE DAY #I love this fandom and want to be better about showing it

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genericpuff · 1 year ago

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vent post