#altho on another note i do wanna make time this week to go find new series to read

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vent post

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Stay | Jaehwan

genre: fluff

member: jaehwan 

requested: yess!

summary: jaehwan have never thought of confessing to you until he found himself in a dangerous situation. 

side note: thank you so much for requesting 💓 i’m so sorry i took such a long time to finish this ㅠㅠ i hope this makes sense and it isn’t too boring :/ altho it is a bit short but i really hope it meets your expectations :>

“so when is jaehwan ever gonna confess to you? the both of you should get together!” your best friend nudged you as jaehwan leaves the table

you groaned 

you have actually been hearing this question for quite some time now 

be it your friends or jaehwan’s friends, they have all been asking this question 

you clearly don’t see what is going on 

everyone claims that jaehwan have a crush on you

but… you don’t see it 

i mean if he does, he would at least tell you right?

and you believe the only reason why your friends or his friends constantly tease you about this because you and jaehwan grew up together

just like those clique childhood friends

you and jaehwan are no different

you guys started off as neighbors

and since you’re the only child, you would get bored easily 

you always wish you have someone to play with while your parents are at work

and jaehwan is that someone that kept you accompanied 

you guys treat each other houses like your own 

and you would invade his room more than you should 

even though you guys are just kids, jaehwan doesn’t act like one 

in your eyes, he is just like a brother to you

if he sees you hungry, he is more than willing to give up his last piece of pizza for you 

when you fall and scrap on your knees, jaehwan would always be there to wipe your tears and give you bandits 

basically, even before calling for him, jaehwan is already there beside you 

just like that, the both of you grow up together 

you thought your friendship would drift apart after knowing that you won’t be going to the same middle school as jaehwan 

but jaehwan still made the effort to find you

this time round, when he goes to your house, he brings his guitar along 

he would entertain you with his singing

and you enjoyed it so much 

you have no idea that your best friend has such a talent for singing 

and even until now, when you guys are in the same high school

no changes

jaehwan is still your close friend

he is still going to your house like it is his

and he is still singing to keep you accompany 

honestly, you don’t see anything wrong with that 

isn’t that what best friends should do?

you don’t understand why is everyone taking this another way 

and claim that the both of you are an item 

that’s what you thought

but little did you know, that’s the truth

jaehwan have actually been crushing on you

but you being a dense person, couldn’t realize the fact

when you guys are still young

jaehwan thought it is normal to have his heart beating so fast around you

he thought this should be the feeling he gets when he is around girls

but when jaehwan told his friends, that’s when he knows he is in love with you already

that’s when he started taking notice whenever he is around you 

there is just something about you that made jaehwan feel weird inside 

you could effortlessly make him happy

whenever you’re not around, he finds his mind drifting off to you naturally 

and if he doesn’t see you, he couldn’t function well

although you can drive him nuts at times, but jaehwan has never considered once about telling you his true feelings for you 

to put simply, jaehwan is afraid

what if you don’t like him?

what if he isn’t good enough for you?

or what if because of his confession, everything between you and him ends?

jaehwan have never thought of losing you 

and he doesn’t want to know how it feels 

even though you’re just his childhood friend, but you mean the world to him 

he would rather not take the risk to confess and lose you 

and jaehwan thought he has been doing a good job in hiding his feelings

but guess what

almost everyone could see through him 

everyone could tell that he has heart eyes for you 

no matter how hard jaehwan denies, everyone could still point out the truth

“seriously jaehwan! just tell her your feelings, i’m sure she feels the same!” that is what everyone says

“i… i just can’t!” 

he thought if things stay the same between the both of you, everything would be fine 

“as long as i’m beside y/n, taking care of her, everything will be okay” jaehwan convinced himself

jaehwan continued having that mentality until a day where he found himself in a dangerous position

“class, please welcome junyoung into our class” 

“you may take a seat beside y/n”

at first, having a new classmate didn’t bother jaehwan until he sees you 

the moment junyoung took a seat beside you, that smile on your face have never faded even for a second

when junyoung greeted you with a smile, you immediately got a good feeling about him 

and just within 5 minutes, junyoung effortlessly kept your smile there 

you guys talked as if you known each other for years 

“y/n and junyoung, please pay attention in class” 

which made you almost forget that you’re in class 

even during break time, you carried on talking to junyoung to a point where you totally forgot about your daily break time with jaehwan

“y/n! aren’t we gonna have break time together?” 

“sure! junyoung, you can join us too!” you invited junyoung 

even before jaehwan could speak another word, he sees the both of you walk off already 

“y/n won’t forget about me… right?” jaehwan wondered

and as time passes, he found himself doubting

even though jaehwan is there with you, it feels as if he is invisible 

you talked to junyoung as if jaehwan isn’t there in the first place

you paid attention to junyoung to a point where you didn’t realize jaehwan’s dull expressions

jaehwan probably sighed so many times but you still wouldn’t hear it 

jaehwan secretly prayed that this would only last for a day 

but turns out to be weeks 

even when weeks have passed, you and junyoung started getting closer and closer

while you and jaehwan started getting further and further 

not only that, you also realized jaehwan stopped coming over to your house over the weekends

although you have junyoung now, but you would still have that empty feeling bugging you 

as if something is taken away from you 

whenever you hang out with junyoung and you hear him sing with his guitar, it would inevitably remind you of jaehwan

jaehwan would always sing to you during the weekends

and now that junyoung is the one singing, you couldn’t get used to his voice 

and by the time you realized you haven’t been with jaehwan lately, guilt started creeping into your heart

“i must have neglected jaehwan…” 

just when you are about to make up for jaehwan, that’s when you realized how different things are now 

jaehwan is much quieter as compared to the past

even when he replies you, you couldn’t help but feel that coldness in his tone 

as much as you want to ignore and brush this off your mind

but you just couldn’t 

just when you thought by reaching out to jaehwan through text would be a good choice

but turns out to be wrong as well 

never for once that jaehwan would reply late to your text

on top of that, cold reply is something jaehwan will never do

you wondered why have things turned this way 

you blamed yourself for paying too much attention to junyoung that you never noticed jaehwan leaving you 

with that, you felt something warm on your face

why are you even crying?

you regretted so much so that you’re suddenly afraid that you might lose jaehwan just like this 

how can you ever lose your childhood buddy?

with that, you planned to talk to jaehwan face to face the next day 

surprisingly, this bugged you more than it should 

you couldn’t sleep well 

you couldn’t eat well 

all you wanna do is to talk to jaehwan 

just like any other days where you would walk home with jaehwan, you decided to break that silence

“jaehwan… why are you avoiding me lately? why are you so cold to me?” you bit on your lips as you wait for his reply 

“no, i’m not” 

“you are! in fact, you changed after i got closer with junyoung. what’s wrong, jaehwan?” 

even after saying so much, jaehwan continued acting cold towards you

you had enough

“fine, jaehwan. i have enough of this!”

just before you storm off, jaehwan pulled you by your arm 

“i-i like you okay! i was all jealous when you started getting closer to him and seeing the way you smiled at him makes me scared… that i will lose you” 

“what did you just say?” you stared at jaehwan who is busy blushing 

“stop making me jealous and just stay by my side, y/n” 

instead of feeling relief, you actually got angry 

“you should have said it earlier! you know how worried i was when i see you in this cold state” you hit him hard in his chest

but your hand soon got stopped 

“you don’t have to worry anymore” 

and finally, after such a long time, you finally see the same old jaehwan that you knew for years

you could finally see that smile that you miss so much

a smile that strangely brings so much warmth to your heart 

i guess you can say it’s a feeling that no other person could make you feel this way 

a feeling of love

a feeling that only jaehwan could bring ♡