#w a personality disorder lmao***

[angelnumber27]

violently forcing myself to have better days

[bunnihearted]

🕸🎀˚.⁺⊹

[madqueenalanna]

so i decided to do a lil more research on ocpd, the thing i have, and the list of symptoms on every single website have me GAGGED

"they believe that if everyone else conformed to their strict rules, things would be fine"

"over devotion to work" "not wanting to allow other people to do things" "not willing to show affection"

"a miserly approach to spending for themselves and others because they see money as something to be saved for future disasters"

THREE DIFFERENT WEBSITES. I AM SICK I HAVE TO LEAVE

[riversidekid]

[anotherpapercut]

yesterday a straight cis friend of mine confessed to me that she still eats chick fil a sometimes and said that she feels like she's committing a hate crime every time she does it and I was like haha yeah that makes sense......

[phagodyke]

once again saved by elden ring 🙏

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

Been watching this woman teach Welsh in Spanish, and on the one hand, it’s super helpful for me to learn/improve both, but it also reminds me how woefully inept I am in Spanish and yet 5x as functional in it VS Welsh lmao I’m utterly doomed

[twinknote]

neuroqueer flag concepts (pls weigh in neurodivergent queer ppl)

ok y'all. i recently saw a post abt the term "neuroqueer" and rly loved it and was rly disappointed when i looked up the flag and it's kinda ugly to me and also practically impossible to draw/recreate (no offense to whoever designed the flag i have no hate for u, i'm just a picky ND bitch)

so i started brainstorming for a new flag and after researching, i have some concepts.

first: the definition of neuroqueer from wiktionary is: belonging to, characteristic of, or related to the intersection of neurodivergence and queerness

so obviously ppl have different opinions on who exactly is ND. i feel strongly that people with mental illness(es) should be included in the ND category if they identify with it. the last thing i would want to do is exclude any member of the ND community.

so i decided against the concept of doing stripes for different ND conditions/categories of conditions because it feels kinda gatekeep-esque and also i personally don't like the concept of dividing the community into little subsections.

so i decided to focus more on characteristics and things that are often affected by neurodivergence. i really like this list of broad categories of differences that are often characteristics of neurodiversity:

attention

cognitive

emotion

motor

sensory

i think it includes most (if not all) characteristics of neurodiversity across the board. i did personally add emotion to the list because it wasn't included and i feel it's a huge part of ND experiences such as mental illness, autism, adhd, and many more. i will, however, say that the website where this list came from does support and provide ABA services, which is yucky and makes me feel gross. but, at the same time, i feel like these categories encompass the ND community the best and focuses more on our experiences than our differences from each other.

i have no idea yet what color would be used for each category, but i wanted to put this out there to see what people think. do you like this concept/list? are there any ND identities you feel are left out by this list? do you have any ideas you like better that could be represented on a flag?

[blue-madd]

Looking back at all my notes on those little fictional people in my head that I have known for like 2 days and asking myself :

"am I insane?"

[ruairy]

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[bunnihearted]

im the one society marked as avoidant yet im always the only one who wanna fucking talk things thru. y'all are a fkn joke!!! im sry but u rlly are 💀 im the avoidant one. the one scared of conflict nd afraid of talking.... yet im always the one staying and begging to talk while the other one just leaves or is a wall nd refuses to talk abt it 😹😹😹😹😹

[kindnessoverperfection]

got formally diagnosed with npd today

it's funny how i've known for years that i've been struggling w "high traits", and my therapist and i have been talking about my symptoms n such for a long while now, but this still makes it feel more "real" somehow. idk.

[swallowed-by-the-moon]

was screaming that I'M FUCKING SORRY in my head when I remembered my ex friend, then I checked their posts and I'M NOT FUCKING SORRY I ACTUALLY REMEMBERED WHY I LEFT YOU!!

[euclydya]

wai tstop im the funniest person to give that role to . do n;t do that lmao

[coolcoelacanth]

day 3 of my indentured servitude: already getting annoyed at my temporary coworkers and having to stand next to them for 8 hrs a day. theyre both middle aged women, one of which has more attitude than the other. like godddddddd idk why its so normalized for people to be rude for no reason why does nobody have manners. they're not horrible, but its just like little passive aggressive comments all day and im like 😑 girl im not even getting paid and i don't want to be here. im literally so overly polite to them all the time too bc thats just who i am as a person like idk how people can be sassy to people who literally have not wronged them.

[muzdiir]

i do this rly dumb thing where i wont eat a real meal if its past like 2:30pm. i have a bad habit of laying in bed, mucking about on my phone for hours, & its usually at least like 2pm (but lately much later) by the time i can will myself up. i have been surviving off of single dinner meal & maybe a spoonful of peanut butter in between for...weeks lmao

logically i know i should just eat but i convince myself that my dad will come home (5:30ish) & want to eat dinner shortly thereafter, so i hold out on eating bc i dont want to not be hungry for dinner.

except lately dad has gone back into his own old habits of not wanting dinner until like...8 or 9 at night. both of our hunger schedules are really off but also my dad insists on eating together so...