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soularsss · 3 days ago

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ahhh AHHHHH OH MY GODDDD OH MY SKELE CREW SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT AAAAAAHHHHGGH

Okay I know alot of people have been rooting for him to turn around this episode and save the kids but kind of am really enjoying the very real real Pirate vibes that Jod is giving us?? Like im kinda mad that he BEHEADED SM33 but thats mainly because I loved that character, not because I wanted Jod not to hurt anyone. Im interested to see what happens in the finale because Jude did say we will learn about his backstory, but I actually enjoyed the rather straight-forward and downright dirty decisions Jod made in the episode?

I cant lie to you guys I was rooting for my evil pirate husband to well.. do some less than good things.. you guys know one of my all time favorite characters is Maul right... i think its always really fun to have some sort of tragic villain/antagonist story and I am hoping with his backstory reveals we get to see him lean more into that :0

Obviously, with the writers talks about possible season 2 happenings, i would love it if Jod could turn himself around *enough* not not get killed and then be in season 2 if that gets greenlit!!!

Guys.. guys.. I just really love my piratefailure evilguy.. hes an evil bastard and i just kind of fuck with him okay HES COOOL UGH IM SO HAPPY HE LIT THE LIGHTSABER THIS EPISODEEEEEEEEE (i am sad about who he used it on..) but i am so happy we got to see it, and I think its interesting seeing how he holds himself with it, i think he holds the blade relatively far from himself and i dont know- to me it seems like the sort of stance a guy would use if he didnt have any proper training? obviously he is force sensitive so I reckon that lends itself to not chopping off your own fingers but not much more lol.. im yapping.. im yapping...

i really did enjoy some bad bad pirate action oh i love some skulduggery and dubious behaviour. what a grimey little rat HEHEHEHE

I think Jude had some awesome line delivery again in this episode and I loved the little comedic moments among his evilness.

I also wanted to point out the gentle hurrying of snowball, the sort of fond look on his face when he realized the kids were coming in, and to me there was definitely somethinggg hesitant.. each time he saw them and their parents.. guys.. i dont think hes alllllllllll bad... maybe a little bit of good is buried somewhere deep

i wouldnt be opposed to a redemption arc where they try and dredge that little bit of good up :,)

also ALSO ALSO!!!!!!!!! THE KIDS performances were amazing this episode!!! Fern really stood out to me, you can tell she wants to stand up to him but he was just so clearly in complete control and it was crushing her!!!!! Seeing Wim lose his whimsy made me really bummed :(( and omg omg.. The little interaction between KB and Jod when she says the signal is jammed.. he has a soft spot i am telling youuuuuu

#skeleton crew #skeleton crew spoilers #soulars yaps

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coolcoelacanth · 7 months ago

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day 3 of my indentured servitude: already getting annoyed at my temporary coworkers and having to stand next to them for 8 hrs a day. theyre both middle aged women, one of which has more attitude than the other. like godddddddd idk why its so normalized for people to be rude for no reason why does nobody have manners. they're not horrible, but its just like little passive aggressive comments all day and im like 😑 girl im not even getting paid and i don't want to be here. im literally so overly polite to them all the time too bc thats just who i am as a person like idk how people can be sassy to people who literally have not wronged them.

#personal #it's not that bad i just had a bad day today #and i havent had a day off since thursday and its now wednesday #and i still have to work two more 10 hr unpaid shifts until my 1 day off #killing myself #i wish this wasnt a serious job so i could microdose to make it more bearable #but i am definitely not taking that risk #lord have mercy on my tired flat footeded soul #im literally standing the whole day w my flat ass feet #i went to an orthopedic dr once for a running injury back when i did cross country #they looked at my feet and went oh my god you have extremely flat feet #i was like oh i didnt realize it was that bad LOL #so im standing all day on my malformed feet literally jumping from foot to foot bc of the pain #i need new sneakers if i dont want my feet to fall off #then the one pharmacist has arthritis i later learned and i had asked to sit down earlier in the day bc of my flat feet #so then i felt like an idiot bc she literally has arthritis and is standing #but also like girl why tf are you standing all day if you have arthritis #we should both be sitting lmao #but then the other pharmacist came in for the day and immediately took ky terminal so i just put the chair away and stood anyway lmao awkwa #and literally why are people so obsessed w drive thru pharmacies it literally makes it take 10x longer than just coming inside #its not that hard to park a car and walk inside 10 feet like what #just a tag rant of an accumulation of why i am in a bad mood today #i am also so tired bc i have a circadian rhythm disorder #i need to start taking my stimulant again but i also dont want to bc it makes me too awake and i also love coffee and want to drink it #but i feel like im on meth if i take my stimulant and drink coffee #i need to ask my lady to lower the dose #but it definitely helps bc otherwise i literally feel like i could fall asleep at any moment its great #and my eyes literally burn from keeping them open #i love my body failing me #i also love having a job that pushes my body to its limits

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pup-pee · 10 months ago

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no1s mad i drew more konbart right?

last drawing is nirvana au // also i gave up on the 1st drawing mayb? i might return 2 it

#i realized im starting 2 feel insecure bc ppl my age r drawing muchMUCH better than me so i tried 2 do things i dont usual do kinda idk #trying 2 prove im not *that* bad @ art lol #which means i tried 2 draw kissing y tf did i try this I DONT I #USE TONE INDICATORS U BITCH!#nirvana au #nirvana!kon #kart #konbart #my fujcing wifi freaked out on me & i drew all of these #so thats fun!!#also i worked on my sketchbook bc NOTHING WAS WORKING sts yestefay was so boring :(#my sketchbook is exploding its more junk then sketch #my junk book #puppee art #i love nirvana!kon oh how k love them so theyre so pretty ((imo))#i drew like 3 sidelrofiles im dying #ALSO IGNORE HOW LAZY I AM DRAWING SUPEEHERO SUITS LOL #IDRC…IDK…I DIDNT WANNA DRAW THE FLARES OR THE PATCHES PLSSSSS #ive drawn sm kon in the last like week?#bc of etsy its honestly great i have like a lil collection of those ty cards i make #uhm #i need 2 stop rambling gn #y am i saying gn???

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sparklecur · 5 months ago

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not angry or anything but for the record ocd is Not some silly quirky Organizing Things Disorder it is a living nightmare in which your brain will Plague You With Visions of stuff like your mom getting brutally run over by a car, so now youre terrified that this secretly means you want your mom to get run over by a car, so to remedy this you gently tap on her door every time you walk past it to prevent her from getting run over by a car and you can never stop doing this because its the only thing standing between your mom and her getting run over by a car (it makes sense! dont question it!) and once you finally stop and think Wait this is really stupid and manage to force yourself to stop tapping her door as youre walking away your brain goes "oh so this means you dont care if your mom gets run over by a car? you sicko" so you go back and tap the door again (just to be safe) (because of course you care about your mom and you do not want her to get run over by a car) (if you dont stop tapping the door she will randomly get run over by a car and it will secretly be entirely your fault)

#and you can never ever ever ever tell anyone the kinda stuff that goes on in your head because then theyll think youre some kind of #disgusting monster!#surprisingly this is example isnt based on any one specific experience #but i think i got the general idea #i guess a more personal example would be the time my mom was about to go run some errands and i convinced myself that if i didnt kick this #very specific leaf out of the driveway and she ran over it then she would later die in a car crash #so i spent like 5 minutes trying to kick it out of the way before i realized i was probably holding her up so i dragged myself away and #tried to tell myself “no! this is stupid! nothing bad will happen!”#but then as i was walking away i kept thinking “oh so it was that simple huh??? so you must not really care??? if your mom dies???”#i managed to win that battle luckily #anyways. dunno why i made this post lol #brambles

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 3 months ago

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Applying to an apartment with little income and terrible credit score, in hopes that they'll be desperate enough to take me

#im not even getting my hopes up for this one folks #but this same company rook me when i had no rental history so maybe?#unlikely for the aforementioned piss poor income and credit score #im just praying they remember me feom when i used to rent from them and liked me enough then to take me again #the bathroom is not in the apartment btw #that's the wildest thing. like its a basic studio with a kitchen closet and main area #but you have to go across the hall. to the private bathroom #im hoping they realize that thats wild and give me the apartment #i neeeeed to leave my parents house. and i really miss that city the apartment is in #i wish there was a little essay section where i could tell the landlord how much i like the city #and that ill get a better job once i live there and my parents are going to pay my first month and security deposit #that would be nice #i applied knowing that i won't get it but also knowing that i cant get it if i dont try #mostly i just miss that city #there was a really nice coffee shop within walking distance of my apartment #(the apartment i applied to is next door to the building i used to live in so same area which is great)#but i didnt have wifi so i would go there a lot to do work. it was so cozy in the winter especially #and i went on a lot of walks. so i wiuld swing by there and grab a drink to sip on my walk #and it was literally within sight of a great lake. a literal great lakw of Michigan lol #i loved walking along the lake on a nice day. or a windy day and just watch the waves crash #and my favorite band is feom that city so i got to see so many of their performances. and theyre a small band so the most i ever paid #was $50 and that was for the vip package. i saw them for $10 once. and free once. and $50 for the vip #its a big art and music city and i love it so much. i miss it so fucking much and i regret leaving #but at least it made me realize that no other city is for me. that city is my home #oh and it was literally right next to a bug beautiful library that i loved to wander. i still have my library card from there #mostly used it to print stuff and you have to pay at the box next to the printer. and one time i forgot to pay. i still feel bad about that #but i dont want to reminisce too much cuz i know i wont get it #im trying to pay off my credit cards to bring up my credit score but its slow going #its much nearer my gf and all my friends so i would love to live near them. rn im hours away from about everyone i love #i ran out of tags. maybe pray for me if you pray? or just hope for me. i dont want to let myself want this but its there

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berryblu-soda · 7 months ago

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Anyways update i just didnt bother to post earlier:

fr God is good and the whole car crash my parents got into last week was so incredibly mild in terms of injuries!!!! worst was a bruised knee im pretty sure

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*taps mic* HUG YOUR FREAKING LOVED ONES OR SO HELP ME!!!!!!!

#ALSO DO NOT READ THE TAGS IF YOURE HERE FOR A GOOD TIME!!!!#ENDED UP VENTING AGHHHHH- (<- amongus ref in 2024???? l+ratio) (no but seriously stay safe; im not sure if i should add a cw???)#no but like the cars themselves?#FOLDED-#ive seen photos of worse ones of course lol (ty internet <3)#but we´re all in agreement that if it had hit anywhere else at that speed it wouldve been BAD Bad-#like; severe injury to the leg at least; drivers door wouldve crumpled; thankfully it hit the tire mostly #our car got what seems to be the lesser damage and theyre still debating if it counts as total loss xd #also oh goshhhh #so i usually go and say goodbye to my dad when hes headed to work; i did it that day as usual; car was already halfway out the driveway #my dog also loves to go and she was already in the car #but my mom (taking my dad to work) said she´d need to stop by the store after dropping dad off; so she handed her back to me #last minute descision-#my dog is a small kinda elderly chihuahua and wouldve been on my mom´s lap when they crashed #no seatbelt for her obviously #she wouldve gotten injured so freaking bad if she was there ):#overall feels like we dodged a life altering accident by a hair #i wasnt even in it and im still shook hahaha #i always go say bye to dad if hes leaving for work no matter if im pissed off or sad or whatever #half out of habit; half bc i know anything could happen at any moment and id rather not have been too proud to say goodbye #dammit im crying now hahaha #saying again; everyones fine!!!!! please remember to hug your loved ones !!!!!!#shut up sheo #but oh gosh too many reminders of death as a constant recently #that happened about a week after a cousin died; i hadnt seen him in forever but his family went to our church growing up; he was my age #it was a dull and distant pain even then to hear the news but it still hurt; i didnt go to the funeral #did go to the one a couple days later tho; for a family member i truly didnt know; it was a car crash i think #a special kind of heartbreak from meeting his mom and seeing his kids running around #now that i realize it; as im writing this; i hadnt stopped to process just about anything hahaha #freaking sobbing at 9 in the morning smh!!!!!

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bmpmp3 · 9 months ago

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why does everything i get really into always end up being so god damn niche. by the year 2035 i am going to be blogging exclusively about the interpersonal relationships between the pillbugs and snails hiding underneath the bricks lining the flowerbeds in my parent's garden.

#im falling hard into the virvox guys rn sowwy. i like em a lot hee hee. i didnt realize just how small the fanbase for em was tho #actually i didnt realize how small the company that makes them were either. i got so used to the yamahas and cryptons of the vsynth world #that i forgot that like honestly. a lot of the voicebank makers and some of the software makers themselves #theyre like companies of like maybe 5 employees with like no funding LOL not a bad thing but i forgor #but yeah i was looking up to see if there was like. a fanon reason why people shipped takehiro and ryusei? not judging because i get it #i like took one look at the virvox guys and immediately slotted them as a very strange boyband (a catboy and a middle aged dragon man....)#and also took a second look at takehiro and ryusei and assumed they were childhood friends. i saw the doujin flash before my eyes #but also looking into it it seems the fanbase is also like. 20 people. and like 3 of them ship that #and at least one person ships whiteCUL and ryusei? why not LOL when it comes to vsynths sometimes a ship can be spearheaded by like #one very prolific artist HGDJKDFSHDJK which actually reminds me. honestly i dont really have many vsynth ships #i guess i dont really partake in a lot of shipping stuff deeply but i like romance!! you know i like love stories. you know this #i mean i keep calling the eclipsed sounds characters the celestial polycule for a reason tho. im not joking around about this #this is serious to me. they are stars and moons and suns and together they hang out and kiss. in the sky. this is serious to me #also i do like solaria x eleanor forte actually. its a bit random but i understand it. i understand it #and of course the aformentioned takehiro x ryusei. and also the whole virvox polycule. get that old man in here too #(what do they call people like me. a multishipper? i do that a lot. you know this from my otome game fanart LOL)#OH and i dont remember either of their names rn but i like that the cevio bank anju inami voiced has like a big fat crush on like #that girl with the brown hair. i like that theyre like. besties (turning into something more wink wonk)#thinks with all my brain. i think thats it. i dont know why theres so little. i think its because i think of them as like #audio sample libraries first and foremost and i forget about their characters and relationships LOL #but im not against the idea of making some audio sample libraries kiss...... not at all #picks up a guitar sampler and a sound effect cd. presses them together.#hee hee. they kiss

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arielluva · 2 months ago

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waiting for files to upload and having a moment about feelings ive had my entire life but never realized i had

#saw a tiktok where someone described feeling like a 'placeholder friend' and i was like. oh. yeah. thats a feeling i have #god its crazy to think about. when i would see stuff about always feeling like you're weird i didnt think that applied to me #until i thought about it more and realized i HAVE always been very aware that im seen as 'weird' i just didnt always see it as a bad thing #i feel like it was also hard to look inward about my behavior bc i was so thoroughly convinced i was normal. despite trying to adjust my -#- behavior to what i thought people do. trying to react like how i thought people were supposed to react #trying to cover up my actual thought processes behind things and fabricate what i thought was more normal reasoning #despite all of that i was unironically like 'thank god im the only normal one here' for SO LONGGGG #learning that i was probably autistic when i was like 16 sent my whole world crumbling down LOL #all because i took an autism quiz for fun. i was so sure that i wasnt. so i took the quiz. and then i scored highly #and then i looked into it more and thought more about myself and Oops! that all kinda describes me!#so. yeah. been having a moment tonight. evaluating my feelings ive had all my life and whatever #usually knowing im different doesn't get me down all that often. but it kinda is tonight! just a little #its probably because its 1 in the morning right now. ill be less emotional when its not the middle of the night #but. man

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orcelito · 10 months ago

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I've been following that AITA blog for a bit now and it has me thinking about my own life situations with conflict and drama. A passive "do I have anything I could submit to that blog?" But upon thinking about it, it's like... I really find no value in asking strangers whether I'm "the asshole" in situations. There are situations where I'm clearly not at fault, situations where I was a little shit but it was justified, and at least one situation where I have a definite "Oh yeah, I was definitely the asshole there". All in the past, so it's not like I'd even need advice or anything. I already know, so what's the point?

Maybe it stems from me being a generally self-aware and self-confident kind of person. I know what's going on with myself, know when I've wronged people, & I have a mentality of "well, I'll try to not do that in the future." Even if I feel a little guilty thinking back, what's the point of asking after something when I know I'm at fault? Or situations where things were complicated and both people had fault in things, but I know I wasn't being shitty on purpose & that's what matters to me. Ultimately, it results in a bunch of strangers drawing conclusions about things I really don't care about outside input on.

Still love reading the blog tho. There's something about reading up on random people's life drama that satisfies that gossipmonger soul in me So well.

#speculation nation #i think the most blatantly YTA thing id get is when i ghosted that guy i was seeing back when i was 20 or so #wasnt ever actually dating but i made it sound like i would. very much led him on.#then realized i just wasnt into cishet guys At All and dropped him out of nowhere bc i was 20 and didnt know how to deal with feelings #objectively it was a pretty awful thing for me to do. and i feel bad that i did it.#have i ever tried to reach out and apologize tho? no lmao #it happened so long ago now i feel like itd bring more animosity than relief anyways.#id like to think ive learned from it tho. Dont Date People Just For The Hell Of It.#god it rly is my romantic history where im the biggest asshole. my prior girlfriend too #i do feel bad about that. i never meant to hurt her but that sure is what i did.#it was better to break it off when i did. wouldve been better had i did it earlier but oh well.#then as a teenager and my whole fucked up romance life then...#but NO LONGER!!!!!!!! hopefully lol. im rly into my current girlfriend and after my last one ive been dedicated to. not do that again.#cant date people just because im bored. that's never ended well for me.#i learned my lesson this time for SURE!!!!!#anyways yea id say more constently id be The Asshole in these situations. but im only human man it happens.#other situations it's usually just fucked up situations with me being a toxic little shit in response bc it's all i knew.#idk. community voting doesnt matter to me. learning from my prior mistakes and shortcomings is what matters to me.#it's interesting to see the blog tho. people are insecure about some of the most trivial things sometimes...

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235uranium · 1 year ago

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every time the female character discourse happens i just sigh. the ppl critiquing fandom misogyny don't even like that interesting of women

#☢️.txt #if the women you like dont consist of 2 unethical mad scientists 1 war criminal/terrorist and 1 murdergirl dont even talk to me #about how much you love female characters lol #also im gonna be honest id rather people just ignore the women in fiction than go back to ye old fandom misogyny!#like damn with the men i like i have to spend hours getting mad about bad interpretations by their own fans!#with women i at least sleep soundly knowing the other liv ock fans agree shes unrepentantly evil and great for it <3 #i had to watch the woobification of mukuro ikusaba with my own eyes once she finally got screentime and im STILL mad about it!#SHES A WAR CRIMINAL..... like not as a joke shes a canonical war criminal. shes a fucking school shooter. yeah she got horrifically abused #but ffs shes not. shes not nice????? thats the whole damn point??????? of IF??????#she didnt even CONSIDER challenging junko until she realized that junko WOULD kill her!#+ her remorse was solely about. helping junko? nothing to do with the whole #'literally a mercenary' thing. god.#dont get me started on kirigiri. the dangan ronpa fandom was NOT ready for her. yes ik shes in game one but they werent fucking ready!!!!!!#shes not ~reserved but nice~ she straight up tried to kill naegi.#she LITERALLY pulled the classic dangan ronpa murderboy move but noooo togamis the murderboy.#togamis not a fucking murderboy hes just a capitalist.#while kirigiri certainly isnt fucking with things to the extent of komaeda and ouma #she DOES set shit up and position herself as the person with actual answers #wheres the thing where kodaka says kirigiri is the actual hero of dr1 and naegi is the heroine #it also pisses me off bc ppl act like maki is the first time the dr main girl is somewhat hostile and. oh my god you all only care about #chiaki and the fantasy kirigiri who totally wanted to help naegi and wasnt just using him prior to trial 5 #kirigiri isnt 'hostile' but she intentionally separates herself from the main group #also maki is a great character and you are all just mad #also reagan ridley ilu. you have absolutely nothing together and make the worst choices #brett hand is the Only reason reagan hasnt like. nuked something or started a zombie apocalyptic

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rkirsch · 10 months ago

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rare (actually very common) james vulnerability post um im kind of hating having bpd right now. i reeeeally really hate how the smallest thing completely sets me off and i HATE gettinf close to people and then having to hit them with the “btw if i get even the slightest feeling you dont like me or that im being replaced i absolutely will not confront it directly and will instead opt to just never ever speak again and be mad for 6 months straight” and its cost me a lot of close friendships! i’m in therapy and i am on medication and i have been for months but for some reason it’s just ??? not working??? i dunno but im feeling very Not great tonite james nation 💔 sighs soo hard and goes back to drawing star trek yuri

#jamesdottxt #i jsut want to be normal tbh #its so embarrassing #getting close to people and then realizing its Too close #and suddenly your entire day revolves around how theyre feeling/what theyre doing #i really wish that i didnt have to be like This #because once i get mean and i start freaking out people tend to drift away and find other people #and its like Oh i really am the problem #but whats the point of recognizing youre the problem when… youre the problem lol like im not purposefully staying like this #and im trying to get better #but at what point does it start being pathetic #i hate freaking out over the smallest shit #and losing sleep because of overthinking #ive fallen out with um. Both of my favorite persons in the past few months #one of them was lowkey a predator and the other one. man idk what the other one even did #he didnt do anything #i jsut kind of sucked i think #but yeah . being fp-less and only having a very select few friends is FREAKIN ME OUT!!!!!#you’re nice to me? I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE NOW! AHA!#embarrassingggg….#but um real talk i would so love to be able to maintain relationships properly without fucking it up so bad because of my outbursts #sighs so hard. the only thing that can fix this is drawing self insert x hughie campbell yuri #back to the coal mines (drawing program) i go #ant with bindle image #bpd #tw vent #personal vent #rare james vulnerability post #vent

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wizardhex · 3 months ago

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genuinely for the first time in my life i don't feel like a deeply pathetic and lame person........what has happened....i did not feel like this 3 days ago why do i suddenly think im ok???

#weird i spent so much time hating myself i didnt realize i had grown into someone i actually enjoy being around #despite everything #like all this time picking apart my flaws and insecurities and ways i'm socially inept and dont fit in and never have & hating myself #only to find out i was cool and fun the whole time...kinda pissed off it took me so long!!!#ok gonna ride this high until it fades and i start feeling depressed again lol #oh my god is it because im going out more??? maybe being a reclusive shut in IS bad for my mental health...

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jackass-jones · 5 months ago

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Replaying p3 is such a frightening experience because it forces me to remember Ikutski is a real character that exists

#persona #the klock keeps ticking #like. idk what they put in this guy that makes him so forgettable to me but its like #i literally forget he exists every single time i boot up the game #and even when i remember beforehand that hes gonna be there so i need to anticipate him. i still get jumpscared when i see him #i dont think there are enough words in the world to emphasize how much i hate this guy #forget madarame forget teddie THIS GUY this fucking yassified ben franklin bitch? hes the worst persona character #he doesnt even do jack shit its literally all mitsuru like every time he shows up to help he ends up doing absolutely nothing #and mitsuru has to pick up the slack #also like when i complain about the original p3 voice acting im. mostly complaining about him #im sure his VA is very talented has probably voiced characters i know and love but god like #its so bad in this game he sounds so robotic and fuzzy its like theres big red arrows pointing at him #saying THIS GUY IS BORING AND IS JUST HERE TO EXPLAIN PLOT STUFF YOU DIDNT EVEN NEED HIM TO TELL YOU #also my hatred of Ikutski fuels my growing protectiveness towards mitsuru #cuz hes just so incompetent unreliable just creates more work for her but then acts like hes a trustworthy adult #and its so sad cuz all mitsuru needs is like. any positive mentor who can be responsible for her #and all she gets is this shit and while i think its funny how obviously evil Ikutski is its also like #dont blame mitsuru or really any of these characters for a second for not realizing it cuz like. its not like she has any frame of reference #for how a caring responsible adult behaves! and hes with the kirijo group which she has to trust cuz its all shes ever known #and she has to base her entire life around the group and never step out of line or question authority!#its a very interesting dynamic but also unfortunately Ikutski is not a very interesting character #oh boy do i try to make him interesting when i write him but god i just hate him so much lol #running him over with a bus i hate you stupid bitch get out of my head 👺👺👺

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schizononagesimus · 7 months ago

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being in a family of other addicts is weird, i never really thought of it like that but us all being in town together for my graduation has just been like (ENABLES U) (ENABLES U) (ENABLES U)

#i dont even think of us as addicts rly even tho we all are. like. medically and socially. hell i may not know him but my birth father is in #PRISON for addict behavior soooo #anyway i made some mild drug choices and though i was pretty immediately displeased with the sensations and their consequences nothing #overtly bad happened this time so id call it a neutral thing #i just had a couple beers bc i was sad and my grandad had an entire bottle of wine by himself prior to that #and like a couple beers is Fine but i didnt realize my tolerance had tanked and i shouldnt drink out of sadness and i only got. sadder. so.#at least they tasted good mm duvel (LOUD CRYING) anyway good luck babe by chappell roan #and i had some weed w my dad. i forgot how much i hate getting weed from other ppl bc ive never found a Soul who knows weed like i do so #theyll just go 'oh it's for sleep.' 'no like what strain is it' '8 #ignore the 8 lol anyway #'idk' 'ok then is it like hybrid or do you not know' 'yeah idk' cool at least my dad knew the mg #i honestly needed to eat like in a bad way ive had so much trouble eating recently even eating out so this was helpful on that front #think this might be my first like properly full stomach in a while #and i definitely did need the nap but i DIDNT need the muscle pain #so to answer my own question to my dad earlier that was a HYBRID with the worst characteristic of sativa in it #cause that shit makes pain far more obvious sometimes and man has my whole body hurt for a few days #anyway speaking of body pain im helping a friend move tomorrow THEN going to bjj skdnsksms #it's fine im fine #anyway yeah long story long im Good and i couldve refused my family's offers yes and i have before and have often while theyve been here!#but i didnt because we all in my family got that same 'ehhh fuck it i deserve this' attitude sometimes #but nothing blew up this time though i still didnt like it so again. reminding myself that even when it goes well i still just Dont Like It #ergo do not do the thing #sobriety update #drugs tw #lessons of the hand and the mouth

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loousir · 8 months ago

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#idk if anyone else has done this #but i recently looked up writing im interested in #and if you know my blog you know what im interested in lol #i came across one and didnt realise it was my own fucking work from AGES ago #and was like #“hey this isnt bad i wonder if they write more”#only for my dumbass to click the profile and it took me like 5 minuted to realize that no #tumblr wasnt broken #i was just READING MY OWN WORK #🥲#oh and please forgive my shitty meme edit

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skrunksthatwunk · 10 months ago

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ive been led to believe that every (afab, generally) dyke goes through some kind of harrowing toxic possessive jealous overly dramatic vaguely homoerotic girl-girl friendship in their life before they figure out they're dykes and everyone always paints this as a middle/high school phenomenon but i need you guys to know that mine happened when i was 8 years old with a literal karen (in name only). ridiculous

#anyway i hope she's doing well because i still think about her sometimes yknow #didnt always treat me that well (apparently?? which i didnt realize until my mom told me but apparently she used to do the 'ill stop being #friends with you if you do x inconsequential thing' and it upset me but i dont remember that sooo idk) but she had a lot going on and i #don't think she was a bad kid yknow? yeah. anyway #feeling sentimental about it is all #actually now that i think about it two of the only characters i remember associated with her are rainbow dash and sonic which is cute #ig she liked it when blue dudes went fast lol #also she should NOT have had unrestricted internet access but that's a whole other thing #anyway karen if you're somehow reading this i think it would be really funny if you were also gay and like. take care of yourself 🤘#OH also lemme explain the afab note: the friendship thing is smth i saw a few times on sapphic tiktok years ago and they tend to be Really #Really Really focused on like Only afab people to a really disquieting extent but. yeah #i assume it's harder if you're not perceived as a girlchild to have that particular dynamic but im 100% sure it happened a bunch anyway

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