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sorry dashboard. and i love you
#j.txt#my household is extremely fucked up!#at this point it's choosing between speaking up high risk high reward or not like i have been forever and keep biding time until we can#get Away from each other#unfortunately this is all based on my ability to breadwin and save money and move w their help around the house in the meantime#and our timeline keeps moving#so it's hard to know if i should speak up cause we'll be stuck together for another year or if i should just shut up cause it's almost over#yk?#ouughggghgoughegh#maybe i'll just message my brother n be like. hey just so u know i see this and it sucks and i don't want u to think ur crazy for seeing it#or being mad about it!#but w her state of mind i don't feel like i can bring it up in a way that wouldn't sabotage us further as we try to keep this balancing act#until we get the FUCK out of here#well. looks like i just needed to talk it out loud to find a solution literally in. tumblr tags um#yeah sorry again dashboard. and i love you
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well - webtoons is over, gang
#sci speaks#if everyone would please just read the blog at it's intended home on tumblr#and please stop getting me to waste my energy on all these other sites that i hate then that would be primo wonderful#tapas and webtoons are actual shitholes. convenient to read sure whatever. but i hate the format anyway#and how they treat their creators.#not to mention the way tapas gamifies their interface so you're like on a fucking gambling site?? like if temu were a webcomic service?#what happened to the internet being a free and fun place for anyone to post anything.#noo. copyright laws because we want to make money we can't just host anything out of the spirit of fun and freedom#what about the money??? what if we risk money??#internet used to be a better place. i hate the earth as it is right now. the internet is like a mine that corporations dug into.#and destroyed. right in front of my eyes.#it used to be a beautiful green pasture with wildlife roaming and now it has been flattened and turned into an ugly shopping mall.#the things i do for you guys who really. really wanted me to archive it somewhere else.#i''m not doing it anymore. it is here until tumblr dies or we all enentually die and all our efforts are lost to the sands of time.#nothing matters in a cosmic sense anyway. enjoy it while it's here.
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putting my prediction on record now that the coming decade is going to see the rise of viral-marketed fancy at-home water filtration systems, driving and driven by a drastic reduction in the quality of U.S. tap water (given that we are in a 'replacement era' where our current infrastructure is reaching the end of its lifespan--but isn't being replaced). also guessing that by the 2030s access to drinkable tap water will be a mainstream class issue, with low-income & unstably housed people increasingly forced to rely on expensive bottled water when they can't afford the up-front cost of at-home filtration--and with this being portrayed in media as a "moral failing" and short-sighted "choice," rather than a basic failure of our political & economic systems. really hope i'm just being alarmist, but plenty of this already happens in other countries, and the U.S. is in a state of decline, so. here's praying this post ages into irrelevance. timestamped April 2023
#apollo don't fucking touch this one#serious post#not a shitpost#hope i forget about this post and have no reason to ever look back on it one day#fyi i'm aware that access to potable water is already a major issue in parts of the U.S. yes i know flint michigan exists#i'm saying that this issue is going to GROW unless local & federal governments work together to fix it.#so it's a matter of if we trust them to fix it. And well--do you?#what are the chances the government just denies there's a problem until the water actually turns brown#at which point it's already been common knowledge for years and people have just become resigned and that's our new normal#i'm mean come on. how many of us already believe that we're being exposed to dangerous pollutants we don't know about and can't avoid#like that's pretty much just part of being a modern consumer. accepting that companies will happily endanger your life for a few pennies#and the most you'll get is like a $50 gift card as part of a class action rebate 20 years down the line#probably the history books will look back on Flint as a warning and a harbinger that went ignored#luxury condos will advertise their built-in top-of-the-line filtration systems--live here and you can drink water straight from your tap!#watch the elite professional class putting $700 dyson water filtration systems on their wedding registry#while the rest of us figure out how to fit water delivery into our grocery budget while putting 90% of our paycheck towards rent#also eggs are $15
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bunny butt: shiny edition ✨
[op is a femme dyke, he/ze/bun pronouns]
#ok to rb#everyone thank lilith for these pictures coming into existence 🥰🤭#also: i took these at 8am so the natural light really washed me out but honestly. i still love them#(also i say the light washed me out bc i have giant ass windows in this shitty small apartment so it's like Floodlights that early in the A#tbh we dont actually need lamps in here until the sun sets. its like the One part i love about this building. i love natural light so much)#(but also yeah the caveat means my phone camera really struggles adjusting to the light sometimes RIP)#(but im still hot as fuck even with that)#(also for piss kink friends: this is my pissfit. i havent actually gotten pissed on in it yet but its so cute anyway &i WILL!!!)#(i have used it to be a menace :3c also this is the outfit that jiggles video was in mutuals btwww)#bunnyflesh#femme dyke#fat femme#fat femme friday#femme4all#femme bait#butch bait#dyke bait#t4t nsft#t4t dyke#also i hate adding my sexuality and pronouns to these but I've been getting misgendered a bit lately a few different ways so. worth a try i
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way late for lny but hey the brain makes the connection when it does. aka caducean/asclepian
#sonic the hedgehog#shadow the hedgehog#year of da snake babeyyy I spent the entirety of this latest lny out of my Mind#so just now I regained sentience and did. this#tbh just really wanna draw some aminals. sonic ole reliable there#okay so tracking the threads in this one.... costumes are việt phục fusion (as is my trade by now)#sonic gets a nhật bình (outer coat) and a severely shortened ngũ thân (shirt)#shadow gets a normal ngũ thân and a nón thúng (headwear)!#this is honestly all from a single thought I had a few days ago looking at shadows jet boots. I thought the upturned nose kinda has#a hanfu turn to it. and then here we are today#sonic's snakes are modeled after the southern black racer (coluber constrictor priapus)#and shadow's snake is supposed to be a central american milksnake (lampropeltis polyzona)#these are all like babynames dot net obvious ass choices lol but listen if they fit they fit#shadow's milksnake especially. cmon how can I not choose it with that coloring#anyways with that caption u probably know why sonic gets two snakes and shadow gets one. and also sonic gets the wings motif#shadow is! actually designed after a real historical viet medicine man from the 1700s#(ignore the fact that the ngũ thân would not be in fashion until the late 1700s-1800s Im just less into the giao lĩnh's collar shape!!!#my house!! its my damn house)#if u ask me why Im linking greek mythos imageries and việt phục presentation in this one I also say it's my damn house. I do what I want#other misc details: sonic's coat fastener has team sonic+amy's colors on the ribbon#shadow's mala has one clear resin bead with a dandelion bloom inside. the string decoration is in the shape of dandelion leaves#sonic's eye color leans into jade and shadow's eye color leans into amber because I'm a fucking genius and I'm good at everything#okay thats it I sleep now. and then I job some more. gnight lads happy extremely belated luner new year!!#oh yeah forgot to add this I drew việt phục bc that's just what I do but it is! convenient for these hogs specifically#that a lot of late-era việt phục is built symmetrical across with a center back seam#so modifying it for quills would have a pretty good starting point
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dealing you this like radioactive contraband before I go back to pretending I can't draw
#calla for beauty + obvious reasons / marigold for cruelty and jealousy#and because tumblr has rules I'll just let you know there's another version. And that's it. That's all you get on that#gladiator 2#emperor caracalla#LOOK I. I'VE BEEN SITTING HERE FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES WITH THIS POST#TRYING TO COME UP WITH AN EXCUSE#I HAVE NONE. THERE IS NO EXCUSE. THIS IS INDULGENT.#GUY FUCKS I CAN'T HELP IT#...... I again do not think we have an art tag here. uh.#I'll figure that out later maybe.#I'm playing time so I don't have to hit post on this.#Tumblr if you take this down for the amount of nonbinary-presenting chest I will actually riot#I've never struggled with folds this much I deserve to have this at least stay up until I realise what I've done and delete it#it's been 20 minutes now I'm pretty sure and I still haven't pressed post#I'm just thinking about all the followers who came here for something that DEFINITELY wasn't this#oh well#here goes#crayon tag
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just for fun this time during 'sea of blood' I counted out all the venatori corpses I think we can be pretty sure were lucanis' handiwork before we show up (not including the ones he kills in his initial cutscene, and with an assumption that he's been at work mainly up and down in the areas we move through until we find him, not behind the locked door -- I think that's mostly the work of rampaging undead and other venatori-hoisted-by-their-own-petard suchlikes). can thus happily inform you lucanis has killed at least 32 venatori before rook and company get there. at least one of them he's impaled on their own weird crystal spike things the venatori mages cast as an AOE attack and that they're trying to keep him contained with when we find him. so he's clearly been keeping busy lol. that's my boy dispensing poetic justice and claiming some enrichment in his enclosure while he's at it good for him!
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#I think he's been scouting around found what's techincally the way out realized he can't leave without his blood#and been shepherded/cornered in the room where you find him. or just as likely he lured them in there to take them all out at once#and also he's not a mage. how the fuck is he going to actually get the door out open and then not just drown if he does#even though he found it. lucanis dellamorte's very bad no good extremely awful horrible day (300+ day streak)#CAN the non-mage venatori get in and out of here without a mage to take them. many questions#him coincidentally escaping right now seems to be down to everything falling the fuck apart down there after zara officially voided#whatever OSHA regulations they ever had and the fallout of solas' ritual made magic run wild across the continent#it's interesting to note that the ossuary we see in this is actually pretty much emptied -- she's already retrieved#what she considered her successes. there used to be way more experiments down here until like a week before this#it's just lucanis and the other rejects left lmao#I do like (well. like is probably the wrong word) to imagine that lucanis has spent a sisyphean year of nearly escaping in there#he's killed a guard gotten to look around for intel for five seconds and been thrown back into his cell multiple times before#this time he's just got chaos and rook (basically synonymous terms right lol) on his side#also to all the 'why is he in his full armor and already with a neat beard' complaints -- because this is a video game#and getting a whole new model for him done for all of 45 mins of content max would not be a wise or fruitful use of resources#hope that helps!#if we're going to go watsonian about it he must have been wearing something when he got there and he probably had luggage#so idk he found those in a store room or something b/c callivan... not the brighest bulb in the lamp store clearly
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starscream has normal reactions
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no starscream shall escape being haunted by bumblebee and vice versa. primus said thou shalt be married !!!
#bee: YOU SHOT ME WHILE I WAS LYING ON THE GROUND HELPLESS POINTBLANK NO HESITATION NO CONCERN JUST RAGE J-#starscream: yea & it was in the face#bee all a sudden all hoity toity abt dark subjects after detailing them grossly: ok bro we get it -_-#hes not even that grossed out by the getting shot in the face part. hes just pretnding to be bcs#hes actually just mad abt getting his lecture discarded & interrupted with another detail he was getting to#until starscream's RUDE interjection >:[ !!#bee thinks hes normal then thinks rumble body combusting right in front of his mother's eyes is the funniest fcking story ever#to tell to children#bumblebee the type of mom who tells her child's deepest traumas as funny stories to pass the time with strangers#well it's better than boring the company ok! stop being upset ! dont interrupt mother >:[ !!!!#it's lowkey funny that starscream shot him in the face like he rlly hated his yapping that much im crying#didnt shoot the spark just aimed for that big mouth while it was shut for once#bitchy on bitchy crime#also unrelated but i love skybound cliffjumper he is so fking ugly my baby old man 💛#skybound starscream: at least i managed to solve one problem ! time to go create 5 million more now !#idw bee: what the fuck bro#skybound starscream : ?????#ravage: fix me bro#skybound starscream: !??!?!?!??? WHAT THE HELL ARE yOU DOING HERE#idw bee: shut up & fix ravage >:[#ravage: yea meow yea#transformers#maccadam#bumblebee#starscream#starbee#transformers skybound#transformers idw
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"Angry robin" "violent robin" "misbehaving robin" shut up and accept my alternative; spunky Robin. Determined and head strong, can out-stubborn the Batman, has a strong moral-backbone and does what he thinks is right regardless of what anybody else says, Robin. Jason who was sassy and quippy and made crude jokes with a smile on his face. Jason who hid in Bruce's cape and whispered gossip to him. Jason who, if Bruce refused him something, could keep bothering endlessly until Bruce caved. And also dramatic Jason. If Bruce tells him no, it becomes a whole theatrical show; a monologue, a narration, embellishments, and falling onto the floor in his grief upon the fact his cruel father has denied him once again.
(Jason who has suffered through abuse and homelessness and poverty and starvation, who is the Fight out of Fight or Flight, who's built up defenses and walls and when pushed and triggered responds with the thing that's always protected him; anger. He's sweet and kind and funny, and when he sees a pimp hitting a prostitute he gets furious and responds with violence.)
#my dc posting#dc#jason todd#jaybin#im having so many thoughts abt jaybin and he is so important to me#in one fic he went on a hunger strike bc alfred didnt eat w them and did it for so long they had to compromise#i love a jaybin 100% willing to menace and bother batman until the man folds. as is his right#the thing abt jason's backstory is that it shows him unwilling to suffer for a home#ma gunn's is bad; he gets beat up and she tries to get him to help rob a place. so he leaves! and rats the whole thing out to batman#and shows up himself cus he didnt think he had been believed#and lets not forget the fact he hit batman with a tire iron and called him a 'big boob'!#the boy's got moxie!! let jaybin be crass and angry and sassy and flawed and traumatized without reducing him to 2d caricature of a 'troubl#d kid'#i dont like a jason who did nothing but use excessive violence and disobey orders and be cocky and all that shit#i like a jason who was. oh yknow. a complex person!! a child/teen who has been fucking abused!!!#you shouldnt erase the fact that jason's reaction/response to stressful situations and triggers IS anger#it's not an indication that he was always gonna become a criminal/red hood or whatever. get outta here w that shit#but like. let us not go so far in the other direction we forget to have him react and be affected by the abuse he's suffered#anyway. if anyone should be a drama-queen it should be jaybin. once he becomes truly comfortable w bruce he should dial it up to 11#a lot of red hood's appeal (to me&many others) is that he is an 'imperfect' victim. meaning he is angry and flawed and doesnt suffer quietl#but is loud and obvious abt it#so when i see jaybin written as the opposite its like. man whats that about#anyway. jaybin is good and cares and wants to help and protect people. and by god if i ever see anybody writing#him having arguments with bruce about the no kill rule WHILE robin again im gonna throw hands istg-#my tags are like a hidden treasure box. most of what i say is in here lmao
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i dont usually post stuff like this but the circumstances are rly funny so i will.
my brother got me the ryoji plush for my bday and got me makoto/minato as an xmas present. however it hadn't arrived yet on xmas and lo and behold it eventually arrived on DEC 31ST. 😭
funniest possible date for it to arrive on. anyways i got silly with them
#delete later#????? idk#persona 3#ryoji mochizuki#minato arisato#makoto yuki#ryomina#I GUESS. explodes. ok no more tags im scared#the quality might be fucked a bit on purpose bc i tried putting a filter on to drown out the HARSH fucking yellow light but idk if it worke#the keychains are by @/aryll by the way i preordered them back in? november and then forgot 💀 until they arrived again#and omggg i love them. im giving my brother the makoter and i get ryoji; was originally only gonna get ryoji but then my brother#was like 'why would you separate them' lol. so i asked him if he wanted and yuh. i wish i had blue flower petals for the pic lol#but my mom only bought yellow roses cause we were doing a bunch of intricate new years rituals#2025 will see what adventures i bring these goobers on... i told nobody on here about it but in november i went to present at a conference#and i put ryoji in my ita bag LOLLL he got to see the world... so now makoter can go with him... 🥺#(maybe. ill have to get a new fuckign ita bag bc both wont fit in there it only fits one plushie 😭)
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While the dynamics of Bruce being the hopelessly smitten party in a unrequited love situation is interesting, I personally prefer it when it's the other way around except Bruce actually does love them but he's repressed his feelings so hard that he's kinda forced himself to forget about them and unless something forces them awake, they're cooked.
soo understandable
something i find so intriguing about bruce is that yes, he's a master at forcing his feelings down but as soon as he accepts them, he tends to go all in. straight into the deep end. he doesn't know how to not be so fucking intense.
so i think this situation would be kinda wild kinda fun in the sense that like. you have the whole initial angst of clark ((using him because he was in the original post)) truly believing that bruce does not, can not, will not love him back, and he's so sure of this because bruce is so sure of this. bruce shows no sign of loving him back because of just how deep down he's repressed it all. and generally clark is like "he's still my best friend and i'd love him even if he hated me," but also it still fucking sucks that the love is unrequited, right??
and then something happens and for the sake of this we'll say it's something like,, clark gets severely hurt in the field and someone kind of confronts bruce with his feelings and he finally has this moment of "okay shit yeah this is real" and that's when the repression goes away. that's the moment he accepts it.
now here's the thing. clark didn't know about bruce's feelings because bruce had pretty much forced himself to forget them. bruce does not have this issue with clark. he knows exactly how clark feels (world's greatest detective, obviously). so he does it. he dives straight in. pulls out all the stops.
and that's where the additional angst kicks in. because like. bruce has shown absolutely no sign of being interested in clark in any way. literally none. and now clark gets hurt and suddenly bruce is asking him on dates and saying he's in love with him and what the fuck?? clearly bruce is just confused because of the whole near-death thing. he doesn't actually love clark. clark would've known (he can hear the man's heartbeat, his breathing, can see every microscopic detail of the expressions he wears when talking to clark, and nobody can fake that, not even bruce). and now clark's all extra hurt on the inside because holy shit bruce finally loves him back and it's not even real??
obviously there's a happy ending somewhere in there of clark realising that okay shit yeah this is real. however in my head this is also a comedy so most of it is just bruce trying so desperately to convince clark that he genuinely does love him that he binges as many romcoms as possible and starts copying them. his kids start feeding him fake romcom moments or being like "this worked for a friend of mine" just to make him do the most ridiculous shit possible.
#if i am being real i completey forgot i was answering an ask halfway through this i just started having fun#i just like the idea of alfred asking bruce why he's watching notting hill at three in the morning in total darkness in the batcave#and bruce being like 'there is somebody i am attempting to... woo.'#and one of the batkids overhears & they tell the others 'we cant let this happen he needs to screw this up so he can get with clark instead#and it isn't until bruce hits his breaking point as is like 'ohh my fucking god clark is never going to believe me this isnt working'#and theyre like 'oh shit oh fuck its clark we fucked up this is it'#it's also important you know that clark recognises these tactics. him and lois have their own marathon once they catch on.#lois drives herself crazy trying to figure out what movie a certain one is from (it's one that came to tim in a dream)#i'm gonna stop this here bc i am quickly losing sight of the ask once again#but either way#yes i also like bruce repressing the shit out of his feelings.#we are in agreement#i need to go to sleep goodnight#bruce wayne#batman#clark kent#superman#superbat#batfamily
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that marie kondo might be onto something because I just bought a $20 butter dish off facebook marketplace and the whole time I was like am I just being a sillybilly.... am I being indulgent and wasteful...... I could get this for like two bucks somewhere else......... and then I bought it and took it home and put it on my counter and it perfectly matches our new cooking set and every time I see it I snile so sneetly so maybe there is something to be said for unapologetically pursuing joy :)
#i LOVE getting to pick out all my little items for my new home#our new place is soo nice and we have the BEST view#we've been running around crazystyle to get all of our little bits#you dont realize how much random stuff you use in a day until you move across the country and then dont have it anymore#like fuck i dont have a soap dish. i dont have a laundry basket. i dont have batteries. i dont have ziplocs. i dont have a spatula#but the nice thing is we get to be very intentional about what we have in here#theres still lots to do but its coming together!#molly speaks
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Marty McFly VS The Doc-pocalypse or smth like that idk
I put way too much effort into what was supposed to be a stupid doodle so uh. Have this Tumblr. I really don’t have a better explanation for this other than I got two more Doc Pop! Figures today, which leaves me with a growing army of 3 Docs and one singular Marty, and I keep laughing every time I look at them in my display case so here we have Marty dealing with multiple Docs from different times that have all somehow ended up in the garage in 1986. Four dimensional thinking has never been his strong suit, and trying to figure this out is not helping. He’s got two hours of sleep, a bajillion positive encouraging post-it notes from the Doc of the present telling him to sleep, hot chocolate, and four very enthusiastic Emmetts crowding the lab. Send help. And caffeine. And maybe Clara cause he’s not so sure he can keep them from blowing something up for much longer.
Picture of the inspiration under the cut :)
Behold, my growing Doc army and my one single Marty McFly left to deal with them
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At least Marty has his tunes. That might help him stay a little sane
#just cause I have to say this- DO NOT TAG AS SHIP HOLY FUCK#STAY BACK 🤺🤺🤺#okay now that that’s out of the way#Marty needs sleep#and a hug (which he’s already gotten multiple of because no matter the decade Doc is his best friend)#from left to right we’ve got:#confused 2015 Doc#paranoid 1955 Doc#one (1) very tired Marty who is actively ignoring the million sticky notes telling him to sleep#far too laid back (also due to lack of sleep) present Doc#and very excited to talk about science with someone who gets it 1931 Doc from the games#WHO IS A GINGER THATS CANON LOOK IT UP#i have no idea how this would happen or what would cause it but it seemed too funny not to doodle#then the doodle became a flat color#and here we are#high key could probably play with this idea if ppl showed interest#Oops All Docs AU#Docpocalypse AU#now for the obligatory tags#back to the future#back to the future the musical#back to the future the game#bttf#bttf musical#back to the future fanart#bttf fanart#until we meet again!
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anyone that says emmrich never actually faces his fear isn't actually paying attention. hear me out, okay, i've talked before (so many times) about how i think for emmrich his fear of death is less actual thanaphobia and more...his fear of being alone. of living alone, of spending eternity alone - especially in a culture and a society that places emphasis on lovers being buried together; he's terrified of it. and a romanced emmrich is so terrified of his relationship with rook - and how he feels - that he's willing to try to end it on the eve of a battle one or both of them might not come back from, because he's worried it might not be the big damn love story he's been aching for his whole goddamn life.
and guess what! rook doesn't come back.
he spends almost a month making that damn dagger - and like the rest of the crew - trying to find rook to pull them out of the fade prison because he's lost them. he's lost them right after realizing his fear's gotten the better of him and he's staring down the barrel of eternity without them. he was already trying to backpedal the whole thing before solas pulled his switcheroo and you know rook telling him they'll talk about it at home was like...a constant refrain in his head that whole almost month they were lost.
(which raises a good point with the mortal vs lich path in this respect, because a mortal emmrich was ready to tear open the fade to get rook back, imagine how many lines a lich emmrich might cross, especially given his line about never letting them be parted in this or any other world again. i have thoughts about how emmrich doesn't come back wrong from that, no, but he definitely comes back changed, he's...off. i've seen speculation that lich emmrich isn't emmrich - which i don't buy - or isn't entirely emmrich - which is a little more interesting and there may be some truth to the latter, or it could be he thinks he's indestructible at that point and gets really reckless and less measured but that is another argument for another time.)
and basically the point i'm leading up to here is...you can complain all you want that he never uses the l word before the final battle, but even with harding pointing out he's gotten a little spacey and distracted and mopey with a relationship on the burner, and all the other pet names he uses so damn liberally (dearest, darling, flame of my heart), he's still holding a lot of stuff back. he's still holding himself back, quite a bit, until that moment when he finally (finally) tells rook he loves them. he never calls rook my love until after the fade prison in the mortal path, and it's just the once, as far as i can actually remember. and it's because of all of that shit above.
(lich emmrich does it earlier, because that this may be my last chance to say it comes a hell of a lot sooner, and he uses my love liberally after that point.)
this is intentional on his part. this man has skirted around using the word love so much ("very fond of you" my ass) that rook totally has the option to call him out on it and it's like a record scratch.
he's, i think, terrified of loving something that can die? and he's terrified of being alone. and ultimately a romanced mortal emmrich has to face both of those things, one after the other, between manfred and the fade prison. and i think, going forward, it's not going to be completely gone - in fact for a hot minute after everything it's probably exacerbated to a large degree and he's probably extra...like that for a while - but it makes him confront those things head on in...very blunt ways. here's a reminder of what losing someone you love deeply to death feels like. here's what losing someone you've given your heart to for safekeeping feels like. it's kind of disingenuous to claim his fears are left untouched, when he's given a one-two knock out punch and is left having to deal with the fallout of that.
eta: and none of this actually touches on the fact that it's him that tells rook to grab the dagger before they go poof, so he's siting with that constant weight on his chest, too, but we'll dig into that at a later time because it's cold and my fingers are starting to get stiff.
#( headcanons )#// i've said before i think emmrich's been burned bad in the past#// and i do#// i think he's been very hurt by someone he thought was going to be it#// and i don't think he ever stops fearing that's going to happen again#// well#// until a point#// that point apparently being yanking rook's ass out of the fade prison idk what to tell you#// and that is why i think he doesn't talk about his romantic past?#// and why i think he actually is so guarded with rook until the point he realizes#// hey you know what losing you would actually be pretty fucking awful#// and he's forced in no uncertain terms to face what that would feel like#// which doesn't even cover losing manfred who is#// a whole 'nother ball of wax to get on with#// anyway my point here is#// mortal emmrich is already ready to do a lot of shit to get the two most important people in his life back#// some of which may be called ill-advised#// imagine how much worse it could be#// hi i'm thinking about all the ways a lich emmrich could go bad don't mind me#// but also how emmrich is so guarded even in the honeymoon phase of a relationship#// that it almost goes up in flames around him#// and how the whole point is HE HAD TO FACE HIS FEAR#// join us next time when we discuss how bratty rook interrupts his actual job is actually my villain origin story
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imagine being pickled lol it would probably not even have any effect on me at all. i might enjoy it tbh . In fact
#guys why at work do people always ask for docs and then never fucking read them?#my manager just asked me for a doc answering the same fucking question as one we all read as a team like a month ago?? you want me to copy#that or fucking what???#waste of time i have GOT to get the fuck outta here#my god#everyone just inventing work lol like if there’s nothing to do just fuckin#we shouldn’t exist then! fuckin just shutter just fire everyone!!#christ!! what’s the point of all this lollygagging I can’t bear it#useless and pointless#I have to get out of here before I die#god and there’s like 4 days left until move starts im on the edge of just dying straight up#no fanfare just death just like sleeping#it’s AWFUL!! AHHHH!!!! it’s fine#probably it’ll be fine
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so no one was going to tell me if i got literally one episode further tenax drops that he’s the one who saved scorpus from his mom’s pimp AND that he’s intimately familiar with scorpus’ dick when he was younger. guys. guys.
#thinking about an INSANE divorce fic. as a follow-up to the 30k canon-compliant backstory i have not written#(really it could be an au of that because like. am i sentimental and would i want them to get emotionally divorced NO but i will get into#the variants of this later i have to tell you about them ACTUALLY divorced first before i get into the hot divorcee energy of it all)#where they fucked around when they were younger and then broke up because. yeah tenax can dream but scorpus needs certainty he is what he#is he wants attention and dignity and when blue offers for him he goes and we don’t need to know what the massive fight was but we DO need#to know that they stopped fucking and maybe they stopped talking too but now they’re Colleagues. putting the ‘because i can’ moment#into a WHOLE different light bc it’s very much a ‘you no longer have a say in who I get to fuck because it’s not YOU. because we’re not’#and thus we get an exes-to-lovers arc I still know you the best and yes I SEE the scorpus xenon andria potential & once again I am saying:#put that in a box we can’t talk about that right now I see it but that’s not what we’re here for. anyway I was TRYING to say the ‘I know u#best of anyone’ of it all and if you think I have stopped thinking about tenax goading scorpus & talking about his dick for a single second#I have not. I REALLY have not because that is top tier blatant manipulation to be like ohhhh poor baby you’re so old and rotting I can just#get a new chariot driver I don’t even really want you anyway 😇 and scorpus KNOWS It’s bait however. he’s gotta get his attention back.#anyway they are ugly divorced and it’s very slow burn but I know exactly how you taste & what buttons to press & how to grip your shoulders#in an argument until they fuck nasty on all of their riches or however this thing ends. not well for anyone but I WILL be getting them back#together. the other fun little big divorced energy thoughts i had were very much ‘divorced and arguing but it’s foreplay to threaten to#leave each other’ so they can have hot aggressive mean sex because they get off on arguing with each other. everybody in the stables starts#to see them arguing about chariot design & the brothers are scared they’re gonna kill each other & then suddenly scorpus is tongue-fucking#Tenax’s throat with a fist still in his hair and tenax has a hand pinning him back against the post by the throat and that’s all they see#before everybody clears the FUCK out. this is a regular occurrence at all times in all arguments it’s so fun I love the dynamic#OHHHH AND IT’S AN OUTSIDER POV FIC i said the brothers really i meant elia but also now that i say that. could be a fun five + 1 of#everyone watching them threaten to kill each other and then y’know. la petit mort. ALSO i know i see the calla/tenax too we can’t talk abt#that put it in the box with the chariot drivers we can have one (1) thing at a time. the calla note is because i want a calla pov of them#where she’s just like ‘freaks. right in front of my salad?’ and does not give a fuck at all. top tier. anyway. andria/elia/calla/domitian#(Domitian seeing them petition him would be so fun because he wants to puppet master everything he’d want to know SO BAD.) the 5th one idk#because I don’t have any idea about the third brother yet but maybe Tenax catching scorpus in a brothel again? and the +1 is their POV ofc.#(anyway for myself: the vibes i want here are geno/anna cat and mouse follow/unfollow divorce and win her back rumors)#scorpus/tenax#those about to die#scorpus#tenax
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