#ugh i hate my life sometimes

[ontargetmadders]

I am so sick of my mum policing what I'm eating all the damn time. I'd get it if i was overweight but I'm just a little bit chubby. And I work from home so I'm not getting exercise but I'm not overeating. And I eat certain things like takeaways on Saturdays cause I'm fucking depressed and it helps sometimes. And i'm bloody 26. It's got nothing to do with her or anyone how much or what I eat. I'm an adult and it's my body so its my choice ffs

[wrylu]

idk why i'm so moody these days but i find my despair funny

aka my average day as of now

[toxifoxx]

truly at the end of the day its all about receiving validation

[autisticlee]

no one knows just how hard I work at things. how I have to work 1000000x more than the average person to compensate for being autistic and adhd and probably other things i'm working out with therapist, and having a sort of physical disability i've not received any help or treatment for. everyone assumes I don't try or give up too soon. they think I just started, need more practice. they think I expect everything handed to me immediately with no work or effort and don't acknowledge the multiple years i've put into things. they think I have no right to be upset about still failing to get where I want even after working my entire life to get there, while watching people around me surpass even my meager goals within a fraction of the time and work i've out into the same thing. constantly getting surpassed by everyone around me who seem to barely do any work to get there compared to me. it's all handed to them and falls into their lap so easily. all because they don't have the extra obstacles to overcome and work around that I do. while they go from point A to Z immediately with no major stops in between, I have to go through every single letter and then some, often getting sent back to the start. but it's always *my* fault, according to everyone. it's not the fault of those around me who ignore me, don't support me, don't help me, don't believe in me, etc. it's my fault they don't do those things. because doing the work of 10 people in one isn't enough, just because it's me. and not reaching Z as fast as everyone else means I don't deserve any of the support or help or anything else and means i'm not trying hard enough. it doesn't matter that I *need* to work harder than 100 "normal" people combined to get even half the result! Just because I can't reach what they do means i'm not trying hard enough! ugh.

[bigothteddies]

not to post about someone who isn’t here anymore but I miss bbycnt so bad that’s my fucking friend right there she was the fucking best 😭

[decaffeinatedscarykoala]

Tears in my eyes and a forced smile on my face as I try to ignore the crippling agony I get cursed with monthly

(Keeping it together cuz I genuinely don't have the energy to lose it)

(No I am not a werewolf)

[syunkiss]

I might probably start smoking or drinking sooner or later. Or maybe both

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[lesbiansanemi]

I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao

[stormyrainyday]

this entire year has been flop after flop why am i losing so bad your honor i am literally just some guy

[rickety-house]

guiiwgghauaiauagguaiaghjjghjjjhhhh

this didn’t fit in the hashtags but donr rb or comment I’m just screaming to myself atm I’ll probably delete this shit tomorrow goodnigjt fuck everything live vs kill

[none-ofthisnonsense]

sometimes life just goes to shit

[elvhendis]

I keep flip flopping between telling myself that stylized art just isn't my type of art, I just can't do it well, better stick to what I'm good(?) at, then 5 seconds later seeing the most amazing stylized art and going I wish that was me I wish I could draw like that 😭😭 and it's not productive but it happens more often than I would like

[musical-chick-13]

I DO, however, want to take the time to say that "Enjoying a dynamic as a horror story/as something incredibly fucked-up that should never in any way be replicated in real life" and going "Aw, look at them, they're in love, I hope they're together forever!!" are not necessarily mutually exclusive.

[my-thirteenth-reason]

kicking my feet and giggling (<- just got apologised to)

[kalashtars]

if I think abt the state of trans politics in the US for more than .2 seconds I start wanting to sob god I hate it here