#tw : depression

[yourgirlinpieces]

i be like communication is the key and then not tell people i dont like what they did/do and just keep my feelings to myself cause i feel like if i say it out loud its not gonna get better and it'll turn get worse but oh well its getting worse either ways

[shinypokemonshowdown]

I don't know if this is ok to ask, but does this mean the one who created this account is gone? Like, gone gone? It's nice to meet you, it's just sad to think about.

Technically speaking a alter of a system is never truly gone.. they go dormant and the original creator has been dormant for almost a year

Hilbert, the former host, was going through a lot, he was severely depressed and had a lot of suicidal tendencies. He tried his best to keep this blog a happy and fun space away from that.

That's mainly what motivated me to keep going with it, because he loved it so much it feels like his legacy lives on through it.

There's no easy answer to your question however, it's something all of us struggle with, loosing Hilbert as a host. It hurt to see him hurting for so long but refusing us when we tried to help. I feel guilty taking over sometimes, like I robbed him of existence.. That's why I never fully came out for so long, but you can only pretend to be someone you're not for so long.

If it helps he lives on through me, I do have some of his memories, mainly surrounding how happy he was to run this blog the dedication he had to it. I'm extremely happy to continue running this blog for the foreseeable future

[rins-batcave]

Month Review - January Edition !

Overall Rating - 7/10

My mental health was definetely not great, a lot of sh. But also the best thing in the world ever happened to me and I got an amazing partner so I mean that outweighs it.

School was shit, I got really fucking burnt out, but again Con my love so it's ok.

Mental Health Rating - 5/10

Really bad tbh for eating disorder, depression and sh but actually pretty okay anxiety wise.

Outfit Rating - 8/10

I think I served some looks this month, ate some shit up and generally was gender.

End of January Stats!

Age: won’t say but minor

Height: 5’5

Grade: won’t say

Confidence: 6/10

Happiness: 7/10

Gender: gender fluid

Sexuality: asexual

Romantic: aroflux

Fav food: bread

Fav show: probably b99 or ted lasso

Fav movie: lego batman

Fav song: too many to pick!!!

Fav artist: wallows or dayglow

Relationship status: takennnn by the most amazing person ever

Fav colour: green

Fav season: winter

Followers: 693

[xmortem09]

People don't know how much strength it costs to just vanish from this fucked up planet.

[youwillleaveme]

and if none of my friends get me, i know my tumblr girlies get me

[sad-empty-lost]

I just want to die

[siblingsoflight]

Celeste let out a deep sigh and stared into her tea cup. Outside of Oswald, Ortansia, and Vanitas, she hated this conversation. She always got told to either suck it up or written off.

"It's not that....I'm on antidepressants and antianxiety medication. Have been for a few years now. My mental health wasn't so great after all that happened, even with counseling. As a result, I wasn't pushed towards Mastery like others would've been. It worked out. I attended a magic college back home and graduated at the top of my class."

She smiled. In truth, her mental health has vastly improved lately. It was part of the reason she was never a candidate. Oswald always worried about her mind betraying her.

"Master Yin SId said it should be in a year or two. Three at the latest. Especially with my health improving."

With that, she slapped her hand over her mouth.

Oh dammit!!

[dilfosaur]

personal comics from the past year about feeling Bad

[rainywhispersblog]

[foxlungz]

I just want to give up I’m tired from the bottom of my fucking soul like I don’t want to do this shit anymore like let me rest please I’ve had enough

[letsventstuff]

No no no no no, you don't understand. I can't keep going on like this. It's draining me and I can't take it anymore. No more, please.

[lilysofthevalleys]

[xmortem09]

I just wanna rot away and dissolve into nothing.

[yourgirlinpieces]

i hate that kind of sadness where your chest physically hurts

[nabbibutterfly]

I wanna cry, scream, hurt myself, and die so bad, but I just don't have energy for anything anymore...

I feel so damn exhausted

[themindofmine]

I feel like I’m already dead but I have to keep on living