#tumblr is just my personal diary ok

[tenrose]

I always cringe when all the kpop stans praise the group singing in the "it's live" channel because the vocal editing is so bad imo. The band arrangement is great it's true, especially with DC since their music is rock influenced obviously it's gonna work (the arrangement for bon voyage is so good 😩). However I'm sorry but the vocal editing is not it. Honestly it barely deserves the "it's live" mention, because ok they sing live but whoever edit this must hate raw vocals or something and as a result it doesn't sounds live at all. Like for example they always edit Dami's voice so much that she ends up sounding robotic and higher than her natural voice and like it is very clear that it's heavily edited??? And a lot of time I've heard voices sounding more robotic and the pitch way too high to sounds natural... Whatever settings they are using, they are using them wrong.

Anyway, truth to be told, generally speaking kpop stans baffle me. Like when I first got into kpop and DC I've seen a lot of people praising them for singing live and I was like "???? They are singers it's literally their jobs what do you mean????", before finding out that it is indeed not so common for singers to sing 💀

Don't get me wrong, I know TV broadcasts are almost pre recorded for technical reason, and not just kpop shows, like every musical awards ceremonies are like that. The Eurovision song contest is just a different breed lmao. Also I get that they are dancing so they need to breathe and can rely on backtrack, although some choreographers clearly don't give a fuck about the singing part cause some dance moves can't physically allow the artist to sing at the same time 🙄 As for encore stages, obviously nobody should expect perfection when the artists are singing, with a noisy crowd and no in ear monitor but at least sing. So I'm not here to bash imperfections. Although being able to at least decently sing your lines seems like the bare minimum. Obviously we know it won't be the outstanding vocals moment and I don't really care if they skip something because they are celebrating, gooding around etc., have a voice crack or sometimes are a bit out of tune because of the no in ear monitor but at least try, thank you very much.

But like for concerts and festivals???? You guys are paying for a backtrack concert??? Again I can understand why they need backing when dancing, although I'd say for a concert they should be more laid back on the dance to be able to sing but I suppose some people value choreographies more than I do. But when singing with no choreography at a concert and you can hear the backtrack more than the actual vocals???? That's insulting to everyone's wallet tbh. Not to mention the fact that they are groups so each member don't even sing an entire song by themselves????? And people are like, they need to preserve their vocals, they are tired etc. That's just bullshit. Bands sometimes have tours for months and they sing every two days or even every day, they may not be dancing but some are like running and jumping around for the whole show. And they sing live for like two hours. And yes sometimes their also singers have a bad day, and their vocals are weak, they sound exhausted etc. Sometimes their voices crack, they miss their cue etc. But tbh that's what I love about a concert. And personally I would rather see an artist performing at their lowest than paying for no live singing or being overpowered by a backing track.

Literally all a singer need is practice and obviously a healthy as possible life hygiene (but I won't get to that topic because tbh I don't think idols have anything to say in regarding this matter and I don't want to fuel that sterile debate). Some singers are better than other, that's for sure and not even talking about vocal capabilities, because I'm not an expert at all, we all have our preferences and that's alright. But they should be able to perform songs they actually recorded in the studio booth at some point. What's the point of making a song you can't even sing live anyway???

And I mean I can't blame the idols because they probably don't get to choose whether to sing live or not. Not to mention the fact that kpop stans praise so much fake live vocals that they don't understand what's a live vocals and can't stand imperfections which really does not help at all.

But to each their own I guess 🤷

[someofitwastrue]

fat mac :) 👍

[barfville]

sketchbook dyump of a few lil comics.

anyone elses father make them insane even though you've never even had much contact with the bastard

[arosnowflake]

Weighing in on the debate “Are you allowed to ship aromantic characters?” As an aromantic person, this is a difficult subject. On the one hand, we have characters who clearly and repeatedly state that they hate romance, do not feel romantic attraction, and don’t want to be in a relationship. On the other hand, we have your personal inability to engage with deep relationships without making them romantic. As a compromise, I say people are allowed to ship canon aromantic characters, provided they pay me at least $100 in cash for the license.

[sweetvalentinescandy]

trying to make some tweek designs just to like practice or somethin idk ell oh ell im not feeling very confident in my art anymore lowkey

big yap fest for each design under the cut !!

Barbarian Tweek

"ive never really thought of tweek as afab outside of TSOT, but i feel more comfortable drawing top surgery scars [than i do like.. nipples.] ive always seen tweek as trans, usually non conforming/non binary/androgynous in general, but ive never considered transmasculine. but i like the idea!

this is probably my least canon compliant design of this bunch. i feel like the fantasy of TSOT is just so ripe for headcanons. i NEVER draw sp characters with canon in mind really, probably the autism taking over or somethin, but i always at least age them up [more in the main tweek design]. for this design, i was thinking more of what tweek thought they looked like, if not the more au version of TSOT. like, The Thief by Wintergrew on ao3 kinds of non canon compliant. thats also most of the inspiration for basically every TSOT thing i do ever. i love that series (i did cry) (a lot)"

Tweek Tweak

"its the original guy lets have a round of applause honestly..., not my favorite time ive drawn bro. he looks so boring when hes just standing there. i always see tweek as non binary, just because i project on them a LOT.. like. i know that hes a guy and probably doesnt care [in canon], but i just headcanon like that i guess. i also age him up, along with every other sp character, to be around my age so like 14-17. i know thats controversial [and by "i know" i mean i saw someone on sp whisper pinterest say they hated it] but i just dont know how to write kids. theyre kinda boring. i can project more onto teens i guess. thats kinda all there is to say. sometimes i draw tweek with brown pants, but thats because i just like the earthy aesthetic [on them]"

Wonder Tweek

"this is the most canon compliant one. im just not that much of a TFBW guy honestly (which is sad because its the only source of not really canon twenny sigh) but i guess its also the source of some of the best creek. i am not a creek hater but sometimes its hard to fight the allegations when i start crying over them having a cute scene in a video game [not because im mad its because i miss being in a relationship] [frowney tumblr loser behavior] when i say this is the most canon compliant one, i mean it. this is SHORT HAIR TWEEK. [i usually draw tweek with like longer hair like 2021 wolfmullet hair and with the little twin sideburn things idk what theyre called, mostly because i didnt know how to draw short boy hair before getting into sp and thats just how i drew them instead but a year later i finally decided to just do it and thought it was okay for startin out] code red. sound the alarms. theres not a lot to say besides that. (can you tell i hit my peak with barbarian tweek.) [i ordered this by order of how i finished them and yes you can tell sigh]"

[colorfes]

Hello Everynyan . Waves . I’m back on tumblr again @heatabnormal (non-vsynth interest and art sideblog is @autisticgirlautumn) please follow me there if you wanna catch up or talk at all or whateveeeeeeer ^__^~ missed my mutuals and friends woo

[girlcrushau]

[battlecriesandroses]

so yesterday i experienced my first fictional crush and it’s been downhill from there

[petite-ursus]

Some comic diaries from January to April. Not uploaded to instagram yet, because I like to have 10ish at a time, but I genuinely just like these a lot.

The first two are some of my favorite consecutive panels I’ve done... I like the two ways I’m “alone” with my animals and out in nature, and the two ways Haley and I are spending time together. I like the meat dry aging locker with the roses as the Valentines day panel. Are the puzzle pieces straight? No. But neither am I. I’m also not thrilled with the quality of the very first panel, but there is one from two years ago (I put them side by side) where I’m there with just my cats, so it’s a kind of cool parallel, even if the newer one is chaotic.

And then the second two pages just came out really nice and easy? Like some panels I have to redraw until there is a hole in the page, and most of those (all?) were the base sketch and then the final.

[wibble-wobbegong]

hey guys if you see stuff about bombs on tv tonight blame it on driving school

[bnuyfrowns]

my final autism diagnosis appointment is today :))

[eijminds]

i just finished s&b

[pirateboy]

me making my silly little text posts ab lil wayne as if i'm not the only lil wayne fan on this site 🤡

[dyed-petals]

i know there is no light in view, but i still prepare myself to rationalize how it will be worth it once i finally reach it. there was a reason i took this tunnel, the light will be so bright at the end, trust me, i know it has to be true, or why would i have taken a tunnel. this isnt even a poem, is it? its barely even prose. i wish it was, i wish there was beauty in suffering. tragedy lets me fantasize that there is meaning in this pain, that im not just going to be done with this slightly less alive than when i started and i will have no undo button.

what can come of this? comraderie maybe? do you think i will appreciate life more when i get out of this slump? will i learn my lesson and avoid it from here on out? if any of that were true there wouldn't be any suffering in suffering.

no one is looking out for me. i can't convince myself there is no matter how many sermons i sit through and hymns i sing and verses i read. i know ill believe it again. but the only belief i can muster as of now would require i don't see my current self as a part of me. maybe it would be nice, to dismiss this as one bad dream. but it would condemn me as a creature of darkness only. it would be comforting to believe, to absolve me of my sloth in giving up, but alas i know i can't give up. my life is bigger than me and i will drag it along with me.

i have this post, i guess. is this the light im looking for? a tumblr post that no one will read except for myself in a couple months when im brainstorming song lyrics? will the song be worth it? will i ever make something good enough for this to be worth it?

i just dont. want to feel anything right now. i just want the rest of the world to wait. i dont want to tarnish the things i have a vague sense i'll care about later. can i please figure out a nicer way of asking you to leave me alone after you leave me alone. ill be normal eventually. it always passes just as meaninglessly as it came.

im sorry october. i won't get to see you again.

oh. tomorrow's the anniversery of the worst day of my life. yeah. that tracks.

8. its been 8. im sorry. i'll try again next year. i wish i remembered your birthday instead.

[starsarehere]

Body Ache

[applepixls]

my heart goes out to episode 3 secret life grian because I'm kind of living it right now (watch out peeps, low-key a vent incoming!)

in a stream after the big win scar says he's not sure if he could do it again, the whole being alone and having no friends thing and i kind of know what he means. as a real person its hard not having friends because you have no emotional support or people to connect with etc etc etc. in game it was hard not having friends cause he couldn't lean on anyone for resources and always had to leave home and manufacture interactions for content rather than being able to multitask and go caving with a friend (like the "i left my diamonds right here!" bit in last life with grian and mumbo. its just a mundane task but the interaction has become iconic)

but we're talking about grian now. just- the state of this man. i related a little bit too much to him in this episode. he made the diagonal staircase creature the episode before and said it looked like his brain; mush. but then in episode 3 ended up getting the task to follow his old buddy from the previous season around and just having joel go "ok lol lame. this is awkward. we're not really best friends, he's just following me around" (disclaimer: i know its just for the bit and they're good friends irl) and then to have joels new best bud (aka lizzie his irl wife-) go "HAH! you got no fri-endsss~!" (this lives rent free in my head lol) and tease him the following is a compilation of moments i related to having recently drifted from a close friend of several years :) - watching joel bond with the mounders from afar and having him just go "one second grian, we're bonding" when just one season ago they would bond and say who was boogeyman or not at the beginning of episodes - finally thinking he's got a friend because of his task, joel saying he'll "let [him] know" when he takes damage and how much and "oh, you don't want me to hang out with you?" "no but you can go hang out at the top of the helter skelter alone if you want". thinking he had a friend to turn out he didn't. (its then still socially okay and funny that he refused to leave joel alone because its all a bit for the episode) - "he's my pet" "i think we're friends. i think we're best friends" the thinking we're best friends not being mutual - "one moment, grian" as grian's trying to talk to him and joels just doing his task. its the being put off as a second priority over other friends (made me weirdly frustrated despite knowing its all made up silly improv-d conflict between grown adults who are actually friends) - "heard something about a group of friends, maybe I'm now a part of it?" its socially kind of weird to do this irl but the. knowing a bunch of people you know are a like Friend Group and wondering why you're not included - "not even this enderman wants to be my friend! im gonna cry" not that relevant just felt silly and relatable - "am i just here to clarify rules; you guys don't want to be friends?" serving a functional purpose to a group, no ones actually finding you just for you and to chat and be friends (I've gotten messages from friends just needing me to settle arguments between other friends) - (after chanting fail at mumbo) "its just me, this is why i don't have friends" the finding yourself cringe at every turn and thinking wow this is why no one likes me. yknow as im typing this im thinking "wow this is why i have no friends, isn't it? im on tumblr using it as a diary rather than making friends and speaking to them about my issues or finding a therapist to work through my insecurities." - throughout the episode just hating everything he created and wanting to destroy it - the stairs and even later the egg (not relevant to having friends. well kind of but not really. but loneliness can make you act crazy its just the art block and frustration and disappointment in yourself and your failure to have a vision and properly bring it into fruition) - "i definitely won't back down on this, I'm committing fully to the egg" i have a bad habit of running away from friendships when i get scared of any slew of things or just don't like them anymore, hence why i no longer have friends :) - the fact each time he finds something, anything, to pull him away from his whole being alone thing and distract him for any amount of time he goes and dives full in but the conversation always comes back to how he has no friends. - feeling like you'll never be capable of creating and committing to long lasting healthy relationships like everyone else seems to be, settling for short term slightly toxic (joel literally didn't want to be his friend) ones just to have someone to be around. smth smth, "we accept the love we think we deserve."

i'd originally rewatched scar's secret life and thought it would make me sad cause he spent the whole time being alone but scar never made much of a big deal of being lonely and just made comments like "that's not right. how did the guy with no friends win?" feeling like he didn't deserve the win which echoes pearl in double life saying "this wasn't supposed to happen. i wasn't supposed to have friends" like she was scared of making bonds after being rejected by both martyn and scott at the beginning and like she was actually crazy and surely deserved them both leaving and didn't deserve friends but that pattern is an entirely other thing to dig into

when i first watched secret life as it was coming out (October to December 2023) i thought i was on good terms with this friend or was at least deluded and distracted enough to think that. i haven't rewatched grian's perspective since realizing our friendship was all falling apart at the beginning of this year (mostly in march) and then running away from some other friends and becoming a weird little egg on my own. its funny how grians made up improv'd loneliness can echo real loneliness, isn't it?

im very happy he got adopted by cleo and etho the next episode.