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#trying to finish this homework assignment#and it's just me sitting here like#yes i need help#i've known i need help for years now#no i don't want to get it#no one understands how exhausting it is to be alive#and every time i try to express it#i get weird looks#or i'm told i'm severely depressed and then the medication either doesn't work#or it works a little bit and then stops working again#anyway this is just me complaining about my english class#bc we're moving on to ethnographic essays#and part of it includes researching the community we live in#and my brain's immediate response was#oh that sounds like a lot of anxiety no thank you#ignore me
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happy pride fellow girls gays and theys
#i will probably be alive maybe idk monday or tuesday?#until then i may not reply to dms too much bc im cramming in hw#and i'm always super exhausted after work kjsbcs#today i had 2 hour floor time#LMAOOO#now i must do more homework...#mwah mwah mwah#trying to get ahead on assignments .. but i havent finished the stuff due sunday & monday yet so jkscjks#ANYWAYS#i will be awake but. effectively. not. if you get me. KJKBS HOMEWORK TIME U KNOW... so goodnight!!!!#replies and starters later this week...#ooc.#tbd.
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🎃 trick or treat 🎃
You get a long snippet (act surprised):
Roy flipped to a page at random:
'Ah, la belle dame sans merci who lived in his heart, made known to him in transitory fading splendor by dark eyes in the Ritz-Carlton, by a shadowy glance from a passing carriage in the Bois de Boulogne!'
The book Ted had given Roy had started with, ‘It was a dark and stormy night.’
“Oi!” Jamie started, sitting up to give Roy a concerned frown. “This one isn’t the first in the series.”
Roy shrugged. “Doesn’t matter. They’re all supposed to be self-contained stories. Don’t think I’ve ever met a person who read Wodehouse in order.”
Mollified, Jamie settled back into the cushions with Roy’s book, seemingly unaware of the puzzle Roy was rotating in his head.
Within the first few pages, he had a good idea what Ted intended by giving Jamie this particular book. He also couldn’t help but notice that he’d been given a book fit for his six-year-old niece, and Sam had been given Ender’s Game, and somehow Jamie had been the unlucky bastard with a reading assignment that would make any university student want to stick pencils in their eyes.
Also Anthony Patch was a posh rich twat.
#trick or treat asks#ask game#snippets#partway through suffering through The Beautiful and The Damned and BOY HOWDY DO I HAVE OPINIONS ON THIS BEING JAMIE'S BOOK#i tried to find you something fluffy but instead I found this and I am having STRONG FEELINGS ABOUT IT#anyways the fluffy part is that Roy spends a good chunk of time trying to find A Book for Jamie#partly to undo a little of what Ted did (and he does not even know the whole of THAT yet)#and partly because he has assigned himself Coach Homework to work out what he would've done in Ted's situation#and partly because jamie struggling to finish this stupid book is excruciating to watch. because jamie is not enjoying the book like at all#so here roy has literally just. traded him books. so Jamie can curl up on the couch with Wodehouse#and roy can suffer through the realistic disintegration of a relationship into emotional (and physical) domestic abuse and alcoholism#and like. ted couldn't have known. but wow wow wow this is not a light read#anyways#abuse mention cw#for the tags at least#roy kent#jamie tartt#fic: oh god you're gonna get it (you have not been given love)
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god i really forgot that every business management professor specifically is the most unpleasant human being alive for no good reason. i have two business classes with like econ and accounting professors respectively and those look fine and then oh my god if i have to go back to this class with this professor i think i might actually kill myself
#red rambles#she's not. *mean*. she is. um. fucking. i think condescendiing is the word#she made us do a kahoot in class on questions we didn't know explicitly because she knew we didn't know them. i hate kahoots#she went through the syllabus like we were children which. fine whatever every professor does that it's why i hate the first class#but she also kept going off topic to give us life advice. never give me life advice ill fucking kill you#im really not sure what else was my fucking problem but i genuinely felt like i was being psychologically tortured#also i have done one of the several assignments for the class already and they're babyshit but its going to be one of my most#busywork heavy classes and she wants us doing discussion questions every fucking week#and i have to download yet another fucking app for her class#and i need it for my degree plan but oh my GOD. i need to get the fuck out of it#im gonna try and find a different session of the class taught by a different professor and switch in#do you know how much i have to hate a class if im willing to eat two entire finished homework assignments to get out of it#eta. i take it with this professor or i take it with a different professor i know and already know i cant stand#who is also going to work us like dogs unlike this prof who is going to apparently treat us like we are 14 years old#i guess its not college if i'm not being forced to experience psychological torment for an hour and a half every couple days lol#ill just have to like eat something before that class and do my best to fortify myself before i go in and turn evil
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anxiety levels catastrophic. happy Mother’s Day!
#nothing more horrifying than having to go to a family barbecue and trying to organize a theater outing with friends and having one thousand-#-accumulated notes to study and having to finish wrapping gifts for a birthday party next week and having to write a paper on the water-#-resources in Gabon (which I was assigned on Wednesday and still haven’t had time to finish) and also translate a song in french for my-#-lessons and having to do my french homework. also i am hungry and the world is so so loud
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i cannot express enough how damaging it is mentally and emotionally that i still live here 🤣
#purrs#the way everything is ALWAYS my fault! the way that my parents are gods who can never make any mistake or admit to wrongdoing and everything#they ever do is justified but then when i (a fully grown adult) also try to explain when i didn’t do anything wrong or when it’s not#actually my fault it doesn’t apply lol. the way i am asking for permission for things THEY SHOUKD BE ASKING ***ME*** for permission for LOL#the way i found out only recently (yeah.) that im still legally / financially a dependent 😍😍😍😍😍😍 awesome. lolololol. the way i can’t get out#of the quicksand until i get out of the quicksand but in order to get out of the quicksand i have to be able to get out of the quicksand 😻🙏🏻#delete later#btw i just finished my first homework assignment ive had to do in a year and 3 months and my first class is in 15 hours. what if i *** rn.#also it occurred to me the other day like. i have always thought of myself as selfish and imparient but also… these were things my parents#were telling me i was / treating me like i was as young as 3-4 years old as evidenced by the video tapes. and like. what if that’s not#actually how i was / am and everything i did and needed and do and need was valid and justified and what if all the bad things i believe(d)#about myself were / are because they told me that’s who i was and i was too little to know they were wrong. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯
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I never see enough Mad Scientist Aesthetic things, but its such a good aesthetic!! Beakers with glowing liquids, blacklights, goggles, thick black gloves, crazy hair, greens and purples, OUGH
Anyways I've been scouring the internet for mad science-y videos and... Mad Science lovers get ready for the queue After Valentine's Day, I made a bunch of stuff
#i've had a couple stimboard requests sitting in my inbox for a while#and i basically told myself that i wouldn't make ANY stimboard until I fulfilled those requests#but... i think maybe that just made the concept of making them altogether seem like another homework assignment. took the fun out of it#I still wanna make those requests !! The ppl who requested them probably forgot about them 😅 theyve been there so long#one person who made a request deactivated before I could even finish the board... :(#I still wanna make them. and i will... but im gonna try and get into making stimboard again first#cuz i forgot how much fun they could be until I made this one :')#so there is a stimboard coming along w all the gifs i made#get ready for that <3#not stim#text post
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You can tell a lot about me mental state by looking at my hair. When it is neat, I’m doing good. When it’s not, I am facing the horrors
#this comes to you from me trying to comb my hair for realies for the first time in some weeks#I have been dying#I should be catching up on some lectures or doing homework or studing for finals#but I got a burst of motivation so I am doing this#which is great becuase i barely have had the motivation finish schoolwork for the past three weeks#that does include thanksgiving break becuase my teachers all decided it would be great to give assignment over the weekend
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in my monthly “mourning the part of me that died last year” era
#trying to finish up my resume so i can ask ppl for letters of rec#scrolling thru my photos trying to find proof of what exactly i did#going through spring 2023 and now fall 2022.#i just. argh#im so much better now than i was at this point last year#and words cant even really describe how much better i am now#or even rather just. how much WORSE i was last year#i just. im finally getting motivation again to like put my life back together and learn how to be a human being again#and now looking at my shit from january 2023 and being like. oh yeah. this is exactly why im having to put myself back together again#im like so proud of myself now for like putting 5 clothes away per day to clean up my room#so im like wow im making progress yay#and so then its like. oh. stark reminder as to the exact soul crushing dark depths of my soul that led me to this point in the first place#brot posts#also going thru all my old school homework and textbook files and its like. damn. i used to be about that life#and also seeing the utter decline in organization in my folders as time went on#like girl you can see the depression coming over me just in the file structures …#and also how more and more homeworks get skipped like oh HW7. then HW9. no hw8… cuz i didnt gaf anymore#meanwhile my first two years were so meticulously organized and well kept. and never missing an assignment
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furless furry
#art#traditional art#watercolour#oc art#ocs#oc group: warrior cats fan character#oc: nopelt#im desperately trying to finish as much homework as i can for this one assignment#i finished one piece just now so im rewarding myself by scanning some doodles i did#but now....it is back to the grindstone (making powerpoints)
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^ live footage of me rn
#friday chats#tw vent#not like a super terrible vent or anything i'm just. tired. and mad at myself.#so like a couple weeks ago i was given an assignment for my british lit class right?#to write a research essay based on one of the texts we've studied this unit. two weeks to do it. easy peasy. sure.#i figure that's plenty of time and leave it to work on my other homework (bc there's always other homework i'm an honors student)#oh wow lookie there it's due this weekend! great! so i start work on it#and then i can't find any research to bolster the question i'd formulated. it would have just been my own analysis#and we're required to have four sources. so that's that out the window.#the weekend passes and i'm officially in ''late assignment'' territory#and it's the last week before spring break so i'm swamped w/other work and midterm tests and everything#so yesterday my friend and i call to work on ours together (we always proofread each other's stuff/give each other pointers and whatnot)#and i'm just lost on what my essay should be about. any sort of question i could explore.#she has something of an idea for hers but not much. so neither of us get ours done#the assignment fully closes tonight#so we try again. i manage a half-hearted intro paragraph with zero direction and one source#and then i just hit a wall. the sources i'm looking at don't give me any new insights or ideas and i've got nothing#with two hours to the deadline. so i'm thoroughly fucked#i keep trying and just. yeah no not a thing. and if you notice the timestamp on this post it's past 12am#guess who didn't finish his essay 🙃#this is the fucking SECOND TIME THIS HAS HAPPENED. what the FUCK#fanTASTIC start to my spring break y'all. and the only way i can communicate the specific feeling i'm feeling is through a homestuck gif.#can i just sink into the earth. that'd be great#at least now that it's over i don't have to worry about it anymore. i mean there's the guilt obviously but i don't have to *worry*#God. my mom's gonna be pissed#if i follow this train of thought any further it's gonna fall down a spiral of responsibility and college and career stuff#and i don't want to deal with that right now#so i'm just gonna stop talking. and either go read an angsty fic and cry for catharsis or just go to sleep. we'll see#i hate getting all personal on the internet but i'd rather yell to the void than bottle it up so. here we are
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me every single time i read my professor's assignments
#literally why do i have so much shit do every week#academia#it's not true that i had a will to live before#but if i didn't have a will to live before reading the assignment it's because of another professor's assignment#i feel like sisyphus pushing the rock up the hill#as soon as i finish one assignment#there's another assignment#i'm trying to mop up the ocean#when does it end#when does it get better#the good place#chidi anagonye#eleanor shellstrop#i'm also a philosophy student so take that#homework#uni life#idk lmfao
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why doesnt my brain work :(
#i couldnt do public school so i went to a private one#couldnt do campus so now i do online#now i cant even do online? why? what is wrong with my brain im tired of it im tired#i couldnt do five assignments every day. so now i do it all on the weekends and have the weekdays off#but now on the weekends when my friends are free and wanna hang out i have to be like no whoops sorry. homework.#and now im not even finishing my homework on time anymore. its monday and ive gotten one step on an assignment done#this isnt working#i cant do this#i want to#i want to so so so bad#i want to be able to so this#please#im so tired#im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired im tired#just let me go make it stop please#ugh.#and my mom is asleep so i cant ask her if i should stop for tonight#..shed probably tell me to stop. or maybe not. maybe shed tell me to pull my shit together. its a complete fucking gamble#thats mean. and probably ableist. its not a gamble i know most of her would tell me to stop for tonight#whatever#i dont know what to do. and neither does she. and im drowning and shes trying to get me out and im trying to get out and im clawing at her#and its hurting her but thats just how it goes i guess
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lord give me the strength not to punch these complete idiots
#i really hate group projects and am slowly going insane#some i have to baby through every single assignment#like literally explaining the fuckin rubric to them#and one has just been busy all week with the play while we were supposed to be building our subsystem#so i built 90% of the damn thing myself#and then he has the audacity to ask if i can finish writing the entire paragraphs we need for a homework assignment#because he's too busy with choir and the play and everything else#even though ive been literally skipping meals so i can stay in the shop to work on this project as long as possible#“im too busy” bitch i had an exam Wednesday spent all day Tuesday in the shop and then studied all fuckin night#and i know he's super busy so i am trying my best to be understanding#but ive hit my breaking point with these guys#i have so many problems with everyone in this fucking group
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Glad I have the day off tmrw bcuz I cannot sleep even tho I'm exhausted and have been laying in bed for two hours, but my chest is killing me and my lower body is doing The Thing again. We live in a society bottom text
#I mean I've been laying in bed for a lot longer than two hours but I mean like. Going To Bed laying in bed yknow#I also have so much fuckjng homework it's unreal dude#like. I need to finish my animation and my video assignment and an ink drawing and 5 hands and 5 feet and#an entire anatomy diagram and redo/fix my earlier assignments#and it doesn't help that my body is trying to kill me or make me kill myself either. I could do without that part.#once again. having a real 'everything is bad nothing is good' week#armchair speaks
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Quick update about where things currently stand regarding my writing:
College has really picked up the last 2 weeks, so i find myself swamped with assignments that leave me very little time to do much else between those and personal responsibilities. When i do have free time, I try to spend it relaxing by playing some of the new games that have come out recently, and other times i try to write where i can.
All this is to say that progress on cyfts is going extremely slowly, and i likely won't be able to participate in millionsummers week like i wanted to :/ i am still making progress on cyfts, but i think thats the only thing i can manage to work on right now because i simply do not have the time to start other projects.
#its honestly disheartened me a little bit#which slows down my writing even more because sometimes i get so frustrated with myself that i just dont want to do it at all#because i have such little time to do anything#i try not to be hard on myself abt it. but. you know.#anyway. im sorry to everyone looking forward to the next chapter but its going to take me a long while to finish it i think#i wish that wasnt the case but i severely underestimated just how much work one of my professors was going to give me#we had to cover 4 chapters in like. three days. and do assignments that took 2 hours to complete for each one#and then a quiz and homework on top of that#and then an exam :) im going 2 kms i think. i mean jk obvi but oh my god i just want time 2 myself is that so much to ask.
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