#toxic angry yaoi

[1temv01d]

I think I downloaded the wrong saw movie.

[lushciqqs]

yes jam…! keep spreading the woke agenda… my little apprentice

AUGGHHH I FORGOT ABT TUMBLR

apologizing to my one fan on here... ily../silly /j

anyway, here's a huge art dump of my silly goth au (+some ship art..)

I also made a bunch of ship children for these two but sigh, that'll be a separate post whenever I think of a personality for each of them heh..

the first time I'll actually draw goth and palette together maybe, I might doodle them.. I think......

(more doodles..)

these FREAKS

they both love eachother very much but in their own special way💜/silly

rurik liderc and palette roller belongs to lasseutblogo

rurik(rurik fiore) design belongs to lushciqqs

azrael sephtis belongs to me

moot pings

@bluepr1ntyy @lushciqqs @yeloenk

[tobisiksi]

saiki and toritsuka have those kind of fights that go like

"at least I don't have a brother who made a robot of me to make it lick his shoes"

"at least my parents didn't abandon me in an old temple just because they couldn't stand me anymore."

and they're always way too specific and personal, one day kaido overhears them and he had to resist the urge to ask saiki wtf was that

[just-an-enby-lemon]

My brain is unable to produce anything but angst.

Like I had this cute fluff idea of Carlos being a Ford fanboy and moving to Nightvale inspired by his favorite scientist going to study Gravity Falls in the 70s/80s. All mostly based on the fact Carlos moved to Nightvale the same year Mabel and Dipper went spend the summer at Gravity Falls.

And it was cute. It was mostly Carlos sending fan letters/reports and Ford reading them and deciding - thanks to Mabel - to answer and making a friend he didn't had a complicated past with (and had a similar love for science).

But them my brain went "Ford would fully assume Cecil was like Bill, right?" I mean from Ford's view there's a paranormal guy who imidiatly is into the scientist? Clearly manipulation.

And at first it was still fine. Maybe Ford helped Carlos own inicial distrust of Cecil. But my brain kept going. To the point it decided that maybe what makes Stan and Ford visit Nighvale after the Weirdmagedon is the news that Carlos is not being cautelos and instead is dating Cecil.

So at this point it was still just a funny au with Ford thinking Cecil is some type of evil charming eldrish god that'll end the world while Cecil is just bonding with Stan and super trying to impress his bf friends.

But finally my brain went: "okay but what about after Ford realizes that Cecil is just an overly dramatic paranormal guy and truly just loves Carlos?". And I realized that while of course Ford would be happy for his friend and relived about the world he would feel even more as if Bill was his fault. Here is Carlos just getting a sweet guy and maybe he was the only one that couldn't see the difference.

And now I need someone to write it and give Ford a hug.

[zzoupz]

saw a take on twitter that's like "toxic yaoi means an imperfect relationship, not abuse" and I

[digitalcarcrash]

i love the subtle implications abt randy and benson's tastes in music... randy flipping through radio stations and stopping when steal away by robbie dupree plays vs benson blaring by moistboyz in his car + the motorhead tshirt

[apollosmoon]

I want them worse when they’re with each other.

I want them to be negative influences on one another.

I need them to take one look at the other and know in their heart that there is no saving them. They are a doomed, twisted, tragic relationship that will lead to one of them hurting and killing the other. But for now, what they have is so passionate, so intensely intimate, they can’t bare to give it up until it’s forcefully ripped from their cold, perished hands.

I want the survivor to mourn the loss of something putrefyingly terrible because they will never be able to recreate the experience with another. I want the most toxic yaoi love possible.

I want them to look deeply into eachother’s eyes, holding the back of the the others head, as they speak in a tone like a wedding vow, that they promise they will never part, they will never escape, they will never be so happy, they will never be so miserable without the other.

In my favourite line from The Crane Wives song, Tongues & Teeth,

“I will only break your pretty things, I will only wring you dry of everything.”

“I will poison all your happy thoughts, I will love you like the ashes in my cigarette butts”

They are living so closely on the same wavelength that they are inseparable. They are menaces when they work together, one would burn civilizations to the ground for the other if they so desired. They would do anything for the other if only they asked. They annoy each other to no end. The are in love. They are in loathing.

They are so intensely passionate and obsessed, there is no way out but death. And one of them will die, soon, I’m sure. It’s only ever a matter of time. But they have the present, they have this wild inferno of the here and now, and they will not waste it.

[mintyeve322]

animation or animatic Bill and Stanford to the song Silver Platters by Les Gold? Bill is who the songs is coming from and he's directing it at Ford, he's making fun of him in a "careful what you ask for" kinda way and also like tearing down his past relationships, as a toxic triangle demon is inclined to do

is this anything?

i cannot draw in a way that would allow me to comfortably create this but i was listening to the song and it punched me in the face

also this is just with a very surface level interpretation of the song, i havent looked into any deeper meanings for the song yet, im sure i will, but from a basic understanding of the lyrics this made sense to me

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

[xxvampboyxx]

This is my baby angel. There will be an info dump for him and his side story soon... with toxic yoai 👅

[catsconflictscopicsandchamomile]

Not to in-character-post sgain (ok I may need to make a Hellaverse rp sideblog) but

I'm a bit concerned for Stolas. Even meds withdrawals aside, losing that much power that abruptly is not good for this type of entity. The full effects can take weeks or even a month to actually manifest while the last reserves of his power/any long-term interactions between his magic and his body gradually burn off (dont ask how I know this), but when it does show up it can be devastating, and even fatal if he's not careful with himself. Even if he feels fine now, he's was completely altered at a metaphysical level within the span of seconds, and eventually he will not have the power/energy/honestly at this point just plain adrenaline left to block off the pain and shock of that. The instict here is to seek out an aternate power source or try to return some part of him to its previous state, but that will destabilize whatever form/existence he has now and make it MUCH more likely that this could turn fatal. Also you can absolutely get weird illnesses from stolen magic DONT ASK HOW I KNOW. Really what he needs is to not push himself, stay warm and slowly get used to imp food, like actual whole fresh fruits (NOT the tree fruits from South Wrath*. absolutely not.) , veg, meat, etc. Honestly I truly think they need to take Stolas and go to Millie's folks' place. Getting out of the stuffy city air and around a lot of fresh food and raw earth would be really good for Stolas. He's far more Physical now than he's ever been, and he wasnt born into it so he needs to establish a solid connection to the earth for the first time.

Source: this is NOT my first (somehwæt literal) rodeo and its not @cha0ticlesbian 's first rodeo either. PLEASE BE GENTLE WITH THE BIRD MAN. I know he seems like he's functioning ok on a physical level but that is just whatever the demon equivalent of adrenaline is. He is so deeply not ok.

*...tldr read Dante.

[liauditore]

The thoughts, hand em over. (No pressure but I wanna hear em :D)

oh god what have u done.

context.

OK SO,. (BE WARNED THIS IS LIKE. REALLY LONG AND BRAINROTTY.)

first off i must put here as per the law i am not in fact armchair psychoanalysing mc youtubers grian and mister scott S. major this is me looking at the 3L series as is it were a performance and their actions in said series as characters and blah blah blah so on so forth this is Fanfiction and Shipping and woowoOOwoo We Are Being Sillyyy with a miku song.

i'm gonna infodump abt a bunch of stuff including some heavy topics like emotional abuse and dubcon (NOT in detail the song just has those vibes)

so uh if you're reading this for Some Reason know that 👍

ALRIGHT WITH THAT OUT OF THE WAY Vampire the song itself is (at least my reading of it) a song about a toxic relationship. The singer is very much not a Good Person and the main chorus is just them disregarding their partner's needs and pushing the relationship even further.

But the singer isn't completely irredeemably evil, since they really do love the person they're abusing (in a childish sense of the word love, anyway) and seem to be at least acutely aware of how they're not really a good person.

But of course, they "eh whatever" these self-reflections pretty fast cus they're having fun with the relationship. This specific set of translyrics reads to me like a bit of self-victimizing as well like "oh, I'm so tortured by feeling like a bad person because of the way I treat you. But I love you so you don't really have a choice but to forgive me."

Speaking of translyrics this is where Micchi's version comes in. While I ADORE Rachie and Anthong's version I do have some nitpicks..? And one of those that I am unreasonably pet peeved by is this right here.

In the original JP version, the lyric is simply kimi mo vampire, meaning simply You're (also) a Vampire. It's alot more obvious a change and hits harder imo than "My little Vampire" which still puts the singer in the position of power.

Micchi's version of the lyrics on the other hand stick a lot closer to the original

And I might just be imagining this but there seems to be a switch in the power dynamic in this version as well. The singer is now inviting their partner to be "rough" with them and the repeating mantra of "you're the ONLY ONE for me" sounds more desperate than anything else.

Micchi's lyrics in general are a bit more wet cat coded. I still prefer Rachie's as a whole but Micchi's singer definitely seems to be more regretful of what they've done and blame themselves for essentially turning their partner into a different, more hostile person. (aka turning them into a vampire lol)

In a lot of ways the vampire metaphor is really unsubtle. Bloodsucking parasite attaches themselves to someone and turns them into a bloodsucking parasite as well.

SO HOW THE FUCK DID I GET GRAIN AND SCOOTER FROM THIS WELL.....

When I think about 3L one of the main things that lights up the lightbulb in my mind is the parallels between all of the four "main" partnerships, with Renchantyn vs Desert Duo as the most obvious comparison point but I think they all mirror and subvert each other really well.

Grian/Scott are like birds of a feather to me in a similar sense that Scott/Cleo are, but while Scott and Cleo have this mutual understanding with each other with Grian it's a bit more complicated.

I CAN't. FOR THE LIFE OF ME. FIND IT AGAIN bUT there was a bit in Third Life when Scott said to Grian "and maybe once our husbands are dead we can be free" and Grian laughs and that basically inspired this Whole Thing 🙏🙏

(an apology for all the wholesome flower husbands shippers who i know follow me cus im about to unleash my full toxic yaoi adaptation of them) (desert duo fans from what ive seen are already insane so you're okay)

In my own mind Grian and Scott are both somewhat.. manipulative? Might be a bit harsh of a word? But they definitely play to survive more than some of the other people stuck in there with them. (cleo too but she sucks at it and she can get her character analysis essay next week)

At least in my view, their partnerships with Jimmy and Scar respectively were born more out of a need for safety in numbers and to get someone to essentially keep them safe until they're no longer of use. Grian definitely felt bad about creeper-ing Scar in the first episode but I don't think he was quite expecting to spend the whole series in debt to him 😭😭

Scott (like the singer in the song oh my god) isn't really a monster so to speak, just someone who has a messed up view of love. Probably has some sort of tragic backstory that explains the way he is that we'll get to see in the anime adaptation idk. He does care for Jimmy but in like.. the way someone might care for and love a pet. You LOVE your dog to fucking death but you wouldn't like.. trust your dog with taxes or respect its autonomy.

also these lyrics are both hilarious to me considering the uh current brainrot.

Grian on the other hand probably Wants to be like Scott and be able to have someone wrapped around his fingers like that but he can't cus it's Scar not Jimmy and he's Grian and not Scott. I imagine he'd get tired of Scar's shenanigans when he's with him but as soon as he's left the room it's all why's it so quiet D: where's scar D:

I like to think that everytime he THINKS he has a handle on Scar finally and can actually stand a chance to survive this thing Scar does something completely unhinged off the wall and Grian's like WAIT WAIT WAIT NO

basically he gets way too attached and doesn't like it and to make it worse he has no idea wtf is going thru Scar's head👍

SO when they eventually team up I think Scott and Grian would have this little "wink wink nudge nudge they don't know" kinda thing going on.

and then in my little fanfiction world somewhere along the line Scott would end up sensing that Oh, We're actually not exactly the same.. interesting.. and kind of start looking at Grian with this sense of amusement/pity cus aww, look at you getting all attached to the person you were planning to betray, that's so cute and Grian would see the worst of himself reflected back to him via Scott. It ends up strengthening Desert Duo's relationship if anything else.

Of course then Jimmy dies and Scott's emotionally destroyed by it but he's still like.. skirting around it. I'd like to think he gaslights himself with any genuine Emotions he has cus like.. he knew this was coming, this is all according to plan, so why would he feel anything for him now that he's gone?

While Scott gets some time to come to terms with the fact that he actually cared about Jimmy too late for him to repair their relationship Grian and Scar end up punching eachother to death in a cactus ring. The End 👍

tl;dr i need to pick up writing fanfics cus oh my god

[musical-chick-13]

You know, when the ONLY kind of toxic queer stories you hold up as Interesting™ or Artistic™ or Well Done™ are m/m, I start to think you do not actually like toxic queer stories, you like toxic men.

[gravitytripped]

Ford: I am awful. what a terrible, self-centered guy I am. I have so much to atone for

flashback to Young Ford who hasn't slept and is in hysterics: I DON'T NEED YOU. I DON'T NEED ANYONE!

Ford: ...but I suppose I've gotten better

I tried to give a short comment on my thoughts in the tags but now the tags are longer than this post. whoops.

Some Fords! (and Martin K Blackwood is also there)

[pulsedmaggot]

[yumenosakiacademy]

seeing w my eyes ppl call a male yaoi shipper a cis fujo (??) / fujo in general when the fucking term 4 it is/would b fudan I h8 posers