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lunaryuwu · 4 months

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Classical music save me,,, classical music pls,,,,

#classical music is the best alternative for people who are feeing moody but don’t want to cry over a Way Too Relatable Lyric #there i said it #feeling super stressed with school in general #guess who revenge studied again? ME #small background info some girl that used to give me a hard time(a popular girl wow how cliche) just hit top of the school #i told my friend i don’t fucking care(quoting my words) but guess who cares? ME #no i don’t actually care THAT much(not as much as i would in the past anyway)#top of the school is..too much. yeah.#i’m happy being in my fourth/fifth place :)#yeah i’ll be fine don’t worry guys promise/gen #luna’s ramblings

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todayisafridaynight · 3 months

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What do you think Mine’s reaction to Masato / Aoki be like?

tbh they'd probably be. amicable. at the very least.

#snap chats #like they have similar values its just that mine's more openly depressed about his belief system and doesn't take pride in it like aoki #i talked about this before omg thats so funny... but yeah no aoki's more proud of 'how the world is'. prob cause he's 'on top' of it #mine begrudges the fact he needs material goods to be useful to people #meanwhile aoki's happy to exploit others if it means he advances. for the most part anyway #he only really starts to show some regret when confronted by ichi. and get the shit kicked out of him for twenty minutes #wait i was rewatching the cutscene and started to throw up cause i got reminded of me in high school again aoki you're 42 stop this #Back On Track Though. mine and aoki had similar pursuits: attain power to be loved thats the core of it in simple terms #they went about it differently ofc: for mine money was power and for aoki popularity was power. Both Very True TBH but anyway #mine realized that even with money his person wasnt valued #and aoki realized that even with recognition people didn't value his character. sins the arakawas. fcukin dummy #i mean aokis a jackass so no wonder but thats not the point of this. fuckfest of tags #they wouldnt be friends. aoki's incapable of friendship and mine would probably quickly recognize aoki as being power hungry #i think mine's been in enough business meetings And Knows Enough About Politics to recognize Professional Fakerism when he sees it #actually do you think mine'd be swindled by any 'kindness' aoki expressed like when kanda left him and he thought he just went to get help.#that shit was wack LMAO BUT REGARDLESS idk i have to go to class soon so im not gonna spend too much time thinking of this #if they needed to they'd just use each other for whatever purpose they needed the other for. idk why mine would need aoki tho #TLDR mine probably wouldnt think too differently of aoki compared to any other power-hungry freak #we can revisit this topic when. im not learning about JP history vjERJALKJ

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bunnihearted · 4 months

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#oooof... sleep was rough bc my face was super itchy. all of a sudden i got rashes in my face yesterday ?!?!? i have NEVER gotten that wtffff #hopefully it's just temporary nd will go away. it's still a tiny bit itchy but not as bad as yesterday :o #istg my life is a JOKE!!!! a joke!!!! rashes?!? what? maybe stress nd anxiety?? idk it's wild tho i cant deal w this #so i couldnt really fall asleep but i rested for a few hours #then i got up. took my dog out. had oatmeal. called the surgeron clinic.#and like... i told them abt my weight and they said im underweight?! and that my bmi is 18.9 and u need to have 19....#i told her that i cant gain weight bc i cant eat anything. that i cant have more fat than i already do bc then it hurts too much #she said she'll talk to the anesthesia doctors and call me later. she hasnt called yet #i rlly hope they understand the situation?? and that i can still have my surgery bc what else am i supposed to do???#ughhhh why cant anything ever just be easy and smooth for me??#i am sooooo tired of all these hardships piling on top of eo #then i walked to school.. took me an hour and im spent now bc im so weak nd malnutrioned skskskks #and im in class... it's a long one. still more than an hour left :'( my head hurts #ugh i just wanna be fine for once in my life #but yeah im like 75% thru all the hard things i need to do today #just need to finish class nd then walk home nd then hopefully get a call back and then i can relax (as much as i can lol)#i hope the itching goes down (still wtf is my body doing? i have no patience for it anymore) nd i hope im not too underweight for surgery om

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rose-lalondde · 10 months

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the difference between the tumblr and twitter reactions to the boruto time skip designs has been so funny omg

#boruto #naruto #moon posts #im not gonna lie to yall i think the kids are serving DOWWWWWWNNN #like they kinda ate im sorry #there are def very fair critiques like why is sarada wearing louboutins in what looks like a sleeveless dress but is actually a romper #i don't even know a thing about sumire but why does she still look like she's going to school #i actually rly like inojins fuckass bob his whole look is very gender to me actually #chocho looks stunning too but i wish they had went for a crop top instead of a sports bra #i also just remembered inojin isn't wearing a crop top but thats ok b/c he's his own person but he would've slayed that crop top hoodie #kawaki looks sick as always #boruto i actually have no notes for like sasuke passed down looking cunty no matter what as a lesson too #did yall see his sandals yeah he ate that #shikadai got a bigger jacket which i love b/c i think jackets make everything better #i haven't rly seen mitsuki that much but i think he needs to fire his barber #himiwari looks sooooooooooo cute !!!!! my daughter is a teenager now waaaaahhhgg #ive seen a few posts comparing her to hinata which ofc they look similar but i have something to say #she reminds me of naruto a Lot and kushina too #ok thats a separate thing tho #moon tags

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dbphantom · 1 month

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How does The Used always drop new songs that completely encapsulate everything I'm feeling at the moment right when I need them

I love you The Used

#This is a hybrid of their Hands + Faces style (came out when I was in middle school) and In Love and Death (I see the heart!) and auuu 🥹😭#I just know I'm gonna be singing this at the top of my lungs like I used to back then #EVERYTHING I TOUCH TURNS TO DUST!!!!!!!!!!!#EVERYTHING I FEEL IS WAY TOO MUCH!!!!!!#SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I'M BORN FOR FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#Ah yeah here come the tears 😭#I love you The Used I want to see you live so fucking bad #Cruddy rambles

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ghostwithaheartbeat · 4 months

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Day three of holding everyone’s laundry hostage until my father takes a shower.

The last of my father’s beloved white socks have fallen to the filth. There is little hope, and even less in terms of rest. The battle is ongoing, and it feels often that I am fighting alone. Morale is low; my ally in this conflict, mother, is injured. I long for the days when I can rest. When this war will cease, and all will be clean again. The dishes done, the people bathed, the laundry washed and folded. Alas. We know the struggle will never end.

I am Sisyphus, and my father’s horrid stench and apathy are forever my boulder.

My father is a war profiteer, and I am a hapless young recruit greeting a doomed mission.

Last shower date: December 25th, 2023

#collective tag #it spoke #i’m venting #but like… only half serious #god I am so so so so tired.#I’m so pissed man #at just. everything #this house is falling apart around me and It’s like I can’t do anything #I have begged and begged and begged this fucking man to take a goddamn shower.#I cry about this #because he just doesn’t fucking care #I CANT DO EVERYTHING!!!!!#NOT FOREVER #huge ass ants everywhere? sure. fuck it. why not #piles and piles of laundry? okay. I can do that.#not paying the mortgage until our shit gets shut down and mom and I yell at you?#cooking halfassed meals that are only barely tolerable to you and inedible to everyone else #and then complaining when we don’t eat them despite how much we’ve all told you?#and leaving the whole kitchen to rot?#PISSING YOURSELF REPEATEDLY AND NOT CHANGING YOUR PANTS BECAUSE YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT AND NEVER SHOWERING FOR MONTHS ON END?#I’m just… words cannot describe how tired I am right now.#mom has a broken foot too so I also have to take care of her even more than normal #how did baby me handle this all the time on top of school?#‘yeah sure i can take care of two fucked up angry disabled adults on top of my crippling childhood trauma and schoolwork!’#—>#‘I swear to fucking god I will telepathically make my heart stop beating by sheer force of fucking will if I hear you call for me again’#deepest apologies to any poor soul that reads this #i really just needed to cry and scream and cry harder again until I throw up #and maybe a hug

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iliveinprocrasti-nationn · 3 months

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one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so.#literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

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kruxton · 7 months

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having a Night. havent been alone w my thoughts in a while and im not liking it

#usualy i'd make up some stupid story to fall asleep but its not working now #some news was broken to me just now and i dont know how to feel about it #i mean i do #ok incoming vent #hate the idea hate it so so much but its so selfish of me to think that way #and the issues all lie within ME and i just. i cant change now #not w all the work i put into adapting to this place i cant just. pack it all up and leave to go somewhere else #my future was set here man. all i had left was to finish a year and a half more of secondary school n get thru my IGCSEs and i'l be set #yeah i didnt have a specific plan but i had come to terms w a solid general one that i actually really liked #and now its all Ruined #'dw you'll be going to a good school over there too! much better than where ur at now' i dont want to #i cant i just cant #i cant leave my life here now not when im so close to finally getting my freedom #i was supposed to graduate top of my class here i was supposed to excel in my extra curriculars i was supposed to be KNOWN #god does that sound horrible of me but i cant change the way i feel and how ive always felt #i was set man. i couldve gotten that scholarship and gone overseas #i NEED that scholarship or my family wont be able to afford to put my siblings into good schools #but now my progress is gone!#yeah idfk how the school system shit works but i highly doubt some prestigious ass school is gonna care abt shit i did in my current one #yeah i could be wrong but what if man #what then. what the fuck am i supposed to do #and im scared i wont be able to make friends there #fuck im prbly overthinking this n being such a fucking pussy but #i cant. be alone #not again i cant do that shit again #i have my friends here!!!! and theyre alright i like to be around them so why cant i just stay #im just so tired #i just want to sleep #but all i can think about is this #vent

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awkward-smirks · 9 months

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#there is a v slight possibility that my best friend might move to my city !!!#she's applying to schools for her phd and one of the options is upenn #i think her top choice will accept her tho (which isn't upenn) so i'm doubtful that she'll actually come down #but the possibility of it excites me bc then i could just hangout w her all the time #or if she moves up to boston - my other best friend lives there and i think i'd highly consider moving too to be closer to the both of them #we'll see 💗#but yeah im so excited :') she's literally going to get into every school i swear #like she'll have OPTIONS #and i def will not blame her for not choosing my city 💀 there's really not much to do here #sandy rambling

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bigeloo · 1 year

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If u fr have a axolotl can I see a pic of them :D

I don't take pictures that often so I had to scour through my phone camera, but here's Benrey, in all his silly glory.

When he goes outside of his little hideout cave, he loves hanging out either on top of his tank plants or on top of his hideout.

And here's some more of shoots with him

#he has a 80L/20gal tank #I need to buy a bigger one for him because that's the MINIMUM REQUIREMENT for axolotls #but I'm not too much in a hurry because the nitrogen cycle in his tank is stable #I also have a 40L/10gal betta tank #and a 300L/~80gal community tank #atp the nitrogen cycles in those tanks are so stable that I really only need to top off any evaporated water ever month or so #also fun fact about benrey: the only reason I have him is because of a divorce #I remember looking for local axolotl listings at the time and I couldn't find any in my city as axolotls are pretty rare here #and then one random october afternoon on my way back to school my senses go off and I'm just like #''I need to check skelbiu.lt'' and lo and behold. a single axolotl listing in my area for 20€#the axolotl was being kept in a plastic tub so the situation was seemingly dire #so my dad set up the meeting (because I was and am too much of a pussy to make calls)#and we met up by this gas station which was by a highway #so I ask the guy ''hey why are you selling this axolotl? they seem pretty rare around here''#and he said ''oh I had a divorce and my wife took the aquarium in it. she didn't take him though''#so yeah this axolotl with a prepetual old traumatized guy face is here because someone's wife took the aquarium in the divorce #I got the 300L community tank through similar means btw #If you want pictures of my other aquatic critters feel free to ask #jūr.txt #jūr.png

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plushiehamuko · 1 year

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heeeeey with the intention of hugging you for an awkwardly long period of time

#squishy talks too much #today has been like a top 5 worst day of this school year #so like. yeah #hugsyouhugsyouhugsyou

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lavenderjewels · 9 months

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I’m too busy rn to write a whole thing on my thoughts on this jjk chapter (now it’s officially translated and out) but it’ll be good to have more time to sit on it

#soooo busy but having real life be so hectic actually helps lol bc I’m not too sad or angry about the chapter #maybe I would’ve been a few years ago when I. cared more about media in general but school and life is too much to add that on top haha #saying this as if any chapter w yuuji focus won’t crush my heart completely :(#buuuuut thinking about the chapter rn #don’t like how we got to gojo dying. or how the time skip is placed. bc those questions have to get answered #but I would’ve preferred some to be sooner than later. or at least more time w gojos internal thoughts that aren’t fight related #I do love the actual airport state of death scene. those in between states are my FAVORITE in jjk #and imo nothing seems ooc I like how the scene can be interpreted in many ways #love that nanami gets to be so prominent too. it’s fitting #I don’t really care about gojo being ‘offscreened’ since the flashback was him dying #but yeah all my issues are things that I think could’ve been solved in previous chapters but this one in itself is fine #also how I view all this depends on where the story goes ofc but I’m just here for the ride #jjk spoilers #jjk 236 #need to reiterate this but mark my words that next chapter is just kashimo fight #I’ve known jjk long enough to understand there’s never breathing room when it comes to any deaths 😭

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boomerang109 · 10 months

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okay i have my fan going fast enough it sounds like it’s going to fly off the ceiling and kill me maybe i still have a chance at life

#basically my friend and i were literally talking the other day about how I’m not a particularly high maintenance traveller #but one thing I will not budge on (if I’m booking it myself) is that there has to be A/C #and I was saying yeah it’s not even that I necessarily need it like super cold or anything #it’s just that when I overheat it’s like one sensory thing too much with all my other symptoms #and fuck if that hasn’t been true since moving into my dorm #because of course i agreed to move back into the non air conditioned dorms because like genuinely it’s usually so nice all you need is a fan #but ig cause it’s August or cause my health or whatever it’s just been fucking hot as balls #and today especially since I’ve been mostly in bed with my period kicking my ass #it’s just been driving me insane #like i can mostly handle the pain but I just can’t handle the heat like I finally moved my boxes to be out of the way #cause I finally admitted to myself I’m not unpacking them in my current state #and I shed tears over how hot it was just moving boxes like four feet #and like please let it be clear I don’t live somewhere actually hot like im not doxxing myself #but like it’s nice outside but for some reason inside is just gross and on top of my fucking pain it’s too much #i also just I fucking hate move in so much #and I hate that i’m gonna have to text or call my mom and be like yeah im not coming to visit you this coming weekend cause im already dying #and the school year hasn’t started?#like I just tried so hard when I got here to be like ‘yes this is my year for real everything’s gonna be great’ and I just #i’m like one day into being in pain and i’ve lost my mind I can’t even think straight #i KNOW it’s my period I know it’ll last at most a week but it’s so scary everytime that it’s going to last forever cause it used to #im so scared about being an adult I don’t even feel like I can get through this school year but at least this is like. a specific task. what #the fuck am I supposed to do after that when it’s nonspecific #why does everything hurt #why do my arms hurt like that’s not a thing #my fucking throat?!#my legs are obviously killing me cause that’s a near constant these days #my headache isn’t terrible but it’s not great #and my fucking stomach #i think move in should be illegal and chronic pain should be outlawed and I think my parents should call me because what the fuck #boom’s bad days

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dimiclaudeblaigan · 1 year

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The worst thing about my brain being an autopilot grammar nazi is that every single time I see people misuse “it’s” and “its” as well as apostrophe placements is that I don’t want to be rude and correct people... but my brain still is like UGH THIS IS THE WORST.

“It’s” and “Its” are more just my brain going weeo weeo on me when that’s a more understandable one bc “its” is literally the exception to a rule (because “it’s” actually means “it is”, so to avoid it being used for two meanings the apostrophe is removed for ownership cases), but when I see apostrophes before an S for plural wording and I know they speak English properly I’m just like. ugh. damn. bruh. please. go back to school.

Less severe cases of incorrect apostrophe use tends to be like, when people are playing Heroes and have duplicates of units and are like “my Ike’s” instead of “my Ikes”, because I think people are trying to... make it more clear that it’s referring to more than one? I think? Maybe? Or they literally just don’t realize it’s incorrect grammar, idk lol. Still can’t get past my weeo weeo autopilot brain though sadly.

LIKE. IT’S NOT ANYONE’S FAULT THAT MY BRAIN IS WEEO WEEO, IT JUST IS.

Which speaking of Heroes, FE in general seems to have its script in every single game ever coded to always use apostrophes for ownership cases even when the word ends in S, so don’t worry folks. IntSys isn’t getting off scot free from my brain either LOL. No amount of “princess’s” is ever gonna fly with my weeo weeo brain.

this has been a psa

mainly a psa of my brain weeo weeos

#DCB Comments #but the absolute worst offenders are people who overuse apostrophes and like #don't know how to write the plural of a word. today I saw someone write horse's to indicate more than one more horse #and I think the darkest depths of my soul finally cracked at the sight shjfgjhgs #this wasn't someone who speaks in broken English either or anything. they know how to speak the whole language just fine #also the other worst thing about my grammar brain is that I could absolutely get a job teaching English based on my knowledge alone #but I don't have an uwu master's degree uwu so getting teaching jobs even as freelance work is basically impossible #the world decides your worth based on how much you were willing to pay an institution for a certificate #and doesn't base you on your actual worth or knowledge so yeah that's great #can't wait until we're in an anime or video game where society's young decides that's bullshit and we're totally over it and rebel sjkfghju #also you know how you see those posts of ppl being like forget what you learned in school? yeah no don't do that with grammar #to an extent it's one thing (the really stupid ''rules'' like don't start a sentence with x word) and some of it was over the top #but there ARE actually legit reasons for some of those grammar rules; it's just that schools fail to teach them properly #I was extremely lucky to have very amazing English teachers for the most part ngl bc most schools don't teach even basic shit well #at least in my country. even in my school the stuff they taught was shit lol I just got very lucky to have great English teachers #but like for instance run on sentences are usually seen as an issue in writing because people lose their understanding of the sentence #if the sentence goes on too long with too many thoughts you'll probably forget what it was even about in the first place #if it's a WRITING style like a book or a fanfic or whatever it can make sense in some cases you just have to be thoughtful abt it!#but rly like I see people who can't even write basic English grammar who can speak it fluently and I'm like #what the fuck are these schools doing??? bc I can tell you what they're NOT doing e.e #this isn't limited to gen z btw I see ppl around my age who do this stuff with grammar too so... yikes #in fact I see people OLDER than my generation doing it too like... my own mom lmao #I'M SORRY I JUST HAD TO GET THIS OUT IT'S BEEN EATING AWAY MY EXISTENCE FOR MANY YEARS

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vanillabat99 · 1 year

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Just a heads-up that the queue might run out in the next day or two!! I haven't been finding much to put in there and I've been doing a lot of sleeping lately, so it's been falling behind. I need to go through my following list and clear out inactive pages and try to get things going again. If you have any blog or tag recommendations, I'm all ears!!

#also if you have any art you wanna share feel free to send it my way so i can put it in the queue!!!#i cant believe i used to plow through 50 posts per day and still hit queue limit... middle school me was built different #i dont think queue limit is even a thing anymore or at least its more than 300 posts i think??#i havent hit it in ages #but yeah if you got blog or tag recs i would love to hear them!!#i was thinking of digging up my old 'interact with this post if you want me to draw your icon' post too.#that post was so much fun. shoutout to that one person with a guy fieri icon. you intimidated and inspired me.#idk if theyre still around. if you are reading this i want you to know that you are on the top of the list for whenever i revive that post.#its so wild to think that some of yall have been here this entire time. like you have watched me grow up online. thats so much.#ANYWAYS. queue is empty. my phone is dying. i love you. i have laundry to do #batty blogging #text

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ink-asunder · 2 years

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I think going to school was literally the worst thing that's ever happened to me.

#and i have been assaulted on multiple occassions!#i'm writing some school-related scenes in a story and all of them are So Much to just write down and I am having Symptoms of Trauma #idk i think it was the constant disregard and downplaying of my rights as a human. the lack of bodily autonomy because i was a minor.#the relentless bullying from peers who literally called me It and That Thing and threw a fit if they touched me #being humiliated every time I Exhibited Being Human (like going to the bathroom during break or grunting while exhibiting physical Effort)#not to mention the time some kid sh-ed and said I bit him and the entire middle/high student body witnessed against me #when nothing could've physically taken place. and the principal literally told me (at least TRY to make your story believeable)#Not to mention how my family treated my grades. it was standard shit but at the same time. the fact that parents ALLOW the kind of abuse #that goes on in schools is among the most fucked up parts of our culture #parents don't give a shit. and they don't believe you. and They have it worse as adults so why are You complaining about having 6 hrs #of homework a night. and dedicating stupid amounts of time to school. and complying to a schedule that ruins your body #i literally homeschooled because i wasn't physically able to keep up with mainstream school. and homeschool was faster. 4hrs a day tops.#not to mention the teachers who were total creeps and totally assaulted several students. yeah parents believed that one too.#ugh i have ptsd from severe medical trauma (the aforementioned assaults...) but the idea that EVERYONE is going through this school shit #it hurts my soul more than my own traumatic experiences. this isn't okay.#anyway i'm 23 and dropped out of college but for any of you still going to school--please take care of yourselves.#i'm here i hear you and you need better.

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