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that all said, even if I'm up to conversations like I used to do, they probably won't be as long or speedy anymore for now. you'll get one or the other, bc in recent months I've gotten severe symptoms of carpal tunnel bc my left wrist bends poorly, unconsciously, and I still write lengthy stuff. that sort of length, repeatedly in the fandom I've been in, and not realizing my wrist being bent while doing it until it's too late.

the pain and burning feelings typically reside in my wrist, that side of my chest (and that side of my back), that shoulder, and that side of my head in the form of a headache. it's also not weak/dull. some days I have to take off from large writings, and that can take several days to heal/dull/lessen and only one day to cause again. I'm still looking into a solution bc so far my doctor has only recommended a special type of keyboard which is outside my price range and won't fix my bending issue. actually, it might make it even worse.

sooo yeah, that's where my usual writings stand atm. Tellius stuff might be easier if I'm just throwing screenshots around while playing, but my long ass adoration writings won't be so easy and I don't see my doctor again until next month. :')

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*waves arms like a maniac* HEY HI - you got me obsessed with Miklan, so by any chance are you ever gonna drop your Miklan Hopes screenshots/lore dump :0

Hi!!! More Miklan fans is truly a blessing...

I was actually thinking about that post recently. It's mainly just a bunch of screenshots to cover his story and lore in Hopes with little input from myself, mainly to be used as a reference if people wanted a place to quickly look for stuff related to him. Originally I planned to just work on it and post it, but Tumblr's images in posts was being really obnoxious at the time and I got aggravated and stopped trying for a while. By the time I would've tried again, I'd left the fandom because I needed a break really badly.

I wouldn't consider myself back yet, and currently the closest I'm gonna get is definitely Tellius bc it's my sort of... not in the fandom but still exists floating in my sub conscious at all times sort of thing, but I can try to fix up that lore post and post it. The issues I was having with images in posts being stupid seems to have been fixed by now, so hopefully I can arrange it properly now and get it posted. that thing was supposed to be posted like a year ago LOL.

I was actually really thinking about it just a few days ago tops, so it's been on my mind to get around to it. Since there's still interest, I'll try to push my motivation up to fix the draft up and yeet it into the world.

Have fun in Miklan land!!!

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I was scrolling through the Miklan tag, as I am apt to do, and was like ‘I haven’t seen my fellow Miklan enjoyer in a bit’, so I def creeped on your blog. So sorry to hear about your experience. It sucks when things that are supposed to be fun and relaxing get ruined. Sending you all the well wishes and positive vibes!

@callmeoops

very classy of tumblr to never even tell me i had this in my inbox and only noticed bc i got another miklan ask a few hours ago (i think i've set myself in stone with miklan at this point LMFAO)

thanks for stopping by though! fandom just got to be too much and there was too much involved in it that I didn't wanna see. Houses drama in particular was just getting to be too much. since I've been largely a Houses blog, a lot of it would seep into my dashboard. I did my best to stick to the good vibes, which in large part lasted a while thanks to y'all Miklan fans! unfortunately the stress of fandom nonsense still existed and I needed a break, and I was already starting to shift into another long time fandom... which usually means I'll lose my focus on the previous fandom bc nine times out of ten I struggle to maintain two or more fandoms at once.

I might pop back in once in a while here since I've been pretty much completely away for a good chunk of months now. I'm gonna be fickle I'd imagine, due to fandom juggling, but I might poke around more often now that I've been able to have a "no contact" break with this fandom, i.e. did not even log into this blog or look at it for months.

I hope you and the Miklan fellas have been doing well and having fun! I'll try to hop on every so often here if people wanna talk, discuss, all that stuff. I may not prompt a lot of stuff on my own yet, but if I have stuff to reply to, I'll try to get around to it.

thanks for the well wishes and positive vibes!

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me fr realizing im now the same age as shinon again

like my birthday passed a few months ago but im only just now actually realizing it, or i already did and forgot which is entirely possible

i remember when i was his age originally but then i was a year older and sadly had to await my timeskip so we could be the same age again

but now we are... we're the same age again... one more time...

i am honored to be able to be the same age as my favorite character two times in my life 😌

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i stopped playing fire emblem heroes like a year ago

but still no janaff

so no im not coming back yet intsys

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"how can you be blogging about fun stuff while this horrible thing is going on?"

there's always horrible things going on somewhere. if you refuse to calm down until it all stops, all you'll do is give yourself a stroke

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just saying, I think it's fascinating how I was informed by someone familiar with someone involved in the Three Hopes localization process how Hopes' localization was more accurate and spot on than Houses' was. and, you know, how Houses' was a train wreck in some areas.

no, this has nothing to do with the actual original context of Hopes that people take issue with, but yeah, the localization itself isn't the hot mess Houses' is.

example, Rhea.

I know some of you following me completely know what I mean.

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Taking a break from social media. I'll be on Discord but I've been off this blog because I'm so tired of fandom. May make a private blog to only follow select people on. No offense if you don't end up in that group (if I even make the blog) because if I make the blog I won't be following many people at all. I need a safe space for myself where I can just reblog shit and not be seen in tags or like, anywhere.

I want to enjoy fandom content without all this pressure. I want a place to express my thoughts safely and to post shit safely, but also without having to see the names/urls of people who have wronged me or hurt anyone I know. I'm tired of these judgmental spaces and feeling like no matter where I go, I can't just have fun and relax.

I'm tired of fandom not being fun anymore, tired of the negative atmosphere around it, tired of the discourse, tired of fandom getting p/oliti/cized, and tired of people hurting others. Unfortunately Tumblr's blocking system is not as thorough as T/wit/ter's and I will continue to see people I hate no matter where I am on this site (it's not just this blog) and I can't truly have a private blog for only certain people to be able to see without it being a sideblog that requires a password, which is why I'm mostly taking a break.

Honestly, I don't even know if I'll ever fully come back. I'm that tired of it all. I might post here and there, but I'm pretty much cutting myself off from interacting with people with very few exceptions. I want to interact with people, but I'm at a point where I have no idea who I can trust regardless of fandom.

I don't know if that will change if I take a break, but it really might not. I'm sorry if you're interested in interacting with me and I'll still interact with my anons, but what I mean is that I'm no longer approaching people on my own, not putting myself into tags (with very few exceptions strictly on this blog), and I'm keeping to myself. I do appreciate all the anons I've had who have spoken with me and talked with me in depth about FE and stuff. This isn't an issue I have with you guys and you've made the time here more fun.

I can't live my life having my anxiety spiked at all times with how detrimental it is with me, and that's how I am on this site lately. Everything I post - everything - makes me afraid and anxious. Nothing is fun anymore and I already have actually detrimental low energy levels. I want to have creative energy and even that is mostly gone.

So... yeah. Taking a break and don't know where it's going from there. I'll check this blog once in a while (notes/anons mainly), I'm just not going to really do any scrolling so there won't really be any reblogging going on.

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It's a shame how much music gets lost because of not being released on official soundtracks. I've been thinking about some of my favorite songs from an old anime and how they and a handful of others weren't put on the soundtrack and are confined to just the episodes themselves, but this also happens in video games with alternate versions of a particular soundtrack or just unused tracks.

In most cases people can rip tracks from games from the files, but with anime it's more difficult and a lot of music just gets stuck where it is, never used again once the anime ends. So much music just left behind and unable to be listened to outside of the episodes.

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If I wasn't so lazy I would've updated my Miklan lore post by now...

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My commission from @earnono of teen Yuri and Flynn! I just want to let them be ✨ happy ✨.

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flynn, seriously, genuinely and honestly: that man... was a true knight

felix, contorting his face in disgust with the most sarcastic voice: he died like a true knight

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felix hugo fraldarius ruining my video game experience, even the replays, since 2019

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I feel at peace, carried away by the wind's song

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Thank you everyone who participated in the fe3h portrait request this year, whether by making requests, liking, reblogging or leaving nice comments :3

Here is the full compilation of all the works I managed to finish! For certain characters I went back and did some very minor touch-ups, just so they look a bit more consistent. That said, you can see how my style changed quite over time :3;;; Which is fine! I wanted to experiment with the soft texture brushes and try to come up with a style that would look crisp when zoomed out, but also look interesting close up. I hope I managed to achieve that, and that it looks good!!

Don't forget to vote for the final character portrait here!

Hope I can get a chance to do this again one day, it was super fun!!! And, I hope you guys had fun too~

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Reblog with your favorite Animal Crossing villager in the tags, I want to know what people think. Mine is Daisy

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Jarod BaD U BaD

smh how dare you??? he is doing his BEST for the empire. a true war hero.