#tis my happy place

[fandom-blackhole]

For the cafe ask, Caramel Frappe: Favorite video game?

The Last of Us <3

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[ninoochat]

It's okay, it happened a long time ago. Yeah, I don't think that matters.

[royaltea000]

hey did it hurt

[theroundbartable]

Once again, me arguing with my dad

My dad: and my wife tells me that it's my fault because I was always working when you were kids-

Me: *incredulous whisper* that was so not the Problem

Dad: then what was?

Me: *internally*

How on earth could she say that? We've talked so many times about this. About how I never felt I could talk to you guys, not because you weren't there but because you didn't listen, because you threatened us, because you hit us when we did something wrong, because you laughed when I decided to trust you with my feelings or told me they weren't real. I couldn't tell you how I was bullied the same way in class, how my childhood friends abused me, how I hurt myself to punish me when I couldn't memorize a poem well enough. The problem wasn't that you weren't there, the problem was in all the ways that you were present.

Me: The problem was that I could never tell you anything as a child. I'm doing it now because I want to fix things. I want to overcome that issue

Him: what did you never tell me then?

Me: *frozen* I can't tell you that now either

Him: *practically rolling his eyes* must have been bad

Me: *silence*

[o-mellowy]

Lotty! <3

I have such a crush on her oh my god

[palossssssand]

Really felt like drawing Delta scaling a building

[redactedgender]

my redacted tier list

i accidentally put ollie in the wrong tier (he should be in 'perfect amazing i love you') since he's the one who got me into redacted.

anyways. i have my favorites.

[pettytiredandjewish]

One of the reasons why I enjoy writing fanfics is that I can fix the original creators mistakes. For example:

- marvel killing of Natasha (still salty about that still) in my fanfics she’s still alive and is happy with her new life with her wife Maria and their many “adopted” kids (yelena, Kate, Wanda, peter…)

- marvel fucking up steves character at the end of endgame. Nope my boy did not stay back in the past. He’s still here and is living his best life with his boyfriend Bucky.

- and…. Marvel fucking up their Jewish characters. Not in this house. Peter Parker is Jewish, Bucky Barnes is Jewish, Natasha romanoff is Jewish, yelena Belova is Jewish, Kate bishop is Jewish, Wanda and pietro are Jewish, and so on…

I may have my own mixed opinions about marvel (I don’t exactly agree with marvel’s and Disney’s board and how they deal with shit) but I do truly enjoy watching marvel movies and reading their comics. Sorry about the long random rant in the tags but I’m tired and I kinda needed to vent.

Another thing I’m adding (since I’m seeing a lot of people saying this) calling the new captain american movie a Zionist movie and using that excuse as a reason to boycott it makes you (drum roll people) an antisemitic ass hat.

[starbuck]

no okay but in the last few weeks i’ve met/learned about three different lovely couples happily married for >30 years and the secret for all of them was not meeting/getting married until their 30s when they both already had their individual lives figured out… THAT’S the validation that i’m onto something that i needed

[orcelito]

Did driving practice today. Actually did parallel parking practice this time, even tho I really didn't want to still. Finally got it into my head that I can maybe do this.

SO......

I have scheduled my driving test. For November 13th, 3 weeks from today.

[infinitelystrangemachinex]

Come on, you know you want to, give us the character bingo for Viktor.

don't mind if i doooo

[potatothemouse]

Not a Halloween costume but more of a drawing depicting Hubert, Grace, and Anastasia as teens exploring a haunted house first time Grace and Anastasia first kinda got to know Hubert

[hgrve]

harringrove angst (kind of mean steve for those who aren't into that)

thinking of steve and billy having bad fights after starting a relationship, and during those fights steve always brings up the night at the byers.

steve doesn’t really know why he does it, him and billy have made amends, they’re together now and they love each other. except, he kind of does know why he brings it up. it wins him the argument. billy goes quiet and hurt and they don’t fight anymore.

because billy doesn’t want to be like neil, wants to show steve (show everyone) that he’s better. he knows he fucked up, that he’s not perfect and probably never will be, but he thought steve had forgiven him. that they’d forgiven each other, because steve apologized to him too. and how can billy bring that up without looking like he’s making excuses? can’t say you hit me too or you know what happened before with my dad or what was i supposed to think about what i found?

eventually steve does it so much that they stop fighting completely. and, yeah, steve no longer has to deal with the arguments, he and billy don’t scream at each other until they’re both in tears anymore. it’s the best they’ve gotten along since they got together or, well, ever.

but he’s also lost the shy smiles billy gives him when it’s just the two of them, and the little laugh that billy is embarrassed of, the one that hiccups out of him and scrunches up his nose. and, most importantly, he’s lost the quiet nights where billy opens up to him, about the abuse from his dad, and how he felt when his mom left, how much he misses her and how he wishes she’d loved him enough to take him with her.

maybe steve starts getting angrier, and more hurt as time goes on and billy doesn’t open back up. he decides that if billy is going to withhold things from him, steve should start being able to take things from billy too. they still have sex, billy still sighs into steve’s neck when steve slides into him but steve starts not kissing billy, turning his head away when billy tries, turning billy on his belly when billy gets too persistent. leaves billy to clean up by himself as soon as they’re done rather than stay in bed holding each other, enjoying the afterglow together like they’ve always done before. stops taking billy out with him when he hangs out with the party or the other teens, stops telling billy when he goes out at all.

and so, the resentment starts to build up, for both of them, and they’re right back where they started, fighting and screaming at each other. but neither of them will leave. they love each other, after all. steve refuses to have another failed relationship, because what does that say about steve? that he isn’t good enough, loveable enough, worthy enough, just not ever enough. and as much as billy doesn’t want to be like neil, he also doesn’t really want to be like his mom either. doesn’t want to abandon steve like his mom abandoned him, knows how it affected him, how it made him feel, and he won’t do that to someone he cares about.

so they stay stuck in this endless cycle because maybe steve loves billy and billy loves steve, but they don’t always like each other, and they definitely don’t trust each other.

[nerosdayinanime]

sabito & mitsuri chatting up a fucking storm w giyuu walking just behind them quietly listening and enjoying their company

so people can actually see the tags in reblogs</3

[aria0fgold]

Sorry I'm not your God (神様じゃなくてごめんね) Romaji Lyrics

Nee,

Kimi kara mite boku no kao wa

Nani iro ni mieteru no kana

Hontō wa kimi ga egaku yōna

Sunda iro nanka janainda

Monogatari no shujinkō mitaina

Seigi no hīrō no yōna

Kodo to kotoba o nazotta

Sono kekka ga ima no bokudatta dakenanda

Shinzō ni tenteki o sasu yōna utade

Asa o ikinobite wa

Yoru no omosa ni kubi o shimerare nagara

Iki mo tamerare yashinai

Nigiri tsudzuketeita shinzō mo

Dareka no bunda to shitteshimatta

Sono kuse dareka o sukuitakatta

Sore ga hontō no boku nanda

Aa,

Shōdoteki na aide sukuwaretakunai yo

Nante mie o hatte itteshimatta

Kakkoyokunakute gomen ne

Aa,

Sekai yori kimi o erabutte

Minna ni ichatta

Kono ude wa ni hon shikanai no ni sa

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

Aa,

Furimaita nasake ga

Kiba ni natte osōtekichatta

Kitto subete yuruseru to omotta

Tsuyokunakutte gomen ne

Aa,

Tsunaideta te o hanashite

Kimi o oite ichatta

Kimi o mamoru tame no hazudattanda

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

Kitto boku wa yasashii hito

Demo kimi wa boku yori yasashii hito

Yasashii hito bakari kizutsuiteiku

Kono dōshiyō mo nai sekai de sa

Kitto boku wa orokana hito

Demo kimi mo onnaji orokana hito

Dakara wakattekureru to omotta

Sore o negatteshimattanda

Aa,

Kitto boku wa yasashii hito

Demo kimi ga boku yori yasashii hito

Dōka kimi dake wa boku mitaini sa

Hikari o miushinatte shimawanaide

Kitto boku wa orokana hito

Demo kimi mo onnaji orokana hito

Dakara kimi ga nami o omōka wakaru yo

Konna ketsumatsu jaiyada yo ne

Aa,

Tsuranuita shisō ga

Dareka no kokoro o koroshichatta

Sore dake ga tadashii to omotta

Kirai ni narenakute gomen ne

Aa,

Itsu no hi ka nageta kotoba ga

Zenbu kaettekichatta

Kono ondo wa tashika ni aru no ni sa

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

Aa,

Sayonara o shinai tameni

Kōsuru shika nakattanda

Kimi no me ni tayoritaku natteshimatta

Risō ni narenakute gomen ne

Aa,

Zen jinrui o aisu nante koto wa

Dekinakatta yo

Dakara dōka boku o urandekure

Kamisama janakute gomen ne

[s4pphic-sh3nan1gans]

well...

can't say I'm very surprised 😭