wellnoe

[wellnoe]

real rollercoaster of a day

[wellnoe]

Well, my dear friend Brenna @wellnoe tricked me into reading Jujutsu Kaisen (talked about it for 3 hours extremely interestingly while we walked around, and I'm susceptible to battle shonen when I have winter depression), so now I am FUCKING IN. I think it does some things very cleverly and some things to disappointing battle shonen standard but mostly my brain is being set on fire with the Megumi-Toji-Maki situation

Imagine if your deadbeat dad got away from the noble clan that had persecuted him for not having magical powers, only to try and sell you back in before his death (due to trying and failing to kill a noble clan heir)...and your first cousin is vaguely resentful of you because you inherited the family magic technique and are a boy, everything to your rotten clan that she is not...and then your dad comes back to life and fights you, but you don't recognize him, so your first thought is that he's exactly like your cousin--the best hand-to-hand fighter you know....and then your dad kills himself still a stranger to you <3 (And your cousin is framed as the one who will succeed at humiliating a noble clan where your dad failed <3)

[wellnoe]

My other big Megumi JJK thought is that estrogen could save her <3

[wellnoe]

you are the long-forgotten prodigal son

[wellnoe]

my semi-autobiographical weezer animation is finally complete. enjoy

[wellnoe]

1865th round after hsy becomes a constellation and they have to formalize the nebula name deciding to do it via anonymous suggestion/vote to hopefully get a better name than "kim dokjas company" and the slow horrifying realization that everyone still voted on the name "kim dokjas company" (except for kim dokja, who suggested "han sooyoungs corporation." they cannot tell if hes trying to be nice, or fucking with hsy).

[wellnoe]

Forgive me for unloading in your asks, but your post on KDJ's suicidality finally gave me the words for something I've been thinking about for years.

The cruelest trick KDJ plays on the audience with his unreliable narration is to pretend his suicidal ideation is the same goal-driven fantastical kind as YJH. It starts from the very beginning of the story -- he lets YJH throw him off the bridge because his knowledge of the story will let him survive, and give him an advantage for the next scenario.

Even as his knowledge gets thinner and thinner, his plans becoming more and more tenuous, the illusion remains. It's all for the company, it's all to get through to the next scenario. Of course it's not permanent. Of course there's a plan, there's always a plan.

I admit, the first time I read ORV I got completely fooled, and it meant that I really had trouble empathizing with KDJs companions being so hurt by his self-sacrificing nature -- just like KDJ does. This meant that KDJ meeting the oldest dream was absolutely devastating, because it's the moment that the illusion finally, truly crumbles. There's no more tricks, no way out, no pretense of a plan. He really thinks he has to die. And in that moment, I was horrified right along with his companions.

Idk just a really neat way ORV uses its unreliable narration to put the reader in KDJ's headspace.

nothing to be forgiven! i love getting asks and i love this one in particular. i absolutely agree that kim dokja's suicidality masquerades as something much closer to yoo joonghyuk's, pretending to be simply the most practical option because after all, he can come back. its a justification that in itself betrays a complete lack of care for oneself that kim dokja (and subsequently the reader) glosses over. its true that his plans save the most lives, its true that they are often most practical, a truth which hides exactly why sacrifice is always his first instinct and makes his companions anger difficult to understand - it works after all, doesn't it? aren't they being a little unreasonable, considering that?

it is such an interesting part of his unreliable narration because when we first meet him he already gives us the clues to see his suicidal ideation for what it is - he sees himself as someone with no worth and no prospects who subsists solely off of reading a shitty webnovel, basically telling the reader to our face that he doesn't care for his life. but he acts as if that self-hatred and the resulting suicidal ideation is completely unrelated to his self sacrifice. its just always the best option, and we as readers believe him! its not until his justifications become thinner and thinner and his plans become more and more reckless that a direct cause and effect becomes apparent, and yet the narration still often brushes it off.

you're right that part of why the oldest dream is such a shock because its when the justification is at its strongest and weakest. if kim dokja/oldest dream dies here, everyones struggle will be over, its what theyve all been working for, it seems like the most reasonable plan. to make everyone continue to suffer just for him - how could that be any sort of fair? how is that an option? but he barely bothers to put up that facade, because his self-hatred is so strong it makes his justifications pale in comparison. he cant pretend this is anything but an attempt to finally kill himself permanently when his loathing for oldest dream is practically dripping off the page. especially not when, like you said, theres no resurrection plan. just a cold desire to die.

its just another way orv pulls the wool over its reader's eyes. kim dokja's self-hatred colours the narration until any attempt to save himself seems.....irrational. not worth it. really, this is the only way. which is also why seeing the companions fight for him when the pov switches in the last few chapters hits so hard! because you see from a perspective where that was never true at all........

[wellnoe]

uzumaki

[wellnoe]

it's not mentioned in the song but in the corner of the piano man bar there is a mouse hole and inside that hole is a smaller replica of the bar staffed and patronized by mice who perfectly mirror all of the characters and they all say squeak us a song you're the piano mouse and mouse what are you doing here while they put cheese in his tiny jar

[wellnoe]

literally tearing up over 'no children - ska version' by sad snack

[wellnoe]

the witch hat atelier trailer looks fine. like it doesn’t look bad at all. but i do think one of the things (among many) that makes the manga great is how beautifully and skillfully drawn it is and how that reflects the characters’ own attempts at magic making through ink. it’s a fantastic use of its medium.

[wellnoe]

i’m having a lot of fun with trigun bc it’s really good but it’s also not taking over my brain the way things tend to.

[wellnoe]

[wellnoe]

sketches

[wellnoe]

day 14 / what time loop

[wellnoe]

[wellnoe]

📢 Help Rebuild Our Lives: A Family's Fight for Survival in Gaza❗🚨

🚨Urgent 😟👇🇵🇸🚨

Hello everyone!!

My name is Lena Khames, a 27-year-old wife to my husband, Mohammed, and a proud mother of three beautiful children: our daughter Yasmmen and our two sons, Ali and Adam.

We come from Al-Zahraa in the Gaza Strip. I have a diploma in e-commerce, but our once stable and hopeful life has been shattered by the devastation of war, leaving us struggling to rebuild.

Our world collapsed when a missile targeted our home, reducing it to rubble in an instant 💔. The home we had built with $40,000, a place where we had hoped to raise our children in peace, was completely destroyed. We have been left homeless, with nothing but memories of what we once had.

Our family has been forced to move repeatedly 💔due to the conflict. After being displaced from our home by military force to a supposedly "safe" area, we quickly learned there is no safe place in Gaza. Each time the danger intensified, we had to flee again, struggling to protect our children from the violence that surrounded us. Today, we live in a tent under unbearable conditions, without even the most basic necessities.

In one of the many attacks, my husband, already suffering from a previous injury, was seriously wounded in his leg 💔. He now requires continuous medical care and a special device to help him walk again. To make matters worse, my husband lost his brother Mahmoud in the conflict—his brother died in his arms while they were inspecting the ruins of our home. The emotional and physical pain has weighed heavily on him, and on all of us.

Adding to our burden, my husband also lost his car—the sole source of income for our family— 💔 which had cost him $20,000. This loss has left us without any means of financial support, making it nearly impossible to care for our children and ensure their safety.

How Your Donation Will Help Us 🙏:

We are seeking to raise €100,000 to help secure a temporary place for our family, as we are currently living in a tent and our children desperately need a safe and stable environment. The funds will also allow us to begin rebuilding our home, which was destroyed, and restore the stability and hope we once had. Additionally, we need urgent financial support for my husband’s medical treatment and travel to find safety and proper care, as we try to escape the ongoing nightmare of war and genocide that we are forced to endure.

👉 Donation Link: https://gofund.me/c17aa129

Please share, like and donate this campaign with your friends, family and colleagues to help us achieve our goals. I would appreciate your assistance. Any amount, even if small, will make a difference in providing assistance to my family in our hour of need.

Thank you for taking the time to read this message and consider making a difference in the lives of those affected by the ongoing crisis in Gaza

With gratitude,

Lina & Her Family

✅Campaign Verification ✅

🔎 Vetted by @gazavetters, on this list (#103)🔎 vetted by @90-ghost here

@a-shade-of-blue here

@brokenbackmountain here

@gaza-evacuation-funds here

✌️ It's Time to Donate!✌️