#time fic

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TIME FICCC i miss time buckyyy i miss good real thoughtful bipolar representation i miss beautiful scary walls of mystical snow xxx

Time ficccccc xxxxx thank u bestie

In which Bucky is self-medicating with alcohol, waiting for the inevitability of his brain snapping, and leaning in to being the family fuck up because it’s what he thinks he deserves, anyway. I wonder what happens when you take an unmedicated bipolar guy, block access to his crutch/coping method, and chuck him into a scenario that pushes the bounds of sanity.

Kind of a spoiler, but also a moment of Bucky trying to rationalise himself to calm after he and his new tag-along are accosted by Germans:

The beating had been real (Bucky has the smarting aches to prove it) and so had the bullets (blood all over the other American’s fingers), and Bucky has heard of historical war re-enactors but he doesn’t think the middle-aged guys running around Gettysburg actually try to kill each other.

He can’t stop his stare from drifting, from finding the other American’s profile and picking all over him. There’s iron-clad determination in his expression, in the way he’s marching on while injured, and he isn’t sparing Bucky a single glance, which makes deciding whether or not he’s a part of this a whole lot more difficult.

If he’s consensually role-playing a Nazi capture with actual bullets, then maybe for once Bucky isn’t the biggest fuckup in the proverbial room.

If the entire thing is an act and he’s just going along so the freaks behind them don’t do worse than they’ve already done, well. There are two of them now. Two against three, the odds aren’t so bad. Wouldn’t be so bad, if they weren’t both injured.

The only color left in the guy’s face which isn’t a shade of grey is, fascinatingly, the flush of his lips. It isn’t the sort of thing that Bucky should be noticing, but there they are: berry red and delicious, pouting with the way he’s panting his breaths a little, something wholly out of place with the clusterfuck of everything on this day. Staring at him, those pretty lips are weirdly grounding—burst of color in a blizzard of a different kind, drawing Bucky’s focus and giving him a thin shard of clarity.

I also have my long overdue Christmas AU in which Bucky is also hurled into a Situation™ and has to unpack a lot of his feelings about being bipolar and how it connects to his relationships:

Two months into living in London, Bucky had rejected a call from Gale. It had been late, and Bucky had been unable to sleep because this should’ve been the opportunity of a lifetime but nothing he did was good enough, and every mistake was just another reason why he didn’t deserve this, and he didn’t have it in him to pretend to be the guy who Gale was waiting for. A week later, Bucky had his stomach pumped in A&E; his flatmate had been the one to call the paramedics. He never told Gale, but it didn’t matter so much anyway, because only a few days after that, he got kicked out of a pub for trying to start a jousting tournament with the pool cues, called Gale from the adjoining laneway to break up with him, and then did a rail off a freckled redhead’s dick in a club bathroom stall. The lithium prescription had been his birthday gift to himself that year.

Bucky wonders if this version of Gale had been spared any of it. Gale presses the heels of his palms into his eyesockets, inhales through a wet shudder, and the most unselfish decision that Bucky has ever made had been while he was manic.

All my Buckies are bipolar but some are more bipolar than others lmao

(For this WIP ask game plus an obnoxious bonus)

[roboticnebula]

Pros of re-reading your own fic

a good time;

Has exactly the tropes you like and the characterization you want to read;

Gratification: yes you did finish a thing and yes you did do good;

just a very fun time all around.

Cons of re-reading your own fic:

Is that another TYpO

[yeehawpim]

a comic about fix-it fanfics

[weepynymph]

Do not write fanfiction. One second you're normal and the next you're downloading a calendar from 2004 and tearing your hair out over what specific date every event in your fic happens

[willbuddiewontbuddie]

people telling you they reread your fic is the biggest compliment you could ever receive. there are thousands of stories out there begging to be found, to be explored, but your story meant so much to someone that they came back to it eagerly, they went over every word again. to love is to return and loving a fic is rereading it. thank you to all readers and rereaders <3333

[foreststarflaime]

Sure sure romantic pairings are fine and all. But more people should perhaps consider two characters loving each other to the point of incomprehensibility. To the point that there is no simpler way in english to define or describe it than just to say those characters’ names together, joined eternally by the vague conjunction ‘and’. There’s so many types of love and dependencies and emotions in general thrown in there that you can’t tell what colors they are anymore, they’ve just joined into a giant blobby mess that’s almost black, but when you look closer glistens with more colors than there are names for. Just a thought

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

[qvert]

Refuge at the Firelight Hideout

[frownyalfred]

thinking about the expert masseuse Alfred hired for the family that is paid a small fortune annually to provide massage services and ignore so, so many things. No questions, no remarks, just quality service and an ironclad NDA that, if broken, would probably topple said masseuse’s entire family line.

Things Alfred is paying them to ignore, in no specific order:

Bruce’s spinal hardware courtesy of Bane :)

weird amounts of muscle on everyone, even the kids (despite them allegedly not working physical jobs)

scars

FRESH scars

the fact that every joint in Bruce’s body clicks when moved/manipulated at the tender age of 42

Olympic athlete level physiques

rotator cuff injuries across the whole family

scars that are definitely from bullets and/or acid splashes

old signs of what looks like torture (Bruce)

Dick’s entire left arm is basically screws and plates (he “fell really bad” once)

every single family member takes deep tissue massage with max pressure with 0 complaints

calluses

no really, the weirdest fucking calluses

[cronchy-baguette]

thank you for loving me

[akelafang]

Golden Age King Arthur accidentally gets sent back in time to the beginning of his reign. While making his way to Camelot hoping to find Merlin and figure out how to get back to his own time he runs into Agravaine making his own way to Camelot for the first time. Knowing he was a traitor working for Morgana in his own timeline, Arthur kills him and decides to take his place. No one had seen Agravaine since Ygraine's death, there were no portraits of him in the castle, and Arthur's premature greying hair has to be good for something other than Merlin calling him a silver fox. He can pass as his own uncle and be the caring advisor that young him deserved damn it!

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⭐

Thank you, anon! Wow dealer's choice okay.

I'm going to say some things about the blizzard scene in in the next chapter 1, if that's okay!

One of the big factors in Bucky's character arc and personal journey in in the next will be bipolar disorder. I think I've said before that all my Buckys are bipolar, but some are more bipolar than others, by which I just mean sometimes it's prominent in the story and sometimes it isn't. It's very prominent in this story. At the point Bucky begins the story in, he's self-medicating with alcohol, which is a depressant anyway, but he's also not regulated and he knows he's not regulated. By the point of the "snowstorm" hitting, he's experiencing withdrawal and also high levels of stress from everything going on, so when something inexplicable happens, he tries to rationalise by blaming it on himself.

What I wanted to start digging in to here is how a bipolar diagnosis is kind of a double-edged sword, because on the one hand you know what's wrong with you, while on the other you know what can go wrong with you. It's so easy to sit in a space of anticipating your brain snapping, and it's also easy to dismiss everything you think and feel as being irrational or crazy because of your disorder. It feels like you're constantly on a precipice, especially if you do a lot of work around recognising early signs of an episode so you can then put preventative/mitigating strategies in place; it's easy to start thinking that everything could be a sign that you're about to snap, too. So for Bucky in this moment, losing time and seeing something that then quickly disappears, he's thinking he did this to himself (by drinking, by not drinking, by letting himself get bad again), and it was only a matter of time. Also nothing is real because maybe he's just that crazy and it's finally happened, he's lost total touch with reality. To me, this is really in line with Bucky as a character because of the way he shoulders responsibility when things go wrong, and sits in guilt to the point of numbness even when he has no material control over something (one of the behaviours which initially made me go 🫵🫵🫵bipolar🫵🫵🫵).

So that's the snowstorm! Thanks for giving me the opportunity to run my mouth lmfao

(for this director's commentary ask game <3)

[gothamite-rambler]

"Weird Questions from a Weird City: Batfamily Edition

Duke Thomas: What’s your biggest fear?

Jason Todd: That I’ll never be good enough for anyone.

Tim Drake: Everyone hates me and talks about me behind my back.

Dick Grayson: Vampires.

Jason Todd: ...

Tim Drake: ...

Dick Grayson: I got turned into one once and nearly killed peoples. It's a bloodlust, you never know when you'll be fully quenched and every non-vampire is a succulent vessel... But I'm not a vampire anymore and that is in my past.

Dick eats his apple after that.

*silence*

Duke Thomas: Holy crap stick, Batman.

Tim: Can I change my option to Dick Grayson?

Jason: Same.

[jackassbroadcast]

Been alittlewhile but the homo grind never stops ‼️‼️

[allskywalkerswhine]

in fics where luke gets plopped into the prequels i want every jedi within ten metres of him to think hes the weirdest jedi theyve ever seen. he has negative lightsaber form. he doesnt know what a kata is. he handstands when he meditates. his solution to sith is to try and have a chat. hes a political radical who keeps suggesting revolution. you ask him what the jedi code is and he says "kindness and compassion and helping those in need :) ". you ask how he used the force like that and he says some shit about how you are a luminous being limited only by your mind. the councils authority is just a suggestion. he is somehow the new favourite of both qui gon and yoda