#tho i know that like a lot of the same issues exist in like both or all or whatever
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Thinking abt the second dream story featuring a third dream story I can't remember if I ever talked abt. I <3 body horror bonus points if its slow and agonizing
#rat rambles#oc posting#the more recent dream was far less defined of a story than the other two main dreams I based stories off of but it still stuck with me#mostly because it involed dragons and body horror and both of those things are sick as hell#and I decided to put it in the same world at the story with grim since that dream also technically had dragons in it#ok but actually the main reason is to fill in some worldbuilding gaps that planted grief (the working name for grims story) had#Im still working on the worldbuilding it's been a slow process since neither story has rly gotten to be my primary focus at any given time#but Im slowly getting somewhere#mainly the important thing is figuring out what the world outside of planted grief's setting looks like and how much magic is in either#for context an important element of this world is that it is a very magical world but a certain region of it is more or less blocked off#from the rest of the world and within that region magic is far less prevelant to the point that for most ppl it may as well not exist#now for what I have so far its not necessary that these ppl don't know magic exists its just that its like. kind of hard for them to#remember it does? like when they see magic they are able to recognize it's magic and as smth fairly normal if not a bit weird to see here#but when there isnt actively magical shit going on they just sort of. cant hold onto that knowledge and forget abt it#this also applies to a lot of other things relating to magic and the rest of the world outside the region#its why they're pretty well known for their region being cursed as hell and its people even more cursed#outside the region it's pretty well known that some great tragedy befell those lands at some point in the far off past that probably is the#cause of how weird and fucky things are over there and that the barriers were set up at some point to stop it from spreading#nowadays the borders aren't super strict and people are free to cross them given they go through the proper paperwork and stuff#but most ppl on either side tend to at least be heavily advised to not take the risk for many reasons#its generally not too uncommon for outsiders to move in for work reasons tho#the main concern is that the more magical one is the harder time theyll have since ppl will often just. forget they exist when not directly#interacting with them. which isnt usually too bad but it does lead to various safety concerns that have to be addressed#the good news is that generally the longer one hangs around people the easier time they'll have remembering them as they form their own#associations with them and are able to cling to the memory that way#but the bad news is that while foreigners will never be completely susceptible to the curse™ they will start to feel the effects of it the#longer they live there which tends to be very distressing to those who end up living there long term#one part of the curse™ theyll never be hit with as hard as locals is the days of grief that hit the population Hard every now and then#basically just full days where everyone is suddenly completely inconsolable or just otherwise out of it and then completely forget abt it#once the local dragons deal with the source of the issue
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I don't know why I, a former protestant, have such a soft spot for characters who are ex-catholic but I do.
#or like even headcanon as that#or catholic ish?#or basically they have a weird complex relationship with their own catholicism i guess#like maybe bc it's similar enough to me but an ex protestant hits too close idk#or there's so much ingrained it's usually like#they dont know how to feel about it#so its not a total 180 but its hard yo explain to other people#bc a lot of people seem to be like either all in or all out#and theyre like fuck if i know but i got feelings about it???#lmao yeah maybe im projecting#and maybe theres a sort if romanticized version of catholicism in my head or something idk????#or evangelical christianity has left such a bitter taste in my mouth that other sects of christianity seem more appealing?#tho i know that like a lot of the same issues exist in like both or all or whatever#bc there's like systemic problems but ANYWAY
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I know there’s always gonna be jealousy and immature shit, but I think a lot of this discourse over fans attending multiple shows wouldn’t be as much of a thing if scalpers and resale wasn’t such a problem. Like yeah the demand is crazy and ticketmaster absolutely messed up the US sales. But the amount of tickets at FV is also very scarce and if you can’t secure those you’re only option is resale, which many can’t afford.
It’s highly possible this is just a very …American fans thing but idk
#just noticing there seems to be a lot less issues over this in places where scalping wasn’t as out of control and fans could get tix#I feel like the American legs are always a bit …yk#but maybe this will happen at other legs considering the demand who knows#I’d rather have fans esp tumblrinas go to multiple shows than locals who want clout tho#I feel like being happy fans got tickets and thinking fv should go more towards those who don’t have one tix can both exist#we can’t really compare this to rep bc the system really did stop scalpers and the demand also wasn’t the same at all#I wish there was a system similar to Uk shows#I’m just talking
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Welcome to My Collection of Random Thoughts during my nth* rewatch of Good Omens Season 2
*only amazon prime knows the exact number at this point but I’m fairly certain it’s in the double digits

Episode 1: Gabriel’s fly lurking in the box when Aziraphale first takes it inside 👀
Crowley’s promise of “two minutes” basically means that he’s been homeless and living in his car for the past 4 years strictly so that he can be within 2 driving minutes of Aziraphale at all times in case his angel needs him I’m not crying you are
So here I think the key word is “fragile,” Crowley knows they are ostensibly safe from their respective sides but that could change at any moment so he’s basically spent the last 4 years in anxiety-ridden terror hovering as close to Aziraphale as he can to try and protect him from heaven, hell, and anyone else that would want to bring him harm after all that business they pulled in season 1 with stopping Armageddon

Episode 2: I just happened to pause the episode while Aziraphale is lying to the angels about his miracle and LOL Michael really outdid himself here (Sheen, not the Archangel)
Gabriel trying to swat flies and almost smashing the repository of every single one of his memories

I’m cAckling
So if Good Omens exists in Good Omens, does that mean Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett exist in Good Omens?? Do you think they based their Aziraphale and Crowley characters on Aziraphale and Crowley??

Episode 3: So I’m trying to find any hints or foreshadowing of the Gabriel Beelzebub thing bc tbh I did kind of feel like it came out of nowhere which is really the only issue I have with them. I found this one scene where Beelzebub almost ?? seems to be concerned about Gabriel ?? But it’s blink and you miss it and there could be lots of other reasons why Beelzebub doesn’t want to fail in locating Gabriel (pressure from/leverage over heaven, etc) so idk

More Foreshadowing Fly content 🪰

Episode 4: So here we’ve seen that Shax can just appear inside the Bentley bc she did it earlier to talk to Crowley. Shax only pretended to be a hitchhiker so she could be invited in because Azirpahale was driving so technically she needed permission to cross the threshold of an angel 👀


This scene will never not destroy me the 1941 flashback is the absolute sOFTEST thing ever to happen on this show

We really need more context here I need to see the Crowley-Furfur Monkey Rides

Episode 5: ahahaha thank you google translate for absolutely destroying my sanity this evening

POP goes the Ziraphale

Okay I know you can’t hear it in the gif but just before Nina takes Maggie’s hand, there’s a very quiet miracle noise, like Azirpahale literally MADE Nina dance with Maggie, he said I’m writing a Mina Jane-Austen-Ball-AU and my otp will KISS godDAMMIT

Azirpahale seems lowkey kind of manic this whole scene tho, he’s controlling literally everyone to force Nina and Maggie together and whenever Crowley says anything that pokes holes in Aziraphale’s Magical Jane Austen Ball Fairytale, Aziraphale just straight up denies it. He wants Nina and Maggie to dance and he wants him and Crowley to dance and he refuses to acknowledge anything beyond that.

Is this just Shax insulting Crowley for how much of a nuisance he’s been or a reference to his former status as an angel ???

They’re both completely dismissive of each other when they’re trying to say something important and that’s the main issue they’ve been having this entire season tbh


Episode 6: I think it’s funny that Crowley describes the angels as bees here because in the book, Neil/Terry describe humans the same way. Guess we have more in common than we thought huh?

So the metatron was the one who originally decided Gabriel would be memory wiped and not sent to hell, and he was also the one that decided not to sound an alarm about Gabriel for some reason and said ‘just go find him yourself’ instead. The metatron has definitely got his own agenda and you can bet he doesn’t want Aziraphale up there in heaven because he’s a “leader” and he’s “honest” like that’s exactly what Gabriel was and look where it got him 👀

There’s just something I can’t quite put my finger on about the metatron bringing Aziraphale a coffee from “give me coffee or give me death” and then asking Aziraphale if he’s going to take the coffee he’s giving him…

I have not seen a single person talk about this since s2 came out but Nina literally calls Maggie “angel” because that’s the term of endearment they hear Crowley using for Aziraphale !!!! I’m still going fERAL over this and I can’t believe no one else is eitHER

Something about this part of The Final Fifteen compared to this scene from the first episode is so representative of the entire season. Azirpahale keeps saying “my way or get out” and Crowley finally hits a wall and can follow Aziraphale no further. So he does just that. He goes.

I’m sure a lot of us by now have seen this post that brings up how Aziraphale literally pushes the remains of Crowley into his mouth and swallows and it’s the only thing I see when I watch this now

We still don’t know for certain if Crowley queued up this song to play on their way to the Ritz or if the Bentley started playing it all on its own and it’s driving me insane

Basically how I am doing after my Truly-Alarming-Number-th watch of this traumatizing episode/season. WELP hope you enjoyed this garbage dump of my thoughts and feelings time to go cry for a bit again BYE
#good omens#good omens 2#good omens season 2#my season 2 rewatch aka: I Went Insane#i am unwell#I haven't slept properly in 44 days and counting#ineffable husbands#aziraphale#crowley#angel#demon#armageddidnt-blog#armageddidnt-gifset#armageddidnt-screaming#armageddidnt-pain#good omens 2x06
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gay rep in gaming and in kcd2: A Rant
Ok, I'll try to make this as cohesive as possible, but remember that this is a rant after all, so excuse any possible mistakes or typos.
The gay representation in KCD2 is genuinely the most well-done, realistic representation that I've seen in gaming so far. There are multiple types of representation that I see in games, so let's break down what they are, why they do or don't suck and how exactly the KCD2 Hansry romance is superior.
Type N1) forced mechanical bisexuality.
In most RPGs, or really any games where you choose your own romantic interest, there is no gender-based limit on who can romance who, to allow a fully immersive experiance, tho I feel inclined to point out that this mechanic was introduces to gaming quite accidentally during the early era of gaming, when everything was still pixilated to all hell, they js didn't think to add a code prohibiting same-sex relationships cz developers didn't take their existanse into accaount at all, but then some players discovered it was a possibility and that's how mechanical-bisexuality became an almost industry standard, scince it opens up a wider market for the game without feeling "threatning" to the true consumers which everything was marketed towards(str8 white men).
Now, why do I call it "mechanical" bisexuality, u may ask? Well, bc it truly is just that. Mechanical. No character in that game i truly bi, it's solely a mechanic that's easier for developers and more convenient for gamers.
A good example of that would be Stardew Valley. I don't remember which bachelorette it is exactly, but as you romance them, you meet their ex, and the sex of the ex is the same as that of the player. So if you're male, the ex will also be male, if ur female, the ex will also be female. So no bisexuality for you. But ig you could still count it as "gay" rep, even tho for me even that feels very technical and mechanical, as none of it feels actually gay, there is no discussion or reference to sexuality and the weight of being in a gay reletionship is never brought up even if the setting of the game is on earth and not some fantasy world where being gay is considered totally ok and gay ppl arent treated any differently from str8s.
And well, since I brought up fantasy worlds, let's talk abt type N2) gay rep in fantasy.
This can be very well done or absolutely terrible, depending on the writing and premise, and I feel like we can use Dragon Age as the perfect example for both ends of the spectrum.
So I actually haven't played Dragon Age, so my wording or explanations may not be perfect, but bear with me.
So from what I've heard and know abt the game, the gay rep in old games is great and the way they treat gender is very tasteful and generally well done, at least I've never heard anybody complain. Tho is the newest game, it's... well, let's just say it's not the best. You get this nonbinary character and they spend a lot of time bitching and moaning abt coming out to their mom even tho nothing up to that point has made them feel like their mom wouldn't support them or anything. and look, you may call this good rep cuz oh hey its a real life struggle that they are going thru right? But NO! bc it's the very fantasy setting where being gay is totes cool and ok that i mentioned a second ago and it's not treated the same way as on earth, so taking this character from a utopian fantasy world where even the lable "nonbinary" shouldn't exist bc there is no binary in the first place and projecting this earthly struggle onto them as a sorry excuse for representation feels forced and increadibly boring. Also, some other conversations in the game abt gender were incredibly cringe and also felt very forced, but maybe they were out of context or smth idk but whatever the case may be, it's a separate issue, so let's move on.
type N3) canon gays
So, most of the time, I love all the canon gays in gaming and any media in general.
In gaming, canon gays r mostly in big story games. Like, the first most obvious ones coming to mind would be Ellie and Dina from The Last of Us, or Mileena and Tanya in MK1. Tho those are the only straight up gay gay all up in ur face gay couples that I can think of from AAA games that I've played, so there isn't enough of this type of rep out there. Tho I feel it is the best and most "true" rep in gaming that is the most enjoyable for players AND could be more eye-opening and redeeming for any homophobes playing the game.
So now that all of that is out of the way, you may say, well, aren't Henry and Hans just another case of the so-called mechanical bisexuality? And to that I'll say a very confident no.
Let's tackle Henry's sexuality first. In both the first and second game, he can get with various women, not even mentioning all the trips to bathhouses, and the only men Henry can get with are Black Bartosch and Hans. The sole existence of the Black Bartosch option is, I feel like, an argument enough to Henry's true bisexuality, but if you choose to turn him down, you need to choose an option saying "I prefer women", so some may argue that there! He said it himself! But there is a second piece of evidence in the game that confirms his sexuality to be canonically bi. When you get to Kutttenberg, one of the first side quests you can do is "A Good Scrub" in which you help the new bathhouse owner Betty safely transport her bathhouse wenches from some inn to the bathhouse. While on the road, you can talk to them and at some point they'll ask you if you prefer tits or ass(game of the year type convos am i right?) and u could either staight up answer ass or tits or you could try to evade answering the question, and if you choose the last option, the girl will joking ask henry "are you sure your don't prefer boys?" and that gets Henry INCREADIBLY flustered, he starts stuttering and can't fully deny it and just mutters a quiet, frustrated "fuck" at the end. Yall that's not a reaction of a str8 person, it's a reaction of a queer man that's just been clocked. Don't even try to deny it.
Now onto Hans. We do see terribly little of him and his interactions with other ppl, but there is still very strong evidence for his bisexuality, which is a book that you find under his bed in the Devil's Den, titled "A Collection of Somewhat Bawdy Poems". It's literally just a book with a bunch of homoerotic poems in it, I'm not ever kidding. Here are all of em so you get the full picture:
"My love for you is heartfelt.
You can tell from my unbuckled belt.
My mind is troubled badly
by one question above all:
When will my lover fondly
caress my left ball?
"Love thy neighbour", saith Our Lord.
And I took it to heart.
I started to fulfil His word,
at least in their southern part.
My heart is mourning dejectedly.
Even my hand rejected me!
By day and night I think of you,
I shall love you always.
My heart is faithful, loyal and true,
Though my body sometimes strays.
A knight in battle attire
got into bed with his squire.
Instead of conquering forts,
They played with each other's swords."
That last part I highlighted is literally them ARE YOU SERIOUSSSSS. Now I did see someone on Reddit saying that the book appears in the room before Hans ever moves in, but let's be so honest for a second, in a game as detailed as KCD2, that book being specifically under HANS'S bed is no coincidence, even if it appeared earlier than Hans himself. The devs knew what they were doing. and that book is still there whether you romance Hans or not, so call me delusional if you want, but for me, that's evidence enough.
Now, onto the most important part: why is Hansry so good?
In my purely subjective opinion, I think that if KCD2 was a story game instead of an RPG, it would be a type N3 representation, and Hansry would be the canon couple. Henry undeniably has the most connection and chemistry with Hans. He doesn't interact with Katherine much and it does feel like they're more good friends-at-arms than anything, and at the end of the game, Henry himself jokes that she's too old for him, and ugh don't even get me started on Rosa. Henry literally barely interacts with her, her romance option is so weird to me fr.
I also think that Hansry was planned, or at least thought of and acknowledged by the devs from the very beginning of the franchise. The way they interact in the first game can VERY easily be interpreted as flirting and they're literally your textbook example of the enemies-to-friends-to-lovers troupe. So with the foundation that the first game gives us, their eventual romance is very believable and realistic, it doesn't feel like one of those gay relationships that was never meant to be but was basically "pushed" into canon by fans, ykwim?
So for me what makes their couple such great rep is how even without the gay relationship, they remain queer men, their sexuality isn't purely mechanical. Their relationship doesn't feel flat or forced, like it often happens with optional gay romances. And even without ever acknowledging the weight of their relationship, it feels natural and not like the devs didn't wanna discuss gay stuff yk? Like in early game Henry can literally fuck some girl (i dont remember her name srry:3) out in the open - in a forest, but he specifically locks the door before kissing Hans. After the kiss, Hans looks worried and scared and apologises bc he knows that he, as a man, literally just kissed his dear friend, another man, and he doesn't know how Henry will react to it, and that's why he's so worried. And through these little details, the game acknowledges the weight of their relationship without them ever having to sit down and talk abt it, or the game having to address it, and that's what good writing is! It's refreshingly realistic.
#gaming#kcd2#kcd#kingdome come deliverance#kcd2 henry#henry of skalitz#henry our hero henry#hans capon#lord hans capon#hansry#stardew valley#dragon age#the last of us#the last of us 2#tlou#tlou 2#tlou ellie#dina tlou#ellie x dina#mk1 2023#mortal kombat 1#mortal kombat#mileena#tanya mortal kombat#mileena x tanya#happily married lesbians#i love them#rant post#gay representation#representation
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Example of what I meant in my previous post about Superia where at the end I mentioned Diana
This is Diana from the Golden Age (1942), she is sometimes feminist/radleaning and sometimes just a typical libfem. But still, we can see the military ideology too but this is for A LOT of the comics from both marvel and DC.
She encourages women to have their own independence, financial autonomy, to not depend on a man etc.




She doesn't want to marry Steve Trevor. Not even a bit. Btw about him, I HATE HIM. I HATE HOW THEY WROTE THEM. They are written as the most ''romantic couple'' and the subversive ones since the ''power dynamic is reverse'' apparently but they still ended up together because Steve constantly sexually harassed Diana, probably sexually assaulted her too or at least I know he tried multiple times. So she's literally coerced into being in the relationship with a dude she doesn't want to and then suddenly out of nowhere after being coerced and sa, she likes him. And same with the marriage, he harassed her to marry him for years, she always said no, until he's dying and guilt trip her into agreeing. And then after his death, after repeating in multiple comics that she DO NOT want any child, got a baby with him to fulfil HIS dreams of having a nuclear family. This is so infuriating!! And everyone thinks that they are so cute and romantic ! This drives me nuts !!!
But there is also huge issues like this :

Where we clearly can see the Marston's influence about his domination fetish.
There is this post that I like about this.
Or here where she out of her character have the NoTaLlMeN speech:

I'm saying out of character, since the Amazons are by default recognising that men are the problem, males as a class and therefore ALL OF THEM.
Like here for example :


The only positive aspects of Marston was that her drawings looks realistic and she's humanised. After he passed away (1947), the new writers and illustrators had no one else to defend Diana or female characters in general as he was doing it. And that's when her drawings started to look like porn, and then all the females characters in comics in general were turned into the porn illustrations styles that still exist to our days.
I will keep writing post on here and to share when she or the Amazons are true feminist and females separatist tho.
#golden age comics#wonderwoman#wonder woman#diana prince#diana of themyscira#diana princess of themyscira#amazons of themyscira#dc comics#dc universe#dc characters#William marston#comics#dc#radical feminism#radical feminist community#radical feminist safe#radical feminist#radical feminists do interact#radical feminist theory#anti sex industry#female centered#female separatism#women only spaces#steve trevor#william moulton marston
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yoshikage kira headcanon list:
1. his finger-chewing tendencies existed even before he could form memories, so his mother bought him baby mitts to knock the habit early. the lack of grip led him to slip and fall often, which gave kiramom quite the scare, but seeing as the mittens were a necessary evil, she took it upon herself to do for him what he couldn’t. read into that what you will.
1.2. by the time it was no longer an appropriate age for him to wear baby mittens, he was still indulging the habit like nothing had changed at all. i imagine it started off as mostly a habitual comfort early on, and developed into self-harm when he felt the need for control.
1.3. jumping off of izzy’s hc that he has a low pain tolerance, i think that the sensation of pain is very sobering to kira, hence the development from thumb-sucking to finger-chewing, as noted by f0r. as unbearable as pain is for him, i think it’s also grounding, esp in moments of anxiety. low pain threshold, low pain tolerance, but a high secret third thing (bad coping mechanisms).
2. this one isn’t canon compliant, but i like to think that kira’s nails don’t actually grow supernaturally fast and are more of a reflection of his state of mind. i think they def grow faster than the average person’s, but it’s a mix of genetics, routine nail care stimulating the growth, and perception bias. he only “notices” it when he’s aroused or stressed bc it’s harder to ignore, and let’s be honest, arousal and stress go hand-in-hand for the guy (ha. hand-in-hand).
3. kira doesn’t just hate body hair on women but also on himself, tho probably for different reasons (aesthetic vs sensory, respectively). this wasn’t much of an issue before taking on kosaku’s face seeing as he doesn’t grow much of it himself, but he would still shave all the same, and always smooth. this is evidenced by the fact that he reached for the blade razor rather than kosaku’s electric one (blades are known for a closer shave, while kosaku used an electric razor since “regular razors usually give you burns,” implying that he uses a guard which is a less close shave). living as kosaku was hell too since he had to shave more frequently and the stubble was a lot scratchier.
4. bouncing off of f0r’s selective hygiene hc, his idea of cleanliness is very contradictory and more aligned w perceived contamination than actual germs. may i remind you of when he licked blood off of his hands during the fight w shigechi as to not stain his clothes. granted, it was his own blood, but considering his self-report abt masturbating, i wouldn’t say it’s far fetched to believe he’s not all that concerned abt washing his own hands.

4.1. speaking of self-report masturbation habits, kira believes himself to be above masturbation despite probably being a virgin, but the difference between him and those “sweaty unwashed guys” is that he never uses his own hand anymore. 😥
5. kira is attentive to detail but only to the extent that he’s aware. he has an appreciation for specific types of hands, but it’s all very superficial. for example, he’ll paint some nails pretty, but he wouldn’t think to push back the cuticles. like what is this:

right over the cuticle��� you know that polish is chipping, and he’s sucking it right down 😭
6. kira uses this exact cologne:

6.1. i appreciate that his cologne is unisex since he prob wants a feminine scent for his gfs but nothing so flagrantly womanly that it reflects poorly on him, which leads me to believe that he never went out of his way to buy nail polish (suspicious for a man!) but instead stole it from one of his victims, perhaps if she was carrying it in her purse.
7. he’s a serial killer dater, but he’s no cheater. he might be looking at other hands while he’s in a “relationship,” but at least he’s monogamous abt it; he’ll break up w his current gf before moving on! i mean, why not just take both hands? simple, he can only handle one lady at a time 😌
8. he’s a stickler for routine, and this applies to his diet. these are 2 separate breakfasts he made from eps 1 & 21:


the exact same, even down to the placement of each dish and utensil. maybe he adds a little measured variety in his lunch and dinner choices, but i’d like to think this is how he makes breakfast every morning, and he never gets sick of it. shinobu occasionally cooking up dif breakfasts for him was probably a shock to the system.
8.1. if he was cooking in someone else’s house and they didn’t have a butter knife or, god forbid, had orange juice w PULP, he’d genuinely get offended. no decorum or taste whatsoever, tsk tsk. it’s a good thing he’s there to “set her soul right.”
8.2. maybe further down the line in the kawajiri household, shinobu would’ve commented on his repetitive breakfast choices, and he’d have to force himself to make an omelette or smth to appease her wildly sporadic (normal) appetite. maybe she’d learn how to make breakfast the way he usually does, just to show that she cares ☺��� but unfortunately she overcooked the eggs, and the knife is in the butter the wrong way, and the toast errs on the side of burnt, and… well, no matter. he’s more than okay being the cook every morning from now on.
9. kosaku styles his hair flat and slick, but kira has no experience w the heavy duty gel that he uses, so it ended up in spikes so he could keep his signature little noodle bangs. old habits die hard.


and seeing as how shinobu made no comment on kira’s hair turning white, i’m gonna add a bonus kosaku hc that he’s always changing up his hair in some kind of early mid-life crisis. (“there goes my stupid insecure husband doing his hair differently again, as if that’ll change the fact that he’s already graying. 😒”)
10. rounding us off w my handcanons from a while back, kira’s hands aren’t smth he cares to keep prim and pretty the way he would for someone else’s, but he does have his own routine that puts them above average. although he picks at them during bouts of stress, they tend to heal quickly, as hands do (aided by his saliva bc you know even if he wasn’t chewing on them, he’s sucking on his thumb after peeling the hangnails). the lack of scarring all his life enabled his bad habits, only tempered by the impoliteness of it drilled into his mind as a child.
#yoshikage kira#kosaku kawajiri#shinobu kawajiri#diamond is unbreakable#jojo’s bizarre adventure#part4#💣#long post#joining izzy and f0r on the fun ^__^#i love the idea that even if kosaku did smth new w his appearance shinobu would decidedly not comment out of spite#‘he didn’t notice the new dress i bought so i’m gonna ignore his new hairstyle.’#yeah that’ll teach him shinobu#i need to do a shinobu hc list too someday but i’ve made so many little comments over the yrs idk where to find them all#one day…
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Honestly really love that godpoke is completely silent throughout the entirety of Great God Grove. Like. REALLY love it.
There's just something so compelling to me about the fact that they're there as a tourist to see the ascension of the God of Eloquence. They worship King, a god who is all about talking and communication, meanwhile, they don't speak a SINGLE word throughout the whole game. And they STILL manage to save the world and solve issues that involve heavy communication.
Sure, they have megapon to help them, but they still have to have a good understanding in order to use her correctly and make their way through the game successfully. I dunno. This is probably just me projecting, but it just feels like a nice way of saying "there's more to communication than just verbally speaking", and how even if someone can't communicate in the same ways as you, it doesn't mean they're dumb and don't understand things all the same.
I know that probably wasn't quite the message that was being conveyed there? Godpoke not talking is probably js purely for the games sake, but still, it's nice to be able to take it in another way. It's why I headcanon them as being completely mute, I just see a nice message in there regarding things disability wise. Like, even tho we're disabled it doesn't mean we can't do the things abled people can, yk? Like. I'm not mute, but I am autistic, so I completely understand people assuming you to be dumber and lesser just because you're disabled and can't/don't communicate in the ways that THEY want you to. ESPECIALLY when going non-speaking.
Maybe I'm looking too deep into things, who knows, that's just what I do giggles
I dyyuuuneooooo anyways them having a friendship with king also makes me really jolly,, I don't quite have the words to describe what I mean right now, maybe I'll go further into it when I can think straight. But I dunno, I just think they'd find a lot of comfort in each other,, they both represent integral parts of King's existence as a god in a way, I think they'd get along well
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Long Distance Relationship HCs
Jin x Reader
Summary: How Jin would be in a long distance relationship.
Warnings: swearing, not proofread
A/N: Thanks to @stealth-liberal for requesting this!
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He would struggle a lot with a long distance relationship. He loves being close to you and just existing in the same space around you, so the physical hurdle would be the biggest issue that he struggles with, but y’all make it work.
Texts/calls you constantly about everything. And I mean every. little. thing.
“Do you know where my green duffle bag is?” “Why would I know where- wait, the green one? Hall closet, top shelf.” “Thank you!”
1:24 am “I forgot to tell you earlier, but I saw this neat butterfly I thought you’d like.” [image.attached]
Video calls you at mealtimes so you can eat together(Even if it’s like 2am for one of you, so you just have tea or smth)
Similar to Yoongi, he would make so many serious joking comments about dropping everything and flying to you or you moving to Seoul. “Aish, just move here, (your town) sucks!” “Since when!?” “Since now! I miss you!”🥺
Loves surprise visits where he doesn’t even hint to you that he’s coming, he just randomly calls you like “What if I just showed up outside your house right now?” “That would kinda suck, cause I’m at work.” “... Haha, yeah. Hey, on a totally unrelated note, where do you keep your spare key?” 👀
Also similar to Yoongi, I think you would have a lil plushie that you send back and forth in care packages, but yours has to be RJ(there’s no other options). You get the weirdest photos of him tho, hanging out windows or balanced on Jin’s head in the shower.
Straight up steals your hoodies and then sends them back in the care packages when they stop smelling like you. “Are you wearing my hoodie?!” “...Maybe?” “You little thief!”
Orders food to your house when you're stressed or sick. “Did you send Panda Express?” “Yes, you said you were too tired to cook.”
Hates not being able to look after you or physically comfort you when you’re going through a tough time.
Randomly calls you in the middle of the night when he’s really missing you, neither of you really speaking much, just occasionally mumbling about something that happened during the day until one or both of you fall asleep.
Full body tackles you when you surprise him one weekend with a visit, presenting him with a little gift box, containing a key to your new apartment. “Now we’ll only be twenty minutes apart.”
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If you had to use one word to describe each of skz’s dorm mates dynamic living together what would it be? I feel like some of them would be super chaotic and others super chill (Felix and seungmin lol)
Used the 3rd Eye Tarot. I didn't do the one word thing cuz I'm too lazy to get my creative juices going so i just did a short reading on it:)
*For entertainment purposes only!
SKZ Dorm Pair Dynamics
Chan + I.N - Knight of Cups, 10 of Pentacles, 5 of Swords
They keep their interactions at surface level. As long as they do that their co living goes well. Since they have quite different visions on the world and just overall. They don't see eye to eye and never will - as in u will never see the world the same way your grandma will right, cuz both of u are from different generations. U still love her tho:) as long as y'all don't go into too much depth. Same goes for those two.
I think if they spend too much time together and go to deep in their interactions they'll get pretty pissed at each other pretty quickly😅
I'm also seeing some love stuff going on in there so someone might be inviting their love interest over there.
Lee Know + Han - 6 of Wands, 2 of Wands, Ace of Wands
Very active dorm.
Both of them interact a lot with each other and have plans for places they'll go visit, food they'll try, hobbies they'll do together etc.
Changbin + Hyunjin - 4 of Cups, King of Wands, Death
A funny mood overall.
But actual jokes and fun actually just happen on occasion. Not all the time.
This is a bit difficult to decipher to be honest cuz im not picking up on a consistent energy.
Thats why i think they have like phases (?) they go through. So if they have a lighthearted phase they joke and have fun together.
But then they go back to their hermit mood and each one goes into his own world and hivernate for a while and have their own small rebirth, and then when they're done with that they go out of it and have fun and interract again.
I think thats not something they really are conscious if. If you were to ask them i think they would tell you they're constantly together and having a blast. Cuz those hibernation phases they have, tho long, i think for them feel like one afternoon or something like that. So for them it feel like they're constantly having fun together cuz its like the hibernation phase doesn't count, its like sleeping😂
Felix + Seungmin - The Devil, The Tower, 7 of Pentacles
Honestly seeing those cards scared me a bit, i thought this dorm was gonna be the most lighthearted one but it seems like the heaviest most strained one.
I think each one's in their own world and they have little to no interactions. Each of them works in themselves and their own stuff.
Idk if its something between them that has happened, or one of them had a really nasty experience that they are preoccupied with.
I think one's just minding his own buisenss, not engaging whatsoever in the drama of the other.
While the other is sunken deep into his own suffering and filth and despair.
Its giving victim complex tbh.
Im seeing strong mental health issues. And toxic ways of handling himself and the situation. With every step he tales he sinks more and more into it.
And the whole tragedy thing - i don't think it really exist(?) its more like in his head than in reality. And he brought it on himself (thats why the other one doesn't seem to care that much, im getting the vibe of putting his hands in the air cuz he thinks the other one's just a hopeless case and he should learn to deal with it by himself), from lack of boundaries.
I wasn't planing on saying who it is cuz its none of my business but ya'll already know I think it's Felix so I'll clarify that based on this current energy, and the energy I've sensed from felix before i assume its him. I haven't specifically read about that/ confirmed it with the cards. And i don't intend to do it, cuz i just think we shouldn't stick our noses everywhere. I think the cards just give out enough energy/info for us, and i pick on just as much as i should. If something isn't confirmed by itself, i don't like pestering the poor guys and harassing them to tell us.
#tarot reading#skz#stray kids#kpop#seo changbin#bang chan#lee know#hyunjin#han jisung#lee felix#seungmin#i.n#chan#tarot#dorm
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THE BATCROOKS AWARDS 2024
After keeping meticulous notes on every Media Property™ I consumed in 2024, here is my roundup of the BESTS!! It should probably be one thing per category but I couldn't decide so it's lots actually. And I broke down video games into so many categories because I play a lot of video games!!!
Best Movie I Watched for the First Time in 2024 (Live Action and Animated Categories)
What I wrote about them: Parasite - sooo good so tense and dark and funny? Isle of Dogs - what a DELIGHT. it was so fun to watch this film, i didn't want it to end. the animation was so good. the logistics behind the making of this movie are simply unbelievable. i can't believe this isn't a more beloved film.
Best TV Show I Watched in 2024 (Broadcast and Internet Categories)
What I wrote about them: Severance - SOO GOOD what a FUN SHOW. it has all the good tenseness of a thriller but it's also so funny in its absurdity. i must know more!! the work is mysterious and important Game Changer (season 6) - this season is very high concept. there have been some very funny ones and a couple eh. Sam Says 3 and the one where they had to find the buzzers were both top 5 episodes
Best Video Game (Multiplayer)
What I wrote about them: V Rising - VAMPIRES!! i loved this game for its tight and unwavering focus on being about vampires. you could build a house but it was always, always a vampire house. you can have a horse but it is a vampire horse. incredible. pretty cool combat and magical spells, some questionable level-up mechanics. mostly fun boss fights almost completely ruined by the final Dracula fight being so so overpowered. really enjoyed this one thanks Abiotic Factor - this has been a very cool survival crafting game, maybe one of the best. it reminds me of a lot of different games. mechanically it feels a bit like Raft, in that it has very unique setting and base building and a narrative thread and handcrafted things to explore. of course it has all the half life vibes but also way more SCP stuff than i would have expected and that's great because it is always fun. as of writing we are doing the reservoir section, which has been a lot more stressful than previous sections, but i think we'll probably get through it alright. with only a few exceptions (how long it took to unlock food recipes for example), the progression of craftables has been good. for the mostpart, resources haven't been very annoying to obtain (other than silver and carbon). the vibes are just so good throughout and so many things have been delightful. since it is early access, i'm not going to knock a star off for the Issues. it is an optimistic five stars. about 52 hours and we have completed all the early access. genuinely sad to stop playing it so i guess it was good!! the last chapter was a bit stressful but it was fun how many new gadgets we got to play with for a little while there. anyway it is now tied with v rising for best multiplayering of 2024
(have a lot to say about video games)
Best Video Game (Cat Plays) (Games I Played With an Audience) (Of Sourdeer)
What I wrote about them: The Roottrees are Dead - so good, better than Hand With Many Fingers. hope more games like this keep existing. the amount of info you got to trawl through was so fun. honestly considering replaying it when the steam remake comes out someday, which seems crazy for a mystery game but there was so much i doubt i'll remember everything. Lorelei and the Laser Eyes - a little heavy on the kind of arbitrary spookiness? I dunno how to explain it but it just often feels like games are spooky Just Because sometimes. The same as feeling like this and other games try to tackle high brow stuff Just Because. and the control scheme is WHACK lol. if it just had a "back out" button it would be fine tho. but this is another game that has made me feel so clever very often. it helps to play with multiple people contributing to the tricksy puzzles. It does seem to be a very meta video game which would be fine but it actually doesn't seem relevant to anything? The instruction booklet, the gameboy game of the maze, the ps1 games, the implication that the video game we are playing right now is also licensed in universe. It's INTERESTING but what does it have to do with the auteur filmmaker and the death of materialism and whatever they go on about all the time. But I'm really liking it so far. A good variety of puzzlers and lots to look into, have only felt stuck a few times. Comically long to-do list though. Could have maybe used more elegant level design? Only deal with one floor at a time maybe? Or at least less. But maybe having so many floating mysteries is part of the vibe actually. in the end i think it is firmly in the second tier of plays game, Very Good with a few flaws. most appreciated for being a rather long puzzle game. more of those please
Best Video Game (Sour Plays) (Games Sourdeer Played With an Audience) (Of me)
What I wrote about them: Hypnospace Outlaw - watched sour play. what a WEIRD THING!!! it was so finely crafted which is funny to say about something so absurd, but they really didn't skimp on anything in this. it really rewards exploring everything, and while i feel like it was maybe a little too loose i think there was just enough guidance with the cases to get you through the story that was happening. very chaotic The Rise of the Golden Idol - while i think overall it is not as good as the first one, i think that is mostly just because the first one was a brand new thing that shocked and awed us. the art style was a bit of a downgrade but still had the expected Vibes and the mysteries were just as satisfying to put together (if not as Cool thematically). i'm very glad to have future installments to look forward to. i can't even rate it a star lower because the gameplay is so good. i love golden idol. I.D.O.L.
Best Video Game (Singleplayer)
What I wrote about them: Dredge - really good!! addictive. 100%'d it Arco - i really liked it!! it was like a combo of West of Loathing and Chroma Squad gameplay-wise. it was really good stories and characters i liked them a lot. the pixels were so cute. i accidentally devoured the whole thing (about 13 hours) so fast but i think theres some replayability there sometime. make a few different choices and see what happens. Animal Well - a DELIGHT!! this game had moments where you felt soooo clever but it did also have some times that were a little hard or fiddly. i loved how it had no (very little) music but so much atmosphere. it was very pretty to look at. the backtracking could be annoying sometimes. but i like that it explained nothing and you could still figure out so much. i've gotten to the credits now as of writing (7.5 hours) but i know there's probably a lot hidden around i will try to find some. i see you smiley faces. i just have to remember how to get back to you. 10 hours later: i have gotten all the achievements which is 100%. to me. sourdeer had to help me get the last ten eggs but i think that overall it was a good difficulty throughout. if you dont try to do the rabbits and all the stuff sour is telling me about that is after even the second credits. so a Nice Game, Brent (Billy Basso)
Best Book I Read for the First Time in 2024
What I wrote about them: Children of Time - considering making this a top ten book. i really liked this one. (editor's note: there are diminishing returns on the sequels. The first one is so fun and innovative, but I don't recommend them past that. The second one is OK) Return of the Thief - yaay a satisfying ending :) it was really bold to introduce an entirely new character to be the POV for the last book in a series but it worked out really well i thought. a good character. everything all tied up in the end :) sad to finish, these were a lot of fun. it is sad that not a single one of these had a female POV. Eddis and Attolia were great but compared to the towering amount of male characters it doesn't seem great. but it is forgiveable. finally someone was gay in this one. so that's nice lol. (editor's note: i read this entire series for the first time this year and have chosen the final as the representative.) Assassin's Quest - Oh ok we are serious now!!! Actually fundamentally a bit less serious because there are dragons now but it made it work. Ended really bittersweet and if I didn't know the characters will return someday I would have been pretty thoroughly bummed out about it. Excellent fun book really elevated the other two. Fantasy books really get you drinking the divine right of kings koolaid. Will start on the next trilogy now, have no idea what to expect from it except that it isn't about any of these characters afaik but same world. It has been a real treat to stumble on to long completed series this year. (editors note: final book to a trilogy)
And that's it!! If you want to see every media I consumed this year and my star ratings and comments about them, here's a link to them! (It's a spreadsheet)
#batcrooks awards#best of 2024#parasite 2019#isle of dogs 2018#severance season 1#game changer season 6#v rising#abiotic factor#the roottrees are dead#lorelei and the laser eyes#hypnospace outlaw#the rise of the golden idol#dredge#arco#animal well#children of time#the queen's thief#assassin's quest#long post#i'm going to do this next year i love keeping a LOG
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Completely random ask, I just want to share my opinion with someone because it's too, "inappropriate", for the groups I'm currently in.
I fully believe gender dysphoria is a thing, and generally I don't really care about what makes someone trans because I consider it none of my business. I will call people by the pronouns they want to be called, live and let live right and I have no interest in disrespecting them.
But. Trans women pretending to never have lived as a man pisses me off. I have to deal with their awful opinions every feminism conversation because they think calling themselves women gives them full insight on what it's like to be seen as one from birth. I really think they deal with a different kind of misogyny or oppression from cis women, and trying to make feminism all about them is wrong. I can't talk about how they've obviously not lived as a woman during their teenage years because otherwise I'm a TERF but god does it show. (I also hate how all the transphobia discourse is focused on women btw, men are the ones killing trans women the most, and being least likely to accept them)
Honestly, my experience varies a lot (like when trans people pass I feel like they tend to lose this mindset) but they're entitled like men. They act like men. They benefit from being seen as men in their daily lives if they don't transition. I don't think they should be talking about what it's like to be a woman. Even cis women who are misogynistic are bigoted in ways that feel different and more directed towards themselves.
Binary and non binary amab trans people both have told me "notallmen" rhetoric to me complaining about men sexualizing me for just existing. Like sure, have chasers, stuff akin to all that. But I don't think they'll get what it's like to be degraded that way on a societal level. Like I really don't think transphobia permeates every aspect of society as much as misogyny does. Transphobia is a violent form of oppression but it's just not the same and they're not "more oppressed than me", honestly. Trans women who do experience misogyny, like for real not in the "being seen as a gnc man" way, and who talk justly about it have my respect tho.
I don't know. I'm exhausted because I have to pretend I'm privileged compared to people who have never been treated as women outside of online groups. Because misogyny is disregarded as an axis of oppression so they treat me just like I'm a white cishet guy even if I'm a queer women, but without agreeing with me as default. I'm treated like a dirty misandrist and a dirty transphobe in those groups. I'm friends with and I have dated a lot of trans people, and I've never had any issues with them, but online acknowledging there is a fundamental difference between a trans and cis woman is the worst thing I could do apparently.
Yeah, I actually wanted to add something to you ask, but I kinda can't because you already said it all in such a well-articulated manner so I the only thing I can say is that I couldn't agree more. I'm sorry that those people are around you and I hope it gets better but even if it doesn't, you know that you can just DM me (as sending asks will result in me taking a long ass time to respond lmao)
So yeah, I hope that you don't have to spend too much time around these people
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... So when do we get the reader insert fic where we co-parent with Marco? /hi I love the fic!
Birds of a Feather <- link to OG, tldr orphan baby harpy mistakes Marco for their own kind so he's a dad now
I'm not doing any proper one shots/multi chap things with it but I could do some hcs for you :) this is... a bit light on the actual Marco x reader tho tbh
Honestly if you're already in a relationship with him, this would realistically be a point of tension. No, the harpy kid latching onto him isn't his fault, and you're not some villain who thinks the kid should just be abandoned- but it's kind of a big deal if your boyfriend spontaneously adopts a child without consulting you whatsoever. Needless to say a very long conversation is going to be in order at the very least. He's not a bad person for taking in an orphan, and you are not a bad person for going "hey bringing a kid home isn't something you just DO to a partner wth man"
But assuming you do have that discussion, and you are okay with things after they've been explained, then it's gonna be him trying to make it clear that You are his partner. Kissing you while they're present, making sure you're included in meals, having you groom his bird form and just playing up the casual affection in general.
If you share a bed with Marco that might be challenging the first couple nights. He sets up a little nesting box by the bed, but the kid really really wants to cuddle. They think it's really weird that you're there- but is able to settle if you stay on his opposite side.
But they warm up to you and Thatch pretty fast. Thatch is the food guy and you are... another parent. I give it three days tops before they interrupt the performative preening of your boyfriend by plopping themselves down in your lap with some grumbly chirping sounds, fluffing themselves up and expecting you to do the same. Marco grins at you and you try not to get too excited- don't scare em off!
I can see it ending with you in his lap while the kid is in yours, melting into a little feathered pile. Now they want to sleep between you two at night, squished between both of their new parents.
They're not gonna get your name right. Marco is "Maro" for a bit, and then "Margo" for even longer. With Thatch, they struggle through what sounds a bit more like "Tadge," but gets frustrated bc they know it's not right. If they're especially fed up they settle for yelling "AAA" at him. Ace gets it the worst he's "Ass" for awhile. WILL glare if you laugh about this.
Good chance you end up on baby bird duty while Marco is doing medical work.
Late one night, after the kid is a sleep, he asks you if he should still call you "Baby Bird" as a term of endearment and that it feels a little weird now... you agree but you aren't sure. Maybe it's just an in private thing now..?
Finding babysitting for dates isn't an issue this kid has hundreds of aunts and uncles. Thatch is a common choice- he's had special gloves commissioned so he can teach the kid cooking without their hand fluff getting dirty.
Meanwhile, you two get some alone time together, whether it's on some island for a proper date or just relaxing together in his cabin. Despite the reputation of the WBP, Marco is a reasonable person who understands that bringing a random child into a pre-existing relationship is a lot. He does check in with you a lot- he's a busy guy, but he does his best to make it clear you're still a priority. Odds are you're used to this sort of thing since he's a doctor and a division commander. He's got shit to do.
If you two have the uh. Equipment to reproduce, then one night he asks how you feel about another kid. He's very careful about it. He isn't certain on whether or not he wants another, but he'd be lying if he hadn't thought about it, is all. Odds are you don't wanna handle pregnancy on a ship this busy. But you do joke that if you happen to find some other sad little bird kid on some other island... Well, it might be good for them both, honestly.
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Can we talk about how women are saying that they would smash the UHC ceo killer. Idc about the ceo. What alarms me is how quick women are to say that they would have sex with him. Violence is a sexual kink for them that explains the state of the world. They are intentionally ignoring the fact the the guy in the pictures looks different. I think they would sleep with him even if he wasn’t handsome. The behavior from both sexes the women swooning over him the men wishing that it was them instead. How positive the police force response was. These are the people that are “protecting the public” even they can’t help but fangirl over the violence. I bet they have the same feelings towards other cases they come across. Another reason to never mess with cops. The praise of male violence meanwhile women aren’t even allowed to self defend. My question is what do they benefit from this? Why are they acting like male killer + good execution = guaranteed pussy. Like what do you get out of sleeping with him? Is it proximity is this just women status seeking? Why does someone being a killer make you want to sleep with them I don’t understand it. The closest thing I can think of is your post the one about how their ideal man is tall with a bdsm sex dungeon. It’s like seeing male violence awoken something in them no wonder wars exists. I don’t have any issues with the guy I’m just using him as an example of a larger problem. the revolution is only acceptable and praise worthy when it comes in a certain package. The general public is so committed to upholding the current system. Nothing is going to change anytime soon. It’s either they find a substitute, make an example out of him and say they got the guy. (Which would be a wrongful conviction but we all know the justice system isn’t just.) or someone actually tells on him for the prize money. Either way things go back to normal the executives make the working class work even harder for celebrating.
I've seen a lot of gay moids thirst over him too. At first I thought they got the wrong guy but in certain angles they look similar, idk.
It's definitely weird tho, many women are masochists which explains a lot of your ask.
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*comes in dancing to hide the tears*
Soooo, a winion told me you have thoughts on Not sorry for loving you?
WE’RE SO BACK MY LOVE (i was the winion)
OKAY LETS GET GOING THANK YOU MY FRIEND
Not Sorry For Loving You
BOY, i was worried about this song & how it made the events play out considering the odyssey, and I’m satisfied enough with it and I have A LOT to say (i think)
First we start out with the same….tip-tap thingy instrument we had with Love In Paradise, but lower, which DEF is something specifically in music and I’m excited for the musican reactors on youtube start to react to it, and pick it apart (like major/minor)
But its an exact mirror of the beginning of Ody waking up at Calypsos island, is it because things on the island stay the same I wonder? Mhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (its so beautiful)
Someone arrived today (HERMES , we can hear her take a breath and brace herself for what she has to tell Ody)
They said they′re taking you away (FUCKING FINIALLY, ITS ONLY BEEN WHAT, 7 YEARS???)
That you’re not mine to save (Oh…OH now this one…this can refer to several things 1. calypso “saved” him when he washed up on her island and patched him up 2. she thought she could “save” him from his dark thoughts and everything? “i can fix him” vibes? 3. shes talking about herself and “youre not the one who will safe me”)
And soon I won′t get to see your face (…….i know this probably because of rhyming purposes, but i like how this kind of implies she cares more about his looks than him xD)
So I came by to say (interesting, does she leave him alone completely, did she start leaving him alone after his breakdown at the cliff? or does she just not tend to go to the beach when hes sitting at the beach crying every day? mhhhhhh)
You’re unlike anyone I have ever known (…he is unique)
‘Cause you′re all I′ve ever known (…….thats just sad, i teared up at some part during the stream, im not sure if it was this or the end of charybdis,..but yeah)
WANGUIS VOCALS ARE BEAITUFUL; THE MUSIC- ITS
ITS SO GOOD, im in love
And if I pushed you
Or if I came on too strong (“if”, ok…miss hypothetical, and miss “i” messages, if she pushed him, he literally refused her from the start and she kept going and told him to bow down………….”if”, as in “thats what you say I did and maybe thats true but probably you made that up”, can i see this as her just now looking back and being like “yeah….maybe that was too much?”, maybe, but if this was the first time in seven years that she reflected on her own actions, then she has ISSUES still)
Or if I ambushed you (the song keeps things very vague, but I see this as a way for Jorge to semi-confirm the assault, or at least to not erase it, ive seen a lot of conflicting views on the song, from “not specfic enough about the SA as it should be” and “this song proofs that calypso is innocent” and Jorge probably found a way to let both interpreations co-exist, that being said I will be excited for animatics that will lean into the more Odyssey-accurate interpreation)
For that, I’ll say I was wrong (you say you were wrong, but you dont say you’re sorry for it?… aha)
And if you hate me (“if” you hate me, not like she FORCED him to stay on her island for SEVEN YEARS, girlie aint you the one trapped too in this interpretation? :) :) :) u should know how it feels, if you had ANY sympathy and goodwill for him at heart instead of selfishness you would’ve let him go years ago, like….7 years)
Then I am sorry my love′s too much for you (THIS is the biggest proof to me that this whole song is just BIG emotional manipulation, “my love is too much for you”, she blames HIM, for her feelings, like he is at fault that he cant deal with her emotions, instead of her being able to respect his boundaries and keep herself in check after his INSISTENT refusal), again the VOCALS THO
But I’m not sorry for loving you (eh, valid, but also rly guilt tripy, yk? You dont have to be sorry for your feeligns, but you have to be sorry about the way you act if it harms someone (WHICH YOU JUST TALKED BAOUT BUT DIDNT APOLOGIZE FOR, so shes not sorry for loving him, she - on some level – understands that she has hurt him, but she doesnt say shes sorry for her actions)
AND THEN A CHOIR to back her up? there was none in Love in Paradise, so its interesting that one appears now, is it because her emotions are stronger now and they’re overwhelming her? is she trying to use her godly power to convince him to stay? no matter what, they sound lovely, and i gasped when i first listened and had to replay it them, it does kind of sound like theyre trying to pressure ody
“Calypso-” THATS pretty much all he gets to say, MY HEART, he tries to speak, having let her vent that all out but…)
Let me speak (SHE INSTANT INTERRUPTS HIM?? THE AUDACITY? GIRL SHUT UP AND LET THE MAN SPEAK, another BIG red flag of this being a lot of emotional manipulation here, especially since she continues with giving her “sad sob story/explanation”, right after its like “yah i did bad but look at my sad story, this is why I did all this, you cant blame me)
I spent my whole life here (isnt it paradise calypso??? doesnt it have all that you want there, all that you need there?? mmhhhhhhhhHHHH someone was dishonest >:) )
Was cast away when I was young (sad, yeah i do feel bad for her about this, but that does not excuse her actions)
Alone for a hundred years (thats a long time i suppose, but for a goddess maybe not that much
I had no friends but the sky and sun (actually love that line)
So when you washed ashore I thought for sure that you were my dream come true (….ah, yes, that makes sense, latching onto the first good thing you come across, hopeless romantic, but being completely blind to the fact that the thing has free will, is actually a human with complex feelings and you were so obsessed with the IDEA of having someone who loved you that you extremely hurt them an,. ofc its the psychological explanation, of course she deserves better, but how she acted was NOT okay, no matter her reasoning)
I thought I knew (you knew…what? thats interesting that she doesnt end that line…and i honestly cant figure out what she implies there, she thoguht she knew that he loved her? that he DOESNT love her, she thought she knew what love felt like? what being loved felt like? OR thought she knew that he was a gift send by the gods? (as it is in the Odyssey iirc..Im not sure on this rn tho, so dont quote me)
The music…is so fricking beautiful in this….we have another refrain, but this time the choir backs her up on the words for “you, too strong, you, was wrong, me, and then the Uuh build up for the the not sorry for loving you”, which just emphases the words again i suppose, and makes her get more emotional? mhhhh not sure! it sounds great tho)
“Im not sorry”, so in the end, even IF she was wrong….shes not sorry, whatever she did to hurt him, the base line is, that she’s not sorry. She should be.
I′m angry and tired and restless and sad (valid feelings, but its all about how you express those…maybe you should get therapy)
I’m stuck in the moments I swore that we had (you swore, but maybe, maybe you just imagined them, because you were so desperate to believe there was actually any love from him, that you made yourself believe his rejections ended up being signs of love after all…thats not healthy, get therapy, rip to jorge tho, i believe i saw a thing that said he wrote it when he was in a low point in life, Id think hes better now, but still, unreciprocated love DOES hurt a lot, so ouchy)
I wish you would chase me (the way that you chase him….mhm)
Or try to embrace me (but he never does because even after SEVEN YEARS, he somehow hasnt warmed up yet….)
For once, I wish you would lie and say (……aha, like him lying would make any difference? because then you could make yourself believe that what you did wasnt wrong? that theres hope for you? girlie you have to learn to accept that, if you want him to lie to you, youre in a BAD spot. do fricking better.)
I love you (…………..okay……okay, so…..that line makes the whole song controversial….from the animatic we saw that right after these lines odysseus turns away with an empty/determined expression and no regret or guilt on his face what-so ever, and we can also hear that his voice sounds desperate, dare i saw close to breakdown (slightly out of breath, because he interrupts her, trying to get a word in, my first interpretation was that he was worried and tired, and gave in to her demands, scared to refuse her)
and then theres a breaths pause
You do? (she sounds so HOPEFUL, like she ACTUALLY would believe him if he said it, and i think in this moment Odysseus too realizes that just saying him him, would make it worse, so he sort of back paddles a bit?)
But not in the way that you want me to (because i see not a single clue in the rest of the music that would indicate that he as any positive emotions for her, and i rly just cant imagine him feeling any positive emotions for her even if she did NOTHING else than keeping him on the island, (which is VERY unlikely imo), but its also interesting because thats pretty much as well as vague as the odyssey leaves it, so its kindaaa more accurate again? except that we do not get any cue about ody’s view on the whole situation, we see him sitting at the beach, yes, but we dont get a single “as she wished but he did not” moment…so, thats up to the animators or maybe, maybe, one day jorge confirming or denying anything….but yeah, whatever Calypso feels, Odysseus does reciprocate the sentiment, I like thinking that she did try to guilt-trip into staying and that he ACTUALLY feels guilty for leaving her……….the rest of the saga has elements where I will read A LOT more into the scenes than is written out, so i might be over-analysing them at some point and projecting what I want it to mean into it…but alas)
I hate that I fell in love with you (yeah understandable)
Why did I fall in love with you? (because you were lonely girlie)
What do I do with this love for you? (process it and move on eventually, you got eternity to get over it)
How am I supposed to get over you? (therapy)
Why in the world won′t you love me too? (because HE HAS A WIFE WHO HAS BEEN LOING FOR FOR 20 YEARS )
The ending music is beautiful, but aT LAST he is sailing off
#epic the musical#epic the vengeance saga#vengeance saga#not sorry for loving you#leyanswers#i need a better tag for this#epic RnA#im excited to write chapter two of solace or sorrow#to make it as gut wrecking as i can#>:)
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Hi I need some advice.
So I identify as poly even tho ive never had a poly relationship before and made that very clear to my girlfriend before we started dating. She said she was fine with it, and that we could always discuss terms when I start to like another person. We've been dating for a year, and I'm starting to like one of our mutual friends. I was excited to tell my girlfriend, but when I did she freaked out about it and said she couldn't do it. Because she was freaking out, I said it was OK and agreed to be in a mono relationship (I often will say anything to get someone to calm down, and I know that's a flaw of mine which is why I was open about everything before anything was at stake). I don't think I am OK with it, but they way she spoke about it sounds like she won't be convinced either.
I feel like I was lied to? And now I'm in this situation I didn't want, but I don't want to break up with her because I do love her. Functionally our relationship is the same as it always was so maybe I can handle it, but I just don't understand why she would have such a negative reaction when she seemed completely OK with it at the beginning.
I mean... maybe she said it was okay when it wasn't for a similar reason you did? Because she wanted to make you happy more than she wanted to dig into the issue? While I understand this probably felt like a major gut-punch after you made a point to be open about it, it seems to me unfair you'd hold her to a higher standard than you're holding yourself now wrt voicing what you'd be okay with.
Anyway, TL;DR: I think y'all both need to "come to Jesus."
What do I mean by that.
You need the classic Uncle Iroh moment
And it really, really fucking sucks, but you both will have to consider if the life you want -- poly for you, monog for her -- is feasible with each other. I'm sorry, I know it hurts even to think about, but even if everything gets worked out, you will have to think about the possibility it won't first.
First, you're going to have to bring it up again, and explain its importance, and explain your confusion, and acknowledge this is clearly difficult for her. I think a strong possibility is that she's okay with you dating someone else, but not someone she knows. It being her friend may be the sticking point! I've found a lot of people don't consider that a possibility until they're confronted with it, and it drudges up a lot of bad feelings and anxieties that you "always really wanted them and not me," so that's worth investigating.
... Its also really possible she never gave it a ton of thought and assumed it was never really gonna happen🫤. Its also possible your timing was just shit in a way you're not mentioning (maybe didn't even think of!) like, if you mentioned it a week after y'all Had A Talk™️about her feeling really insecure lately, I can see how that could cause her some panic. You are just going to have to grit your teeth and talk🗣️. It is the ONLY path forward that has a chance of everyone feeling fulfilled. Which to me at least, makes it the only path forward, period ⏺️ It sucks. Its hard. You'd rather saw off your toes.
But here's the secret -> people regret more the things they didn't do than the things they did do. A life spent wondering is generally much harder than anything else.
So if after you talk to her, she does have a problem with polyamory, there are only a few options for how this shakes out:
You never get the polyamory. Either because you kept your mouth shut 🙊 or because you asked and it was clearly never going to be okay with her. You stay with her forever and cut off this desire of yours to make her happy. Most poly people find this a very constricted existence.
She consents to polyamory even though she doesn't like having to share you. You guys broker some sort of compromise. Maybe she comes around, but maybe its always a sore spot, and she always feels like she's settling for half a relationship.🌗
You break up💔. Maybe now, maybe after years of trying and failing to do one or both of the first two options.
That's all there is. There's room within those categories, of course, but every outcome is one of those three. Give each of them their fair consideration, because there are some major, long-term pros and cons with each of them, and you need to know what you're signing on for. Oh, and if you're not willing to talk about it? You're locking yourself into the first one. Maybe she's worth it to you, but if that's the choice you're making, you cannot hold that choice against her later, because she won't even have realized you made it if you don't talk about it.
And if you do broker some sort of deal, you better fasten your seatbelt. Because you will have to talk about things she's uncomfortable with very regularly. Accept that right the fuck now. You know its true. You know that even if she understands, there will be new situation after new situation you will have to go through together. And a lot of them will be hard on her. And it will be on your shoulders to see her through.
This is, without exaggeration on my part, one of the worst situations to be in ever. My heart goes out to you.💝 I hope from the depths of my soul there's some sort of misunderstanding that gets resolved without much drama, and you're all okay. I am also truly sorry if that sounded harsh, but I don't want you to waste your time looking for miracle fixes. Everything from this point on will be messy and labor-intensive, but I hope it can be a labor of love.
Wising you the strength to see yourself to a life you love 💙💖🖤
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