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[sgtbradfords]

Colter Shaw in Tracker - 2x05

[urfavstargirl]

inner man challenge! (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

hey babes!! okay, i know i said i was going on break but i got this sudden inspiration and yk i had to make a post!! so this challenge is called the inner man challenge, because it's all about fulfilling your inner man and staying in the wish fulfilled!!

WHAT IS THE GOAL FOR THIS CHALLENGE? ★

making the state of the wish fulfilled your dwelling state

fulfilling your inner man

falling in love with imagination

not caring about the 3d

FIRST STEP! ★

this is crucial! remove the intention of manifesting to be for getting in the 3d!!! "but girl.. the whole point of manifesting is to get it in the 3d" okay yes, if u want to believe that i can't change your mind. but to get it in the 3d we need to be fulfilled, and you can't be in the SOWF if you are still trying to get it! read this if ur still confused <3

me personally i feel like the reason why some people don't get results from methods, challenges etc is because they are doing the method to get it in the 3d, not to feel fulfilled. but thats just me 🤷🏾‍♀️

SECOND STEP! ★

now for the fun part, decide what you want!! df, db, sp, a billion bucks in ur account, being the smartest of ur class, moving out of your paren'ts home, getting into your dream college, literally go wild!!

THIRD STEP! ★

fulfill your inner man when your inner man needs fulfilling! if something bad arises in the 3d that shakes ur confidence, fulfill!

having the urge to look in ur bank account to see if you have a billion bucks? close your eyes, imagine your inner man looking at her bank account and seeing the numbers go up by the second!

one of your family members makes a comment about how ugly you are?? would your inner man care?? NO! bc she's fine asf!

if anything 'bad' happens in the 3d, imagine your inner man saying "uh.. thats cute but i'm living my dream life rn sooo.."

WAIT, IS THERE A SCHEDULE? ★

there's no schedule to this challenge!! no "in the morning say 1409834 affirmations, in the afternoon vaunt for 3 hours, in the night do starfish position and affirm for the void" NO!! literally just fulfill your inner man when ur inner man needs fulfilling!!

"don't force yourself to do a method you don't want to do! don't force yourself to visualize the same scene someone else even though it doesn't create any feeling of knowing inside of you and feels like a chore to you. don't repeat affirmations if you don't want to and don't repeat an aff you don't resonate with. do what you think is fun! and do what feels natural to you! by taking the pressure of being perfect off yourself, it's easier to imagine in order to experience, rather than to get it in your 3d." - @remcycl333

HOW DO I STAY IN THE STATE OF WISH FULFILLED THE ENTIRE DAY? ★

no need to stay in the SOWF the entire day, we are always changing states! for example, right now you're in the state of reading this post, and i am in the state of writing this post. it's all about making the SOWF your dwelling state! so if you accidentally stay in the state of lack 7 times but you are in the SOWF 8 times, then the SOWF is your dwelling state! (btw don't count the times you enter a state lmao)

ANYTHING ELSE? ★

get off tumblr, just delete the app.. like this place is literally just making you overconsume. you have better things to do!

if you have a negative thought don't spiral and think all your progress has gone to waste. breathe in and out, your inner man has it and that's all that matters.

have fun!! this challenge isn't like other challenges (soo quirky i know 😜), it's meant to fulfill you instead of making you stress about the 3d. make fun scenarios in your head, vaunt, just have a good time!!

WHEN you get successes (whatever you consider to be a success: feeling that your inner man is fulfilled, or getting it in the 3d) send it to me or make a post about it using #star's-inner-man-challenge!

if you have any questions let me know in my inbox, bye yall!! 💞

[luminouslywriting]

Hi, I'm here to make a request, first of all I AM OBSESSED WITH RONALD SPEIRS!!, so I was wondering if you could make some headcanons about what it would be like to marry him, basically what the wedding day would be like and everything it would include, (please Let it be a big wedding...I think I have a problem with exorbitant celebrations 😭😭)

You could also add about what role each Easy boy would take at the wedding and everything. Also that the reader there was part of the company

^^Gif not mine^^

A/N: Love, this is a wonderful request and I'm so sorry that it's taken so long for me to get to it. I'm sick so I'm taking my sick day to respond to a few of my requests haha!

Cut for length, paragraph form, more below the cut, some light spice included:

-Ronald Speirs and a wedding is a surprising match made in heaven and you can't convince me otherwise. He's happy to go to a courthouse and elope if that's what you want. But if you want the whole white wedding in full tradition? He's also happy to oblige such a request. I think that in general, he's the type to let you plan to your heart's content, but if you want him to be involved, he will in fact, have an opinion about the color of napkins and the amount of flowers haha.

-If you're stressed out in the days leading up to the wedding, rest assured that this man is a GREAT stress reliever. He knows exactly how to get your mind off of things—and if those wicked ways happen to include his fingers or his mouth, then he's all too happy about it anyway.

-Knowing the fact that you want the full traditional wedding means that he is going to need some groomsmen and there's no way that he wouldn't invite the men of Easy Company to the wedding

-That being said, the invitations were out well in advance and while everyone was pleasantly surprised to be invited to said wedding, they're also very jazzed about the entire thing

-Lipton is obviously his best man

-Everyone else had to be fought over in a wild game of rock paper scissors to decide who ends up on what side of the wedding party

-Other groomsmen for him include Dick Winters, Babe Heffron, Perconte, Martin, Donald Malarkey, David Webster, and Joe Toye.

-Your side of the wedding party got Lewis Nixon, Bull Randleman, Joe Liebgott, Buck Compton, Eugene Roe, Floyd Talbert, Shifty, and Bill Guarnere.

-Put Nixon in charge of the bar for the reception, I beg of you

-Winters had a lot of fun getting to plan so much and being involved in everything

-The others were a little chaotic, to say the least

-The rings were held onto by Lipton

-Anywho, the wedding goes off without a single hitch (mostly because poor Dick Winters and Carwood Lipton are working overtime behind the scenes to ensure that it's the best and most smooth operation to date)

-The vows definitely make a few people shed tears (and yes, Speirs is all too pleased by that)

-The reception would last for hours and hours, well into the night

-And when the two of you slip away while everyone is drinking so you can leave to the honeymoon and the only two people you get to say goodbye to are Winters and Lipton, neither one of you truly mind haha

-10/10 would have these men assemble a wedding

[diazwake]

i'm still stuck on "wait. tommy's gay?" like the start of that scene leading up to buck's coming out is pretty much eddie begging buck to make the decision for him to break up with marisol, similar to in season 5 when eddie came clean about how he feels about ana and buck basically told him to break up with her (which eddie does immediately after). but this scene is just so much more... charged. and gay.

eddie asks "what do i tell her?" and when buck responds with the literal "tell her you're getting sushi for dinner" (in other words "GO SEE YOUR GF"), eddie is like "the menu is not the issue" (in other words "I DON'T WANT TO SEE MY GF, BUCK,"). he says marisol is 'expecting him to come home' in a way that suggests he's waiting for buck's OK to text her that he's not showing up.

poor eddie even emphasizes that chris isn't going to be home for a few days, quite literally dropping every hint that he just wants to spend time with buck after that whole ordeal with the basketball game. up until he finally states "you and tommy have the right idea, stay single, hang out with the boys" (aka what eddie was planning to do in that moment and for the next few days with buck because he sure as hell was not planning on heading back to marisol that night).

but what happens instead is buck tells him he's dating (or was dating) tommy, and eddie isn't surprised buck is dating men, not really. eddie knows buck. buck has been flirting with men since before he joined the 118 and has flirted with men since, and i guarantee eddie has noticed and kept that fact hidden and kept under tight lock somewhere within him. it isn't until this scene where eddie is confronted with it that it becomes so real.

for a second there eddie seems elated that tommy had dumped him. but buck just, says he's still interested in tommy. that he wants to be with tommy. "i kinda can't stop thinking about him." eddie is CRUSHED. this is the moment where i think the weight of everything starts to come down for eddie. someone else, another man, saw what he saw in buck, and actually took the chance. eddie took to long.

walk with me here, buck was single, eddie was planning to be single. eddie saw buck's desperate cry for attention and was willing to give it to him that night, eddie praying for buck to just say the words, to tell him to cancel his plans with marisol, to tell him to dump her. all of the sudden buck looks SO happy thinking about being with the man eddie has been quickly befriending.

that attention buck was vying for? in that moment eddie might have thought (incorrectly) that it was all for tommy. and he can't deny buck happiness. he can't. he tells buck to talk to tommy, and doubles down on working things out with marisol.

eddie took that moment as a sign to 'stick it out' with out her, like he said he would with ana before buck let him know "that's not how you talk about someone you're in love with."

it's wild. eddie says "this doesn't change a thing between us" but by the end of their conversation he had convinced himself he needs to make things work with marisol. he didn't want to, didn't plan to, but he does it anyways because in that moment buck had in fact changed everything between them.

[willowsages-blog]

Save A Horse, Ride A Cowboy: Johnny Knoxville x female reader

“Look at ‘‘'em' go!” You and a bunch of your girlfriends squeal and holler as your crush was doing a stunt for a movie that he was filming busts out of the cage on a wild bull.

The man, whose cowboy hat shadowed his eyes, had a hand in the air for balance and the other tightly gripping the leather saddle tied around the bull. As there was a whole camera crew filming him,

The rider, whose name you thought was Johnny, stayed put on the bucking animal, making the whole crowd roar with exhilaration about his time.

You were new to the scene, this being your first rodeo, but you were enjoying yourself. You were buzzed after a couple “country beers” and pumped up with all the buzzing excitement around the arena.

The rider was beginning to lose balance, and everyone began to chant his name. He held tight until his saddle loosened and he jumped off before he’d get any injury.

The crowd bellowed again, obviously stunned at his great time on the bull. He ran to the nearest fence and climbed, conveniently right in front of all you girls,

“Hey.” He winked and everyone squealed— even you cracked a smile. He tore his bandana from covering his face and you sighed, engrossed by his heavenly features. His gaze eventually landed on you after eyeing the large crowd of dumbstruck girls, and it stayed.

He tipped his hat at you, which earned him a wink in return and he chuckled.

“What’s your name, sweetheart?” He took his hat entirely off and held it at his heart, only hanging onto the fencing with one hand.

“Y/N. What’s your ride’s name?” You crooked an eyebrow to the bull that continued to buck and writhe against the helpers trying to get him back into his cage.

“Peaches.” He grinned, looking back towards the cattle, a lasso wrapped around its body now, being guided towards an exit. He tosses his hat to you and jumps from the ledge and back onto the dirt, blowing an arrogant kiss goodbye

“I’m sure he bucks a lot better than you!” Out of nowhere, you hear your voice remark as you sink the cowboy hat onto your head with a challenging grin.

The man stops in his tracks to turn and look at you with feigned offense, a smirk growing in his lips.

“I’d hope to prove you wrong,” Johnny shouts before hustling out of the open field and into the safety of the pit.

You laugh, along with the other girls who turned to you and began to gossip about the blue jean, white muscle shirt, southern looking handsome who seemed to have a knack for flirting.

You watched him a bit for the rest of the night. He cheered on his mates and was hootin’ and hollering for each of the riders that went up and gave a show.

Johnny was pretty charming, near and far, though you never thought you’d be attracted to a farmboy.

You cheered and howled until the night came to a close and you and your friends began to exit the fun.

The hat was still planted on your head and the girls around you continue to gawk about what had happened.

“Excuse me, miss.” You stopped at the familiarity of that southern twang and turned around with sheepish grin, half embarrassed by your little remark from earlier.

You didn’t think you’d have to see him again.

“Yes, sir?” Your friends kept moving, giggling and whispering while you stood there alone, watching him stride toward you slow.

“Don’t know the rules?” He cocked an eyebrow and crosses his arms, visible little muscles strained against his skin and the sleeve of his shirt.

“And what could those be?” Your friends seem to be long gone, leaving you to the devices of a wild man with such nice looks. Not to mention his soft looking hair that partially covered his forehead. And God, the stubble along his jaw couldn’t go unnoticed either.

“Must be new.” He was close enough that you could smell his woodsy scent. He began to circle you like prey, his boots clicking against the asphalt as he walked.

Johnny stopped in front of you and looked at your hat, your eyes, then your lips.

“Wear the hat,” He drew his hand up your side and titled his hat back, “ride the cowboy.”

[mytearsbuckochet]

What's your most hated Bummy scene?? I'll tell you mine. It has to be the kiss in the hospital lobby and buck getting outed because of his soot covered mouth. Never hated a 911 episode more than that. I love Buck. They just made a mockery out of him by that scene.

Where do I even start.. Couldn't agree more about the soot scene, although I'm more angry at the writers about that one than I am at Tommy, given how important it was to Buck that he came out to Eddie and Maddie on his own terms and how much weight he gave those interactions I feel like even though that one was supposed to be a cute little "hehe look this is very Buck coded", it fell short in that I would've liked everyone else at the 118 to find out in a more heartfelt way ya know??

In terms of my least favourite(s), the whole arc with billy boils was a very interesting play by the writers in that it highlighted the differences between Eddie and Tommy in a meaningful way. On one hand, Eddie, who has presumably been with Buck in the hospital the whole time he was being treated for his boils, is used to Buck's hyperfixations and Wiki deep dives, and finds them wholesome and cute. I reblogged a post a little bit ago where Buck told Maddie about how her and Chim always finish each others sentences and that theyre basically already dating, and then contrasted with how Eddie was finishing Buck's sentences in that scene. Buddie fanatic aside (I will admit im obsessed with these two idiots), THIS is the kind of domesticity I've always wanted for Buck's partners, where they acknowledge and love those little moments that he has.

Now lets go ahead and look at Tommy's side of this whole thing: Tommy's reaction to seeing the boils + how he treated and viewed Buck's obsession as exactly that, an obsession + the graveyard scene??? You can break it down into "oh well Buddie have known eachother since s2, Bummy have been together 6 months", but from my perspective the fact that Buck didn't even realise Tommy didn't like women until their 6 month anniversary (???) just goes to show that they don't really know that much about one another. Tommy was completely right in the breakup scene; he was definitely not Buck's last, and the poor guy is definitely in need of some self exploration (#letbuckfuck) before I'd be happy to see Buddie honestly (and thats not even considering the work that needs to be done on Eddie, my guy is going through it rn with Chris). Anyway; I just read this amazing fic by playinginthundestorms (on ao3) and I think the way they described Tommy (slightly Tommy bashing), was overall how I imagine he sees Buck. It never really felt like Tommy was fond of these little things Buck does in the way that Eddie (and the rest of the 118) are, more seeing him as childish or juvenile as the fic described. And it makes sense, tommy is older than Buck. A whole other can of worms and probably the icing on the cake for me was the Abby debacle, the misogyny really showed??? like man you have not changed since Hen my lord. Calling Abby out for running off with some "himbo half her age" was wild considering thats what he is currently doing with Buck? Especially with all the shit she had to go through with her mum at the time? Like what on earth is your excuse Temu? Anyway, to cut a long rant short, I actually have given you like 50 reasons, but i definitely think that Tommy was a well placed plot device and it was obvious from the start. Also, ABC could've chosen ANYONE to be Buck's first experience with a man and they were like yep lets use the racist homophobe from Chim and Hen begins cos why not?! I probably would've had a far less negative opinion of him if he was a fresh character, and I think that's on purpose, I think it would be really interesting if they go down the road of hen and chim sharing their experiences with Tommy now that they've broken up, and that they didn't say anything cos they just wanted Buck to be happy. Definitely after that heartfelt scene with Hen especially, that I didn't get cos of that bloody soot scene.

[cosyvelvetorchid]

For One Night Only.. Maybe chapter 6 is up!

Read on Ao3 or below.

This chapter includes a song (I'll embed it in the chapter) and I definitely recommend listening to it when the time comes to really feel the moment. The song was the inspiration for the chapter itself as I had the scene in mind that it plays over in my head before the rest of the chapter.

Anyway, Enjoy!

🩶

Rating: G (for this chapter)

W/C: 4,126

Summary:

Buck and Tommy got to the charity auction and both try to keep calm in each other presence.

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Buck was in hell. Delicious and beautiful and torturous hell. 

Something had happened when he saw Tommy in that suit. A switch was flipped and now it was all he could think about. 

Before, though he found Tommy attractive and felt something for him that was beyond just friendship, he could push that aside for the sake of their friendship. It was the bigger picture and more important. But now, even though that was still true, seeing him look like that unleashed something hot and burning in his belly. 

He was attracted to Tommy. 

They hadn’t seen each other in well over a week due to opposing shifts and for once Buck had been grateful for that. How was he going to be able to look the man in the eye, pretend to be his boyfriend and not want to rip his clothes off?

He felt like a horny teenager all over again. And it sucked. 

Tommys name appeared on his phone and Bucks heart rate immediately went up. He considered not answering it.

“Uh, h-hey, Tommy.”

“Hey. I just wanted you to check in and make sure you’re still coming tonight? Clara is up my ass about it.” 

Buck huffed a laugh. “Uh, yeah. Yeah, I’ll be there.”

“Good. And you better stick with me the whole night—I do not want to be left alone with any of Clara’s friends.”

“That bad?” 

“Worse. If it’s not the widows trying to flirt with me, it’s the married ones trying to set me up with their daughters.” He explained. 

“They don’t know you’re gay?” 

“Oh they know, they just think it’s because I haven’t found the right girl.” He said. 

“Oh.” He said in a disgusted tone. 

“Yeah. So, be prepared for my arm to be around you most of the night.” 

Bucks stomach swooped hard at the thought of that. All he had done for the last 10 days was imagine Tommys arm around him, and his hands on him and don’t even get him started on what he was imagining Tommy doing with his mouth. 

Part of the exhilaration he was feeling was because he’d never truly let himself fantasise about a man before. He’d never been with a man so had no frame of reference for what it would be like. This meant that all he had to rely on was his imagination. And his imagination was running wild. 

“Uh, oh-okay.”

“Is that okay?” Tommy asked sensing apprehension in Bucks voice. “If you’re not comfortable-“

“No!” He said a little more loudly than he’d intended. “I mean it’s fine. I’m-I’m okay with that. If only to stop you ending the night with a rich, elderly fiancé.”

Tommy laughed. “I don’t know—being a toy boy sounds kind of fun.” 

“Really? I always thought you’d be more of the daddy type.” 

Buck wanted to hurtle himself out of his apartment window the second that sentence left his lips. He thanked god Tommy was on the phone and could see his beet red face. 

Tommy could picture Evan’s embarrassed facial expression right about now. Probably the same one he had when after his reaction to seeing Tommy in his suit. Tommy had pretended he hadn’t noticed so as not to embarrass Evan but it was hard to miss his eyes running up and down his body followed by him swallowing, then practically running away to the bathroom. 

He couldn’t deny that it made him feel good seeing Evan react to him that way. But as good as it felt, it was also confusing. He was so sure that Evan wasn’t interested in men at all so his reaction knocked Tommy off kilter somewhat. 

As for the daddy comment.. Evan wasn’t entirely wrong. 

“Well they depends on who I’m with.” He responded and immediately covered his face with his hand not believing he’d admitted to that. “So did you manage to get the chief to agree to a ride-along?” He said in an attempt to change the subject. 

“Uh, yeah. Whoever has the best bid will get to spend a full day at the station, including lunch courtesy of Bobby and a ride-along.”

“Nice. We’re giving a tour of the station and then I’ll pilot a helicopter tour of L.A.”

“I wish I had enough to bid for that myself.” Buck said. 

“You don’t need money for that, Evan—I can take you up.” 

“Really?”

“Of course. Any time you wanna go up we can.” 

“I might take you up on that, then.” He said. 

“Do. If you bribe me sufficiently I might show you the secret place I like to fly to sometimes.”

“Oh really? What kind of bribe?” 

“Where’s the fun in telling you? I’m sure you’ll think of something.” Tommy replied. 

“Challenge accepted.” 

Tommy chuckled warmly. “I better go, I have some errands to run. I’ll come by to pick you up at 7.” 

“7 it is.” 

“See you later, Evan. We’ll see if your suit looks as good as mine.”

Tommy hung up before Buck had the chance to say anything back. And thank god because it definitely wouldn’t have been coherent. 

***

“Buck.” Josh greeted. “If you’re looking for your sister she’s not here—it’s her day off.”

“Uh, actually I-I came here to speak to you. Do you have a minute?” 

“Sure.” He gestured for Buck to follow him into the dispatch centre’s kitchen. “Coffee?”

“Thanks.”

Josh pulled out two mugs and filled them from the coffee pot. “So what can I do for you?” They sat down at the table opposite each other. 

“How do you know if a guy is into you?”

Josh opened his eye a little wider at the unexpected question. 

“Uh.. I mean there are a few ways. Why do you ask?” Buck looked across at him before looking away shyly. “Oh.” Josh said, realising. “I have to ask first—do you want them to be into you?” 

Buck waited a second before answering. “Uh, yeah. I do.” 

“Okay. And before we get into this, just so we’re on the same page here—does Maddie know?”

“Not really. I think she suspects, but I’ve not said anything specific.” He answered. Even if Maddie hadn’t given him that speech after Christmas about accepting who he was, he knew that she would have no problem with him liking a man. But still, she’d likely have questions and he wanted to answer his own questions before anybody else’s. 

“Well, I won’t say anything, if you’re worried.” 

“Thanks.” Buck smiled. 

“So, back to your question. Honestly, it depends on the guy. Some are unabashed and obvious and will straight up tell you they want you. Others, are a little more circumspect—it’s in the non verbal way they conduct themselves around you. Finding ways to touch you like brushing against your arm or removing a piece of lint from your clothing, stuff like that. Does this guy of yours do that?”

“Well, yeah, but..” 

“But what?”

“It's complicated." Buck said.

"It always is. Come on.. spill."

"We’re in a fake relationship.” 

Josh closed his eyes for a second “Okay you’re going to have to explain that one to me.”

Buck preceded to tell him about Clara and why he and Tommy were pretending to be together. 

“Okay, so what makes you think he might be into you for real?” Josh asked. 

“Some of things he says to me are when we’re alone and there’s no need to put on an act. And-and sometimes the way he looks at me.. it’s like he’s looking at me, ya know?” He sipped his coffee and sat back in his chair. “With women I know what I’m doing—I can spot their signals a mile away but with a guy..”

“You feel out of your depth.” 

“Yeah.” He said with a sigh. 

“Well, I’ve never met the guy so I can really tell you if he likes you or not. But—and though I would never take this advice myself because I’m more the suffer in silence type—your best bet is to talk to him. Tell him how you feel.” 

“What if I’m wrong?”

“What if you’re right?” Josh countered. “Look, in our line of work we see everyday just how short life is. Be brave. You might just get what you want.”

Buck nodded contemplating Josh’s words. Deep down he knew that talking to Tommy was the adult thing to do but his fear of rejection ran deep. 

“By the way, do you have a picture of this guy?” Buck raised an eyebrow at him. “What? I’m curious!” 

Buck laughed and scrolled his camera roll to find a pic. He showed him one he’d taken on Christmas Day of Tommy in his “kiss the cook” apron and Santa hat that Buck had forced him to wear. 

“Okay, if you don’t talk to him, i will because good lord he is gorgeous!” 

Buck laughed. “Yeah, he’s-he’s something.” 

“Listen, I got to get back to work, but.. talk to him. At the very least you’ll know where you stand and that’s always a good thing.” 

***

Tommys last errand of the day was to stop by harbour station to pick up the envelope with auction donation details inside. 

“Kinard, what are you doing here?” Melton called across the hangar. 

“Picking up the donation for the auction.” 

“Ah. I think Donato has that upstairs. How’s your aunt doing by the way?” He asked. 

“She’s doing well. Had her 1 month post surgery check up yesterday and the doc is happy with her recovery so far.” 

Clara had actually taken Tommys words on board and did take it easy for a couple of weeks. She did of course complain the entire time but Tommy could handle that so long as she was behaving.

“That’s good to hear. You should definitely bring her by again sometime.” He suggested. 

“And have her embarrass me again? Yeah, no thanks. I’ll see you later, Melton.” He yelled over his shoulder as he walked through the door at the back of the hangar and up to the Harbor rec room. 

“Kinard!”

“Donato!” Tommy mimicked Lucy’s tone. She flipped him her middle finger. 

“You hear for the auction thingy?” She got up from the table and retrieved the envelope from one of the drawers in the kitchen.

“Thanks.” He said taking it. 

“How’s my favourite relative of yours doing?”

Tommy scoffed. “She my only relative and she’s doing good. Check up yesterday went well.” 

“Good. I love her.” 

“Only because she showed you those photographs of me as a kid.” Tommy reminded her. 

“Who knew little Tommy Kinard in a sailor suit would be so adorable.” She accentuated her point by pinching his cheek. 

“Get off.” He gently pushed her hand away. 

Lucy laughed. “So, you got a date for this shindig?”

“You trying to wrangle yourself a date? You know I don’t swing that way, Donato.”

“Ew, no!” She waved her hand. 

“I’m sorry—ew?” 

“What can I say—you don’t do it for me, sorry.” She explained. “And even if you did I wouldn’t be caught dead at one of those things.”

“It’s for charity.” Tommy reminded her. 

“I know. I’m charitable already—I donate to a bunch of different causes. I just don’t need to sit in a room full of rich people playing my yacht is bigger than your yacht to prove it.”

“Trust me I’d rather not have to wear a monkey suit and go either but I promised my aunt I would.” 

“You never answered my question—who are you taking with you?” 

“Evan.” He said simply. 

“Buckley?” She said in surprise.

“Yeah.”

“Huh.” She said knowingly. 

“What?”

“I just wouldn’t put you together as friends.” She said. 

“Why not?” 

“He’s a yapping golden retriever with a heart the size of Texas and abandonment issues the size of Mars, and you’re a stubborn and brooding pain in the ass.”

“Hey!” He protested. “I am not brooding!”

Lucy simply stared at him. 

“Yeah well.. you’re a closeted bisexual, with a chip on her shoulder, who’s practically in love with Nina from the coffee shop next door but is too afraid to ask her out.” Tommy smiled smugly. 

“I hope you shit yourself at this thing.” She said walking away. 

“I hope Nina poisons your coffee.” He threw back with a laugh. 

***

Buck looked over his outfit in his mirror. He’d opted for black pants and shirt, with a dark red velvet jacket with black lapel. He’d styled up his curls a little with product and if it matched Tommys curls then it was purely a coincidence. 

Despite his developing feelings for Tommy over the last 5 months he’d never felt the need to look good specifically for him. He’d always had a healthy confidence in his looks. But that was when he was dating, or wanting to date, women. 

It was entirely different when the man you’re crushing on looks like he came out of the cover of Men’s Health magazine. Or Lumberjack Monthly. He didn’t exactly feel inferior, but he’d be lying if he said he hadn’t compared himself to Tommy once or twice. 

A knock on his door sent his heart into his throat. 

This is ridiculous. You’ve been totally relaxed with Tommy for months. Just because you want his tongue in your mouth now doesn’t mean things can’t be just as normal with him.

A second knock on the door took him out of his personal pep talk. He brushed down his jacket with his hands one more time and opened the door. 

“Hey, Evan. You ready to-“ Tommys words caught in his throat at the sight of Evan in front of him. The dark red jacket was a perfect fit and those curls were doing something to him he wasn’t expecting. 

He looked unbelievably fucking gorgeous and Tommy was unbelievably in fucking trouble. 

He coughed. “The, uh.. the uber is waiting for us.” 

“I’m ready.” Buck said, grabbing his phone, wallet and keys.

***

The auction was held at a fancy hotel just outside the city limits. Their uber drove slowly up the long gravel driveway and around to the other side of the large fountain sat opposite the entrance. They got out of the car and began walking up the pristine red carpet. 

“Wow this really is fancy. Maybe I should have worn a tie.” Buck mused. 

“You look great as you are.” Tommy slid his hand into Bucks as they got closer to the doors. Buck had to concentrate really hard to keep the flush from spreading across his face. They walked inside to be met by a tall, thin man with an awful combover standing behind a large wooden podium. 

“Your names, Sirs?”

“Thomas Kinard and Evan Buckley.” Tommy answered. The man typed the names into the computer hidden behind the podium and hummed in satisfaction when he found their names. 

“Yes, I have found you both. It says here that you both have items to be donated to the auction.” He said with no movement in his facial expression. 

“Uh, we do. Yeah.” Buck replied and they both pulled out the envelopes and handed them to the man. 

“Thank you, Sirs. The auction is to be held in the Rose Ballroom.” He gestured in the direct of the ballroom. “Have a good evening, Sirs.” 

“Thank you.” Tommy replied. They walked through the door into a large ballroom with high ceilings and crystal chandeliers hanging down. A couple of dozen white clothed tables took over most of the room, each decorated with a large crystal vase full of various species of roses. 

They scanned the crowd of fancy suits and dresses for Clara and eventually spotted her leaning in and giggling with a man closer to Bucks age. 

“You can’t take this woman anywhere.” Tommy complained and Buck laughed. They made their way over to her and Tommy coughed to get her attention. 

“Tommy, darling!” She greeted him with a hug and kiss to the cheek. “Buck.” She said with a smile greeting him the same way. “Don’t you boys look so handsome!” She cooed. “I want to introduce you to my friend. This is David.” She gestured to the tall, slim blonde in a navy blue suit.” David this is my nephew Tommy and his boyfriend Buck.”

Tommy reached forward to shake his hand. “Nice to meet you.” He said. David smirked as he shook Tommys hand staring him straight in the eyes. 

“Wonderful to meet you.” David replied smoothly. 

Buck reached to shake his hand too “Good to meet you.” David lightly shook his hand, barely looking at him before his attention went back to Tommy. 

“And what is it you do? Something physical I’m sure looking at you.” David asked, his eyes gazing over Tommys body. 

Buck felt a prickle of annoyance. Did he not hear Clara say that he was his boyfriend? He stepped closer to Tommy putting his arm around his waist from behind. “He’s a firefighter pilot.” He smiled proudly looking at Tommy before back at David. 

“Oh really?” David said, clearly impressed. “I’d love to hear more about that.” He smirked again. 

Was Buck invisible?! That prickling annoyance began to morph into a low level anger. Flirting with a guy when his boyfriend was right there?! 

“Maybe we should get something to drink, babe.” Buck suggested to Tommy, leaning into him a little more. He’d never used a pet name with Tommy before. Tommy had called him babe once and it made his stomach flutter. Tommy looked at him for a second, keeping Bucks eyes as a soft smile came across his mouth. 

“Of course, babe.” He winked and Buck almost collapsed. 

Tommy walked them away towards the bar and Buck couldn’t help looking back over his shoulder to throw a condemning look at David. It was entirely childish on his part and he knew it. 

***

The auction was in full swing. Then of thousands of dollars had been raised so far. All manner of things had been auctioned off so far including a day at the San Diego zoo including feeding some of the animals, a signed Taylor swift album, and a behind the scenes tour of the tv show Hotshots by their star actor Brad Torrance. 

“I think ours are last up.” Buck said reading at the brochure in hands. 

“I hope they go for a good amount.” Tommy said.

“I’m sure they will.”

Tommy looked at Buck for a moment before a devious look came across his face. 

“What?” Buck asked. 

“Wanna make this interesting?” He said leaning in closer. Buck could smell the spiced cologne that Tommy was wearing and his stomach swooped deeply enough that he briefly considered if he was going to vomit. “Whoever’s donation raises the least amount has to buy the other dinner.” 

Buck smiled. “You’re on. And just so you know I’m going to pick a really expensive place.” 

“Oh he’s so confident he’s gonna win, huh?” Tommy laid casually against the back of his chair, beer glass in hand. “Mine is a helicopter tour of L.A. Beats getting stuck on the 710 in traffic in an engine.” 

“Half the people in this room own their own helicopters—seeing us put out a real fire is far more exciting.” Buck retorted gleefully as he sat back himself. 

“Is that so?” Tommy said with a smirk and tilting his head. 

“It is so.” Buck smirked back. 

They both kept eye contact for a few seconds before the auctioneer began the bids for the engine ride along which got their attention. There was quite a lot of interest and it came down to two people. In the end, it was one of Clara’s friends that won the bid at $27,500—a gift for her firefighter obsessed grandson. 

Tommys helicopter ride was up next and his too got a lot of attention. 

“Sold for $26,250 to the gentleman at the back!”

“Yes!” Buck grinned. Tommy would be annoyed had it not been for the look of pure happiness on Evan’s face. 

With the auction now finished, the lights dimmed and music began playing louder. A few couples took to the floor to dance as staff began removing the auctioneers podium. 

“I guess I owe you a date, then.” Tommy leaned in and whispered over the music. He was testing the waters with that one. He wanted to see Evan’s reaction to the word “date.” It was a risk, Tommy knew that, and he knew it would probably be easier if he just asked Evan out but the thought of Evan just bluntly rejecting him was terrifying. This way he could say it was for their fake relationship if Evan questioned it. Was it childish and ridiculous? Absolutely. But it made sense to him at the time. 

Bucks grin faded into a softer smile as he looked at Tommy. 

“There you are. I can’t wait for my ride.” David’s voice interrupted. Buck willed his eyes to shoot lasers at the man and was disappointed when the man didn’t burst into flame. 

“Oh. You won the bid?” Tommy asked. 

“Of course I did.” David replied smugly. “Let me buy you a drink and we can discuss the details. 

“Actually.” Buck said loudly without thinking. “Tommy promised me a dance, so..” He looked at Tommy hoping he would go along. 

Tommy was admittedly a little amused by the annoyed look on Evan’s face. His pout was adorable. And definitely not something he could say no to. 

“I did.” He shrugged his shoulders and took Bucks hand, letting him lead him to the dance floor. 

[PLAY ME NOW]

‘Cry To Me’ by Solomon Burke began to play as Tommy took Bucks waist in his hands and Buck put his arms over Tommys shoulders. Their heads were side by side a few inches apart as they gently swayed. 

“I never knew you were the jealous type.” Tommy said into Bucks ear. 

“I-I’m not.” He argued. Buck felt Tommys shoulders twitch as he let out a laugh. “He-he was just- who flirts with someone when their boyfriend is right there?! It’s just rude.” 

“It is.” Tommy agreed as they continued moving gently with the music. “It was kinda cute though.” 

“What was?”

“Your jealousy.” 

“I-“ Buck gave up denying it and sighed. Tommy smiled to himself and wrapped his arms further around Bucks waist pulling them closer together. Bucks breath stopped for a second before he pulled himself together somewhat to move one arm down a little and it settled around Tommys upper arm; his hand on Tommys back. His other arm lowered so his hand was holding Tommys shoulder. 

Tommy reached up and took the hand on his shoulder and held it against his chest. The slight shift in position had their faces cheek to cheek as they kept swaying. 

Unbeknownst to each other they’d both closed their eyes. Both of them relishing the unexpected intimate moment. 

Tommys heart was beating so hard in his chest he was concerned it might start poking through his chest wall like a cartoon character in love. He’d thought about holding Evan like this quite a few times. He’d thought about doing a lot with Evan, mostly involving little to no clothing but he couldn’t think about that now with their groins so close together and being in a public place. 

“If I ask you something, will you give me an honest answer?” He whispered into Bucks ear. 

Buck felt the movement of Tommys lips against his ear and had to concentrate on keeping his breathing steady. “Yeah.”

“Were you really jealous?” 

Buck waited a few seconds before answering honestly. “Yes.” He whispered back into Tommy’s ear. 

Tommy pulled his head back a few inches to look at Evan. Their faces were inches apart. Buck was stuck in Tommy’s gaze and couldn’t move away from it. He could feel Tommy’s warm and gentle breath against his lips. Despite his attempts, his breathing quickened. He broke the spell of Tommy’s eyes for half a second by looking down at his lips. He involuntarily swallowed and looked back up to see Tommy looking down at his too. 

As though the other held a magnet they both slowly began moving their faces closer. Each not being able to look away from the other’s lips. The hand holding Bucks to Tommys chest squeezed gently as both of their eyes fluttered shut. 

Their mouths were millimetres apart and so, so close to making contact. Tommy was finally going to know what Evan’s plump lips felt like.

The hotel fire alarms began screaming above their heads and around them. They pulled apart looking at each other for half a second before turning and noticing smoke coming from under one of the doors at the side of the room.

[lover-of-mine]

I made these gifs for my Eddie touching Buck set a really long time ago and I keep meaning to talk about them and well, what better time than now.

I think it's an insane choice to have Eddie hand just hoover over Buck's shoulder. Because he could touch him? Yes, Buck has a complicated history with Abby but Buck is still his best friend? He can very much pat his shoulder before running into a call. And add that to the way Eddie was acting the whole time they were in the train "his fiance is Abby *stomp feet while walking away*" it's insane that Eddie got insecure enough about Buck in that situation that he actively stopped himself from reaching out. Like???

This one I think it's just cute, he has to catch himself because of covid regulations and also the level of professionalism that's expected from them in a scene but I absolutely ADORE that he starts laughing and his first instinct is to lean towards Buck.

But this is the one that drives me WILD. Eddie was just trapped, broke several ribs, they're in a really bad scene considering Bobby is missing and they don't know the whole situation with Hen and Chim and the patient, and Eddie is probably in a whole lot of pain and his instinct is to lean into Buck. This is a man we got told a lot of times is the one who always wants to be in control, is bad at asking for help, and yes post therapy Eddie is better at that but he is still very much controlled, and his reaction while in pain is to lean into someone else. It makes me want to scream. He actually moves so that he's closer to Buck and he is about to lean into his shoulder when Hen gets down and it's back to action. They had a few seconds to breathe in a terrible call and Eddie's instinct is to lean on Buck. I will never get over it. give me Eddie leaning into Buck for real please

[impaladolan]

y/n putting on a random cowboy hat at a rodeo she randomly got invited to. basically the rule is you wear the hat, you ride the cowboy. grayson is the cowboy 😉

Blurb Alert! - Grayson Dolan

; ugh, just thinking of grayson as hot cowboy really gets me goinggggg… like come on 🤤

Save A Horse, Ride A Cowboy :

“Look at ‘‘em go!” You and a bunch of your girlfriends squeal and holler as your favorite rider busts out of the cage on a wild bull. The man, whose face was covered with a red bandana and a cowboy hat shadowing his eyes, had a hand in the air for balance and the other tightly gripping the leather saddle tied around the bull.

The rider, whose name you thought was Grayson, stayed put on the bucking animal, making the whole crowd roar with exhilaration about his time.

You were new to the scene, this being your first rodeo, but you were enjoying yourself. You were buzzed after a couple “country beers” and pumped up with all the buzzing excitement around the arena.

The rider was beginning to lose balance, and everyone began to chant his name. He held tight until his saddle loosened and he jumped off before he’d get any injury.

The crowd bellowed again, obviously stunned at his great time on the bull. He ran to the nearest fence and climbed, conveniently right in front of all you girls

“Hey.” He winked and everyone squealed— even you cracked a smile. He tore his bandana from covering his face and you sighed, engrossed by his heavenly features. His gaze eventually landed on you after eyeing the large crowd of dumbstruck girls, and it stayed.

He tipped his hat at you, which earned him a wink in return and he chuckled.

“What’s your name, sweetheart?” He took his hat entirely off and held it at his heart, only hanging onto the fencing with one hand.

“Y/N. What’s your ride’s name?” You crooked an eyebrow to the bull that continued to buck and writhe against the helpers trying to get him back into his cage.

“Peaches.” He grinned, looking back over towards the cattle, a lasso wrapped around its body now, being guided towards an exit. He tosses his hat to you and jumps from the ledge and back onto the dirt, blowing an arrogant kiss goodbye.

“I’m sure he bucks a lot better than you!” Out of nowhere, you hear your voice remark as you sink the cowboy hat onto your head with a challenging grin.

The man stops in his tracks to turn and look at you with feigned offense, a smirk growing in his lips.

“I’d hope to prove you wrong.” He shouts before hustling out of the open field and into the safety of the pit.

You laugh, along with the other girls who turned to you and began to gossip about the blue jean, white muscle shirt, southern looking handsome who seemed to have a knack for flirting.

You watched him a bit for the rest of the night. He cheered on his mates and was hootin’ and hollering for each of the riders that went up and gave a show. He was pretty charming, near and far, though you never thought you’d be attracted to a farmboy.

You cheered and howled until the night came to a close and you and your friends began to exit the fun. The hat was still planted on your head and the girls around you continue to gawk about what had happened.

“Excuse me, miss.” You stopped at the familiarity of that southern twang and turned around with sheepish grin, half embarrassed by your little remark from earlier.

You didn’t think you’d have to see him again.

“Yes, sir?” Your friends kept moving, giggling and whispering while you stood there alone, watching him stride toward you slow.

“Don’t know the rules?” He cocked an eyebrow and crosses his arms, visible little muscles strained against his skin and the sleeve of his shirt.

“And what could those be?” Your friends seem to be long gone, leaving you to the devices of a wild man with such nice looks. Not to mention his soft looking hair that partially covered his forehead. And God, the stubble along his jaw couldn’t go unnoticed either.

“Must be new.” He was close enough that you could smell his woodsy scent. He began to circle you like prey, his boots clicking against the asphalt as he walked.

He stopped in front of you and looked at your hat, your eyes, then your lips.

“Wear the hat,” He drew his hand up your side and titled his hat back, “ride the cowboy.”

pt. two???

[autisticjoshrusso]

ok ok ok. a post about josh, buck, and maddie at dispatch as promised. (and because i dont feel like writing a whole separate post or repeating myself etc, if im pointing something out as evidence for my autistic josh headcanon, it'll be in parenthesis like this) also this is long because im going basically line by line in some places so just be prepared for that and such.

the first thing i wanna say before anything else is that like... as far as how this conversation fits into the larger narrative, i was fairly disappointed, due to the way that including this scene like this is kinda implying that the racism was fine because of being closeted etc. HOWEVER. luckily for my sanity it is pretty clear that from a character perspective, that's not at all what's being said by josh himself here, and we can be pretty certain that he is not aware of tommy's past behaviors. in fact he has almost no facts or context about the situation, which i'll get into later.

now that the disclaimer is out of the way, im gonna move onto character analysis and will not be touching on what i think the narrative might have meant etc. any further. like this is going to be purely talking about character dynamics and dissecting the dialogue etc.

we start out right away by skipping all the exposition right into a hard cut of maddie reacting to the news that tommy and abby were engaged. LOVE this set up we get right into the important part quickly and we as the audience only have to hear information that is new to us, not the information being repeated back to the character for whom the information is new.

and oh maddie. i love you so bad. she's like DAMN thats crazy, and then makes the obvious turning people gay joke. her energy here is sooo like it didn't make sense until looking at it in retrospect, but she's shocked and invested yet not taking it very seriously as a concern for buck, because well, she's having a baby and this is objectively not that serious comparatively <3 but i do love that she sees buck's reaction and quickly reins it in and is like woah im kidding im not actually being homophobic holy smokes. which. it kinda still is a little. but i think she's allowed <3

and then... josh enters the scene. he apparently only walked in as buck was saying "-kissed a boy" so of course he had to be like huh? gay shit? something gay? boys?? what's going on over here? and i love that for him. and i love that maddie immediately is like oh hi bestie i catch u up to speed on the tea <3 the maddiejosh bestieism is so back we never lose <3 and that fact that she's like. feeding in the facts in a way to dramatically amp up the tale i love it. she really said man the things my baby brother gets himself caught up in are wild.... anyway <3 true sibling behavior is finding the perfect balance between being supportive and being so so annoying <3

and she is supportive still. like when it becomes clear that there's something deeper going on here she does try to help him work through it. and its so interesting to me the way she is sort of seriously contemplating his words and is shocked when josh not only speaks up but is being very serious and equally focused on the problem at hand. it's like... she's trying so hard to figure out how to help her brother with something she doesn't fully understand that having someone else speak up to help them kind of shocks her and boy does that say something about their lives and the buckley sibling dynamic!

side note, the way josh is jokingly like "she didn't bring her personal life to work, unlike SOME people" and maddie's little look of mock offense?? they're so cute i cant handle it.

i also really love how the shots are framed during this conversation. at first, even when she's not talking and is just listening to josh talk, maddie is still in frame, we're still getting her reaction, she's an active participant in what's going on. and then there is the one shot where she's talking and josh is out of frame, hidden by buck, because whatever reaction he might be having isn't important, it's a buckley sibling moment. (he's not an active participant at that point; he's entirely observing and reacting and gathering information, not dictating the direction of the conversation whatsoever.)

it's only when josh gets very serious and it starts to turn into a heart to heart moment just between him and buck that maddie is allowed to leave the frame. it still goes back to her in very brief cuts when her reaction is relevant, but she steps back out of focus and let's josh handle the conversation. and i love that so much. thank GOD someone else is helping buck sort out his problems that isn't his parentified sister or just generally someone more marginalized than him. it was kind of getting irritating to watch, as much as i love buck so much. like dude... the emotional labor. watch it.

and man. this conversation guys. everything about it makes me an insane crazy person. ive already mentioned this in the tags of some other posts but like... its so fascinating because on the surface it is such a cohesive conversation, but when you really break it down and analyze both of their expressions and body language alongside what they're saying, you can start to see the cracks in it. what one of them is saying is not what the other one is hearing, in both directions. they are having two different conversations and i think it's critical to analyze both of those conversations and how they are interacting with each other. what josh says, what josh hears, what buck says, and what buck hears are four entirely separate things happening alongside each other.

the first part is josh trying to get a sense for how serious this relationship is to buck. when buck falters at the question of "do you love him?", he elaborates with follow-up questions that, to josh, define "love" or close enough to it. answering "yes" to those questions is close enough to a "yes" to the question of "do you love him?".

(which. ok. the particular choice of questions makes me insane because they do essentially boil down to "do you prefer this person to solitude and grant them an equal or greater importance to yourself?" which is sooo... it's said from the point of view of someone who greatly values their solitude and would not easily grant someone that level of importance.)

unfortunately, well, buck is NOT someone who greatly values his solitude, and puts other people before himself quite easily. buck would answer "yes" to those questions for basically anyone. josh does not know or understand this about buck and takes buck's answers at face value, while buck is taking this as sort of... it's hard to explain, and i think others have done a better job of capturing buck's perspective already tbh. he's convincing himself that he loves tommy here because josh is unknowingly handing him that information and expectation, and buck loves to mold himself to fit an expectation etc.

and then comes the second part, which... i think this is where it is most critical to realize that josh has none of the context about tommy, abby, and buck and those respective relationships. by his own admission, he didn't really know much about abby or about her breakup with tommy beyond the fact that it was upsetting. he didn't hear the way tommy talked about abby to buck at dinner, and he definitely didn't get to see any of the real fallout and damage to her psyche that tommy leaving her caused.

but buck did! im not inclined to rewatch s1 to get any exact quotes or anything but from what i remember, she either outright said or implied that she was so heartbroken because tommy left her because of her mother's illness. buck is understandably very upset because he understands exactly what she went through and how, unless abby was lying to not out him, he didn't exactly come clean with the breakup, and left her feeling like it was her fault, like there was something wrong with her or she was being weighed down by caring for her mother. he calls tommy's behavior exactly what it is: dishonest and cruel.

but josh doesn't know this. all he is hearing is a young, freshly out bisexual calling a gay man "dishonest and cruel" for having been engaged to a woman for his own protection. and he responds exactly how you'd expect! he reminds him of queer history and the fact that he doesn't really have a right to judge the people who grew up and had to survive in a world that was much less safe to come out in.

(and i said in my other post that's still doing numbers that "pre-Glee/post-Glee" is an actual queer discourse talking point and makes sense that it'd be used here, as awkward and cheesy as it seems, but it's also a win for my television/film/popular media/hollywood culture/etc. as a special interest headcanon. <3 we love to see it)

and it kills me because of course buck is just going to take this at face value and decide he needs to stop feeling the discomfort he's feeling, leading to the subsequent doubling down and over committing that is typical of his unhealthy relationship patterns.

(and then at the end of the speech josh has to literally announce that he's leaving DSJFHJKDSKJ. because walking away/ending conversations is so awkward and difficult and the easiest way to mitigate that is to lean into the Dramatic Homosexual Stereotype mask or whatever <3 i've long been of the opinion that josh is someone who uses the behaviors associated with queer men and queer masculinity as the blueprint for his neurotypical mask, which is why he often comes across as being just a little bit off from the Funny and Bitchy Gay vibes that it seems like he's going for. and boy did his exit from this scene just reinforce that headcanon so hard!)

they wrap the scene with a little bit more levity too which is kind of nice to like. move on from that. because it got kind of heavy there for a second.

overall i do like what this scene accomplished, but like i said at the start, i think it has some really unfortunate implications that weigh it down for me. still, always nice to get more josh content, especially when it's pretty consistent with his character as established AND not at all related to doing his job. we got to see him and maddie being goofy and maddie being allowed to let someone else deal with buck's problems for a second. and the whole thing was very well shot! excellent camera work going on throughout.

i don't actually know how to end this post so yknow. im gonna make a dramatic exit now or whatever <3

[spxdyr]

A lot of bucktommy shippers who have no media literacy when it comes to 9-1-1 just haven’t watched most of the show. And if they do watch the show, it’s gonna be through the lens of Tommy for some reason. I remember scrolling through tumblr one time and this person (who was obviously only watching the show for Tommy), literally saw a helicopter at the train derailment episode (the episode where Abby came back with her fiancé) and took a picture of a air rescue helicopter that was in a scene for like a few seconds and posted it with the caption “Tommy!” When in reality, no one was thinking about Tommy when that episode aired lmao. Cause he wasn’t that important of a character, and he never will be.

This isn’t to say that all bucktommy shippers are the same btw, but like it still explains why some of them have some interesting takes. It’s hard to have a substantial opinion about a show or a storyline when you haven’t even watched it. And while I do know that some people watch 9-1-1 specifically just for Buddie, I feel like it’s a little different b/c they’re main characters? Even though I still disagree with it, I still understand it way more than watching a show because of a character with barely 30 minutes of screen time throughout the whole show, and that only is ever there to add support to the main characters in some way.

Also to add to the thing that Ryan said Eddie is a straight man…..Buck was literally canonically a straight man until 7x04. Even though some of the fandom considered him to be bi for a while at that point lmao. All the arguments they use as to why Eddie can’t be gay are the same arguments people used before season 7 as to why Buck can’t be bi or into men. But wait…..they wouldn’t know any of that….because they haven’t watched all of the show.

When I was younger I might watch a show for one couple but I would at least watch the whole show to do it. I can't imagine watching a show for a character only to find out the character is not only, only in the show for like 10 minutes but for the first eight of those minutes he was a tool to show what racism was like for ACTUALLY main characters in the early days of the 118. Then sticking to that character like glue, WILD.

[leandra-kinard]

PSA:

If you are SO humorless that you have to turn the whole 'daddy kink' joke interaction into something genuinely problematic, or even fully serious (because it was a joke, ffs. You know, that thing where you say something to elicit amusement?? WILD concept, I know!) - I'm genuinely gonna block you.

It's super valid if you (like I) find daddy kink cringe, but the way this scene has been misinterpreted is INSANE. It's BUCK who brings up daddy issues first, and Tommy responds with some sassy humor - as he often does. That's his personality. And BUCK LIKES IT!

And don't get me started on all the BAD FAITH misinterpretations of Ryan's interviews. Ryan has gone out of his way to confirm that - as for now and the foreseeable future - Eddie is a straight man; and that portraying how a straight and queer man can still be friends, or how being vulnerable with each other doesn't have to change anything is IMPORTANT to him. You all just picking half a sentence here, half a sentence there and going "BUDDIE CANON NEXT SEASON!" or "QUEER EDDIE CONFIRMED" is fucking mental. And disrespectful!

I am so DONE.

This flat earther level of delusion is so fucking annoying and infuriating to watch and read.

Sure, if you still want Buddie to happen and have hope for it, that's fine and valid, but don't act like the show OWES it to you. Or like it's the ONLY thing that would make sense, henceforth. Make a post on "here's how I could picture it" and be fucking realistic about it.

If we've been moots for a long time, I might ignore those takes, or I might unfollow, but if we don't have much of a connection and you push that "Buddie or Bust" agenda right in front of my salad, I will fucking block you.

[pixeldistractions]

intermission: cleaning out the pipes

You get paid to unclog the toilet, not to ask what clogged it up in the first place. Try not to look. You really don’t want to know what’s in there.

Jordan never went to college himself. Having little experience about what goes on in these college dorms, he just assumed those wild college frat house movies were far-fetched. But then he hears giggles and moans from the room next door, and he wonders how terribly authentic they might be.

Excuse me, you’re doing what?!? With how many boys?!? Quiet little Melissa Fortney from Lakeside Heights? Shy bug girl who had a crush on Beau Jackson and only first learned about sex from Summer Phoenix at the cafeteria lunch table freshman year???

It’s always the quiet ones, isn’t it?

“We’re just messing around,” she says. “Nothing serious.”

Also, panties collection! 😱😆☠️

Jordan hurries downstairs to work on the dorm kitchen instead. Surely nobody is having sex in the kitchen. Surely! Right? Surely he can finish his work unnoticed. Right?

While there’s nothing obscene happening in this kitchen, yet, Delphie Deppiesse is utterly awestruck. She’s harmless, no worries. Valedictorian of her high school class and certified kindness ambassador, her thoughts are chaste, mostly. But she is overwhelmed with the desire to give this man everything he needs… except the space to do his work.

“Hi, we really appreciate your work here. Oh, I bet it’s really hard. (Delphie is far too virginal to even snicker over her use of the word “hard.”) Can I get you a cup of coffee? Can I hold your wrench? I’m eighteen now, by the way, in case you were wondering.”

Jordan wasn’t wondering. At all.

“Excuse me, um, don’t step in that puddle. I’m not insured for student deaths, I don’t think.”

Melissa joins Delphie in her admiration party, still smelling of saliva and other unmentionable fluids because she couldn’t have had the time for even a quick shower.

Didn’t you get your fill upstairs? we might ask.

Hardly, she thinks. Those college boys don’t really know what they’re doing. Melissa has a taste for older men. Men who know how to use their hands. Case in point: Hudson.

Somewhere in a far-off land called their fevered girlish imaginations, a scene unfolds:

His shirt, a size too small, pulls tight across his shoulders and biceps. The shirt is missing a few too many buttons. Torn buttons, actually, destroyed in a fit of passion, revealing a peek of chest hair and begging to be torn the whole way down to reveal the endless wonders beneath.

“Mmm, is that a wrench in your pocket, or are you happy to see me?” the girls ask.

And he says, “I couldn’t leave without making sure everybody’s pipes were cleaned.”

“Whew,” Melissa swoons, “I gotta go write something down.”

“Wait,” Delphie says, “Can I read it?”

So the girls run off upstairs to write a smutty fic and post it on Pillowfort where it will become viral for a few hours, and a small corner of the internet will simultaneously pleasure themselves over visions of a rugged blond plumber.

Finally, Jordan is left to finish his work day in peace, slightly scandalized, thinking, “Two-thousand dollars… two-thousand dollars… two-thousand dollars…”

Until Austin emerges from where he was watching, astounded at how thirsty those girls got over some overalls and a tool belt. And how many chicks could he score with a Halloween costume like that!?!

“Dude, can I, like, buy your outfit?” Austin asks. “I’ll give you twenty bucks for it? Twenty bucks! Man, come on!”

The clock strikes five and it’s clean-up time.

Go home, Jordan. We won’t judge you if you want to run.

Next -> // 5.2 start // index

[buddiekinard]

on eddie diaz, relationships, and why the whole ‘he terrorizes women’ narrative feels wrong and inaccurate

because meta is what i do now apparently

side note: i am just a fan and this is just my interpretation of eddie diaz. im not implying that he hasn’t fucked up or been messy or that he’s perfect, just that some of the interpretations of his actions feel very ott.

i decided to throw this under a read more because it got long and i’m not sure anyone will read this absolute fucking essay i wrote in an hour at 7am but i wanted to get my thoughts out.

eddie diaz is so interesting to me for so many reasons but one of them is the way that people (both fans jokingly and people who don’t like him in a very harsh and unsympathetic way) talk about his past relationships. canonically in the last 6 going on 7 years we’ve seen him have 3 serious relationships (and, based on on screen canon those are the only relationships he’s been in in his LIFE) and 1 emotional affair. people talk about him like he’s terrorized women (as a joke) or like he’s a horrifically misogynistic near abuser who only dates women for a free babysitter (not a joke and these same people usually think he’s a bad friend who abuses his friendship with buck and doesn’t give back anything in return which is such a weird interpretation of this character but i digress).

Shannon - Eddie and Shannon started dating in hs. We don’t really know exactly when but it’s been implied she was his first SERIOUS girlfriend. (he says in a deleted scene she wasn’t his first gf but that contradicts previous statements somewhat and besides i think she could be his first serious relationship and not his first actual gf anyway.) We don’t know much about their relationship prior to her pregnancy but I don’t think it’s a wild assumption to think or wonder if they wouldn’t have gotten married if they hadn’t felt that societal and religious and parental pressure to do so at the time. Eddie ran first. He did. He ran to the military and I do think some of it was being scared and some of it was just feeling like he didn’t know what else to do. The Army Will Solve It propaganda is STRONG in this country. He found himself married and needing a steady income and good insurance and without a lot of options at 19.

For me enlisting wasn’t the problem it was the reenlisting without talking to his wife. So Eddie ran and he admits it but he was scared and needed a steady income and made bad decisions and left Shannon in a horrible situation. He came home different and broken by war and trauma and neither one of them handled it well. So then it was Shannon’s turn to run. Ultimately, for me, their problem was that they were young and scared and pressured to get married and Eddie was told from a young age to Be A Man and Provide - that a husband was a provider and being absent was normal, and Shannon needed a partner and it was messy and bad and they were KIDS.

She left in the night and Eddie didn’t take off his wedding ring or date for years. He wasn’t going to break that vow for whatever reason. When they met back up those cracks showed even more deeply. They were great at sex, bad at talking. They were both bad at communicating, both bad at understanding the others needs. And ultimately because Shannon was Doomed By The Narrative they never got a chance to figure it out but to say eddie terrorized her is so wildly unfair. He was forced to marry his first girlfriend and the only example of a marriage he really had was his parents and he saw his absent father and was parentified at 10 years old and thought now i have to be the man of the house and provide and long as i do that im doing right by my family because that’s what a man does. Eddie and Shannon were Doomed because Eddie learned the wrong lessons and two scared kids didn’t know what the fuck they were doing.

Ana - Ana, poor poor perfect on paper Ana. I really really think Eddie tried with her. But she was his first relationship after losing his wife. His wife who we’ve now heard him say was the love of his life. Eddie wanted to listen to everyone, to get back out there. And he really wanted to love Ana. I don’t think he ever did wrong by her except for maybe letting it go on too long when he realized he was never going to love her even though he wanted to.

They had a nice relationship, and when he ended it he wasn’t harsh or disrespectful. He was just honest. Chris loves you but I don’t think I can. I don’t know why people would see that as being awful. Maybe his mistake was letting it go on too long, but I felt like they left it on decent terms. She was hurt, obviously, but someone always is and that doesn’t mean Eddie did anything wrong.

Marisol - oh the marisol of it all. she’s probably the one (besides shannon) that got the worst treatment and i think some of it was the writing itself. They threw them together in the 11th hour of season 6 because they wanted a nice little bow in case no one picked them up. I think season 7 showed they never really knew what to do with her. They used her to open Eddie’s catholic guilt arc and then just kind of dropped it which was a strange choice at the time. I know it’s because they wanted to do the Kim stuff, but I really think it was a product of a rushed writers room and need to get the season out but i digress.

They move in together and ultimately decide, actually, maybe it’s too soon. Now at this point, I’ve moved once and now I have to move again? I’m telling Eddie to fuck off but Marisol takes it well (which makes me wonder if she had her own doubts about living together by this point but they didn’t even give her a last name so who knows if they thought about her in any of this).

But after this Marisol just feels like an afterthought. To the writers especially. To Eddie because suddenly the Kim of it all and the ghost of his dead wife has come back in a very very real way and he’s about to hit rock bottom in ways he never knew existed. But part of the problem with Marisol is that it seemed like the writers always knew that wasn’t a Forever Relationship while at the same time not really knowing what to do with her. Like Ana, prior to Kim their relationship seemed….fine? I’m not really sure Ryan and Edy had that much on screen chemistry but you know.

And then we have the Kim of it all.

People sure love to judge my messy messy Eddie Diaz for how he handled this situation but my god I want to ask everyone how they think they would handle running into a duplicate clone of their DEAD WIFE that they’ve never quite been able to escape that’s always been there haunting every decision and relationship and moment. And now you feel like suddenly you have a second chance.

I don’t think Eddie thought he wasn’t doing anything wrong. He wouldn’t have lied about it to Buck. But I actually think he didn’t even think he was protecting Marisol. I think he thought he was protecting Chris from this. He was messy and stupid and handled everything badly because he’s a traumatized mess of a man and if he were a real person that wouldn’t excuse it but he’s a fictional character and it explains it.

The second he was called out by Buck he admitted he was also worried and scared for himself and he did the right thing. He came clean to Kim, she left, and he thought it was over. Now who knows if he would have come clean to Marisol. Who knows if they thought that far or he thought that far. But Eddie thought it was over in terms of Kim.

This is the part that I feel like so many people fail to understand or maybe just don’t want to get. And why was Marisol hanging out with Chris? Idk I don’t think Eddie’s whole thought process was free babysitting like some people seem to think or imply. I think for Eddie it’s the same as Chris hanging out with Buck. And it terms of storytelling it’s a convenient way to tell the story - they both need to find out about Kim at the same time.

Anyway. So now you think that whole thing is over and your girlfriend and son have gone out to pick up dinner or something and they’ll be home soon and suddenly ex emotional affair comes back and she isn’t just a clone is IS your wife. She got a hair cut and a new wardrobe and she’s standing in front of you crazy face and she doesn’t just look like your wife she’s insisting that she is your wife and you need this. you have never let yourself scream about the way your marriage ended and you’ve never let yourself be hurt and angry because there’s never been a day in your life where you didn’t blame yourself for how everything went down.

But Miss Kim is here like I’m Shannon say what you have to in some weird unlicensed immersion therapy session that you didn’t sign up for and it feels good and you feel better because this is what you’ve always needed. This closure.

But she wasn’t supposed to be here and now she is and then your girlfriend and son get home and now your son is seeing his dead mother.

I don’t blame Marisol for not giving him a chance to explain. I maintain that they didn’t kiss and it was cut for a reason but in any case - the man your dating is hugging a clone of his dead wife and crying when you walk in and he’s been lying about it and you’re probably gonna run for the hills because you cannot deal with this man’s mountain of issues. Like he already had a full on breakdown about the fact that she went to nub school or whatever and now this??????? My girl Marisol said NOPE IM OUT and she was right to.

I am not excusing Eddie. My dude was messy and made some fucked up choices but my god what choices would ANYONE make here??? And I see people be like he didn’t care about Marisol he hasn’t even thought about her. Okay but.

He’s losing his son. Christopher is his entire life. Outside of husband and father and then widower and father he hasn’t really LET himself be anything else and suddenly the son he’s tried to do everything right by his entire life is gone. I think a girlfriend would always take the back burner to that. But this post isn’t about Christopher and that’s a whole other can of worms.

I’m not making excuses for poor choices and messy actions. My guy did those things and I think there should be consequences but some people act like my man is a serial cheater who has never even tried in his relationships and takes advantage of everyone in his life and it’s so frustrating. That’s just not who Eddie Diaz is.

Eddie Diaz is a good man who tries very hard but is still haunted by the ghost of his ex wife and still feels pressure to be A Certain Way because at 10 years old he was forced to be the man of the house (???) even though his father was still around for some reason and has a mountain of catholic guilt he doesn’t know what to do with.

And it’s wild because I feel like some people talk about him like he’s the villain of the story. Like he’s not a great firefighter and part of the team. Like he’s not Evan Buckleys best friend, like they haven’t had each others backs for the last 6 years.

Idk i’m just a fan. These are just my opinions and reading of the story and how I interpret Eddie Diaz and his motivations. I think it’s so strange how little sympathy some people seem to have for the trauma and torment this man has been through that he hasn’t dealt with. (And he has tried. It’s not like he hasn’t tried therapy and changing jobs.)

[cbk1000]

#2 from fanfic writer ask post!! about BoM or anything else if there's something you're really proud of.

2. What is your favorite paragraph from (insert story title you want to know about here, or leave it blank for writer’s choice)? Is there a reason it’s your favorite? We'll go with BoM, just because there's so many words to choose from. Lmao

This is several paragraphs because one in isolation doesn't really capture the whole mood/scene. It's been a few years since I wrote it, but I still really like the shipwreck when they're travelling to Ireland. Merlin’s confrontation of the siren in particular, because I love describing his magic and just how powerful he is and having this creature laugh at him at first and then go, 'Hey, never mind, have a nice day' when they realise who he is.

The sea swept away like a curtain, and he was left facing her unfathomable grey eyes, only for a moment. Then the sheer wall of the sea leapt against the sheer wall of the cliff; and all the world was obliterated by fume and fog. Underneath him the ship lunged up like a nervous horse, and settled unwillingly into the small green crater of the runnels which formed in the underbelly of the waves. “Hey!” he screamed.

And finally into his head came the extraordinary voice, inhuman, inhumane. “Who are you?”

“Merlin. Look, just stop. I don’t want to have to make you.”

And the strange inhuman voice laughed, and returned to its song.

He shut his eyes. He reached out over the railing, into the waves, plunged down into them, tasted the psyches of the hovering fish and their eight-armed hunters, plunged once more into the vanishing sun, into the vanishing world, felt how all round him was foam, this pale wretched skim of drowned beings, and the things which collected them in pulsating arms. Felt too, beyond these: into the unknown of her, the mind which was not beast, and was not man. 

“Leave,” he thundered, and the waves quailed and the ship checked its next wild bucking as the maw pulled back from it, set it spinning loose along water again like sheer miraculous glass, and the unfathomable grey eyes widened as the sea pulled back from the cliffs, and pulled back from her perch: and there they were, he and she, alone in the sounding wilds, with new respect for one another.

“Emrys,” she said. “I’ve heard of you.” And she flipped her tail and slid down over the rock and was, soundlessly, gone.

Link to fic ask game

[bleedingcoffee42]

(Yay! Just keep in mind that probably I won't stop yapping now, feel warned).

"The series does a great job of showing the gossip." absolutely, they managed to nail his character with one line what is very impressive.

On the other hand, forever sad they didn't explore his ancient history geek side. Him, blabbering about some ancient shit no one cares about, with rosy cheeks and excitement painted all over his face to Grant and Lipton? Hello...? Plus, didn't Buck talk about Romans and barbarians in Bastogne?

The whole (tv) Easy for the fandom is a company of sluts, so someone please play sad violin music for Matheson. Seriously, the power Ron had all over the people, lol. He knew what he was doing.

I mean, someone gave him a nickname "Sparky" and it stuck to him, so he had friends. Also, I know it was because of his "explosive" nature, but please, Sparky? Sparks are cute and make me think about something cozy (I can feel him throwing daggers at me from afterlife right now).

it looks somehow like a normal thing - some really liked him, some were neutral, some hated him. It was a bunch of more than 100 males after all, so characters collied. It seems even Winters didn't have 100% of fangirls there.

Anyway, sometimes, in the middle of the night I wonder when Winters started to call him Sparky and if it was why Talbert was butthurt.

The German uniform's case is hilarious because he just played along and could have not acted better (shoot him? without even rising his head? King). Again, sad we didn't get the scene in the show, especially because from bts it seems they dressed Martin as the German.

Poor Webster. It looks like he romanticized some stuff in his book and there was Ron "Ok, Webster rings a bell but... uhm...." Speirs.

Anyway, as for a dude who was called Sparky, he seemed to be rather chill.

Oooh and Buck was at his wedding. Maybe that's how he got an invite? I think there was a wedding for a Sgt in Easy the same day that Dick went to. Or maybe it was because Buck was hanging out with his UCLA buddy Matheson at HQ and somehow got lumped in with Moose on the Speirs wedding invitation list? History nerds should have gone to museums with Lip and Smokey.

And I never really considered why Cann called him Sparky. I just thought it was random, these 1940s guys all have some cool nickname. Ron did light up in that letter when Dick called him Sparky like it was a great memory. Google really comes up with some fun ones for that 'lively' 'energetic' 'clever' 'term of endearment towards a guy'....I mean let the imagination run wild. Maybe it just rolled off the tongue well- Sparky Speirs.

Yeah, as much as they did and went through they were still a bunch of 20 something year old guys. What else do you do but talk shit? Sometimes it hurts too much to talk about home. So we have this guy who is weird and crazy and doing bad-ass shit and everyone is talking about him. Everyone knows about him. Nobody says "Speirs who?". Or "Why do you need to take ammo from the Germans? They don't have .45 cal ammo or 30-06?" as Sparky walks into the Rhine and tosses his towel on the shore.

I do want to get my hands on the interview where Ambrose talks to Lip about Speirs. Because there is probably way more than "He came to cry on my bed the first time he got drunk". Carwood, please, there is way more you are not telling us. The man is billeted with you (his first sergeant and not any of the Lts?), comes to you when the officers get him drunk and ruin his life, gets YOU drunk for the first time in your life while trying to save you from pneumonia, you know exactly when the last reunion he attended was and 'he told me I was going to be promoted so that was +1 friend points'. And there is no way the Lipton episode wasn't entirely pulled from Lipton himself, especially when Wahlberg was calling him everyday to talk about how to play it.

I also want to know what his beef was with Billy Turner.

We need all the gossip from Charlie Co and Dog.