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oceanwithouthermoon · 7 months ago

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long as fuck nails always painted with at least a clear coat club:

saiki kusuo

teruhashi kokomi

kaido shun

saiko metori

imu rifuta

nail biters club:

kuboyasu aren

yumehara chiyo

arisu makino

suzumiya hii

nendo riki

aiura mikoto (with fake nails over top)

(formerly) kaido shun

(formerly) toritsuka reita

(formerly) akechi touma

normal short nails 🙄:

hairo kineshi

mera chisato

satou hiroshi

toritsuka reita

akechi touma

#idk why i made this its just funny to me #i was just looking at how long my nails are rn and this came to mind #i think akechi bit his nails as a kid and then learned how much bacteria is there and snapped out of it so quick #ur gonna have to trust me on aiura cuz i just know.#she has to constantly resist the urge to bite off her press-ons but theyre a little tougher than normal nails so she still chews on em a li #kaido used to bite his nails BAD but he broke the habit a while after he started painting them #cuz swallowing nail polish constantly is really annoying and gross and DEFINITELY wasnt making him choke or anything noo shhh #im not rlly sure of my reasoning with toritsuka.. i just know #i couldn't decide for kusuke tbh cuz i feel like he just doesnt give a shit #but for him does that mean he would just let them grow out forever or that he would just bite them tf off ?#he would probably need short nails for all the hand work he does though so #maybe he maintains them normally but only for that reason #we all know he doesnt take care of himself so he wouldnt do it if he didnt need to #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k.#meows post

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anti-transphobia · 7 months ago

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Everyone posts about how Stardew Valley is a cozy LGBT+ inclusive game but NO ONE mentions the lack of a platonic option for the bachelors/bachelorettes. Which would be good for aspec people and also just more pleasant for many casual players I believe but that's not even the point. I just want to become best friends with everyone and not only does that require me dating everyone at once and feeling like a sleazebag because of it (ik the bad cutscene can be avoided but I know in my heart they'd be hurt if they knew) BUT it also means the women flirt with me!!!!! Constantly!!!!!!! It makes me sick to my stomach. Truly ruining the characters I liked

#this post is not that serious or meant to be an Analysis or a Discourse Post or a Hot Take or whatever #i just think the dating thing needs to be handled differently #i should be able to Not Date characters and still get 10 hearts with them #also ive never made it far enough in stardew valley to marry someone and this is the first time i could even date someone #and ive heard that the flirtatious comments dont stop once you're married which is. really awkward for me #i mean i could probably handle the guys flirting with me while im married but id hope being married would be an off switch for it #its just awkward to have ppl im not actually dating and only gave a bouquet to so i can be their friend be called my bf/gf when. they're Not #i seriously need to find some kind of mod to fix this once i finish getting all the girls up to ten hearts #i will deal with the stomach churning grossness of the flirting for a while so i can see everything #but then I'm DONE!!! I'm DONE!!!! I just want my friends back!!!!#maru and abigail and haley !!! my buds!!!#NOT emily shes scary and NOT leah because we just didn't click and DEFINITELY not penny because i fucking hate her #penny sucks. penny dni #but yeah the flirting feels gross because im gay and repulsed by women romantically/sexually #and even though i did open myself up to this by playing the game. because i dont want it it feels like its being forced on me #which makes it feel even WORSE than normal #and its like. not only do i feel like I'm stringing along these characters #but i feel like my friendship with my favourites is ruined :(

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isekyaaa · 9 days ago

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I think someone that follows this blog mentally connected with my mind and caught wind of me playing with the idea of deleting my writing blog and starting anew.

#rambles #bc i don’t think i mentioned it on here did i?#i just…..#deep down i don’t think majority of my followers even deserve to red what i have to write #i write primarily for myself and i share it as a courtesy for others #but i don’t like the way i’m treated #not that i’m getting treated badly #but i feel like i’m getting treated like a content creator and that really grosses me out #if you’re going to treat me like that i’d rather not feed any of you #i’ll just feed myself and the one (maybe two) people that care to read my works #it’s really odd to put a finger on exactly how i’m being treated tbh #i think verbalizing that post i recently made on that blog really so.idofied things in my mind #*solidified #what i really want is a sense of community in some way #but the truth of the matter is that most people do not care #they only care about what you have to offer #i’m trying to communicate and i’m barely getting anything in return #honestly i said this before but i really have a bad view of most of my followers #leeches is what majority of them are #ungrateful leeches #i need to answer really nice asks people sent me but i’m not in the mindset to do that right now

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dennisboobs · 1 year ago

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any time my trash twins posts pop off again im always nervously patrolling the reblogs paranoid about Certain People reblogging but. seriously u have no idea how happy it makes me to see everyone talking about their sibling quirks and shit, man. i love them so much.

#ada speaks #i uh. have a lot of posts sitting in drafts for this reason #i have full on gifsets that i never made public :/#but i think ive managed to block most of the shippers #i really. really love them. a lot. i love talking about them #it just makes me feel so fucking gross when ppl reblog my posts and tag the ship or some weird inc*st shit #i dont want to provide anything for them lmao #but maybe ill go back to my trash twins gifset

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r0semultiverse · 4 months ago

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I don’t know, me personally, I just think two adults playing pretend & pretending being gross together with full open communication & consent between them is harmless, but maybe that’s just me.

#this is very much a vague post if there ever was one & I’m absolutely vagueing #again; pay attention to the wording & reread if you need to #I think adults playing pretend on its own is harmless as long as everyone involved consents to it #idk how much more simply I can put this tbh but had to unfollow someone over saying certain kinks are harmful #like wow okay if they knew my other blog they’d be saying I’m an absolute freak probably tbh #always seems to be younger folks who have the unhealthy takes about kink but in this case i cant say nothing yknow?#idk this person & they're going through some stuff so i can't really say anything without it sounding tone policing plus parasocial #but just because bad people like a kink doesn't make a kink bad; trauma too doesn't make a kink bad; uncomfortable maybe but not harmful #just like in general yknow? its only as harmful as you make it between yourself & others. Everyone has to communicate or the whole thing #will fall apart. In this case there was absolutely some communication issues which lead to trauma but also just seeing someone agree that #a kink I like is harmful is like idk made me super uncomfortable even if the person is traumatized & going through it still just yeesh #idk seeing someone you follow for a while be like 'yeah this kink you like is bad' when by itself its actually harmless just leaves a #bad taste in your mouth if that makes sense. it just really rubbed me the wrong way so mmm 😕#I hope that person gets all the help & support they need; I'm just uncomfy with the rhetoric of 'certain kink bad' when its just like not #you're traumatized actually is what's going on & that person who hurt you was into said kinks so now in your brain those r bad #absolutely fair way to feel; but adults playing pretend with these specific ones is absolutely not inherently harmful #& pushing that kind of mindset is also coincidentally something right wingers especially want right now & commonly so yeah no #I just bleh it makes me feel gross when other people say stuff akin to that like oh that's like SWERF rhetoric even if unintentional jeez 😓#mine #op

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giantkillerjack · 2 years ago

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Ya know. I spent most of my life with horrible painful soul-crushing social anxiety.

And after about 25 years of continuous hard work, suddenly, people started pointing out - to my utter bafflement - that I had, in fact, achieved my lifelong dream of being charismatic. I'm 29 now; I feel comfortable in most social situations, and it is a very rare person whom I cannot make laugh.

I am, undoubtedly, finally, charismatic.

But do you know what I found?

I found that now that I have an understanding of which social rules serve which functions -- Now that I have an understanding of just how much damage my awkwardness was doing to people, well,

I found that, actually, my awkwardness never really hurt anyone at all. People were just judgmental dicks to me about it.

Now that I have the skill-level to (most of the time) creatively vocalize what is in my head as soon as I think it and without fear, I can confirm once and for all what I had always suspected:

I was worth talking to when I was quiet.

I was worth talking to when I was awkward, and when the words in my head took time and patience to hear, and when most of my jokes didn't land. I was worth talking to the whole time.

So I just... I hope that if you've ever wondered whether you are worth communicating with, the answer is yes. Absolutely yes. Each of us has a soul worth sharing - and if you and I were talking, I would happily wait for you to speak (or communicate in other ways) without condescending, and I would never shame you for that harmless awkwardness that so many people feel the need to violently stomp out.

You are worth talking to. You just are. And you deserve people who will speak to you with kindness, with patience, and with the basic immutable respect owed to all people.

(I talk about this with some frequency, both on tumblr and in real life. At some point, maybe I'll gather all my thoughts on the matter into one post. At some point, I wrote about my personal experience trying to build my social skill. But I felt the need to say at least a little bit tonight after seeing this other lovely post, and I'm glad I did. It will happen again.)

#original #social anxiety #autism #that one post #actually autistic #self-diagnosis is valid - in case that last tag implies otherwise to anyone. i think it just denotes i am an autistic and not just an ally.#social skills #socially awkward #socially anxious #autistic positivity #autism positivity #like actually genuinely who does it hurt if i tell a joke that doesn't land? esp if the joke is not about another person #this is not a live comedy show this is life ya gotta learn to say 'ah well they can't all be golden!'#which btw is a line i use when my own jokes don't land and it usually plays pretty well actually. i've got a higher hit rate but #genuinely they just can't all be good! anyway i go into that in the post linked at the end there i think #people can tell when you're not sure of yourself socially and a lot of folks instinctively use that against you. and i am here to say that #it's fucked up that they are doing that and they need to step off actually. imagine getting to decide on which social cues are #acceptable and then using that power to be unkind. fuckin gross. i regret so deeply each time in my life i have made that choice.#being a kid who is abused like that so often it was eager to power trip when i met kids more awkward than myself. but it was wrong #and i regret it. and i am proud to say i haven't done that in a long time and instead when i find myself with that power i try to say #actually what do YOU want? to the people shyer than me.#i'm pretty rad now is what i'm saying lol #like all the ways that having a good social stat has improved my life just made me realize what bullshit it is that this was necessary #doing what I did is not desirable or possible for everyone. they deserve just as much out of life as i do.#side note: i think I've actually surpassed a lot of neurotypicals who had never even had to think about social rules 🤣.#like I feel no competition with other people who have struggled socially but now that I'm more charming than people who were dicks to me #I do feel like fuck you!! I win!!!! I can finally see enough of the full picture to say that your arbitrary rules were FUCKING ARBITRARY #I'm also aware of the fact that not everyone finds me charismatic but i am. in all the ways that matter to me. and I'm still growing!#note to future jack: you did save these posts in your notes app on the day this was written.#tbh i am often still awkward i am just not sorry anymore if i'm not hurting ppl. 'confident and awkward' really throws 'em for a loop! XD

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volfoss · 4 months ago

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Every book I get closer to becoming the joker

#twist rambles #vc posting #what are we up to now? the 12th predator going after minors in 10 books lol. i did have to count because there are THAT many. it is so bad.#I'm so sick of her trying to normalize this behavior. this is not a case of well it's in the book = she endorses it but moreso that given ma #rius is in like half the books and excused from most if not all of his actions bc his victims love him THAT much. i think it does come #across as painting it in a positive light. i am just really fed up. my coping mechanism is how many times i make jo.ker references per book #but yeah. it just sucks and is very gross and like... i read lo.lita i think that is a nuanced portrayal of the topic and doesn't treat it #how she does. but she just like... I've never seen ANYONE do shit like this non-stop. it's just very odd to me how it's like ok here's the #most vile man alive and here's a 740 page book about his TRAGIC PAST!! feel bad for him!! aww poor man who has made so many people suffer!!#grooming mention #sorry i just. it's my biggest gripe behind the racism and it's just. I'm really fed up. and thankfully I'll be done soon ish but it's just.#very frustrating lol. these books make me so mad

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aeide-thea · 1 year ago

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poäng appreciation post 💛

#i forget if i said but Baby Sister and i stopped off at ikea on the way back from picking her up at the bus stop on monday #and finally replaced the ruined-by-a-succession-of-cats-(in-ways-both-unsightly-and-gross) Accent Chair in the living room #with a poäng rocker (bc the shape is a little more interesting and less instantly recognizable than the regular chair) in birch (my beloved #also they make fancy tufted cushions for it now! wish they came in more colors but it's a real improvement on sad options past #and anyway it's like. now you can actually sit here in the morning and look out the window at the extremely beautiful view #and the chair actually supports you??? like i could see down the road trying to work out some kind of custom cushioning that's thicker #but the shape of the frame is so ergonomic for me that it's genuinely quite comfortable regardless. bentwood exocorset…#anyway. not a very original post but i just DO really love ikea #like yes it's a mixed bag but also honestly if you're buying particle board—#(i was going to say 'and expecting it to hold up' but. honestly i think it's just. if you're buying particle board period)#—that might be on you.#(like. if you're being pressed in from all sides by budget constraints and immediate need and no accessible better-made used alternatives—#obviously you do what you have to. but it's like buying pleather—you know‚ or should‚ that the material is going to disintegrate.)#but the things ikea makes with decent materials are remarkably well-designed and affordable for what they are‚ has been my sense?#you just gotta shop carefully but like. that's true literally everywhere.#anyway. in conclusion i love my new buddy with its clean lines. …do people name chairs ever.#i've never before had the urge but this one feels like a little assembly-line friend that deserves its own identity. like a star wars clone #(lol what if i gave it a little nametag somewhere hidden. secret identity talisman 4 chairpal.)#(& yes i promise i'm as aware of the‚ uh‚ itself-ness of this tag spiral as you are. :) )#domesticities

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fangomango · 1 year ago

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Any weather that isn't super hot is rather romantic to me

Like it may be heavily pouring but all I want to do is take you outside and absorb the rain like a cactus

Texas for the sake of my now single life make every day not hot so I can think about my otps

:) thank you

#kissing your beloved on a seat mext to a rainy window sounds lovely #....you could also make out with them too for added...ness..idk making out and having the sound of rain sounds nice #not for me obviously (kissing someone on the lips sounds rather gross and bad tasting) but like...for ao3 fics it would be good #deep down i am nothing if not a sappy romantic #writing things #romance prompts #idk if you like it im sure this could be a prompt #its one in my head for my otp...#mhhh thinking of a fic and nkt writing it because you dont know how to write down the movie your head made as a story #yknow i havekt really had anything to like...ship that wasnt canon in months and i love this feeling #ever since metal family i havent shipped anything that wasnt canon #(fun fact.when i was posting metal family k wasnt even hyperfixated on it.i was just posting it because people liked it and i have a sad #need to people please so people like me because i have few friends and attachment issues....haha anyways)#but like...i miss this feeling of love this kind of thing brings #(also jsut got out of a 5 year relationship...not much love feeling for me so maybe im overreacting)#...im rambling #rain>>>>

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somelazyassartist · 1 year ago

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Ough I need to avoid my TAZ shelf when I'm tired, because reminding myself that The Adventure Zine and the graphic novels are right next to each other and how painful some of the differences between them are legitimately gives me a migraine. That and my eyes are weird so looking at comics for too long just does that anyways but I digress

#gods it hurts. like i can see the dates these are all printed and i can see the dates the original episodes were posted #and it's like. maybe it was accidental and maybe the vision for his character just happened to change naturally around that time. but.#it feels so painfully obvious when the changes to how Jocasta specifically is drawn were made and why (for part of it at least)#no idea where some of the really fucked up 'unintentional' implications came from but it's obvious SOMETHING changed #cuz man. like maybe it's JUST ME but it really just feels idk. icky. gross. makes my skin crawl.#maybe it's just cause these are close to tropes that I've had to become extremely aware of in other media cuz of how it depicts ppl like me #but like. i can't look at the two next to each other without feeling like legitimately icked out even though it's just a comic #idk. just don't really have anyone i can vent to that seems to take my feelings seriously because it's 'just a drawing you're overreacting'#other than my girlfriend who has very kindly listened to me get some of those frustrations out but at this point she's heard it all already #so there's like. nobody i trust to actually listen to why it makes me feel bad without judging me for being 'too negative' about a dumb GN #vent #tw taz gn #tag gn trigger warning

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jennycalendar · 2 years ago

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it is so fun as a woman-adjacent person of color to see white people talking about the way spike got his coat like it’s a cute thing like so fun like SO FUN GUYS definitely DOESN’T make me feel nauseous hahahhahhahahha

#this is a personal thing where it’s just like . h . please . please please please stop #almost made this post months ago & decided against it #but saw smth just now that was like! okay!#so it’s just me that feels really gross about how that was handled? cool???? okay #so nikki wood is just a piece of clothing in spike’s arc! okay :) okayokayokay #you gotta understand . you don’t have to justify the in text racism. you can engage with it #and dissect it! but pls don’t just . uncritically parrot it

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sureuncertainty · 11 months ago

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at least now i've gone through an important tumblr rite of passage, watching a longtime mutual become a radfem :/

#the thing that really got me was that they were talking about their morality ocd triggering them about it #bc of the way tumblr and the internet in general has this black and white approach to things #and one of those i guess was 'transphobes = bad' which like. is not what i'm ever talking about when i say that things have more nuance #that said i DO think that the way this website prioritizing hating terfs over supporting trans people is kinda gross #but anyway this person was so anxious about it and it just was depressing bc i related to that #they were SO afraid of losing friends or being cancelled over it and i was just like damn i wonder if all terfs are that miserable #but they acted like they just had no choice but to believe this 'thing' that they constantly alluded to but never talked outright about #which i am pretty sure now is just that they're a radfem or at least believe in a lot of radfem ideologies #and honestly? i go back and forth between genuinely feeling so bad for them and being like well that's what you fucking get #i wish i'd had the courage to talk to them about it but whenever i thought about it i got immeasurable anxiety #sorry for the very long tag ramble i just haven't been able to talk about this and it's been eating ME up too for a long time #i just feel horrible. i know in the past they've mentioned too how they want people to tell them why if they unfollow/block them #but i can't. i cannot. and then i'm afraid of just feeding into their victim complex by doing this #i just can't win. and it's like. i'm trans i am literally affected by their bigotry that they're acting like is just not even a choice #ALSO I REMEMBER HOW THEY MADE A POST ONCE ABOUT HOW PEOPLE IRL DON'T TALK ABOUT TRANS STUFF #LIEK IDK WHAT PLANET YOU ARE LIVING ON MY DUDE BUT I HAVE LIKE 5 TRANS COWORKERS AND EVERYONE IS VERY NORMAL ABOUT THEM #like maybe YOU live in a bad area #but you're just a really loud minority #anyway. yeah. just. oof.#still feeling some kind of anxiety about it #win rambles

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ace-apple · 11 months ago

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every time someone talks about qcellbits relapse as "giving into his urges" or some shit in that vain an angel loses its wings a fairy dies etc etc

#its just. the wording of it. it icks me so much #makes it feel like theyre trying to say hes showing like his true colors or something it makes me feel gross.#idk it just feels like a. weird way to talk about a relapse caused by triggering a whole bunch of trauma.#am i looking too far into this? probably. but like. it rubs ME the wrong way idk #neg #fandom neg #if anyone turns this little post into huge discourse or anything how about dont please.#this is like mostly a personal vent abt shit idk #its the type of shit that makes me really hate the popular fanon ****** dynamic that people just kinda. made up #like i dont know what version of qcell youre talking about but its not the one i am #shrug #again. just leave this post alone ideally. im not maintagging this #just tagging neg for filttering purpose

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luvevee · 2 years ago

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It's pretty annoying having to scan basically every artist for i/cest shit in any media that has siblings because most of them hide it on alt accounts/platforms/sly tags and that's a big reason why I'm too burnt out on reblogging art

#literally the word 'pr/ship' feels so dumb to me like it's just gross shit #it's why i fell hard out of submas since if that wasn't the case the 'neutral' artists supported it/stayed quiet #like holy shit I've found a good few artists here on twitter being into that nasty shit just by scrolling #like i shouldn't have to find out on another app on accident to see the person I'm supporting caters to that garbage #'we want to be left alone and ship what we want btw we're gonna violate everyone's boundaries because fuck the purists'#imagine thinking you're a victim because you make art of i/cest and make it your entire personality to consume that media-#and then purposely get into spaces where people are uncomfortable with it/getting joy out of that #'why not reblog stuff without doing it' cuz i don't want someone's shit on my page when they're actually a garbage person #i really don't understand 'lol the purists are upset' -> 'omg they're so mean to us' just because most people aren't on their side with it #literally an anon came into my partner's inbox taunting him about touching his stuff like a 6 year old #imagine preaching 'don't like don't look' but when normal people say 'don't touch my stuff' you reverse and cry 'it's not fair'#or saying how you're proud about the gross shit you make but you have alts to hide it/lie about it like 🤨 thought you were proud of it #it's just annoying when im looking for good trigun/submas/dmc/etc art and see the person who made it ships the twins #like cool #and it ends up becoming a long list and it becomes annoying to look for art to reblog #idk I'm bitching and it's something that's gross #rosebud posting 💐

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gonfrees · 2 years ago

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seems like we are at the crying part of the illness.

#we can postpone cjristmas #gonna talk in da tags for a bit because a post full of perosmal info feels so gross #ive been crying on and off for hours. km so upset being atuck in my fucking room with covid while nobody else is sick at all #and im glad nonody is sick im just so fucking lonely #started symptoms on friday #twsted neg fri and sat. didnt test sundah cause i dont have a lot. tested monday and was psorive #literally slept with my bf all of those nights #shared weed pen on sunday with ofher roommate #nobody else is sick #i just feel so sad and tired. im used to himan or cat affection daily and ive had none. i feel so lonley and trapped #i did everythjng right to avoid being sick and my bf was also with me that whole day and he didnt get sick #i feel stupid weak and pathetic for gettinf sixk. i dont have symptoms anymore but atill positive #im so fucking sad and i can hear people hanging out and they are havjng fun and im glad but im jealous #im so sad and lonely. i want to wrap things for christmas and do more stockjng sruffer shopping. i want to watch movjes with people #i love holidays because i love to hang out with my friends and i fucking cant amd today especially its really tearing me up #my bf is upset that im no communicating and hes trying to cheer me up but everything is making me misribke and i dont know how to stop it #i like to do things for people when theyre sick and i know everyone isnt like me but it hurts to not have that done for me #offering to order food is nice bjt j want skmething made for me but nkbody is as good as i am at making things and i dont want to ask #i dont want to bother people but im literally breakkng down today. cant atop fucjing crying and i feel weak and pathetic. stupid #i tried so hard not to get sick and they are saying o dont want to fucking do that #id rather everyone open stockjngs and do presents without me because im tired of not saying what i got people i want tk show people #i like wrapping gifts and nobody wants me to toich anything because of cocid so others are wrapping things from me for me #i dont know its all very stupid but i feel very alone but also dont want people joking at me to make me feel better. im just mad and sad #ok im done now:) ill post a drawing later #nap time #text

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danielnelsen · 2 years ago

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im reading all my old hwu fanfics oh god.. like i was a decent writer but some of the stuff i wrote smh......... and like.. the ships. or one in particular. had to write for the most popular ship if i wanted anyone to read anything i wrote but please know that i HATED it

#if you know then you know #i didnt write much multi-chapter fic (mostly bc i like to plan things too much in advance) but that was the longest fanfic i wrote #idk where i ever got up to with posting it but the doc on my computer is 26k words #13 chapters + 1 paragraph of chapter 14 #what a waste of my life lmao. like yeah im glad i wrote a lot for a few years there. definitely a good skill and some good practice #but yeesh #im sitting here reading it and it's from the LI's perspective (which i think was a great choice on my part lbr)#and im just like..........wtf are you doing you gross irresponsible adult man. like yeah danny's VERY stupid here but you're Much Worse #im also realising that danny is absolutely the precursor to my main hawke now. VERY similar personalities #personal #when i say i hated it.. it was fun to write because i enjoyed writing and i liked interpreting the existing dialogue we had in the quests #and turning it into an actual descriptive story. and i was good at it. i was good at writing characters and their feelings #i Really enjoyed writing that character. it just sucked that the ship was horrible and i felt like i had to pretend it wasnt #dethan was the actual good ship but - for all the talk i saw - people didnt actually read it #even the one fic i wrote with chris did waaay better (but tbf that's probably one of the best fics i ever wrote; the post-proposal one)#anyway. if im cringing while reading my old stuff it's not because it's badly written #it's because the way the characters behave already made me cringe when i wrote it lmao

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