#this me at my lowest in writing
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Girl I need ANYTHING for percy and nyx! Reader cause I wanna self indulge 🤭
Maybe headcanons? A blurb ?
Anything really. maybe sprinkle some Egyptian shit in there cause I love representation of my pretty country. 🤭
Like that amazing fic you did for percy x Turkish reader
LOVE U BESTIE 💙
constellation. | percy jackson x daughter of nyx! reader
a / n : baby i didn't know what to mention about egyp so i wrote some mentions for ya, thank thank thank you for the compliments, love u smm!!! 🤍
warnings : mentions about dying, cleopatra's grave (i hope that's the thing a woman got close to finding), but suprisingly not else
"and the closest person to find her grave was a woman, can you believe that?" you said, pausing the video. percy nodded exictedly with you, head resting on your shoulder.
"you really know a lotta stuff about cleopatra," he said and you rolled your eyes. "duh, im egyptian." percy chuckled, kissing your shoulder. "yeah, my bad."
you guys were doing a picnic out in the camp's secret forests, one that you two managed to found in one of your sneaking out sessions. you both layed under the stars, percy snuggling into you like a koala while you made him watch cleopatra documentary videos with you.
you put your phone away, playing with percy's hair instead. percy was now watching the sky just like you, trying to find constellations.
"what's that?" he pointed out. you looked where he was pointing. "orion." you explained, resting your cheek on his head. percy hummed, still searching for stars to ask you.
"and that?"
"big bear."
"that?"
"aquarius."
"you know so many."
"i know all of them percy."
he chuckled at your response, kissing your colarbone. "my bad again, sorry." he murmured and you only smiled. "i didn't know you could see this much constellations from camp."
"i know right?" he agreed, hugging your waist tighter. "do you have the power to create a constellation?" he asked softly. you hummed, thinking for a moment. "maybe, who knows?"
"would you make me a constellation if i died?" he asked quietly.
"stop asking things like that," you warned, already starting to overthink. "you know i hate these conversations."
"yeah, sorry. my ba-"
"your bad, i know." you both laughed. after a minute of silence, you finally had the courage to answer his question.
"i wouldn't." you whispered.
"hm?" he asked, resting his chin on your colarbone. "you wouldnt what?"
"i wouldn't turn to you in a constellation." he frowned, standing up on his elbows. "why not?"
"you'd shine so bright that the other constellations wouldn't be seen."
#im so romantic right#this me at my lowest in writing#im sorry girl i'll try better#DID I WRITE THE NAMES RIGHT?? IDK IM NOT A STARGIRL SORRY#wish i was tho#percy jackson#percy x you#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson and the heroes of olympus#percy jackson series#pjo hoo toa#percy jackson imagine#percy jackson headcanon#pjo show#pjo tv show
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one thing i find interesting is readers always ask for part 2,3,4 etc for fics they enjoy, but when writers actually decide to write multi part fics no one wants to read them
#idk it just hit me today like i personally don’t do part 2 of my fics just bc i have so many ideas that i want to work on#but my multi part fics are the lowest notes i ever get on here#and i don’t really mind anymore i’m writing what i want … but like why.#u wanna say part 2 on everything but then don’t read things with 2 or more parts#anyway idk#just another day of me being a hater
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its my birthday..... the big TWENTY !! i have at long last graduated from teen
#might be getting ramen for dinner tn and i am overjoyed#o7.#it really is just some guy of me to have the most common birthday in the US huh.#✖ ooc.#ill get to writing when i get to it . i have a lot of things grabbing my energy#some pos some neg KJNDKJFN#& tumblr will kinda always be the lowest on my priority list 💔
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Main reason I post this selfie: this is the happiest I've been in a while.
More rambling in the tags.
#not trek#me#selfie#I snapped this photo really quick to show off my necklace to some friends and some of them pointed out that i literally glow from happiness#which is not a lie#idk about the glow#ik about the happiness#and it means a lot to me and it makes me a little emotional too because exactly 1 year ago my mental health was awful#and i might actually write and post something about this because it's been a lot in my mind#i don't wanna forget my lowest point tbh because I want to be proud of how far i've come#because I own it 100%#anyway end rambling#CHECK OUT MY CUTE NECKLACE BTW#it's new and I love it
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okay but after the whole plagiarism deal, anyone else suddenly feel like they could actually write great video essays? like bro the casual research notes I have for fic are better than what these “”””great”””” video essayists do. what could I achieve if I allowed myself to do the academic breakdown of my current hyperfixation
#I’m not gonna bc that would require me to essentially do a speech#and I don’t do that#but I find it very encouraging actually to know that me at my lowest writing point#wasn’t even as fucking shitty as what these guys did#personal
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Was talking about Raphael on Discord and ended up bringing up the VVitch movie ending scene, but with Tav/Durge and Raphael instead. Need that man to ask me if I want to live deliciously right in my ear 😩
#bg3#baldurs gate 3#raphael the cambion#raphael bg3#bg3 raphael#it also had me thinking about a fic where Tav's social life is ruined and Raphael comes in and manipulates them into becoming his warlock#like yes babe. emotionally manipulate me by saying stuff like “How I was the one who was there for you at your lowest. You need me.”#if a fic like this exists please tell me cus if not I am desperate enough to try my hand in writing again lmao#ramblings
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the universe works in mysterious ways…
#sapphire speaks#over the last week and a half I’ve had some of the worst days that have led to serious depression dissociation and ******** thoughts#and then yesterday I had the best day I’ve had in a long time#I’ve found inspiration and excitement in a new ship that has inspired me to write fic again#I got to go to my first drag show with some of my friends from work#I got to go to a steakhouse with my manager and doctor i work with#I got to meet some new people and experience being in a queer space for the first time in my life and it was so exciting#I’ve never felt more free and more like myself getting to talk to other queer people and experience a safe space I can be myself#it reminded me that even when I’ve been struggling at my lowest points… life finds a way to make things better
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*sighs*
thinking about classics disney movies again
get me out of this hell hole before I do something
#hitting the lowest of lows right now#oh shit oh god no I'm having flashbacks of my lion king phase help me#I need to just write an apology thingy to all those blogs I stalked before making an account that I bothered for lk tk fluff lmfao#sorry to you people I was a loser back then#It's NOT the lion king this time tho lol
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will you be giving wiggly more panic attacks in future fics yes or no
Oooh, yes.
I can assure you, yesssss.
#hatchetfield#starkid#lords in black#wiggly#wiggog y’rath#wiggog y’wrath#well not “panic attacks”#but similar heart-breaking trauma that reduces him to his very lowest#so if you ask me even better#don’t you know anon?#I’m a writer and he’s my favourite character.#of all time. he’s the one I’ve written the most fics about so far. in my entire writing quote-unquote “career”.#what that means is#as long as he exists he will always be in my grasp and will always be subjected to horrible torment for my own nourishment.#I thought that was obvious.
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ass in the air on my hands and knees searching for link/allen (romantic platonic idgaf in this economy) fanwork i scoured the ao3 tag dry and 8 years of tumblr posts and now i am Two fists deep in pixiv, dodging projectiles of pathetic ai porn, desperately looking for crumbs. i’ve done it again folks i found a more or less dead fandom and got stuck on the niche pairing of the main character and the guy who debuted with a bowl cut and now there is nothing to be done but CRY LOUDLY and then (some time later) EQUIP PEN
#(through tears) BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD#fuckass niche as fuck pairings always nerf me for some reason i’ve got a thing for the…. the Unexpected. or the Unperceivdd#i just think there’s something so compelling about allen’s idealism in spite of the horrors he’s experienced contrasted with#link’s single mindedness in his devotion to reveiller or whomstever the fuck (can’t spell europe)#being as he is an orphan who has never had anyone else in his life#but then allen comes along and suddenly he’s forced to be in close quarters with another human being for a long ass time#and allen obviously hates it at first but they’re both Food Enjoyers and allen’s so. he’s so idealistic. he thinks he can save everyone#meanwhile link has never cared about anyone except his friends who all became third exorcists and cocked off + leveiller + now. now now#howard ‘i’m at war with myself’ link#HOWARD LINK HAS ONLY EVER AFFORDED HIMSELF TWO MERCIES#THE FIRST IS HIS FEELINGS OF LOYALTY TOWARDS REVEILLE#WHICH AT SOME POINT IN HIS EMPLOYMENT TRANSCENDED A MERE SENSE OF OBLIGATION#THE SECOND IS ALLEN WALKER#meanwhile allen’s never had anyone see him at his lowest so often on the pure basis of fuckass watch a dog a (mario voice) duty#the forced vulnerability into a genuine sense of concern but the lines are eternally blurred#throw in link’s transparency when kanda drags him out of dog zone and he’s like okay ya this is what i’m here to do#and allen’s unequivocal acceptance of him all the same#AND THE WAY HE BLUSHES WHEN ALLEN PINCHES HIS NOSE (7999 psychic damage sustained. critical hit!)#i like unlikely and difficult connections which require infinite energy and faith to sustain#i like what they’ve got going there#it compels the Fuck out of me#ok now that i’ve yapped this much i Must. i Must write. so write i will (later)#after (?) this comic and also my mom and i finish watching blossoms in adversity which . favorite chinese period drama ever fyi#ok good night i sleep#olio#gelmo
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spare katekevaaron snippet please if you have any my family is starving 🙏🙏
so uhhh the bad news is i haven't written katekevaaron in a hot minute bc i've been fighting for my life in my kevin fest fic doc BUT the good news is i have a couple wips in the backlog that i can pull from for you and your family <3 enjoy
unknown if this will ever get published (or possibly recycled into something new?) but i wanted to write a during-canon banquet scene for them where katelyn's like damn this is crazy. anyway who wants to dance
#thanks for asking!! i plan to write more of them if i make it out of the figure skating au alive not to worry#please ignore typos etc#also have people heard of rubinoff#that was the lowest of the low in terms of cheap vodka during my college years but research says it may just be a new england thing#if anyone knows of a more geographically accurate equivalent for SC please let me know#katekevaaron#steph writes
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You know, sometimes I’ll think “oh I really liked reading as a child but there weren’t any books that really molded my personality.”
And then I’ll look at a self insert character I’ve made and realize it’s literally a fucking reskin of Sydney Carton from A Tale of Two Cities.
#because I’m just#the model of good mental health.#complicated relationship with love? check#complicated relationship with alcohol? check again#I literally said in front of my whole ninth grade English class that I felt this man on a personal level#and was CONFUSED WHY MY TEACHER WAS WORRIED BY THAT#me in 9th grade: yeah this man with the lowest self worth I’ve ever seen and is willing to throw his life away for the ones he loves?#me: yeah I aspire to be him because he’s just like me fr#my English teacher: *that Walter White gif of him falling over crying*#*shaking my fist* curse you Dickens you ruined me literature wise#I will never be free of this fucking English cunt’s ghost#don’t even get me STARTED on the run on sentences that bastard has kindled in my writing#if I could go back in time only once I’d use it to personally curb stomp Charles Dickens#anyways. this is the most I’ve ever talked about a self insert to someone who’s not my bff or partner#will I ever mention them again or even in more detail? we’ll see#captain's log
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dehradun days
you meet them for the first time,
knowing it's probably the last.
might as well make the most of this time,
since life comes at you fast.
you find the strangest of signals
in the no-network zones.
cross-tent communication with folks,
just rambling about the unknown.
there's the warmth of shared laughter,
that carries you through freezing nights,
and you look up at the flickering stars,
to finally see things in a different light.
and at 11,000 ft above sea level
you finally reach the peak,
just to realise the joy was in the journey,
and the friends you made that week.
you'll visit caves & splendid cafes,
and remember the city in mere parts,
but years later, you'll still tell everyone,
how dehradun captured your heart.
#inertia-writes#poets on tumblr#desi poetry#dehradun poetry#poems on india#poems on life#desiblr#being desi#dehradun#i went on a trek w the lowest of expectations and it was one of the best experiences of my life#it's so refreshing to meet people from different cities and of different ages and backgrounds#jan and feb were pretty meh but things have been looking upwards from march (thank you god - i acknowledge your existence)#thought of writing a happy poem for a change of tone (and also maybe because i am genuinely happy :) )#this isn't one of my best poems i feel - it's a bit unrefined - but who cares it is one of my happy ones sooooo#there are times when absolutely nothing significant happens and there are days when years happen#i didn't go in the mountains for solitude - i felt that here already haha. i went for a change.#but i gained so many memories w people and so many positive perspectives that i needed in general. also nayata premier league <3#i think i believe in destiny now. i was destined to meet those people and have a good time and come back to reality w a spring in my step#and maybe the mountains were calling. can't stay away from snow too long - i was born during snowy days anyway#came back home and am still in some weird positive trance - good for me#also my lucky streak is still going on - kaavish released a new song#historic moment in time (thank you god 2x)#poems on friendship#found family#poems on found family#all the may '23 - feb '24 melancholy has been washed out of my system. i am now set for the next tragedy of my life lol#dekhte hai kab tak khush rehti hu mein - kuch bhayankar honewala hai aisa lag raha hai#i do not remember the last time i was happy for a month straight - am i living in a virtual simulation?#whoever is controlling my life rn - i would like to continue to stay in this simulation - thanks v much
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this year rly has been an actual rollercoaster it’s kinda crazy
#i’ve quite literally had both the highest highs AND the lowest lows ever AT THE SAME TIME#two of my friends straight up died. school burned me out. didn’t get to talk to one of my besties for like multiple months.#got a bit depressed again#but then at the same time. i’m finally writing again. drawing again. i’m having so much fun doing it#mine and ramas relationship has developed in such a good way too#i got government hormones finally#got to spend the start of the year w one of my favourite ppl in the world and then got to go home and spend time with#my OTHER favorite person in the world. and also with one of my best friends#i’ve been so sad which i wished i didn’t have to be. but i’m also genuinely dealing with it better than i ever have before#it’s such a weird contrast#hope the next half of the year is a bit easier at least. lol#arambles
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i am trying quite desperately to finish chapter 6 before it reaches 6k but i am. i am losing gang
#sophie speaks#fighting in the trenches#im getting stuff done today and i got some done yesterday#but my mind still feels so fibro fogged out#but shes so close to done#theres like... 2 and a half bits that need doing and i think the first part is fine#its only really the second part thats gonna cause me any trouble#because i am writing for the worst character on earth (George)#you guys are geniunely going to hate him after this#hes the lowest ranking villain of low ranking villains but he's also my least favourite type of person#which is those who punch down#like yes the joker did murder readers entire extended family but George is like. just a piece of shit
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sometimes i debate posting my own poetry on here, but it's literally so intimate and personal i can't ever bring myself to
#the one consistent thing about me for more than a decade now is the poetry i always write at my lowest of lows#personal.txt
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