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Girl I need ANYTHING for percy and nyx! Reader cause I wanna self indulge 🤭
Maybe headcanons? A blurb ?
Anything really. maybe sprinkle some Egyptian shit in there cause I love representation of my pretty country. 🤭
Like that amazing fic you did for percy x Turkish reader
LOVE U BESTIE 💙
constellation. | percy jackson x daughter of nyx! reader
a / n : baby i didn't know what to mention about egyp so i wrote some mentions for ya, thank thank thank you for the compliments, love u smm!!! 🤍
warnings : mentions about dying, cleopatra's grave (i hope that's the thing a woman got close to finding), but suprisingly not else



"and the closest person to find her grave was a woman, can you believe that?" you said, pausing the video. percy nodded exictedly with you, head resting on your shoulder.
"you really know a lotta stuff about cleopatra," he said and you rolled your eyes. "duh, im egyptian." percy chuckled, kissing your shoulder. "yeah, my bad."
you guys were doing a picnic out in the camp's secret forests, one that you two managed to found in one of your sneaking out sessions. you both layed under the stars, percy snuggling into you like a koala while you made him watch cleopatra documentary videos with you.
you put your phone away, playing with percy's hair instead. percy was now watching the sky just like you, trying to find constellations.
"what's that?" he pointed out. you looked where he was pointing. "orion." you explained, resting your cheek on his head. percy hummed, still searching for stars to ask you.
"and that?"
"big bear."
"that?"
"aquarius."
"you know so many."
"i know all of them percy."
he chuckled at your response, kissing your colarbone. "my bad again, sorry." he murmured and you only smiled. "i didn't know you could see this much constellations from camp."
"i know right?" he agreed, hugging your waist tighter. "do you have the power to create a constellation?" he asked softly. you hummed, thinking for a moment. "maybe, who knows?"
"would you make me a constellation if i died?" he asked quietly.
"stop asking things like that," you warned, already starting to overthink. "you know i hate these conversations."
"yeah, sorry. my ba-"
"your bad, i know." you both laughed. after a minute of silence, you finally had the courage to answer his question.
"i wouldn't." you whispered.
"hm?" he asked, resting his chin on your colarbone. "you wouldnt what?"
"i wouldn't turn to you in a constellation." he frowned, standing up on his elbows. "why not?"
"you'd shine so bright that the other constellations wouldn't be seen."
#im so romantic right#this me at my lowest in writing#im sorry girl i'll try better#DID I WRITE THE NAMES RIGHT?? IDK IM NOT A STARGIRL SORRY#wish i was tho#percy jackson#percy x you#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson and the heroes of olympus#percy jackson series#pjo hoo toa#percy jackson imagine#percy jackson headcanon#pjo show#pjo tv show
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being with kaiser means having to dissect your own heart while stitching up his.
chewing on him jn the tags and etc. don’t mind me
he’d be pretty mean at first. he’s gauging your reactions; would you run if you saw everything that haunted him? how he haunts himself? Kaiser does nothing but spit and snarl at you, like a stray cat that’s only been kicked to the curb.
but you don’t leave him alone. not like every other one-night stand he’s had—no, you’ve made him breakfast—a traditional german faire—and brushed and put oil in his hair (his favorite scent too; you tell him it’s been your favorite for a few years. something in him softens).
It’s so domestic he almost vomits after that, but on his first night away from your apartment, he can’t sleep. Practice is shit and he’s not performing well, to the point where he initiates a facetime call (kaiser hates initiating. it feels like begging for your attention, when yours should be solely on him anyway.) and you pick up instantly.
the time difference makes something shatter in him. You’re just waking up… hair messy and eyes bleary. You can hardly speak or hold up the phone…
“Mihya…? You okay?” you’re slumped in bed, wearing his sweater. He might combust (when did Michael become so attached to you? He doesn’t know, but he whispers your name like a prayer, like you’re his guiding light).
“I’m better now, dear. Let me tell you what that idiot of a striker did at practice—“ he rambled on, and watches you nod along. You him and agree with him, and a weight falls off of his shoulders. Kaiser can love you. Perhaps he already does…
#kaiser who likes seeing faces of anguish#would need to see you at your lowest or as close as it gets#before finally opening up to you#kaiser who likes smart people; he’d have to go head to head with you#and you’d have to fight and pull teeth before he opens himself up for you#and if you see the side of him he’s buried#and if you don’t run from it#from the monsters he hides and the one he thinks he is#then i think you’d be *his*.#and he’d be yours.#i need to chew on him grrrr#i’m a pretty cold person#which made me think abt how vulnerable he could get#before he’d need something from you#too#THE PARASITES ARE BACK HGNNDNF#reading kaiser fics and reread lore’s thoughts on kaiser at dinner and my brain… full of the silly blond boy…#michael kaiser x reader#michael kaiser#blue lock#blue lock x reader#bllk x reader#kaiser x reader#koi♪#did i think before posting this#nope not at all#alas#koi writes
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Spoilers for sctir / msch ~693
Thinking about how regardless of the differences in privilege, luck, and experiences, Han Yoojin and Sung Hyunje will always reach the same conclusion. That no matter what, they'll meet each other in the end.
One of the clearer examples being the Game of Life arc in chapters 680+.
Hyunje is shown to be extraordinarily lucky, rolling 6's constantly and starting off the game with a well-funded restaurant and a bike, while Yoojin ends up starting a moving service with a skateboard. Then, as the game requires a dice roll for each turn, we end up faced with Yoojin's evident poor luck that forces him to charge forward with his own tenacity while Hyunje gets an easy ride through.
It's to the point where Yoojin deliberately renders the dice roll useless because he can't depend on luck to get him anywhere, eventually climbing his way up to the position of mayor. And when he has to go to the neighbouring city to meet the other mayor.... guess who it is... it's Hyunje.
And there they are, role-playing over-simplified versions of their lives only to lead them to stand at the height of fictitious power as equals once more.
and in cruel fashion, you're reminded once more.
"For both of us. In the end, I’m just another pawn in this game too."
- 693, Sung Hyunje to Han Yoojin, when he wins by the machinations of the transcendents, rather than any sort of fairness. (and in some sense, this too, is their equally unfortunate luck.)
#I have so much to talk about when it comes to shj & hyj being equals#that in some sick and twisted way#someone at the highest peak and another at the lowest point will simply reach the same end#and ooh- don't get me started on the parallel between the shj & crescent moon scene with hyj & diarma#both of them getting torn apart due to things with their memories-#It's to the point where I'm straight up tempted to write an essay on hjyj & their deliberate parallels#han yoojin#sctir#sung hyunjae#sung hyunje#sctir spoilers#my s class hunters#the s classes that i raised
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*Holds up Félix and Chloé* It’s not obvious because it’s all WIPs and very little has been posted but I care them so much. I love putting them in a room together and locking the door to see what happens. They’re two somewhat territorial cats who are fighting one minute, then totally chill the next. They’re judging each other. They like to hang out and judge other people. They’re mocking each other one minute and then planning each other’s parents’ (Andre and Audrey’s/Colt’s) murders. Amélie invites Chloé over and treats her like a daughter. Chloé is breaking down crying in Amélie’s arms because she feels loved one moment, then smirking at Félix because she’s stealing his mom five minutes later. Sabrina knows Félix by his full government name due to Chloé’s ranting but has never formally met him. They both love Adrien so much but they’re not the greatest at remembering to tell him. They both have so many issues. They complain about each other. They have blackmail material for days. They would kill for one another if it came down to it. Do you feel me. Do you get me. Did any of that make sense. I know I’m taking a five second interaction and allusions to what their relationship was before and blowing it up out of proportion but they interest me so MUCH and I WILL make headcanons about it.
#One of these days I’ll get to write something proper and my rambling will make more sense#there’s a few moments in CTS that I really wanna get to bc they mean so much to me#I wanna see them interact more. I think it’ll be funny/interesting/heartbreaking. I’ll take anything#I haven’t written anything for it but I do think it would be interesting to have them talk post season 5#Where Chloé is at her lowest and thinks she can’t get better. and then Félix rocks up like ‘Been there#‘C’mon let’s get you some self reflection and view changing experiences. Or don’t I can’t make you’#and she’s like ‘What you’re suddenly perfect now??’ and he’s like ‘HA. no. but I’m getting better. trying to anyways. and you can too’#‘But you have to WANT to.’#and. yeah. I just think about them a lot okay#miraculous ladybug#felix graham de vanily#felix fathom#chloe bourgeois#SB Speaks#SB Rambles#oh boy I did a lot of rambling
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one thing i find interesting is readers always ask for part 2,3,4 etc for fics they enjoy, but when writers actually decide to write multi part fics no one wants to read them
#idk it just hit me today like i personally don’t do part 2 of my fics just bc i have so many ideas that i want to work on#but my multi part fics are the lowest notes i ever get on here#and i don’t really mind anymore i’m writing what i want … but like why.#u wanna say part 2 on everything but then don’t read things with 2 or more parts#anyway idk#just another day of me being a hater
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#lautrec of carim#alfred hunter of vilebloods#d beholder of death#fire knight queelign#needle knight leda#polls#shitposting#soulsborne#look I swear it is the last one I will go back to hiatus gfhkhjhk#my mental health fell apart at the seams ok?#but even at my lowest I can't stop thinking about characters love me the way I am#leda is probably the most sympathetic execution of the concept up to date#however val converted me by how he writes lautrec lol#at the very least leda is the only one who doesn't make me feel fear..#it is all the fault of miquellas charm nooooo!!!!!!
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I was planning on writing my thoughts in the tags about the episode after watching it subbed.... But honestly..... There's just. So much. I love pokemon horizons so much
#vi rambling#pokemon#all i can say is that. this conclusion is very rewarding and amazingly written frankly..... im just. awuhh#amethios words to gibeon. his complete resolve and faith and compassion. lucius telling gibeon#he was chosen by zygarde and not abandoned by him because of his vision.#lucius essentially waited for gibeon to free him so they could both pass on together... in peace.... he never gave up on him#even when gibeon was at his lowest and sees himself as alone and unworthy of his own dream. i did cry.#stroking amethios head... believing in him. lucius believing in him. saying “rystal is waiting for us”..... they love each other so So much.#liko and amethio mutually nodding meant so much to me.... i know theyll paths will keep intersecting and i will be insane about it more and#more... (he was so startled when she and roy and dot were about to get hit too im... :''( )#the belt falling and friede's words...#“all that takes form is lost to time.. but the story of the ancient adventurer will last as long as you remember it”...#is so good. crystallizes the themes of legacy so brilliantly#i was so sad and devastated but it was also so cathartic....#the slow buildup to friede's#“parting”. the music swelling the tension. reaching out for cap with all his might and trusting him to take care of the kids.....#as he flashes them his reassuring smile before just. plummeting downwards... and liko saying “that was the last sight i saw on my journey”.#inconsolable. what if i end it all <- what i messaged my friend fhsjsjhsuqudjw#i just...#whwhh...... wjwhwuwhuh....... :((#and now. SPINELLLLL YOU FREAK#(twirls hair). HIS NEW OUTFIT. as though the old one wasnt enough im so. ok. obsessed with this man#president of exceed + explorers. Framing the rvts. such a good narrative direction honestly because#it keeps centering around Narratives. the next arc will be to recover and reshape the narrative around the rvts to honor their legacy.#which is !!! SO!!! GOOD!!!!! they're a continuation of rhe ancient explorer...... auhhhrurhhh#and generally spinel is so compelling to me. when antagonists are compelling and the writing is good (insane about both spinel and gibeon)#liko's melancholy too.... what i really hope for is an exploration of their grief around friede... he was their mentor... their guiding#figure their caretaker......#rhis isnt even mentioning how incredibly emotional i got when lucius and gibeon started disappearing#and pagogo fell out of his arms.... i jus. just. wjusj.... i love them both so much.... i love amethio so much..... i jsuuwjdiwdl..........
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*smacks my brain with a stick* BE NICE *bonk* UR FRIENDS CARE ABOUT U *bonk* ITS OKAY IF UR A LITTLE ANNOYING *bonk* PPL WHO TRULY CARE ABT U STILL LOVE U IF UR ANNOYING *bonk* YOU HAVE HEALTHY RELATIONSHIPS NOW *bonk* IF SOMETHING WAS WRONG THEY'D TELL U *bonk* NOBODY IS LEAVING U OR PULLING AWAY FROM U *bonk* U ARE JUST PARANOID BC UR A TRAUMATIZED MEOWMEOW *bonk* U ARE NOT LESS VALUABLE THAN OTHERS *bonk* U ARE WORTHY OF THE LOVE AND KINDNESS UR FRIENDS GIVE U *bonk* U DONT HAVE TO EARN LOVE *bonk* U DONT HAVE TO BE PERFECT FOR PPL TO VALUE U *bonk* U DONT HAVE TO PRETEND TO BE PERFECT AND OKAY WITH UR OWN SUFFERING *bonk* ITS NOT WEAKNESS TO LET PPL IN *bonk* THERE IS NO PIN U MUST WAIT ON TO DROP, UR FRIENDS DONT SECRETLY HATE U *bonk* U ARE VALUED AND LOVED U DUMB BITCH *bonk* U JUST NEED A SNACK AND SOME SLEEP *bonk bonk bonk* SMOKE SOME WEED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#sys: zeit🧿#this is like an anti-vent#Brain is being a dick :(((((#write out the affirmations yesyesyesyesyes#why must i be like this >:((((#No zeit !!! nobody secretly hates u and u didnt unknowingly obliterate ur relationships by existing !#sometimes ppl are just tired or hungry or dont feel well and thats okay !!!!#just bc u expect urself to socially perform when ur at ur lowest doesnt mean that other ppl hate u when they dont do the same#thats just the NPD/BPD comborino talking ho#not that I expect others to socially perform when theyre not doing well ofc#my brain just takes anything and everything and runs out of control with it like a dog with a crack-covered steak#this is why i do Substances™#actually bpd#bpd#bpd things#npd safe#actually npd#whaaaaat zeit acknowledging her own npd symptoms ?????? damn didn't know that could happen LMAO#slowly coming to terms with the fact that I have NPD as much as anyone else in the system#just less symptomatic than say like Onyx or Jay or Moses but ITS THE SAME BRAIN duh#ALSO 4 other ppl who will see this: ppl love and value u#me @ me: LET PEOPLE CARE ABOUT U ZEIT STOP QUESTIONING IT AND LET IT HAPPEN#idk im just silly and miss my friends and my brain for some reason thinks convincing me they hate me will fix that ??????#affirmations#teehee#any anti-NPD bullshit on my post will face my wrath (blocked lmao)
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okay but after the whole plagiarism deal, anyone else suddenly feel like they could actually write great video essays? like bro the casual research notes I have for fic are better than what these “”””great”””” video essayists do. what could I achieve if I allowed myself to do the academic breakdown of my current hyperfixation
#I’m not gonna bc that would require me to essentially do a speech#and I don’t do that#but I find it very encouraging actually to know that me at my lowest writing point#wasn’t even as fucking shitty as what these guys did#personal
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I understand the sentiment of "DA isn't dead because it's yours now" but to me personally? The series is over. I hope Veilguard will be the last game. Bioware will never "return to form" bc all the writers are gone. I just don't have that passion anymore not only bc Veilguard was a disappointment to me, but also it's sad to see what Bioware has become.
#also not E@ revealing this 5 days before my birthday 🧍♀️ i'm just so sad#i also don't write DA fanfic and i stopped making DA gifs. so i can't relate to that sentiment#i'm mourning the series that shaped me and saved me from my lowest times in high school 🥹#ME2 was my first bioware game i have fond memories of ME trilogy#while DA:I was my first DA game. i started playing it in 2015 i even skipped classes just to finish the game#playing each ME/DA felt so magical to me#imagine you waited 10 years for a sequel only to get a mediocre game and find out all original writers got laid off AGAIN#it's so hard to move on from this#pat rambles
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Was talking about Raphael on Discord and ended up bringing up the VVitch movie ending scene, but with Tav/Durge and Raphael instead. Need that man to ask me if I want to live deliciously right in my ear 😩
#bg3#baldurs gate 3#raphael the cambion#raphael bg3#bg3 raphael#it also had me thinking about a fic where Tav's social life is ruined and Raphael comes in and manipulates them into becoming his warlock#like yes babe. emotionally manipulate me by saying stuff like “How I was the one who was there for you at your lowest. You need me.”#if a fic like this exists please tell me cus if not I am desperate enough to try my hand in writing again lmao#ramblings
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fuck around (spent two straight days playing baldur’s gate) and find out (taking two online proctored college level exams on saturday to get the credits so i can apply to grad school within the month)
#i did the practice tests raw and got basically the lowest possible passing score#but#i don’t want there to be a chance of failing#it’s british and american literature if anyone has some good like crash course videos or whatever let me know#i’m writing my own study guide and flashcards and that within itself helps
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spare katekevaaron snippet please if you have any my family is starving 🙏🙏
so uhhh the bad news is i haven't written katekevaaron in a hot minute bc i've been fighting for my life in my kevin fest fic doc BUT the good news is i have a couple wips in the backlog that i can pull from for you and your family <3 enjoy
unknown if this will ever get published (or possibly recycled into something new?) but i wanted to write a during-canon banquet scene for them where katelyn's like damn this is crazy. anyway who wants to dance
#thanks for asking!! i plan to write more of them if i make it out of the figure skating au alive not to worry#please ignore typos etc#also have people heard of rubinoff#that was the lowest of the low in terms of cheap vodka during my college years but research says it may just be a new england thing#if anyone knows of a more geographically accurate equivalent for SC please let me know#katekevaaron#steph writes
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the universe works in mysterious ways…
#sapphire speaks#over the last week and a half I’ve had some of the worst days that have led to serious depression dissociation and ******** thoughts#and then yesterday I had the best day I’ve had in a long time#I’ve found inspiration and excitement in a new ship that has inspired me to write fic again#I got to go to my first drag show with some of my friends from work#I got to go to a steakhouse with my manager and doctor i work with#I got to meet some new people and experience being in a queer space for the first time in my life and it was so exciting#I’ve never felt more free and more like myself getting to talk to other queer people and experience a safe space I can be myself#it reminded me that even when I’ve been struggling at my lowest points… life finds a way to make things better
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*sighs*
thinking about classics disney movies again
get me out of this hell hole before I do something
#hitting the lowest of lows right now#oh shit oh god no I'm having flashbacks of my lion king phase help me#I need to just write an apology thingy to all those blogs I stalked before making an account that I bothered for lk tk fluff lmfao#sorry to you people I was a loser back then#It's NOT the lion king this time tho lol
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because this is my blog and i can make statements that are potentially objectively false and also conveniently omit my own failings if i want to, i just want to say for the record that i was right, my fellow group project members should have listened to me, and if we'd based our final submission on my original draft, or at the very least if they had actually engaged with the questions and comments i raised along the way, we would have gotten a higher grade.
#we got a fine grade#(the lowest one by far i got in this course but fully acceptable)#and also we all had a bunch of shit going on that left us with not a whole lot of time and energy to put into this assignment#but i put a fair bit of effort into engaging with the case study and assignment instructions and course material#and was deeply annoyed by the non-response i got in return#and that lacklustre attention to detail and engagement with the objectives of the assignment is reflected in our feedback#so i *am* going to be a dick about it here on my own blog for the duration of the time it takes me to write this post
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