#this is what my brain is like at the moment btw
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Pssst- can u please talk about your aus? Any >,> I want to listen but am unsure of what to ask, so just ramble to me <3 - 🌸 (really don’t hope you have any anons with this emoji lol and if you do 📘 )
okay so the au i have the least on but want to develop the most is the trans girl Link au where she and Zelda go live with the Gerudo, it would give me the opportunity to put my own spin on Gerudo culture and stuff like that (bc we all know they're handled pretty badly in canon and I think it would be neat to fix it, and I am heavily on the side of the Gerudo being one of the most magically gifted groups in post-age of myth Hyrule. I would love to just sit down and brainstorm stuff about them but idk I kinda need a reason too lol)
I know I wouldn't be the best person to completely rewrite Gerudo culture (I am white) but I am well aware of what there is to get mad about when it comes to canon and what not to do generally, and I love worldbuilding and developing magic systems and stuff like that. I have the most personal insight on the gender aspect of their whole thing and I want to make it gayer and less cishet male-gaze-y. Honestly, I'm not sure where to start on that, but it interests me greatly.
another set of AU's I am currently obsessed with are my totk role swap AU's. Which I have condensed into two, my Sage of Spirit Link AU, where Link gets sent to the past with a secret stone, gets their arm amputated, and studies under Mineru to develop their spiritual powers and get all dragoned.
And my Sage of Time Link AU (combined with my Sonia/Rauru swap au) where Link works on his time power under Rauru who gets fridged and makes Sonia the Queen of Light (I am drawing her redesign rn actually) and Link gets the classic fairytale princess treatment of falling into a magical coma to heal the master sword and live long enough to meet up with Zelda in the present, and yes, he does have to be kissed awake (I am writing it right now). Because I wanted an au where Sonia wasn't just a plot device for Rauru and I thought an AU where Link gets to (eventually) fight alongside Zelda like a co-op game, would be neat. That also means that Zelda gets to hang out with the ghost of Sonia a lot and get all the cool Zonai powers alongside learning the different magic from the other sages.
I'm also thinking a lot about a Cinderella Zelink AU for a writing prompt that I'm getting way too into (FYI Link is the Cinderella in this au) there's just something about a classic fairytale moment being gender-swapped that really gets me kicking my legs and drawing hearts in my diary yk?
#this is what my brain is like at the moment btw#i have no idea what to think about#i have so many things on my mind#also thank you for asking i love talking about my aus so much#feel free to ask more#in fact please do so#i would love you forever#ask andromeda#zelink#totk roleswap au#sage of time link au#sage of time link#sage of spirit link
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#dimension 20#fantasy high#fhsy#riz gukgak#baron from the baronies#fh class quangle#ask to tag#like always this should probably be tagged something I just never know what#been thinking abt this way too much. needed to excise it. good morning america#it is! bard!riz btw if u havent read the first thing of this. I should link it shouldnt I.... I'll do it#extremely sleep deprived. got like two hours last night the moment I lay down now I'm gonna immediately pass out#which is good! but it does mean I finished this with like a quarter of my brain lmao#say no more... its time to lay down. waga baga bobo
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like the important thing you must keep in mind about ten when you see him do literally anything is that he's soooooooooo so so so bad at actually isolating himself from other people. so TERMINALLY bad at it. he thinks to himself "i don't need human connection because everything i do causes pain and destruction to those around me :(" but then he experiences a crumb of human connection and his heart starts to spill out of his chest
#tenth doctor#dr who#doctor who#yeah i say heart singular cuz he said 'i suppose they break my heart' in the next doctor and i have perma brain damage over it#btw. this is why him and martha in the first half of series 3 are Like That. he trusts her deeply but he also doesn't want to form#another deep emotional connection bc look what happened with rose! right! i think partially the reason why he#has his moments of opening up about his past is because he thinks 'well she isn't going to see me again after this'#'i might as well tell her if she asks. it may even scare her off'. this is INSANE. he is INSANE. and he is so fucking STUPID#fool! you are developing a connection with someone!!!!!!! not pushing them away!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#look at what you are doing to martha's self esteem bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#10 era
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ok so i'm still a bit shaky on it but i would loooooove for orion's character arc in the baby prime orion au to be actually about learning that he's not. inherently special. which i know it sounds backwards because this au makes him primus' specialest little guy but hear me out.
in this au when optimus is born he is his siblings' miracle child, their little blessing, the most precious gift they could've gotten.
they love him so much that even when they die and orion grows up and forgets them, he still knows what being treasured and loved beyond measure feels like.
and part of the reason he believes that the system is wrong to treat cogless bots as lesser is that he cannot accept that he is as worthless as the world wants him to believe when someone once loved him like that.
it's a very... self-centered point of view even if it does come from a place of genuine love. he was loved, he was worth something to someone once, so if the world tells him he's worthless then the world must simply be wrong.
and don't get me wrong he still genuinely does believe others also deserve the choice to decide for themselves what they want to be, that they also deserve to be treated with the same respect and dignity that cogged bots do, he still wants to make things better for everyone.
but a good part of it is because he thinks he deserves better. because he knows he was once loved enough for someone to want to give him the moon and stars if he'd asked for them. and he's still chasing that feeling, even though he has long forgotten where he got it from in the first place.
so when he finds out he's the lost little prime, as much of a shock as it is, it is also sort of vindicating. it's a little bit like "oh. so that's why i always felt especial different".
he thinks that him being a prime is the reason for why he always aspired to be more, for why he always believed he deserved better. he thinks being a prime is what makes him worth loving more than he'd been told.
except that... well, he's obviously wrong. him believing he deserved better, that he was worth more than the system wanted him to believe, had very little to do with him being a prime and everything to do with his siblings loving him so very much he could never forget it even as he forgot them.
the reason he always felt there was something utterly wrong with the way they were treated and had the courage to constantly speak up against it when everyone else around him didn't was not because he had some divinely given wisdom or that he was inherently better than them and could feel it.
it was simply that he, unlike the rest of the miners, had someone to instill in him how loved and valuable he truly was. he had someone to let him know he deserved to be treated with kindness and dignity. he had that privilege even if it was taken away from him.
so. the second half of his arc would be him realizing all of this and taking upon himself to be that someone to everyone else. to be to others what his siblings were to him. that gentle voice that says "you deserve to be cared for, you deserve kindness, you deserve better".
i don't know i'm still working on it akjshdjka
#i talk a lot <3#tfone#transformers one#optimus prime#baby prime orion au#this is heavily inspired by the song 'miracle child' btw. like. i was listening to it on a loop yesterday and it caused irreversible damage#to my brain so. this is what came out of it.#i don't think i'm doing a good enough job of explaining exactly what i mean with this but i'm Done i want this out of my drafts ajshdasfds#ANYWAY#i just think it'd be funny if op's character arc is him learning that he's Not That Especial.#and then the moment the lesson truly sinks in (preferably with half of his chest being blown off in the process)#primus swoops in like 'okay now time to be the most important guy in the planet good luck kiddo!'
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It does NOT smell like Max | full circle moments part ¿¿¿
#reviving the nuked full circle moment series!!!!!!! its 2020 again here on ef-1.com#im trying to remember why i bulk deleted the others#but recently my brain has beem whirring#and i remember so much useless neat little f1 moments#the next one is jenson and lewis#f1#daniel ricciardo#why does he even say it doesnt smell like max btw. does he know what that smells like#Apollo's gift etc#maxiel
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howdy Dirk Nation how are we feeling about splinter parallels
#homestuck#dirk strider#Bro Strider#ult dirk#ultimate dirk#homestuck 2#hsbc#homestuck beyond canon#epic galleria#i dont like adding so many technical tags but if i dont organize myself i'll fucking explode and die and go Ult#one might call this yassifying. i simple call it having a Big Brain and Seeing the Truth#that comment screenshot is from an upload of Beatup btw. mf has like 3 fucking theme songs. lets beat him up#i was forced to draw fuckin hands. worst moment in my life. this was my own form of torture#you can see where i started to give up and go Fuck it We ball. tf is this bastard hunk wearing#what it is wrong with him. it is so attractive#i want him so bad i feel sick. i think i hauve covid. joder que bueno está el condenao me lo cargo a besos dame una noche con él#hey why dont you fuck with My narrative handsome. leans against wall with a rose on my mouth#i dont even read h:bc btw but the slay energy that panel had provoked some energy inside me in me to activate
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ulysses dies at dawn
good god this was quite the ride. thoughts!!
i walked in knowing nothing except its cyberpunk setting and gfdsdfgfdasdfsdf mind successfully blown
i love the narration so much. idk its refreshing to me at least in music. very creative and effective way to present info. big fan :D
i am very musically illiterate lol so apologies in advance, but the genre at first listen to me instantly made me think of bluegrass.
listen theres a violin and a banjo esque intrument (sounds like a shamisen to me lol) its close enough
anyway absolutely brilliant music, i like the juxtaposition of a futuristic premise & a somewhat older more grounded music style (i want to say country but i also dont want to be hunted down lol)
favourite songs are broken hahse horse and sunrise lol
my jaw dropped when the horse was scanned for everyhting including hidden soldiers (i wont spoil too much pls go listen) but there was a thing and it made everyone do things and *combusts*
interesting choice of characters! heracles orpheus ariadne and oedipus. i need art of them in 3 piece pinstripe suits nowwwww
took me a minute to get the mf joke lmao. nearly choked
orpheus my poor boi omg all he wants is his girl back :')
fuck u theseus. i feel bad for ariadne honestly. i wonder if in another reality she and dio also had something?
hades! being the villain isnt my favourite thing bc im biased as hell, but i do love the idea of him orchestrating shit for his amusement
the worldbuilding itself is amazing btw, the concept of acheron is quite fascinating and very sinister.
zeus is the worst omg eugh. the olympians are a mafia family lol
i love calypso having a bar idk why its such a funny concept to me. in my mind she and antinous own the place lol (epic crackship crossover no one can stop meeeee)
penelope my beloved. the end hit me like a truck. it was pretty fast like i barely had time to register the events as the story progressed (also i was studying so half my brain was elsewhere lol)
sunrise is the best song ever my ears have been blessed. the melody is ethereal i can literally hear the leaves rustling and feel the faint sunlight
according to the wiki the tree is an oak and ngl idve preferred olive but ig u cant have everything in life lol
the imagery is on another level. i never wished i could draw & animate so much in my life. i want to draw ulysses' last moments, crawling to the roots of the tree under which her remains rest
united once more in death as they were in life :')))))))
trying really hard to stay sane u guys and its getting harder augh
#ulysses dies at dawn#greek mythology#ulysses#greek mythology based musicals are going to be the end of me#goodnight!#not proofread btw dont look too close#reblogging with an art the post got too long lol#---------------------------------------------------#edit: also is it me having a galaxy brain moment or were the sirens a metaphor for drugs and was it intended in any way?#i cant get it out of my head that they sound the way what i imagine a hallucinogenic agent to look like#yk the swirls and bright colours? thats kinda what the song looked liketo me lol.#also it makes some sense hed dampen the pain with alcohol and some drug. just a thought tho
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woe; my kny self insert be upon ye 😾😾
isn’t she cool like
#hiiii!! My first ever post on here!!!!#My name’s Skye btw!!! Hello!!!!!!!#Anyways meet my super awesome cool sona but demon slayer!!! Her name’s Kumonoue and like#Nah jk she’s canonically a girlfail who pulled a Sawako Kuronama because some guy (Mui 💔) showed up and changed her life for the better#Like- after the swordsmith village arc Mui was minding his own business and all of a sudden he finds Kumonoue and was like#“Oh. friend?”#And basically picked her up off the streets and they were just- cool like that#Girlie lowkey kins Sawako Kuronama….. im not totally sure what kin means but uhh.. my girl was a friendless & VERY TOUCHED STARVED slayer#girlie also cant talk 2 people for shiiii but the moment you walk up to her and say something nice? Oh yeah. You on the brain.#She’s a sweet girl. Just lonely :(#my bestie boo once called her a mini Giyu and oh my god. He right wtf#Anyways she solos she breathes clouds or something and that’s awesome#I’ll gush about her later but 4 now!! Tags!!!!#demon slayer#kny oc#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#kny fanart#Gotouge#demon slayer fanart#digital art
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ramble about ur favs i wanna hear abt ur thoughts -zaptrap
HAN’S INFODUMPING ABOUT JAY... START!!!!
so like sgdkdhdkdhd I say Jay and Lloyd are my “favorites” but honestly it’s so hard to pick favorites out of this skittles squad like I love EVERY character for a variety of different reasons. I was going to also infodump about Lloyd but then I started talking about Prime Empire and then this post got. Long. So. it's just Jay I may infodump about Lloyd another day especially since I'm very Conduit Brained Rn but yea yea!
this is long so i'm putting most of it under the cut so y'all don't kill me for making a huge long post
I considered putting Zane and Sora on here as well since I’d also consider them my “favs” but like this is already gonna be. A lot of. Infodumping (also i typed THIS part before I even started and decided not to yell about Lloyd because this already got long enough). Maybe I’ll make a separate post for those two hmm hmm much to consider but for now MY (technically) FAVORITE NINJAGO CHARACTER: JAY WALKER
THE SPARKPLUG WHO INVADED MY BRAIN LIKE A PARASITE
so hey his name is a pun this makes me laugh ridiculously hard every time I remember he is named. After a misdemeanor HSKSHDKFH
Jay is such an interesting case of a character for me because I started out the show not liking him. Which is. Stares at my entire account I think my feelings have changed somewhat
Jay starts out as an asshole I don’t think anyone can disagree with me there (although honestly they’re all assholes in early ninjago they bullied a ten year old and left him dangling several feet off the ground) but over the course of the show you can see him start developing into a much more interesting character. He goes from being so insecure he's faking everything about himself to someone who knows who he is and is so genuine about it
now yea we could argue about whether his character was too uwu-ified post-season 10 but this is the FUN HAN POST SO WE'RE NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT THAT the point is you can SEE the growth that Jay has gone through and I am going to show you that growth through what I call
��� The Skybound to Prime Empire Effect ✨
I AM SO PASSIONATE ABOUT THE IDEA THAT PRIME EMPIRE WAS WRITTEN TO BE A DIRECT PARALLEL OF SKYBOUND AND WAS CENTERED ON SHOWING HOW THE NINJA ESPECIALLY JAY HAVE GROWN THROUGHOUT THE SEASON
when season 12 rolls around we are at the point in Jay's development where he is CONFIDENT in who he is. He's a fun-loving jokester with the power of lightning and the drive to help people whenever he can. He uses jokes and humor to help alleviate tension and get people through whatever's happening. And when on his own what does he do?
BECOME AN ENTERTAINER BABEY
i like to think jay's club in prime empire was a safe haven for anyone stuck in the game who figured out hey. we Can't Leave and felt freaked about it. Also Jay would generally try and spread the word that hey something ISN'T RIGHT HERE which would lead people to want to stay with him
(totally plugging my friend's fic but this kind of thing is explored in would you like to enter prime empire by @finn-m-corvex y'all should check it out cool cool)
also the prime empire shorts which i watched all of in the midst of typing this video cuz i love them go watch them please please please jay was publically fighting the red visors which I imagine may have raised some red flags for some players
THIS SOMEHOW TURNED INTO PRIME EMPIRE INFODUMPING LMAO ANYWAYS Jay's confident! He becomes an entertainer because it's who he knows he is! And it's something that will get people hyped and having fun, which is very in-character for Jay to do! He uses those kinds of things to mask the Bad Things going on and get people remembering what's good
I've talked about this sort of thing before but that's Jay's whole philosophy as early as season 9! Which is a DIRECT contrast to how he views it in season 6, as Nadakhan puts it scarily accurately
"You make jokes to mask the fact that you're afraid"
(i was gonna grab a screenshot for that like i did with the hunted scene but netflix has bloCKED THE ABILITY TO TAKE SCREENSHOTS THE WAY I USED TO and i don't have them already and i'm too lazy to grab them from elsewhere so alas trust me he says it)
making jokes to hide your fear and using humor to remind yourself of what's good and coping with the bad are two VERY different outlooks on it
so I think this outlook is what drives him to make this glamrock persona in the first place - this is a bad situation, one he's in with other civilians, and what better way to keep him and themself safe until the others get there than throwing a big performance at a safe place!
also it's just so gender okay I want to look like Superstar Rockin' Jay so badly
it's also interesting to see his outlook on his parents change over time! In season six he finds out Ed and Edna aren't his birth parents and feels upset about it, not understanding why his birth parents would've abandoned him. In season twelve, that outlook changing is EXACTLY why Jay's able to get through to Unagami
"I was abandoned by my parents, too!... I never understood why, and I never had the chance to even ask. But I always hoped there was a good reason. What if there's a reason?"
(again curse you netflix i wanted SCREENSHOTS whatever whatever)
It's this scene that gets Unagami to calm down long enough for Milton Dyer to get there, and presumably is what stops him from just. Flattening him and Jay like a pancake.
to piggyback off of this i absolutely adore how Unagami and Jay consider each other adopted brothers in that one book I still haven't read and I hope he's in Dragons Rising at some point Unagami is my favorite "villain" (no longer a villain) in the whole show he deserves more screentime
like this is where i found out about this and it's plagued my mind ever since. i need to read. this book just for them
SO YEA OKAY Prime Empire is "Who is Jay as a Person Post-Skybound" to me also it opens up so many fascinating things about Jay. I rest my case
so backpedaling a little bit. JAY CARES SO MUCH ABOUT HIS PARENTS GUYS IT'S SO SOFT AND I'M sobs
like yea the first episode with Ed and Edna in it has Jay avoiding them like the plague but this gets explained very easily when you remember he was bullied for his home life before he became a ninja. It makes a lot more sense why he wouldn't want them around his new friends, assuming they'd react the same way. Also how was he supposed to know literally all the rest of the groups parents were either dead, presumed dead, or had a toxic relationship with their kid lmao
(Cole calling his mom kills me. Cole's mom is dead. I know they probably just didn't think that far ahead when writing the dialogue but it's so funny mans pretended to call his dead mom to get on Jay for not appreciating his parents iconic behavior)
anyways literally every episode Ed and Edna are central to (except like the one in skybound) Jay stops at nothing to protect his parents and it means the absolute world to me he's so much like them!! They raised an inventive little nerd and he will stop at nothing to make sure they're safe and it's. It's SO IMPORTANT TO ME OKAY
ALSO this is an excuse to clip my favorite piece of dialogue possibly in the entire show. Except Netflix won't let me now. So you just get the text dialogue
Jay's just fallen from the sky with a messed up eye and is incredibly distraught that all his friends are captured. And his dad just. The woRLD IS FALLING APART AND HE'S EATIN' SOUP-
Ed i love you
anyways
anways anyways this just turned into me rambling about prime empire and then Ed and Edna and a lot of disjointed other stuff but thank you for this opportunity i was going to also ramble about lloyd but i put this post in a word count and
yea i think that's enough for a tumblr post anyways! If anyone wants any like. More logically thought out and direct thoughts about characters feel free to send me asks this was fun thank u @zaptrap for this opportunity to scream about jay
#help this was. my brain is so not intact today so if this makes absolutely 0 sense i understand#i did end up watching some prime empire stuff during my ramblings and guys. the ending of that season still makes me cry#this is fully prime empire propaganda btw i need to like. talk about the season more because despite what my skybound posting would lead#y'all to believe THIS IS THE ACTUAL SEASON THAT LIVES IN MY HEAD AT ALL TIMES MOST OF MY MUTUALS ARE JUST MORE SKYBOUND BRAINED#AND IT RUBS OFF ON ME EASILY#but no prime empire is the fucking best#if i talk about jay long enough it WILL just turn into prime empire#also after I wrapped up this post i continued thinking more jay thoughts but this post is already long enough#like how jay is actually SO incredibly self-sacrificing and how he cares so much about helping people#also wow i didn't even mention his powers in that whole ramble. rare for me.#one day i wanna do!! a powers masterpost. like how i view all the ninja's elemental powers#but thats another day's project i am. So Eepy#anyways hope y'all appreciated this#also thank u serp for sending this ask which allowed me to Scream into the Void about jay walker#category 11 han moment fr#ninjago#lego ninjago#jay#jay walker#unagami#edna#ed#i have no idea if ANY of this is coherent btw#prime empire#skybound#hunted#quest for the lost powers#ask#spinjitsu screams
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qantoine’s coping mechanism to feeling left behind being both self-isolating and becoming possesive of those he cares for is so juicy as a concept . like yeah you go you funky creachure, manifest those complicated and sometimes contradictory emotions
#anyone remember that one fanart of qantoine like . grabbing onto qetoiles and covering his mouth antoine reposted to his insta story .#anyone wonder what was up with that . like he reposted fanarts every now and again but like . that one specifically was such a Choice on hi#part . fantastic fanart btw it occupies space in my brain still#but yeah god . i think qantoine’s self-isolation (+ his secrecy the way he struggled generally to connect with others etc)#was the more obvious Thing he did as a coping mechanism . but damn were those smaller moments of possessiveness interesting#bc you could often just read it as protectiveness instead and well it Was that . but i think it becomes even more interesting if u read it#through a possesive lens . theyre two sides of the same coin anw it just depends on where the limit between the two lies for u#anw i think it manifested itself most obviously with pomme bc a parent-child relationship lends itself to that dynamic more . ough some goo#moments there i’d need to revist their relationship more . ‘je te connais comme si je t’avais créé’ which just has layers of potential#meaning . if you subscribe to the theory that qantoine had a hand in creating the eggs then that adds even More to the potential#possessiveness there . love it#and it manifested with qfrench too i think just in more subtle ways . like idk when there were implications he’d done a Thing to help them#out in some way . like the implication that he had a hand in getting ayp out of prison that one time . or when he was protective of etoiles#during prison . or even moments where he failed to achieve some sort of level of power over them like when bagz and ayp broke into his#secret room and he kept giving bagz the cold shoulder when she was trying to apologise to him 😭 . idk stuff like that . semi petty bitch#energy . but i LOVE the idea of this eldritch dude who’s still figuring out how mortal relationships work kinda just . being too possessive#too controlling . all in the effort to try and keep them in One Piece . and maybe in the end it won’t matter How he keeps them safe as long#as he manages to . he’s old as hell and he’s probably gonna outlive them and theyre all so fragile and small . they won’t see the bigger#picture so he’ll have to make sure he’s manoeuvring them around inside it correctly . <- absolute hc territory in the end there but it’s#very fun to think about :P#jay rambles#antoine daniel#qfrench.posting
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I wanted to draw my own take on ART-as-a-presence-in-the-feed but struggled with what path to take for A While bc all I had was that I was adamant about a winding, serpentine body, too large to take in at once and So Good at piling upon your shoulders with weight that's either overwhelming or comforting, take your pick
And then I brought in the hexagons and everything just worked
(They let me give it a face without an actual face, make for a good shorthand to show that it's talking/present in potential future art, and as a bonus serve as an homage to JWST bc hey, science!)
Partially brought to you by a whole lot of listening to Satellite by Starset
#ive hit the 'i just wanna stop looking at it' phase tho so here. take it#digital art#fanart#murderbot#the murderbot diaries#asshole research transport#character design#somehow this is what taught me how to make custom brushes in krita (it was for the face hexagons)#okay i am fuckin Tired but im still reeling from Network Effect and i care these two dipshits so much#i picked orange for ART to contrast Murderbots blue#but unfortunately also bc its been stuck in my brain as orange-aligned from the moment it appeared#bc my first impression was 'oh youre like simaris but not fuckin infuriating'#which is a Very unfair comparison btw bc i cant fuckin stand simaris but i love ART dearly#also a million other reasons but yeah. sorry bud you got assigned orange at introduction#at some point during the desing process it also had a whole bunch of hands since its controlling so many things at once with ease#but i had no way to make that look good and keep with the original vision of 'annoying long weighted blanket'
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Didn't felt like mentioning it immediately but shoutout to my sick and twisted brain for getting so triggered by an unexpected Christmas parade that I ended up havin the absolute worst panic attack of my entire life (potentially the only real one? I've had a couple other episodes I thought of as panic attacks but they were not even close to that so who knows) to the point where I spent the very last day of my 30th year on this earth in the ER, good times, good times 😊
#that was 10 days ago and i honestly was fine immediately after it ended so don't worry for me <3#but yeah this shit was crazy holy hell#like i knew intellectually that 'feeling like you're dying' is a symptom of a panic attack but *actually* feeling it is another thing...#and even at the worst i was like 'ok i'm clearly having a panic attack it's not nice but it's gonna be ok'#but there was a piece of my brain that was like 'ok but what if your mom or grandma had told themselves that...'#'when they were having heart attack? They would have died and so will you 😊'#and i was like shit can't argue with that better get my ass to the hospital before i die#spoiler alert: i didn't died#ironically enough the revolting state of our healthcare system is lowkey what helped me calmed the fuck down#because i was tiny but i do remember when my mom had her heart attack and they sure as hell didn't let her wait for 7h+#so when i realized that this is what was gonna happen after i spent a brief moment with a nurse i was just like...oh i'm fine actually lol#and then i had to go take the bus in my fake crocs that i usually never wear outside of the house smh#interestingly enough my phobia of hospital seems to have competely disappear! which makes me believe that it was more a trauma response#than an actual phobia#not that the name changes that much but still interesting development#also no i'm not wearing a mask because nobody gave me one#that's actually one of the thing that made me leave lmao#oh and btw the christmas parade is true but also a bit more complex than that#basically i had a full sleepless night and i was mad so i decided to go buy myself some weed#turned out that there was a huge christmas parade 5 minutes away from the weed store so i hade to find another way#and then i got lost on the way back#and saw no less than 3 big fights between different homeless people#including one man randomly kicking another man's dog (which kinda really messed with me tbh)#and then i smoked a big joint (first one in like 10 days) with 0 sleep and zero food in my body#and then i took the bus#and then the bus driver yelled at an elderly man for not waiting at the right place#and then i took a sip of water and for some truly strange reason my brain decided that the water had gone in my lungs#and that i was actively drowning#and the rational part of me was like...girl that's not what drowning feels like what are you even talking about??#and then my brain went 'well if we're not drowning than we're having a heart attack'
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*howling like a great wind through a canyon, it engulfs your mind, drowns your senses. Above the howl rises a screech, gleeful and maniacal. It is the way and the truth. Absolute.*
The Emperor: Leave - them - alone.
*the screech quiets, the howl fades. Your mind is hollow, save for one lone voice.*
The Emperor: Bane's Chosen has fallen - his Netherstone is yours. You have done well.
Xa'rok: I heard the Absolute scream.
The Emperor: You heard the Elder Brain. It's regaining its autonomy. It cries not from pain, but exaltation. We must stop it, before it breaks free.
The Emperor: One Netherstone remains - Orin's. We must find her and take it from her. After that, we take control of the Brain. You should start wondering what you will do then.
Xa'rok: I'll decide once we get there.
The Emperor: ...sometimes, you surprise me with your wisdom.
#this scene is so fun#rip disabling subs to maximize ps5 screen real estate so none of the text is in these gifs#the emperor bg3#bg3#githyanki tav#my tavs#tav: xa'rok#my gifs#look at my guy (gn)#!!!#in order to get this btw you need to take out gortash before orin#then the brain starts acting up and Emp tells it to fuck off. very fun for me personally#technically xa'rok's first answer was 'I'll put an end to it' but I waffled on the 'I'll figure it out' choice and I like that response mor#also rare not carrying the sword of screams moment for xa'rok#but ever since I realized the guardian's sword has the same model as the shortsword of first blood I've put that blade in rotation#for xa'rok to carry#fun (awful) to think about if the guardian's blade also IS the shortsword of first blood#whose description states: 'a golden blade - exquisitely made and astonishingly sharp'#and that deals more damage to enemies who haven't been injured yet#so if you're stabbing the guardian with it.... ough#xa'rok has since ditched the circlet of psionic revenge for balduran's helm for that sweet hp bonus + narrative irony#but I do miss the circlet and it looks good on them#also annoyed what tumblr and the gif program did to the coloring because in the actual video#xa'rok is bathed in colored light from the stained glass windows and looks so so cool
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(spoilers up to orv chapter 270) (sort of?)
you ever just kinda. suddenly realise what you're listening to
#omniscient reader's viewpoint#omniscent reader#orv spoilers#orv#kim dokja#yoo joonghyuk#art i made#the first hyperlink is to the song on youtube the second one is to my translation btw#that caption was not an exaggeration i was deadass like walking back from class with my spotify on shuffle and kinda like#tuned back in to what was playing in my ears and just had a kinda. HOLD UP WAIT A FUCKIN SECOND#honestly the whole song is kinda yjh if you squint and like for what its worth literally the only reason this is tied to like#that scene from 269 specifically is bc i literally just read that part today so it was really fresh in my brain#god the process of making this was so strange too bc i did it in almost one sitting except i had a fuckin SPORTS EVENT of all things#in the evening so it was like. 3 hours straight of doing this 2 hours of playing sportsball of all things then another 3 hours of this#so now i am physically mentally AND emotionally drained! genuinely couldntve had a more exhausting consecutive 8 hours if i tried#btw fun fact in the spirit of like. making life easier for myself all of yjh's flashback frames or whatever are webtoon panel redraws#except for that last one obviously cuz the webtoon isnt there yet (which. wow the processing of drawing that was. very painful)#but its like. I AM THE WAY THAT I AM if given the chance to draw to my knowledge one of the most tragic moments from the story I WILL DO IT#ok looking back theres a bunch of editing errors but also i just. really need to go do my ACTUAL FUCKIN WORK LMAO#god my arm hurts#hmmm i might clean up that 10 scenario sketch later on. i kinda like how the wings turned out#and also kdj's dipshit expression.
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seeing vincenzo in queen of tears instantly provoked in me a reaction that was so visceral. it came from the depths of my soul. i felt things i didn't even know i could feel
#I WAS LITERALLY SHAKING. SCREAMING CRYING THROWING MYSELF AGAINST THE WALL#i will never for a single second be remotely normal about anything related to this show.#me?? getting over vincenzo?? lmfao not until the day i die bitch#TO THIS DAY. if i hear like the first two notes of adrenaline my heartbeat immediately gets faster and i will literally JUMP#vincenzo you have permanently altered my brain chemistry forever#never before in my life had i felt the way i felt between february 20th and may 2nd 2021. AND NEVER AGAIN#“oh but it was just a silly little cameo!! vincenzo wasn't even extremely in character” i don't care I DO NOT CARE.#the slightest mention of vincenzo is enough to make me immediately go insane and start chewing on the walls#so imagine what i felt when i fucking SAW sjk there in this random kdrama in the year 2024??? and IN. CHARACTER???????#(the little references to his other roles were really cool as well btw)#i kid you not i almost died. fainted. had a heart attack#and then. THE SOUNDTRACK. THE REFERENCES.#AJVKDLHUSJBKHDLJBHSKJDGHUSJDLHSBJDGHWLDULHJDUJUISDHUJ. i need a moment#...anyway#my posts#kdrama#k drama#korean drama#queen of tears#vincenzo#vincenzo cassano#song joong ki#v rambles
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without a ghost yet longing for one. without a ghost yet longing for one. without a ghost yet longing for one!!! WITHOUT A GHOST YET LONGING FOR ONE. WITHOUT A GHOST YET LONGING FOR ONE. WITHOUT A GHOST YET LONGING FOR ONE!!!!!!!
#this is what the inside of my brain looks like at any given moment btw#julia armfield#the great awake#without a ghost yet longing for one
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