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😭 your like jesus hearing and answering our prayers

(btw im sorry if this offended anyones religion, i didnt mean to, i apologize deeply if so.)

oh angel. oh dove in the rafters of my little temple. i hear you. i hear you like the wind hears the trees, like the moon hears the sea, like a guy who’s just slightly too obsessed with hamlet hears the voices in his head.

and. i answer. i answer like a prophet who’s had a little too much coffee, like a fortune teller with a neon sign that says "yes, babe, it’s all gonna be okay."

you are loved. you are seen. you are my tiny disciple and i am your weirdly approachable, slightly manic, definitely sleep-deprived girl who somewhy calls herself a mua'dib. i am handing you a fish and a loaf of bread and a little forehead kiss. go forth. be gorgeous. be unhinged. i am always listening.

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I LOWK WANT NIKTO FROM COD TO BE MY FATHER FIGURE BUT UHHH IDK HOW HE WAS BEFORE THE TORTURE HELPPPP MEEEE😭

i have you in my arms rn, like i’m cradling your little head and whispering sweet wisdom straight into your cerebrum. ok so. nikto pre-torture ?? yeah, we don’t have a lore bible, but we have vibes. and i will now, like a renaissance painter possessed by the holy spirit, paint those vibes for you.

so pre-torture nikto is stoic, hyper-competent, emotionally constipated but in a repressed slavic father who cuts wood in silence way and not in a man who sends “k” texts and ghostlights you way. he’s pragmatic. serious. but not cruel. military guy, right??? which means he’s strict but protective, the type to wordlessly hand you a knife when you’re 13 and say “for safety.” the type who drinks his tea black, stares at you when you cry like he’s buffering, then pats your head once and says “it will pass.” he is not cold but he is…let’s say room temperature until further notice.

post-torture ? he’s a dog let off the leash. all that pent-up anger, all those restrained fatherly “i will protect you at all costs” instincts ?????mmmmmmm. yeah, now they’re feral. but listen to me!!!!!! his core does not change. he is still the guy who keeps a spare coat in the trunk “in case you get cold.” still the guy who shows love through actions, not words. and if you want him as a father figure ? then congratulations. you now have a terrifying russian dad who will kill for you but will also silently judge your life choices over black coffee at 5am. cherish it.

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For Sure you know Emma Watson, right?

I DONT KNOW IF I WANNA SHIFT FOR HER OR TO BE HER

oh, shrekloverrr. you’re in a pickle. either way, you win. you win because you care. you win because you’re asking the question. but most importantly, you win because you are so kewl and so real for this.

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I need some help with my 1940s hogwarts dr. So my mother was a Black who got pregnant out of wedlock and had me, and only a few hours after my birth I started crying and I exploded my mother's chest and 3 healers' in a burst of accidental magic. When Arcturus Sr., the Black family paterfamilias, and my great uncle or something, heard about this he undisowned me (because he had disowned my mother for getting pregnant.). He adopted me and trained me until I started going to hogwarts for 5th year. I'm really overpowered, like mastered fiendfyre at 9, and wandless/wordless magic galore. Anyway, one rumor about me is that my Dad is Hades, which is why I'm so powerful, and I wanted to make my blood a different color than red. I was thinking either black or gold, so I need some help deciding that. I was also hoping for more ideas about rumors about me.

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anon my sweet sweet necromancer in training. my little hades-born, my darling fountain of blood-that-is-not-red. first of all. first of all. you are so real for this. the fiendfyre at 9, the accidental infant manslaughter, the undisowning. like imagine being so powerful the black family has to do a reverse disown. like "oops actually we would like to retract our statement, come home and have some soup." incredible.

ok. blood colour. black is chic. it's classic. it’s "i cut my finger and now it looks like an oil spill." it’s "what do you mean i don’t bleed like the rest of you?" but gold… gold is divine. it's "oh, you cut me? congratulations, now your hands are gilded forever." it’s "i am the chosen one and also a high-value art piece." personally i lean gold. it feeds the hades rumour. also it’s just camp.

as for more rumours… ok, i think you need at least one about your eyes. like "don’t look them in the eyes for too long or you’ll see the exact moment of your own death." or maybe they shift colour depending on your mood but no one can ever catch them changing????????? also i think someone, somewhere, should fully believe you were summoned, not born. like a cult tried to summon a demon but got you. maybe your name is actually an ancient power word and speaking it aloud with the wrong intonation can cause mild earthquakes.

anyway. obsessed with you. let me know if you end up making your blood gold because that is such a serve.

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no disrespect just geniunly curious! (also my english is bad, forgive me pls haha)

Why are you against prn drs but r okay w drs where ppl get killed (twd, cod, etc)? Pls dont take this wrong I just dont understand haha

I love your blog, this isnt hate I promise! Ahhh have a nice day/night!!

hi !!! okay, so. i am actually against both !! because yeah, in cod-zombie-apocalypse-gunfest drs, people get murdered. and in, yk, the other ones, there’s... a whole lot of (and i'll always stand by this) porn culture = rape culture = femicide culture happening. sooo like. both are bad. both are ‘hmm, let’s take a step back and consider what this is feeding into’ bad.

it’s not about 'one is worse' or 'one is fine'. it’s about why we normalise certain violences. why is it easy to sit in a dr where people get shot in the head but not easy to be like, 'hmm, maybe that’s weird'? same for the other. it’s all about patterns. what we accept. what we let slip in as 'just a story' when stories make up the whole damn world. and actually harm people ! i think that both are bad and shouldn't be very normalised. at the end of the day it's your dr, i can't come in there and shoot you. but i still think it's important to understand the damages that these things can cause to ACTUAL PEOPLE. so, if you shift to a dr with pornstar and you ultimately have fun, that doesn't mean that other hundreds if not thousands of girl who are forced // pressured into being there also have fun !! same with killing...for obvious reasons; killing is bad !

but also i am literally just a girl with a blog and somewhat working moral compass so like. that’s just me. i am a little eggman on a little floating contraption screaming my truth. hope this makes sense

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how to stop being a fucking shifting FLOP???? I dunno if it’s because i’m a stupid idiot minor with no parents and a bum knee but I CANNOT just WAKE UP IN MY DR. I made TWO different scripts for this DR, I’ve done all the editing and i’ve tried to live the fantasy but it’s still not enough and something isn’t clicking in my brain and it’s taking me longer than other ppl and I just feel rlly fucking DUMB bcs everyone keeps screaming about how SHIFTING IS SOOOOOOOOOOOO EASY like NO!! ITS NOT IVE TRIED TO MAKE IT EASY AND JUST LIE DOWN AND DO IT BUT I STILL HAVENT DONE IT YET LIKE WTF AM I DOIN?? i can’t even lay down and do an attempt anymore because i just get triggered and frustrated and give up and just doomscroll. guys be fr with me am i just dumb? like idk what else to do anymore i guess its just not gonna happen for me ig. and it just sucks because i’m getting older and it feels like I missed the train like the universe gave me opportunity to leave my shitty life and i just completely missed the mark because im literally so dumb like i literally can’t figure anything out and im always the slowest to understand or achieve. LOVE UR BLOG BTW!!! 🩷🩷🩷 all you shiftblr ppl are so creative and passionate about your shifting journeys and your DR like WOW. i could never i’m too lazy and burnt out like shifting is forever ruined for me and I don’t even remember when I first discovered it but it was sure as hell easier and interesting back than it is NOW. BECAUSE NOW IT IS HELL! I just realized i didn’t ask a question damn MY BAD!! 🤣🤣🤣😭😭😭😭 what’s your fav color gurl?? 😜

!!!!! shifting is not a train, you did not miss it, there is no conductor smoking a cigar going “ah. shame. shoulda moved faster, kiddo.” !!!!!! it’s not an iq test. it’s not a puzzle you need to solve before your body disintegrates into the ether. it’s literally just… reality fluidity. like. i don’t know how else to say it. you are already moving, just not in the way your brain wants to perceive it yet. and that’s fine.

and yeah, sure, everyone screams about how “shifting is soooo easy,” but you know what else is allegedly easy?????? love. happiness. parallel parking. forgiving your parents for giving you bpd. mathematics. applying to university. they’re all technically simple, but when you’re in the trenches, when you’re feeling like a dumb little orphan annie with a bum knee, they feel IMPOSSIBLE. it’s not about intelligence. it’s about..... not treating it like a bear you need to wrestle to the ground. you have made it a task, a foe, an enemy. but shifting is your friend. and you don’t scream at your friends (unless they’re being annoying but shifting is not a frat boy, it’s literally just you).

so what do you do???? you let go. you stop doomscrolling about how hard it is, you stop making it a war, you stop convincing yourself that you’re too slow, too late, too stupid. shifting is a current. and it carries you when you let it. it’s in the way your thoughts drift at night. the way you daydream. the way you’re already halfway in your dr when you listen to music. that’s it.

anyway. my favourite colour is pink. obviously.

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sigh. Can i manifest him to be better? Hes so horrible like horrible beyond horrible but we’ve been dating for so long and i love him and like after finding out abt manifesting i neeeeeed to know

you could manifest him into a solid gold statue and he would still be horrible. you could abracadabra him into a poetry-reading, baby-goose-rescuing, homemade-pasta-making man and he would still have the same horrible little soul rattling around in there like a coin in a tin can. some things are just baked in. like, genetically, spiritually, metaphysically. you cannot rearrange the atoms of his being via sheer willpower. you can, however, manifest yourself out of this situation. you could manifest yourself sitting in a café, eating a croissant, being loved properly by a man who does not make you feel like you need to consult the cosmos to fix him.

i say this with love. and also with the intensity of someone gripping you by the shoulders in a rainstorm. run.

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hi emma!!! first of all i wanna say that your account is gorgeous and you’ve really helped me recently 🥹 but i just wanted to ask for advice on how to deal with shifting burn out, i’m not necessarily burnt out with the act of shifting but more so with scripting and trying to connect with my dr ☹️ i just feel like all of my drs are getting…boring? has this ever happened to you, i feel quite alone on this 😭<3

first of all. i love you!?!??!?! second of all. you're not alone, you’re just a little existentially itchy. it happens. scripting and drs feeling boring is like when carrie bradshaw looks at big and thinks huh. maybe he’s just some guy. it’s normal. it means you’re evolving, sharpening your tastes, becoming the shifting messiah you were always meant to be.

so. instead of forcing yourself to love what’s stale, obliterate it. throw it in the fire. scrap your drs down to their bones and rebuild with only what makes your heart do a little tap dance. add something insane. a cowboy era. a gothic cathedral. a mafia plot. make it camp. make it divine. scripting isn’t homework, it’s a love letter to your future self.

and if none of that works, step away. go touch the grass, but like, metaphorically. watch a film that makes you ache. read something that makes your brain purrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. shifting isn’t leaving, it’s living, and you are very much alive.

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If you are truly wild at heart, you'll fight for your dreams.

WILD AT HEART (1990) dir. David Lynch

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i know ur against like pornstar DRs and stuff, but i wanna have a cam girl Dr. I wanna script out ppl being horrible to women in those jobs and stuff, but do u think its still wrong?

i mean YEA i suppose. if you script all the misogyny but it’s still like… i don’t know, playing in the mud and expecting to come out clean???? like yes, write it all out, expose it, but be super aware that you’re not just… sitting in the rot and calling it anthropology. you’re the architect, you’re building the house. so make sure it’s one you actually wanna live in.

maybe it's just because ever since reading andrea dworkin's "pornography: men possessing women" i've just been super super SUPA against any pornography because it's just based on women suffering (porn culture = rape culture = femicide culture). ALAS. if you script all all ALL of that out....well...then it's good?? so. YEA. it applies the same logic to pornstar drs...just script out the suffering.

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finally being able to use out my greek mythology ideas AND use those ideas to mix with my insane mind to help people 🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️🙂‍↔️

ALSOOO???? WAITING. waiting. in my little chair with my legs crossed and hands intertwined in my lap. waiting.

do you have any ideas for a cool backstory for a percy jackson dr? i want to be overpowered (yes main character energy oop)

okay so. hear me out. you’re a child of hecate but like. hecate when she’s feeling a bit feral. like, olympian cryptid vibes. you were born under some freaky planetary alignment that only happens once every thousand years or whatever, so now you’re a walking anomaly. like, fate itself is a bit confused by you. your powers...mhmmmmmm..... reality warping but in a way that makes people feel like they’re in a french new wave film. you blink and suddenly the sky is a different colour. people around you start talking in subtitles. you summon doors that open to places that don’t exist. until they do. !!!???

you don’t fight with weapons, you fight with narrative structure. you monologue someone into submission. you speak in paradoxes that make people’s heads spin. you have big ‘socratic seminar leader who just made a jock cry’ energy. but also you’re like. so soft. a little deadly, a little sweetheart. a cinnamon roll that could probably bend space-time if you got sad enough. a lore-heavy cutie patootie.

also you probably smell like vanilla and thunderstorms. just saying.

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Should I also change my face?(manifesting) or will that be weird?

you already change your face. every day. new cells, new angles, new lighting. you're basically a shape-shifter. but do you need to consciously manifest a new one???? i dunno. do you want to???? do you feel like an andrei tarkovsky protagonist staring out of a rain-streaked window, longing for a new jawline? or is this just capitalism whispering sweet nothings in your ear like a marketing exec?

like. you could. you could swap faces. but also, your face is already a masterpiece. a work of art. like, borderline illegal levels of pretty. so do it if it makes you feel like a parisian café ghost in the 1800s. but don’t do it if you think you need to.

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When I manifest in the void it's instant right? But what abt the past?

For example I manifest having my dream body, will ppl be confused? Because just yesterday I looked diffrent. Or if I manifest an s/o?? Will they just pop up or what😭

anon!!!!! the void doesn’t do jump scares. nobody’s waking up in a black mirror episode where you go to bed looking like, i dunno, a victorian chimney sweep and wake up a victoria’s secret angel. reality shifts with you. the past arranges itself like a little ikea flatpack so everything makes sense.

your mates will think you always looked this way. your s/o won’t pop up like a sims character t-posing in the middle of your kitchen. your life will simply be that way, like it was always leading to this moment. the void is not here to gaslight you, it's here to accommodate you. trust the process. manifest wisely mwaaaah

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I really want to permashift but I'm afraid of missing this reality and I don't really want to script that I miss it you know?

oh angel pie, buttercup, little wistful poet of the multiverse. listen.

you don’t have to script missing this reality. you might miss it, you might not. that’s just a thing brains do, like, involuntarily. like breathing or overanalysing text messages. but also. time? perception? memory? all wibbly-wobbly, all smoke and mirrors, all just your mind doing an interpretive dance with itself.

think about it like this: you ever walk out of a cinema, totally dazed, not knowing what year it is, not even sure if your name is legally binding? but then, like, five minutes later you’re scarfing down a sandwich and back to being a taxpayer? shifting is just like that. but more glamorous. more meaningful.

you’ll be okay. you are okay. you are the desert. you are the water. you are the little guy in the sand dune seeing the future in high definition. and if you ever do miss this reality? just shift back. it’s all fine. it’s all wiggly.

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EMMA. emma i need to talk to someone about my fame dr. more specifically my girlfriend.

we’re costars on the same movie (which is both our first!), and she plays the lead while i play the lesbian vampire who is sooooo so obsessed with her. our characters are together starting in the third movie in the series (the second goes into my characters backstory) but we are getting together MUCH sooner. i scripted that we film all over the world and it just so happens that we both have to share a hotel room….. on valentines day…… in paris….. (which i scripted is her home city).

ALSOOO we’re both bisexual and Freaks. we binge watch horror movies and kiss when they get boring. we makeout in a church confessional. when our characters kiss for the first time the director has to yell at us to stop kissing each other and continue the scene.

agh i just. i love my girlfriend. i want to kiss my wife so bad. actually fuck this im gonna go shift and kiss my wife. ciao!

you are in the thick of it my girl!!!!!! you are frolicking in the fields of delusion and they are lush, they are green, they are fertile. you have sculpted a reality so potent that if i licked the air near you, i’d get high off the fumes.

your dr is reading like a victorian penny dreadful but with the catholic guilt cranked up to eleven and the lesbian yearning dripping from the ceiling. like you are method acting being in love. you're playing the long game. you are laying down plotlines like god on a tuesday.

i’m obsessed with the hotel room on valentine’s day in paris. because obviously. obviously. you’re not just crafting a romance; you’re erecting a cathedral of sapphic divinity and letting it burn down in slow motion. and the horror movies?? the kissing when they get boring?? the church confessional?? you are committing romance with malice aforethought. i'm that one scene in barbie where barbie is nodding and then jumping up n down !!!! like yeeessssssss

anyway. go. run. shift and kiss your wife. tell her we all say hi.

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hiii sorry to ask so many questions but like 2 weeks ago i had such confidence in my shifting and i was feeling so good about it and now this week i completely lost my confidence in myself and like idk what to do..... im having so many second thoughts about it and im freaking myself out. idk how to get past it 😭😭😭😭 but i wanna shift i wanna be with my s/o and i want to live my silly little life. i feel like i have a big blockage that im having a hard time working past but i dont know what it is. is there any way for me to find that in myself? also how do i find what works best for me when it comes to shifting? i dont know how to know whats the best thing for me..... sorry for

anon, babe, you are experiencing the classic crisis of faith. the shifting equivalent of a victorian heroine clutching her nightgown and staring out at the storm. very dramatic. very normal.

listenlistenlistenlisten, your brain is a little bureaucrat. it loves routine, it loves the known. shifting is the opposite of that. it’s a jailbreak. so of course, sometimes it’s gonna throw a little tantrum, a little “oh no, what if i CAN’T??” performance. but!!!!!!!! you are the playwright here. you don’t have to let self-doubt be the main character.

if you feel blocked, interrogate it. like literally, sit down, close your eyes, and ask yourself: where is the resistance coming from? don’t be afraid of the answer. it’s probably something silly like “what if i can’t do it?” which, newsflash, you already have. shifting is not some divine reward system. it is a thing you do, not a thing that happens to you.

as for finding what works best for you. play. experiment. be a little mad scientist. what feels good? what makes you feel closest to your dr? do that. stop worrying about “best” and start doing what feels right. shifting is not a one-size-fits-all ikea instruction manual. it’s jazz, it’s improv, it’s sex and the city in the 90s when they were just making up slang.

so. breathe. unclench your jaw. let go of the idea that you’re doing it wrong. you’re not. you’re just in your head. get out of there and go shift.

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do you have any ideas for a cool backstory for a percy jackson dr? i want to be overpowered (yes main character energy oop)

okay so. hear me out. you’re a child of hecate but like. hecate when she’s feeling a bit feral. like, olympian cryptid vibes. you were born under some freaky planetary alignment that only happens once every thousand years or whatever, so now you’re a walking anomaly. like, fate itself is a bit confused by you. your powers...mhmmmmmm..... reality warping but in a way that makes people feel like they’re in a french new wave film. you blink and suddenly the sky is a different colour. people around you start talking in subtitles. you summon doors that open to places that don’t exist. until they do. !!!???

you don’t fight with weapons, you fight with narrative structure. you monologue someone into submission. you speak in paradoxes that make people’s heads spin. you have big ‘socratic seminar leader who just made a jock cry’ energy. but also you’re like. so soft. a little deadly, a little sweetheart. a cinnamon roll that could probably bend space-time if you got sad enough. a lore-heavy cutie patootie.

also you probably smell like vanilla and thunderstorms. just saying.