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thesmokinpossum · 19 days ago
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Didn't felt like mentioning it immediately but shoutout to my sick and twisted brain for getting so triggered by an unexpected Christmas parade that I ended up havin the absolute worst panic attack of my entire life (potentially the only real one? I've had a couple other episodes I thought of as panic attacks but they were not even close to that so who knows) to the point where I spent the very last day of my 30th year on this earth in the ER, good times, good times 😊
#that was 10 days ago and i honestly was fine immediately after it ended so don't worry for me <3#but yeah this shit was crazy holy hell#like i knew intellectually that 'feeling like you're dying' is a symptom of a panic attack but *actually* feeling it is another thing...#and even at the worst i was like 'ok i'm clearly having a panic attack it's not nice but it's gonna be ok'#but there was a piece of my brain that was like 'ok but what if your mom or grandma had told themselves that...'#'when they were having heart attack? They would have died and so will you 😊'#and i was like shit can't argue with that better get my ass to the hospital before i die#spoiler alert: i didn't died#ironically enough the revolting state of our healthcare system is lowkey what helped me calmed the fuck down#because i was tiny but i do remember when my mom had her heart attack and they sure as hell didn't let her wait for 7h+#so when i realized that this is what was gonna happen after i spent a brief moment with a nurse i was just like...oh i'm fine actually lol#and then i had to go take the bus in my fake crocs that i usually never wear outside of the house smh#interestingly enough my phobia of hospital seems to have competely disappear! which makes me believe that it was more a trauma response#than an actual phobia#not that the name changes that much but still interesting development#also no i'm not wearing a mask because nobody gave me one#that's actually one of the thing that made me leave lmao#oh and btw the christmas parade is true but also a bit more complex than that#basically i had a full sleepless night and i was mad so i decided to go buy myself some weed#turned out that there was a huge christmas parade 5 minutes away from the weed store so i hade to find another way#and then i got lost on the way back#and saw no less than 3 big fights between different homeless people#including one man randomly kicking another man's dog (which kinda really messed with me tbh)#and then i smoked a big joint (first one in like 10 days) with 0 sleep and zero food in my body#and then i took the bus#and then the bus driver yelled at an elderly man for not waiting at the right place#and then i took a sip of water and for some truly strange reason my brain decided that the water had gone in my lungs#and that i was actively drowning#and the rational part of me was like...girl that's not what drowning feels like what are you even talking about??#and then my brain went 'well if we're not drowning than we're having a heart attack'
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recurring-polynya · 1 year ago
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My kid asked me to explain blood types to her today, which made me remember the odd little fact that in the character profiles that appeared at the ends of the earliest Bleach volumes, there are blood types listed for the human characters, but not for the shinigami characters. Shinigami obviously have blood, we've all seen it, we've seen so much of it, honestly, but is it like blood blood? Is blood transfusion a thing they do?
I did not have any particular recollection of anyone ever receiving a blood transfusion in Bleach, but I looked up all the hospital scenes I could think of off the top of my head. Both Byakuya nor Hinamori have sort of a notable absence of things sticking out of them. I'm no expert and I don't even particular like doctor shows, but this is a situation where I would expect both of them to have IVs for hydration, if nothing else. Hinamori's got a respirator and some mysterious carts off to her far side, at least, and maybe Byakuya's just far enough on the upswing that he doesn't need it anymore.
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Next shot was the famous Rukia and Renji sharing a hospital room scene.
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Renji's respirator goes...under his blanket? Is this right? This doesn't seem right. Rukia doesn't seem particularly attached to anything, although there's kind of a bundle of wires? tubes? coming out of her right shoulder area. You can see them better in this shot:
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That sure doesn't look like medical grade tubing, the lower one looks kinda like Hihiou Zabimaru, tbh. IVs usually work by gravity, no? Also those tubes are way too big to be going into someone's veins.
Finally, here's Kira, getting his dubious Squad 12 medical procedure.
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More shady, giant, intestine-ass looking tubes that... go into him? wtf. They're attached to a computer. Maybe these are data cables?
The upshot of all of this is that I don't think shinigami have blood transfusions. I can't imagine that they don't know about them, so I imagine it's more of a case of their blood is just part of their soul, like, all of them is just soul all the way down, and it would be nearly impossible to accept a transfusion that was made of someone else's soul (soulmate-enjoying fanfic writers, take note). They do like sticking tubes in people, tho.
This sucks because when I was originally thinking about this, of course I was thinking about all the blood Renji has in his body and whether or not he's a universal donor, because, frankly, if he is, I think they would have a special framed painting of him at Squad 4 and let him have as much donuts and apple juice as he wants.
I think the main reason manga list characters' bloodtypes anyway is because Japanese people use it as a personality test, similar to horoscopes. For the record, here are the characters whose blood types we know:
Ichigo - AO Orihime - BO Chad - AO Tatsuki - AO Isshin - AB Uryuu - AB Don Kanonji (????) - BO
When I was trying to look up what they meant, I found this hilarious graphic, thank you verywellmind dot com
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Looks to me like these blood types were definitely chosen to tie into personality at least to some degree (I'm not sure about Isshin, but he probably has fake Urahara Shouten-brand gigai blood-substitute anyway, so I am choosing not to read too deeply into that). Anyway, along those lines, judging from this chart, if we wanted to bootstrap Renji's blood type from his personality, I think he would, in fact, clearly fit into the idiot-on-a-skateboard quadrant. So he is a universal donor! (or at least he would be, if he were filled with blood instead of high-concentration ghost juice.)
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hiyyihrts · 10 months ago
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I think the only reason ppl don’t like the idea of s3 focusing on Penelope/Colin is simply because the season focuses on characters who in every other show or story are always meant to be just side characters (the overweight/ugly wallflower best friend and the comedic side friend who is just a funny charmer that no one ever takes seriously) who no one ever really sees any potential in or reason to give them their own stories. but this is why their story IS important. They’re two characters who everyone enjoys but as soon as they’re (specifically Penelope) shown in a romantic or sexy vibe everyone suddenly thinks it’s a waste of time or waste of a season when they could have the ‘more conventionally attractive and interesting characters’. Just say you all think poorly of these characters and that their stories aren’t worth telling or seeing because it doesn’t pertain to YOU and YOUR fantasy’s/sexual fantasy’s you’ve dreamed about in your own head and go wait for another season or smth to come out instead
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skunkes · 5 months ago
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antidepressants have saved my life but in the way that my dad was put on them earlier this year before i was and he's an entirely different person neow. several years of it being a coin toss as to whether the house was going to have a sinister energy on any given day, undone in a few weeks and once again resembling the person i was most attached to as a child
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bottombaron · 1 year ago
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there really does need to be a queer person in the writers' room on every show with queer characters, if only to explain how to better describe 'profound' relationships.
bc this happens all the time with showrunners fumbling for ways to describe a not-necessarily-sexually-prioritized relationship between same-sex characters
it's like somewhere in our evolution 'straight' men forgot that you can express your Profound Emotions with sex or other physical ways just to experience closeness and love.
like sexual attraction can evolve from profound emotions. they aren't inherently mutually exclusive. you can have two people who aren't initially attracted to each other and then over the course of knowing each other attraction blooms from simply caring for that person.
it's wild that ppl don't get that. is it a straight person thing? Do you have to be horny for a person from the go or it doesn't count?
like i'm absolutely serious, there needs to be studies on this phenomenon. there's something here in the miscommunication of what love can look like that is fucking fascinating.
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faceyourphobia · 2 months ago
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Donald Trump can’t even open a dumpster truck, is this actually the guy we want as our fucking dictator president?
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gay-jewish-bucky · 2 years ago
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Do other people with actual clinical phobias get exhausted of people without phobias policing terms like 'homophobia' or 'transphobia'? Because this doesn't do anything to help or actually destigmatize clinical phobias.
Like at all.
The same people who are saying those words hurt me and shouldn't be used, and going around harassing people into not using them, still think anyone who doesn't love dogs is some evil monster. No one could possibly have cynophobia (which is often rooted in a traumatic experience) and struggle with debilitating anxiety, no, it's obviously a red flag that you're an awful person and probably an abuser.
They still mock/belittle people with clinical phobias. They still don't take us seriously. They still get upset when we have symptoms of our psychiatric disorder instead of us "being normal".
That actually hurts people with clinical phobias, not the existence of words that describe bigotry.
Maybe we should educate people about the different clinical phobias and not stigmatize people not liking/avoiding things that are at the root of those phobias, especially when they ask for support/accommodation.
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velvetvexations · 7 months ago
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the whole man vs. bear thing is fascinating to me as a trans man because like. the worst abusers in my life have always always always been cis women. don’t get me wrong a lot of men suck and can be much more outwardly threatening. but cis women? they can be so fucking VISCOUS in a way that’s really easy for most people to ignore. I had multiple adult women at my hs take me aside and tell me no one would ever love me if i looked masculine. I’ve had multiple cis women (adults and teens when I was a teen) grope me and grab my ass and then tell me it’s no big deal bc we’re all girls. I was told incessantly the only way I would ever be happy is if I was a wife+mother. I did not realize my own mother was abusive until I was well into adulthood because her abusive behavior was so normalized. all the women who pick bear over a random theoretical man cannot see the fire in their own house, because cis women can be just as awful and abusive as cis men.
I wouldn't necessarily say I've been treated worse by women specifically but a point I've made before is that I'm hyperaware of how bad cis women can be for trans women - everyone just considers Jowling Kowling a man, I suppose - and I would never, ever be more comfortable with a random cis woman the way I would with a random trans man.
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crimeronan · 1 year ago
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warning this is an "i've lost my temper" post
people leaving comments on my vaccine post about how they """""can't""""" get vaccines because of needle phobias like what kind of ridiculous backwards-ass mental-gymnastics dumb fucking able-bodied nonsense are you on. you shortsighted twat. you circlejerking fucking asshole. you know what'll make you have to contend with needles???? getting an IV in the hospital because you came down with COVID. and now every single time you move you feel the straw wiggle uncomfortably inside your veins and you can't get it out ever you're trapped helpless on your back forever getting stuck by needles CONSTANTLY.
so. unless you're ready to lay at home and die while refusing all medical care, which would be good because at least you'd be putting your money where your fucking mouth is, i think you Do In Fact want to take the shot. you Fucking Moron??
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nomouthtospeakof · 4 months ago
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(scheduling for a shot) do it scared. do it nauseous. do it kicking the wall. do it laying on the floor with a broken toe from kicking the wall.
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sysig · 10 months ago
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Old OC spotlight alert: It’s Nequam! Ft. his girlfriend Ruby (and also Papyrus for funsies lol) (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Nequam#Ruby#UT#Papyrus#He's only here because brainworms I mean an outfit swap#Considering this is his second outfit swap with one of my characters so far it might actually be the brainworms. I mean. More than obvious#Lol#He's fun to dress and fun to dress others in his clothes! That's my argument lol#Anyhow â™Ș Nequam got too many doodles to fit in with the others! He was a favourite of mine for a while haha#He was retired after losing in a bloodsport comic many years ago so it's been a while since he's been around!#He looks the same to me lol#He's an original species I made at the time so he /was/ designed with my preferences and sensibilities so I guess that makes sense but hm#I kinda expected him to look a Little different lol - I'll just chalk it up to not having been around as my style grew and changed#Defaulting back to his references! Sure lol#He is still a cute lad :) I never really got into his backstory hugely but I know he's got a huge phobia of fire#His face and hands were caught in a fire that ended up killing his parents and permanently scarring and sealing his mouth shut :P#But he ended up being psychic so he could talk and move food as he needed without needing to get cut open so it just - healed like that#It sounds a little different when he speaks psychically but he's not mute! He can only make Sounds with his chest and throat#You can see I was like ''Isn't he self-conscious?? Here have a scarf'' in drawing him again haha - their species is proud so maybe not!#Ruby was designed by an artist I was a fan of and caught a request stream ages ago hehe <3 Ty as always to CuddlesandHuggles â™Ș#I love Ruby! She's super pretty and Nequam loves her and she loves him <3#And then there's the outfit swap lol look this time it was because Papyrus' outfit genuinely reminded me of Neq's!#Red cape/cloak/scarf - red gloves - high boots - white with gold trim! That's both of them!!#Nequam is much beefier lol and I gave him the fabric-over-the-bones look which ended up being cut through anyway lol#This species always shows off their crystals - it's uncomfortable to cover them - so there's holes all over anyway! Haha#Papyrus looks cute in whatever but hghhh he looks especially cute in a hooded cloak!!#The gloves were what really sold it for me haha - everything else was a very happy alignment but red gloves! Yes
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thegreatyin · 7 months ago
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What is the Scoundrel thinking about as they go through in this ship? Did they get down to the lowest level yet.
...did they find the thing that is in the deck. Admist the wax?
it isn't thinking anything, really. it's just- moving. quickly. no it's not breathing frantically that's just how its chest works. no its hands aren't trembling they just happen to feel a bit chilly today. if they pick on the (now thoroughly blood-soaked) bandages on their arms, well, that's their business!! it doesn't mean they're scared. they're perfectly calm. look at them!!! they're smiling!!!!! they're having a Delightful time!!!!!!!!
now where was that pesky-
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oh.
oh, they need to get the hell out of here.
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aroaessidhe · 2 days ago
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2024 reads / storygraph
Life Underwater
adult contemporary
about a man navigating his relationship with his partner after they move in together, having never been interested in relationships before; as well as bigoted people questioning their relationship, (as he's Muslim with a younger white partner)
along with dealing with the fact that his partner is a with a marine biologist - and he’s extremely hydrophobic due to trauma, but wants to find a way to be involved in what his partner is so passionate about
trans grey-aro ace MC, nonbinary LI
#life underwater#aroaessidhe 2024 reads#aromantic books#asexual books#I enjoyed this overall!#great exploration of a aromantic mc with one exception; as well as a sex repulsed asexual in a relationship with an allo#in the midst of so many demi-aspec romance books where the demi character is like I haven’t felt attraction before#or been in a relationship but i WANT to and I’ve never felt HAPPY/RIGHT about my aspecness etc etc it’s so refreshing to have a#arospec character that’s like yeah I was secure in being aroace but then this one person changed things#but if this didn’t work out I probably wouldn’t seek it out again#(though being aro-spec-ace rather than allo-demi is part of the reason for the difference)#(obviously the former is something that people experience. it’s just. i get it! every demi book! okay!)#(anyway. this felt like a breath of fresh air in that regard)#I think the structure of the narrative is a bit strange - it’s very slow to start#and sort of deals with some stuff in the first half and then completely different stuff in the second; and also honestly after the build up#I expected it to deal more in depth with him actually dealing with the phobia. but then it just sort of ends#I am also hesitant about a book by a white author (pretty sure) that has a Muslim MC that deals with racism/islamophobia#- I don’t think there was anything bad about it specifically
.. it’s just i would usually not pick up Books By White Authors#Exploring Racism over a book by a Muslim author. i mean obviously this is a very small selfpub book so like whatever I guess.#just as a note.
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4giorno · 4 months ago
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3 episodes of bees...................
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beeapocalypse · 1 year ago
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trying to craft a funger oc like aughhhh i can see him i can picture him in my head right now [image of the most off putting little man possible]
#he does not have a name yet but he DOES have a vague concept. author from the eastern union who got drafted into the military and--#--met another guy during the 1 week he had b4 getting shipped out to basic training. they immediately develop a WAY intense relationship--#--and constantly send letters to each other. author is a total chickenshit and comes to cope w the violence of war thru--#--alcoholism and a complete retreat into his obsession w the other man. gets a couple wires crossed and has his lust morph into more + more#--violent fantasies that the other man plays along w bc its Fun+Wild (at its core its the authors desire for CONTROL. if hes the one--#--bringing the pain then hes safe. even better if its with the single person in existence he feels like he can trust during that--#--period of time). manages to live throughout the rest of the war and rushes back to his lover. spends a slowly degrading week w him where-#--the man comes to realize what he thought of as simple metaphor+exaggeration was TRUE desire from the author + the author flounders--#--without the then expected+familiar terror day in and day out. culminates in the man demanding the author leave and never try to contact--#--him again (saying their romance was wild and exciting and unlike anything hed ever experienced but the only good way it couldve ended--#--was if the author died out on the front and forever left him Wanting without the actual reality of those desires realized) and the--#--author either tries to shoot himself or the man (fails to do so. lol) b4 running off to the first train out of town. worlds messiest guy#ya it leans a bit into samarie territory but hes fun. his theoretical ending b would probably have smth to do w sylvian worship + marriages#even more vague idea for his moonscorched form is a sopping wet pathetic red wolf ('red wolf' being one of the mans terms of endearment--#--thru their wartime love letters) w its legs tangled up in barbed wire so it has to drag itself around. red bc its incredibly--#--thin skin (<-- do you get it .) splits and bleeds thru with every movement. a lot of whining and incoherent babbling as it hesitates to--#--ACTUALLY attack anybody. should have some cock horror element but ive no ideas on that front LOL#skill ideas are persistence predator (more melee damage dealt the less mind hes got- a backstory choice where he focuses entirely on the--#--love letters rather than splitting focus on his on-pause career with short stories) and an unnamed one playing into his terror/lust deal-#--where he gets a buff to either melee damage or speed when his phobia is active. want to come up with at least one more though#mmmaybe him being an author doesnt play that well into his concept as a whole but hes my strangeguy so whatever
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leche-flandom · 1 year ago
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Who tf is this clown?!
I'm not usually bothered enough by website changes to take action, but I could not abide by that creepy little pirate clown plaguing my dashboard uninvited. It's not so much the eerie presence that bothers me, but the intrusiveness of this ad campaign. That being said, I put in a little effort and found a way to massively improve that immovable eyesore by messing with the image url through the "inspect image" option.
The Doctor disapproves of your ham-fisted advertising, @staff
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