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Dear supervisors at work
You do not get to tell me to suck it up
I have endometriosis
I am sucking it up
It's a miracle I'm even at work right now so please
Shut
Up
Sincerely, the kid you shouldn't be getting this mad at over a debilitating and incurable condition
Nia
#my supervisors suck pt 2#this is how im venting my anger#one of them said to my other coworker id never be able to have a real job#im working 8 hours a day 5 days a week here#and nothing i do is good enough for them anyways so what does it matter#real job my ass#i know about the real world then i should
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#girlhood!!!!! girlhood amirite???!#feel free to reblog but unrelated tags ahead:#unrelated vent tags but like i cannot explain the acid trip of being in my international law class#and mentioning anything about palestine and that fucking CRACKHEAD bitch !!!everytime!!! turns to me and says:#“as a white south african how do you feel about the treatment of white farmers” girl im gonna fucking kill you#this genuinely keeps unearthing a biblical anger in me. i mean my mother is just a wicked person but my dad really let me grow up#without a tradition. being without a tradition is about the most dreadful thing my dad ever did to me thanks you FUCK!#i cant reconcile my identity with anything. caught somewhere between the way that bitch knows how much i hate afrikaans#exclusively speaking to me in afrikaans and my dad who taught me nothing. okay then !!! anyway like obvi not thinking abt having kids at 22#but definitely sure now that im not having kids ever because this corrosive resentment rears its head in mundane moments#bc its always just under the surface#anyway wONT ANYONE THINK ABOUT THE POOR WHITE FARMERS!!!!!!!!!!#lol.
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crying a lot more lately.
#vent art#its not often i end up liking the results of my vent art but . i guess i do like how it turned out.#im not doing so well right now#im trying to set up a gofund me to get me out of this house but im having trouble doing . well anything for myself.#if i were making a fundraiser for anyone else id be right on it. but my self worth is in the gutter and i spend all my time and energy#helping make my family's lives easier#anyway im at the point where now im speaking without thinking put of anger which is dangerous and stupid to do in this house#im just like. i need help. this is the cry for help. please help me escape florida and my abusive family when i can get myself organized en#ough to get it all set up#this is ok to reblog
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I WON'T ANNOUNCE MY SHEER DESCENT BUT HOLY FUCK THERE WILL BE SIGNS
#amys' tag#keys' art#undescribed#this one is 50% vent art 50% fucking around with colors shapes and designs and 100% a banger.#so anyways when i grew up i learned that anger is bad and that didn't have any consequences whatsoever#because as a result to this day i never yell at people. or snap. or do any of that. i'm always very calm and understanding and polite#which is GREAT right up until i experience actual rage and i cant do shit to express it. because i never learned how. lol#seriously though id like to thank this song for providing catharsis when im angry as FUCK but cant do shit about it#i cant even sing it out loud because it has swear words in it and my family would disapprove but one day i'll get there lol#until then though. yeah.
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Relaxed
#been sitting on my bed holding myself ans rocking back and forth for an hour straight and im still shaking in anger LOL#the dib speakz!!#👽 my art#these look bad cuz my hands are shaking from how mad i am rn hh#vent art#vent#agony
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#just needed to vent for a sec but oh god am i tired of people#'friends' both irl and online got me fucked up lately#mental healths been in the shitter almost nonstop this year#familys always got me up the wall#i just feel like I'm constantly treading water and i am *tired*. like so fucking TIRED#it's never enough; it's too much; no not like that; but not that either; it's all wrong wRoNg WrOnG#ik im sleep deprived and possibly pms-y and that is most certainly not helping things rn but...#gods i see less and less of a reason to get out of bed and bother with anything ever again#wtf is the purpose#i can't keep friends to save my life bc im apparently a fuckin doormat and interesting as unflavored rice or smth#how hard is it to feel like you maybe sorta kinda matter and aren't an unlovable worthless piece of shit#years of therapy; trying meds; everything under the sun.... and nothing. lows and highs and dips of every kind and yet ..nothing#and maybe im just very much in my feelings rn and just yelling into the void.. but it hurts and im tired of pretending it doesn't.#i hate how hard it is to make friends as an adult especially irl. and how gossipy and cliquey and gross and mean ppl can be#of getting called childish and naive and boring for wanting to be a decent person and having interests outside of partying#(not attacking those traits but tired of getting attacked for *not* being 'fun' enough or 'social' enuf or 'sensitive' for having feelings)#enough*#i just want to go eat drywall and stand in the rain and let it help me pretend im not crying blood rn.#like every cell in my body isn't trying to spontaneously combust.#'it gets better' ..yeah? when. when i was 14? when i was 23? when im 37? when im 55? 82? WHEN.. bc im so sick and tired#and no this isn't me writing a final note or whatever it sounds like; i just wanted to word vomit bc ive never been good w sadness#and ive got such an overwhelming amount of it rn i can't even turn it into anger & spite & use that for productivity... i just want to rot#to lie down and be covered by plants as i sleep and just slowly fade into a cloud or smth like it's a ghibli movie or wtv.#im like shaking from how stupidly emotional i feel rn. the lack of empathy these days is fuckin astounding#common sense & empathy are lacking in absolutely droves these days. some days i hate the internet & tech for its irreparable damages sm#but here we are and here it shall remain. long after us; and *long* after us ..... *sigh*#anyway ima go try to take a nap or smth. I'll see ya when i see ya. take care my lovelies#if u read all this i prob owe you a cookie lol
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Literally no context for this one, I stayed up till 6am to see the sunrise, read fanfiction till 7am, cleaned house till like 10am fell asleep woke up at 2pm and saw this on my tablet T-T im 99% sure i drew this at 4am or smth-
Woe upon yee, late night vent art or something I cant remember doing-
#Ah yes face reveal be like-#GUYS OMG IM A WHITE GIRL-#*Sips tea* and british.#XD not entirely maybe like- 1/9th#yes i have 9 other backgrounds probs more#wulfs art#mmmm *to tag as vent or to not*#dont think soooo#My brain seeing this: when youre too weird for both sides#both sides has rules but only one has mocked freedom#play by the rules and youre safe#JUST DONT ANGER THE TWITTER MOB LOL#take this how u will ^^
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how do you find relationships
and why does everyone seem to have one
#im serious; i just dont get it.#i cant even find the motivation to leave my room let alone fucking live i wanna kms so badly.#i dont get it.#personal.post#am i really not good enough if im the only one left out of this..#like there are milestones i literally didnt hit because.. there was nobody to hit them with. i was always alone and isolated#stupid idiot rambling#cluster b vent#actually cluster b#actually bpd#actually npd#cluster b pds#cluster b safe#i was literally abused and isolated. i was broken until my only want was being safe in my room.#how am i supposed to know how this works.#i hate myself so much for this. i was left out and i feel left out and it angers me.
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am i so hard to care about?
#i need to vent and i know u guys cant stand me because i can feel it (and certainly from the anon hate) but i think im gonna have an ulcer#if i dont put this out somewhere#SH s*icide tw !!!!!#i need some advice or opinions because i feel like im losing it#i dont understand why my friends cant care about me#i know !!! i know i seem out of touch and insane because i say this so often and the question to someone reading would come natural: maybe#it is just ur perception…. maybe u suck ass as a friend too#and i do ponder about that!!!!!! i take those possibilities into consideration i do. and i genuinely dont think i suck as a friend. i always#check in. if they seem off i ask how they feel. i ask updates on their stuff. i dont think i deserve this tbh#but especially when i am struggling they just disappear#like even when i reach out and let them know im doing bad. they clearly read my measages and choose to ignore them#these are supposed to be my best friends#these days ive been so bad. and trigger warning again#i just feel so suicidal and i have been hurting myself in the desperate attempt to cope and manage these thoughts#and i dont tell them these things#i dont share the details because 1) it is too much to dump on someone and 2) they dont show any interest even on the surface level of my#problems so i just wouldnt tell them the deeper issues#i am just in so much pain. and i also feel a lot of anger because of their behavior. i feel so so hurt by it. so many years of this going on#of them just not even acknowledging my struggles while i was in the midst of them and trying still to support them and be there for e#whatever they had going on. and getting nothing in return#i hate that i feel so angry but i do. and ive been swallowing this anger and pain for so long i feel it eating my insides#even my therapist doesnt understand why i am friends with people that dont care about me#i dont know what i should do#i want to say something#actually i already talked about this to one of them one year ago exactly and i told her all these things and she just said she didnt know#why i was ignored. and then still kept being a part of it#the thing is i am so upset and my mental health is so so so bad. i am supposed to spend new years eve with them in two days but i dont know#how i can do that feeling like this#but if i speak to them about it i think it will also ruin the mood#if someone has any thoughts or advice it would be very welcome….
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Hot girls are having a breakdown because of not being able to draw their blorbo. Im the hot girl
#crying my eyes out laying on the floor squeezing things in my arms#it's no joke i dont know how to fucking release my anger and disappointment.#i wanted to draw today and my tablet stopped working! again!!!#now im angry sad disappointed and not sure ehat to do with myself nothing is really helping and nobody's here for me👍#fuck it#i just wanted to draw moist von fucking Lipwig#it's not the same on the paper + now i dont want to do anything even read even talk i don't want anything#even sleep tho it's almost midnight and i should go to sleep. im too full of emotions and want to cry so bad i feel baaad and alloone#vent#>: [
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Late night magenta.
#im not going back to facebook#im not going back to twitter#or instagram#any of those#i realized not everyone is entitled to me and i to them#why force connections#why force people to be roots of your tree when they were supposed to be leaves that come and go with the seasons#not to mention why care about where i went off to where i had gone when i gave advance notice im out#is it out of sincerity cause you genuinely thought i vanished from the face of the earth#or is it you got bored with everyone else around you and saw me as a spare at the back of the shelf#or the secret third option you needed someone to talk to cause evidently im a damn good therapist and you don't have to pay me therapy money#im very careful who i give my energy to#if we pop into each others spheres lets not waste it even if its for a short amount of time#like you i can't be everyones root or branch or leaf for their tree#but i can always be the wind#all around and you might think of me often but im not here im somewhere else#dont mean for all the cryptic metaphors#im just frustrated so many people that ignored me when i was homeless and struggling finally want to see how I've been#when i put it out there i needed help#only to get told i “wasnt loud enough”#i don't hold resentment toward them or anger#if anything it makes me sad for them#cause they can't enjoy the person i am now#not unless i choose it#magenta is my vent word
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the whole thing of treating pets like family members is real cute until you lose the capability of understanding youre caring for animals n not cute fluffy plushies labeled "child"
my mom INSISTED on adopting 2 somewhat big dogs out of pity last year, she insists on getting attached to pets like theyre her children so thats the cutesy way she originally treated them.we do not have enough space for 2 dogs their size n she refuses to ever play w them or take them on walks (im unable to do that myself bc i cant go where theyre kept without help n shed just get mad.i know she would from experience), most of her interaction w them when shes not cutely calling them her kids bc theyre cute to look at is screaming at them for barking, she literally spends the entire day at times talking abt how she wishes she didnt have them n their food is getting way too expensive for how much money we have.so yk she decided to give them away to this guy w a HUGE farm space proper for dogs like them, ignoring how she treats them one could say its noble she realized theyre not well here n let them go somewhere better for their needs
anyways then in less than a day she threw a hissy fit she wanted her "children" back bc she cannot see pets as animals but as cutesy children who need mommy constantly so the dogs r back at somewhere theyll eventually die of boredom bc their only entertainment is barking at lizards bc my mom cant understand dogs have needs n arent there to play cutesy family roles n look nice.its just your responsability for a pet owner to know your ANIMALS needs, n some ppl r literally just not cut to own pets if they insist on seeing them as "essentially people bc its cute to treat them like they r" than animals w specific needs to be kept
like.on base calling pets family is cute.i get the appeal im willing to play along w being the pets sister bc it IS a cute term to use for fun.but when you do it sm you can no longer understand you own animals n not literal children (granted if she treated a child like that shed land in jail immediately) thats just.honestly youre just kinda stupid n obviously get pets bc theyre cute to have, not bc you want to take care of animals
#analiceoriginal.txt#she told me i have no love for them bc i didnt get excited they were back like yeah girl bc THIS ISNT A PROPER PLACE FOR THEM???#im sorry for understanding the concept dogs of specific sizes NEED specific spaces#also i was busy crying abt the fact now i have to put up w her screaming abt them constantly#sorry thats just not exciting news.dogs r back to getting mistreated n im back to putting up w her anger issues#just.fuck man suddenly i rly understand why l.aios was annoyed at s.enshi insisting a.nnie was safe n friendly#that is an ANIMAL w ANIMAL needs n behaviors youre ignoring !!! your love for them is built on a fundamental misunderstanding#of how animals work!!! dumbass!!!#its the same shit w the cats kinda too.theyre her cute children until they need vet attention where suddenly theyre#getting on her nerves bc theyre too needy when sick#heck girl im only here bc i sounded cute to have too 💀#also miss responsability impulsive adoption literally got 3 dogs killed before bc of this behavior#she insisted on adopting this dog knowing she could have been sick w a rly bad disease thats incurable for dogs#guess what the dog turned out to have n spread to our other two dogs killing all of them within a month!#n guess who decided that wasnt her fault yesterday bc shes claiming my ~uncles bad energy~ somehow fucking did that!#this is more of a vent than an objective post abt an issue but idk someone can prob relate
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thought dump
#venting in tags can be soo therapeutic#just a bunch of feelings may not be totally related to each other#sometimes (a lot of the time) theres just this sinking emptiness in my gut. some mixture of loneliness and and self loathing but it also#feels like nothing#part of me is convinced that im hard to love#and i try to compensate by avoiding conflict at all costs and trying to live up to my high moral standards#and i feel so much shame for feeling anger that i try to avoid it but it always bubbles up and gets worse#i wanna be heard i want the people i care about to understand how i feel!!! but i feel like shit for feeling all this and isolate myself#and i wonder why i turn out so resentful and why im struggling to form new connections!!!#feeling like a double edged sword GOD I HATE TALKING ABOUT THESE SYMPTOMS SO MUCH#suspecting (quiet) bpd... but who knows#me when i suffer but i try not to let anyone see even though the Thoughts are swirling in my head constantly and i suffer 10x more#the little things just feel soo big#at least i love hard and try to be kind <3#trying to heal#brought to you by lena luthor s6 talking to alex about not feeling like part of the team and not feeling like enough of a hero#and trying to atone for her past actions and feeling so horrified at the things she did#i felt that
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More personal things, mainly just asking for help i guess
Hey does anyone know how to like. Buy a car. Or do adult things. Like provide for yourself and move out of the house?
18 years old and I have less than $300 saved. I feel like its ridiculous to expect so much from someone who still feels like a kid.
Im genuinely terrified of moving out or having to actually provide for myself, as spoiled or sheltered as that may sound. I am entirely unsure if I can survive.
I need to move out soon because living with my parents is more emotionally exhausting than I initially realised.
If y’all wanna send me some money, I have a ko-fi (but i’m still not sure how it works. If y’all wanna DM about this stuff, that would help so much.)
If you wanna commission me to draw something for you, I can. I can’t assure you that it’ll be that great and all I can draw is the DCA. But I can try? I’d say a $10 minimum for that. Check out the tag #complaintsconcepts for examples of my art, digital and traditional. (i am willing to mail traditional art if you live in the US)
I know i probably don’t have a big enough audience to get much support, but anything helps. I’d do just about anything to be able to get out of my house. Before i can do that I’d have to get my own car, though.
#Just the thought of having to take care of myself is extremely overwhelming for me.#I want to lash out in anger and violence#rant#i don’t know how to do anything and it’s not even my fault really#sure you can say that I should do research and Just Be Better#but I was supposed to be taught how to do this by SOMEONEz#Im trying so hard to survive and I have kittle confidence that i can make it#Im the kind of person to give up when things become too overwhelming. and lifes getting damn near close to that#tw vent#i guess#sorry to do this on my main blog
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im not entirely sure how i should take this.🧍♀️
i just never saw my writing as all that morbid or intense to be entirely honest? (but i grew up reading fanfiction on deviantart, which is like- too unexplainably horny and deranged to describe to those who werent there, so i think that might have given me brain damage or something)
but also, i really dont wanna sound mean, but sometimes i see these comments/anons calling me a freak and i'm like, "do you guys read any actually fucked up literature, or is it just fanfics. be honest now." nothing wrong with not wanting to engage with transgressive literature, we all have our limits, but cmon now, this is nothing!
if i were to list what i would call the most messed up books ive read (exclusively fictional) it off the top of my head it'd be- cows by matthew stokoe, 120 days of salo by marque de sade (didn't actually have the guts to finish this one, not just bc it was REVOLTING, but also it just wasn't a great book :/), haunting by chuck palahniuk, lets go play at the adams by mendal w johnson in the miso soup and coin locker babies by ryu murakami , the marbel swarm by ian banks, prodigal blues by gary a braunbeck, johnny got his gun by by dalton trumbo (i'm sure there's more, but you see what i mean?)
(for the record, i wouldn't really recommend these books as anything more than something to check out if you wanna read something fucked up. i think the only novels i would vouch for beyond their shock value would be the ones by murakami and marbel swarm tbh)
#sorry for the vent gnna delete this later#THIS IS NOT AN ANGER POST ABOUT THIS ONE COMMENT-JUST SOME OF THE COMMENTS I GET THE MOST#.txt#im thankful for every comment iswear#but i genuinely don't understand why my fics are some how seen as so profane#idk where im going with this just disregard all of theis
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Bro im fucking seething, i hate my music teacher with my entire fucking gut. This asshole does not respect his students in any fucking way shape or form, doesn’t let us speak and argue with him over a valid arguments and doesn’t want to hear explanations on why something might be „less than perfect“. For context we had a film project and my friends and i had some complicated while making it(getting really fucking sick, scheduling issues, and problems at the return on the shitty school website thing we have) and he didn’t want to hear a thing, we tried explaining it but he just cuts it off, he acts like hes such a fucking authority figure. Fuck no. He makes students fucking cry on the regular. I hate this sorry excuse for a man.
#red’s nightly ramble#Oh and he called my coming out to him unnecessarily dramatic because I came out to him as enby while crying about something else#He acts like he owns the place#fuckibg hate. his. pathetic guts.#i can not put into words how much anger im feeling like#AND his class is socialcue hell he never makes it obvious what he even wants#tw vent#vent#school vent#shitty teachers#HES ALWAYS AN ASSHOLE BTW#THIS JUST CROSSED THE FUCKIBG LINE
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