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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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#is being predisposed to having depression/general feeling of sadness through your whole life an actual thing?#or do I just have undiagnosed high functioning depression#txt
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Anyone else stuck in a freeze response for years and years and years and years
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pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning
#bpd safe#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#bpd#mentally exhausted#actually bpd#sadgirl#depressing shit#mental health#mental illness#mentally fucked#mentally unstable#disordered eating mention#actually mentally ill#sad thoughts#self h@rm#suic1de#bpd stuff#substance addiction#substance abuse#shitpost#addiction#bpd feels#borderline personality disorder#tw depressing thoughts#girls who do hard drugs#ed culture#eating disoder trigger warning#sadnees#actually borderline
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tumblr users when someone asks them what they did on april 1st
#this is how i feel rn#yes a depressed person CAN do this#points to self#boop#parks and rec#ben wyatt#april fools
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the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere
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When a cunty witch beats you to death then steals your boy toy for eternal torment 😢 (based on that 'don't you miss her???' meme)
#the og Pathetic Little Meow Meow#catwin#the cat king#thomas the cat king#edwin payne#edwin paine#dead boy detectives#dead boy detectives spoilers#dbda#dbda spoilers#crystal palace#niko sasaki#my art#i feel like we dont talk about the Cat King's depression outfit enough#its so horrible i love it so much those ugly fucking sunglasses#whats even the point his kept boy is off leash and being tortured by a woman in fishnets#catwin fanart
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#vent post#vent blog#ventcore#vent#mentally fucked#self h@te#s3lf hate#mentally drained#kinda depressing#tw depressing stuff#s3lf harn#self h@rm#tw depressing thoughts#tw selfhate#tw self destructive behavior#feeling sad#self destruction
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#actually borderline#bpd feels#bpd mood#bpd problems#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#depressing shit#living with ptsd#tw bpd vent#tw self destructive behavior#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#tw depression#actually ptsd#childhood trauma#trauma#borderline things#borderline thoughts#sad thoughts#suicide
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#sadnees#tw depressing thoughts#depressing shit#i'm sad#depressing life#tw depressing stuff#quotes#childhood trauma#poetic#childhood#childhood ptsd#childhood truama#child abuse#tw selfhate#self h@rm#truamacore#kill my thoughts#kill my feelings#complex ptsd#how could you#just cptsd things#scribbles#are you proud of me#daddy issues#this is a cry for help#family#abandoned#ptsd#i hate my existence#wound tw
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maybe in another universe, I can ask for help when I need it.
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maybe i wasn’t meant to be loved
#bpd#actually bpd#actually borderline#bpd vent#bpd safe#bpd thoughts#borderline thoughts#borderline problems#bpd problems#bpd blog#bpd feels#borderline personality disorder#tw depressing thoughts
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#bpd safe#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#bpd#mentally exhausted#actually bpd#sadgirl#depressing shit#mental health#mental illness#mentally fucked#mentally unstable#actually mentally ill#disordered eating mention#self h@rm#suic1de#bpd stuff#substance addiction#sad thoughts#substance abuse#anxienty#addiction#actually borderline#shitpost#trauma#eating disoder trigger warning#ed culture#bpd feels#tw depressing thoughts#tw drugs
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I am so tired and burnt out, I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore
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kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want
#actually bpd#bpd feels#bpd thoughts#depressing shit#relatable#tw depressing thoughts#tasiblog#bpd#bpd safe#bpd stuff#borderline blog#borderline thoughts#bpd is a bitch#borderline culture is#actually borderline#borderline things#borderline problems#borderline personality disorder#bpd brain#bpd blog#bpd problems#bpd vent#bpd life#bpd things#bpd is bpding#bpd irl#bpd issues#bpd tag#bpd tumblr#bpd triggers
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sometimes I just get so sick and tired of fighting just to survive.
#actually bpd#bpd#bpd feels#bpd mood#bpd problems#bpd shit#bpd stuff#bpd thoughts#bpd vent#depressing quotes#bpd fp#tw depressing thoughts#tw depressing stuff#depressing life#sorry for being depressing#depressing shit#depressiv#sad writing#sad words#sad sad sad#sad poetry#i'm sad#sad thoughts#sad poem#sad but true#sadnees#mentally fucked#mentally insane#mentally unstable#actually mentally ill
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