#these are my stream of consciousness thoughts this morning
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I'm going to be honest, I have no idea who you are, but you seem very nice! I saw that you're researching the human fear response- I'd love to hear more about your work if you have the chance!
It ainât that weird to be surprised by anonymity at this point in my god damn career, you teenage pain in myâŠ
⊠Ahem.
Hi. Uh, apologize for the informality of all this, I confess you caught me at something of a loss - it is not very often that I get asked after my research without some layer of presumption or prior bias coloring the inquisition, and the sheer novelty of the situation had me reeling this morning when I woke up to such a refreshing email.
If it's all right with you, I'm gonna just ramble a bit at the camera with my coffee, since where I started and where I'm at has gone a little bit off in the weeds, and stream of consciousness is really the most organic way to get this all down these days; transcript below.
My work with the human psyche is, yes, with the human fear response in a manner of speaking - but I am not so much studying how people respond to fear in and of itself, so much as I am studying the therapeutic benefits of using episodes of intense fear as a means of breaking through repressed memories, opening vulnerabilities surrounding trauma, and helping people with anxiety or other fear-related chronic disorders navigate the tangled nests of their own thought processes to help better identify the cores of their issues so that, when they are in a calmer frame of mind, those newly-identified and articulated 'problem areas' in their past or thought processes could be more directly addressed and worked on in a controlled and clinical setting.
I began this path of neuroscientific study back when I was in university about twenty years ago now, and upon graduation, I initially had quite a bit of grant money and backing from the scientific community to pursue this line of inquiry, though most of that has dried up due to some red tape incidents that, for the sake of this explanation, I'm not going to get into at the moment if that's all right.
However, the process has shown a lot of promise, and I have made a lot of headway even though I am now limited to pilot-study sized focus groups and self-funded research, and am forced due to circumstances to make do broadly with volunteers and short-term clinical trials rather than the years-long therapy treatment plans and relationships I had hoped to establish when I began this journey all those decades ago. Despite setbacks, the research itself has been moving at a steady, if rather slow pace, and has proven incredibly promising, and the few folks that have stuck with me for repeat exposure and study have made a lot of headway with the issues I've been trying to address.
I am not currently licensed to practice any of my experimental therapy techniques in a live clinical setting, so my work in outpatient therapy and clinical psychiatric work is not related to my research, and is more just work I do to pay the bills, as a man's gotta eat and pay his employee and feed his kid and whatnot, but I did publish a paper back in '94 before things went tits up at my original research facility y'all could likely find on my initial findings if you want to pursue the topic further.
If that damn thing's behind a paywall or something, lemme know, I got it around here somewhere. Never pay for knowledge that oughta be free.
#jonathan crane#answers#dc askblog#jonathan blogs#hey nonnie nonnie#dcau askblog#mod art#lore#long post
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So what's "your" Batlantern/ what interpretation do you gravitate towards?
(Like, how do they get together, how do they learn each others identities, how many kids does Bruce already have when they get together, how long until they tell the League, stuff like that.
Also just physically how do they look, who's taller, etc.)
I love a Hal who's cocky but trying to hide emotional depth, and a Bruce who's forced to fumble with romance because his normal charisma is failing him in the face of a colleague/friend who knows him better than he should.
I love it when they're friends, and then maybe fwbs, and then eventually something serious. I don't love when Hal figures out Bruce's identity first, since I think they'd either 1) both know the other's identity eventually or 2) Bruce would absolutely know Hal's first, no matter what happens between them. He's too paranoid, in my mind.
I love subverting Batlantern with Superbat tropes, so I'm going to say I think they're roughly the same height, enough that they can sometimes swap clothes, but Bruce is definitely carrying a bit more muscle than Hal (their jobs make it this way, Batlantern in retirement are probably about the same physique)
I don't think they'd ever tell the League unless they had to. Hal, because he's a private person, and Bruce because there's no professional reason for them to know (other than next of kin documents or something like that if one of them died).
#sorry I'm rambling#these are my stream of consciousness thoughts this morning#asks#anon#hal jordan#bruce wayne#batman#green lantern#clearing out inbox#batfamily#batlantern
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I'm not one to be petty about music. I like cosmo@bousou-p's earlier works. I just think their modern works simply are worse because they're not meant to be songs for listening, but the Next Big Hardest Rhythm Game Track. literally lamest way of selling out
#They arent unique for yaminabe either like mr bungle has literally been doing this for decades#HATER tag#<- new thing i devised for complaining#Like if you compare disappearance of hatsune miku vs like. anything theyve made in the past year it gets obvious that theyve stopped caring#for the rhythm of the vocals and are just squishing together obscene amounts of syllables and make the song sound extremely arrythmical#Just to make it go fast. even the songs they try to have a more âchillâ vibe fall flat because of their need to do this. AND THERE ARE ways#of mashing together calm and rapid fast well. Like listen to their shinigami song and then to elysian tunes' breakwave paradise and youll#see what i mean. Basically i am not even upset about this i just have a lot of thoughts and i kind of really hate when people sell out#Do you understand. Am i making sense.#edit to say um. I did not mean âdisappearance of hatsune mikuâ i meant âTHE REAL disappearance of hatsune mikuâ their followup work#Disappearance of hatsune miku didnt suck for this either btw it did the whole unrhythmic syllables smashed together but cosmo didnt even#try to use them musically. It was there to make miku say a lot and not sing a lot and thats ok. Now they put that in the chorus and i...#dont like it one bit. Ok that is all i may delete this come the next morning because it looks like km gettjng into discourse instead of#just logging my stream of consciousness out there as if it matters. thats all for real this time
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I was 19 and stupid (what 19 year old isn't?) and when I was lost, you felt like a safe place to sink my anchor. it wasn't until years later that I realized that was a lot of weight to ask you to carry.
#pulled from my journal tonight#not directly i mean i collected my thoughts here more than my stream of consciousness rambling#but i thought of this metaphor this morning and it's been on my mind all day#anyway apologies for all the oversharing i did from ages uhhhh 19 to 22 to this person specifically#got lost in the ebb and flow of the drifting tides ya know?
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sometimes i forget how much I enjoy listening to music n dancing.. finished my podcast @ work today so spent the last few hours jamming out while doing some prints (for a v picky client.. ugh), now I'm home alone n have been listening through my headphones for the last hour n just full of joy bouncing around my living room (putting of small chores.. oops). but anyway!!! I'll go days or weeks without listening to music n whenever I come back to it I remember how incredible it can be.
sidenote I wanted to play games w L tonight bc I'm home alone but they're busy :( booooo.. maybe I'll see if N's cousins are free to hangout.. also need to figure out dinner for myself which is my least favorite thing to do lol
#oh a big ol ramble!! what is this typing style lol#enjoy my stream of consciousness (or is it just conscious??)#ok I'm off to string trim the lawn lmao#also okay last thought.. i was taking the trashcans to the curb this morning n my old neighbor literally asked me#âwhy isn't your boyfriend doing that?â and i almost vomited out of spite#because she is my girlfriend!!!!!!! my wife!!!!!!!#and I'm fully capable of taking the trash out... like........#okay I'm done i need to do the lawn before it gets too dark byeeeee#rAMbles
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meddling
azriel x reader drabble
word count: 2k - longest drabble ever, i'm so sorry
summary: reader just escaped a horrific past that has left her closed off and in need of isolation. she takes up residence at the house of wind, finding solace in the private library. she's content to keep to herself, but a meddling house and a stray little shadow have other plans.
a/n: i wrote this very quickly, this is more like a stream of consciousness than a well-planned piece of writing lol. also my first time posting so pls be kind đ i just felt like writing and then ... this happened. ok enjoy!
azriel was a silent, watchful protector of yours when you initially arrived at the night court. studying you, observing you from afar. you spend most of your time on the third level of the house of wind - shy and in need of isolation. your past was something you were desperate to forget. but, even after your relocation to velaris, your mind was murky. you'd tried sorting through thoughts and emotions that you'd pushed deep down in order to survive, but it all felt akin to wading through waist-deep mud in heavy, laced-up boots. you'd found solace in the private library on the third floor, only doors down from your own chambers. many mornings you awoke, dressed, and shuffled to the warm library that was lit with beams of light from dawn's glow. you'd curl into your favorite chair that overlooked velaris and the glistening sidra far down below, taking in a centering breath. it felt like muscle memory, and the house had learned of your routine. a warm teacup waited for you, right beside your well-loved armchair. your tea was the perfect temperature: the house had learned that too. and every morning, a sly, stray tendril of shadow wove its way through the half-opened library doors. it noted your presence, your general state of well-being, before darting away playfully to relay this information back to its master. yes, rhys had asked azriel to watch over you, but even az knew that this level of attentiveness was overkill - even for him. you'd peek up at the tiny shadow each morning, expecting it now. at first, shortly after arriving at the house, you'd blink up at it - not having the mental energy to delve into its motive. now, a couple of months later, you'd felt more settled. more relaxed. and you almost considered this lone shadow to be a sweet little companion, the only being that dared approach you this frequently. you'd give it a soft grin each morning, and it would swirl happily, lazily, before departing as quickly as it came.
you were always cold. try as you might, you often only felt true, comfortable warmth when bundled beneath the layered blankets that adorned your oversized bed. you knew you shared this hallway with azriel, but rarely ever saw him. you'd hear him arrive late at night every now and then - assuming that he'd just returned from some sort of mission. what you didn't know, however, was that azriel had tried his hardest to silence the thump of his boots against the stone floor every single time he approached the arched door of your room. before, when he only shared this hallway with cassian, he'd make noise on purpose upon arriving home. his own way of letting his brother know that he was home and safe, without having to strike up any sort of conversation. he was drained after most missions, had enough of speaking. but with you occupying the room next to his own now, he wouldn't dare disturb your well-deserved, peaceful slumber. az assumed with the past you'd endured, that you'd trained yourself to sleep light. not a sound, don't fuck this up, he'd think to himself, willing his shadows to silence his footsteps entirely. even with the suppressed steps, he still tightened every single muscle. stepping so slowly, he knew he must look ridiculous. if cassian ever saw this, saw him, he would never live it down. on several occasions, your heavy wooden door had unlatched on its own during the night, leaving just enough of a space between the frame and the door that azriel could see the beige drapes that fluttered lightly against your windows through it. your sweet shadow companion would leave az's silent side to dart through the crack, and return just as quickly to whisper cold, shivering against his master's ear. to deter the draft from chilling your bones any further, azriel would reach a scarred hand out to the doorknob, closing it as silently as possible - making sure to pull until he heard the slight click of the latch.
you'd often opted to eat your meals either in the library or in your room - the house setting out a plate and silverware for you wherever you'd decided to spend your time that evening. you didn't allow yourself to wonder what the members of rhysand's family must have thought of you - a secluded, timid female that went out of her way to avoid the members of a family that had tried so hard to give her a home, a place to heal. you'd always quickly push those thoughts to the back of your mind, wanting to focus on taking care of yourself, and not others for once.
tonight, you'd chosen the library. you'd recently begun a trio of books that you'd found on one of the overflowing shelves, and you were unable to put them down once you'd started. you didn't notice the time, didn't notice the mid-afternoon sun become dusk, making the sidra glow like wildfire. you did, however, notice the grumble of your stomach once it became evening. the light of day was gone - the library now filled with the warm glow of faelights, dim candles sitting in golden candelabras, and a crackling fire within the hearth across from you. you frowned to yourself, noticing now that the house hadn't placed dinner on the mahogany coffee table that sat in front of the fire. you glanced around, the thought of verbally speaking to the house itself feeling a bit silly. you briefly told yourself that asking the house may offend it - that was even more laughable. could you offend a house? while silently mulling over these questions, that sly, sleek little tendril of shadow slowly approached you from the door of the library. it curled and twisted its way to you, stopping at your right hand to weave its way around your wrist. you looked down at it curiously - it had never touched you before, had never gotten this close. you'd deduced at this point that it was one of az's shadows - figured that it was just curious about the new presence in the house. however, it began to twirl, trying its best to get your attention. "yes?," you whispered aloud. speaking of silly interactions, you thought briefly. it weaved through your fingers, as if it were trying to hold your hand, before darting towards the door and stopping in the doorway. it was waiting for you; wanted you to follow. you cocked a curious eyebrow, slowly closing your book to set it on the table before you. gathering your linen dress in your hands, you stood, hesitantly walking towards it. "where are we going, little one?," you whispered towards it. the shadow responded immediately by darting down the hall and to the left, towards the stairs. you quickened your steps to catch up to it, only to find it waiting on the landing of the staircase for you. once you spotted it, it darted away again, down one level. peering over the railing, you noticed it twirling towards the doorway of the dining hall. family dinner was taking place, and judging by the various muffled voices and laughter you were able to hear from the staircase, everyone was present.
you tiptoed quietly down the stairs, which you realized was probably pointless. you were sure at least one of them had already picked up on your approaching scent by now. the patient shadow still waited by the door for you, swirling and twirling happily. inviting you inside to dine with its master and his family. you took a deep breath, watching as the shadow darted back to azriel's shoulder, whispering something against the shell of his ear. immediately, az's head snapped towards the doorway, meeting your own nervous gaze before you had the chance to escape without being noticed. his presence felt grounding - it had since the first time you met him. he didn't speak much, but neither did you. he felt familiar, safe, and you wondered briefly if it was due to the affection you'd grown towards his shadow that checked on you dutifully since your arrival - an act that you assumed was azriel's doing.
your hands were clasped in front of you as you nervously played with your fingers. you surveyed the room, taking everything in: the relaxed family, the spread of delicious food on the table. azriel continued to watch you with a calm, yet indiscernible expression on his face. the corner of his lips turned up just slightly, trying to convey that it was okay, you could come in. rhysand noticed you next - he followed azriel's distracted gaze to the threshold of the door, finding your small frame standing there. "well, look who it is," rhys drawled politely, loud enough to quiet the rest of the family sitting around the table. everyone's gaze found you at once, and you swallowed thickly. your eyes darted back to azriel's in a silent plead, his hazel eyes feeling like a lifeline. az nodded once, gaze soft and kind. "why don't you sit down and join us? we were hoping you would," rhys stated sincerely, gesturing a sweeping hand out over the spread of food. âhelp yourself, y/n. if you donât see something youâd like, the house will prepare a more suitable meal," he smiled warmly. as if on cue, a goblet of wine, plates, and silverware appeared in front of an empty chair - courtesy of said house itself. you smiled softly, at the high lord, at the house's display of affection towards you. "thank you," you spoke warmly, perhaps the first time most of them had ever heard you speak at all.
the empty seat that was now prepared for you was right next to azriel, and you slowly made your way towards it. you felt the prying gaze of everyone at the massive dinner table, and silence still encompassed the room. your eyes flitted around nervously, and azriel tracked the movement immediately. he cleared his throat once, a silent, stoic glare tossed to his family. they got the hint, and all fell back into comfortable conversation amongst each other - attention no longer all on you. you took your place next to him, staring down at your empty plate. your hands fell into your lap, your fingers fiddling together once more. azriel watched you from his peripheral, not wanting you to feel balked at.
he leaned over finally, speaking so only you could hear, "would you like to try the potatoes?", his tone was warm and soft - comforting. you darted your gaze over to him, only meeting his eyes for a moment. he was much more intimidating up close, and you were far too shy.
"they're my personal favorite," he continued on, the corners of his mouth curled upward. you let out a small breath of a laugh, playing with a stray thread on your gown. "yes, please," you whispered to him, eyes raking over the large elaborate plates and dishes set in the middle of the table, searching for the potatoes he spoke of. before you could reach towards the gold serving spoon that sat within the buttery dish, his hand had already grasped it, bringing a heaping serving right over to your plate.
"i've got it," he spoke softly, dishing your meal. you nodded once, cheeks heating at the action. it continued this way, azriel asking if you'd like to try each entrée and side, one by one. he'd offer his own personal opinions on each one, and you'd both laughed at the way he'd described the asparagus - "absolutely abysmal," he'd report, nose scrunching dramatically.
after your plate was adequately filled, az went back to his own food. you began to poke at yours. "thank you," you whispered over to him after a moment. he glanced over at you and replied with a friendly smile, and over his shoulder appeared a small tendril of a shadow - your meddling little companion that had also apparently conspired to bring you closer to its master. it twirled your way happily, looping through your fingers and up your arm. you laughed softly, meeting azriel's sparkling hazel eyes. he smiled fondly at his shadow, "i'm sorry, sometimes it feels like they have a mind of their own," he paused for a moment, watching the smoky tendril weave through your hair. "they like you," he whispered, meeting your eyes with a grin.
"don't apologize," you replied softly. "i like them too. i think they knew i needed company," you said pointedly, not dropping his gaze for the first time all evening. he nodded in understanding, plopping another bread roll onto your plate.
"well, welcome to the family, y/n," his words were soft, but the weight you felt in your chest was overwhelming. warmth, true warmth, spread through your limbs, snuffing out the chill that had left you constantly shivering.
#acotar#azriel#azriel fic#azriel x reader#azriel drabble#azriel acotar#azriel fanfic#azriel imagine#azriel x you#azriel fluff
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Astarion Headcanons
Because Astarion consumes nearly every braincell I own, here's some headcanons on how Stari finds comfort in your boobs.Â
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Warnings: Nudity; mentions of trauma; nightmares; unintentional puncture wounds
He loves to use them as his pillows; your bedroll is never your own again after Astarion discovers that you don't mind welcoming him in during the night when he's feeling exceptionally lonely and vulnerable. Not that you mind, what with how he nuzzles his face between your breasts, breathing in your familiar scent and wrapping his arms tightly around your middle. You melt a little inside when the vampire spawn fully relaxes into you after a few deep breaths, and you start running your fingers through his silver curls, always surprised at how downy they are, despite how much they'd been through. A contented shudder goes through his body and he sighs into your skin, his breath the only thing that runs hot about him, sending a shiver through you as well. You can't help but let the corners of your mouth curl upwards and your eyes fall closed at the sensations encircling you. Being entangled in him is just as comforting to you as it is to him, and you know that if you didn't have to arise the next morning in order to continue your journey, you'd be fully satisfied with not knowing where you ended and he began for as long as he allowed.Â
He uses them as stress balls (and you cannot convince me otherwise); you've awoken in the middle of the night with a yelp of pain in your chest. There's several seconds of panic before you realize that the source of the pain is Astarion's sharp fingernails digging into your ample breast. He's still asleep, but he's writhing, his brow furrowed and eyes clamped shut. 'Nightmare,' you think to yourself as you gently try to pry his five tiny daggers from your flesh. But he must have felt safety slipping away in his sleep, for his grip only tightened and you had to bite the inside of your mouth as his nails punctured your skin and tiny streams of blood appeared around your areola. "Stari," you mutter, your fingers finding his hair and massaging his scalp gently as you crane your neck down to kiss his damp forehead. The pain is bringing tears to your eyes, but you know trying to toss him off is no good: his grip is like iron on you. So you shush him quietly and tenderly run your warm palms along every bit of skin you can reach, trying to soothe his subconscious horrors from your helpless place beside him. Eventually his hold on you went slack, and you were able to pull his nails from your skin, shuddering in pain as each jagged edge flayed your skin on its way out. 'We're going to have to discuss nail trimmers' you thought humorlessly as you wiped the blood away with your tunic that lay close by. "Mmm, love?" His sleepy voice froze you in your movements, head turning to find him blinking slowly, prying his eyelids open as he returned to consciousness. He reaches for you, hardly even awake enough to know where he is, but still the first thing he wants is you. You can't deny him, so you reach back for him, pulling his face to your bosom and planting kisses in his curls. But he stiffens, and you cringe, realizing that he must have smelled your blood. "Darling, did I-?" He whispers, ghosting his thumb over the clotting nail marks. "You were having a nightmare, my love." You murmur between kisses to the crown of his head, the tips of his ears, his forehead, nose, and cheeks. He tries to pull away, ashamed of hurting you, but you hold him fast, your arms circling his shaking shoulders as you pull him back to you. "I knew what I was signing up for, my darling." You thumb the skin of his shoulders where you hold him and he releases a soft sob into the valley of your breasts. "I hurt you. The one person who's never hurt me." He wails. "My dear heart, I will suffer that and much more to see you smile again. You will never suffer alone again." Gently, you tilt his chin up and wipe the tear streaks from his beautiful face. "I love you," You whisper to him. "I love all of you." Another whimper left his lips and he nodded, burying his head in the crook of your neck and wrapping his arms around you. 'One day,' you thought. 'One day he won't have to hurt like this anymore, and I'll be there to see him smile again.'
Fin
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sooo.. i've had this scenario stuck in my head today... in the morning after your wedding night with carlos you both wake up needy bc you were too tired after partying all night... just imagine his raspy voice in the morning telling you to be good for him đ« i'm a whore for (soft)dom!carlos i need help
You and Carlos met exactly 5 years ago, and you decided to set your wedding date on your 5th year anniversary.
The best man, Lando, along with Carlos's sisters had graciously taken care of everything, and had organized the craziest party you had ever witnessed in your life.
Warnings: smut, softdom Carlos, fluff, daddy kink, marriage kink? Is that a thing?, mention of partying and alcohol induced debauchery.
The first thing you thought when you regained consciousness was âWhy can't I move?â
Try as you might, your entire body felt like fucking lead.
The next thing your brain supplied was âIt's too hot in hereâ which wasn't particularly helpful, but important to note none the less.
And then finally, âOh my god I got married yesterday!â
Despite your body not at all responding to your brain, you could hear the not so soft snoring of your new husband next to you.
You could also feel his arm draped across your back, along with the itchy feeling of the material of your wedding dress wrapped and tangled in your legs.
It took you a few minutes to regain the feeling in your limbs and you finally opened your eyes.
Thank god you'd had the forethought to close the blinds so the room was still mostly in darkness, save for the warm glow of sunlight streaming through a few small cracks.
Your mind was foggy with the amount of alcohol that was still swirling around your bloodstream, but the heat was stifling and you needed out of the dress now.
You wriggled your fingers and got to work trying to undo it but it was no use with how you had to reach around your back, so you huffed in frustration.
You tried to roll over but failed miserably, stiff muscles protesting at the movement.
Carlos stirred next to you and you turned your head to look at him.
He wasn't in a much better state than you, groaning at the stiffness of his own body as he also tried and failed to roll over.
âCarlosâ you tried to say but it came out slurred.
Your mouth was dry and still vaguely tasted of whatever strong stuff you'd probably chugged only a few hours prior.
âWhaah?â he slurred back.
What a fucking pair you two made.
You giggled at his cute face squished into the pillows.
âCarlos⊠I need you to help me get this dress offâ
He chuckled and extended an arm across the space between you to start unclasping it expertly.
âDid I make you all hot and bothered cariño, or wre you thinking about someone else?â he smirked, and you had no idea what that was supposed to mean but his voice was deep and gravelly and you swore his pupils grew in size.
You always thought his voice was hot, but his morning voice was something else entirely, and you'd be lying if it didn't make you hot for an entirely different reason.
The dress came off completely and you groaned at the feeling of cool air on your skin.
âYou knowâŠâ Carlos said, biting his lip with a mischievous look in his eyes. âWe did not consume the marriageâ
You burst into a fit of sleepy giggles.
âConsummate, Carlos. Not consumeâ
He chuckled and wriggled closer to you, so that your noses were touching.
âSame thingâ he kissed you and you smiled into it, biting his lip playfully.
âYou're my husband, nowâ you whispered when you parted for breath.
His hand came up to cup your throat gently, not pressing, just one of the little possessive habits Carlos had.
âTurn aroundâ he growled.
You maneuvered your bodies so that he was spooning you, and he quickly undid the slacks he was still wearing from the night before.
Both of you must have fallen into bed exhausted after the wild night you'd spent dancing and downing drinks.
Now that you thought about it, you couldn't remember much after the 4th round of shots Lando made everyone take, but you were sure that was only the beginning of the madness that had probably occurred.
You couldn't dwell on it though, because Carlos was rubbing his tip along your folds and nudging your clit with every stroke.
You sighed dreamily in anticipation, waiting for him to push into you.
âAlready so wet my love, you ready to take your husband's cock for the first time?â
He pushed the tip in and you gasped, it was so much already.
It obviously wasn't the first time you'd had sex, but it still felt different now somehow.
He was thick, and when he finally bottomed out, you whined at the intense stretch.
He lifted your leg and hooked it over his hip, changing the angle drastically.
He wrapped a hand around your throat, deep voice rumbling in his chest that was pressed against your back.
âAre you going to be a good girl and take my cock?â he purred.
âYesâ you whined.
âYes, what?â he asked, cockiness dripping from his voice.
âYes, daddyâ
His hand tightened around your throat and he growled.
âGood girlâ
And with that he slammed into you, knocking the air out of you as your cunt clenched around him almost painfully tight.
He grunted and rolled over you so that his weight was pressing you into the mattress.
âRelax, mi amor. You're such a good girl, always taking me so well.â
You whimpered, the fuzziness in your head was only getting worse as his fat cock split you open and you couldn't do anything but lay there helplessly and take it.
Soon the slight pain turned Into pleasure and the noises spilling from your lips sent Carlos into a frenzy, hips slapping against yours relentlessly.
You felt your orgasm creep up on you slowly as he panted and growled into your ear, and every time your walls fluttered around him he let out a punched out groan and his rhythm faltered, taking instead to long hard strokes that grinded into the deepest parts of you.
You were right on the edge, dangling over the precipice when Carlos spoke softly.
âCome for me, my wifeâ
You tightened around him as you came hard. Your high was as much mental as it was physical. You were Carlos' wife, you realised, the fantasy had finally become a reality. The two of you had never been so close, bodies intertwined as his hand came up to hold yours, both of your gold bands glinting in the sunlight.
Carlos bit into the flesh of your shoulder as he reached his own high, filling you up with his cum and claiming you as his own as his hips bucked involuntarily.
As you both came down, neither of you was able to move, feeling the exhaustion and the ache overtaking your bodies once again.
What on earth had you done last night? You couldnât remember anything past 1 -ish. You'd have to wait until the photographer released her photo albums.
Carlos chuckled suddenly, making your body rock with the movement, and you asked him what was so funny.
âNothing, I'm just remembering last night and why I had to drag you to bedâ he teased, but you had no idea what he was talking about.
You said as much and his chuckles turned into full on wheezing.
âYou⊠you don't remember what you did on top of the bar? Oh my god I cannot wait for the photosâ
You sobered up remarkably quickly at that.
âWhat the fuck did I do Carlos?â
He snorted and dug his face into your neck and mumbled.
âYou were so drunk⊠you got Charles and George up on the bar with you and started stripping for them. Like⊠grinding on them and unbuttoning their shirts and putting your hands on their-â
âOh my godâ you whimpered.
Forget waiting for the photos, you needed to prepare the boys' PR teams for the absolute shitstorm that was about to hit the Formula 1 worldâŠ
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the lamb and her wolf / tom riddle
pairing: tom riddle x fem!reader
content: muggleborn!reader, tom is goin a lil mad
summary: have you fallen into the dark lordâs trap, or has he fallen into yours?
a/n: i wrote this at 4 in the morning so enjoy this stream of consciousness grumpy x sunshine esque tom riddle fanfiction or something.
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â°Ë *.ïŸ .ËłâșâË ËââșËł . àŒș ËàŁȘ ËàŁȘ â
Tom is in a frenzy of sorts, heâs concluded.
Perhaps it is the sleepless nights and stressful days that cloud his weeks that are causing the weird feeling in his chest. Insomnia-induced hysteria.
Thereâs a flurry of thoughts swirling around his head recently. All with a common theme; you. The space in his brain that he typically reserved for Ancient Runes or Arithmancy was now composed of you, you, and only you.
It makes him sick to his stomach.
Heâs unfocused. And he canât be, because heâs supposed to be working on the secret that Salazar Slytherin hid in the deep crevices of Hogwarts some years ago.
His fingers tap on the book that he canât seem to pay attention to as he tries to make sense of this. The disgusting, awful, pleasant fondness he feels for you. For a Muggleborn girl no less.
The only solution to his problem is to kill you. It wouldnât be hard, he thinks. Youâre small and meek and all too trusting of him. Like a lamb to the slaughter.
You are a symbol of everything he despises. Joy. Innocence. You are of the same kind as his worthless father. So why is it that he canât bring himself to end you? To end your time together? Heâs done it before. Heâs done it plenty of times and without a second thought.
âTom!â your horrible, beautiful voice cheers, snapping him out of his thoughts. Oh, great, he thinks. You plague his mind and now you bedevil his reality.
âHello,â he says after a beat.
You ignore his bothered expression and smile. âIâve brought snacks! You do like mince pie, donât you?â He nods weakly. âGood, because my mamâs had some sent. Sheâs trying out a new recipe. Secret ingredient or something like that. Iâm sure you havenât eaten yet, with your inane study habits, I mean, do you ever have breaks?â You ramble on and he listens with fascination. How could you be talking to him so casually? So endearingly?
Youâre far from done. âIt doesnât matter, though. Youâll have a break now. Go on, put your book away, would you?â He does as told. Heâs not sure why. You take a seat at his table, fumbling with the paper bag youâve brought. âAha! Mince pie! One for each of us. Tell me if you like it, Iâll have Mam send some more. Sheâd be delighted.â
Itâs at this point, where heâs chewing on warm minced pie and watching you do the same, nodding contentedly, that he wonders which life decisions heâd made led up to this. Heâs the Dark Lord. A name that the world will soon fear. If all goes to plan, youâll be reading in terror of all the vile things heâs done in the paper. Youâll be afraid of him, and he canât help dread it. He dreads the thought of your heartbroken eyes as you realise what a wicked person youâd extended your kindness to.
Itâs the frenzy again. What is he even thinking? He dreaded nothing. He looked at his plans with excitement.
âTom? Hellooo,â you say, singsongingly. He didnât even realise youâd been speaking. He glances up at you and imagines what youâd think of him once the truth comes out.
âYes?â
âWhat do you think? About the pie, I mean.â
He clears his throat, fingers gripping the armrest of his seat. âGood. Itâs good.â That draws another pretty smile out of you and he really hates the way it made him feel. âThank you.â
âYouâre welcome! Also, Tommy,â He quirks his brow. The nickname was a slip of the tongue. Youâd never used it and it made you nervous, but he didnât seem to mind so much. âAre you busy later? I need some help with Transfiguration.â
Heâs always busy. Well, he should be. Heâs been slacking recently, too preoccupied with your freshly baked desserts and strawberry-smelling hair.
âI could make time for that,â he says decidedly.
Idiot. Idiot, idiot, idiot.
Youâre immediately on your feet, giddy like how heâd imagine a child to be upon receiving candy. âThank you! Oh, youâre a lifesaver, truly!â you say, and suddenly a kiss is planted on his cheek.
A full stop. His world pauses and spins on its axis. Your lips felt good. Bad.
What an evil, evil wolf he was.
#đ by.ivy#harry potter fanfiction#harry potter imagine#hp imagine#tom riddle#tom riddle fanfiction#tom riddle imagine#tom riddle x reader#tom riddle x you#tom riddle x y/n#tom marvolo riddle
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Catie's Big Ass bucktommy fic rec (Part One)
So I'm not gonna lie, I have most of these fics priv. bookmarked because I HAVEN'T COMMENTED ON THEM YET AND I FEEL REALLY GUILTY ABOUT THAT. But more than one anon has asked for this and it tickles me pink that y'all like my writing enough to trust in my recs. So. Please, please, be better than I am and make sure to kudos and comment if you enjoy any of these works.
(Guys, there are SO MANY amazing writers in this fandom. So many truly breathtaking fics already. I got two hours into this and realized I was going to need to split this into parts because I have too many things to say about each of these and I want to do them all justice.)
Writers you can trust in:
@rcmclachlan /ao3 : I will sing RC's praises to the moon and back. There is something about the way RC injects humor into the tiniest of lines that makes me want to scream into a pillow until I pass out. You will see more than one of RC's fics in this list.
@kirkaut /ao3: kirkaut is the reason I jumped on this bandwagon. The unhinged spiral into LFJr obsession and the prevalence of well thought out meta and incredibly hot fic drew me in. If you are not following kirkaut, change that now.
@26-cats-in-a-trenchcoat / catfud_ohplease on ao3: Devastating prose. The ability to turn a theme on a dime and STAB YOU IN THE HEART with it. Mac owns my whole soul when it comes to really scratching that itch behind my eyelids for thematic imagery and really creative ideas for fic that aren't just run-of-the-mill smut/angst/fluff.
@devirnis / ao3: Ali only has one bucktommy fic up on ao3 but it is devine and I love it. Ali is also the only writer who has tempted me into reading buddie. This is not an indictment on buddie fandom or buddie fic writers in general, I just tend to be a one ship kinda gal and I don't really dive into fic for a ship I don't vibe with. Ali's writing has made me reconsider this position.
@beefcakekinard / thingbe on ao3: The domesticity. Literally just reread one of Rose's fics this morning and HAD to comment on it again because it made me want to fling myself to Jupiter.
(This is not a comprehensive list, but I just realized how many fics I have already bookmarked for bucktommy and I'm already under a readmore.)
Fics that make my brain go brrrr:
only fools rush in - somnum365 ( @firehose118)
Tommy lets Buck set the pace. Buck is ready for something.
Super hot and all about checking in. I've got a thing for discovering sex with a partner starting out with frottage and this delivers. The characterizations are so great.
Colin Firth Thinks You're Hot - IDontGoHereEither (@herrmannhalsteadproduction)
Buck is late for a special date night with Tommy, but he still stops to help a stranger stuck on the side of the road. Luckily, that stranger is about to help HIM.
Cute as fuck with a super fun guest star. Who doesn't want Mr. Darcy to think your boyfriend is hot?
sad girl poetic thursday night - screamlet
Date night menu: pasta primavera and emotional unpacking.
There's something about the pacing of this that sent me into a tailspin. The stream of consciousness that actually bleeds from the dialogue into the action and vice versa. Hng.
I Was Only Falling In Love - Princessfbi (@princessfbi)
Tommy in crisis mode.
There's a moment in this fic where Eddie has to pull Tommy back from the precipice of something and it lives entirely rent free in my head, forever and ever amen. The firefam taking care of Buck by taking care of Tommy.
let me count the ways - ashesandhalefire
Buck and Tommy in the aftermath of a good evening are chattier than they probably reasonably should be
There is something about this fic that feels like the witching hour is upon you, like you could live in this little pocket world Buck and Tommy have created for themselves forever. The dialogue is fantastic, and the way they communicate with each other is just *chefs kiss*
let's make it cinematic - kirkaut
Tommy helps Buck deal with some of his impotent rage in the face of the Gerrard of it all.
Listen, I do not have a praise kink. This kinda makes me wish I did.
"[...]Everything is.â He circles a finger around in the air. âItâs very spinny.â - this line of dialogue came for my fucking throat.
Sick with it - Mellow_Yellow
what if in an alternate universe babyslut Buck joined the 118 when Tommy was still in his closeted asshole era and they had a torrid affair??
The way this is a little fucked up. The way the characterizations aren't exactly familiar because they haven't aged into what we know them as in current canon. The way you can see in every broken line and every stutter step that Tommy is falling for Evan and has No Fucking Idea what to do with that. Ugh. Best Met Earlier AU I've ever read.
He blinked as Tommy walked by, eyes sliding closed again before he left. He felt a light touch on the top of his head but figured he was imagining it. He couldnât think of anyone at the 118 who would touch him that carefully. - just absolutely fucking end me they're so good/bad for each other
A Full Body Workout - Persiflager
Tommy and Buck spend a day trying to distract Eddie from the *gestures vaguely* all of it.
The way this is so quiet in the way it shows you how Tommy and Buck care for each other. The way they are down bad but still so hyperaware of the pace they've set, the things they've talked about. The way they take care of their friend here. I'm obsessed with the tone of this one. Also, as a general theme, nothing draws me in more than well thought out dialogue, and this one has some fucking GREAT dialogue.
Your love is better than ice cream - Cecily_v, liminalmemories
An alternative meet-cute, where-in Tommy doesnât know the 118 and decides Buck is worth it anyway. Buck is confused but figures some things out.
There is so much I love about this AU. How they meet. How their relationship progresses. How it feels glacially slow in comparison to the canon storyline but also how in character they both are. The foundation of their love in this fic is downright eatable.
just couldn't fall til we met - thingbe (@beefcakekinard)
Buck and Tommy spend a quiet morning in together.
This is the one that crossed my dash earlier today and made me eat fucking glass on reread. The closeness. The way they're both so tactile. The blink and you'll miss it hints at a life being built together. Eating this UP every time I read it.
The Premium Twunk Appreciation Society, President: Tommy Kinard - everythingremainsconnected
5 times Tommy almost faints like a Victorian maiden at the sight of Buckâs flesh, and 1 time he can do something about it.
âHey,â Evan said, shoving Eddie out of the way and filling the screen with his playful glare, âorganise bro time on your own time, Iâm on the phone withâ with Tommy.â
âWith who?â Eddie repeated. Tommy didnât need to see his face to hear the fondness in the mocking. âWhoâs on the phone? I didnât quite catch that.â
- They are so stupid about each other in this fic, please read it and watch steam blow out your ears at how sweet and hot and down bad for each other they are.
desire (i want to turn into you) - chthonicheart
The first time Buckâs really able to bury his face between a manâs tits, he nearly cries.
pwp but with a whole heaping of character study. HOT.
rule four (you were only waiting for this moment to arise) - middyblue (daisyblaine) [@middyblue]
Tommy has doubts.
There is a general mood to this piece that feels heavy in a way I can't quite explain. There was a weight on my chest all the way through this in the BEST way possible. The way Tommy navigates his mind and struggles to trust the little slice of peace he and Buck have carved out is just mindbogglingly beautiful.
Come Fly The Friendly Skies - RC_McLachlan (@rcmclachlan)
Buck meets their rescue mission's would-be pilot and is extremely normal about it.
"Throttling is what I'm gonna do to you if you don't shut up and let the nice man steal a helicopter for us,"
WHEN I TELL YOU I AM INCANDESCENT WITH RAGE over how funny and insightful this fic is.
Every characterization is picture perfect.
Maddie gives great hugs, but she's so small; if she had this guy's build and could basically fold Buck into her like an old blanket, they'd have to pry him out of her arms with the jaws of life.
In the back of Buck's mind, in a place he hasn't discovered, he's already picked out a venue and chosen his centerpieces. He's mentally putting together seating arrangements. This line of Buck's thoughts on Tommy Kinard told me so.
Please read this and join me in trying to destroy RC with my mind (lovingly).
little by little - MediaWhore
Buck & Tommy, during and after the wedding.
There is something so soft and gentle about this fic. The way Tommy just gives in to the exhaustion and props himself up against Buck because he knows he'll be able to take the weight (he wants to take the weight and Tommy knows it). The quiet flirting, the way they take care of one another. The jumpscare of Marge and Phil and how this fic is right at the edges of exploring that but Buck has me important priorities.
âIt was badly done,â - the way this is so in character for Ma Buckley and the way it made me want to SHAKE HER TIL HER TENDONS SHATTERED AND SHE CRUMBLED LIKE A SATISFYING CASINO IMPLOSION
Soft and heartbreaking and mending all at once.
while you arranged flowers - newtkelly
Buckâs got a wedding date, but as far as today goes, heâs also got a regular one.
The way I want to wrap this Buck up tenderly and hide him from the people in his life who DON'T DESERVE HIS AFFECTION, HIS LOVE, HIS JOY.
The non-urgency of this, the absolute too-much-too-soon he's dealing with in his own mind while he grapples with the reality of seizing a second chance with both hands and getting to explore himself within the confines of a very lovely, very sweet and kind, VERY HOT man he wants to get on his knees for.
Beautiful prose, excellent dialogue, an insightful character study.
#bucktommy#bucktommy fic rec#catie's babtfr#i you happen to find yourself on here and i haven't included a tumblr link lemme know#i did my best to search profiles and beg. and end notes but i know i probably missed one or two of you#thanks nonny for pointing out my misspelling of princessfbi. 'preciate you#i'm collecting your tumblr usernames like pokemon every time i come across you in the tags. jsyk
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c. ă«ăŒăă㯠| blue lock + f!reader t. solving the big question of âwhat are we?â
reo was dumbfounded. âuh⊠what do you mean? youâre my girlfriend.â
he shifted his weight against the doorframe of his bedroom, nimble fingers run through his disheveled locks. the gesture mirrors his current state of mind, a habit of his whenever he needed to make sense of a situation he couldnât understand.
âwoah, hold up, iâm your girlfriend?!â he can hear the heavy tinge of disbelief in your voice, the slight tremor in your tone had assured him that you werenât playing an unfunny prank on him or toying with his emotions.
is he dreaming? what the hell is happening?
his confusion reaches ten-fold. the expression worn spoke a thousand words, the intensity of his gaze was familiar, it mimicked the same face he made whenever he had to cram through his taxation homework. if you took a snapshot of him in this moment, you could edit it to be a reaction meme his friends can laugh over.
âare you sure youâre not my girlfriend?â you nod at him then say, âi think iâd know if i had a boyfriend or not.â
how can you say such a thing when heâd been by your side for months on end? he was rendered speechless. he walked you to class, spent the night at your dorm and vice-versa, and shared countless meals with you. he even introduced you to his parents, a gesture that held weight since itâd take a miracle to sneak himself into their busy schedules.
âare you sure youâre sure âcuz this makes no sense? what do you mean youâre not my girlfriend?â he shoots an inquisitive look, brow raised in curiosity.
âfor one, you never asked me to be your girlfriend, reo? you didnât even confess that you felt this way about meâŠâ
wait, what?
he inwardly retraces his steps in search for any memory of a confession. seconds pass then a minute and his face turned red with embarrassment and frustration.
he drew a blank.
âoh...â wearing a sheepish grin, he scratched the nape of his neck. âwould you like to be my girlfriend then?â
when people thought of you and nagi, the status of âfriendsâ would be the last to come to mind. any person with working vision can see the dynamic of your relationship went beyond the borders of platonic, there was a connection that ran deeper. his concern for you and your well-being surpass what was expected out of him as your friend.
the term itself proves to be inadequate, to them at least.
it failed to capture the extent of your feelings for each other, the unspoken words exchanged, the stolen glances, and the unyielding longing for one another.
after all, just friends donât send âgood morningâ and âgood nightâ texts on a daily basis; just friends donât gingerly kiss each other on the cheek as a greeting; just friends donât experience a twinge of disappointment and bitterness when one of them goes on a date; just friends donât embrace one another a little longer than necessary; and just friends donât feel their hearts skip a beat at the sight of the otherâs smile and and the sound of the otherâs laughter.
most of all, just friends donât cuddle in the way you two did. and that fact lingers in the air between you. lightly nudging him, you hope to rouse a answer from him. instead he gives you an annoyed groan, and an even louder one escapes after he heard your question.
âtired, mostly sleepy.â
âiâm being serious! what are we?â tone laced with a touch of playfulness. a stream of consciousness flickered in his eyes, momentarily breaking through his fatigue. a coy grin tugs at the corner of his lips, as the grogginess melts away, and replaces his initial annoyance.
nagi draws your body close to his chest then wraps his arm around your torso, enveloping you in a warm hold. his voice, softened by his affection for you, murmurs near your ear, âweâre⊠whatever you want us to be.â he tucks his chin over your shoulder then looks up and meets your gaze. âhappy?â
#nagi seishiro x reader#nagi x reader#mikage reo x reader#reo x reader#blue lock x reader#blk x reader
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had a fantasy while in the shower last night...
invite me over to play video games, maybe a few of your friends are here too. we start playing and snacking, im too wrapped up in this round to pay much attention when you bring brownies out. once the round is over, i go to grab a snack and you ask if i wanna try your brownies. they taste a little funny but i don't wanna be rude because you're my friend, so i finish mine and im used to the taste. after a while i start to get a little sleepy, and you say i should have another brownie. the sugar will help me stay awake. your friends all agree, so i have another one. its late now, and one of your friends suggest we make it interesting. the loser of each round has to do a dare. everyone else agrees, and im too out of it to react much. you pass me the controller and i can barely focus, eyes hazy and head spinning. what was in those brownies? you laugh and i realize i lost the round. one of your friends dares me to take my shirt off. im self conscious at first, but you all push me to do it. "you lost, you have to do the dare" "come on, it's not a big deal" "guys take their shirts off all the time" i nod slowly and pull my shirt off. it doesn't click in my mind that it should be someone else's turn as we start the next round. soon, im in just my boxers, eyes half closed, leaning against you for support. you put your hand on my waist and the other starts groping my chest. i look at you confused but you assure me you're just helping me stay awake. just giving me a little massage. im not sure when the others joined us on the couch. one friend puts his hand on my thigh. i pull my leg away but you forcefully push it back, spreading my legs. "no no, we're just helping you stay awake. this is what bros do for each other" i whimper in protest, making you laugh. two of you are groping me while the other two clean up the snacks and turn the tv off. im whining and struggling weakly, unable to see anything except a blurred, spinning mix of color. you lay me down on the couch and pull my boxers off. i don't realize what's happening as you start to get undressed, pulling my arms behind my back and holding my legs open. im dripping down onto the sofa, murmuring incoherently and shaking. you decide im being a bit too vocal and shove your cock down my throat. my eyes get wider as i feel you growing in my mouth. you grab my hair and start thrusting your hips, pulling my head up to meet you roughly. tears stream down my face. once you're hard, you pass my mouth off to the next guy idly stroking his dick beside me. i weave in and out of consciousness for the rest of the night, cockwarming in my pussy and mouth while someone fucks my ass, all four of you jerking yourselves off before slamming into my cunt to cum one at a time. covering my face and body with your seed, hair drying sticky and gross. once youve lost count of how many loads have been dumped into my holes, you send your friends home and get to work cleaning me up, making sure i forget everything in the morning. i wake with a throbbing cunt and a sore throat, head spinning. i ask you what happened and you tell me; i fell asleep playing video games last night. youre my friend, so i trust you. i thought i wore boxers to your house last night, but i cant remember clearly. lucky for me, your friends all really like me, so ill be allowed to hang out with you more. and as you introduce me to more and more friends, your storage space on your computer drops significantly. its a good thing i keep falling asleep or blacking out, because it gives you plenty of time to remove the recording devices and clean everything up.
#bd/sm puppy#dumb puppy#ftm puppy#ftm sub#pup pl4y#puppy posting#submisive and breedable#ftm breeding#cnc k!nk#cnc sub#dumb slvt#dumb wh0re#bd/sm fucktoy#cnc fr33use#fr33use slvt#g@ngb@ng#human fleshlight#bd/sm kink#free use kink#r@pe kink#somno k!nk#use my pussy#ftm ns/fw#r@pe fantasy#r@petoy#cnc slvt#somno fantasy#cnc drugging#tw drugs#weed intox
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EXPLICIT CONTENT | MINORS DNI
Perv!dark!Jim Hopper x fem!reader x Steve Harrington âą This is a very long chapter âą But itâs worth the read, I promise! The cliffhanger at the end is⊠đ±đ€ŻđŻ
PART ONE
Jim Hopper woke up with a headache so intense, he wasnât sure he could open his eyes. He did anyway, cursing under his breath at the sunlight streaming through his bedroom curtains, despising it. He lifted his hand to shield his eyes from the morningâs intrusion, yet his splitting headache persisted. Heâd consumed far too much alcohol the night before, more than he usually did most evenings. As the fuzzy events of the past eight hours rose to his consciousness, he felt a wave of dread and vomit battling in his stomach.
What had he gotten himself into, Hopper wondered? The sound of footsteps echoed from the bedroom doorway. Hopper turned to see the woman heâd apparently brought home last night, smiling at him and carrying two mugs from his kitchen, steamy and smelling of fresh coffee. âMorning, handsome.â
She appeared to be naked except for one of his plaid flannel shirts, which sheâd (obviously intentionally) left unbuttoned most of the way down her body.
Hopper felt nothing in regards to this woman at the moment besides annoyed. Her neon pink lipstick was missing, but her smile and demeanor still held that pathetic desperation which made Hopperâs skin crawl. She was standing there, waiting for Hopper to say something.
âWell?â she started, her tone slightly bothered as if expecting a compliment of some kind. âI thought maybe you could use this.â She walked closer and gently handed Hopper one of the mugs. âI know I sure can. Last night wasâŠâ She tilted her head, attempting flirtatiousness but it fell flat. Hopper watched her silently, waiting for a description of the night before, as he was genuinely in the dark. He realized he must have been blackout drunk, a state Hopper had somehow managed to avoid for the majority of his years drinking.
The woman sighed wistfully, and playfully tapped her mug to Hopperâs. The sound of the ceramic clinking together pierced Hopperâs ears through the filter of his hangover. She sat down on the bed beside him, snuggling close. âCheers,â she said, and at this proximity, Hopper could now see the residue of neon pink staining the corners of her lips. Hopper grimaced. He watched her take a sip, then place the mug on his nightstand. Her hands began to wander over him, massaging his shoulders, moving along his back. Her right hand lingered below Hopperâs waist, and he realized what was happening. She wanted him to fuck her.
As Hopper expected, the womanâs cheaply manicured fingers slid beneath the sheet over Hopperâs waist, finding his cock. She bit her lower lip, eyes flashing up at Hopper expectantly. A new worry itched at his brain, and the roiling in his stomach returned. Had he fucked this woman last night? He couldnât remember. And Hopper hoped that if heâd come inside her, it hadnât been in her pussy. The last thing he needed was another pregnancy scare to add to his list of irresponsible sexual behavior.
âRemember what you said?â the woman asked, gently stroking Hopper under the sheet. His eyebrow lifted. âRefresh my memory?â he murmured, his voice gravelly with fatigue. Hopper turned from her, reaching for a cigarette on the nightstand.
She paused, slightly irritated, before answering. âYou said youâd make it up to me.â Hopper glanced down at his semi-soft cock, which refused to fully harden even as she continued to work her hand around him. He took a drag from his cigarette, and cleared his throat. âMake what up to you?â he asked.
She forced a polite, playful smile. âWhen you fell asleep, silly.â Her grip around Hopperâs cock tightened, pulling a deep, lazy groan from his chest. âYou said youâd make it up to me in the morningâŠâ Her eyes were cast downward, the disappointment in her voice poorly masked. ââŠThat youâd make up for not fucking meâŠâ
Hopper sighed heavily, both in relief and at the pleasurable sensation tugging in his belly as the woman pumped him in her hand. He was fully hard now, that familiar, aching throb in his cock attempting to eclipse the throbbing in his head.
Hopper had a busy day ahead of him. He didnât have much time to waste before diving deep into learning every single thing he could about Steve fucking Harrington, the only thing standing in his way of having you. But for now, Hopper decided he might as well take advantage of the hand around his cock, regardless of how little he regarded the woman the hand was attached to.
Hopper smiled slightly, giving her the impression he was interested in her continuing. She needed little motivation from him, dipping her head to take his tip between her lips. Hopperâs chest dipped slowly as he exhaled. He knew he was using this woman, whose name he couldnât even recall. Hopper had no intention of fucking her. Heâd come down her throat and then tell her to take off his shirt, and get out. It was simple as that; a one way transaction. And he never wanted to see her or her disgusting neon pink lips again once he was done using them.
She could take Hopper deeper at this angle than sheâd been able to sucking him off in his car. Hopper closed his eyes and mentally replaced her with you. As his fantasy deepened, Hopperâs hand at the back of her head closed tighter. The soft sucking sounds she made on his cock shifted to deep, guttural grunts as he forced himself further down her throat. Hopper steadily rocked his hips upward, fucking against the back of her throat. With every thick, chortled sound he forced out of her, Hopperâs fantasy of you in her place grew stronger, more intense.
He felt himself already getting close. Hopper clamped his hand around the back of her neck, shoving her as far down his shaft as he could without breaking her. God how he wanted to throat-fuck you like this. The image in Hopperâs mind of you on your knees before him was intoxicating, your eyes weeping mascara down puffy, reddened cheeks, his hands firmly clutching fistfuls of your hair, skull-fucking every thought out of your pretty little headâŠ
The woman whimpered uncomfortably on Hopperâs cock, attempting to pull away as he locked her mouth in place, her nose pressed into the wiry hair of his bush. Her hand smacked Hopperâs thigh in protest, as warm streams of cum shot against the back of her throat. Hopper groaned deeply before releasing her neck, his eyes still closed. In Hopperâs fantasy, you were licking your lips up at him, thanking him. In reality, the woman in his bed was coughing and looking at Hopper with nothing but contempt.
Her palm striking his cheek brought Hopper out of his fantasy, his eyes flashing open. âWhat the fuck is wrong with you?!â she spat, her voice thick, eyes red and tearful. Hopper reached beside him for his cigarette, then stared at her blankly before mumbling ââŠtoo rough?â
The womanâs eyes widened, but she composed herself quickly. Shuffling off the side of Hopperâs bed, she hastily pulled his shirt off over her head, and threw it at him, a little disappointed when he barely flinched. âYou know, Iâd heard a lot of rumors about you,â she said, picking her own clothes off the ground. Hopper watched her dress herself, enjoying his cigarette in silence. A light sheen of sweat covered forehead and chest, rising and falling slower as his breathing returned to normal. At this point, the only thing he wanted from the woman standing in front of him was her absence.
âThat youâre a real piece of shit,â she continued, her voice like acid. âThat you use women; fuck one and then move on to the next best thing, I guess.â
Hopper exhaled a cloud of smoke in her direction as she stared him down, defiant. âYou know what Iâve heard some of the women in town call you, Hopper?â she asked, and he shrugged disinterestedly.
âHop on and Hop off, thatâs what they call you,â she replied. âBecause thatâs what you do. Like I said-.â She tucked her shirt into her pants aggressively. â-A real piece of shit. And now-.â Her fingers dug through her purse, finding her car keys which she removed and held onto. â-I know all the rumors are true.â She turned on her heel and left Hopper sitting in his bed, his cock softening against his thigh.
Hopper showered and had something to eat before leaving for the station. He wasnât on duty today, not officially, at least. But he certainly was going to be working, albeit on a private case opened exclusively by him. He intended to learn everything he could about Steve Harrington, the man youâd introduced yesterday as your boyfriend. The man who was allowed to fuck you, whose too-happy smile and boyish charm had irritated Hopper beyond measure.
Hopper had experience as a detective from his years spent in New York. Heâd returned home to Hawkins of course, after the death of his daughter and subsequent breakdown of his marriage. Those years felt like a lifetime ago now, but Hopper planned on putting the skills heâd learned as a detective to good use in his investigation of Steve Harrington. As Hopper pulled up to the station, it occurred to him that his craving for you was about to descend even further into obsession. But it was your fault, he reasoned, for introducing him to Steve in the first placeâŠfor dangling that relationship in Hopperâs face, unwittingly playing a role in strengthening his need to have youâŠ
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Hopper made a generic excuse to those at the station about coming in while off duty to finish some paperwork heâd neglected the previous week. He entered his office and got straight to work, using every resource at his (ample) disposal to learn everything he could about your boyfriend. And by the end of the day, when the sun was beginning to set warm and amber over Hawkins, Hopper knew Steve Harringtonâs life story by heart. The profile heâd compiled of Steve was depressingly positive. Steve was a good kid, rebellious at times but heâd never been in any serious trouble with law enforcement. No arrests, no charges, a basically spotless record with few indications that your boyfriend was anything less thanâŠperfect.
Hopper grit his teeth behind his lips. He stared down at the considerable information in front of him, notes heâd compiled from interviews conducted via phone to everyone Steve knew and had known, spanning his entire life. Nearly everyone in Hawkins was fond of Steve, and the Harrington family in general. Steveâs mother in particular was a very respected member of the community, mainly due to her work with various local charities. The Harringtonâs were wealthy, and used their prosperity to help those less fortunate than themselves.
Steve had worked as a lifeguard at the Hawkins Community Pool, and his coworkers had fond memories of their time knowing him. The only people who did seem to have any grievances with Steve were some of the former students heâd interacted with in high school, who said he could be a bit of a bully at times, if you rubbed either Steve or his group of friends the wrong way. Heâd apparently been christened the obnoxious title âKing Steve,â during his time at Hawkins High; but otherwise, Steve seemed to have completed school without much fanfare. In total, all of Hopperâs evidence painted a picture of Steve Harrington as a good hearted young man with a bright future ahead of him. And Hopper would have approved of Steve, could maybe even have been fond of him, if only Steve hadnât had you. Hopper leaned back in his chair and stretched his arms over his head. The hours heâd spent sitting behind his desk had left him cramped and fatigued, a cruel reminder of his age and that a young man like Steve Harrington probably never experienced these sorts of aches and pains that Hopper occasionally found himself victim of.
He looked behind him through the office window, noting the sunset. A thought occurred to Hopper, and maybe he should have squashed it as soon as it appeared, butâŠhe didnât. Instead of leaving it, Hopper let the thought roll around in his brain, and it didnât take long for him to be consumed by itâŠ
It was a Sunday night. You were very likely with Steve right now. If Hopper was lucky, he could probably find the two of you together, andâŠHopper wasnât sure where heâd go from there. But he needed to see you, needed to know how you interacted with Steve when no one else was watching. If you were really, truly happy with the boyâŠ?
Hopper left the station with a spring in his step. He felt a glimmer of hope in an otherwise fruitless day. Sliding behind the wheel of his Blazer, Hopper decided to begin by visiting the two places you were most likely to be this evening: Steveâs house, and yours. His visit to the Harrington home proved unhelpful, as neither your car or Steveâs were there. Hopper drove through downtown and found your house easily. Heâd never been there personally, but he of course knew the address. Your car and a vehicle with plates matching Steveâs were parked in the driveway. Hopper slowed the Blazer quietly to a stop a couple of houses down, and peered through the windshield, hoping for even a glimpse of you.
Unfortunately for Hopper, he couldnât see anything from such a distance. So he left his vehicle and walked closer to your house. Hopper was grateful for the darkness concealing him now, the dull streetlight allowing him coverage while he (admittedly) stalked you and Steve. Hopper waited beside a tree in your front yard, hoping it would further conceal him. Growing restless and frustrated, Hopper was considering walking back to his car and leaving for home. But movement in one of the upstairs windows gave him pause. With no curtains and a light illuminating the room from inside, it was easy for Hopper to notice if that light was interrupted. If someone walked between the light and the window, Hopper would be able to tell; and someone didâŠyou. Wearing an adorable sundress, you were obviously dancing to a melody Hopper couldnât hear from his place outside. You wereâŠenchanting. Hopper found himself smiling while he watched you, twirling and moving your lips to the lyrics, looking so sweet and happy. Hopper noticed the shift in light again, and how your eyes seemed to focus on something else in the room. Your smile shifted, becoming flirtatious, your teeth settling over your bottom lip. Teasing. Seductive.
Hopper tried to see around the edge of the window who you were looking at, although he already knew it was Steve. As if proving him right, your boyfriend entered the frame through which Hopper was viewing you, and gently pulled you in for a kiss.
Hopperâs jaw tensed, the knot in his stomach tightening. The scene in front of him was supposed to be private; but Hopper had no intention of turning away. Heâd never seen you soâŠexposed. The soft curve of your shoulders in that dress, the way they trembled slightly as Steve gently removed the strapsâŠNuzzling his nose against the soft skin revealed there, Steve pressed his lips to your shoulder in another, more intimate, kiss. Hopper swallowed, a conflicted mix of jealousy and arousal stirring within him. He realized heâd inadvertently placed his wrist against the growing tent in his jeans. Hopper pressed himself against his wrist, testing the feeling. Would he be able to come watching another man fuck you? A man that wasnât him?
His breath was shallow, lips pressed firm in a tight line as watched. WatchingâŠthatâs all Hopper was doing. While Steveâs hands and lips explored your shoulders, your neck, the only person Hopper was able to touch was himself. Pathetically, frustrated, he reached for his zipper and tugged it down. The moment Hopperâs palm wrapped around his cock was also the moment Steve went to his knees before youâŠ
From Hopperâs vantage point, he couldnât see Steveâs face, only the back of his head and hair, which your fingers had laced through tenderly. Steveâs face was pressed between your thighs, his head bobbing rhythmically as he ate you. Hopper exhaled deeply, a heavy breath leaving his chest. How he longed to taste you, to feel your sweet, ripe cunt gliding up and down along his tongue. Hopper imagined what you must taste like, how wet you became when you were being licked, if you got off like this? His cock twitched in his fist, a pearlescent bead of precum blooming at the tip. Hopperâs eyes were drinking you in as Steve drank at your cunt.
Your head tipped back, the soft smile on your lips replaced by concentration, your eyebrows knitting together in pleasure. Steveâs big hands groped up your thighs, lifting the back of your dress, giving Hopper a full view of your ass. Hopper groaned low in his chest at the sight of you, exposed for him, so vulnerable yet unaware of your vulnerability. Youâd never guess your boss was watching you right now, tugging his cock in the darkness, behaving like an animal and not like a man worthy of the power and position he held.
Steveâs face appeared from between your thighs, his chin slick with cum. Hopper swore he could taste you on his tongue, the warm heat of you, candied maple sweet. You shook your head at Steve and the boy grinned, saying what Hopper interpreted to be âmore, baby?â And you nodded, your hands going to Steveâs shoulders as you leaned into him. Hopperâs cock pulsed against his palm as he imagined you requesting more from him, more of his tongue, licking places inside you no other man ever had. His knees felt weak, his stomach knotting at the scene unfolding before him.
Your right leg was wrapped around Steveâs face now, fully obscuring him from Hopperâs view, which Hopper was grateful for. Your body trembled, the muscles in your thigh tensing where you had draped your leg over Steveâs shoulder. Your fingers gripped the fabric of Steveâs shirt, clenching it in fistfuls. How Hopper wished he could hear the sounds you were making as you came. He groaned watching your body shiver and convulse through your climax, the way you curled your hips upward and humped Steveâs face as hard as you could, the way your mouth opened in a perfect O as you uttered what Hopper could only imagine were the prettiest moans to ever spill from any womanâs lipsâŠ
Steve remained on his knees a moment longer, letting you grind and rut against him till you were fully sated. He then rose to his feet and took you in his arms, letting you melt against him, your legs weak and mind gone soft. Hopper watched as Steve kissed the top of your head, your hair sticking to the sides of his face. Steve was completely soaked in you, from his forehead to the neckline of his shirt. Hopper wanted to be drenched in you, for you to rub your cunt on his uniform so he could have your scent with him all day long. He seethed inwardly with jealousy, longing to know what the room smelled like right now, with your cunt so wet and dripping down your thighs. Steve took your chin in his hand and gently tipped your face to his. âOpen,â he said, and you parted your lips obediently. Hopper felt himself edging closer as he watched you accept your own cum from Steveâs mouth as he spit it into yours.
âFuck yes,â Hopper growled softly in the darkness. âTake it, baby, take your own cum like a good little girlâŠâ
Steve took advantage of your mouth being open for him, pressing his tongue between your lips. Hopper watched the muscles in your face and Steveâs move as you explored each other, tongues wrestling together as deeply as possible in the deepest, dirtiest kiss Hopper had ever witnessed. He watched as you sucked the tip of Steveâs tongue, not letting him go, and the mischievous grin that pulled your lips. Steve said something to the effect of playfully scolding you, likely for being greedy, Hopper imagined.
Steve whipped you around by your shoulders and bent you over at the waist in front of him. Steveâs cock was visible now, long and thick, his tip wet and ruddy. Hopper was relieved to see that he and Steve were similarly equipped; youâd be able to take a dick as big as Hopperâs without the discomfort heâd been afraid of potentially causing you. Steve placed one hand on your back, forcing your head down, obscuring your face from Hopperâs view. Since he could no longer see your face, Hopper watched your ass, the way Steve spread your cheeks apart and spit between them. Steve held his cock at the base and rubbed it up and down between your thighs, spreading your slick over your hole. And when he penetrated you, sinking into your ass, Hopper swore he could feel you gripping him, too.
Steve rocked his hips back and forth gently at first, gliding in and out slowly to adjust your hole to fit him. When heâd opened you up sufficiently, Steveâs thrusts came harder. Hopperâs forehead creased, a grunt of pleasure falling from his lips as he increased the speed at which he was fucking his fist, keeping in time with Steveâs thrusts. God he wanted you, needed you. Hopper imagined your ass bouncing back against him, his heavy balls slapping your cunt while he took you from behind. He wanted to fuck you every single way Steve ever had, just to do it better.
Steveâs fingers dug into your hips, leaving indentations in your flesh that Hopper wanted to soothe away with his tongue. Steve stilled inside you just long enough to remove his shirt, pulling it over his head and discarding it to the floor before resuming his pace. The perspiration whetting Steveâs tanned skin shimmered in the darkness, matting the thick nest of hair covering his chest. He reached forward and grabbed a fistful of your hair, arching your back, tilting your chin toward his. âOpen,â Steve ordered again, spitting into your mouth before releasing your hair and letting your head fall forward.
Hopper felt weak as he watched you, the way you behaved so well. He wondered if Steve was a good master to you, if he rewarded you often for being so submissive and obedient? Hopper knew that he would give you whatever you wanted, for being such a good girl, for accepting his cock in your ass and his spit down your throat like the dirty little whore you wereâŠ
The tension in Steveâs face increased, his lips parting. Hopper watched your ass bounce against Steve as he slammed into you with a few final thrusts that had him fully buried inside you. As Steve ejaculated up your ass, Hopper came all over his hand. Cum dripped down Hopperâs fingers and slipped between them, and he couldnât stop. The burn of overstimulation should have forced his hand away, but Hopper was still hard somehow, the cum covering his fist only facilitating his need to keep going. Hopperâs eyes were heavy-lidded, vision hazy, his mind completely awash in the sensation of his over-stimulated cock in his hand. He watched through bleary eyes as Steve pulled out of your asshole, cum dripping from his tip and between your cheeks, down the backs of your thighs as you rose to a standing position. Hopperâs cock ached, angry, hurting and yet still he needed to fuck himself, drunk on the image of you, your tits hanging out over your sundress, your hair a disheveled mess framing your face, the sweet and sinful expression of pleasure spreading your lips into the most beautiful smile Hopper had ever seenâŠ
His cock was red and taut in his fist, slick with cum as he used it like lube to fuck himself. Hopper came again, growling into his teeth, spilling more cum onto his fist and the ground beneath him. Gasping for air, he fell against the tree beside him, releasing his spent cock, finally satisfied, from the white-knuckled grip heâd had on it for the past thirty minutes. Hopper panted against the tree, grateful for the cool night air that filled his lungs, replenishing him. He wiped the sweat from his forehead, and pulled a pack of Camelâs from his pocket. Removing a cigarette, Hopper placed it between his lips and prepared to light it, his eyes casually flicking up to the window again. He was hoping to see your body one more time before putting his cock away, and having his cigarette on the drive back home.
But Hopperâs stomach dropped when he looked up at the window, his heart thudding to a brief standstill when he saw you, looking down at him. Your chest was still bare, still peppered with sweat and heaving softly from sex. Your eyes were wide but not alarmed. Hopper tried to read your expression beyond that, butâŠafter all, how could he possibly guess what you were thinking in a moment like this?
What even was this moment, Hopper wondered? How could he face you at the station tomorrow morning, knowing that you were aware of his secret? That heâd watched you getting fucked in the ass through your bedroom window? How long had you known he was there, Hopper wondered? Were you aware that heâd just come all over himself because of you, that his semen was beaded on the grass in your lawn?
Glancing past you briefly, checking for your boyfriend, Hopper was grateful at least that Steve wasnât there. Backing away, Hopper readjusted himself into his jeans, forcing his eyes away from yours and that impossible-to-read expression they carried. He practically ran to his car, lurching himself inside and speeding away as fast as possible, not caring how much noise he made. Hopper just needed to get out of there, away from your house, your street, your eyes, NOW.
He drove home recklessly, shame chewing at his gut. Hopper wondered if youâd tell Steve, if youâd tell everyone in Hawkins? He questioned if life as he knew it was over?
Hopper stepped inside the shower and turned the water pressure as hard as it would go, and as hot as he could stand it. Letting the water wash over him, Hopper imagined he was melting away the sin heâd committed. But in reality, he couldnât wash away what heâd done. Heâd have to face you tomorrow, look you in the eyesâŠand accept whatever fate you presented himâŠ
PART THREE
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The Mindâs Maze
Five Hargreeves x Fem!reader
Warnings: none
Y/N had always known she was different. From a young age, she could sense the emotions of others, feel their thoughts brushing against hers. As she grew older, her abilities became more pronounced, evolving into the power to manipulate consciousness itself. She could delve into minds, influence thoughts, even alter memories. But with great power came great fearâfear of losing control, of unintentionally causing harm.
Thatâs where Number Five came in. He had experienced his own struggles with his powers, and he understood the burden Y/N carried. They had met during one of Fiveâs missions, and their connection had been immediate and deep. Now, they were inseparable, and Five was determined to help Y/N master her abilities.
One crisp morning, Five and Y/N stood in the training room of the Umbrella Academy. The room was spacious and bright, filled with various equipment designed to test and hone their unique skills. Y/N looked around, feeling a mix of excitement and anxiety.
âAre you ready?â Five asked, his voice steady and reassuring.
Y/N nodded, taking a deep breath. âAs ready as Iâll ever be.â
Five smiled, placing a hand on her shoulder. âRemember, Y/N, the key to controlling your powers is to stay calm and focused. Your mind is a powerful tool, and you need to trust yourself.â
Y/N nodded again, closing her eyes and centering herself. âOkay. Whatâs first?â
âWeâll start with something simple,â Five said. âI want you to focus on me and try to sense what Iâm thinking.â
Y/N took a deep breath and focused on Five. She felt the familiar sensation of her consciousness reaching out, brushing against his mind. It was like dipping her toes into a cool stream, the thoughts and emotions flowing around her. She concentrated, trying to tune into his specific thoughts.
âI can feel you,â she said softly. âYouâre thinking about... me. About us.â
Five smiled. âGood. Now, I want you to go a bit deeper. Try to influence my thoughts. Just a small suggestion.â
Y/N hesitated. This was the part that scared her the mostâusing her powers to change someoneâs mind. She didnât want to hurt Five, didnât want to overstep her bounds. But she trusted him, and she knew he wouldnât let anything bad happen.
âOkay,â she said, focusing again. She reached deeper into Fiveâs mind, feeling the layers of his thoughts. She concentrated on a simple suggestion: âRaise your right hand.â
For a moment, nothing happened. Then, slowly, Fiveâs right hand began to lift. Y/Nâs eyes widened in surprise and relief. She had done it. She had influenced his thoughts without losing control.
âExcellent,â Five said, lowering his hand. âYouâre doing great, Y/N. Now letâs try something a bit more challenging.â
They spent the next few hours practicing, with Five guiding Y/N through various exercises. He encouraged her to delve deeper into his mind, to influence more complex thoughts and emotions. Y/Nâs confidence grew with each success, her fear gradually giving way to a sense of empowerment.
After a particularly intense session, Five called for a break. They sat together on the floor, leaning against the wall. Y/N was exhausted but exhilarated. She had made more progress in one day than she had in months.
âYouâre a natural,â Five said, handing her a bottle of water. âYou just needed to believe in yourself.â
Y/N smiled, taking a sip of water. âI couldnât have done it without you, Five. You make me feel safe. You make me feel like I can do anything.â
Fiveâs expression softened, and he reached out to take her hand. âYouâre stronger than you realize, Y/N. Youâve got an incredible gift, and with time and practice, youâre going to master it.â
Y/N leaned her head on his shoulder, feeling a deep sense of contentment. âThank you, Five. For everything.â
They sat in comfortable silence for a while, simply enjoying each otherâs presence. Then, Five stood up, extending a hand to help Y/N to her feet.
âReady for one more exercise?â he asked.
Y/N took his hand, pulling herself up. âAlways.â
Five led her to the center of the room, his expression turning serious. âThis time, I want you to try something different. I want you to enter my mind fully. See if you can navigate through my memories.â
Y/Nâs eyes widened. âAre you sure? Thatâs... thatâs pretty invasive.â
âI trust you,â Five said firmly. âAnd I think youâre ready for it. Just remember to stay calm and focused. Iâll be right here with you.â
Y/N nodded, her heart pounding with a mix of fear and excitement. She closed her eyes and reached out with her consciousness, delving deeper into Fiveâs mind than ever before. She felt herself slipping into his memories, seeing flashes of his past.
There were moments of pain and loneliness, scenes of him wandering through the apocalypse, struggling to survive. But there were also moments of joy and loveâmemories of their time together, the bond they had formed.
As she navigated through his memories, Y/N felt a profound connection to Five. She saw the world through his eyes, understood his struggles and triumphs. It was a deeply intimate experience, one that left her feeling closer to him than ever before.
When she finally pulled back, returning to her own consciousness, she found Five watching her with a look of awe and affection.
âYou did it,â he said softly. âYou really did it.â
Y/N smiled, tears of relief and happiness in her eyes. âI couldnât have done it without you, Five. Thank you for trusting me.â
Five pulled her into a tight embrace, holding her close. âIâll always trust you, Y/N. Youâre stronger and braver than you know.â
As they stood there, wrapped in each otherâs arms, Y/N felt a sense of peace and confidence she had never known before. With Five by her side, she knew she could face anything. Together, they would navigate the complexities of her powers and the challenges of their lives, stronger and more united than ever.
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Yoko said to me: âI was told John was in danger in New Yorkâ
Elliot Mintz was the friend with whom John Lennon and Yoko Ono spent some of their most private moments. Now he has written a book in which he reveals what went on after the former Beatle was murdered in 1980
John Lennon and Yoko Ono in New York on November 26, 1980, just days before his death
Part of me started to wonder if perhaps Iâd acted rashly. My mother had heard a radio report about a shooting on 72nd Street. The Lennons were not answering their phones. The Dakota operator had hung up on me. Was that enough to send me racing to the airport to catch the last flight to New York? But then I saw a flight attendant exit the cockpit, tears streaming down her cheeks. As she hesitatingly made her way down the aisle, I reached out and touched her arm.
âAre you okay?â I asked. âThey killed him,â she answered, gulping back a sob. âThey murdered John Lennon.â
For a long moment I found it impossible to process what Iâd been told. And then, like a flash fire in the brainpan, the horror of what happened exploded in my consciousness. âJohn is dead,â I whispered to myself. My best friend was gone. My heart began to race, I found myself gasping for air. I literally doubled over in pain as my whole body absorbed the shock.
Lennon, Ono and Elliot Mintz outside the Mampei hotel in Karuizawa, Japan, in 1977
I donât know how long I sat, crumpled in agony, but eventually I regained a modicum of composure. I realised I had to marshal my thoughts and plan what to do once the plane touched down at JFK. I needed to pull myself together, bury my grief, and be strong for Yoko and Sean.
I had seen John just a few weeks earlier, in New York; he and Yoko and I had spent a long evening at the Dakota listening to their soon-to-be-dropped Double Fantasy album. At around two in the morning I said my goodbyes. John walked me to the door.
âRemember,â he cautioned me, âwalk on the side of the street where the doormen are. Donât walk on the side of the street next to the park.â âJohn,â I said, âI grew up in New York. I know how to walk in this city.â That was the last time I saw him.
Lennon and Ono at home with their son, Sean
By the time I got to the Dakota, at around 7.30am, at least 5,000 people had gathered on 72nd Street. At the request of Richie De Palma, Studio Oneâs office manager, a couple of officers helped me across the police cordon. Suddenly, I was face-to-face with the crime scene: there was blood on the pavement as well as shards of broken glass from a window shattered by one of the bullets.
I rode the elevator to the seventh floor. The Lennonsâ housekeeper, Masako, let me in. It was clear sheâd been crying. âYoko-san in bedroom,â she said in broken English. âDoor locked.â
I paused at the closed door, then gently knocked. âYoko, itâs Elliot,â I told her softly. âIâll be right outside until you are ready to see me. Iâm not going anywhere.â
After about five minutes, I saw the door open a crack. I stood up and peered inside the bedroom, illuminated by the big-screen TV, which was showing live local news footage of the Dakota. Yoko had been watching, with the volume off. Even though the windows were shut and the shutters closed, I could hear the music from seven floors below. The sound of mourners on the street singing Johnâs lyrics would fill the apartment for days to come.
Lennon surrounded by fans in New York in August 1980
Standing by the bed, wearing silk pajamas and a kimono, Yoko looked incredibly frail. I reached over and gingerly put my arm around her. She touched my face, then crawled back into bed.
âIs there anything I can do?â I asked her. âThereâs nothing anybody can do,â she weakly responded. âHave you eaten anything? Can I bring a cup of tea?â âElliot,â she answered, âyour presence is comforting. You donât have to say or do anything.â
I sat down in my usual spot, the white wicker chair, and we both watched the images flickering on the TV. For a while, my eyes wandered around the room, eventually settling on Johnâs bedside table, where I spotted a pile of books â it was an eclectic stack, to say the least, everything from The Second Sex by Simone de Beauvoir to Your Childâs Teeth: A Parentâs Guide to Making and Keeping Them Perfect by Stephen J Moss. Yokoâs reading material was similarly varied.
Suddenly, a picture of the suspect appeared on the screen. Yoko sat up and stared intently at the mug shot of the assailant; she seemed both mesmerised and repulsed â and deeply confused â by the face of the man who had murdered her husband.
The following weeks were a blur. I spent a lot of them downstairs at Studio One, joining a staff of four or five employees, fielding a never-ending barrage of phone calls. At one point early on, an assistant held out a phone for me. âHe says heâs Ringo Starr,â she whispered. Ringo was calling from a pay phone and wanted to make a condolence call with his girlfriend (now wife), Barbara. I ended up sneaking them into the building through a back entrance.
âI know exactly how you feel,â Ringo told her when she greeted him and Barbara in her bedroom. âNo, you donât,â Yoko replied, âbut Iâm grateful you are here.â
One evening, just a day or two after Johnâs murder, I returned to the apartment to find Julian Lennon sitting alone in the kitchen. He was now 17 and had just flown in from London by himself to pay his respects. (He told me later that the flight was filled with passengers reading papers covered with headlines about his fatherâs killing.) John and Julian had made some repairs to their estranged relationship, but Julian had practically no relationship with Yoko or with his half-brother, Sean.
âWould you look after Julian?â Yoko asked me. âItâs so depressing here. Take him around New York, show him different places.â
She was asking partially as a kindness to Julian but also as a mercy to herself. Yoko was in no condition to deal with Johnâs grieving teenage son; she could barely handle her own childâs grief. Sean reminded her so much of John, she found it painful to be in the same room with him, so he and his nanny were dispatched to the Lennonsâ vacation home in Florida.
Police outside the Dakota, the apartment complex where Lennon was killed
I found the idea of sightseeing with Julian a bit odd, but we ended up spending a day together, culminating with a trip to the viewing deck atop the World Trade Center. It was one of the few pleasant interludes in an otherwise unbearable stretch of misery.
One of the other assignments I took up around this time was reading through the bags of hate mail. The most worrying ones were flagged for further investigation by law enforcement and shared with Yokoâs private security, who started pinning the names and descriptions of the senders on a bulletin board at Studio One.
I was always running into bodyguards in the kitchen. The irony was impossible to miss: this house built on love and peace was now filled with guns. At one point, even I started carrying a snub-nosed .38 revolver in an ankle holster. I was also provided with a bulletproof vest. One of the few times I recall willingly slipping into it was when a man fitting the description of one of the assailantâs fan club letter writers was spotted on the street outside the Dakota.
He was a tall, young, otherwise innocuous-looking fellow. I approached him carefully and asked him for the time. When he lifted his wrist to look at his watch, I could see under his jacket what appeared to be the butt of a gun.
I quickly returned to the Dakota lobby and called the police. They arrived in minutes, pushed him against a wall, discovered what was indeed a weapon, and hurried him away.
Julian Lennon, Ono, Mintz and Sean Lennon at the dedication of Strawberry Fields as a memorial to Lennon in New York in 1984
Nearly as shocking and upsetting as the dangers that were swirling outside the Dakota were the perils lurking inside. Yoko would learn that some of her most trusted confidants were scheming against her. By far the worst offender was an assistant named Fred Seaman, a trusted aide who, earlier in the year, accompanied John on a trip to Bermuda â the trip on which John wrote many of the songs for Double Fantasy.
Incredibly, almost immediately after the murder, Seaman began smuggling shopping bags stuffed with private papers from the Lennon offices and residences â including five personal journals that John kept hidden under his bed â hauling them uptown to the apartment of his accomplice, Robert Rosen, as part of a scheme to write a tell-all book. We eventually got the diaries back, and Seaman ended up pleading guilty to second-degree larceny.
Yoko found herself surrounded by traitors. Whom could she turn to? For a while, she leaned on the companionship of her friend and interior designer Sam Havadtoy, who not only moved into the Dakota but began sharing a bedroom with Yoko, although not the one she had slept in with John. This struck many on her staff as curious. Although Havadtoy was undeniably charming, appeared to have Yokoâs best interests at heart, and was terrific with Sean, he was also a gay man.
Yoko continued to grow more and more wary of just about everyone around her. I donât know if I ever fell under Yokoâs suspicion but I do recall one moment when she and I came dangerously close to a serious argument, after I implored Yoko to let me conduct a radio interview with her and Sean to dispel some of the more outrageous rumours being spun about the Lennon family following the publication of Albert Goldmanâs book about John, like the notion that he was an abusive husband and father (who once allegedly kicked Sean across a room); and that he was a drugged-out recluse, possibly schizophrenic, and an enthusiastic devotee of Thai prostitutes.
âIâve never asked you to comment about any of the other books, but this one we canât ignore,â I told her. Yoko paused for a moment, then responded. âLet me check with my advisers,â she said, meaning her team of tarot readers and numerologists.
Mourners at a vigil for Lennon shortly after his death
Iâd never expressed scepticism about Yokoâs mystical beliefs but for once, I pushed back. âYoko, let me ask you something,â I said. âIf these advisers are as good as you believe they are, why is it that none of them saw what was going to happen to John? Why was there no warning?â
Yokoâs answer astonished me. âElliot,â she said, âhow do you know I wasnât warned? Did you ever ask me if there were warnings?â
âOkay,â I said, âIâll ask you: Did any of your advisers warn you about John being in danger?â âYes,â she answered. âI was told he was in danger in New York and that he should be removed immediately. Thatâs why I sent him to Bermuda over the summer ⊠But I couldnât keep him away forever. He had to come back at some point.â
I was speechless. âLook, Elliot,â Yoko went on, âyou know how John felt about his own safety. We talked about this at our kitchen table when your friend [the actor Sal Mineo] was killed. John said, âIf theyâre going to get you, theyâre going to get you.â It didnât matter what my advisers told me. He didnât believe in bodyguards, he wouldnât put up with them. He wanted to be free.â
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Hands (1)
God, you dream of those hands.
Original Prompt:
Size Kink & Breeding Kink with Konig.
Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - AO3
Konig x Fem! Reader
(A/N): I accidentally fuckin deleted the original post while trying to add links to the other 2 chapters, so reposting LMAO. I'M SO SAD BC IT WAS ONE OF MY BEST PREFORMING POSTS.
Honestly? It started in a very innocent way.
"I'm taking off your gloves."
He sat in front of you, tapping his foot on the cold tile. Currently under the attention of you from the intended use of his hands in combat.
Which is why you were inspecting for broken knuckles.
Most of his gear had been taken off, set aside along with the hood that donned his head on missions. Now, you were pulling the gloved that clung to the asking of his hands off. Inspecting the pale skin beneath them.
"You know, I'm starting to think you do dumb shit like this on purpose." You glance up at him.
"I'd never." He replied.
"Because I'm lookin' at these hands, and I'm seeing a whole lot of unnecessary bruising."
"It was necessary."
You quirked a brow.
"You just, happen to lose your gun there soldier?" You pulled back, leaning back against your seat and shooting him an amused glance.
"Sometimes, things are better done by hand."
"mmhm." You mumbled.
Eyes trailed up his hands, finding stray scars and following the veins leading up to his forearms.
Man,
those were some big hands.
"Is everything alright, doctor?" He asks, amusement twirling around in his eyes, sparking out in his voice.
Maybe he was catching on to your oogling.
"Just making sure nothing broken. Can't imagine it would be fun to work with broken fingers."
"Nein."
"This hurt?" You ask.
"Nein."
"Then you're fine. I'll give you some meds and send you off on your way."
"Danke!" He shot up, clamping a hand down on your shoulder, man near enveloping your entire left side.
You started to imagine what it would be like if that big hand wrapped around your neck.
"Be careful, please."
"Of course." He shot a sideways, toothy grin. The side that his nose crooked over to and the side with the one crooked canine that made him look like a dog ready to chase a bone.
He turned, starting to walk away.
"You know, König." You stated. He stopped a turned around. "If you want to visit me, you don't need to have an injury."
His eyebrows raised, and you could swear there was a blush that tinted his cheeks. "I'll consider that for next time."
Before turning and leaving.
And he did visit you.
One visit turned into two.
Then four.
Then he just popped in so often while he was not on a mission he became part of your routine.
Have a cup of coffee with König in the morning, maybe even join him for dinner and enjoy it in the sanctity of your quiet and private office.
Just so happened that the longer you spent with him the more your thoughts were clouded.
His hands,
his thighs,
fuck, you can't even imagine how big his cock would be.
You'd like to think you were better than this.
Pressed up in your shower thinking about the huge man, wondering what his bare chest would feel like curling up over your back.
You closed your eyes, trying to picture just how good it would feel.
It would be right after he comes back from a mission, the dark look in his eyes still clouding his consciousness as he's still in the mindset of a soldier, a killer.
His steps would be heavier- you'd hear him walk into the bathroom, the rustling of clothing as he strips the cloth covering his flesh discarded down to the ground without a second thought.
He'd slip into the shower, with your head placed under the stream of hot water. Almost comically so, his head would be unable to reach the stream of water without immensely bending at the knees.
You'd hum, leaning back into him as he'd reach his arm around your waist, pulling your wet body closer to his. Head dropping down for his mouth to latch onto the nape of your neck, biting and sucking on the sensitive skin.
Gasping throwing your head back farther and allowing it to bump against his shoulder, letting out a light whine that he'd love to harvest from your throat.
One hand would drift down, widening his palm as it flattened and slid down your tummy, nearly covering the expanse of your abdomen before it dipped down, lower.
His other hand would grab your chin, pulling your head back to meet into a feverish kiss. Pressing your back up against the cold wall of the shower, holding it up against it.
On a normal occasion, you'd be terrified to slip, but you just know with his arm slinked around over you waist toying dangerously close to your cunt that there was no chance of slipping.
No chance of him letting you go.
A digit would brush up through your folds collecting the slippery production of your arousal, dragging his finger ever so carefully up until it traced around your clit. Circling it, dangerously so.
Applying pressure as the rough pad of his finger pushed against your clit, mouth devouring any noises you let out.
It hurt, in a way.
One that was so delicious you only wanted more.
His large finger pressing down on your clit felt heavenly, the feeling of his tongue pushing against yours as you swapped spit in the most degenerating fashion.
Your hips unconsciously pushed forward against his hand, bucking as he pressed you firmly against the wall.
He'd tsk, giving you a light scolding before removing his mouth from yours completely, allowing a thin strand of spit to cast its way from him lips to yours.
God.
You could just die.
He'd snicker, that snicker that made his lip quirk upward revealing his crooked tooth. All before he'd lean in and ask,
"What do you want me to do, Schatz?"
"Fuckkkk." You'd whine, letting your head bump against the shower wall. "Please." You'd whisper out.
"Hm?" He'd ask, still toying his finger around your clit.
"Finger me- fuck, please. Please finger me."
His finger would leave your clit, diving back down and just barely poking into your entrance.
The digit was long and thick- it felt like nearly two of your own being stuffed inside you. Even more so as the single digit could curl up in such a delectable manner pressing up against the spongey roof of your core.
You'd breathe harshly, ducking your head up against his neck and arm gripping at the expanse of his back and nails digging into the pale and freckled flesh.
He'd add a second digit, and you felt like you were on cloud nine.
No,
You felt like you were on cloud nine as he removed his free hand from you, bringing it down and rubbing on your clit as his other hand pumped mechanically in and out of you, curling his fingers forward and circling the pad of his finger against your clit.
It would feel like your legs would give out first, but he'd keep you upright as you came, his mouth would latch onto yours. Shoving his tongue into your mouth claiming you in the best way possible.
Body draped over yours, his large hands pleasing you to the point of competition-
Blinking, you realized there was no man draped behind you.
The water in the shower had run cold a long time ago, but the pleasant buzz in your head from your shameful masturbation numbed any embarrassment for a few moments.
You sighed, turning off the water and glancing down at your fingers.
For now? Thinking of his large hands would have to do.
#könig x reader#könig x you#mwii#call of duty mw2#Konig x reader#konig x reader smut#konig imagine#Konig x Reader- Hands
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