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teplejtrouba · 2 days ago

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every so often i now notice my first beard hairs coming in. it's incredibly euphoric but also scary as i Do Not trust myself with sharp objects and am a coward and im already dreading having to shave. but i am also a snob and an aesthete and don't want a few stupid stray hairs on my neck. i also miss my smooth luscious baby face because of sensory reasons.

#i absolutely despise the feel of stubble so im glad that's not happening yet #i know im probably gonna have a decent beard in a few years. the beard genes are solid in this family #(we will not talk about the male pattern baldness genes)#and i am so incredibly excited #but also terrified and just. weirded out.#there's stuff growing out of my face!!!!#it's like eyebrows... but everywhere.............#it's going to be so hard to get used to that #everyone always commented on how smooth my face skin is. and it made me dysphoric. but like it was very smooth and nice to touch #now with all the oil and acne and hairs it's not so nice anymore #being both trans and an autist incompatible with change is so strange and difficult #i love my new voice!!!!! im excited to talk now instead of dreading it. i pass. it sounds funny. i love it. but also.... i am Not used to i #im not used to the name i have now. im not used to the body hair even though i absolutely adore it. it's so difficult #why make me both trans and incredibly not chill about anything ever #there are two things i actively dislike about testosterone: the libido. ew. girl could you just not. and being bigger #in the sense that like my arms and shoulders got bigger. my main concern #do you know what it's like to have a special interest in clothing and curating your collection of wonderful thrifted textile weirdness #over YEARS. and suddenly like half the tops i have dont fit me anymore. my grandmothers blouses dont fit me anymore. it's heartbreaking #any my psychiatrist thinks i should be working out but 1. im lazy 2. i don't want to get buff and be even bigger

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silusvesuius · 4 months ago

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baby👶 drawings. these are very dear to me rn.. 2nd pic is my Nelavis with @barvin0k's Varonur 🩵 last one is a baby bosmer and snow elf, hairiest of them all. although the bosmer was meant to be my girl Barletta too lols

#tes #skyrim #my art #oc #nelavis #barletta #😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 babies are so sweetum ugh my heart is crumbling rn #referenced some anne g*ddes stuff for dis #i call them snow elves instead of falmer like g*lebor would want me to #i never really get to talk about my elf anatomies at length cus i'm lazy but i sprinkled some info in the first pic #altmer society is EugenicsLand so you could only tell if your child has 'good' traits when they hit puberty #ex. height and shoulder width is something very important to them #if you don't have those traits ur pretty much a failure #other elves have it easier 🤓#idk i still might make some kinda infographic for the way i picture them but umm maybe not who knows #on snow elves and bosmer the fur is still 'confused' when they're in baby stage and is pretty much everywhere #it evens out w/ age and stays on the back; neck; sides of face the most and in places where human body hair wud be #idk ummm..and i think all elves grow their nails out unless they're very intertwined with humans in their life #ex. my snelf elisif; she has her nails trimmed to be regarded as more human i guess #nails are most important to altmer tho and might be a status symbol of some kind... they like using them in combat too #it's shameful for an altmer to not have long nails for any reason but there can be exceptions #like my el*nwen that can't physically grow nails out because of burn injury #so she has fake ones on her combat gloves #it's cute #elf nails aren't as frail as human nails and are more like an animals claws (corny) but bosmers' are the sturdiest #and their nails are curved in shape. for U know. Climbing and stuff #cause dunmer and altmer etc. have straight nails. they can hit the nail salon

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gummi-ships · 1 year ago

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Kingdom Hearts Dream Drop Distance - The World That Never Was

#kingdom hearts dream drop distance #khddd #the world that never was #scenery #my gif #i really love how sora's side of this world is dark and eerie and fully leans into how dreams can distort and twist reality #the city looks mostly normal at first aside from the ghostly fog that seeps down from buildings and drifts along the floor and rises up #but as you keep going the ground beneath you is no longer a street but rather the faces of more buildings that stretch over an abyss #it's no longer the sprawling city you first arrived in but instead an uncanny one way path towards your destination #the buildings now twist and contort and are crooked and grow out of the ground in all kinds of ways that make no logical sense #it's the first time that a sleeping world looks easily distinguishable from the real world. it looks wrong. like a nightmare #meanwhile riku's half contrasts heavily by appearing to be fairly normal #the interior of the real castle never made any practical sense so nothing here feels too out of place compared to how it usually looks #it shows how much more in control riku is in comparison to how sora is losing his grip on reality as he descends further into their trap #cool stuff! love me some environmental storytelling #also i finished giffing every world in this game yippee i'm done (is covered head to toe in blood)

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sysig · 10 days ago

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Growing closer than expected (Patreon)

#Doodles #Pokemon #Kabu #Larry #Firebland #Silverstreakshipping #To the shock of no one this is Zarla's fault (lol)#Bad influence! Too inspiring! Stop this! I'm totally not culpable for Being Inspired for the [X]th time now definitely lol #I kept finding little ideas popping into my head with them and I mean if I've already doodled them Once I guess I could try a couple more #Learned them just well enough to keep finding things for them pft #Although I am surprised by just how easy I find Larry to Draw - not necessarily that I'm fully Confident in drawing him yet but like #There's very little struggle to the shapes I put down here and I'm fairly pleased with their configuration haha #Kabu on the other hand!! Why is he so hard to draw!!! What!! Like I know his clothes are complex but no his face!#He's got a really cute and difficult-to-draw face! Why! I cannot figure him out #It's probably the do with the shape and size of his head...his hair........ I really enjoy fluff and he's Kind of but Not Really fluffy??#And his white streaks aren't intuitive to me - but Larry's floofs are??? I don't know #The only thing I can figure it that I Kind Of draw Dexter the same way - Larry's streaks are like an exaggerated version of how I floof Dex #And then a suit is second nature by now but I've already talked about my difficulties with Kabu's clothes lol #Didn't stop me from putting him out front for this hug tho! It's cute... Kabu asking Larry to come play with him but Larry has stuff to do #May or may not have felt a little that way myself - made most of these doodles during Requestober haha so busy!#The brightly shining brilliant glow boyfriend setup-payoff returns ♥ He glows like a fire! Overwhelming!#I still really love that glow cutaway style around the low-bouncing flower haha - just don't draw there and it gives the impression! Fun :)#Hugs <3 Unsurprisingly been in the want of cute fluff and sweetness and hugs were very on the menu #It really is fun to think of Larry being just a Little weird about how much he feels for Kabu #Acting childish as that part of him hasn't had the chance to grow and mature! Stuck awkward and gangly in otherwise full development #Feelings so big and strong and immediate for the first time in too too long <3 Gotta express them all somehow #And ending off with a bit of silliness haha - was Kabu prompting him just to hear such an answer? Who knows ♪#Larry just too straightforward haha - why else would he do or say things unless he felt like it! Pfsh obviously #Haha

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swinging-stars-from-satellites · 2 months ago

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with a few minutes' reflection and a second conversation with my parents I have realized that I may have overblown things and overreacted a bit and also in some ways they're correct even if I think they're also harsh about it

#we talked it out. i don't think they intended to be hurtful they're just trying to make me see how badly my pessimism #can impact others?? I think all three of us were pissed off during the first conversation #there's a lot of other stuff going on behind the scenes too that I don't want to talk about #but like. my parents aren't total jerks. when we aren't all being belligerent to each other we get along quite well #and I really do respect them quite a lot. some days we Do Not do well at Being A Good Family though #my dad did say that he's seen people apparently cringe away from me when I'm acting annoyed though #which... may honestly be true. I have a very readable face and if I'm upset people tend to notice #I just... I talked to them again and realized that I took that one thing to mean ''everyone hates you and is just pretending to be nice''#idk if I agree about what my mom says about me bringing a Vibe that brings the whole room down #I think that one may just be because she's so used to me complaining to her about everything bc I... do actually complain too much #but anyway. we resolved the argument. my initial ''my parents told me everyone dislikes me'' was uh... MY inference #and not actually the words they said #I also think I should stop complaining online so much. it's just letting the complaining spirit grow #re: my last post

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my-pjo-stuff · 4 months ago

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Imagine defending a fucking PEDOPHILE 💀💀💀 Do us all a favor and fucking kill yourself. People like you make me sick 🤮

Today in: Why the PJO isn't actually as nice and welcoming as they'd all like to believe they are! Naw but for real now, what sort of mental illness leads to someone sending something like THAT over a FICTIONAL CHARACTER. Get help, please.

That goes for everyone sending these things, by the way. Get help or a hobby. Try out therapy or something. Maybe touch some grass while you're on it????

This isn't the first time I got stuff like that. Normally I just don't talk about it and delete the ask since personally, it doesn't really phase me much and I don't wanna give those juggernauts exposure. But I just sort of felt the need to put it out here at least once. These sorts of asks say more about you people than it does about me.

#how about you turn off that anon tho #grow some balls and say it to my face?#ain't the first ever death threat I got #it's the first one telling me to do it myself tho #so that's smth ig #no matter how bad it gets atleast I never told someone to kys over a fictional character #and yet ppl still make Luke fans out to be the bad guys????#say what you want but I never got this stuff from their crowd atleast #This just makes me defend Luke even harder tbh #luke castellan #percy jackson #luke castellan apologist #pjo #pro luke castellan #pjo fandom #percy jackson and the olympians #i'm luke castellan defender #fandom bs

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autisticlee · 8 months ago

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that feeling when you get advice from someone who you know is well-meaning and has good intentions....but it's just the most allistic, neurotypical, and/or abled advice you have ever heard and completely invalidates the point you're trying to make about why you struggle to do the thing in the first place.

they're telling you to "do it in this specific way that is completely opposite of how you physically/mentally work" for example, make eye contact/read people's facial expressions and intentions! but you're autistic. initiate verbal conversation and don't be shy! but you're nonverbal or semispeaking. get out of the house more and participate in these physical activities! but you're physically disabled. Just Be Yourself! but you have DID/OSDD/other personality disorder. etc.

i'm sorry. I know you're just trying to help. I appreciate it, really. but it's all things i've heard before and none of it helps me specifically. I have tried (maybe even still try out of habit) and learned I can't just do those things. they don't work for me or cause more issues. practice isn't the issue. not everyone can simply willpower through everything. but thanks for trying 😔✊️

#autistic #autism things #autism #actually autistic #adhd #audhd #neurodivergent #disablity #disabled #too tired to tag other thinhs sorry thats all you get #lee rambles #that feeling when you also just have to pretend to accept their advice and move on because people get so upset when you dont take it #i lesrned if i tell people their advice doesnt suit me and my unique circumstances then they feel bad that they didnt help #they want you to do it anyway. even if you cant. pretend you do or say thanks and move on. but it gets annoying hearinf the same stuff #over and over. more expectations on you. more pressure to do things in ways everyone else can but you cannot...#when will the advice be lee shaped? when will it be just for lee and consider all my circumstances?#why is telling the person giving advice their advice wont work fkr me bad? why cant they change their advice to fit the issues i face?#when im asked for advice and someone hits a deadend while working it out i try to help solve that so they can find a way around #but everyone else expects me to grow a bulldozer out of my head and ram the wall down instead of helping me work around it #i crush their fragile ego by saying their advice doesnt work and they get upset instead of adjusting it to help solve the specific problem #its exhausting because they become one of the many problems i have to deal with then 😒#no im not “making excuses/dismissing you/not trying” im trying. your advice sucks try again. and my problems are valid!!!!!! accept it!!!!#anyway. genuinely appreciate people wanting/trying to help but sometimes its such inappropriate advice i dont know how to respond

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eggwishing · 1 year ago

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#this is supposed 2 be august im figuring out how he'd look as a person Not just in the more stylized way i draw him #i think i made him look too young here . n also too similar to omori Unintentionally #cos he does Not when i draw him my normal way #but maybe he could just be babyfaced #could pull a dorian gray with him #that would actually be so funny LMAO #cos he doesn't age either #but nah im gonna explore it some more #he's supposed 2 be all gangly and i want 2 find a good face that would match it #idk why i think of the other father when he started 2 turn into a pumpkin but it does kinda fit it #loooong face #ocs #august #ik how mindy would look #exactly like all the posters and stuff of chubby little chinese girls with red cheeks n hair buns #that i'd see everywhere growing up #i tried to google n find some of the ones i remember but nothing came up v-v

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laotwormz · 15 hours ago

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anyway. wishlist of things i want from lin lie in marvel rivals:

interactions with loki, luna, etc

be sad and pathetic

mention his brother

casual or formalwear skin... please......

make him funny or awkward please i'm begging you. please

a new trivia fact i can obsess over

him and luna talking about the agents of atlas together

skin with his hair down please please please please

#talking woahh ohhhh #the appeal of lin lie to me is that he always manages to fuck himself up one way or another. every comic he falls flat on his face #he also speaks in his native language! idk i was nervous they were gonna ignore mandarin being his first language instead of english #other wins/gripes. his suit is Eh to me a little too blue. and they got rid of his family's symbol + thigh strap :( mask Might grow on me #there are. also a lot of colours. but i also like that he is constantly pouting/pursing his lips. do you think you look cool doing that boy #no skirt thing either but im not as devastated . i will however burst into tears whenever i look at his model and the thigh strap isnt ther #is that all my stuff out of the way. idk.#i like the black in his design + he has the same lines on his outfit as shang chi. i Think it's meant to resemble a pan chang knot but idk #either way. not a big fan of it in practice but the symbolism is cool and FUCK they got rid of his pointy boots i just realized. sigh #lot of complaints here but i like his face and abilities so that's all that i actually care about. even if i know i'll suck at him

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star-mum · 3 months ago

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had an argument with my sister on the ride home from my friend's :-:

#I don't like when we argue cause we almost never do #like a serious argument #but you know what ? no ! I'm not completely inconsiderate because YOU put me in an uncomfortable situation and I said #“hey this sucked dont do that again”#if I'm so inconsiderate than you do all that stuff ON YOUR OWN !! I won't help you #no need to finish editing the video we did together FOR YOUR FUCKING SOCIAL MEDIA #record your videos on ur own with no help #take pictures yourself #write scripts without asking me for my opinion #delete every single post from your account that I had ANYTHING to do with #delete every single comment and revision I made on your fucking book and see how many publishable pages you have left #get rid of every single casting I made for YOUR FUCKING STORY and see how many actors you have left #I do shit for you ALL THE TIME ! we BOTH DO ! But I don't think it's cool throw those things in your face to win an argument #SO I DONT !!!! doesn't matter how fucking vindicated I'd feel by doing it #I dont like it so I dont. it opens up a precedent if I say one thing and do the other when I'm mad #Saying “i feel you weren't considerate of me when you said this” is VERY DIFFERENT from just saying I'm COMPLETELY INCONSIDERATE #YOU DO THIS OUT OF OBLIGATION !!!! YOU ONLY DRIVE ME PLACES BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO NOT OF THE GOODNESS OF YOUR OWN HEART #AND YOU STILL CHOSE TO THROW THAT IN MY FACE WHEN YOU GOT UPSET #GROW UP !!!! GROW UP !!! GROW UP !!!#LEARN how to talk about your issues and ONLY the issue at hand !!!! you don't get to say what you want cause you think you're winning !!!!#NO ONE'S WINNING !!!! WE'RE BOTH UPSET !!!! WE'RE BOTH UPSET AND WE'RE BOTH FEELING LIKE GARBAGE TO THE OTHER !!!!#(yes i realize I cant actually grow tf up too and talk this out)#(tomorrow tho it's past 1am already and I gotta shower)

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crunchchute · 1 year ago

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wanted to draw burntrap before going to bed. failing cause looking at his model im only thinking about his canonicity and the lore again...

#his ass is Not drawing #i dont know how much longer i can hold onto the thought that hes partially canon as in ggy saw him thats why he drew him #but it was more like the mimic and less a corpse but. you know #everything aside its a cool design and i dig the flesh growing over the endo and stuff #his face looks a bit goofy from the side without a lower jaw mask but every other angle is cool #and like the... eyes glowing magenta instead of orange... people saying hes not the mimic are onto something #well my mind is only being changed after the foxy mask #basically i thought hey different endo? can still be the same character (burnt. and mimic) since roxy had a different endo now #and now they confirmed it as a mask so. hm #also to the eyes. if glitchtrap is magenta and mimic orange. but glitch = mimic. then burntrap = mimic. and people disagree #same thing as saying mxes is glitchtrap but glitchtrap is also mimic and mimic and mxes arent the same. oh naur!#well. mimic and glitchtrap and burntrap are all separate and theyre all making out right now

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ninawolv3rina · 6 months ago

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I really only draw Laz with the long hair but all 4 of these hairstyles are ‘canon’ within the span of time In Perpetuum covers. When it comes to what I’ll draw them with, I think I’m gonna lean towards either buzzed or long :3 I think they look great either way!

OC: Laz Atwater (he/they)

#the other cuts are more like #growing it out #he prefers it long or buzzed #the buzz is usually when he’s been working with his doctor on various medical stuff #or just after surgeries in general #but the long is absolutely his preferred #he can pull anything off tho he just has one of those faces #my art #my characters #Laz Atwater #in perpetuum #into the deep and the dark

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todayisafridaynight · 6 months ago

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Dude ur cosplays are genuinely so good 😭. I don't think I could cosplay anyone from RGG because I look too fem for it, but you're killing it!

AW thanks fam that means a lot :']] tbh if you really want to cosplay a character, you should go for it! even if you dont plan to go anywhere or do anything crazy, even just putting on the outfits is pretty fun :]

#snap chats #tbh ive never been super happy about doing cosplays cause i always felt like my face and whatnot never fit the charas i wanted to cosplay #though for me i just accepted that My Face And My Body is My Face And My Body and i didnt want those to stop me from cosplayin #cause it is fun to just dress up as a chara- its esp fun goin to cons and gettin recognized. once in a blue moon VLKAEVCJAELK #im too dicked to put make up on too but its so worth it .. it really does help if you feel your face isnt facing yk what i mean #like fuck man ig they were onto somethign with making make up #tbh whenever i feel awkward bout cosplaying i remind myself its just for fun and im not trying to do anything professional #i also remember this one jp girl who cosplayed mr satan from db and like. it was astounding to say the least #yk just tellin myself You Can Do What You Want Dont Worry About This Or That. easier said than done i know JVLKJVKLA #BUT baby steps. all of this said and done i cant wait to actually properly show my daigo and mine cosplays aka include my face #i have to make a silly post around convention time cause i still dont know who to go as so ima need audience input ig💀💀#see now i wanna test wear my daigo stuff again ..#i dont think ill go to animenyc as aoki but idk if ill go as chairman either and if i do do i want to grow my hair out for that ?#my hair's already almost at that point but. //shrug// i have until the end of august LOL #anyways. enough cosplay prattle from me LAKJLVKAJ i enjoy it too much <- take note of the ninety rgg outfits in my closet

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chiistarri · 7 months ago

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if you ever want to get over a boy think ab him laughing ab u to his friends

#its such an ick like ugh bruh #its not even sad atp its just like. grow up. grow a pair or whatever ykwim #ik my recent one wouldnt but thinking ab him doing that makes me so grossed out that i genuinely dont like him anymore #like sorry i liked you cs u were cute. dont need to shittalk me ykwim #mb this stuff happened in middle school so im highkey coping but its helping me soo #im literally making a face w my eye twitching whenever i imagine someone i was nice to talking ab me. like gross bruh what #i only talk down ab ppl who've done bad to me and even then its just their actions. like not them themselves ykwim #except this one girl but i think i can be allowed an exception every now and then #laughing ab someone trying is so fucking gross im actually gagging #godbless im over this boy now #post #erics tag #delete later

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tariah23 · 7 months ago

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Still crying over my friend telling me that they’ve never heard of Chief Keef-