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(Suggestion from @tiredflowercrown)
Anthony Tremaine- curl up and dye
Heads up: I did very minimal research before writing this fic and embellished a bit for dramatics, I cannot guarantee that any of this information is medically accurate so you may need to suspend your disbelief a bit if you know more than I do
The Isle of the lost wasn’t a safe place, that wasn’t new, but in the case of Anthony Tremaine…danger came in a different form, the salon
The Tremaine family business may not have been dangerous in a traditional sense, the most threatening thing that happened to them was when Harriet Hook came in after a day of dealing with her father’s drunkenness and brother’s hallucinations, but even then she never did any harm, what really did the harm was when Anthony went to dye the stress-grays out of her hair
The hair dye in curl up and dye wasn’t of the highest quality, after all, it was Auradon’s leftovers, Anthony had been working with these chemicals since he was tall enough to reach the sinks, his earliest childhood memories linked to the smells of old bleach and dyes, touching up his grandmother’s roots, covering his mother’s horrid gray strands, and even helping Dizzy with her colored streaks whenever he was in a good mood. The process was therapeutic in a way, giving life to the dull and dead, the moments of peace he would get when more or less frying people’s hair…along with unknowingly frying years off his lifespan with internal burns and respiratory damage
Anthony had a few trademarks that made him stand out, his always perfect hair, the way he made rags look expensive…and his cough. Anthony had been basically inhaling poison since birth (especially when they would have to substitute the bleach with actual poison if they ran out) his lungs were thoroughly ravaged, though it wouldn’t stop him from keeping up his image. He always carried a cornflower blue handkerchief with him in the event of one of his coughing fits, people didn’t tend to pay it mind, the sound of someone hacking their lungs out in the street was the isle’s equivalent to chirping birds. Anthony always handled these fits with grace, coughing into his handkerchief and then tucking it away into his shirt pocket with one hand while the other slyly clutched his ribs. The only part Anthony couldn’t control was the rasp in his voice that would come and go, but hey…some people are into that, no harm no foul
At the incessant begging of his cousin, Anthony came to Auradon, it was wonderful, clean air, fresh food, the most fashionable clothes Anthony’s ever seen…but he kept getting weird looks from people when he coughed, it wasn’t that bad, was it? They were small, quiet, a little uncomfortable sure but…not terrible…right?? Well, they were that bad, the isle and Auradon just had very different definitions of the word, it was while working with Evie that Anthony learned this difference
It was a few days before the royal wedding and Evie wanted to get her hair touched up before her best friend’s big day so she had gone to Anthony to get the job done. Sure, Auradon had amazing hair stylists, but Dizzy had suggested letting Anthony do Evie’s hair since he knew how to get the perfect shade of blue every time. Evie sat in the chair and made small talk with Anthony, though it was interrupted by a handful of coughing fits. She must have been in Auradon a long time because, Evie didn’t remember Anthony’s coughs sounding that bad. His breath sounded labored and painful, his coughs were strained and seemed to cause him physical pain, Anthony practically doubling over at one point while he groaned and clutched his ribs. Evie would ask if he was ok and needed a break, Anthony would always insist he was fine, the cough was normal and not that bad, though the more he insisted the more Evie would protest to him continuing, but he kept on with the job at hand, the fumes making his eyes slightly water…then again, could’ve been tears from all the coughing…
It happened in a flash. Anthony’s eyes had gone vacant and his breath became more of a labored wheeze than breathing, he started to tip and the next thing he knew he was making his way to the floor as his vision went dark and his hearing became nothing but ringing…
he woke up in…not Evie’s house, the walls were white, everything was blurry…and what was that noise? It was loud and obnoxious like a broken alarm clock that wouldn’t turn off. He turned to his left and saw Dizzy, was she crying? He also felt a weird poking in his arm, he turned to his right and saw a thin tube, no thicker than a sewing needle, going right into his arm carrying some strange, gold liquid…
“Wh…where am…I?”
Anthony tried to ask, though it came out more as incoherent mumbling than actual words. Dizzy looked at her cousin with a mixture of confusion and concern
“Um…somewhere called a hospital? You Passed out doing Evie’s hair and weren’t waking up, I panicked, I’m sorry!”
“…S’kay…ok”
Gods, he must have been tired, he could barely form a sentence, though that noise from earlier wasn’t going away, if anything it was getting louder, good gods someone make it stop!
“Wh…ts that?”
Anthony tried to ask another question, though once again it sounded more like mumbling. Dizzy tapped her chest with her finger and Anthony seemed to get the message…that noise was his heartbeat, and it was getting louder because he was confused and…admittedly a little scared…wow was he screwed
Hope this sufficed! Who knew hair dye was so toxic, huh? (Cue uncomfortable laughter because I bleached and dyed my hair at home for three years straight) got any more descendants characters you want to see me medically screw over? By all means tell me! I’m bored, I’ll do it!
#disney descendants#disney#descendants 3#descendants fanfiction#descendants 2#anthony tremaine#dizzy tremaine#evie descendants#god I love torturing fictional characters#who knew hair dye was toxic#those fumes do more than smell like shit I guess#none of this is medically accurate proabablt#honestly most of his symptoms were more akin to dye poisoning#than long term illness#but I only did a couple google searches#and hey#who’s to say he hasn’t been unknowingly injecting hair dye#his entire life??
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Tim I noticed a lot of indigenous patches on your jacket, are you Native?
Idk what my dad was 'cause I never knew him, but yeah my mom is (or... Was.. I guess..) Muscogee, the tribe native to the part of Alabama I'm in.
If I remember correctly she came to Alabama from Oklahoma (where a lot of Natives were displaced to in the 1800s) to "get back to her roots."
But yknow, I was separated from her in childhood (which tbh is upsettingly common for Native families) and I was raised in a very white very Catholic asylum so I'm not as connected to the culture as I'd like to be.
-Tim
#OOC: Olea speaking#this is kind of a self-indulgent headcanon but HEAR ME OUT it adds a lot to Tim's character specifically#we're talking about a character who was separated from his mom in childhood and locked up in a psych ward#suffers from chronic physical and mental illness made significantly worse by the institution that was supposed to be helping him#forced to regulate his emotions more than other people have to so he isnt misinterpreted as a threat#struggles with addiction#had to work twice as hard as anyone else in his friend group just to be given the same opportunities#a much more common experience inside BIPOC communities#and he clearly has ties to the land (especially the park) nobody else has#you know how in season 2 Alex starts yapping to Jay about how the park is cursed?#maybe he was right#maybe that *thing* has been here for hundreds of years#and nobody was ever able to settle the land so eventually the Department of Conservation turned it into a state park#and Tim isnt some random “patient zero”#but he has ancestral ties to the land and was more receptive/at risk to Operator Sickness (but was also more resistant to it long term)#JUST SAYIN 👀#im half Katu and I desire my comfort character to be a halfie with me we need more non-white rep in mh#ask.txt#marble hornets#mh#tim wright#afterlife au#slenderverse#Native!Tim
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flipping thru pages of a pathology textbook like its a shopping catalogue trying to pick out something nice for the fictional character
#textpost tag#this is about sylvester. and i actually did do this after class last week. well i borrowed the book from someone for like my Assignment#but got mildly distracted#didn't find anything in particular. just pondering#ocs#i do think sylvester has some kind of chronic illness tho#i mean maybe it could just be that getting mauled by a werewolf messed him up physically long term. it would. make sense#my gut tells me theres more to it than that tho#(also gotta balance that w healing magic existing tho sdkfj)#not in a Magic Setting means No Disability way at all but like. HIS WIFE IS A CLERIC#and th. ough#ouuuhghhhhhhhhh#ouhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#sorry i thought about characters.#and the extent to which. he NEEDED that healing magic .#very very significant character thing between the two of them.#upsettingly significant.
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Arcane style study because of course I want to learn how to paint like this
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#heavily referenced in terms of (most) of the outlines#but this was a way of studying the paint/texture stuff rather than character design etc#ill work on that by drawing some ocs in the style. then painting them in the same way as this#so that in effect is another study abdjhdjd#<- ill struggle w/ that one but i really wanna paint more. i never do. its a long process but the art looks so pretty when its done#art#arcane#study#art study#style study#arcane league of legends#jinx#jinx arcane#jinx league of legends#artshit
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does anyone have book recommendations w: robot characters (specifically lead or major supporting)? I was looking at Barnes & Nobels for like 20 minutes yesterday and found nothin :( and the only books w/ robots I can find usually have them as a side or bg character!!
#book recommendations#robots#blingy text#It’s so hard to find them for me?!?!?!#I was in the sci fi section for so long but nothin caught my eye </3#the last robot book I read was Clockwork Dynasty by Daniel Wilson which was? fine?#super interesting for sure!! mechanical beings that can live almost forever? so cool!!#I just didn’t like how convoluted the end got…I was slogging thru it by then I fear.#only other one I’ve read is Railhead by Philip Reeve which was super fun in terms of its worldbuild!!#maybe ill read it’s sequels someday..but i!! kinda!! just want to read one-off novels????#booklr#<- can I use this? I don’t think anybody will gaf if I do soo#other than the mentioned books I don’t!!! rlly find much robot stuff!!! ever!!!!!!!!!!#blingy robot posting#as per usual. sigh.#this post includes robots of any sort!! androids. disembodied voices. toaster bots. ghost robots??? anythin!!#cyborgs too maybe. depends:
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sometimes I will see slightly incorrect info in the madd tags and I have to resist the urge to correct them bc I don't wanna be That Person but also. I do. I wanna be That Person sssoooo bad.
#luka.txt#''do i do it do i pull the trigger'' <- me when someone has a slightly incorrect definition of a madd term#its not that serious but at the same time#i didnt put all that work into the daydream doc for nothin!!!#im not gonna let it bug me its fine its technically correct anyway im making it into a bigger deal than it is#this has been in my drafts for so long i forgot the post i was vagueing about lmao#anyway. parame =/= paraself they r different#parame = pov para paraself = daydreamer's self insert#yes they can be the same thing but its not universal the distinction is important#ok ill main tag this#maladaptive daydreaming
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#life update#so i had a first round interview for a teaching job#it was with the school i worked for last year as a long term sub/building sub#i knew both of the people interviewing me which was nice and knew a lot about the school#i want to be hopeful because the school has a good track record of employing people who do what i did#im just nervous#its a new principal#so he could want things a lot different than they were#also because the last principal loved me for stepping up into the job i took#fingers crossed#hopefully i get a call on monday or tuesday but ill probably be an anxious wreck till then#love yall#thanks for reading
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a fun thing that has happened to me in recent months is that i feel like i can't go outside by myself anymore. like i'll be out and suddenly feel like i'm going to pass out from pain and fatigue, and if i'm not alone i'll pass my phone to someone and get them to orchestrate a taxi home for me. but then if i'm on my own i won't have anyone to sort a taxi for me, and the fatigue and brain fog and overall cognitive impairments will be so disabling in that moment it's hard to do anything. not to mention if i can't find anywhere to sit while i wait for a taxi it's even more frightening, plus sometimes it takes over half an hour to get a taxi even at off-peak times in areas that really shouldn't be that busy. lol. lmao, even.
#idk what this post is for other than screaming into the void and maybe seeing if anyone else has similiar experiences/advice to share#i usually pride myself on being independent and self-sufficient. i love going out and doing things alone but i'm not sure how much i'll be#able to do that in the long term esp. when that really disabling pain/fatigue/#brain fog comes on soooo quickly 😃#.txt#spoonie#chronic pain#chronic fatigue#brain fog#disability#disabled#chronic illness
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wish me luck yall—i gotta go into mom mode 🙃
#my heart rate miiiiiight be faster than normal#but its ok i can do it#ill be ok#haha#not in the long term but in the short term
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in a hilarious turn of events my flatmate didn't even know I use any pronouns....
#i thought when she was talking abt how her parents thought i was gonna come out as trans and kept checking my name/pronouns-#that the joke was that im ALREADY trans but in ways they dont know abt.... but nope she genuinely didnt know 🤭#to be fair. i dont rly let anyone in on my gender business unless we're close enough to be dating or its an anonymous online space#like im legally cis and thats fine. idc abt ppl using my name + she/her bc thats not my gender identity its just AN identity that i use-#to navigate the world without ppl being fucking nosy bc i pass as + am sociopolitically treated as a woman (if butch lol)#to ppl who are friends ill joke that my gender is dyke (true) and to friends whose gender falls on a similar spectrum-#or who are transmasc ill talk a little more honestly abt it bc theyre usually able to understand better than anyone else#other butch dykes w a weird gender going on are the only motherfuckers who actually Get It but theyre hard to come by tbh#to be frank i dont fucking know whats going on w my gender. and i dont rly care enough to do the introspection to figure it out rn#i have so many other problems in my life and im lucky that most of my beef w gender can be solved by presenting butch + binding#and using any pronouns around other queer ppl. its actually incredibly funny to me when ppl she/her me bc its like tch. this chump hasnt#unlocked my level of gender yet. pronouns and names in general are so far disconnected from the way i exist in the world...#its just smth thats fun for me to play around with + makes me feel weird sometimes but in ways i havent distilled yet yknow#and this has been my approach to gender for like?? 4-5 years now??? and likely will continue to be for a long while..#anyway. its not actually that surprising my flatmate doesnt know bc shes cis so ive never felt compelled to have a deeper conversation#abt gender with her. but also i could sweeaaar its been mentioned bc almost all our other friends are trans lol#and also ive been introducing myself at queer sports socials w any pronouns and i swear i talked abt that w her..... whatever#and my pronouns are on discord and shes def seen my tumblr before but maybe i didnt have them in my bio at the time... i digress#i kind of prefer cis ppl she/hering me tbh. theyre not able to they them or he him or whatever else me in a way that matters.....#altho i do find it fascinating when she or other ppl elect to use neutral or masculine terms for me. raising an eyebrow and taking notes#like when she got a job and joked abt me being her househusband.. pulling up the fem/masc tally chart and chalking a line up#a la nona the ninth.... ive been trying to figure out whos inhabiting this body my entire fucking life with no luck girl#ANYWAY just smth to think abt. im so tired i think my brain is gonna start seeping out my eyeballs#im gonna watch some more pluto and read and then -> 🛌#another 6:30 start tomorrow woohoo#.diaries#zzzzz
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wanted to share an almost full-body pic for the first time in probably almost a decade because for once I'm actually proud of how I'm progressing and think that the changes I'm making will end up being permanent bc I'm genuinely enjoying them. Plus, the few selfies I have shared over the last five years have been very photoshopped and at flattering angles, so I feel like most of y'all don't know what I actually look like. So this is me in my children's theater teacher fit last monday!
I'm 17 lbs down from my highest ever weight, but my trainer thinks I'm probably up at least ten to fifteen lbs in muscle. I'm cooking my own food, eating more reasonable portions, and going to the gym at least five times a week because I want to, not because I feel shame or guilt. And now that I'm working as hard as I am, I'm a lot less triggered by looking at new pictures of myself because I know I'm doing my best. I'm still obese, and probably will be for awhile more, but I'm starting to appreciate what I look like and feel like. And hopefully it'll just get better from here!
#weight loss cw#sorry if this sounds super corny lmao#I probably sound so neurotypical rn but I swear I'm being totally honest#I'm obviously not turning this into a weight loss blog or anything but expect a lot more documentation of my journey going forward!#and if you don't like seeing this stuff I recommend blocking my 'personal' tag because I'm going to be talking about this a lot#I've struggled with my weight since premature puberty hit me like a truck in 4th grade so this is a big deal for me#I just wish my pediatrician hadn't treated me like shit for it because maybe if she'd approached me with compassion#I wouldn't have spun off the rails as much as I did#but either way I'm a grown ass adult and I did this to myself#so I'm the only one who can get me out of it#if you're also fat or fatter than I am please dont take it personally#but for me fatness is a physical manifestation of my long term neglect for my health and struggle w mental illness#and I want to get better#personal
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Dammit heart why are you like this ik she's like the exact damn girl you would've thought up to be as attractive and friend as humanly possible to me but you still don't have to be this whiny about it.
#yknow i was pretty settled on thinking i was aro for a few years there and um now lets just say there are questions#like idk ive been sexually attracted to close friends before and this is different#but on the other hand does it fucking matter because we're not gonna be a thing longterm#and holy shit am i having a hard time coping with that#i figure ill get over it i have before#but on the other hand idk ive been so lonely and she came back into my life and i was naïve enough to think#that we'd live together and be a thing long-term and that things were going to be okay and id found someone i could be with forever#and that meant so much to me as someone who's always feared being alone and being aro and living in such an allonormative society#as well as heteronormative and mononormative(?) and generally not cool with deviations from the nuclear family#and i thought that yknow ill still have trouble finding friends prob but ill have someone i can come home to be with at the end of the day#and then ofc reality happened#fuck man i see why allo people are so fussed about breakups now#oh yeah btw irls if you know who this is about just like idk dont tell her this i want to communicate some of this to her myself#and the other parts frankly i dont want to share because itd feel manipulative#so yeah i love her#oh and if anyone has read this far an encouraging dm is more than welcome
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#ya bitch's got covid#managed to avoid it this entire time#but my parents got it again and gave it to me 🥴#am really worried about the long term effects since im already chronically ill in other ways#blehhhh my sib and i are so fuckin careful outside the house still but my parents just HAD to go to a massive concert#shut up cj#woof like im doing better today than i was yesterday but im PISSED
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suguru fixation
#personal#it's so strong#i dont think ive had this with any other character#i dont typically describe my attachments to characters as “fixations” because#my indecisiveness makes me switch easily from one character to another in terms of who im zeroing in on for the week#but the way i feel about suguru in terms of his story. his character. his personality. his beliefs. all of that has surpassed that typical#i lost my train of thought here but just#this attachment and connection i feel to him is stronger than any other ive felt in a long time#him in terms of his relationship with satoru is wonderfully done but#him on his own is phenomenal as well#maybe im just unwell but. hes amazing. i love everything he is#long way to say my attention to suguru is so strong im calling it a fixation as opposed to my usually mild “illness” label#hm.
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I think platforms should have a "this made me viscerally uncomfortable in ways I can't describe" option for why you no longer want to see an ad.
I also think tumbr dot come should let me say "Hey! I Really don't want to see the weed ad! Thank you!" and then remove it. gimme the long ass LGBT one again I beg of you
#i have nothing against the green!#go do your thing! have your whimsy!#but by God the image used in that ad makes me ill#its just normal green. like im pretty sure that's what it looks like#but EW#what in the deformed chewed and spit up broccoli#sorry for being a hater 😔#but im Uncomfy✨#the first bit applies to yt ads mostly#and a Very Specific sonic (fast food) one. its long and i wanted to throw myself#out of bed. onto the floor and let my cat sit on me#typing out loud#Dizzy Being A Hater Edition#ik calling it green is very lame of me#tbf i dont know what exactly what the terms are?#And i fear saying it too many times will keep the ad around longer..#btw i have other Reasons for being uncomfy other than the look of it#but im not telling
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the temptation to start a dawn au askblog grows ever stronger
#cause like. both b&l and rimecrest aus are higher priority in terms of me actually writing something about them#but i still wanna do Something with dawn#also it has a smaller primary cast than b&l and the rimecrest spinoffs (it's equal to og rimecrest)#idk though. knowing me ill mill over this for a long while#it Could be a way i could get into the habit of drawing more often though#chat what do you think
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