#like idk ive been sexually attracted to close friends before and this is different

[probablynotsamantha]

Dammit heart why are you like this ik she's like the exact damn girl you would've thought up to be as attractive and friend as humanly possible to me but you still don't have to be this whiny about it.

[goofyguppy]

recently I've been thinking about how like, it's pretty hard to describe my sexual orientation and gender

(long ruminating post under the cut lol)

gender wise I either feel neutral or masculine, so I feel like demiboy fits, but im also afab so i identify with being transmasc too

in terms of attraction, i have a LOT of platonic love for my friends, i love them so much. platonic love comes as naturally as breathing to me, i want to bond and know all of my friends deeply, i want to form strong attachments and feel really close to people even though its really hard to do that sometimes. but, that platonic love rarely ever becomes romantic love. doesn't matter how much I know someone, romantic feelings just don't happen often for me. sexual feelings are even rarer, AND i have to know someone really well first before sexual feelings can even happen. developing a romantic attraction also doesn't guarantee a sexual attraction will develop, it just has to happen first for there to even be a chance it will. its like a chance game on neopets, you have to win the first 1/1,000,000 chance roll for romance to even have a shot at the second 1/1,000,000 chance roll for sex lmao.

when romantic and sexual feelings for someone do happen though, gender isn't a determining factor. my love for every person ive ever loved has felt different but not because of their gender(s). so that means: demiromantic, demisexual, and pansexual

but how do you tell someone - especially irl - you're transmasc, demiboy, demiromantic, demisexual and pansexual, i mean that's so many words and im already really bad at talking to people, its easier to just say im queer, but im also really careful not to apply that label to other people unless i know they're ok with it, especially since i live in the south us

(and dont get me started on trying to explain and be included in conversations about experiencing life as a woman, since i didn't transition until i was in my mid 20s, so being seen and treated as a woman has been most of my life. like, i want to talk about how its been for me as a fem person whose entire career has been in tech and how that has affected me and affects fem people in such negative ways, but if it were up to me i wouldn't even be perceived as a fem person. but, i still am because i don't pass and can't come out at work, so that's still my experience interacting with everyone who doesn't know me personally outside work. i usually try to speak up in conversations about this anyway even though sometimes i don't feel welcome being part of the conversation bc of how i identify now.)

idk. it makes me feel really, really lucky that im married and my spouse and I have such a close and loving relationship and they understand me so intimately. i almost lost them to cancer a few years ago. i don't like to think about this at all, but i know 100% that if i lost them i would just be alone for the rest of my life.

[mithliya]

"Idk a lot of ppl just aren't attracted to poc" Actually "a lot of people" just aren't attracted to white people, because surprise! There are billions more "poc" in the world than there are of powhite. So assuming what anon really meant was "a lot of WHITE people just aren't attracted to poc" then, I mean, yeah - statistically every ethnicity prefers to date within their race. Whiteness is seen as an exotic attraction in most parts of the world, for either sex of all sexual orientations. And of course it's also seen as "leveling up" bc of the global power imbalance (although this isn't necessarily an accurate view). Most people in my life think I'm "out there" for having dated white before, bec they never would've chosen to. My current partner admitted to me years ago that they never found white people (women, in this case) attractive. Many of my straight friends would never date a white man, and my lesbian friends tend to prefer dating either within or closely around their own ethnicities. Sorry to burst you white western bubble, anon, but most people "wouldn't date white" based on stats alone.

Oh and women are not male, btw, in reference to your clumsy little "just like no interest in trans women teehee" moment. Non-white women are female and often deeply feminine, die mad about it.

hmm it might be a very different case where you're from, but what youve said honestly does not apply to my experience. im from asia (middle east speciically) & ive learned very early on that the beauty standards are basically... being white. u could be the ugliest white person and youd be deemed hot purely bc ur european. theyre beauty standards instilled from colonisation & white supremacy but it basically exists in nearly all, if not all, of asia. colourism is a major issue and racism against ourselves persists-- so white people are highly preferred where im from and in the countries near me and countries in east asia as well like where my gf is from. sure, white is in a way considered 'exotic', except not Really bc we have enough western media and our celebs that are deemed most beautiful tend to be the most white-passing people of us so i dont think exotic is the go-to word people would use about white people where im from, at least.

but sure, yes, anon is right that a lot of people aren't attracted to us. not bc its super innate to only find white ppl attractive and/or we're just less attractive inherently or something. its because of white beauty standards having been spread to a lot of the world and whiteness being equated with beauty. white people hold these standards themselves very often-- hence why i say strictly finding other white people attractive often is rooted in racism for white people. its not a preference that appeared out of thin air, its a part of larger social messaging.

that said, its really the least of our problems who white people are attracted to when white people are still mistreating us in actually significant ways. focusing on those kinds of things is like, idk, focusing on the word 'woman' having man in it when women are facing femicide. like, okay sure thats not good and points to a larger issue but maybe we should start by fighting the larger issue, yknow?

also plenty of poc aren't into white people but, at least from my experience, for most of us it is rooted in white people being shoved in our faces as the standard of beauty all the time & in white people often being racist or mistreating us. i grew up crushing on women like britney spears,, my preferences changed bc of my experiences not bc its innate for me not to be into white women

[thegroundisnotsosoft]

RANT

I was confidently lesbian for three years. I finally had accepted myself. Life was looking up. Then i met my bestie. Then i met this stupid dude whose stupid phermones had an effect on me. Ive never been struck by anyones existence before. I thought i was a demisexual lesbian. Now i have to deal with being attracted to a man. My bestie was sooooo supportive of me having to figure it out. She wouldnt let me bully myself about it. I was 23 at the time. Im 26 now. Still figuring out if I like men. Women? Unapologeticly attracted. Confidently. Undeniably. Men? Idk. Im open to it ever since pheromone man stole my sexuality. I had a girlfriend for a couple months recently and things did not work out. Just two very different perspectives on life.

This very gorgeous for a dude internet friend asked me out to dinner after he heard i was single again. Dude shot his shot and went for it. I had dinner with him. He walked in behind me at the restaurant where we met up and low and behold. The pheromone thing happened again. It was a good date. He was super sweet and the chat over dinner was just like how wed been talking over the phone. He was nervous which was a first for me because guys usually get straight to it but this dude was actually into me. Like not just physically. Like the whole me as a person. Usually i only get that with women ive dated. Were gonna go on another date soon. Weve been texting even more since date#1.

But, i cant talk to my bestie about him. If i mention him, she gets dismissive, leaves the room like i didnt start talking with her, or just gives me silent treatment for the rest of the day through the next morning. Ive been able to talk to her about dates or my relationships before. For some reason, this particular person, is upsetting for her to talk about. She doesnt know him as far as i know. He doesnt know her. So its not like ive went on a date with her ex er something. Im just sad because i want to be excited about this person because things are going well. I dont have other friends that im close enough with that i can be like "look what he said" or "im so excited to see him " or "what should i wear for this date" or any of the normal things you normally get to include your best friend on when you start seeing someone.

I don't know what happened to make her feel like ive slapped who she is if i say or do anything that involves this guy. So here i am on tumblr bc she doesnt have one. Idk where else to talk about this. I want to be excited. I want to be hyped up before i go out. Dating a man is something i havent done in years. 6 years in fact. I was 20 last time i spoke romantically to a guy and wasnt just shooting them down when they kept trying to get to just sleep with them bc im gay or sleep with them and their girlfriend or worse, theyre after my bestie and think the two of us wanna sleep with them at the same time.

This dude wants to get to know me. I want to feel comfortable and confident letting him get to know me. I dont want to feel like im commiting treason for going on a date.

[nopefer-art-tu]

i had talked abt this on my twt a few weeks back but lately ive rly been thinking abt the potential to read ennis as aromantic and like. yeah idk i just think its a really intriguing reading into the character

like i personally see both ennis and jack as homosexual for a variety of reasons, mostly bc a. that was the frame of reference that annie proulx was writing under when she had the idea for brokeback mountain (i.e. what would life be like for a ranch hand who was gay?) and b. the book that was given to both heath and jake to prepare for their roles was a compilation of memoirs written by real gay midwestern farmers

BUT. all that aside, i think that an aspec/arospec reading of ennis' character is one of the interesting ways in which we can use the visibility of previously "lesser known" queer identities to analyze this story under a modern lens

cause like, ive mentioned this before but i kinda went insane for awhile and so for the first half of this year i went deep in on brokeback mountain. like, i read every article and listened to every movie podcast about this story that i could get my hands on, and a common debate surrounding the story (so much so that theres a whole section on its wikipedia page dedicated to it) is the debate around whether jack and ennis are gay men or bisexual men

and like...sure, okay, theres definitely valid readings in both of them. I just think that, since our understandings of romantic and sexual attraction and our vocabulary to describe these different experiences has expanded in the 17 years since the movie's release and the 25 years since the short story's initial publishing, we can take a look at these charas under new lenses with which to analyze them with

i think you can make a very valid argument that ennis is a gray-area aromantic who falls in love with the one person in his life who hes able to open up, relate to, and create a super close bond with, especially if you consider ennis' extreme loneliness throughout his entire life. it only really hit me the other day, when i was rly thinking deep about this, how hard it must have been for someone in his circumstances to meet people and make friends around his age, considering the fact that he dropped out of high school as a freshman in order to work to support him and his siblings after his parents died.

couple that w this sort of stoic, distant personality type that the hard, rough, small town american west sort of breeds into men from a young age, and like. i dunno, it makes perfect sense to me that an aromantic ennis would fall in love with the one person who hes forced to spend an extended amount of time with, who he later finds out has also grown up a poor, drop-out ranch hand with a hard home life. especially since jack also made an early effort to get to know ennis, i just think it was all the prime circumstances for him to end up falling in love.

i also think it tracks w both heath and jake's mentality when approaching these characters? cause in interviews they gave at the time, they both kinda maintained this belief that ennis anc jack were both "straight" men who just so happened to fall in love w another man

and like. setting aside the fact that that was a VERY 2005 thing to say, lol, i think the idea of someone like ennis by chance falling in love w a man still tracks if you read him as arospec. like it still comes w all the trials and tribulations of him being invested in this homosexual love affair, as well as all the internal tension he must be feeling (i.e. why am i in love with him? shouldnt i be feeling this way about Alma? what is wrong with me?). like thats very much a universal queer struggle that you can read into his character regardless of what sexual orientation you see him as

anyways tl;dr the conversations around the sexuality of the characters in brokeback mountain is rly fascinating and i think that we can look back with our expanded knowledge of sexuality and see these characters in a lot of interesting ways

[aspecpplarebeautiful]

(tw mentions of trauma, no details of it)hi i need help i think or at least info dump if u dont mind :(

currently i identify as pan/biromantic because i love everybody (leaving sexuality out for now bc i think thats a bit more complicated) but recently i started doubting. i dont know if its bc im traumatized and i just have a hard time getting close to people enough to feel love or if i just dont do it at all? recently some1 im in a qpr has confessed their (romantic?) love for me and i loved them the best i could but i dont think it was enough. idk if it was a love language thing or if im not capable of showing the love they were talking about. i dont think i romantically like them (thats a whole other issue) but like what if i dont actually feel romantic love at all? i love my friends and i believe in platonic love and sometimes the line is blurred (like qprs). for example i have one friend who i really like (platonic?) and for me it is sometimes blurred but idk if its just a deep platonic relationship (qpr???) or if its a romantic type but i am just too scared to think that im romantic to him bc hes my friend and i dont want to ruin what we have. bc dont friends still hold hands and stuff :( i think abt stuff like kissing but im also scared of intimacy (trauma tingz) or maybe thats an aro thing??

i want to love romantically i think but like what if it isnt what i think it is? i realized im not sure what that feels or looks like anymore all i know is what ive seen in the movies--aromantic people are not broken!!!!! i truly believe that :) - but i feel broken?? like theres something wrong with me and i cant feel the same love like others. i dont understand whats happening or why im feeling this is :( maybe im on the aro spectrum? or maybe this is something to work out w a professional? im just so confused

any help or thoughts is greatly appreciated 🥺🥺

please take ur time w this ask!! i know its kind of,, a lot i kinda info dumped on u :( im so confused about myself

So let’s break this apart a bit.

First of all a lot of people have trouble distinguishing what is romance or not, or romantic attraction or not. And it’s really hard to define and explain, even by people who know they’re experiencing it. And for some people the lines are blurred or they genuinely can’t tell at all. So it’s hard in general, even without trauma making it difficult. 

If you’re interested, the faq for this blog goes into some detail about distinguishing romantic/platonic/alterous attraction. So that may be helpful for you. But honestly my biggest advice is to just check out aro forums/blogs/media etc and seeing if it’s relatable and taking your time, sometimes it needs to time to marinate before you can really tell you’re not experiencing an attraction, and don’t put too much pressure on yourself.

For the trauma, it can be really hard to separate out what’s trauma and what’s just how you’d have been anyways. And honestly, you don’t actually have to and that may be helpful. One way I like to look at it is if you match an experience or find a label useful, does it matter if there’s a cause? Also there’s always a cause, just is it the trauma specifically or some unique interaction of genes and other experiences that lead you to be this way? And the other thing if trauma is a factor could things change down the road? And the answer is maybe. But maybe someone else has a fluid orientation and it changes for them later too, it doesn’t make it less valid in the moment. 

So yeah maybe the reason you think you could be aro and you’re having trouble connecting to romantic feelings/attraction is trauma. But it doesn’t mean if you think aro woud be a useful label for you that you can’t use it. And it doesn’t mean you can’t keep healing and exploring either, but it’s up to you to decide what feels right. 

Remember that there is a different between feeling broken and being broken. And a lot of people when they’re first realising they could be aro feel broken, and it’s something a lot of people go through. It’s OK to have those feelings early on, but try and remember they’re feelings, and that doesn’t make them fact. Also one thing a lot of people have found have helped with those feelings is connecting to other aros and the aro community, and seeing aros who are cool people or happy or good with their identity can help a lot to feel less broken, and even if you decide you’re not aro in the end this can still be helpful and help take the pressure off when figuring out your label. That you can find happiness either way.

I can’t tell you how you should handle the situation with your qpp, except to say don’t be afraid to take the path that feels right for you. We live in a culture that really teaches a one way to happiness and to dealing with these situations, but there isn’t actually a wrong choice here, if you should try a romantic relationship or not. And honestly there’s risks either way, so it’s best to let your own feelings guide you. Sometimes we may make the wrong choice out of fear as well (and either choice could be that), but if that happens the important thing is you learn and you’re more ready next time a similar situation comes up. 

Should you get help from a professional? You absolutely can, and some people do find that helpful. Make sure you find a therapist who is open minded about aromanticism and aro identities and won’t push you towards allonormativity. And remember you can switch therapists or fire a therapist at any time if they’re doing that. Identity is really complicated and personal too though, so I wouldn’t say it’s necessary, but they may be able to help you navigate the trauma side of it better. But it’s up to you what path you think is best for you.

This is a lot of text, but to sum up, take your time and explore, and slowly things should start to make more sense, but don’t rush it. And try not to panic or be afraid of whatever identity ends up feeling right for you in the end. 

All the best and good luck!

[askanaroace]

Until your blog I had never heard of aplatonic. & now I have a question if thats ok? I grew up thinking I was weird, maybe bi with boundary issues. Ive been told by others that I'm pan. But Idk. Basically, I dont like people. They annoy me & stress me out & stuff. But if I like you, I fall hard & fast in every way. Looks, gender, etc dont matter. I love in a weird sort of almost family not quite sexual way. Like id have sex, but not looking for it. Is that kind of aplatonic?

I wanted to clarify my other ask. I'm married. I knew I was in love with my husband pretty quick. Most of the time I can't stand talking to people & he makes me happy in a way no-one else can. I love sex with him. But if he never wanted it again I'd survive. The problem comes where, if I'm not in a committed relationship, I love my few friends so much I'm fine being there physially for my friends if they need it. This is why I choose my friends carefully. Like, 3 people in the entire world.

Aplatonic means you have difficulty/struggle to/inability to form platonic relationships with others. This can manifest in different ways. It could be something as ‘passive’ as a disinterest or it could be something like an exhaustion. It could be an interplay of many different manifestations. For example, I don’t have much interest in forming platonic relationships and when faced with the fact of it maybe happening or someone trying to bond with me, it settles into me as a deep exhaustion and fatigue.

I can’t tell you if you’re aplatonic or not because identity is not a test or diagnosis. I can tell you that I relate to your experiences of finding people stressful and not having very many people I’m close to (though having few people was true before I was aplatonic, as well). The best question to explore yourself to determine if you’re aplatonic is: do I want to identify as aplatonic? Does it help me to identify as aplatonic? Does aplatonic give me some sense of belonging or being understood? If yes to any of those, that’s a good sign you’re aplatonic!

It sounds like part of your confusion over if you can identify as aplatonic or not comes down to the fact that you possibly experience other forms of attraction (like sexual, sensual, and/or queerplatonic, maybe?). Aplatonicism is only about how you form bonds platonically. You can have whatever other identities and still be aplatonic! You do not have to be aro/ace/nonamorous to be aplatonic. You just have to find aplatonic a useful way to describe how you feel.

x

[astronomyparkers]

hi leyla i was wondering (if its okay to ask) how you knew you were bi? ive been questioning and i wanted to know if it was something you always knew or more of a recent realisation? thanks love

that’s totally okay!!! it’s definitely been a journey and had its ups and downs.

so all through high school i was like. aware of my attraction to girls???? but i didn’t really think anything of it. like of course i thought girls were hot have you seen girls???? they’re so hot!!!! and i kinda thought that admiration was just like. damn. wish i looked like her. i’m appreciating her aesthetically. this isn’t gay at all.

but (plot twist) it was gay!!!! and i kinda realized as i became more attracted to girls in university and. this sounds dumb. but zendaya???? i simultaneously want to be her, be her best friend, and be her girlfriend. and if you search through the bi tag on my blog you can kinda see my journey in like. discovering and giving it a label???? because for the longest time i was like idk what i am but it’s definitely not straight but i don’t wanna label it. and then one night last fall (it’s almost my one year guys omg) i just was like. no. fuck it. i want a label. i wanna figure this out.

so i did some googling and read a bunch of resources and there was one quote by robyn ochs i found that resonated with me: “I call myself bisexual because I acknowledge that I have in myself the potential to be attracted – romantically and/or sexually – to people of more than one sex and/or gender, not necessarily at the same time, not necessarily in the same way, and not necessarily to the same degree.”

because here’s the big misconception about bisexuality!!!! you don’t have to like both genders 50/50. you can have a preference or like them in different ways, and that’s what stopped me from saying i was bi before. because i was thinking “yeah girls are hot but i think i’m more attracted to guys so that’s that” which just isn’t true!!!!

and then after realizing that, i actually faced a lot of internalized biphobia, which was strange, because literally all of my high school friends were Not Straight but also part of the problem i think???? because one of my ex close friends who really ended up hurting me is bi and so i associated negative feelings with it because i associated it with her. and then i had anxieties that i didn’t like girls enough for it to count.

but here’s the thing!!!!! you just gotta ask yourself: what’s enough? remember that quote. you don’t have to like all the genders (because there are more than two) in all the same way. it can be different each time, and it’s still valid.

and then there was my messy coming out that includes the met gala, zendaya, a viral text post, teen vogue, and a power point, but that’s an entirely different story.

sorry this is so long!!!! but i hope it helped. love from your local disaster bi 💗💜💙

[yumikoflare]

wowie this is a loooong meme - thanks for the tag @wildricebear more like wild loser bear...........

Rules: Answer all questions and tag 20 people. (putting it under the cut bc it’s 100+ questions!)

1. What is your nickname? i go by yumi! my rl nickname has the same amount of letters 🤔

2. What is your zodiac sign? aqua sun / scorp moon

3. What is your favorite book series? not gonna lie i havent read any book series in a looong time but my fav manga series is fukigen na mononokean!

4. Do you believe in aliens or ghosts? ofc, i believe in both!

5. Who is your favorite author? errr i honestly don’t have one ahaha but sunrisesongs has some reaaaally nice poetry if that counts

6. What is your current favorite song? rn i’m a huuuge fan of kenshi yonezu’s suna no wakusei, namely the soramafu cover!

7. What is your favorite word? uhh don’t have one.. but the word ‘warmth’ has always struck a chord in me?

8. What was the last song you listened to? i think it was ra ra rasputin b/c someone at band was playing it on his phone LOL

9. What TV show would you recommend for everybody to watch? i don’t watch tv oops  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ can’t think of anime recs either smhhh

10. What is your favorite movie to watch when you’re feeling down? i don’t watch movies if i’m feeling down but i remember enjoying the intern?

11. Do you play video games? mmm a little bit.. i play overwatch and sometimes osu and ive played a couple of mmorpgs here and there 

12. What is your biggest fear? losing my purpose and passion

13. What is your best quality, in your opinion? i’m a good friend! i think that counts

14. What is your worst quality, in your opinion? my lack of patience and intolerance to trials

15. What is your favorite season? winter!!!!!!

16. Are you in a relationship? nah

17. What is something you miss from your childhood? honestly? i don’t miss much in particular from my childhood other than that Sweet Naive Bliss™ because things have been getting better in my life since then so

18. Who is your best friend? nizh, swirl, mari, gil, noah, sam, laura, kayla come to mind

19. What is your eye color? dark brown

20. What is your hair color? dark brown

21. Who is someone you love? all my friends...........

22. Who is someone you trust? the friends i listed earlier!!!

23. Who is someone you think about often? honestly as of recently myself bc im working on bettering myself LOL but other than that, i think of noah kinda often?

24. Are you currently excited about/for something? uuuuhhhh not particularly

25. What is your biggest obsession? currently overwatch

26. What was your favorite TV show as a child? probably spongebob aldsakdsla

27. Do you have any unusual phobias? mmmmmm not sure but my anxiety makes a lot of small things scary so

28. Do you prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? both!!!!

29. What is your favorite hobby? honestly not sure... i like writing but recently i’ve been very into photo and video editing so!!!

30. What was the last book you read? probably the hiding place

31. What was the last movie you watched? goosebumps i think? watched it at home w/ my mom bc she hadnt seen it before

32. What musical instruments do you play, if any? [[[the sound of me, panicked, aggressively slamming my mallets into a timpani can be heard in the distance]]]

33. What is your favorite animal? dogs.... i love dogs

34. What are your top 5 favorite Tumblr blogs that you follow? hm i rly like yamiiino, kaiami, tofuvi, star-plasma, and zandraart!

35. What superpower do you wish you had? healing factor!!!

36. When and where do you feel most at peace? idk, whenever really, surrounded in my closest friends; either that or doing something i love alone

37. What makes you smile? my friends...... also getting praised......

38. What sports do you play, if any? FUNNY JOKE i cant sports

39. What is your favorite drink? hell....... i love lots of different types of teas (black, green, jasmine, honey, etc) and im also a sucker for matcha... and i also like ice blended drinks... and (virgin bc im underage) mojitos.... and smoothies.......... fdgkjkdf i love drinks a lot ok

40. Are you afraid of heights? yes 10000%

41. What is your biggest pet peeve? close-mindedness and intolerance to other ppl/ideas/etc + having to waste resources

42. Have you ever been to a concert? only one! was a mayday parade concert earlier this year

43. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? like everything LOL a singer and an author were prob my biggest ones tho

44. What fictional world would you like to live in? HONESTLY the fukigen na mononokean world would be cool to live in... 

45. What is something you worry about? i simultaneously really like and dread band asdlsakdas

46. Are you scared of the dark? yup orz

47. Do you like to sing? heck yea!!!! singing is so good.....

48. Have you ever skipped school? no bc im a goody two-shoes™ 

49. What is your favorite place on the planet? i dunno! i don’t have one! the world’s so big there’s so many places i still have yet to go!!!

50. Where would you like to live? honestly idk i’m happy with where i am now LOL

51. Do you have any pets? i wish......... i want a doggo so bad but my sister and i are allergic

52. Are you more of an early bird or a night owl? i don’t feel like either but i’m closer to a night owl

53. Do you like sunrises or sunsets better? both..... the sky is a goddess and im in love with her.....

54. Do you know how to drive? i’m an anxious minor who is too afraid to get near the wheel LOL

55. Do you prefer earbuds or headphones? headphones bc earbuds always fall outta my ears and its a Pain

56. Have you ever had braces? nope B)

57. What is your favorite genre of music? ummmmm i don’t have a fav bc i’m kinda flexible but i like alt rock? and j-rock/j-pop?

58. Who is your hero? to be completely honest idk if i have one LOL im my own hero™ B))))

59. Do you read comic books? nah

60. What makes you the most angry? probably the same as #41 as well as like myself?? bc i get frustrated with myself v often and that concept makes me angry asdsa;ldas

61. Do you prefer to read on an electronic device or with a real book? nizh wrote “i like real books but i’m so lazy that i’m more likely to read digital” and i am in agreement

62. What is your favorite subject in school? errrrrrrrr i suppose la? but i’m abt to enter some new classes and learn under totally new teachers so idk it’s bound to change!

63. Do you have any siblings? ye, one older sister

64. What was the last thing you bought? a flowy cardigan from yesterday!!!! im lov it.... i might post a pic of it

65. How tall are you? 5′1′’ and 3/8 sdfkjsdijeiwjeje

66. Can you cook? yo i wish..................

67. What are three things that you love? my friends, music, food/drinks LOL

68. What are three things that you hate? same as #41 and a third thing would prob be conflict?? idk

69. What is your sexual orientation? as far as i know i experience no sexual attraction (asexual) and i experience romantic attraction to anyone and everyone (panromantic) so!

70. Where do you currently live? socal

71. Who was the last person you texted? probably nizh

72. When was the last time you cried? mmmm maybe a week or two ago... i cant recall exactly when so thats good

73. Who is your favorite YouTuber? oooohhh.. im super mainstream but i love arikadou LOL also zylbrad, seagull, and etika

74. Do you like to take selfies? i do! i usually only take selfies like every once in awhile when im feeling cute and when i do i take A Lot

75. What is your favorite app? i lov line camera?? also google photos makes things mucho convenient

76. What is your relationship with your parent(s) like? tbh i find my relationship with my parents to be closer than a lot of my friends’ so :0

77. What is your favorite foreign accent? i dunno! french accents are pretty cool

78. What is a place that you’ve never been to, but you want to visit? japan! also the philippines

79. What is your favorite number? idk but i like 5 and 8

80. Do you find outer space of the deep ocean to be more interesting? both freak me out but the ocean is pretty interesting

81. Do you consider yourself to be a daredevil? not in the slightest LOLOL

82. Are you allergic to anything? intolerant to eggs, pretty allergic to any type of nuts so that sucks, n i got those Seasonal Allergies

83. Can you wiggle your ears? NO I HAVENT READ HARRY POTTER

84. How often do you admit that you were wrong about something? umm idk how often LOL whenever i think im wrong..?? which is somewhat frequently?

85. Do you prefer the forest or the beach? forests are lovely

86. What is your favorite piece of advice that anyone has ever given you? honestly idk......... i remember my dad said smth about how you don’t always have to forgive everyone and by saying ‘it’s okay’ permits the other person to repeat the same action, so i choose my words rly carefully now bc of that :o

87. Are you a good liar? kinda half n half... depends on what i’m lying abt

88. What is your Hogwarts House? iiiiii forgot but it was either ravenclaw or hufflepuff... mightve been the former

89. Do you talk to yourself? YEAH especially when i’m practicing music or video editing

90. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? introvert

91. Do you keep a journal/diary? as of very recently yes bc my therapist recommended me to do so :0

92. Do you believe in second chances? usually in most circumstances

93. Do you believe that people are capable of change? oh yeah definitely, anyone is capable of change, it just depends on their attitude towards it

94. Are you ticklish? yes i hate it

95. Have you ever been on a plane? yep, to san francisco and sacramento and i guess once to texas but that was before i could remember so

96. Do you have any piercings? nope and i don’t rly want any tbh

97. What fictional character do you wish was real? i have nooo idea there’s a lot of thought i’d have to put into this question LOL

98. Do you have any tattoos? nah but if i did they’d be veeeery simplistic

99. What is the best decision that you’ve made in your life so far? probably when i decided 1-2 years ago that i wanted to get my life back on track so i could become a person i could love and ive been making progress little by little ever since then

100. Do you believe in karma? mmmmm not reaaallyyyy..... like maybe a little bit but

101. Do you wear glasses or contacts? its ya girl almost legally blind and wearing contacts

102. Do you want children? not sure yet but probably

103. Who is the smartest person you know? no clue omg there are lots of smart ppl in this world

104. What is your most embarrassing memory? sometime in grade school i was sitting at the edge of a playground slide pleading for my friend not to push me down bc i rly had to pee but she did and i literally just pissed all over the slide and we just stared at each other for a long time and that was just........ Very Bad - I HAVE ANOTHER BAD MEMORY THOUGH it wasnt even long ago kill me??? i was at my friend’s house for dinner and her parents asked what my sister was studying and my sister just recently got into college and i had a veeeeeeeery vague grasp on what she was studying so i literally said ‘food and tectonics’ and i wanNA MCDIE BC I MEANT DIETETICS NOT T E C T O N I C S

105. Have you ever pulled an all-nighter? mmm not a real one.. most ive done is stayed up til 6amish with nizh before goin to sleep  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ like i’m definitely capable of doing it i just don’t want to

106. What color are most of your clothes? dunno? i have a fairly colorful wardrobe but i almost always wear something w/ black if i’m not going for an all light outfit

107. Do you like adventures? depends on where to bc im very cautious LOL

108. Have you ever been on TV? nope

109. How old are you? how old is ur moM!! dab dab haha xd

110. What is your favorite quote? one of my favs is “there are no happy endings, endings are the saddest part, so just give me a happy middle and a very happy start” by shel silverstein; i have a few others but thats the first that comes to mind

111. Do you prefer sweet or savory foods? savory tbhhhh

112. Have your friends ever badly disapponted you? umm not badly but ive been mildly disappointed by a few LOL

113. What is your favorite scent? that clean/fresh linen smell?? and also lavender and then light stuff like eucalyptus mint

114. Random fact you know? the duck-billed platypus can’t keep its eyes open underwater, so it finds its prey by using sensors in its bill that detect electrical impulses n then they strike! theyre pretty cool animals..

115. What is your opinion on long distance relationships? nizh said “hard. just, really hard. not sure if it’s worth it” and i also agree

IT IS OVER wow ok 20 ppl is kind of a lot and this is a loooot of questions so im only gonna tag a tiny bit of ppl (dont have to do it if u dont wanna!): @dunmerhealer | @aftertaste-of-memes | @inspiringnokias yeah that’s it LOL this is just Hella Long so idk how many ppl would be up for doin this so ye  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

[jungksbih]

First Dates I

this is my first fic on here! Feel free to read n enjoy!

genre: comedy/angst/light smut? idk, etc

pairing: johnny x reader

word count: 2345

Parts: I II III IV V

Your breath hitched at the sensation that you felt for the first time. The faint hum of the device rang loudly in your ears causing your senses to heighten and your cheeks turned a dark red in color at the realization of what you were doing. Of course it was fine since you were home alone and it was a normal thing for people around your age but you still couldn’t shake the feeling of embarrassment from you. Your eyes remained shut while the heat in your body increased slowly, so slow to the point that you were considering stopping for the night and returning to your normal routine. Everyone around you made it their goal to make fun of you constantly for being a prude. Even though you were far from it everyone around you insisted on thinking otherwise. You had sexual desires just like the students around you. You had thoughts about people around you that you’d be mortified of saying out loud, you were put into moods at inconvenient times just like the others. The only difference was that you were too overwhelmed with things that you had to focus on to be bothered by it.

“Oh my god.” the moan left your lips and your body slightly contorted as the wave of pleasure washed through you.  The thought of being embarrassed by the sounds that left your lips didn’t even occur to you since you were finally close to finishing. Finally after spending 30 precious minutes of your precious time that you certainly did not have you were getting the results that you wanted.

Just as you felt the desire to climax your phone began to ring, breaking your focus. Your eyes opened in frustration and you paused the vibrator before leaning over and answering the jackass the interrupted you.

“You know this really isn’t a good time so I hope whatever it is, is important.”

“Look I know you’re busy studying like you always do but I really need your help. This time it’s actually something important.” A familiar feminine voice pleaded on the other end and holy shit did you know that phrase all too well.

It was your acquaintance  friend troian most likely asking you to cover up for her again. She was under the impression that the two of you were best friends, maybe because you entertained her all the time but on your end she was quite bothersome but you were too nice to say anything about it.

“If you want me to tell one of your boyfriends that you moved i won't i'm not in the mood for it.” Your eagerness to climax instantly washed away just like that, and the longer you were on the phone the less you felt like continuing where you left off.

“Just hear me out okay?  i’m not asking for that but it’s kind of similar…” You tuned her out for a moment as you sat up and pulled up your underwear, holding the phone in between your ear and your shoulder. Conveniently there was a glass of water on the night stand- most likely from that morning. You took a sip from it, drifting away to your own world before her voice rang in your ears louder than before catching you off guard.

“Hmm?” you hummed questioningly. There was an annoyed sigh on the other end of the phone which was uncommon for you to hear from her. She wasn’t necessarily the type to get annoyed by anything you did since she was generally fond of you.

“Did you really not hear a thing I said?”

“No” you paused. “Sorry.”

“Can you please go on a blind date as me?” She asked again, slowing down her speech and emphasizing each word to ensure that you would hear her fully this time. Regardless you still weren’t quite sure if you heard her correctly. Blind date? The idea of a blind date ran through your brain like a short film and you pictured an old man in his 60’s trying to sell you out or something and you instantly were turned off at the idea. “Please, Y/N?”

“Huh? Oh uh yeah.” You said without meaning to. Once the words that left your mouth met up with your comprehension you wanted to slap yourself for being dumb and getting yourself in that position.

“Really? You’ll do it?” She started to make that voice she made when she was ready to end a conversation and you knew that there was no turning back on your unintentional offer this time.

“N-No I meant-”

“It’s settled! Tonight at 10 you’re going to go to the Soulful Cup. You know where that is right?” She asked into the phone. Your throat began to dry up and you nodded to yourself in response, forgetting that she couldn’t see you.

“Uh yeah I know where that is. What should I wear?”

“You can just come over to my place if you’d like I could give you something nice to wear and tell you what to and not to do okay?” You heard a door shut in the background and the faint sound of a male’s voice on the other line. “ I’ve got to go i’ll see you soon, bye.”

You placed the phone down after checking the phone once she hung up on you. 8:47pm. You had about an hour to get ready and get to the coffee shop on time, and depending on how long the “date” would last you would potentially be missing out on any studying time. This is what you deserved though it’s natural, you could have just not answered the phone and your day would have gone according to plans but that’s not what happened. An exaggerated groan left your lips as you stood up and walked to the bathroom to evaluate yourself. Your makeup was still in tact surprisingly, and your hair was slightly tangled but it wasn’t anything that Troi couldn’t deal with on her own.

After checking up on yourself you decided that it was time to get going, grabbing your phone that was at 50% and your collection of keys you headed out the door and  made your way to her house. Thankfully she lived about 15 minutes away by foot so you were fine just walking to her place instead of driving. The last time you’d been a date was about five years ago when you were sixteen and since then it just never crossed your mind. You wondered to yourself if you’d even be fit for this “date”, was it even a real date? What would you say? What if they really were attractive? What if they were someone you knew? What if someone saw you and misunderstood? The thoughts clouded your mind while you continued to walk alone in the dark and it wasn’t until you arrived to your friend’s place that you  came back to reality.  After giving the door a few gentle knocks there was shuffling on the other end, followed by the sound of a laugh that wasn’t Troi’s. The door opened, revealing her in a robe and she quickly rushed you in, closing the door behind you.

The apartment had the same familiar smell of overused fragrances and candles and the bright colors of her couches stood out to you the same as they always did. The only thing that was off about the setting was the pairs of shoes that were next to hers. While thinking about this you slipped off your shoes and invited yourself into the living room, taking a seat on one of the blinding couches.

“Sorry this place is a bit messy, when I called you Taeyong was at the door so things got misplaced a little.” Troian piped up from the side  while your eyes continued to scan the area,  taking in your surroundings.

“He’s still here i’m guessing?” You raised an eyebrow and looked at her and the her face reddened slightly as she gave a nod in response.

“He is...he’s in the room, we were hanging out I forgot that you were still coming over…”she drifted off and read the unamused expression on your face. “But he could be another set of eyes to determine whether what you’re wearing is good or not for the date!” She always had quite the optimistic view which wasn’t necessarily a bad thing, it just wasn’t quite your taste.  She walked halfway through her short hallway towards her bedroom and called out to one of her boy toys that was in her room, telling him to get out because you were there.

“It’s fine, I can really just go like this...I don’t mind.” You began, hoping that you weren’t becoming a burden even though it was the other that should have felt like she was becoming a burden.

She ignored your words and walked back over to you, muttering something about talking nonsense as she grabbed your wrists and led you to her room.  The man who you were assuming to be Taeyong was  eating from a bag of chips whilst continuing to watch tv as if he hadn’t heard anything which clearly got on Troi’s nerves.

“Look I get it you had a long day cry me a fucking river but you need to stop getting your crumbs and shit on my bed unless you’re going to be the one to clean it up.” She began while opening her closet door. Her efforts to get him to stop were useless though, he just continued on as if she didn’t say anything at all. You were debating on whether or not you even saw him flinch at the sound of her voice, but apparently you weren’t the only one that noticed this because the sound of the hangers moving got slightly louder. “It’s not like you’re the only person that sleeps on this bed so for the others sake you should at least make a team effort, yes?”

This caused him to raise his eyebrows finally and turn to face her. Instead of having a scowl on his face though, he flashed a bright smile and tilted his head to the side, almost as if he knew an inside joke that everyone else in the room didn’t pick up on.

“Don’t flatter yourself, I have lots of money so if I were you I wouldn’t put myself on such a high horse and think that i’m the only girl he’s fucking. I already know what this is, Troi.” He curled up the bag of chips and placed them on the nightstand beside him before getting up and beating down on the blanket to get rid of any crumbs that he got on there. “Anyways honey, what are you picking up for your little friend here?” He sat back down and continued to smile  as he spoke.

“Oh you’re so full of shit Taeyong, but if you must know, I was thinking of putting her in something simple but sexy.” She paused, looking your figure over once more before diving back into the closet. “What about a simple dress? I have a silk dress that I barely use you could wear that, and it’s black so it should compliment you.”

Your lips pursed at the sight of it. You were having difficulty deciding whether or not you liked the dress at all but it wouldn’t hurt to put it on anyways. After grabbing it you excused yourself to the bathroom and slipped it on. You saw your figure in the mirror and for once you felt decently confident in the way you looked. Yes, Troi could be annoying but she knew how to make sure you looked good no matter the occasion.

“Did you die in there?” Her voice rang through the closed door. You jumped slightly at the unexpectedness of her voice but soon walked to the door, opening it before flashing a large smile at her. “Well i’ll be damned…”She eyed you up and down and nodded to herself in approval.

“I love it.” You stated only making her nods quicken.

“You can keep it. That dress was made for you. Now go, it’s 9:45” She said. Your eyes bulged open as you looked at the clock in the bathroom, realizing that it was in fact 9:45 and you were about to be late for the date. You silently prayed to yourself that whoever was there would be kind enough to wait for a little while and not get too angry in the process.

You rushed out of the house, putting on some heels that she also handed to you while saying goodbye quickly, leaving the bickering pair to themselves. You didn’t even bother to put on your heels as you ran out the house, trying to bolt to the cafe on good time. After about 5 minutes of running you stopped to catch your breath, heels in one hand you felt around to grab your phone but there was one issue. It wasn’t there. Cursing under your breath you put the heels on your feet and played with your hair, hoping that when you arrived you wouldn’t look like too much of a mess. Out of the crowd of people you were able to see a large cup sign in the distance signalling that you were almost there. You walked as fast as you could to the shop before finally arriving, letting out a large sigh you looked around the oddly packed cafe in search for this guy.

While looking around you noticed a guy around your age with dark brown hair looking around like you were and a part of you thought that maybe, maybe that was him and you’d actually have someone decent. The both of your eyes locked and you smiled simultaneously, and you knew that it was him. You made your way over to him and you smiled at him until you heard him speak.

“You’re Troian, right? Hi I’m Johnny.”

[aussiekaylor-blog]

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1 - How are you? Pre shit. i hate fighting with you2 - Post a picture of yourself. i will later3 - Do you ever wish you were someone else? yes4 - What is your entire name? Abby Elsie Joy Willett5 - How old are you? 216 - Age you get mistaken for: 167 - Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality: yes8 - What did you do on your last birthday? nothing9 - What is one thing you would like to accomplish before your next birthday? staying alive10 - What is your hair color? blonde11 - Have you ever dyed your hair? yes 12 - What is your eye color? blue13 - If you could change your eye color, would you? yes14 - Do you wear contacts/glasses? yes15 - Your opinion about your body and how confortable you are with it: i hate it16 - Have you ever considered plastic surgery? What would you alter about your body? no17 - Say 8 facts about your body: 1-8 i hate it18 - Do you have any tattoos? yes 419 - Do you have any piercings? yes20 - Left or right handed? right21 - What’s your sexual orientation? Bi22 - Do you drink? no not anymore23 - Do you smoke?no24 - Do you have any pets? not anymore25 - Where do you work? i dont coz im lazy26 - Something you are working on right now: getting though this27 - Do you have any “rules” about food? no gluten28 - Where are you from? Australia29 - What would you say is your best quality? eyes30 - What do you think you’re really good at? sport31 - What do you think you’re really bad at? relationships32 - What talent do you wish you’d been born with? able to sing33 - Are you a bad person? yes34 - Are you nice to everyone? i hope so35 - Say 3 facts about your personality: um idk36 - Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? yes37 - What is your ideal bed? Why? a king size bed so i can lay this little body across it38 - Do wake up cranky? yes39 - Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? yes if i had one with me40 - What do you think about the most? you41 - Share 2 habits: sticking my tongue out while trying to do things and pinching my self42 - What you want to be when you “get older”? a mother43 - What are your career goals? anything that get money44 - What is your ideal career? army45 - Is your life anything like it was two years ago? yes and i hate it46 - Do you replay things that have happened in your head? yes47 - Have you ever had an imaginary friend? yes48 - Say 10 facts about your room: i hate the wall paper, massive bed, tv, to close to the toilet, smells like my older brother, the wall paper has ships on it, wooden floors, its small, no fan49 - Do you have any phobias? spiders and snakes50 - Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? yes51 - Are you allergic to anything? If so, what? no52 - Ever broken any bones? yes53 - Ever come close to death? yes54 - Things you like and dislike about yourself: things i like: my hair and eyes and freckles. things i hate everything else55 - A random fact about yourself: im 5ft56 - What are three things most people don’t know about you? bad temper, used to drink heaps and used to smoke57 - An unknown fact about your life: its shit58 - Share something about yourself others might think is weird: i have a chipped tooth59 - Five weird things that you like: 1. i like fireworks 2. i like fire 3 i like beaches that have rocks 4. i like cliffs 5. i like buildings60 - Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this?yes i have facebook and yes ive already added you61 - Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? yes62 - Describe yourself in one word/sentence: im small but fast63 - A quote you try to live by: “To me, Fearless is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” - Taylor Swift64 - A famous person you’ve been compared to: no65 - Weird things you do when you’re alone: um watch avatar: the last airbender66 - Something you do without realising: um swear67 - 5 things you want to change: 1 - 5 my body68 - Someone you’d like to be for a day and why: yes Taylor swift so i can buy my mum a house69 - Leave me a compliment: your beautiful and 69 hahahaFavourites70 - What is your favorite thing to do? sleep71 - What’s your favorite color? purple72 - What’s your favorite band/singer? taylor swift73 - What’s your favorite movie? harry potter movies74 - What are your favorite books? harry potter books75 - What is your favorite quote and why? “To me, Fearless is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” - taylor swiftbecause it helps me with a lot of things76 - What is your favorite word? fuck77 - What is your least favorite word? c*nt78 - What is your favorite type of food? pasta79 - You favorite ice cream? chocolate80 - What’s your favorite animal? tiger81 - Dogs or cats? both82 - Describe your favourite texture: food83 - What is your favorite flower? white rose84 - What’s your favourite scent? Vanilla And on the opposite sex? a nice smoky smell like from a fire85 - What is your favorite season? winter86 - What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? nashville, la, paris, italy, england 87 - What are four things you can’t live without and why? phone facebook tumblr girlfriend. 88 - Which mythological creature are you most like? Why? um a unicorn89 - What’s your favorite television show? wentworth90 - Favorite place to shop at? kmart91 - Say 2 facts about your favorite things: um idkFamily, childhood and places92 - Say 4 facts about your parents:1 my mum is the best 2. i hate my dad 3. im greatful for them 4. i love them93 - Are you more like your mom or your dad? mum94 - Do you have any siblings? 295 - Say 9 facts about your family: 1. i love them. 2 i miss them and i dont have any more96 - What’s your relationship like with your family? um pre shit97 - Say 7 facts about your childhood: no thanks 98 - The best and the worst childhood memories: nan passing away99 - Say 6 facts about your home town: 1its small 2has steam boats 3has a river 4family lives there 5best food 6feels like home 100 - Are you going out of town soon? idk101 - Where would you like to live? anywhere with my girl102 - What would your dream house be like? um its hard to describe103 - Where would you go on your dream vacation? anywhere with my girl104 - Where you want to be right now? in my girls bed105 - Top three places to visit: 1my nans 2the beach 3sport games *************************************************Friends106 - Would you ever smile at a stranger? no107 - Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? boys108 - Who is someone you never tire of? my girl109 - Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? yes110 - Who is your most loyal friend? um111 - Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? yes112 - If your best friend died, what would you do? idk 113 - Something you’ve lied about. not saying114 - Have you ever felt replaced? yes all the time115 - Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s): 1 his so nice 2. i love him 3. he has the best hugs 5. biggest heart Relationships116 - The last person you hugged? my mum117 - Story of your first kiss? um i dont remember118 - Do you like kissing in public? no119 - Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes120 - You have a preference for boys or girls? girls121 - Is the male or female body closest to perfection? female122 - 5 things that irritate you about the same sex/opposite sex. males think that there penis is the biggest123 - Do you believe in love at first sight? no124 - Do you believe in soul mates? yes125 - What is your idea of the perfect date? walk along the beach and a nice dinner 126 - Based on past relationships or crushes, describe your perfect boyfriend/girlfriend: the girl i have now127 - What is the first thing you noticed in someone? there smile128 - Are looks important in a relationship? no129 - What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? no idea130 - What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? doesnt bother me131 - Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? yes132 - Five guys/girls whom you find attractive: 1 taylor 2 karlie 3 cara 4 my girl 5 my girl133 - Do you have a crush on anyone? yes my girl134 - A description of the girl/boy you like: shes amazing135 - Say 1 fact about the person your like: im in love with her136 - If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? bitch bye137 - When was the last time you told someone you loved them? today138 - Do you think someone has feelings for you? no idea139 - Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? i hope so140 - Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? yes 141 - Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? yes ugh taylor why are you with joe142 - Anyone you’re giving up on? yes my dad143 - Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? yes144 - Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? yes145 - Have you ever liked one of your best friends? yes146 - Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? yes147 - Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? yes148 - Is there someone you will never forget? yes149 - Say five ways to win your heart: nuggets saying the right things um flowers i guess150 - What turns you on? hmmm my girl is the only one who needs to know151 - What turns you off? smoking and drugs152 - What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? umm 153 - What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? send me flowers154 - What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? to come see me 155 - Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Have you had one written for you? ive written two songs about someone. and i have no idea 156 - What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? um go see them when im busy 157 - Are you in love? YES158 - Are you in a relationship? yes159 - If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? her smile. it brightens up my day like the sun160 - Are relationships ever worth it? yes 161 - Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? yes162 - Can you commit to one person? yes163 - Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? yes164 - Do you ever want to get married? yes165 - Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? maybe 166 - Future names of your children: Isabelle Grace Lastname 167 - Do you get jealous easily? yes168 - The last time you felt jealous, and why? um idk169 - What is your definition of cheating? kissing and hugging and flirting 170 - Have you ever been cheated on? yes171 - Do you forgive betrayal? i guess172 - Have you ever cheated on someone? yes173 - Why did your last relationship fail? coz i wasnt happy174 - Things you want to say to an ex: i dont miss you 175 - A description of the person you dislike the most: i hate you 176 - If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? no177 - How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 3 -4178 - How long was your longest relationship? 3 years179 - You’ll love me if… you like food180 - Share a relationship story: um no thanksMusic, movies and books181 - How often do you listen to music? everyday182 - What kind of music you like? country183 - Do you like to dance? no184 - What was the first concert/show you attended? a local rapper185 - Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? yes186 - Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past: angels - robbie willams my nans funeral187 - A song that’s been stuck in your head: say you wont let go 188 - Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play: taylor swift dear john189 - A book you want to read/have recently read: harry potter190 - Describe your dream library: i dont have one191 - Last movie you just watched: our kids are alright192 - Do you like watching what type of movies? harry potterSituations and crazy things193 - You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done? harry potter194 - What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for? stabbing someone 195 - If you could be any character, from any literary work, who would you choose to be? harry potter196 - You’re given $10,000…under one condition: you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to? my girl197 - If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? my life 198 - If you were an element on the Periodic Table, which would you be and why? oxygen 199 - If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? when i was born200 - You’re an Action Movie Hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy? my fist and IM BATMAN BITCH201 - If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like? a rollercoaster202 - What is the first curse word that comes to mind? FUCK203 - What the last party you went to was… and when the next will be… i dont remember204 - Halloween costume idea? dont do halloween 205 - How you’d spend ten thousand bucks? buying a house206 - Press ctrl+v and post: “To me, Fearless is not the absense of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.” 207 - Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for ten years or someone you hate for a month? Explain why. someone i love for 10 years208 - 5 things within touching distance: laptop, phone, meds, apple juice, pillow209 - A drunken story: i ended up in hospital210 - What are you supposed to be doing right now? sleeping 211 - Currently wanting to see anyone? my girl212 - Why you follow me? coz im amazing213 - If you met me what would you do? kiss me214 - YOU have to leave me a random/ridiculous question: id answer it215 - YOU have to leave me a cute message: id blushOpinions and beliefs216 - Is the cup half full or half empty for you right now? half air217 - Do you believe in fate/destiny? yes218 - What you wish for on 11:11? it wont come true219 - Do you consider yourself lucky? What’s your good luck charm? um idk220 - Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? no221 - What is your religion, if any? nope222 - Would you go against your moral code for money? yes223 - What’s more important to you: strength of the body or strength of the mind? mind224 - How important you think education is? very225 - If you were the president, what would you do? kill trump226 - If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change? to kill trump227 - Is it the thought that counts? Or is that phrase circumstantial? the thou228 - If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do? see my girl and tell her i love her229 - Which movie character do you most identify with and why? harry potter coz i get a wandFeelings and Others230 - Are you a procrastinator or do you get things done early? procastinator231 - Post a photo/draw a picture/write a poem (pick one) of a moment of personal significance: um no232 - Say 5 things you love unconditionally: my girl and issac233 - What motivates you in life? food234 - Something that you’re proud of: um idk 235 - Five words/phrases that make you laugh: no idea236 - Share the story of something that makes you smile: no237 - Something you always think “what if…” about: my relationship238 - What was something you used to enjoy, but was ruined for you? What’s the story behind that? no saying239 - Describe one of the most awkward experiences of your life: shit 240 - Something/someone that you miss: my nan241 - Are you over your past? yes242 - What is your saddest memory? my nans funeral243 - One of the hardest moments in your life: saying goodbye to my nan244 - Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yes245 - What’s something you want to do that you’d be embarrassed to tell other people about? um idk246 - What was your most embarrassing moment? pissing my pants while drunk in my uncles garden247 - Share one of your fears/insecurities: no248 - Something you’re currently worrying about: yes249 - Have you done something you regret very much? yes250 - If you could take something back that you said or did, what would it be? not saying251 - Does anyone hate you? yes252 - Do you hate anyone? yes253 - Lyrics that apply to your current situation/mood. The rest of the world was black and whiteBut we were in screaming color254 - Are you good at hiding your feelings? no255 - What’s something you hide about your personality? idk256 - How do you approach social situations? no idea257 - Are you a social or an antisocial person? um depends258 - Are you an introvert or an extrovert? introvert259 - Do you care if people talk badly about you? yes260 - How do you deal with criticism? not good261 - How you hope your future will be like? good262 - What’s something that scares you about the future? losing you263 - Five items you lust after: idk264 - One thing you’re excited for: you265 - Describe the most terrifying/strangest/beautiful dream you’ve ever had: being dragged under the ocean and cant swim up266 - Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? draco267 - Who is your celebrity crush? taylor swift268 - Make a confession: I FUCKING LOVE YOU SO MUCH

[77live]

i got ttagged by @homosexualhufflepuff thänks u

1. LAST TEXT SENT: "yeah” to my mom 2. LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: black white and uhhhh like crimson maybe? 3. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP TODAY: at about noon 4.WHAT WERE YOU DOING LAST NIGHT AT MIDNIGHT: probably sleeping lmao 5. NAME SOMETHING YOU CANT WAIT FOR: summer, its may but its like still snowing sometimes  6. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOTHER: last night before she went to bed 7. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WISH YOU CHANGE ABOUT YOUR LIFE: i wish i wasnt so fucking anxious in social situations 8. WHATS GETTING ON YOUR NERVS RN: i dont think ive eaten since yesterday morning so im feeling a bit shitty because of that 9. RELATIONSHIP STATUS: uhhhhhh i dont even know lmao 10. FAVORITE TV SHOW: twin peaks definitely but i dont really have the energy for tv shows 11. FIRST BEST FRIEND: this one guy who i bonded with over zelda when we were like 11, i miss him 12. LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: slowdive - souvlaki 13. 3 FEARS: deep water, social situations, situations in general lmao 14. 4 TURN ON’S: a music taste that matches mine, c o l l a r b o n e s, glasses, being artistic 15. 4 TURN OFF’S: closed mindedness, being an asshole in general? idk 16. SEXUAL ORIENTATION: sex or gender doesnt really matter a whole lot to me 17. MY SENIOR QUOTE IN MY YEARBOOK: this is like an american thing and im not american 18. FIRST THING I NOTICE IN A NEW PERSON: uuuuuuuhhhhhhh no idea sorry 19. SHOE SIZE: 42 20. EYE COLOR: no idea like dark greyish maybe 21. HAIR COLOR: dirty blond/brown 22. FAVORITE CLOTHING ITEM: no idea  23. WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR I’M WEARING RIGHT NOW: black 24. ULTIMATE BIAS: idk what this means  25. ULTIMATE BIAS GROUP: or this im sorry aaaaaa 26. FAVORITE SEASON: summer 27. HOW MUCH TIME I SPENT ON DESIGNING MY BLOG PAGE: no fucking clue i dont even know what it looks like tbh 28. THE REASON I JOINED TUMBLR: i dont remember at all 29. LAST BOOK I READ: peter hooks memoir about joy division  30. DO I EVER GET “GOOD MORNING” OR “GOODNIGHT” TEXTS?: yeah kind of 31. WHEN DID I LAST HOLD HANDS?: yesterday morning i think :))) 32. HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE ME TO GET READY IN THE MORNING?: 20 or so minutes, i want to sleep for as long as possible so ive gotten pretty good at getting ready fast 33. HAVE I SHAVED MY LEGS IN THE PAST 3 DAYS?: no but maybe i should, they look pretty bad 34. WHERE AM I RIGHT NOW?: my bed  35. DO I LIKE MUSIC LOUD OR LOW: idk relatively low i think 36. 3 THINGS I LOVE: art, sleeping, my friends 37. HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW: hungry and im a bit shaky  38. SOMETHING I REALLY, REALLY WANT: just happiness i guess whatever thats gonna take 39. 3 THINGS THAT UPSET ME: the state the world is in, idk what else im really bad at this sorry 40. WHAT I FIND ATTRACTIVE IN OTHER PEOPLE: i already answered this in the question about turn ons pretty much but collarbones and hands are hot 41. 3 HABITS I HAVE: checking my phone way too often, procrastinating a lot, being way too shy 42. SOMETHING I FANTASIZE ABOUT: like the future and stuff? life in general 43. MY OTPs: never been into that stuff so none 44. SOMETHING IM TALENTED AT: lmao i have no fucking clue 45. THE BLOG I GIVE MOST NOTES TO: idk 46. THE LAST PERSON THAT RE-BLOGGED FROM ME: idk 47. DO I SMOKE/DRINK?: very occasionally 48. MY FAVORITE FOOD: idk i really like eating but i dont really have a favorite food 49. MY FAVORITE DESSERT: same here i really like desserts but i dont have a favorite 50. WHAT I DID YESTERDAY: nothing too special 51. NUMBER OF KIDS I WANT: idk i would have to learn to take care of myself first lmao 52. NUMBER OF SIBLINGS I HAVE: just one 53. SOMETHING THATS CONSTANTLY ON MY MIND: school and other things that are stressing me out 54. LAST PERSON I MESSAGED ON TUMBLR: @homosexualhufflepuff 55. CAN I DRIVE: no cars are scary 56. WHAT STATE OR PART OF THE WORLD DO I LIVE IN: sweden but im finnish  57. AM I IN SCHOOL?: yeAH 58. DO I GET GROSSED OUT EASILY?: yeah i think so 59. SOMEWHERE I WOULD LIKE TO VISIT FOR A WEEK: maybe like japan or some country in europe 60. I’LL LOVE YOU IF…: if u listen to the same music as me 61. LAST SHOW I BINGE-WATCHED: stranger things probably 62. WHAT WORDS UPSET ME THE MOST: i dont really get annoyed by specific words but i dont like when people use really big words for no reason other than trying to seem like theyre better than everyone else 63. WHAT WORDS MAKE ME FEEL THE BEST ABOUT MYSELF: jsut compliments in general 64. A WISH THAT I’VE WISHED FOR REPEATEDLY ON 11:11: dont think ive done that more than like once and i dont remember what i wished for 65. WHO I WOULD SWITCH LIVES WITH FOR A DAY: i dont think i would want to do that 66. MY FAVORITE ICE CREAM: maybe mint or lemon flavor?? idk i like most ice creams 67. ALLERGIES: cats and pollen 68. SEXIEST PERSON TO COME TO YOUR MIND IMMEDIATELY: david bowie lol 69. MY CHILDHOOD CAREER CHOICE: i dont remember  70. ONE OF MY INSECURITIES: lol theres way too many to pick just one 71. HOW MANY BLOGS AM I FOLLOWING: 69 lmao 72. HOW MANY TABS/DIFFERENT WINDOWS ATM: just 4 rn 73. COKE OR PEPSI: i rarely drink soda so i dont even remember what pepsi tastes like so maybe pepsi to see what its like 74. TEA OR COFFEE: coffee, baby 75. MOVIE OR BOOK: if this is between a book and its movie adaptation then the book any day of the week, otherwise it really depends  76. A SENSE I WOULD BE WILLING TO LOSE: none of them?? i feel like this question was worded a bit poorly 77. QUOTE I LIVE BY: idk im just winging it 78. TYPE OF ACCESSORIES I WEAR THE MOST: i dont really wear any accessories ever 79. LAST AWKWARD SITUATION I FOUND MYSELF IN: uhhhh it wasnt that awkward but a couple days ago i just didnt really know waht to do or say bc i was meeting a lot of new people and im very bad at that kind of stuff 80. WHAT TIME IS IT RIGHT NOW: 1 pm 81. A SONG THAT’S MADE ME CRY: theres so many but the last song that made me cry would b 4th of july by sufjan stevens 82: FIRST SONG I EVER SANG AT KARAOKE: idk sorry 

this was honestly a bit of a chore so im not gonna tag anyone but if u see this and think it looks fun do it!!!!!

[myvelouri]

So like, a lot happened. I just got home tonight.

I snuck into her room and it was nice.

I don't know where to begin to be honest and I'm forgetting a lot.

She loves root beer and so I got this special alcoholic root beer. She tried to like it but she didn't like it. Unfortunately. Also specs totally ripped me off cause I used credit instead of cash or debit which charges you an extra amount of money which is BULLSHIT

So we started cuddling and listening to music. This is gonna be out of order cause I can't remember all of it..we talked a lot and a lot happened.

So she wanted to know me more. And I wanted to know more about her. Oh also the guyfriend from earlier today! Well, I finally got her to tell me. I basically told her she doesn't tell me all the lil details of her day. I'm used to that and I actually prefer it. She said she does too. But anyway, yeah, I didn't tell her I was butthurt about that guy. But it was a guy. And she was at campus and she hung out with him. They talked actually A LOT. she's the one who reached out to him on campus. Um... She said he's a college friend and the only one. She said they took classes together and then they got so fuckin close that she had arranged for him to take the next semester with HER. She told him what classes and everything... Dude I've never had a girl like me as a friend that would try to demand me take classes with her. She said he's chill. She said he's a pharmacist. She said he told her some funny shit about working at a psychiatric ward. Um. She told me so much. It seemed a lot and I wanted to ask her "did you all have a thing as well?... Was it platonic or nah?" But I absolutely didn't as that seems so insecure. She probably had a crush too. But anyway yeah I'm like surprised she didn't tell me about this whole ass hang out with another guy and I had to ASK about it cause I only could guess it even happened at all from a post on her story. Like, really? Where's the open and honesty shit. Damn

She said she could get a crush on a guy even though she's in a relationship, I said that's really messed up to me..she said it's only happened once..she said she wouldn't act on it. I said, nah that's not the point? The point is you were in a relationship and you actually were capable of having a crush on another guy as well as that's not just physical attraction, that's a whole ass higher level, a CRUSH, bro, you like this other dude when you're in a relationship. She said it's not the same but, to me this is a huge issue.

Oh so I found out the thing she was not telling me she'd do earlier. It was that she was going to text her recent ex and ask if he's doing okay. LIKE DUDE WTF. She's said nothing but negative things about him.and how she doesn't want to hear his voice or see him and she makes cringe faces as well as serious disgust at the thought of seeing him ever again. She told me many times she wants him out of his life and not be friends either. She said this a lot and it's also why I was okay with going out with her. Also he invited her to a thing and she really REALLY didn't want to go, she was so grossed out by him....in fact she didn't go and we went out that night instead. So why the fuck is she getting drunk and thinking about him to the point she wants to drunk text him how he's doing. That goes against every single thing she told me... Wow.

You still have feelings for the dude. I figured. But I didn't since she shat on him a lot..I thought damn she really hates him

Also I think I'm balding, or it's stress related, or the dandruff shampoo I been using. Idk what's happening.. I'm devastated

Anyway also she asked how much do I like her. She said she wanted to be honest. She said right now she likes me at a 6/10 but changed it to a 7/10... I was confused cause I thought she liked me so much, I thought it'd be a 10/10. Boy was I wrong. She said it started at a 3/10....I was like wow that hurts ha. But okay. Np.

So I asked more about it and she said, the first time she saw me, she was physically attracted to me at a 8/10 but it's at a 10/10 now, but she started liking me, which is different, it's harder for her to like someone SO SHE SAYS and it was at a 3/10 for a second and that day we worked together with another co-worker and we joked around she liked me at a 5/10. I was like damn that was fast actually

She asked me what I don't like about her. I asked her instead first. And she said "physically? Or personality wise? And my heart slightly jolted in a horrible way, I thought, wow there's something she doesn't like about me physically?... And she straight up said she doesn't like the hair on my butt. But to be honest I detest it too and I actually trim it every month, I guess she saw it when it was longer..yikes. embarrassing

I told her I like everything about her physically. Seriously, there's nothing bad? Like, I legit like it all. She has a nice body.

I said I don't like the parts of her personality where she's confusing and contradictory or just like what she did tonight with not telling me what she'd do when she was acting crazy and drunk and saying she was gonna hit up someone... The people she talks to.. which turned out to be ex's. Yep. And I said there's just a few things. I was only able to tell her this because she said what she doesn't like about my personality is whenever I get anxiety (because of her) that I shut down and stop talking and won't talk. And I realize that. But I can't change it.

Okay so she also told me about her day finally cause I asked. And she said she had a group project and they had to sing a thing. Make your own beat to a Shakespeare thing. She said there was this guy in her class who's super country and he started singing in a deep deep voice, singing country as fuck and she looked all turned on and said "oh, boy, oh, mmmmm, don't do that"... I was like wtf you're checking out dudes in your class and shit like that? (I didn't say that out loud, I just thought it) it made me feel really insecure and like, I asked her if that was a good thing, country guys, and she said yeah, that'sa huge thing, she loves country boys and we joked about it for a second. I was half joking. I said I'm not even your type... I'm only a few things. And she said she likes guys in all black, emoish, like alternative music but like country as well, are country but alternative, deep voice, and then I added "yeah and have blue eyes, are white and have a big dick" and she moaned to each one of those saying "mmm yeah" like she's fantasizing about this guy in her head already. I'm like yeah.... Okay..

And she said something fucked up. I said I'm not good at pleasing you sexually, I can't get fully hard and (my dick ain't big) and she said she doesn't care anymore about that because her ex fucked it all up for her (cause he was fucking rapey as shit and always constantly fucked her and tried even tho she said no) and I said to her "so you would have dumped me already had you never been with your ex..." And she said "I don't think so cause I'm not like that..."

But... Dude... She's saying I'd basically not be good enough sexually had her ex not fucked her up. That makes me feel so bad about myself. Like I'm a reject she's just settling for. A piece of shit that has a small dick and can't fuck her right.

We had sex. I ate her out. She really tastes so good I'm like wow. I couldn't get fully hard and I fucked her standing up, she looked so good sucking my dick on her knees. The first condom immediately made me lose my erection so I couldn't fuck her. She sucked me off more and I got the second condom after taking the other one off of course, and we started fucking. It felt good but I hated that I wasn't fully hard. I fucked her hard, rough, choking, everything almost. But we had to be quiet. I was getting too loud in every way. She said she was so close to cumming. But she didn't. She told.me to cum. I wasn't about to. But I made myself cum. And I was upset about it all. I also did intially have to fuck her raw for a few moments before I could get a condom on. It felt so good, she felt so tight around my cock, I was surprised. My dick is so useless and tiny, like I could legit tell how good it's feel if it was bigger and thicker, longer, everything, I could feel every nook and cranny, like seriously, what a FUCKING shame to have my genetics.

Okay so we were watching music videos, they just played and I told her one of my man crushes is the darker haired dude from the band Boys Like Girls, and so their music video was playing and she was just talking to me and he popped up on the screen and she stopped and moaned "ohh...mmm" cause she thought he was hot as fuck. And she told me. I'm so bothered dude, she gets so jealous if I do this with other girls but she continues to check out other guys and she justified it saying he's a celeb she can't ever have. I was like nah, you could get him, plus I'm as hot as the celebs so... Derp. Anyway what I said was YEAH THAT DUDE IS HOT AS FUCK, HES THE MANCRUSH IVE HAD SINCE FOREVER, I TOLD YOU HE WAS HOT. and in fact she's already told me that I look like him and am the same type as him before. He's hotter than me. Also another thing, I was telling her I know her type, blue eyed white guys with dark hair and alternative style etc, and she said nah, she doesn't like blue eyes. But this music video came up and the singer has blue eyes, same video, and she goes "mmm okay you were right, those blue eyes got me though mmm" and I was so bothered, especially cause she tried to argue that she doesn't like blue eyes that much earlier. And she said if the other darker haired guy had blue eyes instead, and she said "oh mmm" I said nah he'd still be the same hot. She said "no, hotter." And she continues to make me feel jealous or whatever..like no wonder I'm fucking balding. And she doesn't tell me she hung out with a guyfriend alone before class. Like wtf, she said she'd never do that. She just is so untrustworthy to me

I overall feel like... Shit.

She said she thinks it'll be hard for her to get herself to like me more, for her to get there. And that came out of left field honestly, cause she's been hyping me up and saying how much she REALLY REALLY likes me everyday

She opened up her notes and I saw a message to herself that said "I feel like" and it kept going and it was about half a paragraph but she quickly hid her phone. And shes aware that I write to myself, like here, but of course I don't let her see this, it's private. But I do tell her I do this. And she wants to know what I write about. I feel like she's hiding things from me as well tbh

I'm gonna get drunk now.

[datingadviceonreddit]

Hey iv never used this app ever and idk if im using it right but I really needed some advice or something that will make me feel better about life sorry about my grammer, so I had a crush on a guy that I thought was a dream boy - a guy who will never look at me or ever date me *too good for me. So far iv only seen him have like 2 gfs not long term. Iv been rejected alot of times which is normal bc everyone gets rejected but iv never in my life been in this situation this guy has been my friend ever since junior high to highschool not close friends but we had random how are you conversations or deep talks. In the summer he began to text me to the point whare he was flirting it continued and I had hopes for the thousandth time just because it was a really attractive guy iv always wanted to date and I really liked him. He stops texting for weeks then he messages me I straight up tell to go on a date with me so we go to the movies , we cuddle this a thing iv never done before with anybody iv only kissed someone on the lips and and hugged someone before but this was different after we go to a park to make out and play around. I was down to do a casual date even if we wernt dating but nothing really intimate happend we did not sleep together.I get home and he tells me he doesnt want to do this anymore. I could not understand what happened he never texts me back for months not even as a friend and I get a text from him and he tells me he was sorry for being a idoit and he that he is A sexual all I said was that I wished him the best .The worst thing is that I was barley getting over this situation the feelings I had about him Were still there but I tried my best to get over him and now I feel worse and it's like I have to start all over from the begining to get over this I feel more hurt ,used,rejected. Iv made all these questions in my head ..am I not good enough? I don't understand why this happend and after all his gfs he had to pick me to leave me hanging idk what he means about his sexuality he a sexual hes? Maybe hes being pressured to find his sexuallity and what he likes ?hes only 18. I really thought he was in to me Im really afraid to ever like anyone again maybe its a normal thing im 18 and had never had a real relationship. Any advice? via /r/dating_advice

[americasferrera]

1-100???

danggggg okay !!

1. Name? Leeanne!!

2. Age? almost 15 yaaaa

3. City that you live in? not city but i live in texas

4. What do most people not know about you? i’m emo af lol

5. What do most people know you for? idk im boring ):

6. Hobbies? singing, acting, and writing !!

7. What are your passions? same as above

8. What do you search for in a significant other? i mean i havent been with u kno,,, a significant amount of ppl so im not sure. but someone who cares about me and wants me to be happy but also knows when to tell me if i need to tone it down.

7. What are you most proud of? my growth as a person !

8. When was the last time you had a significant conversation with someone you love? today.

9. Have you ever collected anything? What was it? i collected rocks when i was younger 

10. List 10 things off of your bucket list. 1. meet at least one of my favorite celebrities. 2. write a full book. 3. go to a pride event. 4. perform an original song. 5. direct a feature. 6. attend a broadway show. 7. dye my full head of hair. 8. come out. 9. travel the world. 10. learn yoga.

11. What was the last thing you learned? lips are soft and super nice especially when they are pressed against your own lips

12. How many relationships have you been in? 2.

13. Turn ons? im not gonna do like sexual ones bc im fuckin 9 but i find girls with dark hair and tatoos and theyre like tough but super sweet too attractive

14. Turn offs? people who are just over the top obnoxious and rude

15. Favorite food cheese omg

16. Favorite drink literally water

17. What is the best birthday gift you have ever received? idk ):

18. Are you optimistic or pessimistic? internally pessimistic, externally optimistic

19. Do you sleep during class? no!!!

20. What is the most expensive thing you own? myself, i cost so much to maintain smh

21. What is the cheapest yet most useful thing you own? uhh 

22. How many times a day on average do you check your phone? too many im a slut for attention

23. Text or call? depends on who it is ! 

24. Opinion on long distance? do whatever makes you happy.

25. What is your definition of success? being happy.

26. Favorite song? feeling good by nina simone.

27. Favorite artist? red hot chili peppers.

28. Celebrity crush/crushes? katie stevens, laura prepon, elise bauman

29. When was the last time you read for fun? today

30. Favorite flower? tiger lily!!!

31. What is the best gift you could receive right now? idk

32. Any guilty pleasures? fuckingfd twilight kmskskmskms

33. What is one thing you would like to change about yourself? to be more physically attractive and healthy also mentally too 

34. What do you search for in a friend? memes.

35. How many times have you said “I love you” in the past month? a lot, i say it a lot.

36. Where did you last go other than your room/home? school ew

37. Why do bad things happen to good people? if only good things happened to good people then they wouldn’t be good anymore.

38. In your opinion, what hurts more? Being left out or being stabbed in the eye? both fuckin hurt man.

39. How many green shirts do you own? 0 lmao

40. Do you like anime? only sailor moon (and corey in the house obvi)

41. What do you invest the most time in? school u g h

42. What was the name of the last book you read? milk and honey

43. What’s the difference between loving and liking someone? liking someone is enjoying their company. love is a want, a need, an ache. this goes for platonic and romantic.

44. Where are you most productive? when i’m inspired

45. List 3 things you enjoy doing with friends. idk watching movies, hanging out, and just being memes.

46. List 3 things you enjoy doing alone. lots of things lol, but watching tv, reading, and singing.

47. Do you believe world peace will ever exist? i hope

48. Do you have any allergies? im not allergic to anything

49. When was the last time you cussed at someone? at someone? idk

50. What was the last promise you made? to be there.

51. What was your last dream about? idk it was wild i cant explain

52. If you won a trip to Hawaii and you could take 5 people with you, who would those 5 people be? my best friends and my mom

53. How many countries have you visited? t h i s  o n e 

54. What is your favorite medium of art? (Music, dance, painting, etc.) music for sure!!! but i do love them all tbh (:

56. When was the last time somebody complimented you? earlier today

56. If you switched bodies with someone, how would you recognize yourself? i mean. ive looked ina fucking mirror.

57. Do you consider yourself mature? idk

58. How many days in your life do you think you have wasted on tumblr? ew probably a lot

59. What is your favorite quote? one i read today in milk and honey was “an alcoholic parent does not exist, simply an alcoholic who could not stay sober long enough to raise their kids” and it hit too close to home lmaooo

60. If you started a new religion and you had to create 3 rules or commandments for your new followers to live by, what would those 3 rules be? i wouldnt.

61. What is your greatest accomplishment? i was once ranked first out of like 100 girls for choir so that was cool!!!

62. Do you believe in the death penalty? i have mixed feelings on it.

63. What are your goals for life? to be truly happy with who i am.

64. What do you think your soulmate is doing right now? idk man

65. If you could live anywhere, where would you live? The place can be in an imaginary, fantasy, or the real world. hogwarts!! or in the tardis with the doctor idk. in the real world probably new york city !

66. What were you like in 2013? oh my lord i was like obsessed with unicorns god bless my soul

67. Do you have a job? nooooo just school smh

68. Tell us a story about your childhood best friend. okay not my childhood best friend but her sister. we would play “boyfriend/girlfriend” and i’d pretend to be the boyfriend and “drive” her places and kiss her on the cheek like what kina gay ass shit…

If you could change one thing about society,what would it be? one?? idk if i could pick just one

How many all-nighters have you pulled before? a lot probs 

71. Is tumblr your favorite website? If not, then what is your favorite website? tumblr or youtube idk

72. What is the craziest thing you would do for a million dollars? the real question is what w o u l d n t i do

73. Does money equal happiness? no but money can make u happy

74. How many times have you experienced true happiness in your lifetime? idk im happy a lot so probably a lot!!!

75. How many times have you experienced true sadness in your lifetime? a lot too lmao

76. What is the funniest joke you have ever been told? my life

77. When was the last time you looked at the news? today

78. If you could say one thing to the world, what would you say? hi

79. What is your favorite animal? c a t s

80. If you could earn a million dollars by pretending to be dead for 3 years, would you do it? wtf yes actually idk would my family know i was pretending

81. What is one thing that everyone is bad at? idk everone is different but mostly like public speaking

82. What time do you normally sleep? How many hours of sleep do you usually get? like 9:30-10:30 n like 8-9 hours 

83. Does age necessarily equal maturity? no

84. What is your favorite clothing store? maurice’s

85. In the winter- beanies or gloves? gloves

86. Would you rather have wings or a fish tail? wings

87. If you had the power to erase one person from the world so that nobody remembered him or her except you, would you do it? idk

88. What do you fear the most? failure, sponsored by mental illness^tm

89. How many digits of pi can you recite? only like 10 smh how sad ):

90. If you could travel back to one year and relive it again, which year would it be? probably my 8th grade year

91. Describe yourself in one word. anxious

92. Describe your last victory. fun and scary but also awesome

93. What is the weirdest thing you have ever seen? AHHH

94. What is something you will never forget? her

95. Would you rather forget all of the past or remember everything in vivid detail? second one i guess.

96. Have you ever broken a bone before? surprisingly, no

97. Is it harder to love or to hate somebody? hate imo

98. Coffee or tea? tea obvi

99. What are some little things that you do that have changed your life in a positive way? music, cats, writing

100. How many hours have you spend on tumblr today? i spent like fuckin 2 just trying to write this thing smh

this thing took me 5evr somebody better have actually read it i s2g

[planetcatherine]

Ask me things 1. What’s your middle name? rose 2. What are you listening to right now? family by chance the rapper, blended babies remix 3. What was the last thing you ate? applesauce w perky bc i am currently a chipmunk 4. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? brookie cookie! 5. Do you drink? socially 6. Do you smoke? weed yes and i vape bc i love nic 7. What is the first thing you noticed in someone? personality honestly, like whether they're intelligent or can hang and like their swagger and vibes 8. What is your hair color? blonde 9. What is your eye color? blue 10. Do you wear contacts/glasses? no but i think i should lol, i used to but they annoy me 11. Dogs or cats? BOTH i love animals 12. What’s your favorite animal? turtles have a special place in my heart 13. What’s your favorite television show? the office, himym, that 70s show 14. What’s your favorite movie? hot rod, silver linings playbook, ferris bueller 15. What’s your favorite band/singer? i listen to rap lol but i like chance, childish, kodak, post malone, drake, many many others 16. How old are you? 18 17. Do you have a crush on anyone? nope lol i'm done with relationships and dating until i find someone special. until then i'm just chilling and doing whatever i want. i'm not really looking rn 18. What’s your sexual orientation? straight 19. What’s your favorite color? yellow 20. What was your most embarrassing moment? when i had a bowl cut when i was little LOL like why 21. Do you ever wish you were someone else? i mean my life sucks sometimes and i wish i was more motivated to figure things out, but i'm in love w it all so no 22. What were you like when you were a kid? i was loud around family and friends but very shy, crazy, happy, smart, intrigued by the world, sporty. i was a very good kid 23. What would your dream house be like? never really thought about it to be honest. i just want a nice affordable place where i'm happy and will have everything i need like water electricity etc. that's all i really need. ideally it'd be a beautiful house and i'll be successful but money doesn't buy happiness. i'll appreciate whatever i have. 24. What last made you laugh? anesthesia 25. What is your favorite word? right now it's either rattled or sunshiney 26. What is your least favorite word? idk i like them all except the n word 27. What turns you on? moving hands, eye contact, grabbing, when someone's so into you they'll do anything to have you and like pounce on you, smiling during sex, stuff like that 28. What turns you off? loud obnoxious people 29. What is your star sign? scorpio 30. What are your favorite books? perks of being a wallflower 31. Do you have any siblings? yes, 4 32. Do you like to dance? i love dancing 33. What is your definition of cheating? not being loyal to the one you claim to love 34. Have you ever cheated on someone? no. never. 35. Do you regret anything? not a thing. i've learned from all experiences. 36. Do you have any phobias? needles but i'm getting better with it 37. Ever broken any bones? my pinky toe one time bc i was going too hard jumping on the bed when i was like 9 38. Ever come close to death? the other day i was driving and my car spun out and i was doin donuts and went off road into a pasture. i almost hit a tree. i was so lucky my car didn't flip over, bc i have a rogue and it was also windy that day. i'm so lucky. but it helped me realize some things. 39. What is your religion, if any? i don't even know man 40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? no and i really have to but i'm scared 41. Are looks important in a relationship? i mean yeah lol you have to be attracted to the person. but beauty is in the eye of the beholder so honestly idk why people stress so much. everyone is beautiful to someone. people need to not trip so much over the way they look. other people literally don't care like at all. 42. Are you more like your mom or your dad? i'm like my mom in the idgaf and bitchy sense (that's a good thing btw) but i'm like my dad in the im a sweet and goofy person sense. but also i'm not at all like either of them. idk man i'm just me 43. What is your favorite season? summer or fall 44. Do you have any tattoos? getting one next weekend i believe 45. Do you have any piercings? first and second holes. want more but i am a broke broke person rn 46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 1 real boyfriend but i've been in 3 serious relationships w/o labels 47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? uh i mean no 48. Who is your celebrity crush? no one tbh lol 49. Are you a virgin? no 50. Do you get jealous easily? if i really like someone then yes i do but it's because ive been in bad relationships before. my trust is kind of fucked that's why i'm just doin me rn i don't wanna deal w anyone rn 51. What is your favorite type of food? quesadillas or pizza or sushi! prob sushi 52. Do you ever want to get married? if i find my person but i ain't rushing it at all lol 53. Who was your first kiss with? my first boyfriend Jake. it was more of a makeout and i was freaked out by it lol i wasn't ready. i cried after he left that night 54. Have you ever been cheated on? yep 55. What is your idea of the perfect date? running around doing/showing eachother things that make us happy and just talking about life getting to know one another. being fearless with it all 56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert? both idk i just chill and vibe w people 57. Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets? i think it's a possibility, and likely somewhere or other 58. What talent do you wish you’d been born with? flexibility 59. What is your saddest memory? how suicidal i was when i was younger. breaks my heart. also every goodbye i have had to say to people i love. it breaks my heart. 60. Do you believe in love at first sight? i mean it happened to me so yes 61. Do you believe in soul mates? yes but i think you can have a few, not just one 62. Have you ever dyed your hair? yes 63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? many 64. Would you go against your moral code for money? idk what this means lol wut 65. What are three things most people don’t know about you? 1. i tried to kill myself multiple times when i was younger 2. i am very unmotivated to do schoolwork although i love to learn 3. i have friends all over the country and world 66. Who are you jealous of? no one 67. Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? sometimes i sleep w my stuffed spongebob my sister gave me when i was little, or a stuffed heart my brother gave me with a picture of us in it 68. How long was your longest relationship? idk man 69. Is the glass half empty or half full? depends man 70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? many things but smile in a happy state under stars and crawl over me and just go to town out of love 71. Who is your most loyal friend? Rachael i love her 72. Are you in a relationship? no 73. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? --- 74. Are you a bad person? i try to be the best i can be and usually succeed in that, but i am human. i make mistakes and everyone has their own perspectives 75. Are you a lover or a fighter? "i'm a lover not a fighter but i'll fight for what i love" 76. What did you do on your last birthday? my friend took me to get my ears pierced and my mom took me to the mall. it was a nice day 77. What is your favorite quote and why? i don't think i have one, sorry to disappoint 78. If your best friend died, what would you do? i would not know what to do at all. i would try to stay positive but i would be so totally and completely heart broken. i'd miss her to death. 79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? my bowl cut when i was 11 lmao 80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do? go to canada to see a pal and thank him. if i had time after that i'd probably go to new york to meet up with some friends. if i had time after that i'd go to cali. 81. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had? i honestly don't really know 82. Are you happier single or in a relationship? single but that's because every guy i talk to makes me feel worthless. when my person comes along, i'm sure it'll be a different story 83. Who were you in a past life? i don't know wtf question is this 84. What is your happiest childhood memory? whenever i was with my sister jenn 85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? yep 86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend? yes, tippy was the GOAT 87. If you were the president, what would you do? omg idk i'd probably smoke a lot of weed and try to forget that i was given this terrifying position 88. What is your ideal career? being an art therapist who gets to travel many places 89. What is your political affiliation? idk man idk 90. Are you conservative or liberal? both in different aspects 91. Is the male or female body closest to perfection? dafuq is this question 92. Do you like kissing in public? yes yes yes. i love when someone's not afraid to love me. i've only ever had that with one person. i miss him so. 93. If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change? men that scream at women and beat them, and vice versa. i just have only seen men do it but i know women do too. it just freaks me out. if a man ever screams at me or hits me i just completely cut them off and don't deal. shit's scary. 94. Where would you like to live? everywhere dude 95. Where would you go on your dream vacation? everywhere dude 96. Describe yourself in one word. art 97. Describe yourself in one sentence. i am made up of everyone i've met and everything i've experienced.