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snzhrchy · 2 years

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Oh my god, I thought about this at school, okok so can I request a fanfic about Ajax having a crush on the reader (She/her if u can!) and his little snakes constantly trying to be affectionate with her and sneaking outside his little hat to try and touch you???? Thank you!

— ☆ THE SNAKES !

ajax petropolus x fem!reader

synopsis; Gorgons are usually told to keep their distance from the rest of the outcasts but Ajax and his snakes are a little too fond of you. notes; THIS WAS SOO FUN TO WRITE AND THE CONCEPT WAS CUTE TOO OMG taglist; lmk if u wanna be on it !!

The first time you encountered Ajax's snakes acting oddly around you was when the both of you were studying for your upcoming exam. When this happened, neither of you were aware of each other's feelings towards one another and didn't think too much of it:

Usually, Nevermore's library is rather quiet with no signs of life but not today. Today, the library had been filled with dozens of students trying to cram the entire biology syllabus in less than an hour.

Exam season was upon the students of Nevermore and they were all rest-less, including you and Ajax.

You both were near the end of the library, sitting across from one another as you both were helping each other revise for your upcoming exam. Yet, none of you could get anything done since there were far too many distractions for the both of you.

'Right so, what are the adaptations of a Dionaea muscipula plant?' you asked Ajax looking up from your deck of flashcards that were strewn all over your textbook.

Ajax remained quiet as he tried to think of his answer to your question while you began to scan your textbook again, re-reading all the material in it.

After a while, you turned to Ajax, again, wanting to ask him the question again but were immediately stopped by Ajax, who cursed and shouted: 'Y/N, close your eyes!'

You quickly shut your eyes tight and for good measure, covered them both with your hands. You really didn't want to turn into stone merely hours before your final exam.

Once the gorgon informed you that it was safe to open to your eyes, you slowly obliged. You saw that he looked rather embarrassed as he had his face covered with both of his hands. 'Sorry. I'm really sorry about that, I don't know what's happening to my snakes right now. Usually, they behave quite well,' he apologised.

You shook your head and reassured him that it wasn't his fault that his snakes attempted to stone you. You didn't think too much of this interaction but little did you know that the reason for this was due to the gorgon's major crush on you.

The second time Ajax's snakes attempted to touch you was during Outreach Day at Uriah's Heep. You both had gotten that shop for volunteering and you were very glad to have been there with a friend:

Outreach Day was probably one of your least favourite days of the school year. Yes, you were going out to Jericho and finally having a change of scenery but the entire concept of volunteering was tedious to you — why were you working at a place when you weren't going to be paid?

However, it wasn't all doom and gloom since your best friend Ajax was volunteering there too!

Most of your time spent at that creepy shack involved you both just quizzically staring at the rows of shelves that were filled with the ( nicely dressed ) roadkill or with cleaning out all the dusty old shelves.

Every now and then, you both would crack jokes but would get immediately shushed by the only clerk present in the store.

While you cleaned out a shelf that was right at the back of the store, you were interrupted Ajax standing a little too close to you as he watched you clean out the shelf.

‘Want some help here? I’m done with my side so—‘ Ajax stopped talking when he noticed that a few of snakes were roaming near your small figure.

All your movements stopped when you felt the weird feeling of scales on your head and neck. Your breath hitched. You were unsure of how to proceed; any wrong movement and you’d be a stone.

‘Ajax?’ You called out. 'Yeah? Sorry, give me a minute...' he said as he began to shove the snakes back into his beanie.

The rest of your day spent with him involved you countlessly reassuring him that the snakes were no big deal while he apologised to you endlessly.

Ajax was terrified of the idea of his snakes ever turning you to stone.

The third ( and last ) time his snakes escaped his beanie to affectionately touch you was during the Rave'N - it was a night you both won't ever forget:

The Rave'N was a rather lively and remarkable evening. It started out rather wonderful as well.

Ajax had come to pick you up at your dorm at around 7. He was already dressed in a white suit - he even had a beanie to match. You'd be lying if you said he didn't look attractive.

The entirety of your evening was spent with the both of you dancing to all the songs, drinking and eating.

As it started to near midnight, the songs started to get slower - perfect for ballroom dancing.

Even though your legs were sore and you felt like you could hardly stand but when Ajax asked you to dance with him one last time, how could you say no?

You both spent the last hours of the night in each other's arms. The entire world around you both was a blur and the only thing you could focus on was Ajax's arms around your body.

When the night ended and everyone was leaving; there were barely any people present except for a few other students and you both.

Ajax and you sat at one of the round tables, doing absolutely nothing - just sitting with one another, enjoying each other's company. It was a comfortable silence, to say the least.

The raspy yet comforting voice of Ajax calling out your name, snapped you out of your thoughts as you turned all your attention to him. You hummed in response, urging him to speak - you were too tired to say a single word.

'I...' he began, 'I had a great time here, with you.' You smiled upon hearing his words, 'me too.'

You both sat in silence again until Ajax began another conversation: 'hey, listen... I don't know how to properly say this but...' he trailed off, it was as if he was trying to form the right words in his mind. 'I really like you - I like you a lot, in fact,' he bluntly said.

Your eyes widened in shock; you couldn't believe your ears - your best friend and crush, Ajax had confessed to you. It was too surreal.

You were unaware of how to properly tell him that you harbored feelings for him as well. So, on impulse, you crashed your lips onto his.

Ajax was taken a back by your action but he kissed you back nonetheless. He'd been wanting to do that for so long.

His hands cupped one of your cheeks while the other travelled down to your waist whereas both of your arms were wrapped around his neck.

Unfortunately, you both pulled apart once Ajax realised that his snakes had escaped, again. He frantically apologised to you on behalf of his snakes while you chuckled.

Atleast now the snakes would attempt to escape a little less.

#wednesday #wednesday x reader #wednesday imagines #wednesday addams #wednesday series #ajax x y/n #ajax x you #ajax imagines #ajax x reader #ajax petropolus #ajax petropolus imagines #ajax petropolus x reader

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thestarstoasun · 6 months

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Because the next part of this isn't where I want it to be yet due to packing and schooling, I'm going to post some (more) of my headcanons!

• The Hermes cabin treats all unclaimed demigods as their own siblings even after they get claimed (depending on how fast they get claimed).

• The year-round demigods are closer with each other, but during summer they tend to spend more time with the other campers more. The bonds they have are a bit obvious though.

• Travis and Connor Stoll have a running prank of convincing all new demigods that they're twins (at least until Travis leaves.)

• During Nico's brief stay at camp in The Titan's Curse, he made friends with the Stolls and a few other campers. (Canonically he met Will, but I did hc they met before it was confirmed.)

• The Ares campers are the best at every weapon, except bows. Some Apollo kids (Michael Yew included) take full advantage of bringing this up. When Sherman Yang brought up Will's less than proficient bow skills, Clarisse had Sherman apologize.

• Chiron teaches the year-rounders using Ancient Greek textbooks + books and myths, so they can understand the material easier.

• When Jason shows up, some people have to pay up because there were bets made on which of the Big 3 would have another secret demigod, when Hazel came more drachmas were exchanged to the Apollo cabin. (Drew: "How the Hades did you guess Hades would have another secret child!?" Will: "I mean, technically, it was Pluto?")

• After Beckendorf's death, the Hephaestus cabin seemed to dull until Leo showed up. He reminded them a lot of Beckendorf and yet was so different (starting with height).

• The Demeter kids hate the winter months and prefer spring and summer.

#i fear ive fallen in a rabbit hole #all i think about is the background characters of camp half blood #its a bit of a problem #will solace #michael yew #percy jackon and the olympians #apollo cabin #nico di angelo #pjo #drew tanaka #jason grace #charles beckendorf #leo valdez #travis stoll #connor stoll #clarisse la rue #sherman yang #heroes of olympus

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justinspoliticalcorner · 4 months

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Erum Salam at The Guardian:

The wave of book bans sweeping the US, typically reserved for works of fiction deemed controversial, has hit textbooks used in public schools, marking the next step in Republicans’ war on education. The board of trustees for the Cypress Fairbanks independent school district in Houston voted 6-1 earlier this month to redact certain chapters in science textbooks, including those about vaccines, human growth, diversity and climate change. The motion to remove the chapters was made by the board’s vice-president, Natalie Blasingame, and almost unanimously supported. Blasingame, who has served on the board since 2021, did not give a specific explanation for the decision, but said the subjects go beyond what the state requires to teach and creates “a perception that humans are bad”. Last year, the Republican-controlled state board approved textbooks for the schools’ science curriculums, rejecting several books on climate, so the local school district’s censorship of these textbooks is even more restrictive.

Education experts say the move could have far-reaching consequences, prompting similar decisions to omit information in other subjects, and by public school districts across the country. The board’s decision drew the ire of local parents and education groups. Bryan Henry, a local parent and founder of the non-partisan group Cypress Families for Public Schools, said he was concerned about the precedent this decision sets. “Will trustees at the local school board level be able to just delete chapters about civil rights because they just mentioned the history of same-sex marriage?” Henry, 37, said. “It’s really kind of alarming what this could mean for ideological influence and control over what is taught in schools.” Henry describes Cypress, a sprawling suburb of Houston with a population of nearly 200,000, as an increasingly diverse community with a loud minority of political extremists.

“A lot of Republicans in the Cy-Fair area, who are very conservative but are pro-public education, are having to now grapple with the fact that [the] governor, state representatives – they’re really not pro-public education,” he said. “And so people are struggling with how to reconcile that, because they don’t want to vote for Democrats.” Henry added this “level of oversight, micromanagement and interference” was “scary.” The Texas Freedom to Read Project, an organization that fights book bans, swiftly condemned the decision. “To ban entire chapters of textbooks and withhold that information from students is not only unconstitutional, but it is taking away their access to real-life ideas that exist in this world,” said Laney Hawes, co-founder of the group. “Access to a diverse and wide range of information is what prepares students to navigate this world successfully. When we ban books and limit students’ ability to access ideas, we are closing doors to their futures.”

[...] PEN America found 3,362 instances of individual books banned in public K–12 schools for the 2022-23 academic year – a 33% increase from last year, with Florida and Texas leading the way. These books mostly include novels with themes of race or sexuality, not core academic material.

Meehan said the censorships of textbooks is “a further escalation of this movement”. “Texas is no stranger to book bans or censoring other educational content areas or materials. The idea that we’re redacting chapters from state-approved textbooks is almost unheard of. It’s so outlandish,” Meehan said. Book bans have become a core element of platforms of well funded far-right politicians, who have tried to win a larger presence on school boards across the US. “I’m almost worried about a concerning trend where far-right Republican candidates are replacing moderate Republicans on school boards, not because citizens believe they are better suited for the job, but because rightwing billionaires and Pacs [political action committees] are starting to pour money into these local elections,” said David DeMatthews, an education professor at the University of Texas at Austin, who previously worked as a public school teacher and district administrator.

Public school textbooks are the next battleground item in the right-wing’s dangerous and censorious book-banning crusade in schools.

#Textbooks #Censorship #Book Banning #Schools #School Boards #Education #Texas Textbooks #Texas #Public Schools

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sugatrapp · 5 months

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「 O b s i d i a n 」

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Part I

Pairings: Severus Snape x Gender Neutral Reader

Summary: Professor Greeves’s infatuation with the potions master reaches a breaking point when he begins spending more time with his assistant.

Warnings: Lovesick reader ~ Jealousy ~ Angst ~ Use of “they” pronouns ~ Non-specified gender of reader

A/N: The last name Greeves is given but reader is otherwise not described.

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Masterlist

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Fridays in Advanced Phylactery Making held a special place in Professor Greeves’s heart. Watching awe light up their students’ eyes after separating the metal from their molds never failed to light a fire of pride in them. The hollow pieces were dim and bare bones, but it was a steppingstone to material that would prove useful beyond their studies.

Sanding was next. Each student was equipped with sheets of wet sandpaper as they hunched over their tables and ran them over their soon to be amulets. Greeves had to correct a few eager ones well on the way to sanding a hole in the frames. It was understandable; they’ve been waiting since fifth year to start crafting. Two whole years of learning theory and writing papers on proper amulet usage left plenty of time to weed out bad apples and encourage those with a genuine interest. Much to their surprise, only two students dropped the course while leaving a majority of thirteen.

They couldn’t ask for better students. It was every professor’s dream to have an engaged, well-behaved class every day. They were the talk around the staff room, including from the potions master. One Monday evening while both professors were heading off to dinner in the Great Hall, he expressed his disbelief after hearing of their students’ accomplishments and quick comprehension.

“Some of the seventh years can hardly brew a Wiggenweld potion, let alone craft a talisman,” he grumbled.

It was a normal day in the Hall. The students talked among themselves while forking down their meals. Greeves noticed a little too late that the only available seats were at his usual end of the table. They struggled to contain the warmth rushing through their face and their trembling hands. Talking with the reclusive dungeon bat was rare in and of itself, but sitting near him during mealtimes was unheard of for them. Even in the three years they’d been at Hogwarts, the opportunity had presented itself only one other time, much less desired back then.

Now, as they piled food onto their plate while continuing to speak about their classes, Greeves was aware of their lingering gaze. It wouldn’t surprise them if he could see the hearts shining in their eyes. His deep drawl caressed their soul with feather light fingers, leaving it a purring mess. His obsidian pools drew Greeves in further into their depths each time their eyes met. They seared their skin when they weren’t looking. And his hair, sleek and majestic, aroused the urge to run their fingers through it.

To say they were smitten was an understatement.

His perfect lips were saying something, yet no words reached their ears.

They wiped the serene smile stretching across their face, attention planted firmly back in the present. Hopefully they weren’t as obvious as they were back then. After a few laps around the rows of tables, the clock hanging above the door signaled the end of class and the end of the school week.

“Great work today everyone. Please bring your projects to my desk and don’t forget to clean your workstations,” they looked pointedly at the student notorious for leaving her area in a whirlwind. She blushed before sweeping her metal shavings into a bin. The rest scrambled to collect their things and turn in their work.

“Next week we will learn how to infuse them with magic, so make sure to begin reading the section in your textbooks,” they called to their retreating forms.

Excited chatter settled over the group, continuing down the hall. While they pondered their plans for the weekend, Greeves had their own to attend to. They opened their bottom desk drawer, retrieving a small drawstring bag. They turned it over in their hand then stowed it away in their pocket with a deep breath. Very big plans indeed.

An embarrassing bounce plagued their steps on their way to the Great Hall. Their stomach growled angrily at their insolence, empty since the lackluster biscuit and jam breakfast they had. They couldn’t entirely blame waking up later than usual. No, the nerves from haunting thoughts of a certain dark-haired man are partially to blame.

Before he grew to tolerate them, Severus hadn’t made it easy to get close to him. Asking him a simple question about his day seemed like a crime. Greeves could admit they didn’t trust others easily either, but there came a time when they had to realize not everyone had bad intentions. They didn’t know why he was so cautious. All they knew was they wanted him to take a chance on them.

The usual cacophony of chatter greeted them as they entered the Great Hall. A couple of students waved at them while they walked down the aisle, which they reciprocated with a smile. It eased their mind slightly from the task at hand.

It’s not a big deal, they thought, just say you want to talk to him about something privately. But would that be too forward? Too weird? Would he want to talk to me at all? They were so lost in their head that they didn’t realize the seat beside him was already occupied. They almost choked on their next breath. There she was, Clara—his newly appointed potions assistant—munching away on grapes while talking to him. Her animated manner of speaking was hard to ignore. Some days it was infectious to a degree.

Today was not one of those days.

When Clara first joined the Hogwarts staff, Greeves didn’t mind her jovial company. It made grading and trips to Hogsmeade more interesting. The stories she told of her muggle life in America fueled their desire to visit it one day. She made an honest effort to get to know each of her colleagues. Though not everyone appreciated her chipper attitude. Severus scoffed at any mention of her. He gave her the treatment he gave every newcomer: one-word answers and avoidance like they were diseased ridden. Clara didn’t heed their warnings about his standoffishness, pacing furiously in their classroom one day with a frown that didn’t fit her face.

“I mean, he didn’t even let me finish what I was saying!”

Greeves recalled similarly their time as a newbie. They didn’t fully accept him brushing them off either, but they learned when not to push him too hard. Clara, not so much.

“Don’t be too upset,” they patted her shoulder before going back to putting up supplies. “He’s like that with everyone.”

“But I want us to be civil at least. He won’t even give me the time of day!”

Greeves smirked, vaguely remembering having the same conversation with Professor McGonagall.

“He’ll come around eventually. Just don’t bombard him so soon, okay? Ease into it.”

She paused her frantic movements to ponder their words then nodded, a determined expression replacing her frown.

“Okay. Thanks, Professor.”

They wouldn’t have bothered if they knew it would lead to that. Their heart pounded against their chest harder the closer they get to the head table. He didn’t look annoyed or even mildly disinterested. He was actually engaging with her. They rounded the table, pausing to address them.

“Hello Clara,” it came out more strained than they intended. “Professor.”

Greeves barely paid attention to her cheery response and focused their attention on him instead. He glanced over for a second and gave a polite nod.

Ouch. It felt like their every move was being ridiculed and scrutinized as they took the available seat next to Professor McGonagall further down the table. They greeted the older woman and made a bit of small talk between bites of pasta. They went into autopilot mode. They didn’t fully comprehend what they or Minerva were discussing. All they could linger on was the fact that Clara had waltzed in and wormed her way into Severus’s good graces much faster than them. Much faster than they had heard from the other professors.

A sudden giggle reached their ears, startling them from their trance. They looked in that direction, regretting it immediately. Clara was cackling at something he said. But what really left their heart heavy was the expression on his face. His fine lines were smoothed out, the corner of his lips raised in a half smile, and a glint in his eyes that reminded them of stars on a moonless night. They never saw him look so…placid.

Greeves sighed, long and defeated. They turned back to their plate where they’d been pushing and prodding at their food. Maybe it wouldn’t be such a good idea to talk to him after all.

“Are you alright, dear?” Minerva interrupted their spiraling thoughts.

They blinked, quickly forcing a smile when the question registered.

“Of course, Professor. Just thinking about the assignments I have left to grade.”

They took another bite of food to sell the lie though grimaced afterwards. It had gone cold. Minerva took one look over her shoulder at what they had been transfixed on before a knowing smirk tugged on her lips.

“This wouldn’t happen to have anything to do with a certain professor, would it?”

“No-No, not at all!”

Even they didn’t believe the lie. Their half-hearted denial fell on deaf ears.

“You should tell him how you feel.”

“And if he doesn’t feel the same?”

She placed a warm hand on their shoulder. “Then you’ll know, and you won’t be tormented by constant what-ifs.”

They were still unsure, yet groups of students heading for the exit let them know they didn’t have long to decide. From the corner of their eye, they saw Severus taking his leave, his cloak billowing behind him. Clara was nowhere to be seen.

Perhaps Minerva was right. It made sense for them to get along. It would be counterproductive if they despised one another while working together so closely. Or maybe Greeves was setting themselves up for heartbreak. Maybe they were closer than typical colleagues. Either way, they knew they had to do something.

They had to know for sure.

They thanked Minerva for the advice before heading off to their chambers to freshen up.

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Unfortunately for them, patrol duty didn’t wait or care about their prior plans.

The halls were calm apart from the stragglers they caught sneaking around with firecrackers. It was even worse since they now had to serve them with a lengthy detention sentence on Monday. After escorting them back to their respective common rooms, they realized they weren’t far from the potions’ classroom. Past curfew or not, Greeves could count on Severus doing some late-night grading or reading. They figured a slight deviation wouldn’t hurt.

They fished the drawstring pouch from their pocket, a faint blue glow emanating from it in the dim lighting. On they walked toward the dungeons, feeling the gradual shift of temperature to a biting chill. They gave themselves a pep talk the entire way that did nothing to slow their doubts.

The door came into view, left cracked open which he only did when he expected them to drop by. Did he notice their not-so-subtle staring at dinner? Had he been aware of their affection for him the whole time?

They bit their lip as they approached the door, raising their fist to knock when a voice that wasn’t his slashed their resolve.

“It’s refreshing to know someone who’s into the same things as I am. You wouldn’t believe how much I was teased for being a teacher’s pet.”

Clara, Greeves frowned. What was she doing here? They willed their heart to quiet for fear of anyone hearing, leaning closer to hear his response.

“It’s nothing against you personally. Others only fear and envy what they don’t understand.”

“Sounds like you’re speaking from experience.”

“My early days were no walk in the park either, but you can’t dwell on the past lest you prove them right. You have a brilliant mind and potions are a viable medium, personal bias aside of course.”

“That means a lot, Severus.”

Heels clicked further away before a pin drop silence settled in. With feathered steps, they inched the door open enough to see what was happening. The moment their eyes focused, they gasped and covered their mouth with both hands. The pouch hit the ground with a muffled clack. They…

A hellscape realized was the only thing close to describing the scene. Their blurry forms pulled away from each other as they questioned the noise, one of them starting towards Greeves. They forced their legs to work, casting the disillusionment spell then taking off running. Patrol forgotten, they didn’t stop until they reached their chambers. Only when the door was closed and securely locked behind them did they allow the building sob to escape. They slid down the doors length until they were on the floor, hiding their face behind their knees.

At least they finally got an answer.

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ros3ybabe · 1 year

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Current Japanese Study Routine + Resources 🎀

As you all may know, I am currently self studying Japanese and Spanish, though I am putting Spanish on the back burner for now so I can focus more on Japanese as that is where my passion lies at the moment. Lucky for me, there is a Japanese language and culture club on my university campus that I am (hopefully) going to join next week or the week after, given how busy my schedule ends up being. I thought I’d make a little post about my current routine that I use to study and what resources I am currently using and am planning on purchasing to use in order to build my proficiency in this beautiful language!

Current Resources 🩷

Apps - I am currently playing around with several apps to see which ones work for me, so here is all the apps I currently have downloaded to my iPad/phone

Duolingo - this has been a go to for all language I’ve ever tried to learn, it’s useful for me as a basic introduction to vocabulary, sentence structure, some grammar, and I just like how it involves typing, speaking, listening, and reading.

Drops - this one is just a fun little 5 minutes gamified way to learn vocabulary for me, it’s definitely a go to on my lazier language learning days

Bunpo - I like this for learning the kana but I didn’t realize it costs money to use fully so I am debating purchasing a subscription to the paid version

Write Japanese - this one I’m using to learn the correct stroke order for the kana and I like it for the most part

Renshuu - I just signed in to use this one last night and it looks interesting. I’ve seen it recommended by several blogs and even when google searching language learning and watching YouTube videos so I’m excited to try it out!

NHK for School - I saw someone recommend this on their blog and I remember using the website version in the past so I know this will be helpful when it comes to reading

Jisho - this is a dictionary app that I’ve seen recommended on so many platforms and I’m always open to a good dictionary!

Japanese - this one was recommended on a blog post and it allows you to add vocabulary and interesting phrases so I thought it’d be useful once I start on learning sentence structure and grammar

Italki - this one is the one I’m most excited to use. It connects you to people who speak and teach your target language for a set timed lesson, and it does cost money but you pay by lesson, not on a subscription basis. So if you do one lesson the first week and then another lesson in three weeks or something, you only pay for those two lessons. I’m really looking forward to trying this one out in the future once I get more comfortable with speaking.

Anki - a flash card app I am using to currently learn hiragana and will soon use for katakana and eventually kanji and phrases. I was gonna use Quizlet but I ended up liking this one better for my current needs.

LingoDeer, Memrise, Babbel, HiNative, HelloTalk, Hey Japan, Busuu, Kanji, Kana, Sensei - apps that I have and have not tried yet. I really like the ones I’ve already tried so I’m not sure if I’m going to use these ones soon but if I get bored of current apps than I at least have alternatives to turn to to continue learning

Textbooks/Workbooks/Materials - I currently own two workbooks but will include the resource I am planning on buying, as well as any stationery material I am also using!

Japanese for Busy People I - This was the workbook we had for the Japanese class I took at my university while in high school. My dad ended up buying it for me if I promised not to take Japanese classes once I went to college. (My parents don’t believe it is useful to know and they are helping pay for my education so I didn’t have a choice.) I haven’t started reusing it yet but once I am comfortable with the kana then I will resume using it.

Let’s Learn Katakana - this is a katakana writing book my older brother bought for me (he is supportive of everything I have an interest in even if he doesn’t understand it himself) and it is really useful for learning and practicing writing katakana. However I am still focusing on relearning hiragana so I will return to this workbook after I solidify my hiragana knowledge.

Genki I and Genki II textbook/workbook + answer key bundle - I am planning to buy this off of Amazon as I have heard from most people who are learning Japanese on their own that this set is really useful for self studying so of course I am going to invest in it once I get paid next week.

I am also looking for a hiragana, katakana, and kanji writing workbook to practice those skills.

Free Online Resources -

YouTube!

Anime!

Music

Manga

Anything free I can find online when google searching resources

Stationary Supplies -

Kokuyo Campus Smart Ring Binder in pink

Tombow Fudenosuke Brush Pens in black

Index cards

Pilot g-2 fashion pens

Zebra mild liner highlighter/markers

Papermate Mechanical Pencils

Mini notebook to carry around for vocabulary

My iPad + Apple Pencil + Goodnotes 5

My Chromebook

A lot of resources but I am trying to stick with this for the long term. A few years ago, I self studied Japanese everyday for about 2 years and gained a good understanding but fell off from studying Japanese when I went to university.

My Current Study Routine* 🎀

*when I have more than 30 minutes to study, if I only have 30 minutes or less I just mess around on my language apps

I currently do not use any workbooks or textbooks as I am trying to re familiarize myself with the language. Here’s my current study routine!

Practice Anki flashcards 3 times or until I get 85-90% correct

Practice hiragana writing in Write Japanese app (~10min)

Duolingo lessons for 10 minutes

1 Japanese language Drops lesson

Use Renshuu until I get bored (~10-15min)

Watch an episode of anime as a reward (Japanese audio with English subtitles)

I will switch this up to a more structured way of studying once I start using my textbooks and workbooks, but for now this relaxed style of learning is working for me time wise and attention wise (ADHD brain right here).

I also listen to Japanese music throughout the day and try to recall hiragana characters correctly in my head when I have the time. I also sneak in some practice when at work on my apps and whatnot. I mentioned in my last daily check in some of my favorite Japanese artists, and I also love Japanese versions of K-pop songs too! I’m currently watching Bungou Stray Dogs on crunchyroll right now, and I’m open to any recommendations for what to watch next!

If anyone has any language learning tips or resources they’d want to share, feel free to comment! It would be greatly appreciated!

Til next time my lovelies 🩷🤍

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thekiltongrammarwriter · 9 days

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What can I do, so you feel it too?? |Sneak Peek

Pippa fitz Amobi x fem reader

tags include angst, longing, best friends to lovers, uncomfortable conversations, teenage yearning at it’s all high time high, Cara ward being pip’s wingwoman and ultimate match maker, pip’s nervous rambling, love confessions, some spicy 18+ thoughts hidden amongst the heart eyes. Bit of possessive pip if you squint. For my lovely anons who have been needing some pippa cuddles. This should be out quite soon! But enjoy this sample first! 🥰 (NOT EDITED)

Pip's hollowed blues strayed from her chemistry textbook, blue glazed eyes trailing subconsciously to your side of the room, where you sat straight, eyes protected by a pair of wide set chemist goggles that hid your perfect coloured hues. Pip almost wished she could have rushed over and pulled the goggles off, just to see the wide patterns of colours and constellations that she had only noticed yesterday upon your walk home together.

It kept replaying in her mind, the image of you in your kilton grammar skirt that was no where near sexy but somehow lately had made Pip's cheeks red just eying the small amount of thigh that peeked out from the breathable material, making her feel like a teenage boy vying for any patch of skin she could set her eyes upon. The feel of your fingers laced with her own as you both walked the cobble stone streets, the wide charming smirk and cotton eyes that made Pip's mind spin. Cara once swore in jokingly manner that Pip’s eyes had dilated once at just the sight of your smiling eyes. Had poked and prodded till a red cheeked Pip had exploded and confessed her heart wrenching attraction to you to Cara.

She could not remember exactly when she began to fancy you, that was the rather comical and complex aspect. It was gradual, small things. Maybe it was perhaps the fact that you were an absolute sweetheart beyond belief, that you had a heart so full of love that you were always busy doing something for someone, "a servants heart" as quoted by cara. It was true, when an eight year old Pip had acquired measles you had somehow managed to sneak past her parents with her favourite Cadbury bars and had sat and read to her for hours. The adventures of sherlock holmes had never been greater than that day, watching you read animatedly. ruddy red cheeks and laughter.

One thing was for sure, Pip had it bad. At first she was confident it would go away, this feeling that seemed to kick and bite at her stomach when you were near, when she would catch the scent of your strawberry perfume, artificial but on you it made her head spin. when she would see your wide smile as you would spot her in the courtyard. But then all that infatuation had only proved to be volatile because no sooner where you making googly eyes at Mason Poldark. Mason Poldark with ridiculous kind eyes and side swept blonde hair. With his average marks and lower IQ. Pip had first found out after you had admitted to him kissing you in the school courtyard, Pip could still remember the feeling. The way her stomach had dropped and all she could see was the fact that you were blushing. With stars in your eyes.

It had taken all her strength to smile, to seem happy, because she should have been happy, because if anyone deserved love it was you. You, with your stupid good heart and sweet eyes. "I am sure you'll have many many happy years together" Pip had spewed out through trembling lips, lying about feeling ill and racing home on shaky trembling legs.

The tears didn't come as easily, Cara had came round with the emergency bag of crisps and Cadbury bars. "They wont last a week, I give it a full two weeks. Want to bet? Ill bet a full 5 quid y/n breaks it of with him by Friday, or they have a utter ridiculous falling out in the canteen like mason's last girlfriend, practically dumped him on the spot in the que".

"It was the way she was looking at him Cara…She was looking at him with those eyes. Those beautiful kind eyes…MY Eyes….they should be mine…I’ve looked into them long enough to know what colour they are…”

Cara upon eying Pip and her tear stained eyes had sighed, moving to lay her head on the small girl's shoulder. "this is why I told you to stop falling in love with your best friend. Why didn't you ask her out to the disco dance last year like I said!" she playfully pinched, "would have saved you a lot of worry".

"While I enjoy your theatrics you seem to forget just how much y/n is attached to you. I doubt she'll let some smelly boy ruin her relationship with you. Remember that one time you fell of that tree and broke your arm? Who got you to hospital? She did. Even drove faster than we all would have liked.Things will work out for themselves pip. It just takes time".

#agggtm #pippa fitz amobi #emma myers #emma myers x reader #pippa fitz amobi x fem reader #x reader

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doumadono · 1 year

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GRATULACJE Z OKAZJI 3K, ZASŁUŻYŁAŚ

I'd love to request: comforting you when you’re anxious with Bakugo and f reader, blurb nor headcanons, whatever you find more accurate

An explosive shoulder to lean on - Bakugo x Reader

Synopsis: in times of anxiety, Bakugo extends his unique form of comfort to soothe your worries A/N: thank you so much, my dear friend! Your support is truly priceless. I hope you'll delight in this brief blurb I've crafted ♥

MASTERLIST

One gloomy afternoon, as rain tapped against the windows, you found yourself hunched over your desk in a class, anxiety gnawing at your insides. The weight of upcoming exams and the pressure to excel in a world of heroes was suffocating. Your fingers tapped nervously on your textbook as you tried to focus on the material before you, silent tears streaming down your cheeks.

Suddenly, the door to the classroom swung open with a bang, and Bakugo stormed in, his expression a mix of irritation and frustration. Katsuki had to make a swift return to the school when he realized he had left his phone behind in the classroom. He had a fierce scowl on his face, the telltale sign that something was amiss. His crimson eyes narrowed as they scanned the room, and it was then that he spotted you, sitting at your desk with tear-streaked cheeks.

Bakugo's initial instinct was to scoff, to retreat from the unexpected vulnerability he had stumbled upon. But something held him back, a small flicker of empathy buried beneath his layers of brashness. He cleared his throat, drawing your attention, and his voice, surprisingly gentle, cut through the silence. "What the hell are you doing here, crying like an idiot?"

Panic surged through you, but his gaze held a peculiar softness that contradicted his words. He looked uncomfortable, as if grappling with an unfamiliar emotion. It was a side of him you had rarely seen.

Swallowing hard, you struggled to find your voice. "I-I'm just… having a tough time, I guess."

He snorted, his arms crossed over his chest. "Tch. That's no excuse to blubber like a damn baby."

For a moment, his harshness threatened to push you further into your shell. But then, to your surprise, he pulled out a chair and sat down next to you, his movements awkward and uncharacteristically unsure.

"Look," he began, his voice gruff but with an underlying gentleness. "I ain't good at this kind of crap, but if you're gonna sit here being all mopey, you might as well tell me what's eating at you."

You hesitated, the words caught in your throat. But the way he had defied his own nature to sit beside you, to offer even the slightest semblance of comfort, gave you the courage to open up. "I'm just… overwhelmed, Katsuki… It feels like I can never catch up, like no matter how hard I try, I'm always falling short. I'm scared of failing, of disappointing everyone – including myself."

"Listen, idiot," he grumbled, his words surprisingly gentle. "I get it. We're all dealing with our own crap, and sometimes it feels like the weight of the world is gonna crush us. But the only way to deal with it is to keep pushing forward, to keep fighting. So, stop crying and start kicking that anxiety's ass."

You couldn't help but chuckle at his blunt, yet oddly inspiring, pep talk. Bakugo was offering comfort in his own unique way, a blend of tough love and unwavering support. It wasn't a traditional display of kindness, but it was genuine and heartfelt in its own right.

The tears that had threatened to consume you began to recede, replaced by a newfound determination. With Bakugo by your side, even if he was more likely to explode than offer a hug, you felt a renewed sense of strength. You wiped your eyes, managing a small smile.

"Thanks, Kacchan. I needed that."

He grunted, his cheeks tinted with a faint blush that he tried to hide. "Yeah, yeah. Just don't make it a habit, got it?"

With that, he stood up abruptly, as if eager to escape the vulnerable moment he had created. But as he walked away, you couldn't help but feel a warm glow of gratitude. Katsuki Bakugo, the explosive hero-in-training, had shown you a side of himself that few ever witnessed – a side that, despite his rough edges, was capable of providing comfort in its own uniquely fiery way.

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eretzyisrael · 9 months

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by Bassam Tawil

According to the textbooks used in UNRWA schools, Jews have no rights whatsoever or any legitimate status in Israel. A Jewish presence in the country is denied historically, geographically and religiously. No reference is made in the books to the history of the Jews throughout the region, either in Biblical or Roman times. Any connection is also denied of the Jews to their ancient capital, Jerusalem, which is presented as an Arab city since its establishment thousands of years ago. The Jews' presence in Jerusalem today is bewilderingly presented in the books as an aggression against the city's Arab character.

Beyond the textbooks, both UNRWA administrators and teachers have proudly displayed their approval of terrorism and hatred on countless occasions, including Hamas's recent October 7 massacre, according to a report published by UN Watch, an independent non-governmental human rights organization, as well as IMPACT-se.

UNRWA math teacher Adnan Shteiwi, for instance, glorified Diaa Hamarsheh, the perpetrator of the March 2022 Bnei Brak shooting attack -- in which he murdered four Israeli civilians and one policeman -- as a "martyr" whose name should "forever remain in letters of fire, might, and magnificence."

UNRWA's Asma Middle School for Girls B encouraged schoolgirls to " liberate the homeland by sacrificing 'their Blood' and pursuing jihad."

Roni Krivoi, one of the Israeli hostages recently freed from Hamas captivity, reported that he had been kept prisoner in an attic for more than a month and a half, mostly starved and medically untreated. His jailer was an UNRWA teacher.

In Gaza -- as with Ahmad Kahalot, Director of the Kamal Adwan Hospital, who admitted that he was the equivalent of a brigadier general for Hamas and that 16 of the hospital's staff were also "terror operatives for Hamas" -- the mesh of Hamas and UNRWA is also illustrated in the high-profile case of Dr. Suhail al-Hindi.

Al-Hindi served as both the principal of an UNRWA elementary school and as the chairman of the UNRWA employee's union in Gaza. In 2017, UNRWA suspended al-Hindi after it received information that he had just been elected to the Hamas political bureau. UNRWA announced that al-Hindi no longer worked for the agency, but did not say whether he had resigned or been fired. Al-Hindi first said he "resigned" from UNRWA, but later clarified that he was taking early retirement.

The case of al-Hindi and other UNRWA employees suspected of supporting terrorism makes the point that UNRWA is "the money," while thug terror-groups such as Hamas are "the muscle."

UNRWA tries to keep up public pretense that its hands are clean, and has taken a belligerently defensive stance against these and other accusations, as it publicly claims that it has a "zero-tolerance policy for hatred."

The Israeli news site Ynet , however, wrote recently about a UN Watch report:

"In it, some 47 documented cases of school staff promoting antisemitic material are recorded, as school staff openly violates the official UNRWA policy... "It was only two years ago that UNRWA apologized for similar instances, claiming they were done erroneously and will not occur in the future, but with this latest report, that promise rings hollow."

One UNRWA employee portrayed Adolf Hitler in a favorable light: "Wake up Hitler, there are people left to burn."

#unrwa #united nations #terrorism #support for terrorism #hamas #gaza #unrwa schools

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projectadulthood · 2 years

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39 Best Websites to Find Free Textbooks, Research Papers, Study Guides, and Books

Whether you’ve just received a long list of textbooks you need for a specific uni class or are looking for a particular book/research paper for a high school project, books (and journal subscriptions) can be expensive.

The good news is that there are plenty of resources online where you can find free PDF versions of most written materials, starting with Atkinson & Hilgard’s Introduction to Psychology and ending with Shakespeare’s Macbeth.

Note that although some of the websites below provide access to copyright-free texts only, or texts that publishers/authors have agreed to share freely, others have been accused of internet privacy.

However, many people see open access practices as morally acceptable, especially considering the unsustainable prices of academic textbooks and papers.

To quote a recent paper on the topic:

"Since shadow libraries are a product of the cooperation between scholars, who contribute texts and other resources (such as donations, volunteer work, etc.), shadow libraries represent a ‘bottom-up’, radical approach to open access: a physical approximation of the Platonic ideal of knowledge sharing that would exist if there were no legal, economic, or institutional barriers to the circulation of scholarly knowledge."

Free Textbooks

Library Genesis

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The front page also features some of the most popular books at the time. When we viewed it, these included “Thinking Fast and Slow” by Daniel Kahneman, The Book Thief by Markus Zusak, and Harry Potter the Complete Collection by J. K. Rowling.

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Research Papers

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You can read old books without an account. However, for new books, you’ll need to set one up (it takes just a few minutes).

Internet Archive

Internet Archive is a digital library of ebooks. It also has free movies, music, and software.

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Project Gutenberg is a famous site where you can find lots of free books. There are more than 60,000 books in its collection.

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Many Books

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Librivox

Librivox has free audiobooks that you can listen to from any device.

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cloudy-caspirations · 2 months

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Hey cas!! I wanted to ask you how to make the most out of notions (cuz its kinda complex app) + how to make notes omg im struggling w this YELPP😭😭

Hi !! I started using notion last year to try and organize my school life and still haven’t completely figured it all out, so I get what you mean with it being a little confusing 😭. I’ve been mostly using it as a planner, but just started writing notes on it over this summer break and am kind of loving it. I’ll include screenshots and stuff under the cut, but if you need more specific details or a tutorial for a database or something feel free to send another ask or dm!

My Notion Setup ⬇️⬇️

(Sorry if the formatting for pictures is weird, I’m still trying to figure out how to use this app 😵‍💫)

For Planning:

Here is my notion dashboard! It’s a little barebones compared to others that I’ve seen on Pinterest, but it works for me because if I include anything else my ADHD brain will get overwhelmed and won’t keep up with actually using and updating it.

I have two databases: one being used as an assignment tracker that sorts my assignments into To-Do, Overdue, and Done sections based on dates and the other has pages for my classes for the semester. (I just realized that I forgot the change the heading from Spring 2024 to Fall 2024, so please don’t mind that 😭) Along with the databases I have a simple to do list for things that I need to get done that aren’t assignment related.

You could also add a calendar view to the assignment database if you prefer seeing it in that format, I just choose not to because I use Google Calendar to see it in relation to my other plans for the day.

I don’t use the class pages for much because I preferred writing my notes in either Goodnotes or a physical notebook last semester, but I’ll probably start using them more because I like using notion to keep track of all of my code snippets and stuff along those lines that are easier to type than write out. It was also pretty helpful last semester for creating drafts and outlines for essays.

For Note-taking:

Here are two examples of pages that could go in the classes database if you prefer to take notes digitally. I like to use databases to create pages to take notes in for each chapter/section of the textbook or material for the class.

My favorite way of viewing it is the board view because I like having my progress visualized (and clicking and dragging chapters to the “Done” section is satisfying), but the table view is also nice if you want to include more details such as quiz scores or dates.

Here are some photos of my notes for a single chapter. I use section headers to separate the actual notes from other stuff like chapter-specific exercises or links, and use toggle headers for sub-section notes to make it less cluttered. Other than the formatting it’s nothing too fancy, my typed notes are similar to how you would take notes in any other software like GoogleDocs or Word.

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Please grace us (me) with some P5R Maruki fluff. Please I'm begging on my hands and knees. I just want to give him little smooches. Maybe one where he's back in college? Meeting him in a Psychology class? Honestly go wild, your writing is amazing and I just want to see my man happy.

Not that Bad (Takuto Maruki x Reader)

𝗔/𝗡: 𝗼𝗺𝗴 𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗴𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗿𝘂𝗸𝗶 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲 𝘀𝗼 𝗰𝘂𝘁𝗲. 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗹𝗮𝘀𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗱𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗱𝗼𝗿𝗺 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝘂𝗱𝗱𝗹𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗻 𝗲𝘅𝗮𝗺 𝗵𝗲𝗳𝗯𝘄𝗵𝗳𝘂𝗲𝘄𝗯𝗳𝘂𝘂𝗾𝘄 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝘀𝗵𝗶𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗻 𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝘀𝗵𝗶𝘁

𝙒𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚? ⇒ 𝙈𝙖𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙡𝙞𝙨𝙩

𝙟𝙤𝙞𝙣 𝙢𝙮 𝙙𝙞𝙨𝙘𝙤𝙧𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙚𝙧?

𝙗𝙪𝙮 𝙢𝙚 𝙖 𝙘𝙤𝙛𝙛𝙚𝙚?

If someone were to tell you eight weeks ago that you’d still be a psychology major after almost dropping Aoki-sensei’s physiology and psychology 101 combined course, you swear you’d laugh in their face. You struggled so hard on the preliminary knowledge test during syllabus week of school, so you were more than convinced that this class and this major weren’t worth your time by the end of the third class. So convinced.

Yet here you are, sitting in a reserved library private room. Old pieces of homework, revised tests and quizzes, notebooks full of scribbled notes, and two of the required textbooks sprawled across the table. Just because there’s a pretty boy brunette with a pleasant laugh and friendly smile sitting with you- like he does twice a week- teaching you the material of a class he went through over a year ago. And somehow…he’s real. But how do you know this? Simple.

“That’s correct! Nice job!”

Your fingers just brushed against his as he handed you a piece of candy to reward you for all your hard work.

There’s a light smile on Takuto’s face. A warm look being reflected from his glasses. And a soft chuckle passing through his lips. It mirrors your own expression. Just a little bit. While his gaze is sweet, encouraging, and kind…yours hold an untapped amount of excitement. Growing and growing and growing with every single answer you’ve gotten right. But what can you say?

Pretty boys make the work worth your time.

“You’ve been doing really well this time,” He praises you once more. You can sense the small amount of relief dancing behind his words, but you don’t blame him or his worries. Not one bit. “All this time, you were so nervous about passing this exam. But I think you’ll be just fine with a little more studying, okay?”

You nod your head animatedly, trying to fight the smile that threatens to overtake your face. You have to remind yourself that there’s already a piece of candy in your mouth. His candy. Just a little piece from one of the many bags he likes to bring to his tutoring sessions with you. His excuse is that rewards work! Especially when you’re being rewarded with a favorite flavor or two. But your excuse for working so hard? Your excuse for putting in the hours of trying to pass your university’s biggest psychology weed-out class?

Well…let’s just say it has a lot to do with the good-natured senpai sitting right in front of you.

“Let’s keep practicing. I know you have a lot of this stuff down, but a little more review couldn’t help, right?” He prompts you with a choice- something he does often. Something that gives you no doubt in your mind that this is the right field for him. He’s always been good at doing little things like that for you. Sure, he’s told you that he’s not interested in being a teacher but it’s all those little psychology tips and tricks you know that he has spinning around in his brain that makes him such a good tutor. “You still have some more candy left~”

Including rewarding you with all your favorite sweets.

You chew the last bit of the snack in your mouth and swallow the rest down easily. He watches you in amusement as your eyes slip from his face to the notecards in his hands, to the bag of candy sitting in between the two of you. It’s almost finished- a sure sign of his and your combined success this session. But the thought of finishing the bag fills you with even more excitement. Because it shows him just how hard you’ve been working for him. Because it shows to you just how hard he’s been working to help you too.

“Ready, Takuto-san!” You say once your mouth is free from the delicious treat. “Ask away!”

It prompts him to give a short nod in acknowledgment as he shifts around his notecards for you to find a question that will really challenge you. In the meantime, you take the chance to look around and soak in these couple of seconds of downtime. A quick glance at a nearby clock tells you that it’s much later than you thought it would be. Another glance at the same clock tells you that he’s been tutoring you much longer than you asked him to. It’s too common of an occurrence at this point for it to surprise you. Though part of you still couldn’t help but feel bad that you’re taking up so much of his time. Maybe you should ask him to join you for dinner after this. He did say he knew a place nearby that sold one of your favorites…

“Found one!” He calls out, capturing your attention once more. You turn your head back to face him, and you brace yourself knowing that the only reason he took so long carefully searching for the right question was to ensure that he was really testing you on something you needed help with. And as much as you appreciate the help, you were hoping to be cut a little slack after having such a good session. But once you saw the expression on his face and the subtle way he had now maneuvered his arms to cover a large chunk of one of your last homework assignments, you knew you were in for a doozy. But then… “Ready?”

He gives you a kind smile.

The same smile he gave you when he first introduced himself to you as a friend of Aoki-sensei’s teaching assistant. The same smile as he worked around your defeatist attitude after you were still struggling to understand your own notes. And it’s the very same smile he gave you the first time you cried in front of him because you pulled an all-nighter a week after he started tutoring you just to end up failing your exam big time. But now, that smile is more than just something you see in your worst moments.

“Yep!” You tell him with the bravest look you can muster. “Ready.”

It’s a smile that you see in your best moments too…

“Explain what Glutamate, GABA, Dopamine, Serotonin, Acetylcholine, and Endorphins.”

…and this doesn’t seem like it's going to be one of them.

You toss up an eyebrow at the ridiculous question, knowing that he knows how often you mix up your neurotransmitters. But he just shakes his head and lets that easygoing smile of his grow a bit wider. And you want to frown at him. You do, you do, you do. You want to let the pout on your face grow and at that little sliver of annoyance at such a difficult question show because he’s literally just about to break your winning streak. But then you stop for a moment. And you sigh. And you close your eyes, and you try to remember a rhyme that the two of you came up with when you first started working on this topic.

It’s hard work. But you put all your effort into trying to remember and remember and remember while trying not to listen to the soft chuckles coming from his mouth at the sight of your focused expression. And yes, it’s hard. And yes, you’d rather be answering any other question right now. At least one that you didn’t have to put so much effort into recalling the answer. But deep down, you don’t think you truly would have it any other way. You know why? It’s simple.

It’s because pretty boys make the work worth your time.

“Well…I know Dopamine is related to pleasure…”

Always have. Always will.

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Dear Agony~ S.H Ft B.H & E.M

Author's Note : Heart is in the trash and I suggest you leave it to there

Anonymous asked:

So I have a kinda sadistic request you might enjoy 😊 The reader tells Steve that they like him, but he and Nancy had just started dating so he rejects them. Then they start dating Billy and things are going really well until Billy is eventually killed by the mindflayer. Then the reader meets Eddie when they're picking up the kids from hellfire. The reader starts to think they have a real shot at happiness after Billy died. Then Eddie dies. The reader goes AWOL for a bit, until Steve finally finds them. They're just so heartbroken wondering if they're the common factor here. They just don't understand why the people they love keep dying and why they can't ever just be happy. Steve ends up helping them recover, but the reader is hesitant about starting a relationship. Steve thinks its because he rejected them in the past, but they're actually scared he'll die too. Then a nice fluffy ending as compensation for all the hurt hearts out there.

Major Angst

You stare at in awe in him as he runs a hand through his hair. He was so beautiful, from his his lucious hair to those brown eyes to the way he carried himself. Though he always had the eyes for Nancy Wheeler. You'd watch with a longing look on your face as he walked with her to class, how he met up with her at her lockers making her shyly smile at him.

Who was he? Steve Harrington.

You were too busy into your own world thinking about it hearing how Tommy H snickered near you.

" He's never going to look at you the way he looks at her. Don't even think about it" he laughed hooking his arm around Carol as the two walked down the hallway.

You slammed the locker door shut, hearing the bell as you hurried off to class. The first class of the day you had was with Steve as he sat in front of you. He walked behind you as you entered the classroom going down the rows to your seat.

As you sat in your seat, you eyes met Steve's as he smiled over to you. All the girls fawned over him including yourself who can't stop from your heart feeling like it was going to burst out of your chest whenever he looked at you.

" Hi, Steve" you greeted him feeling the heat coming to your cheeks and put some pieces of your hair behind your ear.

" Hi, Y/N" he says as he sits down and turning his back to you. You opened your textbook to the material that the teacher has asked you. You hadn't paid attention to the material in front of you as you stared at the back of Steve's head, sighing happily to yourself.

He was a dream.

Steve turns in his chair as he whispers, " Do you have a pencil I can borrow?" He asks. Those brown eyes were filled with warm causing your insides to swoon as you gazed at him with your head supporting by your hand. Your eyes fluttered at him with a small giggle. Steve looked around the room hearing it as he shifted awkwardly in his seat.

You hadn't noticed as you offer your pencil to him that laid in between the pages of the textbook.

" Thanks" he says as he takes it from you, his hand brushing against yours as he turns back around. Steve didn't think that brushing his hand against yours was anything. He wasn't focused on the fact that you had the biggest crush on him. But every girl in the school did, yet his heart only swooned over Nancy.

She was his dream.

The bell rang and you hurried to grab your stuff in hopes to talking to Steve a bit more before he rushed out. You barely got a word in as he rushed out of the class room with his gym bag in his hands.

" Better luck next time, buttercup" Tommy teased, very aware of the crush you had on his friend. You scoffed as you brushed past him to get to your locker. Your heart sank seeing Nancy walking by with Steve by her side. You had hoped they were just a fling.

At least that's what you thought.

Your hands were sweaty as you knocked on Steve's door. His parents were out of town as usual leaving him alone in his big house. At least that's what you thought. The door flew opened and there he stood with his eyebrows knitted together in confusion.

" What are you doing here, Y/N?" He asks. In one of his classes, Steve needed to get his grade up in order to graduate on time. You had happened to be chosen by the teacher, being the best student in the class to tutor Steve Harrington.

" Uh, I think I left my notebook here last time? Did you find it?" you asked peaking over his shoulder seeing the backdoor porch opened and hearing people talking. " Are you having a party?" you asked.

Steve walked outside as he slowly closed the door, leaving a small gap opened as he turned to face with his arms across his chest.

" No, I didn't see your notebook anywhere Y/N" he says. He peers down at you taking in the way you averted your gaze from him. The way your voice sound shaky when you were talking to him. The way your hands were in fist by your side and shaking a bit, he squinted his eyes to make sure.

" You okay?" He asks. " You don't look well"

" Oh, uh" you started to say glancing at your shoes as you bounced back and forth on your feet. " Yeah, I need to talk to you about something" the words leaving your mouth leaves your heart frightened as you raise your head to look at him.

A piece of strand from his hair falls against his forehead, his brown eyes hold curiosity in them, he is wearing a dark long sleeve with dark jeans with sneakers on his feet.

He places a hand on your shoulder as he peers down at you, " Do you need me to take you home? I have my keys in my pocket" Steve says as he fishes them out to show you.

You shook your head.

" I-I.." the words you were about to tell him made your heart race like no tomorrow and your stomach tie in knots. " I'm sorry.. I.. just.." you swallowed the lump in your throat as you ruffled your hair a bit.

" Y/N, please tell me what this is about. You're starting to freak me out " he says.

" Oh..uh.. I like you Steve. I think you're a really great guy, you're always nice to me, you're amazing-" he cuts you off as he puts his hands up.

" Woah there, you like me? As in you want to be in the type of way?" you shake your head up and down, your eyes widen and feeling like your heart was ready to be thrown across the world if it could be done.

" Y/N, look. You're really great girl but I'm dating Nancy. You know Nancy Wheeler? The girl I have been hanging around in school and always with" you nod feeling the tears begging to run down your cheek.

" Yeah-h of course, I'm sorry" you step back as you shake your head. " I shouldn't of came here...I'm sorry" you apologized wiping away the tears that were spilling down your cheeks. Steve's gaze softens watching you back away from his house.

" Do you need a ride home? It's pretty late" Steve says as he motions around with his hands. You shake your head as you turn and ran off down the street.

Steve sighs to himself as he heads back inside, back to the backyard where Nancy had asked him if everything was okay. He sent her a smile, brought her close to his chest as he kissed her.

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

Since being rejected by Steve, you had carried on holding your head up high as you walk through the halls passing him with his arms around Nancy. He has casted you a couple of smiles and would look at you from time to time but you had brushed him off.

You had moved your seat to the other side of the room telling the teacher that you had trouble seeing.

Steve sinks in his seat as he looks over at you being more attentive in class and rather than being swoon by over him. In the back of his mind, he missed the feeling of your eyes on him.

You hadn't really paid attention to any guys anymore through the school year until a loud Camaro had parked in front of the school.

He stepped out of the car dressed in denim as he looked around the parking lot. Carol, Tina and another girl gasped at the sight of him.

" Who is that?" the stranger's eyes met yours as he smirks, he turns around to walk down the pass and your eyes happen to fall on his ass. The way his ass looked into those pants was something else.

You had learned the strangers name, Billy Hargrove. He was from California, hence the California license plate on his car. He was total flirt, all the girl wanted him and all the guys wanted to be him.

He was a pretty boy.

Billy stand by his Camaro as he waits for his step sister Max, with a cigarette in his mouth. You had happened to walk by with your massager bag on your shoulder making your way to your car. His eyes roam your legs to the skirt you were wearing to the Iron Maiden shirt you had chosen to wear today.

You looked cute.

" Hey L/N" he called out to you. Billy has learned your name as you two shared classes together and he heard a few things about you around. You stopped in your tracks as you eyed him.

" What, Hargrove?" He smirks as he slide off the hood of his car and made his way over to you. " Mind if I walk you to your car?" He reaches out to tug at the messenger bag on your shoulder and you let him. He slides it onto his shoulder as he turns to walk further, turning back to see your still standing at the same spot.

" Why are you still standing there? Don't you need to get home?" you were surprised that Billy was nice to you. Nice enough to walk to you to your car. What game was he playing?

" What game are you playing here?" you asked him as you followed him, he walked with you side by side until you two reached your car. He drops off your bag on the hood of your car.

" No game, princess" he says.

" Last time I heard you were chasing after Stephanie or whatever her name is" you motion your head towards the school. He smirks as he leans against the hood of your car. " Jealous are we?" He asks.

" Jealous of what? Pomp pomps and a cheerleader uniform? Yeah, right" you chuckled. You took your bag off the hood of the car as you threw it inside.

" You're really cute when you're like this, princess" you rolled your eyes. " Are we done here, Hargrove? Looks like Max is the one waiting for you" He turns his head seeing his step sister Max waiting by the car for him holding her skateboard. He hears the roar of your engine and turns back around hoping to ask you out.

But you back up from the parking lot to speed off. Billy stormed to his car, " Not a word shit bird" he says as he gets in the driver side.

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

Billy's eyes are set on you as soon as he walks through the party with Tommy by his side. He watches you holding a drink in your hands as you danced on top of the table, laughing and having a good time.

" Buttercup has changed" Tommy says as he watches you. Billy looks over to Tommy in confusion.

" What does that?" Tommy laughs as he pats Billy's shoulder.

" She got rejected by Steve awhile go, he's all about one princess while Y/N pranced around him hoping she'd change his mind"

" Harrington, rejected her? What a dumbass" Billy says. " His loss" he walks through the crowd as he nears you. Your eyes lock with his blue once.

" You look like you're having the time of your life up there, princess" you hopped off the table as you down your drink. " Didn't think you were the party girl?" he says.

" You don't know anything about me, Hargrove. I need another drink" you throw your cup that you had in your hand, away and over your shoulder. Not caring where it lands as you pass through people to get to the kitchen where the punch bowl was.

Billy has followed you to the kitchen, standing near you as he watches you pour yourself another drink. He doesn't bother to notice a girl has walked over to him and wrapped her arms around his waist.

His eyes are set on you and he leans down to whisper in your ear, " How about I show you how it's really done? Hm?" he says as he takes your wrist in his hands and takes you outside. There was a keg there.

" Oh you're planning to be the new keg king?"He smirks.

" Just watch, baby" he says. The word baby sends shiver down your spin as you watch him, a crowd forms around him with Tommy by his side. You clap and shout as he does the keg stand with Tommy holding his legs.

Billy stands back up as he has done, he has became the new keg king. His chest glistens with beer as he takes the cigarette from Tommy, his other arm wraps around you as you two walk back into the house.

" We have a new keg king, Harrington" Tommy says. Steve takes off his glasses with Nancy by his side as he eyes Billy then his gaze drops to you. " and a new princess, too" Billy says, slight smirk.

Steve's jaw is clenched as he looks between the two of you. You roll your eyes as Steve follows Nancy as she walks off. You scoff at the sight of them.

" Are you impressed?" Billy asks. You turn to look up at him as he's already looking down at you. " Maybe, maybe not" you teased as you slip out from under his arm, you sent him a wink as he watches you disappear into the crowd.

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

Billy and you have grown closer together as the days go by. He shows up to your house one day unannounced with tears in his eyes. But that's not what catches your attention. It's the bruise on his face, his busted lip and the way he winced when he collapsed into your arms.

That night, he told you about his mother leaving him with his father. His father remarried, bringing in Billy's step sister and worse of all, his father was abusive towards Billy.

" You're safe here" you held him in your arms that night. Billy held onto you like his life depended on it. You had became the person he trusted most, his heart filling up with warmth at your touch, the way you looked at him, the way you made sure he had a home cooked meal and took some home to Max.

That was the day that Billy knew that he was in love with you.

You hadn't known about the monsters that were coming into Hawkins until a frantic Dustin Henderson bumped into you one day. His mother had you babysit him a few times, Dustin had learned to trust you and had told you to sit down. You were sprang on with finding out what happened to Will, there was a girl with super powers, there were monsters in Hawkins like the Demogorgan.

Steve and you came face to face again, you were brought it with Robin who gladly accepted you with a hug.

You became part of the gang.

The worst came to worse when Billy had climbed into your bedroom window with a distant look on his face. His eyes were cold and empty as he stared back at you.

" Billy" you started to say. You weren't staring back at the man you thought you knew and fell for. This wasn't the man you knew.

" Billy's not here at the moment" it spoke to you. His eyes were glistering with tears as he took a step towards you. " Who are you? What do you want?" you stood your ground with your hands in fists by your side.

" We want to build" He took another step towards you, he was leaning over you. Your hand reached out to touch his cheek. A flash of familiarity shows in his eyes as he leans into your touch. He turns his head away as if your touch burns him.

" ..I don't wanna hurt you.." he spoke, it felt like it was your Billy standing before you fighting for his life. With whatever was inside of him. Your hands reached out brushing up his chest, he closes at the feeling of your touch as his mind is fighting with the Mind Flyer.

" ..It makes me do things.." he softly says as he slowly turns his head. His eyes are glossy with tears as he looks fearful. " What kind of things?"

Billy shakes his head, " I didn't mean it.." he whimpers as his tears run down his cheeks. " B, what's going on?" he shakes his head as he steps away. He doesn't want it to hurt you.

" I have to stay away from you" He shakes his head with his fist clenched to his side. " Billy" you call out to him reaching with your hand out to grasp his hand in yours.

" No" he shakes his head, " I won't let it hurt you, princess.."

Your own tears ran down your cheeks as you watch him move away and push you away. You want to help him.

" Let me help" your voice breaks through your tears as you take a step towards him.

" Get away from me!" he shouts, raising his voice. Not something your used to. He never does, he doesn't like to do it around you and doesn't want to scare you off.

" I love you, Y/N. You can't help me" he says. He is afraid he will never get the chance to tell you them, he wants you to know that you made him feel safe. You made him feel wanted and loved. He wanted you to know he loves you. He really does.

You can see it in his eyes. He's protecting you from the thing that's inside of him. He's fighting for his life.

" I love you too, Billy Hargrove" and at those word there is that look in his eyes, the empty lingering look as it chuckles at you.

" Pathetic" it says as he scrambled out of your window and landed on the ground. He doesn't look up at you as he leaves.

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

You don't get to see Billy until you watch him drop down Eleven down. He kneels down before her as he says something to her. Then you hear it as your eyes shoot up at the ceiling of Starcourt Mall, it's big. It crashes through the ceiling as you hold back Max, making sure she's okay while your eyes linger onto Billy.

He's kneeling down above Eleven as she puts her hand on his cheeks and he pauses there for a moment. You can't tell what's going on but your eyes are wide as you look at the Monster then back to Billy.

Billy stands up from the ground as he faces the monster, stopping it from grabbing onto Eleven and catches the toothy tongue.

" Billy.." you gasp. You push Max to the side as you clutch your side from being attacked by Billy earlier that he pushed you against something, knocking you out to get to El. " Billy" you say his name clearer.

Billy turns his head hearing you call out to him as he looks you in the eyes, his eyes are teary as he mouths, " I love you."

There is a sound of screaming that you can pin point to who as the Mind Flyer pierces several times with his long tentacles, one of them piercing through his heart. That scream is your scream as you run with a hand clutch to your side as Billy falls to the ground.

Max is screaming behind you as she runs to the other side and kneels before him.

" Oh B" you take hold of his hand as you hold it in yours.

" I'm sorry baby" he says. Your heart breaks in two as his other hand is grasped by Max. " I love you, please don't go" you tell him, tears streaming down like waterfalls down your cheeks. His eyes linger on yours. He wants your face to be the last thing he sees.

" I'll take care of her" you promise Billy talking about Max.

" We have to go!" you heard Steve say as he wraps his arms around your waist and tugs you away from Billy. Max is scrambled to her feet as she looks down at her step brothers body one more time.

A piece of you is left with him there as he laid on the ground. You kick and scream in Steve's grasp as he carries you out of the mall, dropping you near one of the ambulances.

Your whole body is numb as endless tears keep running down your cheeks. You can barley hear what the paramedic is saying to you, a light is shined into your eyes making you squint but it's Steve's lingering gaze watching you unmoving, silent and heartbroken of losing Billy who you loved with all your heart.

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

You throw open the doors of Family Video, stopping at the front door as you take in seeing Robin at the front while Steve is reorganizing the rom com section. It's been months since everything has happened at StarCourt Mall, losing Billy and you have spend months in bed.

It took some time as Nancy and Robin stormed into your bedroom, helping you get out of bed as the both of them helped you back on your feet. They will never know what's it like losing someone you love, but they stood by your side as you returned back to yourself.

" Hey sunshine" Robin greets you as she places both her palms on the counter. Steve stops reorganizing the section as he turns to look at you. The both of you had barely spoken through the years you have known. Since the whole rejection, he has lingered near you and heard you speak, he has heard you screams, he seen you cry and he has seen your sweet side.

" Hey Y/N" Steve greets you as he outstretches his hand onto one of the shelves. You shot him a nod as you acknowledge his presence and turn to Robin. You and Steve graduated Hawkins together, and you were working in a record store near by Family Video while living on your own. Your parents weren't too happy at the choices you have made.

Your fingers skim over the films as you hummed. The sound of the door opening signaling Robin and Steve they had a new customer. You hadn't noticed the mop of curls enter until Steve greets them.

" Oh it's just Eddie" Steve says as he goes back to what he was doing. Your head looks over to this Eddie guy watching as he puts his hands on his heart, looking offended. He had a mop of brown curls, brown eyes, a little stubble on him as he wore a leather jacket with a jean vest over it with some pins. He wore black pants with holes in the knees, there is a chain on the side of his pants and he wore rings on his fingers with white Reeboks on his feet.

Your heart flutters at the sight of him. He walks by you and his scent hits you. Weed, pine, cigarettes and something else.

" Do you need help Y/N?" Robin asks. Eddie turns around to face you, not really paying attention that you were in the store too. His eyes grow a little big as he takes you in. You were cute.

His eyes linger on your shirt that you were wearing, it was a Motley Crue shirt and he notices your belt that has some studs in it.

" Oh Y/N, this is Eddie Munson. Eddie, this is Y/N L/N" you raise your hand as you wave to him. His heart races at your greeting and a hit of pink hits his cheeks.

He thought you were the prettiest thing he has ever seen.

" Nice to meet you, Eddie" you say.

" Nice to meet you too, sweetheart" he smiles, showing you his dimples.

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

You drive up to the old grounds of Hawkins High School and park your car as your hands tap on the steering wheel. Steve couldn't pick up the kids from Hellfire club tonight because he had a date. Good for him, instead you were picking the kids up.

The door flies open as Dustin and Mike walk out the doors, you rolled down the window to greet them with a cigarette in your mouth, hanging loosely. It was one of the things you picked up from Billy.

" You know those will kill you one day" Dustin says as he opens the door. Lucas emerges with three other guys that you can not place your finger on.

You shrugged in response to Dustin, the door flies open as Lucas slide in, next to Mike. Mike has out grown his hair as he wants to be like Eddie. You had heard that Eddie was the Dungeon Master when it comes to the Hellfire club, they ran every week on a Friday in the drama room.

Your eyes catch the mop of hair as he walks out of the building, and he stops in his tracks seeing your car.

" Where is Harrington?" Eddie asks. He stops in front of the windshield of your car as he kneels down with his elbows on the window peering into the car. He sees Dustin, Mike and Lucas are already in there.

" Off duty, had a date" you say, looking over to him. Eddie plucks the cigarette from your mouth and puts it into his. " That's mine, Munson" you reach out to take the cigarette away from him but he steps back.

" It's mine now, sweets" he winks at you as he turns around to walk to his van that was only parked a few spots ahead of yours.

" Are you going to drive us home, anytime soon?" Mike asks. You shoot him a look in the review mirror.

" Pip down, Wheeler"

.·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

You don't remember the last time you were in Steve Harrington's house as you look around at the pictures on the wall. His parents and him as a baby, a toddler, some as a teen and from his high school days.

There was loud chattering coming from the living room where the kids and the others were sitting around for move night. You were going to join them with a bowl of chips in your hands as you continued to look at the pictures.

" There you are" Eddie says as he walks around the corner and stands next to you. "Oogling over Harrington?" he asks.

" As if" you rolled your eyes shoving the bowl of chips into his chest. He stumbles back as he takes the bowl in his hands, his rings making a noise against the bowl.

" Harrington is the last person I'd want to be with. He's not my type" you tell him. You didn't say anything else as you made your way into the living room where everyone was sitting down. You placed yourself on one of the couches that had one more space left, Eddie happens to plop down on that spot.

" What's your type then, sweets?"

" Shhh!" Dustin tells him, glaring at him as the movie starts. Eddie throws a chip at him while he turns to you. " Cute metal heads with brown doe eyes."

His eyes go wide as he hears what you say, it takes him a moment to let it sink that you were talking about him. You weren't shy about it that you were crushing on him. This wasn't the first time you hanged out with Eddie, he drove you home one day from work, one time from a party, one time he came over to look at your car, one time you slept over his house, you have met his Uncle, you had picked the boys from Hellfire a couple of times, you had sat during one of the campaigns and you came to listen to his band at the Hide Out.

He smirks as his arms wraps around your shoulder as he shift closer to you, pushing the bowl of chips closer to you. During somewhere in the movie, Eddie takes on of the chips from the bowl and offers it to you. You reach your hand to take it from him, silently thanking him but he moved the chip away.

" Open" he mumbles, only you can hear. Your mouth open as he puts the chip into your mouth. Red color paints your cheeks as your eyes lock with his. He smirks sending you a wink turning back to watch the movie.

·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

When Eddie asks you out, you are overjoyed and finally thinking this is the happiness you deserve. Being with Eddie wasn't like being with anyone else. He continued to make your heart flutter day by day.

When he finally kisses you, you feel light headed and feel like his lips against yours is the perfect puzzle piece.

" Do you want to be mine?" Eddie asks one day, when your watching a movie at his trailer with his arms wrapped around you. The two of you went on a couple of dates, continued to flirt, Robin had bugged you non stop asking you when the two of you would call it official.

" Of course, Eds" he smiles over at you, rubbing his nose with yours. He feels the happiest he has ever felt in a long time.

·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

Your heart drops to your stomach as you race towards him. The demo bats have dropped on the ground as you kneel with his head in your hands.

" I didn't run this time, sweets" he says. The blood was seeping through his mouth. Your eyes teared up at the sight of your boyfriend. This was the second time you were losing someone you love.

" Eds, please. You can't leave me" Dustin has joined you as he sits on the ground on the other side. Eddie look up at you as he winces in pain. " Sweets, you were the best thing to happen to me" he says.

" I love you, Eddie Munson. Do you hear me? I love you" you tell him, hand coming up to his cheek as you feel his tears running down his cheeks.

" I love you too, sweets. So much" he says. You take a hold of his hand in yours and bring it up to your lips. " Please, don't go" you say against his hand. " I need you"

He turns to look at Dustin, " Take care of her." Dustin is crying into his hands as he leans his head on your shoulder. Eddie's eyes still as he takes his last breathe.

Your head falls to his chest as you let out a sob. Gripping his Hellfire shirt in your hands in a balled fist, you shake him.

" Come back to me!" you yell. " Please" you shake him again but there is silence coming from Eddie. He's gone with a piece of your heart with him.

·:*¨༺ ༻¨*:·.

" Have you heard anything from Y/N?" Mike asks as he walks into Family Video with Dustin by his side, Max is in her wheelchair with Lucas by her side.

Steve frown as he hears the question. It's been weeks since the gang has heard from you. Yet again, they don't understand what's it like to lose someone you love. You were sure by now that every time you opened up your heart to someone, they slip through your fingers and die.

Were you ever meant to fall in love? To be happy?

" She hasn't been answering the door or the phone" Dustin says. He sigh as he looks at the ground, " It hasn't been the same since Eddie died. It's like she never existed to any of us"

" This time it's different" Max says. " She wasn't like this when Billy died"

" She has loved Billy, she has loved Eddie and it was taken away from her. The poor girl can't catch a break" Robin says as she comes back from the back. Steve takes a hold of his keys from his pockets.

" Dingus, where are you going?" Robin asks as heads turn to Steve as he has his hands on the door. " I'm going to go find her, she can't shut down and it doesn't have to be like this"

" What are you going to tell her?" Lucas asks.

He looks between Dustin, Lucas, Robin, Max and Mike.

" I don't know. But she needs someone, she needs to be reminded that she's not alone in this"

" Good luck" Dustin says.

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Tears stream down your cheeks as you sit on your bed with his guitar pick necklace in your hands. He had loved you and his last words were to Dustin to take care of you. Dustin has stopped by to check in on you but you didn't want to see anyone.

It hurts too much. Pictures with Eddie is on your dresser, two of his shirts are in your dresser, his flannel is hanging on the chair in your room. One of his notebooks that were filled with songs he was working on it on your table. One of his rings is on your table. He had given it to you as one day promising to propose to you and get you a real ring.

A banging on your door interrupts your thoughts as you stand up from the bed, wiping your tears with the back of your sleeve as you make your way to the front door.

" Who is it?" you asked through your tears.

" It's Steve" your breath hitches for a moment in wonder why out of everyone he's the one who's here. Steve stands on the other side of the door with his head on the door, hoping you'd answer it. There is silence on the other end of the door.

" Why?" He hears you ask him. His eyebrows knitted together in confusion to what you mean. " Why you?" you ask him again.

Steve licks his dry lips as his mouth grows dry. He doesn't blame you for not wanting to see him. He's the last person you thought would check in on you.

" Because I care" he says. He hears a chuckle on the other side of the door. " You have a funny way of showing it, Harrington"

" I know you're hurting, Y/N. But so are we, so am I. I lost a friend.." you threw the door open in anger. " You don't get to say you're hurting. You weren't there when he died, you didn't get to hold him in your arms as he took his last breath. You didn't get a chance to love him like I loved him. Why does every time my heart decided to choose to love, it gets ripped out of my chest? Why me? Why do I get to lose people when you like the rest, get to sit there and say sorry for your loss?!" you stared angrily at Steve as he looks at you wide eyed with the loss of words.

" I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you needed someone, I'm sorry you've been hurting all this time like this" he takes a step inside your door as he closes as you take a step back.

He takes in the way your hair doesn't look like it's been brushed for a while, he takes in the bags underneath your eyes and the puffiness underneath your eyes. He takes in the way your nose is red from wiping it. He takes in the way your clothes looked wrinkled and he takes in the guitar pick in your hands.

He takes another step towards you and wraps his arm around you, pulling you into his chest. He feels you wrap your arms around him as you hold you in silence. He feels the wet spot forming on his shirt as you cry in his arms.

" Why me, Steve? What did I do to deserve this?" you asked as you pull away and look up at him. He stared down at you as his own heart breaks at the sight.

" You did nothing, you deserve all the love in the world Y/N. You. You have such a big heart, you're funny, you're sweet and look at the way that Billy and Eddie loved you. You are special" he moves some of your hair away from your face.

" I don't see anything special about me, I mean you even rejected me back in high school. You were the prettiest boy I had ever seen in my entire life and you broke my heart into pieces."

" I'm so sorry Y/N, I really am" he takes a hold your face in his hands, he wipes away the tears that keep running down your cheeks.

" You deserve so much. You've been through so much, let me be there for you. Let me show you what it's like to be loved, to be wanted to have what you need" he says.

Your eyes reveal fear in your eyes as you stare up at him.

" I'm scared, Steve"

"Scared of what?"

" Scared of losing you, I don't want you to die" his gaze soften as he brings you back into his arms, rocking you back and forth as his fingers run through your hair.

" Nothing will happen to me, hunny. I'm right here" he kisses on top of your head. You hold Eddie's guitar pick in your hand as you hug Steve back wondering if Steve was the one all along that should of loved you.

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You stare at the boy that sleeping soundly next to you as some of his hair falls onto his forehead. His arm is wrapped around you as his chest moves up and down as he breaths. You can't help it but put your head on his chest, to listen to his heart beat.

It's real. He's alive.

Your finger tips run down his chest, over his chest hair that tickle underneath your finger tips as your fingers trace over the features on his face. He was pretty and right next to you.

His brown eyes slowly flutter open as he turns to look over at you. He sees the worry look in your eyes.

" I'm not going anywhere" Steve says taking your hand in his and bringing it up to his lips. " I promise."

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Author's Note : Okay let me be real for a moment, this whole request blew my mind, my heart and my feelings out the window. I sat there reading this request a couple of times. I have sat here writing this request for most of the day and I cried my eyes out, I have tissues near me and I had to take breaks during this.

This took a toll on me, I don't know who requested this but I just want you to understand. I do write angst that break hearts but this one out of ever angst request I had, tops for breaking my heart.

You took my heart during this requests and threw it out the window. Stomping on it.

Thank you for requesting this, but this was a bit too much for me to relive through Billy's death and Eddie's death in my mind as I wrote this.

I hope whoever requested it, like this or not. I can not tell you what to do.

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