#still love the away kit obvs

[h0lyground]

ok i’m coming around on the home kit, the stripes on the shorts look fit

[moonchildstyles]

angel being at Harry’s house and she’s getting herself a glass of water but something just happens and the glass slips from her hand and she lets out a small gasp as she watches it hit the floor in slow motion and it shatters into a hundred little pieces, and harry is just on the sofa and he’s immediately rushing into the kitchen at the noise where she’s standing totally still just looking down at the mess around her and she’s barefoot so she can’t really start easily cleaning up and he’s asking her if she’s okay bc that’s all that matters and she lets out a small huff and she feels awful for breaking one of his things esp with how her parents acted towards her if she ever broke something and she’s blinking back her tears and h is just worried but when she mumbles out a timid apology his face is softening and he’s shaking his head and then he notices a few dots of blood beading together on the top of her foot and she felt something when she dropped it but figured it was fine and he’s just gently telling her that she’s bleeding and he goes to grab a broom to at least sweep away the shards around her but her heads snapping up and she’s just “but evie!” because obvs that’s always the first priory and he’s mumbling that she’s right and disappears down the hallway where he knows evie is asleep on his bed and he just shuts the door for the time being and he grabs the broom and she’s just staring at the cut on her foot and hiding the trembling in her fingers as h clears a path to her and grabs the first aid kit before grabbing her hips and setting her on the counter and asking gently if she’s crying because she’s hurting but she shakes her head and he’s just reassuring her that it’s fine, accidents happen and “I didn’t like that glass anyway- wanted a reason to get rid of it,” in a little teasing tone that makes her lips curl up slightly and he grabs her ankle and sticks her foot under the faucet in the sink and it’s not a super bad cut and there’s no glass or anything, so he’s just drying her foot and putting a bandaid over it before kissing her cheek and talking to her, making sure she knows that he isn’t mad at all and it’s just soft sweet kisses and hushed words until her eyes dry up and his thumbs have swept away all the wetness on her cheeks and he ofc makes her stay put as he sweeps up the entire kitchen to make sure there’s nothing that any of them could step on and he insists he carry her to the sofa just in case after which makes her laugh and he grabs evie and orders them dinner because she’s still a little shaky from the spike of anxiety it gave her and he just curls himself around her and lets her watch her show pressing kisses to her next until her heartbeat gets back to normal and she’s practically falling asleep in his arms :( - 🍓

no I love this so much:( ofc she would immediately be telling him to make sure evie is okay first before having him help her and she would feel so guilty and silly for breaking the mug bc it was his but also now theres a huge mess:( and him telling her that he was just looking for an excuse to get rid of that glass anyway and being sooooo sweet to her like ofc he would do that :( I just love this idea so much :((((((((

[gold-rhine]

i have an ask about what visions hsr characters would have, but im making separate post for sunday and robin bc their section got too long lol

i think its interesting to contrast christian ayato and normal ayato, like what caused their differences and how they'd translate to visions\behavior strategies overall. both of them have spoiled princelings vibes, both operate as manipulators\deceivers\ playing a role while having secret motives, both have like spymaster\secrecy thing with operating within corrupt system against that corrupt system while trying to keep up appearances they support it (sunday obv, but ayato saying everything he does is for raiden, while smuggling rebellion troops into her palace. he's so funny, i love him)

but their circumstances were very different. sunday had to struggle as a child for being an orphan until adopted by mr. goper? grober? whats his name, and after that he lived in privilege, having mr. goober as a mentor. ayato in contrast, had happy rich childhood until his parents died and left him an entire commission in crisis of political intrigues as a young teen and young sister to care for, and he had no one to help or mentor him. he's rebuilt yashiro commision by himself, while under constant attacks from fatui. as a result, he's much more decisive, ready to cut a bitch at any moment and operates on "offense is best defense".

like, take the infamous bird dilemma we had to listen to for like 2 hours from sunday. robin let the dove out of the cage and the dove died bc world is cruel, should we let the birds out of cages? robin got attacked on her mormon missionary tour and got into hospital, should she be let out at all?

ayato would not have a problem here at all. he trained ayaka at sword mastery and he only let her to become a public figure when she received her vision and beat him at a sparring match. he made sure she's prepared to deal with danger instead of just hiding her from it. this is why ayaka is also much more proactive than robin, she personally organizes vision hunt resistance, while robin had to be like kidnapped and shown the problems and even then all she does is be like "brother, this is bad. I refuse to sing :\"

so while both of them are protective, sunday's solution is to hide ppl from the world, not let them experience it at all in case they might encounter danger, while for ayato it's to make sure they are strong enough to deal with that danger. thats i think their core difference.

so to translate this all to visions, i think sunday would also have hydro vision, for all reasons i listed in the beginning, playing the role, double motives, etc. BUT while's ayato's whole kit is offense oriented, sunday's would be much more defensive. just like ayaka's is pure DPS who takes main action in a team while robin is a buffer who can only deal some damage as a follow up to someone else. robin i think still would be cryo for how sheltered she is, but obv a buffer, not dps.

if i had to speculate, i'd say sunday would also AOE burst that stays on field, but if ayato's is about damage and buffing his own attacks, sunday's would be about crowd control. and while ayato's skill creates brief water illusion of himself as a bait, sunday i think would be similar, but he creates several water mannequins, they are very tanky and they are taunts, they are meant to draw aggro away from the team. they deal small amount of damage to enemies, but only if attacked, and when destroyed, they blow up for decent damage, and active character receives a shield.

[faeriekougraz]

ya gotta tell me more about this mapleshade/star au cause i am intrigued ‼️‼️

YIPPEEe!!! OKAY so im not gonna spoil everything (i lied i did) but im hoping to basically branch this out into an au that changes everything i dislike in the series.

so mapleshade still gets pregnant by appledusk and lies to thunderclan. however over the time of her pregnancy, she develops feelings for frecklewish. and near the end of her pregnancy she feels guilt over lying. the two of them grow extremely close and so before she gives birth, her and frecklewish go on a walk together and she tells her the truth. frecklewish is shocked and obviously hurt, and she turns to leave however maple grasps at her tail trying to beg her to stay. Freckle, startled and upset, unintentionally slashes maples face (giving her the first scar). freckle apologizes, obviously upset that she injured maple. she states that she will keep the secret but she needs time away from mapleshade. after that, the last bit of her pregnancy, mapleshade is more or less alone. she gives birth to her 3 kits and adores them. things go on as normal for the most part.

when ravenwing approaches maple, he confronts her about the lie and tells her he cant lie to their clan like she has. when he turns to sprint away, again she goes after them and in anger ravenwing slashes her side. he yells at her and rushes back to camp. maple and her kits are obviously startled so she takes her time heading back to camp.

when there, the clan is already gathered around the high rock. oakstar is at the top and ravenwing is standing below him with frecklewish by his side. maple tells her kits to rest near the camp entrance while she heads into the center to be addressed by oakstar. the whole spiel about her lying is brought up and right before oakstar banishes her and her kits frecklewish runs out and claims that the kits are also hers. oakstar obv calls her out saying "they cant be yours" kinda thing however she argues back. despite his anger, oakstar leaves the topic alone and dismisses the clan since he can't imagine hurting his daughter after everything.

after all this, freckle and maple get back together and raise the kits. ravenwing hates maple and hates that she got away with everything however they make amends when frecklewish gets bitten by a snake on a patrol and maple and raven work together to save her life.

at a gathering riverclan is confronted about their clanmate lying to them. and he basically gets shunned (but is allowed to stay in riverclan). after this he becomes really controlling over reedshine and perchpaw and is a major asshole. he also develops an obsession with the idea of getting revenge on mapleshade in a future battle for what "she did". eventually deciding to attack her outside of a battle. he tries to kill her however frecklewish and oakstar manage to save her and appledusk gives her the scar on her chest before he's killed.

okay now for some bullet point info

perchpaw (appledusks apprentice) ends up in a relationship later down the line with maples son larchkit

patchpaw ends up in a relationship with nettlepaw

oakstar gives mapleshade the position of deputy rather than doestar. her scar on her chest is her leader marking

petalpaw either leaves the clan to be a kitty pet or falls in love with a kitty pet (havent decided) and has firestar and his sister! so firestar is a descendent of mapleshade

each scar on maple is given to her by someone she would have killed in canon. frecklewish's on the face (where freckles are), ravenwing's on the side (where a wing would be), and then appledusk just on her chest to try and kill her

appledusk basically takes maples place in this au

[wcphasesofthemoon]

After Sunrise

Note: Got sad last year thinking about Firestar at the end of Sunrise, and the one-two punch of Worst News Ever he got. This angsty piece came of it. Obv spoilers for Sunrise, and cw for descriptions of a panic attack. I'll prob touch this up and make it an epilogue of PotM's Po3 companion book.

Firestar hadn’t run so fast since he was young. He’d walked inland with his Clan, but once they were on a safe route to camp, he just needed out. 

The wind sliced him like claws, cutting through his pelt, but he didn’t care about the cold. His blood, his heart, his insides couldn’t get any colder.

His heartbeat thundered in his ears and the wind forced them back. He felt like he was being suffocated. He knew slowing down and resting may help, but he just couldn’t stand to be looked at any longer.

His claws were unsheathed, kicking up a spray of soil clumps with each stride. He was nearing a tree. At last, he skidded to a halt, so hard his pads were rubbed raw, and he reared up on his hind legs. Then, with a broken cry, he scored his claws through the bark. Holding tight, he sank down, down, down, until he was on his belly in a panting, pitiful heap. A squirrel skittered overhead.

Firestar’s stomach lurched with the sudden urge to vomit.

Someone approached. Frankly, Firestar didn’t care who it was.

“There you are.” Sandstorm. Her voice was hoarse. Firestar should have comforted her. Tears welled in his eyes.

“I-I…” What could he say? I’m sorry? I’m all right? I don’t know what to do?

I can’t do this, Sandstorm?

Sandstorm got closer.

“Come here,” she cooed, like a mother to her kit, and drew him to her chest with a foreleg. Firestar curled against her without hesitation.

“How could I have been so stupid?” he whimpered into her soft fur. “Hollyleaf, she– I– I can’t–” He was soothed into silence by Sandstorm’s shushing.

“Hey. It’s going to be just fine,” she murmured, licking the top of his head as he sank into her warmth. “Just breathe.”

And so, Firestar did. He leaned against his mate for long minutes, trying to get his breathing under control. The urge to cry and the urge to be sick still burned similarly in his throat, but at least he could breathe.

“Firestar!” 

Wearily, Firestar lifted his head, and Sandstorm rested a steadying paw on his back. Lionblaze and Jayfeather were rushing towards them.

“It’s all right, boys,” Sandstorm murmured. “Firestar isn’t angry with you. He just needed some air.”

“It’s not just that,” Jayfeather choked out. “W-We followed Hollyleaf when she ran off. She was trying to hunt to blow off some steam, or to prove herself still worthy as a warrior, or something, that mousebrain–” He sniffled violently, reaching up to smear the tears cascading down his striped face. “She chased a squirrel into the tunnels, and…!” His voice faltered, and his trembling legs gave out, making him collapse beside his similarly-shaking brother.

“She’s dead,” Lionblaze croaked, hollow golden eyes fixed on the ground, which seemed to dip under Firestar’s body. “There was a collapse, and… we couldn’t save her.”

Sandstorm sucked in a breath. “Hollyleaf…!” she cried.

Firestar scrambled to his paws, stumbling backwards and away from the others as he shook his head. “No… no…! Hollyleaf!!” Great StarClan, anything but this!

His teary eyes turned to the sky, as if searching for Hollyleaf there, so he could reach out and pull her back down into his embrace, to tell her that it would be all right, that he didn’t love her any less, to please don’t go–

“Holly–” He jolted as he felt Sandstorm bury her face into his heaving chest, whether to comfort him or herself he wasn’t sure. Firestar just kept looking upwards, his jaws slightly agape and tears finally soaking his cheek fur.

“Oh, Firestar,” Sandstorm sobbed. 

Firestar collapsed in the next moment, legs buckling and chin catching between her shoulderblades as he went down. Weak. He was so weak.

“Sandstorm,” Firestar wept, unable to look away from his grieving grandsons, even though he didn’t want them to see him in such a state. It was humiliating, and it wasn’t going to comfort them in the slightest to see their leader crumbling. He reached up, clinging to Sandstorm with his forepaws. “Sandstorm…!”

He dropped his head, curling in on himself, shying away from everything as sick bubbled in his throat again. Sandstorm said something, reaching out to wipe the tears from his face, but he couldn’t make out what it was. No, he could only hear the yowls of fury and pain from his granddaughter. His heart began to pound again, and Firestar shook his head wildly. He gasped, then gagged, then arched his back with the force of vomiting on the forest floor. Sandstorm’s expression filled with horror.

“Oh, StarClan,” she murmured, reaching up to paw at his back again. Firestar let her. “It’s all right. Just let it out, darling.”

“Sandstorm…” Now everything hurt. His head, his chest, his paws, his stomach… “Sandstorm,” he gasped more urgently, his green eyes, wide and frightened, searching her face. “She– She’s…!”

Hollyleaf could have died thinking he hated her. 

“Shh.” Sandstorm wiped his tears away again. “I know. I know.” She crawled over to embrace him again.

Firestar’s heart pounded faster and faster. He feared it might burst.

“She’s gone,” he sobbed. “I never got to–”

“She wasn’t angry with you, Firestar. You didn’t know. She knew you didn’t know.”

Firestar knew it was true, but his brain still buzzed with what-ifs.

“I never got to tell her that… That I still love her…!”

“She knew.” Sandstorm’s own body shook with sobs, but she still held him tight. “She knew, all right? How could you have known? How could any of us have known? You’re still her grandfather. Her leader. Her hero.”

Firestar sobbed. His paw pads felt clammy, his whole body cold, and no matter how tightly he curled up, he couldn’t get warm. “She knew,” he tried to tell himself, repeating Sandstorm’s words. “She knew I loved her.” He dropped his head onto his forepaws, sobbing again.

“She knew,” Sandstorm agreed.

“She…” His throat tightened more, and fresh tears gathered in his stinging eyes. His chest shuddered once more as the reality of Hollyleaf’s death threatened to crush him once more. “She can’t be gone,” he whispered, and Sandstorm stared down at him with her own face streaked with tears. She sniffled, licking his forehead.

“Firestar.” She rested her forehead against his. “She’s not far away. She’s hunting with StarClan now.”

“She’s– She’s not–” Firestar tried to repeat her assurance, squeezing her eyes shut as he tried to think of Hollyleaf happy and strong and beautiful, hunting in the skies forever, and not as the fluffy black kit he’d never get to hold again.

“She’s not far away. Never too far,” Sandstorm repeated, nuzzling him deeply. 

At last, Firestar seemed to come back to his body. He nuzzled his mate back, purring to comfort her, before slowly lifting his head. “Lionblaze, Jayfeather… Things are going to be different now, but you still have your grandmother and I. We still love you both so much. That hasn’t changed, so, please… Keep loving us the same.”

Lionblaze stared at him with glassy eyes, before nodding. “Of course. Of course, Grandpa. We still love you guys,” he assured the leader, staggering into the embrace of his grandparents. Firestar put a foreleg around his neck, savoring his warmth. Jayfeather hesitated, still wiping furiously at his eyes, until Firestar beckoned him over with his tail.

“Jayfeather?”

Jayfeather looked up, and could no longer hold back from rushing into the hug. “Of course I still love you, Grandpa,” he murmured, his face completely hidden in Sandstorm’s soft fur. “You too, Grandma.”

“I know, my sweet,” Sandstorm sighed, her purr thick with tears. “I know.”

[strawberrycelia]

Thunderclan and Nightheart

Alright so I read A Starless Clan’s River and Sky and really enjoyed them. But I have thoughts about Nightheart. I’m definitely frustrated that both Squirrelflight and Sparkpelt are given Mean Old Spinster treatment with Nighty boy. Obv it sucks to trash two beloved she cats and destroy their personalities as previously written JUST to give motivation to Night… but I also feel like it wasn’t necessary.

There was a perfectly good reason for Nightheart to feel strange about his place in Thunderclan. I mean /think/ about Thunderclan’s most recent loss; Briss. I think everyone was aware how young Briss was when she died, and its clear that so much of the clan expected her to go far. I mean, shit, she would have made an incredible deputy to the next leader.

Basically, Thunderclan knew and loved her as their young upstart who would carry them to the future. And then she died. Horribly.

When she was alive Nightheart barely knew her, but it makes sense that the clan would view him and his sibling as filling her pawsteps. Squirrelflight especially, who was close to Briss throughout the entirety of TBC, could expect Nightheart to fill the paws of a loyal, reliable, talented apprentice.

None of this Firestar legacy bullshit that was quite literally ret-conned in, give me Briss’ shadow following Spark’s kits and driving them away from the older members of the clan who still grieve some cat who is gone. Bonus points if it’s resolved with the clan coming to terms with their grief even more. It’s not often they lose someone they cannot visit, especially not someone who was important to them all.

[javatello]

Since people wanted it, here are my copy and pasted notes

- Like I’d love if there was some tension between Tawnypelt and Feathertail, that they have to work out via trust (like with Leopard does in ASIR). Like Tawnypelt, daughter of Tigerstar, stood by as she was sentenced to death and watched her cousin die for her.

- Squirrelcrow because i love them. Theyre so brain itch it makes so much sense to me they grow to love each other on the journey going from enemies to frenemies to friends to friends with crush to lovey dovey to OH SHIT IM PREGNANT OH GOD THE POWER OF THREE. Basically everything that happens with Leafcrow happens with Squilf instead lolz.

- Brambleclaw and Squirrelflight have more of a brother sister relationship or at least a close friendship bc Brambleclaw thinks of Firestar as a father. And he’d be overjoyed to meet his beloved mentors new kits. And he can prevent them from living in the world he had to.

- Tawnypelt is also close friends with Squilf and Feathertail and Crowf are js really good friends. Feathertail acts more like the big sister Crowpaw never had. Crowpaw goes to her with his insecurities that were probably instilled in him with Mudclaw being his mentor. Tawnypelt loving Squilf not as a sister but more like a wine aunt. Like she and Squirrelpaw go hunting together and she lets her get away with dangerous things, but Squilf gets hurt and suddenly its mother hen mode. And she sees it as making up for what her father did to ThunderClan in a small way, helping the clans in the future and taking care of Firestars daughter.

- Stormfur is an enigma but I’d think he’d be close with Brambleclaw, theyre just guys being dudes. I also like the idea of him and Crowfeather being friends. I’d think his calming yet stern energy reminds Crowfeather of Tallstar, and thus he gravitates to him.

- Stormfur also has some weird feelings about Tawnypelt but he’s more forgiving than Feathertail, because he understand that she was just a kit in a scary environment.

- Hawkfrost and Mothwing would also play a bigger part in the arc. I have a lot of thoughts on Hawkfrost. He lost his brother and his brothers death has scarred him, and he meets Brambleclaw and he’s like “Oh my god, I have a *family.*”

-He’s totally obsessed with the idea of finally having a family again, to the point where he’d do anything to achieve the perfect bond between him and his siblings. When his father, Tigerstar, sees this and thus sees a way to manipulate his son, he feels torn between making his father proud and keeping a positive bond with his siblings.

- He manipulated Mothwing not out of cruelness but because he thought it was the best thing for her, but with his fathers corruption he gets it in his head that Mothwing *owes* it to him, and that all the suffering will be worth it when he and his siblings can all be happy and in control.

- When Brambleclaw betrays him and doesn’t wanna kill Firestar, Hawkfrost lashes out in anger and heartbreak because how could he not see all the *work* he’s put into this. But eventually when he dies and OOTS rolls around, he gets redeemed slowly over the series (I have more thoughts abt PO3 but that will be at a later date).

- Mothwing and Tawnypelt also exist and they actually acknowledge each other. Tawnypelt and Mothwing are obvs on weird ground with each other but with Tawnypelt saving the clans and Mothwing growing closer with her during the great move, in which the truth comes out that they had another brother. Tawnypelt admits that he and Brambleclaw also had another brother, Swiftpaw; who died because of Tigerstar. When Mothwing questions why Tawny would join her father, Tawny tells her about the isolation and hatred she felt in ThunderClan. Mothwing can only relate all too well :(

- Leafpool doesn’t have a forbidden romance in my version of events. To me shes aroace coz i don’t really ship her with anyone. But she’s still really good friends with Mothwing and Sorreltail obvs, but Squilf and her don’t have that psychic connection bc i dont like that its considered a power thats js forgotten about within like three books.

Theres also some ideas i have with Leaf and Cinder being close as in my headcanons she baby sat the sisters when they were kits (in my personal canon Cinder and Fire are like siblings coz Yellowfang is their adopted mom).

This is just some rambles so take what I say with a grain of salt.

Just wrote a fucking novel on how i would rewrite the characters in the second arc of warrior cats

[frogtanii]

“hi everyone,” you gave your webcam a half hearted wave, noting the flood of inquisitive comments at your demeanor.

ynismymommy: omg queen r u ok??????

emilia.95: Have you been sleeping?

atsumus-leftballsack: bestie imma need you to invest in some concealer

a giggle pried it’s way up your throat, despite your attempts to stop it as you read the comments. yes, you were fully aware that you looked like shit however, you just weren’t expecting the viewers of your stream to be so... observant.

“holy shit guys, i’m okay,” you attempted to placate your vicious audience by giving them a (forced) smile and a small chuckle. “let’s just play, okay?”

you loaded up your game of choice (call of duty — you had a lot of aggression to work off) while making idle chatter with your fanbase. they seemed to have dropped conversation about your heavy eye bags and low enthusiasm in favor of more lighthearted topics.

just as you were starting to get into it, a knock sounded at your door. at first, you were tempted to ignore it but after a few moments of silence, the knocking started up again, more incessantly. your comments started to go wild, wondering who exactly was banging on your door at like 11p.

bokutos.bahamamommamilkers: tell whoever is @ the door to fuck off

shartyba3_420: damn slam me yn like [redacted] is slamming on that door

Greg_72: Hey, you can go answer that! We’ll wait <3

you apologize quickly before removing your headphones and scurrying over to the door. swinging it wide open, you’re met with bokuto.

and what a sight he is.

once bright, golden eyes were now dull and void, accompanied by dark circles that rivaled your own while his usually sunny visage was dampened by this metaphorical dark cloud that was hanging above him.

in other words, he looked like shit.

the both of you must look like quite a pair — you in your ratty, oversized hoodie and red sweats and him in his white t shirt and flannel pajama pants. after giving him another glance over, you repressed the urge to pull him into your room and into a hug, instead choosing to wrap your arms around yourself tightly.

“um, hey bo,” you started, unable to keep your eyes on his face. “i’m really sorry but i’m streaming right now. maybe we can hang out later?”

bokuto shook his head no, and your heart began to sink. you were just so tired and you didn’t have the energy to entertain or comfort the man at the moment without letting another piece of yourself crumble but you knew you didn’t have the heart to turn him away.

resigning yourself to your fate, you stepped to the side to let him into your room, making a mental note to shield him from your webcam while you brought him to lie on your bed.

to your complete and utter surprise, bokuto did not move, shaking his head no again before moving to grab something just out of your sight behind your doorway.

you were now thoroughly intrigued, shuffling closer to peek into the hallway, only to be stopped by a box being thrusted into your hands. you looked over the colorfully painted cardboard but it gave you no indication as to what was on the inside and glancing at kotarou gave you no help whatsoever.

“what’s this?” you voiced your confusion while weighing the box in your hands, the confusion only amplifying when you discover the box is suspiciously light. you’re shaken from your investigation when bokuto throws another object in your hands, this one significantly heavier.

looking up at him, you’re taken aback by the emotion swirling in his irises, his mouth finally parting to speak. “i’m so sorry,” kotarou’s voice, while gravelly from disuse, was sincere, a slight quiver being found underlying his words. “i- i know i never said it but i just want you to know that i-i care about you and that i am so sorry for ever hurting you and making you feel like you were less than. y-you’ve helped me become myself again a-and i can never thank you enough.”

a shuddering breath left his chest as he trained his eyes on the ceiling before looking back at you with watery eyes. “you don’t have to forgive me. i-i’d understand.” you opened your mouth to respond, to rebut, but you were cut off by his strong arms, wrapping you up in a tight hug.

you couldn’t keep yourself from melting into his hold, a small ounce of stress leaving your body at his words but the bulk of it remaining. he’s just apologizing because you’re the only girl who’s shown him an ounce of kindness, the voice in the back of your head whispered.

as bokuto pulled you in tighter, you stiffened, the voice getting louder and more constant. the man holding you didn’t miss the way you tensed and hesitantly removed himself from you, his hurt written plain all over his face.

kotarou gave you a weak smile and another gentle apology before turning and leaving for his room. you already felt guilt creeping up your spine for not holding him the way you thought you should but you quickly pushed the feeling down, knowing that you wouldn’t have gotten the rest you deserved if you’d done so.

letting out a deep sigh, you shut your door and moved back to continue your stream, not before gently setting down the 2 colorfully decorated boxes on the bed, a small smile creeping across your face at the sight of the gifts.

your stream ended pretty shortly after, your mind unable to focus on the game — it was getting borderline embarrassing how often you were dying to the point you were worried your sponsors would pull out of supporting you.

with a soft smile and goodbye, you collapsed on your bed, mindful not to crush the boxes. while you were extremely exhausted, you knew you wouldn’t be able to go to sleep without examining your gifts’ contents.

you decided to open the heavier box first which yielded bag after bag of your favorite chips, candies, and drinks. you knew your mouth was gaping unattractively but you couldn’t help it. this was... way too much.

at the bottom of the box was a small note, written in bokuto’s somehow endearing chicken scratch. it read, “hi yn!!!! this is for when you get hungry :) i know i didn’t let you eat any of my snacks for a long time so i thought it would be nice if i bought some for you!!!!! i hope i got these all right :( i asked atsumu for help!!!”

a choked chuckle escaped your lips and it only amplified as you continued to the end of the note. “p.s. don’t worry about not finishing it all!!! i can always help you ;) p.p.s. also you’re so pretty!!!! don’t not eat it because you don’t think so too <3”

wiping your eyes that had become suspiciously misty, you set down the slip of paper and reached for the second box.

you couldn’t keep the gasp from coming from you as the cardboard overflowed with tiny slips of paper. with shaky hands, you unfolded the first paper, the tears overflowing over your lashline before you could stop them.

you are loved :) - akaashi

“fuck,” you whispered, swiping at your face before clumsily reaching for another, and then another, each note making you cry harder than the last.

you are beautiful!!!!! never change!! - bokuto!!!

you’re really cool - kenma

you are so kind and i owe you the world - sugawara :)

you’re sympathetic, observant, and intelligent. - sakusa.

you are patient (even when we don’t deserve it) - kuroo

yer my angel <3 - tsum tsum

there were a ton more but you promised yourself you’d read them all later, your emotions getting the better of you. you’d rather not wake up with puffy, swollen eyes and a headache so you decided it would be best to close the box and finish it all later.

laying back on your bed, you expelled a deep breath of air, not realizing just how tense you were. you’d been living on edge with the guys for at least a month now and it was really starting to wear on you.

without being able to fully trust them, you knew it wouldn’t be long until you crumbled under the pressure.

you glanced at your phone before sighing again (it really was that kind of day, wasn’t it). maybe it was about time to give dr yamada a long awaited call.

℗ poker face

you are loved :)

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[thepringlesofblood]

fun little reference sheet for all the confused taz balance hoes out there

so you listened to all of taz balance and now you’re reading the graphic novel and whhaaaa these names are all different! or you started out reading the graphic novels and decided to give the podcast a try and are mixed up by who is what. have no fear.

This is a list of every difference and change in wording/names I could find in all of the graphic novels out so far - Here There Be Gerblins to Crystal Kingdom.

in case you didn’t know, the reason for all the changes is because when they started out the podcast, they were playing a pre-written campaign by Wizards of the Coast (the people who make the official DND stuff). It’s like, the basic starter kit campaign. They diverted from it pretty quickly, but the world they established in the podcast is basically the world of DND. and so, all of those names and places and spells belong to Wizards of the Coast.

So, they’re using alternate names for any official DND 5e material so they don’t get sued.

Sometimes the name is vague enough that they decide it’s fine to leave as is. e.g. levitate is still levitate. The only big one they break this rule on is zone of truth, and that’s for very good reason. I try to put when they keep the name the same for spells, since spells are the most common things that change.

Hence, I shall bring forth the list under the cut! Please let me know if you find any more!

UPDATE: now including mentions from The Eleventh Hour and The Suffering Game! the latter was really hard so please excuse the messy formatting. also I realized I previously included some pretty big Suffering Game spoilers on accident - I have done my best to change the wording to keep any spoilers relatively minor.

abbreviations:

HTBG = Here There Be Gerblins

MRL = Murder on the Rockport Limited

PTTM = Petals to the Metal

CK = Crystal Kingdom

11th hr = The Eleventh Hour

SG = the Suffering Game

LI = Lunar Interlude

the format we’re going with is

graphic novel name = podcast name

I’m trying to put the most important stuff near the top but no promises

People/places

G’nash = Klaarg

Eversummer = Neverwinter

Haverdale = Phandalin

Bogard Stoneseeker = Gundren Rockseeker

Caggle Stoneseeker = Tharden Rockseeker

Dorb Stoneseeker = Nundro Rockseeker

Yahvvie = yeemick

Queen Morior = the raven queen (I miss this I love the raven queen so much)

Cavern of dangling death = wave echo cave

The black spider is still just the black spider - I guess its vague enough that it works

fun fact: Barry Bluejeans starts out as just Sildar Hallwinter from the box campaign but they give him a better name first episode, bc they didn’t like how Sildar Hallwinter sounded. Obvs there’s no mention of Sildar in the book.

Sazed = Philippe (from 11th hr - not a copyright change, but a name change nonetheless. I don’t know why it’s not Sazed anymore, Glamour Springs is the same and both are original creations, not WoC property update: it’s because Sazed is a character from the Mistborn series so the boys & carey probably don’t want to chomp Mistborns’ flavor in their published graphic novel)

Spells (I’m also keeping track of which ones are the same btw)

ouch ray = magic missile (they acknowledge this one in the book)

zone of truth is still zone of truth

 idk how they got away with that one


shield of faith is still shield of faith 


strike divine = divine strike

some sources say this is an evocation cantrip, some say it’s a Life Domain feat. they may also have meant true strike, but I highly doubt it.

slowfall = feather fall

 later on in 11th hour gn, taako casts “Featherfall” with no issue (???)

celestial protector = guardian of faith

self-disguise = disguise self

dispel the dead = turn undead/destroy undead

the shattering = shatter

banish = banishment

shuffle jump = blink 

still “shuffle jump” in SG, although several other spells have switched to using their dnd names

dampen elements = absorb elements

blast of fire = scorching ray

later on in 11th hour gn, taako (or at least the umbrastaff) casts “Scorching Ray” with no issue (???)

magic rope = rope trick

sleepy-time = sleep

clair-vision = clairvoyance

diminish size = reduce

the spell is enlarge/reduce, and later on they use “enlarge” with no trouble - why is it “diminish size” here???

spirit steed = phantom steed

ethereal weapon = spiritual weapon

in 11th hr gn, it’s also called “armory of spirit”

gout of flames = fireball

blessings of the cherubim = prayer of healing

concussive force = concussive blast(?)

Taako uses this in the battlewagon race, but he just magic missiles the boar in the podcast

they probably wanted to spice things up a bit since magic missile kind of has a Brand.

Concussive blast is a real 3rd level evocation spell that Taako would’ve been able to cast, it just doesn’t actually happen in the podcast

levitate is still levitate

how is that one ok but “sleep” has to be “sleepy-time”??

word of healing = healing word

in SG pg 77 they say “healing word”, but before now it’s just been “word of healing”

ray of scorching oil = scorching ray(?)

we did already have that one but I can’t think of a better fit

discernment of magicks = detect magic

object location = locate object

flames of holiness = sacred flame

fire mitts = burning hands

wave of thunder = thunderwave

mystic analysis = probably meant as a stand-in for “identify”, but in the podcast he just does an arcana check.

burgle = knock

divine word is still divine word (which Merle changes to “divine wood” with the ring of the grammarian. this is the same b/w podcast & gn)

disintegration = disintegrate

cold snap = ice storm

truthful sight = true seeing

polymorph is still polymorph (SG pg 111)

arcane tether = magic jar

nature’s grasp = planar ally*

*the dnd 5e spell planar ally is a very different spell than what the listed effects of “nature’s grasp” are, but it is the spell used in the podcast at this particular juncture for this purpose. I would guess they changed it because technically speaking “planar ally” might not be able to do what happens in the podcast (it was a very rule-of-cool moment). either way, dope moment, very understandable change.

Spells cast that they don’t name in the book but are real 5e spells!

Taako uses “Mage Hand” on HTBG pg 135

Killian uses the feather duster to cast “Feather Fall” on HTBG pg 148

Merle casts “Light” on HTBG pg 160

it doesn’t say the name, but in PTTM pg 123 Taako casts “Crown of Madness” on the gerbil guy, which is a Horrifying spell

the crickets cast “Dominate Person” to control Taako in PTTM in case anyone’s interested.

I can’t fucking figure out what he meant by “ghostly voice” as a spell Jenkins used. My best guess is a modified use of “Magic Mouth”, or maybe “Minor Illusion”. Makes sense, Magic Mouth is only 2nd level and Minor Illusion is a cantrip, and Jenkins is a shitty wizard.

pg 11 SG - this is Scorching Ray (confirmed)

Angus uses “Mage Hand” several times throughout the SG gn (pg 174-175, 241), never with the little box that normally appears to explain spells, but Taako does compliment him on it and uses the term “mage hand”, so we know that’s what the spell is.

pg 191 SG Angus is likely using the spell “Detect Magic” here, since it shows you both the presence of magic and what school it’s from (e.g. illusion), and he mentions illusion magic specifically.

also on pg 191 SG Taako starts to cast “Dispel Magic” but is stopped.

pg 207 SG - Merle is casting “Divination” here

pg 214 SG - these are probably high-level Scorching Rays, but tbh that aint the part you should be paying attention to on this page lol

pg 236 Carey is actually using a racial feature all dragons and dragonborns have access to - Breath Weapon! since she is a blue dragonborn, she can breath lightning once every short or long rest!

on pg 247 of SG, a spell is cast that breaks a pair of handcuffs off of somebody’s wrists. this could be “Knock”, or a myriad of other spells, but I think “Knock” is the most likely, as it is specifically used for locks, chains, and bindings.

on pg 248 of SG, the spell “Command” is cast

not included in the books, but in LI V (Reunion Tour) pt 1 (which would be during the back half of the Suffering Game GN), Taako casts “Drawmij’s Instant Summons” during an interaction with Garfield. I would highly recommend watching/listening to this scene if you haven’t.

Spells that don’t (seem to) correspond to any dnd 5e spell

Merle makes up a spell called “refresca” in SG. it doesn’t correspond to a real 5e spell, to my knowledge, and I don’t think it’s supposed to.

pg 133 SG - “Maximum Healing” isn’t a dnd 5e spell, to my knowledge. though there are many healing spells in dnd, I don’t think any of them have the express purpose of bringing someone up to full. it’s usually based on dice.

Feats + other shit

CK - Pg 188 Magnus says “berserker blitz!” which is probably a translation of “reckless attack”

Know thy enemy = know your enemy (a feat Magnus gets for being a battle master archetype fighter)

Transmutation mastery = transmuter’s stone (a feat Taako gets @ 6th level for being a transmutation wizard) (probably bc one dangerous rock is enough lol)

destroy undead is a toughie

it’s technically not a spell (not in the way Merle is using it), it’s a use of Channel Divinity (a cleric feat), and while at first it’s called “turn undead”, when you reach level 5 you get to automatically destroy any low-level undead (each time you level up you can destroy one level up of undead), so the ability is called “destroy undead” from that point onward, but you still do the turning bit too, for undead that are higher level than your “destroy undead” threshold.

Ring of chilling frost = ring of frost

Loafers of leaping and springing = boots of striding and springing

Uncanny dodge (a rogue feat) is mentioned when Magnus is doing rogue training with Carey in the 11th hr gn

on their little ‘level up’ pages in the 11th hour gn, it says Magnus is a 10th lvl fighter and 1st lvl rogue, then lists Merle and Taako as a 10th level cleric and a 10th level wizard. that would mean Magnus is an 11th level character, while Taako and Merle are still 10th level. I’m pretty sure Magnus is 9th level fighter 1st level rogue (making him also a 10th level character) in the podcast, but I could be wrong. not super important.

thieves cant = thieves cant (not a spell but worth mentioning)

pg 205 SG Merle mentions that clerics channel their power through holy symbols, like his bible. this is true in dnd 5e, no wording change or anything.

pg SG pg 44 - they do level up in the podcast to level 12.

just a whole separate god damn paragraph for this one:

Murder on the Rockport Limited pg 189 - much going on here.

The text suggests that the spell is “spare the dying” but that’s a cantrip which Merle should have for free and Griffin says its a “5th level spell” but he means that Merle is only 4th level and he needs to be 5th level to cast this spell, not that the level of spell is 5.

At 5th level, clerics gain access to 3rd level spells, so I think he means that Merle can’t cast 3rd level spells since he’s only a 4th level cleric. So we’re looking for a 3rd level spell that clerics can use.

It could be two spells, and I’m pretty sure I know which one it is - Revivify. Technically it could also be Mass Healing Word but I think he’d have healed Taako too if that was the case, and if Magnus was Dead Dead (which I don’t think he was) it wouldn’t do anything.

death in dnd is weird. If you drop to 0 hit points, you are knocked unconscious (though colloquially this is often referred to as death). You then have to make death saving throws (roll a d20, no modifiers) - 3 successes you are stable, 3 fails you’re Dead Dead.

BUT

You die immediately if the damage you take minus the health you have left is more than your hit point total. So, if you go farther into the negatives than your hit point maximum, it’s insta death.

I don’t think this happened to Magnus. Angus survived the jump just fine. I think the boys misunderstood how death works bc it’s confusing. fair.

But the gist is Merle wants to cast Revivify, Griffin says he’s not high enough level, they convince him, even though it wasn’t really necessary in the first place.

this exchange does not occur in the podcast. Magnus falls unconscious and is healed with no problem.

a pattern I’ve noticed is as they go on, more and more things have their normal dnd names. lmk if you know why that is - maybe bc of the whole OGL/dnd one drama?

[millionsknives]

hadestown thots (as requested):

first of all here’s a pic of the cast after curtain call sorry its only six pixels wide

also im pretty sure i was standing right next to one of the ensemble members (alex puette, tall guy standing behind orpheus in the picture) on the subway earlier that day

ok what is there to say about patrick page that hasnt already been said. i love it when he enters with ‘i missed ya’ and the people in the audience who aren’t familiar with the show are like wtf [nervous laughter]. the role was literally written for him so it’s no surprise that he just owns it but after seeing him my memory was wiped of the hades i saw on tour i genuinely cannot remember the other guy because patrick page is Thee Guy

eva noblezada STOLE. THE MF. SHOW. seeing her perform live changed me and changed fundamentally how i see the show. when i saw the tour in los angeles it felt like orpheus was the main character. but with eva’s eurydice it’s her world and we are just living in it. her eurydice wants so badly and it comes through brutally despite her insistence that she doesnt need anyone or anything and her fear to have anything lest it slip away. every note was exactly where it needed to be, the quality of her voice and technique is stupendous, even when she’s sobbing on her hands and knees her voice is clarion and pitch perfect. i saw her at the stage door after and SHE said thank you to US and i was like no no no no thank YOU.

jewelle blackman as persephone slayyyyed she’s kinda crazy and i love that for her, though i wish some of the vocals could have been altered to let her go into her super low range like she did when she played one of the fates

sayo oni was orpheus and i loved himmm. famously i am not a fan of reeve carney’s orpheus (sorry) so me n emma were elated to have a fresh voice in the mix. his voice was clear and sure and gorgeous and i had been kind of afraid that even if orpheus was really good he would b overshadowed by eva because she’s such a powerhouse, but they matched & blended well in skill and vocals and i had nothing to worry about. orpheus 2 me only works as a character if he’s naive and childlike and ya boy pulled it off so well.

malcolm armwood was a fantastic understudy hermes (pictured below at the stagedoor with his BEAUTIFUL family and/or friends), although i really REALLY wanted to see lillias white in the role just to see what flavors she would inject to hermes as a woman, mainly in her relationships w persephone and orpheus. but it was fun to have a young hermes bc most of the hermes that i’ve seen/heard have been like 40+ but armwood brought a youthful buoyancy to the role that contrasted with the aged hades+persephone but still seemed older and wiser and ageless next to sayo oni’s childlike orpheus

the fates were much more vindictive and close to villainous in this version. on tour they were a more neutral force

the tour didnt have the elevator in the middle of the turntable, instead there was a door that opened up to the back of the set with red lights that looked like the front of a train. (this was very cool and in some ways i liked it better bc the bway version just had the drum kit there instead). obv the elevator as the route to hell is unmatched when orpheus turns around at the end but my ideal production has both the train lights door AND the elevator for maximum effect so hades et al can exit/enter via the train or the immediate descent underground as the situation requires

[bellysoupset]

Okay, so following up on the nightmare story - how about Lucas having a panic attack maybe at a concert he goes to with Bella or in a restaurant on a date?

Obvs this one ran away from me, but what can I say, background plot fics are my jam... I also forgot the prompt halfway through, my brain has been working on 2% power

"Oh so he's like famous famous?" Bella had asked, right when they had started to date, about his father. At the time, Lucas had shrugged, all sheepish.

"I mean, he still tours, so yeah..."

She raised her eyebrows, "what's his name again? Do I know him?"

"You listen to screamo music, Bells, you definitely don't know him," Lucas had eye rolled, "his name is Kit Howard."

She stared at him blankly, "yeah, no fucking idea who he is," Bella shrugged and then the entire conversation had slipped away as she climbed on his lap to make out on the couch.

That had been at the very start of their relationship and, while now Bella had a face to put to the name, nearly two years later and she still had no idea who exactly Kit Howard was.

All she knew was that she hated him.

Tonight they were at some stupid gala, one she really didn't want to come to, but that Lucas had been all puppy eyes about and well... There she was. Stuffed in a dress that made her skin itch and didn't let her eat enough, unless she wanted to get a food baby.

Lucas was nowhere to be found, so she sloshed the warm champagne around her flute, letting her eyes glaze over the crowd. Every once in a while, when Luke picked the restaurant where they'd eat or in the rare moments they had gone to the bank together, she'd be reminded of how incredibly different their lives had been until that point.

Lucas was one of those, she thought with a snort, watching as people fake smiled and networked, all the conversations too bubbly and superficial to mean anything. Her people didn't do bubbly social conversation, but that didn't make them better. She was reminded of drunk screaming and parties paid for with the rent money.

"Hi," Lucas took the flute from her hand and downed it all in one go, "having fun?"

"I was before you stole my drink," she deadpanned, turning to face him. Lucas was squeezed in a smoking tuxedo, butterfly tie and all to match and he had that plastic, painful smile on that made her want to claw at his face. She settled for cupping his cheeks.

"Are you having fun?"

"Not a fucking ounce," the posh accent slipped into his voice as he turned his face to kiss her palm, "just let them announce the award and then we can get the hell out of here."

"I love you," Bella grinned, closing the space between them with a small kiss.

She had no idea what the award was for, so Bella lurked on the back of the ballroom, watching as Lucas went from person to person, painful smile on, shaking hands, taking pictures. A true politician, like he wanted to be. She shook her head as a small voice said this is your future, in her ear.

The "Diversity Award of Arts" or whatever it was named got called soon after and, after many pictures, the receiver of the award - some white dude she had never seen - got off the stage and the music started playing.

Time to leave, she thought with a sigh of relief, looking around the room, searching for Lucas, but he was nowhere to be found.

The music volume went up, an invitation for couples to join the dance floor and Bella finally moved from the wall she had been trying to blend with, feeling a weird sense of dread wash over her. She had no idea why, but something felt off.

The more she looked, the more it seemed Lucas had simply vanished in thin air. More people were joining the dance floor, making it harder for her to stop him and Bella pushed through the couples, making it outside the hotel's ballroom and fishing her phone out of her purse.

Bells: where are u???

She waited for him to answer, for him to even read, but no such luck. After five more minutes of nothing, she pressed the call button and glued the phone to her ear.

Lucas didn't pick up, but it help her find him, as "Pour Some Sugar On Me" started playing faintly from another room. She followed the noise and sure enough he was there...

Lucas was braced against a random wall, the bin of the room between his feet and he had his eyes squeezed shut, chest going up and down with labored breath.

"Luke?" Bella rushed forward, the party entirely forgotten, as she planted a hand on his back. Even through the tux jacket, she could feel he was trembling, "Lucas, what's wrong?!"

He sucked in a breath, gasped out something that she did not understand and then gagged harshly. Bella's heart squeezed, as she tried to figure out how had that sudden illness happened. She looked around the room, trying to piece together the fastest route out-

"Bell, I can't- I can't breathe."

Very few things could send her into a panic, but those words did it.

"Hospital," she decided, because he couldn't breathe, "C'mon, Lu-"

He shook his head, gasped again and clawed at his tie, trying to get it undone, "Bell-"

"I got you, I got you-" she whispered feverishly, undoing the knot before he could choke himself and the first button for good measure. Lucas' face was milky white, not red though and he sucked in another desperate breath.

"Lucas, we have to-"

"It'ssssthis fucking song," he slurred, trying to cover his ears and finally, finally, it dawned on her.

Bella planted both her hands to his ears and urged him away from the wall and through the room, as far away from the ballroom as they could. They made it as far as the hallway before Lucas collapsed against a wall and crumbled down to the ground, breathing heavily.

He was shaking like a leaf as she crouched down next to him, dress be damned and planted a hand on his shoulder, "breathe, Lucas..." she whispered, hoping against hope he could hear her, "with me, alright?"

He nodded, throat bobbing dangerously as Lucas breathed through his mouth, mimicking her. He held it in, then let it out slowly, then again. He leaned his head back, chest jostling with an airy, sick sounding burp.

"Fuck."

"Yeah," she eyed him worriedly, "... Do you want to talk about it?"

Lucas' opened his eyes to look at her, suddenly exhausted, "when we get home?"

"Okay," she leaned in, planted a kiss on his shoulder, "how's your stomach?"

"Settling down," he sighed, leaning onto her and pressing his forehead to hers, "Can we go home?"

"Give it a minute, babe," Bella ran her nails through his hair, combing the chocolate waves back and looking over his shoulder, glad they were all alone. Lucas buried his face on her neck with a sigh.

"So tonight took a turn."

"Uhm," she grinned, kissing the top of his head, "are all fancy parties this exciting?"

"Only if your date is Lucas Atwood himself," he scoffed and she rolled her eyes.

"Lucky me then."

[miekasa]

no cus 😭 dad levi au x med su where,, holden looks up to him so much that, she too, is insistent on entering the field herself. ofc the 5 y/o still doesn’t actually know the realities of the medical world but whenever she goes to visit her dad in his office and sees him in his scrubs, she looks at him with the biggest eyes, just in awe. she asks for a pair of scrubs and a white coat (obv with ackerman embroidered into it) of her own and you think it’s the strangest thing ever that this five year if asking you for a white coat for christmas. she just admires him that much ☺️

kiaan thinks his dad looks goofy in his scrubs and giggles every time he sees the sight but is mesmerized by all the equipment at the hospital. (i lOve the idea of levi being a neurosurgeon,) kiaan still doesn’t really understand what surgery is, and gets quite squirmish and clings onto his dad when levi goes into detail trying to explain it to him. he does, in fact, have a play med kit (a gift from levi to his beloved) at home and drags levi or holden into playing with him.

when aria was born, you best believe the obstetrician and the nurses were on their best behavior because we’re talking about Levi Ackerman M.D., Head of the Neuro Department’s soon-to-be youngest daughter. the nurses have heard about how cold and stern he can be with his co-workers and students, but they see a whole ‘nother side of him when he gently holds aria for the first time with the softest eyes peering down at her. just a father and his precious children.

STOP IT RIGHT NOWWWWW other kids ask for play kitchens or those toddler sized range rovers, and Holden requests a very official white coat with her name embroidered on it. She has a few plastic doctor toys on loan from her brother, but her most prized possession isn’t her coat, it’s an actual stethoscope (gift from Hange) that she treats like gold. Levi always stresses to her that she doesn’t have to want to be a doctor just because he’s one, but Holden always shakes her head and gives him an all too familiar pout, before reassuring him, “I wanna be Dr. Ackerman, too!”

The idea of a three year old boy laughing at his dad being in scrubs is so so precious pls. Levi’s coming home from being on call for 12 hours (which is the longest shift he’s willing to take since Holden was born—and even then that’s far too long away from you and the kids), back from a long day of saving lives—and his son is giggling that “Daddy’s already in his PJs!” Kiaan couldn’t care less that Levi does brain surgery for a living, to him his daddy wears pajamas to work. Despite being sorta squeamish when Kiaan does learn/ask about what Levi does, and teasing him for his scrubs, Kiaan still thinks it’s cool. Not understanding doesn’t stop him from dressing up like Levi during pajama day at school, or using one of Levi’s many fleeces as his jacket of choice on a chilly walk to school, or asking Holden to “listen to his lungs.”

The pressure the newer/younger folks on the obstetrics team in charge of your labor and delivery feels is insane. The more senior nurses are relaxed—the ones that have known Levi since he completed his residency and have watched him work his way up to being on the hospital board, one of which even helped to deliver both Holden and Kiaan. But God fucking forbid the residents miss a single thing on their checklist when delivering Mrs. Ackerman’s child. (They don’t, everything runs smoothly, and Levi, of course, thanks them all generously for their time and effort. They’re hardly processing the praise, however, still trying to render the image of Dr. Ackerman holding a newborn so very gently into their minds. Maybe their neuro rotations won’t be as scary as everyone makes them out to be). 

[ohcoolnice]

TDA/TLH/TID parallels

WAIT I'M CRYING

so I talked about how Clary Fairchild and Jace Herondale are soulmates and how it's even more beautiful when you remember they are descendents of James Herondale and Matthew Fairchild, also soulmates.

but wait it gets better in so many ways (some of these might be a stretch but who cares):

1) if (better be) Julian Blackthorn really is a decendent of Lucie Herondale then his not only being soulmates romantically but also being parabatai with Emma Carstairs (obv not directly descended from Cordelia but they're still related) is also Lucie and Cordelia's parabatai soulmate connection coming sort of full circle.

2) Ty and Kit are not together but Kit running away from him is a perfect mirror of the Herondale he's descended from, who essentially ran away from not only shadowhunters but the Herondale line that gave us Lucie, who is the (possible) great grandmother (great great?) of Ty and idk what it means but it feels like a great parallel. It also mirrors Will running away from his family, only Kit is running away from only Ty, and by running away with Jem and Tessa he is now getting a family. I'm soft.

3) Izzy and Simon: Another Lightwood falling in love with a mundane (sort of. Simon was technically a vampire at the time but irrelevant) and it mirrors beautifully Sophie and Gideon and I'm gonna cry.

[morningmask27]

Pinestar brings Tigerkit to be a kittypet au

interesting au. I'll add mistkit and nightkit to it tho. also nightkit is a tortie

but now for the au (warning the text under the cut is long af).

pinestar announced that he was leaving thunderclan, the clan was in shock obv. but leopardfoot asked him to take his kits with him. she was too weak to take care of them properly and losing her "mate" was going to be too much. pinestar agreed and took the 3 little kits with him.

pinestar's two legs took them all in and named them pine, milo (tiger), piper(mist), and mochi (night). the 4 cats live together happily. pinestar never tells them about the clans, fearing what would happen if milo wants to join them. milo is still a pretty adventurous kit and explores quite a lot. during one of his trips, he finds tiny.

he had been attacked by thistleclaw, but bluefur managed to stop the gray asshole before tiny was killed. tiny tells milo about his life and milo feels super bad for the kit. bluefur finds the two young cats. she wanted to take tiny to thunderclan to take care of the kit. milo is curious and asks if he can join too. bluefur recognizes him as tigerkit and takes him with her too.

milo gets renamed tigerpaw and gets rosetail as his mentor. tiny is named icekit and shortly nursed by robinwing before becoming bluefur's apprentice.

rosetail is a great mentor and tigerpaw's temper is properly dealt with. he's still energetic really wants to protect his clan, but he's not ambitious™. thistlecunt had been banished after all the shit he caused (including spottedpaw). thistle was obviously pissed, but he wasn't really able to do anything yet.

tigerpaw and icepaw train well and are close friends. icepaw has a crush on redpaw and tiger helps the two toms get close (red also had a crush). they eventually get their names; tigerclaw and icefoot (were in old thunderclan, names are boring) and they are pretty good warriors. redpaw becomes retail and not long after ice and red become mates. they don't plan to have kits.

bluefur has her kits, but since thistleclaw isn't a threat she keeps them in thunderclan, their names become mistyfoot, stonefur, and mossflower. tigerclaw mentored stonepaw, icefoot mentored mistypaw, and redtail mentored mosspaw.

rosetail becomes deputy instead of bluefur and later becomes rosestar. she makes redtail her deputy.

during all this tiger kept visiting his siblings. he loved them and they admired him and clan life. he tells them that they were actually born in the clans, but both siblings decide that they prefer kittypet life.

now. mochi has kits one day. rust, princess, filou, tommy, and luna. she learns that her twolegs are going to give them away and asks tigerclaw to take them in thunderclan. now we have an entire litter of 3-moon old kits that tigerclaw has to take care of. willowpelt gave birth to graykit, bluefur and rosetail had sandkit (also pinestar isn't related to poppydawn/rosetail/thistleclaw... not at all no) and the clan found the siblings ravenkit, dustkit, chestnutkit, and cherrykit. mochi's kits get the names firekit (rusty), swankit (princess) robinkit (filou) shrewkit (tommy), and daisykit (luna) tigerclaw is their primary caretaker.

sadly shrewkit and chestnutkit pass because of greencough and starvation. cherrykit, robinkit, and graykit disappear (they were stolen by shadowclan). the remaining kits reach apprentice age and their mentors become bluefur (fire), icefoot (swan), spottedleaf (daisy), whitestorm (sand), redtail (dust), and tigerclaw (raven).

life is great, spotted gets the prophecy of fire like in canon because riverclan and shadowclan are a bit pushy. rosestar has a real feeling this is about firepaw and asks bluefur to keep a close eye on the young tom.

firepaw keeps being an apprentice and one day he meets yellowfang. she was banished from shadowclan and was trying to escape fire gives her food and helps her a bit after they fought. firepaw still gets punished for doing so but like in canon.

but yeah things go pretty much like in canon for the first books, except that tigerclaw isn't evil. fire and fam go to the moonstone, they return when shadowclan is raiding the camp, lionheart dies, some other cats die too. frostfur's kits are safe as yellowfang protected them, bref yellowfang is not officially a member of thunderclan.

yada, yada, yada, thunderclan is stressed and on high protection mode. nursery constantly guarded, apprentices can't go out without a warrior... one day they find spottedleaf dead and daisypaw badly wounded, barely clinging to life. frostfur's kits have been stolen. yellowfang's gone. rosestar is not happy but the clan has to take care of daisypaw first. bluefur and redtail have some herb knowledge, just the basics, but it's enough for now.

firepaw, swanpaw and sandpaw are sent out first to look for yellowfang. here tiger would still be close to killing her if he gets his paws on her. they find yellowfang, firepaw nearly attacks her but swan and sand calm the idiot before shit goes bad. yellow explains that clawface stole the kits and they get help from the shadowclan elders and a thunderclan patrol to save the kits.

there they find sootstripe(graykit), thistlebush(cherrykit) and sparrowfang (robinkit). the 3 cats did not recognize their old clanmates/littermates. bon battle happens and brokenstar is chased away. nightpelt leader and names cinderfur deputy.

firepaw, swanpaw, and sandpaw get their warrior names fireheart, swanflight, and sandstorm (swan and sand are very gay) sparrowfang returns to thunderclan to be with their clanmates. soot and thistle stay in shadowclan. tigerclaw is so happy to see his nibling (gender-neutral form of niece/nephew). daisy heals back to full health with yellowfang's help (she choose to join thunderclan)

fire, swan, and sand are sent to get windclan back, brokenstar attacks thunderclan but manages to escape with the rest of his followers. they explore twolegplace and meet thistleclaw. he had formed a group of his own, thistleclan with many rogues and brutish kittypets (this is the variant of bloodclan in this au).

with the duo of brokenstar and thistleclaw working together, they plague the clans. especially shadowclan and thunderclan. cinderfur is killed pretty quickly, flintfang becomes deputy. they bring the carrionplace disease in shadowclan, killing a stupidly huge amount of cats. they even try to get it to thunderclan, but the cat that was supposed to bring the sickness over didn't have enough luck and got run over by a car (oh yeah, they don't go personally in clan territory, they know they would be killed, so they send cats from thistleclan over to do the dirty job for them) bref a lot of cats are killed. including rosestar, bluefur, redtail, lionheart, cinderfur, nightstar... tigerclaw is chosen to become thunderclan's leader. flintfang becomes shadowclan's.

but chaos still isn't done. a cat from thistleclan causes the fire in thunderclan territory that kills even more cats and takes 5 lives away from tigerstar (some thistleclan cats attacked him) he had named icefoot his deputy but he gets killed during the fire so now fireheart is thunderclan's deputy.

thunderclan still can't catch a break and the dogs get loose in the territory. the dog chase somehow strips tigerstar of his 4 remaining lives (mauled a bit too hard by the dogs) bref fireheart Firestar now (he gets his lives from tigerstar, rosestar, bluefur, shrewkit, mochi (who was accepted in starclan!) pinestar, yellowfang, spottedleaf (who he has a sibling relationship with!!!!!!) and some thunderclan cat who died because of thistleclan)

bon, now firestar names whitestorm deputy and the battle against thistleclan. the battle is terrible, many cats die, but both thistleclaw and brokenstar are killed and peace can come back. 

bon some extra notes

whitestorm still dies in the battle, firestar names sandstorm deputy

tiger never gets a mate nor kits. bramble, tawny, hawk, moth and tadpole aren’t his. bramble and tawny and brokenstar’s kits thunderclan took in after the battle. hawk, moth and tadpole are leopardstar’s kits, who is actually a petty little bitch (affectionate) in this au and annoys thunderclan a whole lot

frostfur’s kits live a normal life, get apprenticed when they’re 6 moons old. bright and swift don’t get the dog treatment like in canon, but swift is still killed by them

sootstripe still has a romance outside of his clan with a windclan cat, his kits stay in shadowclan and are the chosen ones for the journey to the sundrown place.

bramble and tawny are pretty ostracised in thunderclan but firestar does his best to protect them and basically becomes their father. sand and swan have two kits. squirrel and leaf. the 4 kits see each other as cousins. bramble isn’t such an ass as in canon.

stonefur, mistyfoot and mossflower vibe in the background. this au is too big and messy fro me to include them more with the big story. one of them has a fling with another windclan cat and their kit is the chose one for windclan

[national-nobody-writes]

WELP, I’ve now binged through Heartstopper like 3 times in five days, lol. Whoops. Needless to say it was excellent, but ngl I had a bit of a journey with it & I actually wasn’t as sold on it after my first watch through as most people seemed to be.

Though I’ve settled on a near perfect 9/10 for my overall rating after having sat with it for a bit, at the end of my first watch through I was actually only at a 7.5.

I know, I know, that seems low. But listen. You simply cannot convince me that Nick would put up with that much of Harry’s bullshit.

(full thoughts under the cut)

Now obviously, Show!Nick does NOT have to be the same as Comics!Nick. It’s an adaptation, and from an acting standpoint I loved Kit’s portrayal of the character. He was so sweet and so earnest and so exactly right for the part. He did a phenomenal job. Honestly, beyond this one thing, I had next to no qualms about the changes made to the story in order to make it work better as a show (including most of the other things that specifically added a little drama/conflict bc like, I get it). But listen.

In the comics, Nick literally DOES NOT HESITATE to call Harry out on his bullshit when he’s bullying anyone in front of him. Not ONCE. Whether that’s Charlie or anyone else. He chews the kid out multiple times, having zero issue with speaking his mind or calling him out for shitty behavior. It’s a prominent part of his characterization and one of the many key things that immediately distinguishes Nick from Ben.

In the comics, Nick isn’t afraid of being seen in public with Charlie (unlike Ben). It doesn’t occur to him to be self conscious about the idea of people knowing they’re close friends (also unlike Ben), and he does not let his friends get away with saying homophobic bullshit, even before he starts to realize his own queerness. This is also somewhat true in the show, but in comparison? Nick is often meek around Harry and his ‘lads,’ and I was gobsmacked by that.

Don’t get me wrong, that’s not an inherently bad change. Quite the opposite, conceptually. Nick shouldn’t be too perfect or without flaws. It’d cheapen the character and make him less realistic. And obv he has an arc through the show that eventually has him coming to grips with his friends (mainly Harry) being assholes and deciding that he doesn’t want to be a part of that anymore. But he was a part of it a little, now wasn’t he? At times, he was certainly complicit in his silence. And that is just such a core difference in my mind regarding who Nick is as a person that it doesn’t feel like a valid adaptational difference to me, it just feels wildly out of character.

I guess part of the reason it irks me so much is that clearly, ‘Nick and Ben are parallels to each other & Nick feels guilty about that’ was chosen to be a central part of Nick’s arc in the back half of the show, and I just didn’t love that choice (or at least, how long it lasted). In the comics, when Nick brings up his worry that he’s doing the same thing to Charlie that Ben did, it’s ABUNDANTLY clear that the notion is laughable. In the show, we’re meant to at least somewhat disagree with Charlie when he says ‘this is totally different though!!’ Just look at Nick’s face when Charlie says it; he doesn’t believe him at all.

Maybe I’m just being too overprotective of Nick as a character, but *shrug*

After my second watch through, I did feel less critical about that aspect compared to my initial gut reaction (bc at least Tao’s mistrust and dislike of Nick felt more justified than in the comics), but between that and a few other minor things I don’t really feel the need to get into right now, it did still keep the show from quite reaching that 10/10 for me. There are other ways they could have achieved that same goal of making him flawed, imo, so even though the way they chose may not be inherently bad, it just didn’t work for me, personally.

As a whole though, this is a minor complaint, which is why I ended up bumping my rating back up to a 9/10. The show was just so joyous and well executed, and Alice did an amazing job with the screenplay (like I am literally so impressed wth). The music & cinematography were *chef’s kiss.* I LOVED getting to see more of Elle, Tara, Darcy and Tao. I need way more Isaac b/c he’s great and I want him to have a chance to become more of a developed character. I wish there’d been room/time for more of Nick’s nicer friends to be a part of the story, but I’d be willing to bet that they’d come into the picture in later seasons if we get more. I desperately hope they get a season 2 & I will prob rewatch S1 MANY times between now and then bc it really is so happy-making.

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

so this morning, while scrolling through my fb feed, i came across an nyt opinion/advice piece from a 27yo (ie basically me lmao) who is obviously lucky, in a sense, to finally land their “dream job using my (their) skills” etc. like obvs i can’t read it bc of the stupid “you get one free article a month if you either don’t have an account or subscription” (my one free article was used up reading an article about adult adhd like last week)….. thing that nyt does.

but anyway. back on topic lol. the crux of the article in both the headline and the quote snippet was that the advice asker was really dissatisfied with the 40 hour work week that came with her “dream job”. with how having this 40hr workweek gave her no time to do her busy chores like house cleaning or laundry or didn’t even give her time to let her have her hobbies/creative pursuits (whatever they were/are).

however, in the comments on the article (and apparently from those who read the article on the comments, the advice/opinion column writer) a good bunch of like gen Xer’s and baby boomers (im assuming) were ganging up on the asker like “suck it up princess, it’s what life is!!! i work 70+ hours a week and LOVE IT and have just resigned myself to the fact that i have NO time left over to do my “chores”! learn to O U T S O U R C E these life admin tasks to someone else!!! everyone MUST LEARN this in america!!! it makes life so much easier ☺️” and such.

of course, there were plenty of the same bs comments that you see on anything about careers or home ownership towards millennials/gen Z’ers about “learn to go WITHOUT and save save save and squander your time so that you NEVER live and HAVE FUN or TIME FOR HOBBIES! my bet is that your parents did that and they survived just fine while also raising your ungrateful spiteful ass (not including any type of health issues they might have picked up from such long hours/shitty working conditions) so why can’t you just L E A R N to do the same you precious spoilt brat!!! because the reality of Real Life™️ is that you can’t have it both ways!!! then you’ll have early retirement guaranteed, hopefully!!! and know that hobbies really are time wasters most of the time ☺️ or at least they were for me!!! and your precious so-called “creative pursuits” most definitely are time wasters. no one needs THOSE.” and so on so forth.

they also had jibes for her bc the asker wanted to start a family at some point apparently… and apparently it’s “much worse” once you have kids. like. thanks geraldine and henry. you’ve just told us how much you’ve resented having your kids/family in one fell swoop. your opinion which you’ve framed as unhelpful, condescending advice is now voided.

like. i don’t know how rhonda or paul or deandra or philip could miss the point so fucking entirely. why the fuck should anyone- nay everyone (bc that’s what they make it sound like)- learn to outsource their busy chores like laundry/house cleaning/grocery shopping or god knows what else- to someone else???? why is that apparently a standard expected to be learnt in the US???

like why the fuck are you so desperate for people not to have free time to do these things (unless of course they live in some of those shitty nyc or other big city apartment blocks that don’t come with individual private laundries in the self-contained flats or a communal laundry on like the bottom floor or w/e for example) frank????

deidre why the hell are you so bitterly hankering about “be grateful that you have it easier than most and learn that hobbies mean jackshit and just sell your soul and time to your boss!!! when will the generation stopping being “me me me!!!” and “work life balance!” and think about the company’s bottom line!! learn that “work life balance” is never important! work like a slave for 50 years and see if your valuable experience is needed then! that’s when you’ll learn that those hours where you were never being lazy, instead of just expecting life to be handed to you, will have paid off!” or whatever other ridiculously toxic capitalist bullshit they were spitting out.

obviously there were FAR MORE people actually supporting the question asker and echoing the idea that the 40hr workweek is now redundant. they were also putting down the opinion/advice piece writer’s advice to the asker….. that was apparently similar to the all the bitter people on the comments saying that the 27yo was just “asking for too much” and had to “learn to suck it up instead of being a petulant and overly selfish dick!!” etc etc etc. we all know the spiel as thoroughly as the macarena now.

because whats so fucking wrong with wanting time to yourself and wanting time to do your busy chores??? why the fuck should i be outsourcing these to other people (unless of course you’re still living at home and your parents are still like “hey what clothes do you need washed i’m doing a load rn” or you have a partner that works from home or has some type of parental leave etc)???? i want to do my own laundry. i want to do my own gardening (ok lawn mowing or tree lopping (if needed) i’d actually outsource bc i can’t lift or push lawn mowers bc they’re heavy af for me or and i obvs can’t use a chainsaw)… but i want to do my own grocery shopping. i want to do my own cooking (although i would consider the meal kit services once i had job that allowed me to afford like $50 a month for one of those meal kits sub services) i want to do my own cleaning.

why, if i lived in the US and not australia, am i just expected to learn to outsource all of these tasks even if i don’t have the money for it??? like why the actual fuck are so many of you so fucking weirdly proud of being absolutely worked into the fucking ground for your “great country” (although this is actually bleeding through to australia too and i hate it); working like literally close to 100 hours a week???

because i wasn’t aware you had to be whatever the fuck his name is from 127 hours and cut your fucking limbs off just to fucking survive a job in either corporate america or just let alone any goddamned job in america….. all so they can supposedly “learn to like working for free and devaluing your worth even more to your employer through overworking yourself and always being available!!! mental health is for those who aren’t built for the Real Adult World™️!!! this person is a prime example of the younger generations being weak and dissatisfied with life so often because of their “oh poor little me!!! care for me!!” act. NO ONE CARES FOR YOU today. stop being so over-expectant/demanding and juvenile!!! only YOU care yourself and you should NEVER expect someone else to pick you up from YOUR bootstraps!!! you’re fucking whiny and conceited babies. the lot of you!!!”

because i honestly don’t know who the fuck would enjoy working 70+ hours week with no time to themselves to do what they enjoy doing…. or enjoy having zilch time to catch up on errands and life admin duties or just general house chores; especially if you’ve moved cities or an entire fucking state/s away from your family and support network. let alone doing the same thing on 40 hours a week.

and on top of everything, let’s not even get started on the time spent commuting to and from work or even commuting for life errands/tasks etc etc- especially if you’re like me and you’re nowhere near the capital city’s centre (ie sydney australia for me) for there to be reliable enough public transport and longer commute times to certain places in those cities (that i’ve bitched about plenty before on other posts on here about work/jobs).

get your head out of your asses warren and viola et al and realise that work life balance is literally NOT ASKING FOR MUCH and is asking employers to just have basic respect for their employees time if they work fulltime. it’s literally detrimental to ones health if they have to sacrifice what feels like (or what is literally like) their entire fucking existence to their employer just for meagre pay and just to fucking survive.

because i read a heart-breaking article last night from huffpost (posted by buzzfeed on fb) about a woman in the US who literally hid her having a second baby from her employer for an entire fucking year (literally the entire pregnancy and birth of the baby and the first 6 months post pushing the baby out) during the pandemic all because she was scared she would get demoted or lose her leading of a project and lose her bs “temp” job which had really turned into full time work although the employer never said anything about it being actually full time hours or whatever…. and plus the lady herself was apparently to scared to ask to be put on the books fulltime too for some weird reason.

like honestly. fuck capitalism. fuck thinking that “work life balance is just too hard for employers to add and regulate. it’s an excuse and ploy for workers to be unprofessional, unproductive and lazy!” or whatever the fuck. everyone deserves time to themselves to pursue their interests/hobbies and busy chores/life admin. no one deserves to waste their entire life working 70+ work weeks for those employers who literally have no respect for their employees personal lives and time.

and particularly during the time that is the pandemic as we’ve seen so many companies having to learn to wholeheartedly embrace working from home and more flexible schedules for their workers. worklife balance is absolutely fucking beneficial for everyone involved.

america fix your bullshit work ethic right now lmao.