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natsmagi · 2 months

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honestly the more i hear about engstars and its TLs the more i absolutely dread the inevitable release of poltergeist and what may ensue from it, bc if if the translators themselves are already invalidating arashis identity then i Really Truly do not want to see how theyll translate natsume and tsumugis microaggressions/transphobia towards her. esp since ive noticed a rise in people being comfortably transphobic towards her, and i REALLY do not wish to see natsume and tsumugi being stupid fucking morons be used as evidence to discredit her

and i think this is all the more reason why its VERY IMPORTANT for engstars to DIRECTLY ACKNOWLEDGE arashi and her gender. bc sometimes characters are STUPID and RUDE and APATHETIC. enstars is a story with NUANCED and FLAWED CHARACTERS, and when a character is being a fucking asshole youre meant to PROVE THEM WRONG. but they dont even acknowledge arashi as a girl themselves. so, if you do use engstars, please keep pressuring them bc omfg this is so bad and i can only see it getting worse

#a bit of a serious post sorreys its kinda me venting im just preparing for the worst #We should be legally allowed to beat the shit out of ntmg for what they said to arashi #i dont remember the exact quotes verbatim but tsumugi basically just expressed confusion abt her gender identity #n natsume flatout said something like shes lying to kids by calling herself a princess #so.#not good.#having characters show bigotry is not Necessarily a bad thing. but that is ONLY WHEN that bigotry gets disproven #but. engstars arent doing that.#theyre not disproving it.#they keep pretending like her gender is. well. Nothing #so i worry that this story is just gonna fuel the flames and make everything so much worse than it already is #anyway. if u play engstars please do keep pestering them for blatantly ignoring and misrepresenting arashis identity #i try to stay out of whatever goes on on that app but. Man.#she deserves better #But hey knowing them maybe theyll just fuckin cut out the dialogue alltogether to further act like trans people and their issues arent real #nat rambles #im a bit peeved as u can see sorry i just know how this fandom is and how they cant handle nuance or flawed characters #and im REALLY not happy with happyele REWRITING THE TEXT #and getting RID OF SAID NUANCE #GRHAGGRAHGRAGHHGHGH #sorry.#its like 3:30am i just needed to get this off my chest #maybe ill delete this but god.#free my girl

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invertedrat · 3 months

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I wish i could just vent to someone but it always feels terrible cuz someone out there has it worse or i'm just being annoying and its a wste of time god i hate feeling like this why is my life just problem after problem

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des-fangirl · 5 months

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Crying my eyes out day 2 this time not because of blorbo at all honesty i dont even remember why at this point, i just cry all evening. I think it's getting worse from day to day, i didnt have the energy to repeat the phrase "food is good" to my mom even. My eyes hurt my head hurt ohmy god

#👍#vent #IM SO SORRY I NEEDED TO SAY THAT IG #i suspect that it's all because i finished reading dw book and didn't start a dw book after that #im rereading good omens rn. not a dw book #it's a joke obviously but it WOULD be funny if i was going insane just because of no fixation in my brain #sleep when.#maybe i could not go to school tomorrow #mom pleawe. you enev noticed how tired ivwass #ok im typing real bad

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lovsome · 10 months

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#i need to vent a little im sorry pls ignore this if u are bothered by my thoughts #SH tw !!!!!!#this morning i was supposed to have my weekly therapy session but i had to cancel bc my mom got covid and obviously stayed home from work #and i do online therapy and i didnt feel comfortable doing it with my mom around but i really needed to do it tbh #and then my professor replied to my email with all of the things ive been working on since august and didnt say anything about the material #he just asked to call me on the phone tomorrow and i started to spiral…. like Spiral with a capital s #even now thinking about it my stomach sinks bc i have this feeling that his feedback is going to be negative and i just know my #barely existent self esteem is going to break and idk what im gonna do with myself then #this afternoon while i was spiraling all i wanted to do was /hurt/ myself. i kept thinking that i wasnt good enough and i had done a #horrible job.. so bad that he couldnt even tell me by email but needed to do it on the phone and i felt like throwing up and i couldnt get #/that/ thought out of my head and i could only cry #and all of this not even actually knowing what my professors feed back is going to be because this is just all in my head #but i was talking to my school friends and they were like oh its gonna be fine even if he doesnt like it u can still put the project in ur #portfolio hes not even our professor anymore and so on #and i kept saying that i knew that but i just could not handle that sort of feedback and rejection mentally #i was telling them that i knew i would crumble if i got real negative feedback and i was terrified of that and they just couldnt get it and #idk it made me feel really lonely #im a bit calmer now but i feel so depressed #i am really anticipating something that will hurt really bad

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dreamerlynx · 1 year

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#sigh. puts up the barricades please I do not want to see d.nf on my dash #and again I do have it super filtered #I’m just soooo tired every little thing being HARD LAUNCH HARD LAUNCH until the next thing bc of course that didn’t happen #and life went on as usual #look I get it I’m the minority I’m aroace and easily exhausted by shipping esp real ppl shipping #but it’s times like this I miss the lore fandom bc man the complete focus on platonic dynamics and relationships was so nice #look if they ever actually say they’re dating I guess I’ll eat my words but so far I am not getting the sense that that will ever happen #and so it is extremely annoying to want to follow drm fans and get 90% of One Single Ship #and no sap except as third wheel for said ship #sorry I’m the only one who seems to not care abt George 😭😭 not in a bad way just. he’s fine and funny sometimes I guess but #I Just Don’t Care. and also another thing I need to get off my chest #why do ppl act like George is really shady and passive aggressive and ‘oh he should interact w X person who wronged drm he’d ROAST THEM!’#like huh #George is one of the most Don’t talk about anything be vague be private ppl ever #I’m not saying he hasn’t had his moments of public support for drm but I just don’t get it #(it’s probably because he’s so vague and noncommittal that fans can just project their own feelings onto him)#sigh anyway I’m done that makes me feel better a bit #no tags just venting #<- it’s funny that became my venting tag now that I only vent in tags #bc some things such as this I am afraid to even put under read more lol

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lythiumd · 4 months

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Being the non-artist in a group of artists and being ashamed of showing what you draw to the rest because you feel like you’re dogshit mood -> Activated

#art #for real I feel so bad #I am so fucking shitty compared to them it’s not even funny #i love their work so bad #I have school trauma related to art and a manual disability #makes me feel like I’m just not worth of being with these people like I’m a complete failure and I do not belong there #sorry needed to vent

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floral-hex · 1 year

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So this chick has been on-and-off again stalking me since high school. I could go into paragraphs of detail (I was about to), but no one wants to read all of that. Suffice to say, I guess she’s had some kind of crush on me for about 15-20 years or so (why??), and every few years it seems she pops up somewhere contacting me to try to persuade me to give her a chance. I should mention we never talked in high school, I actively avoided her, told her I didn’t like her, etc. nothing doing.

Anyway, somehow she’s been on one of my social media pages and saw I was having a hard time lately, so she found my phone number (what?? I hate that you can just find that online) and texted me out of the blue yesterday. Usual protocol is ignore and block so I don’t piss off an unstable person, but they decided to be gross, so

I wasn’t planning on posting anything about this before. If they were creeping around on my pages, mentioning it would only feed into them. Maybe. I don’t know. But this just kind of made me really uncomfortable and their response was shitty. I could have been a lot meaner. I wanted to be. But whatever, that wouldn’t have helped. So I just blocked them and hope that this time it sticks. If they see this, then hey… not cool.

#and then I post this for what? attention?#I dunno… this just made me feel really shitty #like… you can’t just leave me alone?#you know I’m having a rough go at it and you think this is the perfect time to insert yourself into my life?#I don’t care about your puss!#I really really have to reiterate I have never ever had a real conversation with this person #we’ve never talked or hung out and I always avoided them #god this is such high school bullshit. I’m in my fucking 30s. I don’t need this teenage drama.#and I want to imagine all this as just someone who never grew up buuut…#they found my phone number. they went looking for my personal information. they’ve been stalking at least one of my social media pages.#probably twitter but who knows maybe here too #this is like… 15-20 years of this. why? why are you still obsessed with this?#and maybe these texts don’t seem so bad but I’ve had to block them on Facebook too #and that was after my ex and I broke up a few years back #it’s like she waits until my life gets extra shitty and then tries to convince me that we’re old friends & she wants to date finally #fuckin… just… not really cool ya know. damn.#stalker lady… I am not worth all this pining. just move on.#lol but I have been saying “my puss is so wet right now’ to myself all day so that’s a positive #anyway… sorry to post this bullshit. just wanted to vent.#sorry if you read all of this #text

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xxlethal-lunaxx · 6 months

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If anyone relates to this even just a little bit, then I'm so sorry.

#• luna lavinchi speaking •#living with cptsd #cptsd vent #complex ptsd #diet culture trauma #monsters inside me #toxic health culture #ex vegitarian/vegan #emotional flashbacks #health documentaries #dark side of veganism #i should have never been forced to watch these as a child..my mind wasn't ready to understand the information nor tell what was real or not #-i cant try sushi or even think about fish without feeling physically sick and dizzy. i haven't had McDonald's since i was like 6ish years-#-old..i never wanted to share this information but i need to vent. I feel embarrassed and rude for not liking a food chain that most of the #-population does. Smelling or seeing McDonald's makes me wanna puke so bad because of everything those documentaries would say.#I will never be able to eat McDonald's in my life because of how sick and terrified i feel when thinking about the food even the drinks-#-scare the shit out of me. I'm so pissed that I'm triggered. All of the sudden i smell something in the house that smells like McDonald's-#-then the memories come flooding back and i feel like puking so back so i cant even eat dinner. i know this may seem stupid but i am-#-genuinly scared. Im tired of this shit and tired of feeling alone in this.#(anyway sorry. if you read my vent then i appreciate you)#tw food talk #tw diet culture #tw vent in tags #(dont even get me started on parasites cause thats a whole fucking trauma itself. damn it i hate it all. i hate it so much)#(also note: my therapist made me feel so validated weeks ago when i told her during my session that i was traumatized by monsters inside me-#-she literally knew the name of the show before i could even say its name. and she said she also cant watch it and that she saw it as an-#-adult who doesn't have ocd. so she told me she can't even imagine how terrified i was to watch it as a child who was developing ocd.-#-therapist W)

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ultravioletrayz · 8 months

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I was gonna try to write some stuff today, but things have come up. I have so many drafts and requests to work through, everyone who’s sent in a req has amazing ideas that I absolutely love. I’m sorry I’m not able to post anything. 💜💜

#ultravioletrayz #im so tired #and sorry #the struggle is real #my mum’s a bitch #but i love her #…sometimes #I need to update my request guidelines #so I’ll do that i guess #does anybody even read the tags?#if so ignore me lol #currently dying #I need to vent so bad #but im holding back #𖤓violets are blue𖤓 #𖤓beyond violet𖤓

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vellichorsdesire · 6 months

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bedposting beforee i sleep but acckkk summer is so close… i hope it comes faster genuinely … goodnight/ good day you guys..!!!!

#hurghegrhgh small vent ahead kind of but #this is about school yeah… when i say im bad at interacting on here it’s genuinely so much worse in real life #like i’m a loner #and i sit alone whenever theres lunch at school and everything i don’t have anyone to call a friend in school really #i DO have friends but… migrating to the other side of the planet does things to you… you know? all my friends have turned online ones #i used to be dependent on finding friends through my friends themselves but now i can’t do that being in a whole new school and country #and everybody my age just kind of terrifies me in a way? i don’t know what anyones thinking #if i ever actually find a friend i just think they wouldnt compare at all to all the ones ive made before that felt so genuine #i just yknow. got more conscious of all of this because a guy i talk to in my class probably found out i do sit alonein the lunch we share #everything is just hard kind of. ive grown used to the lonliness yeah but it’s there. staying with me #sorry just needed to vent really quick. i need to sleep #❥ vels ramblings

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chiistarri · 6 months

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imsoo normal about guys byw

#sprry this is the start of my downfall im actually going to theow up and vomit and die #fronting daily actually sucks!and i have no restraint on my curiiusity and i have to figure shit out and i literally want to die #cause like i found out shit i didnt want to and its entirely my fault too bro i cant even be upset cause i went looking for it ughhh #i should be allowed to die afterschool so i dont have to feel anything else tbh thatd be a pleasure great thing whwatever #this is genuinelky the repeat of my downfall again literally september all over again and its just march jesus fucking fhrist bro need todi #the nervous system is so dumb what is ooottfvgvsh or whagevr i hate that dumbass acronym i hate healrhcare #serenity save me 🙏 save me serenity 🙏 come home #everyone keeps sayng that but qith donald trump #anyway back to me i need to scream and not just to serenity cause i feel bad🤭 no emojis are tood enougu anymore bro im going to kms #killing myself so fucking hard like a vampire driving a stake through his heart sort of shit ykwim like a siren drowning ro sokething poeti #save me sid 🙏 sid save me actually hed laugh at me for hthis lowkey which is soo deserved cause real bro why am i breaking down at midnight #on a dchool day too bro again and again i dont want to go to mf schooll and be obsessed w k. hes fine but i genuinely cant do my work #lowkey would iet be weird to talk to my ex ab my relationship with him cause like yea i miss him ykwim and i need closure but i got a crush #cause like on one hand its like i was the one who brokenup ykwim like even if the circumstances werewei4d whatever its like why would i hav #the right to even bring it up and i alr crushed on a new guy and like ignoring the uguult i do like him ughh broni want to kms #i love love i just dont love lvoe for myself cause ugh bro i hare one guy idc ab his crushes but he made me hear ab them lke idc idek him #sorry u had a bad experience w bi girls like idk what u want me to say ??? surprise me too ??? tff ugh i hate love girls #i need a gf but the thoigjt of liking a girl genuinely deeply scares me to my core cause i like girls but ppl dont like that i do ykwim #all mu friends are fucking gay bro idek why im so worried ab liking girls like who is there to disappoint but myself and my entire family #noo pressure qt all being oldest and queerest like ok yeah its midnight happy new years. i need this blanket tobsuffocste me #sleep wrappedup alr like a borito burito i dek and its not enoughh i need a soul crushing embrafe to sleep #ok im done i got post vent clarity i need to sleep #post #erics tag #delete later #serenity needs this as a ref in the morning #i beed my mom to cry to but j cant tell her any of this id rather be eaten alive by bugsbro and if i just cry to her without a reason #shell fs go througj my phone and fimd out why anyway so wjats the pointtt my god i tqlk too much and vent too much #gota flair forbthe dramatics ivguess mb

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daz4i · 1 year

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bro i hate my country's politicians so much it's unreal

#i truly and sincerely hope they all die in a fire i am not even slightly joking #they promote violence and encourage an even deeper split between the people. bc it helps them #and it's disgusting. they don't care who they hurt as long as they get more power #actually they DO care who they hurt. they WANT to hurt people!! that's how they get more right wing voters!!!!!#they openly and proudly announce they want palestinians dead and out of their homes and it's sickening #(the fact this is WHY people vote them is even more sickening. they fact they were allowed to get this far is awful)#in addition to that they ofc want the lgbt community dead and they actively hurt women's rights bc how can they not :^)#i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here #sorry for talking politics. i try to avoid it but everyone on social media is talking about it. i'm so tired i hope we all explode fr #actually i'm not done i really need to vent lol #it really feels like there's no hope. the fact it keeps happening. and it gets worse every election cycle #and it's all bc fucking netanyahu is trying to avoid going to jail :^) i hope he dies today right now actually #for years everyone on the left jokes abt moving to another country but now it's becoming literally real #many people already HAVE left the country!!!!! like how fucked up is that!!!!!! that's how bad things are here!!!!!!#there's been rallies and protests for months now. i think nearly half a year at this point bc i remember it started in the winter #but obviously it doesn't do jack shit. bc why would it. if none of the right wing politicians literally get murdered -#- there is no real threat to them and so they have no actual reason to care. i sincerely think someone should take one for the team -#- and kill one of them lol i truly think this is the only solution at this point.#not to mention many of them are literally just. gross people. you hear them talk and can tell they have no experience in politics #they're all violent and constantly yell and this is how they appeal to the other violent people here #which is also why i think violence is the only way they'll understand. but alas if the left becomes violent we will be hated even more #ignoring the fact they have been violent this whole time yeah? they literally try to RUN OVER PROTESTERS #do you see why i have no hope here. do you see why i hate this so much. how can one be optimistic about this. everything sucks

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rapidhighway · 8 months

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i think im gonna break my drawing vows and im gonna draw somethin guyz

#i just feel so fucking depressed rn i need my little hobby #SO WHATEVER #im so so soo tired i need to go back to the dorms and just get a moment #too bad there will be a stranger there -_- i need a cry!!!!!! leave my house!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway youd think a week in the mountains would do me good unfortunately im hard to get or somethin also my family is here and they make me #feel like shit #anyway im gonna doodle ououuuuououughhh #sorry for venting again but i cant talk to anyone rn and diary aint workin -_-#👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍#im just. in the trenches rn #getting real tired of all of this

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sensitivegoblin · 9 months

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Damn I need to get teased within an inch of my life so that the stress can leak out of me please

#ramble #vent #gimmetag #I'm very very tense and stressed and need a hug #I'll try answering dms and anons I've missed I'm truly sorry that I suck so bad at that #I'm just tired but I'm too afraid to sleep #I'm being melodramatic but the statement stems from truth #I feel like such a loser but tickling/sex and Fortnite are literally the only things that make me feel better #I'm too depressed to do anjghing else my dad sucks all of my energy #I need to fall into a hug and sleep pls hmu volunteers😭#I like sleeping around awake people that's when I sleep my best #YouTube videos used to fill that hole but now I just can't stop thinking of myself as such a loser #mt dad turned 60 and hes depressed and he thinks out loud so I'm hearing really depressing stuff #and nothing I do helps so I just have to soak up his pain and somehow wanna live to see 60????#if you heard the carousal of stuff he repeats every breath that im with him you'd go crazy too #anyway im trying to get out of my frozen state so o can take pills and masturbate and cry lmao #FUCK I NEED A REAL HUG😭

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quibbs126 · 2 years

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God I wish that were me

#I’m really bad at studying #and doing my homework #I’m a horrible procrastinator and it’s been getting to the point where it’s an actual big problem #but I don’t know how to fix it #I want to but I don’t know how #and people give me tips but I never listen #I try to but at the same time I know it’s not gonna help me because my mind will just refuse to change #sorry I just need to vent about that #cookie run kingdom #random stuff #real life stuff

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genso-menagerie · 10 months

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Yeah, anti-shippers can be weird. I've had people literally wish death upon me and send me death threats over stuff I've written just because they didn't like it and felt it was immoral. Y'know, totally justifies sending someone death threats, doesn't it?

You ever notice how the most recent generations are starting to try and regress our society back to puritanical behavior? Where anything lewd, or even just not of the societal norm is inherently evil? It's interesting to wonder why, and a little scary to see how it's working in various ways, at least on the internet. Offline you'll generally meet more people with sane opinions than not lol.

On top of thought-crimes being a thing, apparently. Obviously if you write fictional characters doing traditionally bad things, that means of course you support and commit that bad thing in real life. But only if it's sexual. If it's like, violence? Gore? That's different!!!!! (it's not different)

#as someone who frequents twitter #I see this shit on the daily #I will never say anyone NEEDS to enjoy the same things other people enjoy #but again #lumping in fictional content of characters doing things you dont like #with real life crimes and such totally waters down words used to describe real and actually bad people #this is one of those topics that genuinely gets me steamed #I will try not to keep talking about it here #but if you feel the need to unfollow me after hearing my opinions we probably weren't compatible in the first place #sorry for the venting that somehow mostly wound up in the tags lol

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