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quibbs126 · 2 years ago

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God I wish that were me

#I’m really bad at studying #and doing my homework #I’m a horrible procrastinator and it’s been getting to the point where it’s an actual big problem #but I don’t know how to fix it #I want to but I don’t know how #and people give me tips but I never listen #I try to but at the same time I know it’s not gonna help me because my mind will just refuse to change #sorry I just need to vent about that #cookie run kingdom #random stuff #real life stuff

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landedinpayne · 4 months ago

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in case you are in the mood to feel devastated here’s an alternate way of viewing charles’ response to edwin’s confession:

we know that charles kinda puts edwin on a pedestal- yes they are partners but there is a bit of a hierarchy between them. charles just looks up to and admires edwin in so many ways while constantly looking down on and being really hard on himself. he puts on his big happy persona because he thinks that people wouldn’t like him if they actually got to know him.

so when edwin confesses, it’s like a blow to him. he took his charming persona too far and went and tricked the most important person in the world into thinking he was worthy of love. and it’s worse because he does love edwin in that way, which is exactly why he can’t let him know that. charles still believes that he is like his dad, and he saw exactly what his parents’ relationship did to his mother.

he thinks that loving edwin in the way that he wants to would only cause more pain to this boy who has already been through far more than he deserves. so he blinks back his tears, attempts the same charming smile he’s used all these years, and dishes out the gentlest non-rejection in the history of forever

#i don’t really think this is what happened but my brain just loves to add an extra sprinkle of angst to everything #but honestly the more that i study that scene the more i think this is a possibility #at least to some extent #like specifically his facial reactions after edwin says he’s in love with him #he looks panicked and devastated #almost like it was something he thought about before and was afraid of it happening #and then he cracks his little joke to downplay it because he isn’t ready to accept that what’s really happening #because he already had to watch edwin get dragged away before he could step in to protect him and now this #his two worst nightmares became reality in hell #anyways i do think he’s just oblivious and will figure it out in season 2 #but i just wanted to ramble #i do think a lot of the reason why he has to figure things out is because he’s afraid he’s a bad person #so it’s more him figuring out if he’s good enough to love edwin rather than if he actually does #okay i’m done yapping for now #dead boy detectives #payneland #charles rowland

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lazylittledragon · 11 months ago

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if my stuff starts looking WILDLY different soon it’s because next year i’m planning on stepping out of my comfort zone more and experimenting to try and seriously level up my artussy because i’m stagnating and i hate it

#ramble #it’s not that i hate my art style bc i don’t!!!#i just want to try different things #drawing the blorbos is fun but you don’t really learn anything after a while? other than it helps you draw faster bc muscle memory #and now i’m out of uni i want to keep learning stuff #which means a lot of weird colour palettes and studies #the reason my job portfolio is so bad is because all my stuff looks the SAME

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haliaiii · 2 years ago

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i played honkai star rail

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fairyofshampgyu · 1 month ago

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Getting rejected from an audition sucks guys I’m actually really sad rn ☹️☹️👎

#tell me why I’m actually so upset 😭😭#like crying #I CANNOT handle rejection #I NEVER GET REJECTED ?? :(#like i was so excited to be the bass guitarist for this new jazz band at uni and I auditioned and it went well ??#only to get an email back saying that I didn’t get in bc I can’t sight read 😭😭#THEY SAID IT WASNT A PROBLEM IN THE AUDITION ??#also I can still read music ?!!#I studied music tf #also it’s not like I’m bad bassist lowkey not to flex but I’m so good and can play to grade 8 and my old jazz band was WAY better #and you couldn’t even get auditioned for that one #you had to be invited #not to flex but I was invited #and also sight reading is literally not even an issue bc if you just give me the sheet music before #I can play #and in the audition they literally said it’s not an issue #so why are they bs ing me now #I KNEW THAT PRESIDENT HAD IT OUT FOR ME FROM THE START #HE LITERALLY HATES ME #also it’s not even like there was a better bassist #I’m really sad rn I was looking forward to it so bad #I have no will to live #bro I’m actually so sad rn 😭😭☹️☹️#I miss my old jazz band so much omg I’m so sad #nia rants !

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 13 days ago

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stsg are equally prone to watching you sleep i think

#current thought i am having instead of studying for my exam #🫡🫡#but like . it’s soooooooo important #with suguru it’s like . he doesn’t fall asleep easily. so he makes a habit out of watching you doze off #it puts his heart at ease !!!!#when it’s Really bad he stays up and just watches you all night and somehow doesn’t get bored in the slightest #and with gojo it’s like …….#i think he’s a little vulnerable during the late hours #can fall asleep easily if he tries but sometimes there are too many thoughts in his head #so he just watches you with this solemn expression #i think he also wakes up reeeeally easily #you start stirring in your sleep and boom he’s awake …….#anyway what i’m saying is i think they’re a nightmare to sleep with .#imagine waking up to not one but TWO sets of eyes staring at you in the dark . i would cry #ari noises ✩

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grooviestsadpapaya · 7 months ago

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Water wite…

#study #wip #breaking bad #Walter white #art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital illustration #procreate #lighting study #bb Walter white #I actually really love breaking bad I’m watching it for the second time #painting

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spoofyleaf · 6 months ago

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I have exams the next three days, I need you guys to beat me up middle school bully style when I get off task

#my adhd is so strong #I got distracted and made brownies and a loaf of bread #how did I get off task that bad??#I went to go make chicken nuggets really quick and saw box brownie mix #then went ‘I should make a loaf of bread’#then ‘OH SHOOT IM MEANR TO BE STUDYUNG’#it’s a problem #like I’m taking brain breaks dw #but giddamn ain’t now way I make brownies and bread and forgot I was meant to be studying #guys wtf #Spoofy tambles

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decaysings · 5 months ago

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loose study of torii kotondo’s “asa negami (morning hair)” [original painting under the cut]

#i’m really bad at studies bc i always wanna do my own thing 😭#also yes ik i forgot the comb </3 it was too late lol #i draw men so often but i’m a girl liker first and foremost. and she was so gorgeous i hope i did her justice…#art study #japanese art #asian art #ukiyoe #classical art #women in art #torii kotondo #artists on tumblr #digital art #<- idk what to tag this i’m just winging it #decaysart

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puppyeared · 7 months ago

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Ouhhhh friendship I love friendship……..

#I’m reading volumes 14-16 of the ouran manga OOUGHHH MY HEART #I love this weird little friend group so much its unreal #like u have this charming sweeps you off your feet prince but he’s actually a huge lovable idiot with a kind heart and his friends #who are all misfits that he reached out to and drew in because of his kindness and own weirdness like that shits TIGHT BRO #and the trauma part where he has some deep seated issues with love bc he thinks that itll break a family apart like with his mom #how his family isnt allowed to be together because his mom and dad fell in love and how he says he wants to build a big house #so that way one day everyone will get along as a family like. all he wants is not to lose everyone and the only way to do that is #by maintaining a certain order.. he both wants a complete family so bad and doesnt want anything to sour between anyone #so he assigns each of his friends a family role based on how he sees them and YEAH its mostly played for giggles and tamakis #already weird so its his way of showing theyre close to him but. god damn this boy has LAYERS #it also feels kinda meta towards how found family tends to get thrown around to assign characters as 'siblings' or family roles instead of #using it to describe characters who are close enough to be each others family. cuz tamakis doing that EXACT THING in a way tht #ties in with his character and i have to say its fascinating using that within the story itself and its completely plausible #theres a lot of things i can say about ouran that are good bad and questionable but. god i love it when characters are niceys to each other #i remember i really liked the mall episode bc kyoya and haruhi got to spend time together and their relationship isnt very close #but it was really nice to see their personalities bounce off each other. i think i also wouldve liked to see haruhi alone with kaoru #i also firmly believe all of the hosts are at least a little in love with haruhi and this can be anything like endearing romantic cuz like #who DOESNT love haruhi. kyoya i think would want to study her under a microscope like his fascination with her draws him in #but im fucking obsessed with whatever haruhi and tamaki have going on because YES hes obsessed with her YES he jumps at the chance to #put her in a cute costume but haruhi? she just fucking goes with it because she knows hes fun to be around even if hes a little wacky abt i #theyre all so. NNGGHHHH #ouran #ohshc #yapping

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whyoneartheven · 10 days ago

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suddenly I have realized my bad habit of procrastinating has become a nearly debilitating fear

#Like #for ex I had an exam due today #I meant to study for it over the week #But every time I sat down to do so I just got really scared and stressed and felt like I wasn’t going to be able to study enough???#And so I couldn’t concentrate and did literally anything else instead and it ruined my entire week bc I was so worried #And anyways I ended up actually studying for the exam for only around 3 hours. TODAY. And took it and sent it in just before midnight.#Which is a very bad habit that I have #I’m pretty sure I did well tho #bc despite the fact I was so worried I wasn’t ready for it that I didn’t GET ready for it #I do actually know the material pretty well #And now I’m sitting here with the knowledge that if I’d sat and just studied even ONE other time this week #I could easily have gotten a 100 #And now I’m realizing that I may have anxiety #Which I knew before but like. Now I KNOW #And also a really bad case of I Need To Be Perfect Or The World Will End And Everyone Will Hate Me #also the adhd isn’t helping #So yeah #That’s something that happened #I tend to put things off bc “im not ready” for them in general now that I think abt it. Huh.#evie rambles #Evie rants #It has become a habit of mine to vent in the tumblr tags #Sorry folks #XD

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 2 months ago

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Interesting. Don’t necessarily think I’m autistic but I have more going on than just ADHD and I’m not sure what that is.

#I’m not even sure if the ADHD is actually ADHD either or if it’s just technology addiction #Gonna get a REAL neuropsych evaluation at some point out of sheer curiosity as to what the fuck is wrong with me #I relate to a lot of autistic things and I relate to a lot of ADHD things; but I don’t entirely relate to the majority of either population #and I don’t relate to people with both enough to think I have both #I’ve begun treating myself as if I am autistic just for Kicks and using things that help them and it’s helping in some ways #but I know it’s probably not autism because even though I struggle socially; it’s not because of the same reasons #I understand social cues; I was only accidentally perceived as rude as a kid (and most kids are kind of blunt)#(Mostly a moderate amount of “Stop correcting me! It’s disrespectful!” from my parents)#And nowadays because of how much psychology and acting I study; I can perceive shrimp social cues #And I’m purposefully doing all the right things but it still feels like I fail social interactions because of my lack of assertiveness #which I KNOW come from being raised in a cult #so perhaps my odd social behavior is from CPTSD from being raised in a puritan doomsday cult as an only child #Because I was NOT introverted or sensitive to others as a child #I did not have routines as a child and the ones I did have were for fun and did not distress me if I strayed from them #But now I need structure as an adult because I don’t know what else to do with myself if I have nowhere to be #But at the same time everyone feels worse when they have no routine or expectations #And is it actually inattentive ADHD or severe derealization and an itch to do as many things as possible #because I spent my childhood being raised in a boring doomsday cult by disabled older parents who couldn’t physically do much?#(And I don’t fault my parents for being disabled but I do fault them for the whole doomsday cult thing)#So I spent my whole childhood doing mentally tedious things when really I’m more wired for physically spontaneous things #Because I was not allowed to walk around the neighborhood alone until I was sixteen #And I couldn’t hang out with friends I wanted to hang out with because they were bad association #So of course I got really good at drawing even though I don’t even like drawing that much #Of course I got really good at writing even though I don’t like writing that much #Now that I don’t need to escape from anything I find I actually hate drawing and writing because it’s such a chore #they make my heart rate accelerate in a way I don’t like to feel #(I hate writing less than drawing)

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cheekblush · 2 months ago

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really starting to believe that psychic who claimed i’m cursed

#like absolutely NOTHING goes right in my life #i have no friends no social life no partner have never been in a relationship even though i’m almost 30 #i still live at home my job has horrible working hours and makes me absolutely miserable #like i can’t name you a single thing that goes right in my life i’m so far behind everyone #i wasted so many years studying and i’ve got nothing to show for it i’m a pathetic excuse of a human #i really wish i could give my life to someone who deserves it way more than me someone who really wants to live #the psychic claimed that my ex best friend’s mother cursed me #and i do find it somewhat silly to blame everything that goes wrong in my life on someone else or outer forces #but our friendship ended VERY poorly and her mother absolutely hated me by the end of it #so it honesty doesn’t seem too far fetched #bc ever since we went our separate ways which i never regretted btw i’ve just been struggling to survive #like if i’m honest i’m intelligent i’m capable i’m pretty i’m kind i’m funny but my whole life is a struggle #i know that my depression anxiety and overall low self esteem closes a lot of doors for me #but it’s just insane how unlucky i am like it can’t be a coincidence anymore #it’s just so heartbreaking when all your efforts are in vain like i try sooooo hard but it’s never enough #the psychic claimed the mother put a curse on me that basically blocks all roads for me #and like i said i haven’t had success or happiness in both my personal and professional life #it feels like every time i take step forward i take 3 back #good things never stay for long and bad things are so excruciatingly bad it’s unbearable #i’m just exhausted with everything… life shouldn’t be so fucking difficult wether it’s a curse or not #i know i also have many things to be thankful for but it seems like all the important milestones are eluding me #☁️

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loveimp · 4 months ago

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I’m the friend

#insecurity is that I’ve never been good academically in art #I guess I’ve gotten better stylistically but not really in terms of skill #I would like to be better but I’m horribly bad at studies and also find myself getting bored and frustrated orz #but it’s all just practice #anyways I think this take is annoying I think people can make art however they want if it’s just for fun and expression

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twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat · 7 months ago

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ok so i’m technically done w the fic but :’3 i feel very… unsure…. abt it…….. so i think i might get some sleep for now and look over it properly tmrw before posting……

next week i’ll post a fic early though!!!!! mindless sugu hurt/comfort time >:3

#rem if you see this i’m hugging you so tightly ily T—T #i think i’m so wired to the idea that i can only post on weekends that i . Forget. that i’m physically capable of waiting a day #you rlly snapped me out of it like actually. the effect my mutuals have on me needs to be studied i think #but aaaaa i just. really need to get better at taking my time with fics </3 #usually i end up writing them all under the span of like. a day/night. which is very bad and the fics deserve better #hhh but i do feel very bad abt not writing much lately :((( next week it’ll just be a selfindulgent argument fic phdjddhdh #anyway anyway…. to whoever sees this. i hope you have the sweetest dreams tonight!!#mwah mwah mwah!!!!#ari noises ✩

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catastrxblues · 10 months ago

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the overthinking is overthinking-ing i can’t

#chem tag #i never really took it as a possibility before so i’d never even dared to even think about the good possibilities that might come out of it #if i got in the selection. only what would happen when i don’t and get in rarer contacts with these fun and wonderful people #i met from suffering through 6 hours of chem classes on the weekends #but then the universe gave me a small opening for hope and i decided to rip that shit OPEN and now i’m thinking of the possibilities and ho #GREAT it will be if i actually do get in the selection and ajsjsksjskwjebsejej #i probably won’t because they definitely have more leverage than me and more knowledge and etc etc #but it’s soo good to think about it and i’m descending into madness and aaaaaaaaaaaaaa #and i have two quizzes tomorrow but i haven’t studied because i’m too busy thinking about this which is definitely a bad decision #but ahh #bismillah bismillah just hope for the best #if i don’t get in it’s FINE. then maybe it’s not what’s right for me or whatever #inshaallah semoga dapet yang terbaik <3 #nadinee.txt

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