#song i am currently being autistic about

[insufferablemod]

hheeeyyyy heyyyy go check out this song im very normal about yall B)

[kyoshitargaryen]

a neurodivergent breakdown of the 3D and 4D for manifesting + shifting

key: 3D — the physical world, what you experience in your current reality, intrusive thoughts, emotions ; 4D — imagination, visualization / affirmation for manifestations and desired realities, intentional thoughts, beliefs

table of contents — brief explanation of 3D and 4D – living in the 4D – on belief (and believing even when you don't believe) – decentring the 3D – participating in the 3D

for the longest time, I couldn't grasp how to participate in the 3D without feeling as though I was invalidating or preventing my manifestations. I'm not gonna lie, this was most likely my autism skewing my view.

I naturally have a very black-and-white, rigid way of thinking. many neurodivergent people do, and if you're one of us, or maybe you need a little confirmation that what you're doing is right, stick around for an easy (or easier?) to grasp explanation.

brief explanation of the 3D and 4D

the 3D and the 4D are intimately tied together, with the 3D being a dependent variable and the 4D being an independent one

dependent variable — a variable (denoted by y) whose value is determined by that of another independent variable — a variable (denoted by x) whose value is being changed on its own, not by the influence of another variable

in other words, the 4D is the cause, and the 3D is the effect. if you follow the law of assumption and neville goddard, you've likely heard the quote "consciousness is the only reality." as in, the things we pay attention to, shape our reality. neville goddard says that our reality — the people we interact with, the things we experience, the opportunities given to us — are directly tied to and mirror our subconscious.

living in the 4D

just like a knot can be tied, our reality can be both made and unmade. the 3D is pliable and moldable. in order to do so, we must live in the 4D, as in, live in imagination.

living in imagination isn't simply daydreaming about what you wish to manifest, it's about actively embodying the perception of already having your desire.

if I were to want to manifest being an incredible singer, I would act as though I were, even if in reality my singing could break eardrums. I would sing my favourite songs without worrying about whether or not I was good, because I already know that I am great.

since the 4D directly causes change to the 3D, it is what we do and believe in imagination that will be reflected in reality. what we believe is what we get. if I were to be insecure and believe that I were a terrible singer, the 3D would show me that I was a terrible singer.

living in the 4D means we cannot focus on getting our desire in the 3D, as that would be pedestaling the 3D and grounding yourself in it. just like you cannot centre men in your life as a woman for the sake of your emotional health and self-esteem, you cannot centre the 3D for the sake of your manifestations.

on belief + believing even when you don't believe

this was a really difficult concept for me to grasp. how can I believe in something when I know it's not true? how can I fake a belief?

it's actually terribly easy to. the first step to believing when you don't believe is persistence.

have you ever had an ironic inside joke with your friends, or just did something ironically? I guarantee you, over time it became a natural part of your life, your vocabulary, your mannerisms. that's because your subconscious doesn't know when you're kidding. your subconscious is probably more autistic than you are, in that it will take what you say or do at face value and apply it to your personality. (really makes you think about how often self-deprecating jokes aligns with poor mental health, huh?)

that's why persistence is key. even if at first you don't believe, continue to enforce the idea that you do until it actually manifests within your mind.

decentring the 3D

I came up with this idea after hearing about the feminist concept of decentring men.

what is decentring men?

the concept of decentring men is to turn away from patriarchal and male-centric perspectives and beliefs, instead turning inward and focusing on your own wants, wishes, desires, and needs. instead of looking for validation through men or other social means, you simply validate yourself. where you may have valued the social norm or others, you instead place yourself at the centre of your own life.

how can we decentre the 3D?

just like the patriarchy has taught us to seek validation from external factors like men, the world has taught us to find validation in what is right in front of us — the 3D.

like decentring men, we must learn how to find satisfaction and validation in the 4D instead of seeking instant gratification from the 3D. there are many ways to do this, including;

understanding that you are in fact in your DR / already have your manifestations

it's agreed that time is not linear, it is simply that our brain processes it as such. even if you do not personally believe in shifting or the multiverse, it has been widely agreed that time moves in all directions, not just forward. by that reasoning, you already have your desire, and you're already in your desired reality, because events exist even when our brains have not yet processed them.

take the 3D as though it were someone doubting you

have you ever expressed a dream, desire, aspiration to someone, only to be told you could never do it or it's not possible? think of the 3D as being the same way. what do you do then?

prove them wrong. brush it off your shoulders. read my post about how to do this here.

Schrödinger's Cat — understanding that you are in your DR until you allow yourself to view otherwise

Schrödinger's cat is a thought experiment that boils down to the fact that we cannot guarantee an outcome if we do not experience it, i.e. a quantum superposition, which is the principal that something can exist or be represented by multiple values (or outcomes).

the cat is both alive and dead on a quantum level, until we observe an outcome. a path has not yet been carved until we align ourselves to one. you may benefit from my post on the butterfly effect and how it validates shifting and infinite realities, which you can read here.

close your eyes. you are both in your desired reality and your original reality until you prove to yourself otherwise, as in, opening your eyes. at the same time, thanks to infinite realities, you are both in your desired reality, your original reality, and infinite more until you choose to become aware of one singular reality.

when you choose to shift, you are in your desired reality until you allow yourself to come back to your original reality, by quitting. lean into that knowledge — allow yourself to truly feel that when you visualize, affirm, or try to shift to your DR, you are genuinely there. find validation and satisfaction in that. allow yourself to say I shifted whenever you do those things.

as to how you can let yourself say you've shifted when in terms of the 3D, you haven't — that's what the next section is all about.

participating in the 3D

how can we live in the 4D, find satisfaction in the 4D, all without abandoning the 3D? how can we participate in the 3D without forsaking our manifestations?

have you ever been in a situation where you know something, but the other person doesn't know that you know it? let's say you want to hear this person's unfiltered perspective, without justifications or explanations, to see what they add or leave out. you may act shocked to find out information you already knew, angry on their behalf when you know it is them who is actually in the wrong, or confused when you actually aren't.

do exactly that with the 3D, treat it like you would a lying friend or boyfriend when you want to collect all information. you can still be honest about the events in the 3D and your experience with them while also not letting them influence your internal world and 4D.

you don't and shouldn't post success stories publicly if you haven't done them in the 3D, but you can absolutely allow yourself such within your own mind. keep 3D events in the 3D, and keep 4D events in the 4D.

in the 3D, I'm an awful singer and will admit so, but within the 4D and my own mind, I am brilliant and beautiful.

living in the 4D doesn't mean to lie, it just means to compartmentalize your actions in the 3D and the 4D into separate boxes. this includes allowing yourself to feel emotions like frustration, sadness, doubt. let yourself feel them, let them pass, and then realign with your manifestations.

treat the 3D as though it were friend group one, where you act one way, and treat the 4D as if it were friend group two, where you act a different way.

treat your 4D self as though it were the 3D's child, and your 3D self as though it were the 4D's parent. you wouldn't want your child to see you sad, angry, or scared. you wouldn't want your child to see you feeling like things were out of control or not guaranteed. you would instead excuse yourself to a private moment, feel everything you need to in your own presence, and then return to your child more assured. make your child feel as though its dreams are guaranteed and already there. preserve your child's joy, belief, and innocence. do all of that for the 4D.

that's all for now! I hope this helps you all as much as it has helped me

yoshi!!

[creative-jeaniuss]

Instead of good at numbers autism, I got the Maddie Nolen autism…

Maddie Nolen is my biggest special interest, happened unintentionally! Due to the extreme hate she gets, I took the time to really deep dive into her character for reals… Which ended up in me being very autistic about her lmao😋

I have written an entire Maddie analogy/defense which is currently at 4907 words, I have multiple albums of Maddie content on Pinterest, Insta, TikTok, my camera roll AND YouTube. Multiple drawings and doodles on all paper I get my hands on, I have a Maddie-vibe song playlist, pins I have made- and so on.

The topic of Maddie alone eats away at my brain every day, never have been so passionate about a character like this before- I stand by my cancelled wife🫡 I love love Maddie, I’m so gay for her🤭💗💗✨

(Edit: I am updating this post every time there are more words added into the analogy. Posted this when it had 1306 words :3)

[babylacedream]

until they find me here, so wish me luck

i always find myself back to you જ part 2 of ?

part 1 part 2 part 3

pairing: yandere!bucky barnes x f! reincarnated autistic reader

warning: struggling with bucky's death, grief, yandere themes, anxiety, brainwashed!bucky & obsessed!bucky, violence, angsty

summary: it's 1991. after being reincarnated with your past memories from your life as bucky's childhood friend. it felt like losing him all over again. you were currently working in a tiny store, usually working night shifts. you went out to take out the trash when you stumbled upon a familiar yet beautiful man.

notes: inspired by pinkpantheress unreleased song called phelia, I recommend listening.

please remember i am autistic, so i will be writing my personal experience with my autism. thanks!

After your pinky swear with Bucky. You hoped he would surely come back. Right? Wrong. All you received was a locket that Bucky wanted to give you after coming back to you. A beautiful one at that.

You glided your fingers around the locket, and you opened it. A picture of you and Bucky from your graduation stirred your unresolved emotions about his death. He promised he would come back to you. He broke your promise.

Shortly after receiving the devasting news, you passed away at just twenty-six years old. You guessed from heartbreak; the news was too much for you.

Now, it's 1991. You were reborn in 1971 in Charlotte, North Carolina. It's even stranger; you have the memories of your past life. You live in Arlington, Virginia, in your small but comfortable apartment. You are twenty years old, once again.

You looked entirely different in your past life, which is a given. You'd been carrying yourself with your graceful appearance in the 40s, and now, you were gifted a gentle appearance from your new parents that fit with its era.

Currently, you are working in a small retail store that sells movies. Fluorescent lights, the smell of dusty old carpet, popcorn, and the occasional laughter of customers or kids happily picking out a VHS tape to watch at their home.

A huge contrast to the world you were used to in the 1940s, the war years. You were used to jukeboxes, typewriters, and trending clothes at the time.

Kids these days use radios or cassette tapes and keyboards with monitors, and the clothes are certainly different.

You were a proud employee of this small store; being the employee of the month was encouraging, and you took pride in your work duties, you were sufficient for your manager, and you worked alone on night shifts.

This era started growing on you; women could work without being discriminated against, and you got the same pay rate as men. It's heaven on earth.

You were on your "lunch break," and by that, you meant just standing in front of the register eating a small snack. You finished eating your pomegranate, wiping your fingers with a napkin.

You looked around the now-empty store. The feeling made you a bit sad, thinking of Bucky. You lifted your hand onto the necklace, holding on the locket on your neck, caressing your fingers against it. The one Bucky left for you.

How were you able to get this locket? Funny story. You found it being sold in an antique shop; you guessed your landlord in the 40s decided to donate it since no one else could claim it. Not really funny, but you thought it felt a bit like fate to find it all the way in Virginia of all places.

You loved making yourself busy to distract you from any more depressing thoughts. So, you decided to organize the many VHS tapes in each section, making sure all items were neatly placed.

Now, you went to the candy section, pulling the items, making sure there was no expired candy. A few you had to throw out, but you had extra boxes of candy in the back to refill them.

It was midnight already. It was time to take out the trash. You went to each trash bin around the store, placing all the bags in one large trash bag.

You opened the back door, placing a wooden stick your manager gave you to hold the door open. You lifted the trash bag and walked out to the dumpster.

You opened the dumpster enclosure gates and threw the trash bag into the dumpster. You were about to lock the gate for the night when you heard a thud coming from behind the dumpster.

Could it be a cat? Oh, you loved cats! You decided to help it out of the dumpster enclosure; it's too stinky for a precious cat to be hiding behind the dumpster. You opened the gate again and crouched to not scare the cat. You hoped it was a black cat; they were so adorable.

But all you found was a man sitting on the ground against the dumpster. It was hard to see, especially since it was dark. You needed a flashlight. You hurried inside, grabbing a flashlight and placing the wooden stick on the door.

You quietly crouched again and made your way behind the dumpster. He was still there; you could hear breathing. You turned on the flashlight to finally see.

The large man had long brown hair and wore a mask, and you could see dark-smeared eyeshadow around his eyes. He was also wearing a tactical outfit.

Why would someone be wearing these? But the weirdest thing was that his left arm was metal, completely missing the blood on his metal fist from how awestruck you were.

You caught blood on his right hand. He's hurt. You went again inside the store and grabbed a Medkit, forgetting all about the wooden stick you were supposed to put between the door.

You placed the flashlight on the floor, took out alcohol, and dipped some on a gauze. You carefully leaned over his legs, grabbing his hand and rubbing the wet dipped gauze, but when you wiped the blood away, there was no cut or wound.

You thought he was injured, but you could have never been so wrong. Suddenly, the man grabbed your neck, making you grunt as he slammed you on the ground. He was directly on top of you as he pinned you down with his weight.

"H-hey, wait!" he tightened his hold around your fragile neck, making you groan. You struggled as you clawed at his metal hand, trying to escape, but his right hand pinned both your hands above your head.

The flashlight was illuminated so you could see he was assessing your body to see if you had any weapons. But then his eyes went to your locket. He let go of your hands and held the locket in his hand, loosening his hold around your neck, making you gasp for air.

He opened the locket to see the picture of you and Bucky. You thought he was about to rip it off your neck, damaging your precious locket, so you hit him in the groin, making him let go of your locket and get off you, and you kicked him in the face with your leg.

You scurried off the ground to see that his mask had fallen off, revealing that familiar face that you thought you had started to forget.

You breathed heavily, still terrified of the almost-dying encounter. "B-bucky?" He quickly looked up at you and was about to lunge at you, but you screamed and dashed out of the dumpster enclosure, slamming the gate shut, locking it, and running to the back door.

You finally realize that you have forgotten the wooden stick, and a panting breath escapes from you, trying to open the door frantically.

"Open, please!"

You looked behind you to see that he had leaped out of the enclosure without even having to unlock the gate. The frightening man that had the face of Bucky glared at you. You bolted around for the front door of the store.

You opened the door shakily, hearing the jingled nose above you, and locked the front door, looking around the windows for that... thing.

You backed away from the door, almost tripping on some boxes you left on the floor. You took out the lavender sachet you kept in your pocket to calm you down, and you breathed it in as you slumped to the floor and closed your eyes.

[iwannascreameurekaa]

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List of fics being worked on

I am currently banned from posting anything sexual so a few of my fics are unable to be updated right now but I am still writing stuff I just can't post it unfortunately

my ao3 my wattpad

spoiler warning I couldn't figure out to link my account for wattpad so that's just the link to one of my fics on wattpad

my wattpad is basically just reposting my fics because I know some people don't use ao3

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here's my valgrace fic rec list it's still getting updated

here's my valgrace playlist and it has three subsections but that post is all the songs :)

and any big posts I make will be added to this post too!

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I am autistic so sometimes I have a hard time talking to people over text/chats and tones are a weird thing for me so I really like over using emojis, emoticons, punctuation, capitalization, etc. I'm also really obsessed with these rn so ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

i don't really have any insane boundaries just as I've said before be a good person dont be mean to me I will cry um I'm literally just a girl (at least in the whimsical way, gender is weird) yeah that's pretty much it! dni is also just the basics like if ur homophobic or transphobic but if you don't like queer people why are you on tumblr ?? I'm convinced tumblr is for the gays lol

I will probably add on as time goes but for now I think that's it for an intro! <3

[irisbleufic]

Of all the current Devil’s Minion writers your playlist is the one I want to see. Do you have one? If not, are there particular songs you’ve been listening into to while you write? The vibe of your prose with them is hypnotizing like the short story about them in the books, it’s impressive, and does your music also inform this choice if at all?

Intense question, anon. Fourteen-year-old me fucking hyperventilated after reading the DM chapter in Queen of the Damned (me, on the floor of my bedroom at 3am because I don’t want to get caught reading this book, staring dazed at the ceiling; me, now, three weeks ago, sitting shellshocked on the sofa after watching S1 and S2 over two days as a binge; me, over two of those weeks following the binge, rereading the first half of the Chronicles and starting to see double, tilt the prism, see what happens when the narratives are overlaid and blurred), and it still feels like that. Likely my prose turning out the way it is in these stories is about 90% my giddy teenage self having access to my adult self’s writing experience to finally write this beloved pairing without fear of litigious letters (IYKYK, my fellow elder Millennials in the fandom). I don’t often love film and TV adaptations of my favorite books, but I adore this show. It’s flawlessly transformative; its improvements only make the resonances and overlaps that much more meaningful. No notes.

However, I have been listening to the same small handful of songs on repeat for 6 days as I write these pieces. I imagine they are affecting my sense of scansion at points; my writing life didn’t begin with fiction, it began with years of poetry before I ever tried prose. These tracks are as meaningful to me as poems as they are songs. It’s as good a starting point for a playlist as any; I’ll keep adding and put it together on Spotify at some point.

1. Vesuvius - Sufjan Stevens

Vesuvius, I am here

You are all I have

Fire of fire, I'm insecure

for it is all been made to plan

Though I know I will fail

I cannot be made to laugh

for in life as in death

I'd rather be burned

than be living in debt

This song was my entire first 72 hours of writing. I’m that Autistic weirdo who will listen to a single song on repeat for a month and think nothing of it. Villa of the Mysteries in Pompeii being the nexus point of their love story from beginning to end in QotD, this is everything to me; I was never going to be able to write about the show incarnation of them without integrating this location and this imagery in the most reverent love letter I know how. This is why my series title for these stories is Caldera. Volcanic crater blowout if ever I saw one; I ran with it.

2. I Forget Where We Were - Ben Howard

Hello love, my invincible friend; hello, love, the thistle and the burr. For you, I have so many words—and I, I forget where we were. I haven’t known this song for all that long in the grand scheme, but it found me via Spotify shuffle in 2022 right after something awful happened. The longing in this song hinges on one of the lovers in it waking up to something they’ve forgotten about their relationship, something precious, and I’m thrilled to finally have a fandom application for it.

3. Make You Better - The Decemberists

I sung you your twinges

I suffered you your tattle-tales

and when you broke sideways

I wanted you, I needed you, oh

to make me better

Oh, to make me better

But we're not so starry-eyed anymore

like the perfect paramour you were in your letters

And won't it all just come around to make you

let it all un-break you to the day that you met her

No excuse for this one; it does a great job of speaking for itself. Front-man Colin Meloy is one of my all-time favorite songwriters, and his work is frequently dark, creepy, and/or gothic enough in flavor that I could find a few more.

4. Song to the Siren - Elisabeth Fraser & This Mortal Coil

On the floating shipless oceans

I did all my best to smile

till your singing eyes and fingers

drew me loving to your isle

and you sang, “Sail to me,

sail to me, let me enfold you—

here I am, here I am,

waiting to hold you.”

This cover of Tim Buckley’s folk masterpiece completely transforms the vibe of the song, and in the kind of way you need for this pairing. This one is at responsible for the events and imagery in my “Still Life with Sunken Treasure.”

5. Hal - Yasmine Hamdan, Only Lovers Left Alive OST

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

يا عزيزة اطلعي

لأ ما أقدرشي

يا حبيبتي شرّفي

لأ ما أقدرشي

وطلعت يا ناس، مغلوبة يا ناس

يا عزيزة اتريحي

لأ ما أقدرشي

يا حبيبتي اتلحلحي

لأ ما أقدرشي

وسمعت يا ناس، مغلوبة يا ناس

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

يا عزيزة اتفرفشي

لأ ما أقدرشي

يا حبيبتي قربي

لأ ما أقدرشي

فرشنا يا ناس، مغلوبة يا ناس

يا عزيزة اقلعي

لأ ما أقدرشي

يا حبيبتي اتجرأي

لأ مش ممكن

شلحنا يا ناس، مغلوبة يا ناس

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

يا عزيزة اتغندريله

يا حبيبتي اتذوقيله

افهمي يا سيدي مش قادرة

وطبعا تقنعني مش واخدة

ايه يا عزيزة؟

ايه اللي إنتي عملاه ده؟

يا يا يا راجل يا هوه!

مش عيب عليك اختشي ونو

لأ ما أقدرشي

لأ مش ممكن

يا عزيزة اخلعي

لأ ما أقدرشي

يا حبيبتي اتشخلعي

لأ مش ممكن

يا خيبتي يا ناس، مغلوبة يا ناس

يا عزيزة اتبغددي

لأ ما أقدرشي

يا حبيبتي جربي

لأ ما أقدرشي

وجينا يا ناس، غلبنا يا ناس

جينا يا ناس، غلبنا يا ناس

I don’t think the Arabic justified to the correct side when I copied this, but the translation is very easy to find. I don’t speak Arabic, but honestly the English translation is dull compared to the beauty of this language. If you haven’t watched Only Lovers Left Alive, what the hell are you even doing with your vampire-loving, monster-fucking life? All the tracks on it have the right vibe for DM, really.

[desultory-novice]

Noir's Field Trip - "Starting Out"

"...Thanks, you two."

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Ahem! Following in the footsteps of several other Kirby OC contest peeps, you may send in asks for [Noir]!!

(...But I'm SUPER busy so it may take until May to respond! ^^;;)

[Notes/Rules About Asks:]

-I'm iffy on back-and-forth style dialogue-based RP, due to the complex interplay of pseudo-linearity in an amorphous situation plus my autistic-self often being unable to figure out what my RP partner is actually trying to say tone-wise or what they are thinking and then-I-answer-them-wrong-and-embarrass-myself...!!

NVMD SEND WHATEVER YOU WOULD LIKE XD

That and long post-chains make me a little nervous. ^^; Asks in the form of questions Noir can answer in-character are preferred.

(You may also ask me generic "What does your OC think/do when...?" style questions, such as those from THIS detailed OC ask meme!)

-You can also send an ask for Noir from your OC, if you'd like to find out how the troubled teenage boy would react to meeting them! (These may or may NOT(!!) come with art, depending on mood, time, and a variety of circumstances. Tourney OCs will generally get preference. If I AM inspired to draw said meeting, I may request additional information/clarification before going through with it.)

Again, I'm pretty autistic, so if you are going to go this route, it'll help if I have something more than "Hiya, Noir!" to work off of - else he'll just react to you the same way he does to Marx.

(Not that you can't go places from there! XD)

-You can also prod Noir about his traumas if you like! XD Note that asking for details about certain things (the "murders" on Shiver Star or his hatred of physical contact) may result in responses with TRIGGER WARNINGS, if I decide to answer them.

-Tournament!Noir is currently in his own similar but separate timeline from Mainline Apologies Noir. However, events during this contest MAY influence his fate and the fates of those he holds dearest!

-Noir's latent cross-dimension sight means that you can ask him about his various other timelines or Kirby games he was not alive for and probably get some pretty unique/funny/strange answers.

-I almost assuredly won't be able to get to every ask/comment. Some I may avoid answering due to complexity, uncomfortableness, them not fitting tournament!Noir's narrative, or me just not having any good ideas. Please don't take this personally.

-Lastly, please leave space between sending multiple asks. ^^

omg I'm so nervous about this. I want to draw lots, for me and for others (!) too if I can but I want to follow the flow of the tournament and not JUST go off on my own crazy thing, except that I'm not even completely familiar with what the rounds will be like?!

[Non-Ask Notes:]

-The flowers in the BG are the forget-me-nots that Adeleine drew for him on his birthday and that he received in this post. That post was also the inspiration for Tournament!Noir. (Although he retains the corruption + the collar here.)

PS: In addition the song that post is, you know, named for, Noir + the forget-me-nots also makes me think of the lyrics: "Since the day I met you, there's never ceased to be music in this hell of mine" from the opening to Sousei no Aquarion.

-This, and the tag name, was inspired by @Graycoin's comment "Noir gets to go on a field trip. I hope he has a good time : D " (then I saw Starflung had the same idea to send her OC off with a backpack! Haha! XD)

-The fish bone is a gift from Gooey. He's doing his best. Adeleine is also doing HER best. ("...A comb? Really?" "It's unbreakable!")

-As to the bento box, I'm not sure if I mentioned this before (?) but the Fontaine children are French-Japanese...on their mother's side.

-Why yes, that IS a cellphone in his backpack! I wonder who might call him...?

[jackfromthefairytale]

I've made an observation over my years in fandom and so:

how correlated are neurodivergence and fandom?

this is under any kind of neurodivergence (any long term neurological difference from the societal "norm", and generally regarded as mental/neurological illness/disability)

(taking "engaging with fandom" as anything from/between creating gifs, edits, media-related videos (like amvs, compilations or video essays), parody songs, fanfiction, fanart, essays/theories about the media, and consuming a large amount/variety of fanworks (being any of the above), and there's probably more that I can't currently recall. it can be as simple as going out of your way to looking for fanmedia after consuming media)

(NOTE: this is not and should not be used as diagnostic criteria. this is me looking for a larger range of people to test a theory)

ids and explanations under the cut

option 1: I am clinically diagnosed and engage in fandom

option 2: I am self/peer diagnosed and engage in fandom

a lot of people self diagnose when there can be difficulty getting an official diagnosis (waiting lists, costs, doctors who won't take them seriously or other disadvantages). these conclusions are generally come to after a lot of research and deliberation.

to add "peer diagnosis" is generally within the autism community where some autistic people can consider they are autistic after a group of friends (who may be diagnosed autistic) notice comparisons with their friend's behaviour and together they deliberate whether they meet the criteria, again with a lot of research. this may also exist with other neurodivergence but I've mostly seen it with autism

option 3: I think I might be but haven't properly looked into it and engaged with fandom

this is for the people who have seen several of those posts describing symptoms of disorders and have been able to relate to them but haven't properly looked into it for whatever reason

option 4: I am neurotypical and engage with fandom

option 5: I am neurodivergent and do not engage with fandom

option 6: I am neurotypical and do not engage with fandom/show results

[redwolfstabs]

ALPHAWOLFSTABS - BILLY

gifs not mine ~ Through cuts and wounds it often flows, In whispers only blood bestows, A story etched in shades of red, Of every tear and word unsaid.

Meet the Blogger:

Howdy, hello, hi. My names Billy, He/Him pronouns only, I'm incredibly autistic so this is a friendly autistic space. DNI if you're a minor, no TERFs allowed, and basic DNI criteria.

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Writer, Gore Lover/Analysis, Billy Loomis Coded. You've been warned

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Disclaimer for my page:

18+

gore/violence

talks of abuse, sometimes

talks of drugs and alcohol, not often

mental illness

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I will always put warnings on what I post, always! I'll put warnings and a cut so everyone can avoid being triggered on my page. But please, do mind the tags I put and please stay safe here on my page. While things I talk about may be upsetting, I do not wish to upset or trigger anyone on here. Please please please, keep yourself safe on my page.

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My Fics:

Animosity: A pre-scream - current scream fic! Slow updating, very gay stuilly. A tad bit inspired by Sharps Debaser but it's not really all that similar, I assure you.

Crimson Moon: Stu discovers he's a werewolf and Billy needs to help him figure out how to navigate. [Unfinished/no longer being updated. However, Cereal occasionally draws Werewolf Stu, that's the art that inspired this. Go check that out]

Fangs Of Insatiable Longing: Vampire Billy, Human Stu. Billy has to learn to navigate this world, Stu helps him, still follows the plot of Scream with a few added things. Slow updates.

Shut My Brain Off, But Keep Me Breathing: Submissive Billy Loomis with Dom Stu, this one is very self indulgent.

The Vexation: A crack ship fic with Doug Van Housen and Billy Loomis. Slow updates.

To The Edge, Until We All Get Off: Sub Top Stu with Dom bottom Billy. It's Stu's birthday and Billy gets him a present, not super long but really nice.

You Like It Rough, But I Like It Rougher: Pure Smut, lots of blood and knives in this one. Be safe reading this.

Winged Insect, Funeral Pyre: Prison fic au, Billy is in prison but it's more of a rehabilitaion centre, focuses on his relationship with his mind, and the stupidly cute CO he likes a little too much.

JOYRIDE: Stuilly Week day one, bodyswap au, also short but fluffy

"Partner In Time": Stuilly week day two, timeloop au, Billy gets stuck in a timeloop and everytime he dies, he wakes back up in the kitchen with Sidney and Stu

Sailor Song: Stuilly week day three, ghost au. Billy lives after the massacre, Stu doesn't.

Domesticated.: Stuilly week day four, a survivor modern au, set in 2024. Not long, but it's purely fluff

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Up Coming Fics:

Malevolent Trinity: A soon-to-be Fic with Doug Van Housen + Stuilly. It will follow the plot of Scream, just with Doug added.

Unlikely Desires: A College Stuilly fic, in which Billy looks like Vincent from As Good As It Gets And Stu looks like like Tim LaFlour

Lost Years: A Team Loomis fic with Sam and Billy, Billy is alive and Sam kinda hates his guts but they get closer and become a good pair.

A Serpents' Song: A Fic sorta based around river dale, does include Stu.

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Requests:

I do take Drabble requests! If anyone is ever feeling up for me to write them something I will work on it slowly but surely. On top of that, I am starting Commissions soon for my fics. So if anyone is also up for that, keep it in mind for later down the road.

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Easy Links:

Stuilly Head Canons

Autistic Billy Loomis

Funny Scream Text Posts

Scream Script Thoughts

Drabbles

Poems

Stuilly Week 2024

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Additional:

My Carrd - This shows my name, my interests, and rules for my blog. :)

My Discord: Alphawolfstabs. Be careful

Letterboxd: AlphaWolfStabs or Here, Mostly horror movies to be honest. I am a Horror Movie nerd, I apologize

[true-blue-sonic]

hello! hope you are having a good 2025 so far :) i have a couple of questions:

would you say espilver is currently the most "canon" ship for either of these characters? the idw staff seems to back the ship and they now have an increasing presence in the writing for sonic game canon (flynn and stanley being involved in frontiers, for example). ian flynn did have a whole 20-30 minute bumblekast episode on just espilver. i don't particularly care for idw either but the thought of idw's influence potentially giving us more espilver in canon is funny to me

do you have any mental/physical health condition hcs for espilver? i see silver in particular hced as autistic and asthmatic a lot on tumblr

Hello ^-^ I am, yes! Am gonna teach myself how to play piano again, so I can play Sonic songs :> As for your questions:

No, I wouldn't say so. I think SoJ teases Silvaze most of all: Silver's had far more appearances with her than with Espio, both big and small, and their Sonic Channel art has mirrored each other before. I've also seen a post before on Tumblr about how Silver and Blaze seem to have something to do with Tanabata, a Japanese festival. Wikipedia describes the story behind it as two lovers who were separated by the Milky Way, but who could meet "once a year on the seventh day of the seventh lunar month of the lunisolar calendar." Tanabata is specifically celebrated by writing wishes on pieces of paper and hanging them on a bamboo tree, which is shown in a Sonic Channel drawing with Silver. Meanwhile, there's also a drawing of Blaze in a similar pose as him, making a flame the shape of Silver's quills with her pyrokinesis.

I believe that Tumblr post described that Silver and Blaze, who lost each other at the end of '06, are meant to be represented by Tanabata, but it's been years since I've seen it. Regardless though, to the best of my knowledge SoJ has not acknowledged the friendship between Silver and Espio from Rivals 2 a single time in comparison; they only talked once more in Forces and are otherwise not paired up or linked in the slightest (wah :(). SoJ has the final say about these matters, and to my knowledge, all ships between game characters are forbidden to make official (which probably is a good thing, haha). As for Ian, I believe he did an Espilver Bumblekast episode because somebody paid him to do that, but I could be wrong in that regard. And IDW has also had an extensive Silvaze ship tease in iirc issue 64 and afaik Silver and Blaze have been hanging out together ever since, so I wouldn't say the comic writers are really going one way or the other with what ship they like best🍀

And secondly, I can't say I have very explicit ones, I'm afraid. Unless you count the fact that I headcanon that Silver never really paid attention to how much he's eating and that's why he was a skinny li'l twig guy when coming to the past the first time, who became a bit more chonky and floofy due to encouragement to eat better from his friends. But in the Rivals games his model's torso is noticeably skinnier compared to the other hedgehogs to me; I just spun a little story around it, haha. Other than that, I myself don't think Silver is asthmatic, though: in '06 and the Rivals games both he can run around endlessly without tiring, also in flame-filled environments (plus, the only times I can remember him being out of breath was in '06 when fighting Shadow, who was too, and in Rivals 2 when his powers were depleted entirely. Other than that no instances come to my mind so quickly, though I could have forgotten one). I think now that he's got good friends in the past and seems to pop in every once in a while just to have fun with them (e.g. TSR, the Riders games), he's doing okay❤️ And as for Espio... physically I think he's just a healthy boi, haha! But both he and Silver mentally seem to have a tendency to put a lot of pressure on themselves; Espio to be a good ninja (e.g. seen in how he reacts when you get a low score in Heroes or him chastising himself for needing to train more when losing at something), and Silver to protect the world (as described in a Sonic Channel story iirc). But they can support each other there, and give the other encouragement and affection so they feel better about themselves <3 Those are what come to my mind first, at least!

[joelsknees]

get to know me<3

tagged by @reddedmiller (hiiiiii)

what's the origin of your blog title?: I don't have one yet ahah I literally just made this blog (I've been on Tumblr on and off for like 10 years tho)

OTP(s) + shipname: it's always gonna be MSR for me. good god I love those lesbians

favorite color: it's been yellow for the longest time but lately certain shades of green are becoming a very close second!

favorite game: y'all are gonna hate me for this but im actually not a video game girlie. im gonna say scrabble

song stuck in your head: babydoll by ari abdul bc im in the planning stages of making a Joel edit for TikTok to this song (because well...he's my babydoll)

weirdest habit/trait?: probably the way I talk to my cats 💀

hobbies: video editing, photography, gif making, crocheting, and writing. I went a long time without writing and im finally getting back into it thanks to tlou and im very happy about it

if you work, what's your profession? I founded and run a nonprofit animal welfare organization! I don't earn income from that despite it being a full time job though so in addition I do odd jobs like petsitting and I also sell crafts and art.

if you could have any job you wish what would it be? I'm pretty happy (relatively) with what I do currently, but if I was ever going to do something else I'd either go to vet school or try to make a career out of my photography hobby

something you're good at: parallel parking (WHO WANT ME)

something you're bad at: taking care of myself unfortunately

something you love: hanging out with my best friend and my nieces + nephew!<3

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff: why you should spay your pets!!!!!!!!

something you hate: the public relations side of my job

something you collect: i collect thrifted trinkets and wall art and also cameras!

something you forget: literally everythingggg girl help (I have memory problems)

what's your love language?: im actually not sure bc every time I think I know something happens and im like no THIS is my love language. I am just a lover forever

favorite movie/show: of all time?? fringe or the x files or tlou

favorite food: right now I cant lie I am on a huge veggie stix kick....they are like hard drugs to me

favorite animal: cats lol can u tell

what were you like as a child? undiagnosed autistic

favorite subject at school? science fs

least favorite subject? in school I was actually not so bad at math but now that I have to use it all the time for work I am suddenly very bad at it so im gonna say math

what's your best character trait? I got jokes

what's your worst character trait? literally all I do is complain all da freakin time

if you could change any detail of your day right now what would it be? I would love for the sick cat im caring for rn to start getting better and stop scaring tf out of me!!!!

if you could travel in time who would you like to meet? I am too pussy to ever time travel bc what if I fuck something up and then im walking down the street and everybody's like ugh theres the bitch who fucked up the timeline. id be so embarrassed

recommend one of your favorite fanfics (spread the love!): here's one from my recent bookmarks because I can never pick favorites: confirmation bias by sporadicallyceaseless

I just remade a few days ago so I have like 3 mutuals and idk any of y'all yet so I dont wanna be annoying 😭 that said @littlegrungegirlaf @lavendercoloredglasses @hearteyesforjoel @joelsprettyprincess @weirdero @daydreamingmiller

[crescenthistory]

Hi lovely, congrats on 2k, it's so so well deserved 💖 can I ask for an interpret please? Please be aware that I'm about to ramble and probably give too much information because I don't know when to shut up.

First things first, my personality type is INFP, I am autistic, I am an only child who was raised by a single parent, who is also an only child so pretty lonely for us both. I grew up with very little money and still have minimal money, so expensive stuff stresses me out because even if I can afford it that month, it's hard to convince myself it's something I can do. I am mostly housebound, I make it outside about twice a week, but it's usually spent doing shopping or swimming (for physio), so I don't really get to socialise.

I dropped out of education during sixth form due to health issues but I had no interest in being there anyway, I was just resitting my English GCSE so I could get a basic job that I didn't care about while using my free time to become a published writer. My body had other plans.

I mostly write fanfiction, but I do have a in-progress interactive fiction queer romance game (all characters are some variant of bisexual, based on love island) that I've been working on for two years now and is a monster at 700k words so far. I am also working on a romance novel where the FMC is disabled (this probably doesn't surprise you).

For music, my top three artists are Taylor Swift, Lucy Spraggan and Ed Sheeran, and my current favourite song is Peter by Taylor Swift. My favourite movies tend to be the ones I grew up on, so Sister Act, Volcano, Gone In 60 Seconds, the Fast & Furious movies, the Harry Potters and Miss Congeniality. For TV, I watch a lot of Grey's Anatomy, 9-1-1 and Criminal Minds, but I'll watch anything that has way too many seasons as that means I don't have to pick something new for a while. I also prefer TV shows to movies since shows generally last longer before I have to pick something else.

I cannot think of anything else, which is probably a good thing because this is way too long already.

hahahah, hi my darling chan<33 i actually thoroughly enjoy your rambles, thank you for sharing with me 🫂 you're such a lovely individual and i really appreciate you<33 thank you for your kind words! this ended up being much longer on my end than i expected too, so this is proof that you get the same treatment back that you put out there lmao

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i will INTERPRET for moons-and-mobility-aids

carina's 2k celebration

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i think you and remus lupin would make a lovely couple!

your mindset towards relationships and life seems to be quite similar to the one i have, and what i value above all else in a relationship is understanding, communication and friendship – exactly what you would get from remus. of course he shares a deep understanding of loneliness, economic hardship and disability and will thus be able to get you more thoroughly from the get go, but even the parts of you he cannot relate to, he would go out of his way to learn more about. whether that be your autism or your passion for writing, he would look at you with his big kind eyes and try to learn everything. similarly, when he's in love with you, he would be truly invested in your projects and would happily hear all about or even assist you in your queer romance game. remus' primary love language is acts of service (partly because he thinks it's the only way for him to be worthy and partly because he loves helping his partners) and he would assure you that he enjoys taking care of you in whatever way you need that day. he would adore watching nostalgic tv shows with you as he engages in some of his own hobbies (knitting, puzzling, reading, etc.) or while he gives you massages.

though, i will also add that i think lily evans could be a wonderful partner for you!

for much of the same reasons as with remus, lily would feel a certain kindred connection with you that would infatuate her all the more with you. she's a passionate person who adores engaging others in their own passions, so she would happily trade rants back and forth about whatever artistic project the two of you are currently engaging in on your own. lily is somewhat of a homebody in my mind, but she also enjoys going to the shops and running errands, so it would be no burden for her to do that for you. she is also such a patient and empathetic person that i think could truly make you feel loved and seen.

(so if you're a poly!moonflower truther, you know what to do here)

[thebe4ulog]

A Little Introduction

helloo :D i don’t really know how this works, i’ve been saying for 2025 i wanna start documenting my life a bit more and my friend kind of led me here

i’ve been STRUGGLING like HARD with my sexuality for a while now, i’ll probably go more into my experience in a later post but im tired of pretending im immortal and resistant to shame and internalised homophobia and even abuse like i thought

hobbies

that’s kind of been the talking point of a lot of conversations i’ve had about myself because it’s just constantly on my mind, which is why i’m trying to navigate myself to some more healthy habits this year, for example writing! i’ve always really loved writing and fiction and i’ve wanted to get into it for a while and i’m hoping this year will be the year i do. i’m also a musician, i’ve written a few personal albums and i’d like to release some songs to streaming services one day, but for now i’m okay with my little chord sheets and silly little lyrics. i play ukulele, guitar, banjo, piano and im picking up the saxophone! so that’ll be fun. i also really want to start getting into art and drawing and what have you too.

interests

most of my favourite artists are dead but i love jazz anyway. from frank sinatra to duke ellington, i love it all. some artists that might be more relevant to you though - i mostly listen to will wood and laufey (despite being aroace probably idk i just like the jazz and her music makes me feel pretty) i also on occasion listen to tally hall and lemon demon, so yes that confirms i am autistic. i also really love the muppets, im going to go back there some day makes me cry, gonzo my beloved. <3 games i like tend to be cosy games like stardew valley and minecraft and the like, but im a fan of pokemon too. the following are likely to die out in the next month or so but im currently hyperfixating on wicked and the universal theme parks, so if those tickle your fancy then tumble me or whatever

i mostly speak english but i’m really interested in foreign languages and cultures; i can carry most conversations in spanish. i’m from the UK but i like to pretend im not and rather that im from space or something, mostly because it makes more sense for my stupid little AuDHD self but also because i have absolutely 0 patriotism. and also because why not, space is pretty cool no?

buh bye

that’s a little bit about me and where i’m at at the moment! :) i’m hoping to make friends and share experiences and interests and maybe experiment a little with certain things. i have some general little notices and what have you in my bio, im 17 and really if you’re 20+ i’d probably avoid this blog. but mbti and star signs and all the other bollocks people seem to find relevant is there

i’m honestly not sure what i’m gonna do with this thing or how i should really end it, the latter seems too dry to end it on. do i say over? like it’s a radio communication? that seems humorous i’ll go with that.

[bigweldindustries]

tagged by both @jackietracks and @chuckstaylors! sorry it took me forever axel time is non-linear and based on how deep i've queued into my likes at any given time lmao

Last Song: Currently listening to The Collector by Nine Inch Nails. i was listenin to hyperpop bangers and then went "want something different now" so i chucked on With Teeth. luv that bassline

Last Movie: fucking dying bc if it counts then it's the new Wallace and Gromit and if it doesn't count then my parents made me watch Minions 2 with them on Christmas Eve. I am a disaster

Currently watching: fuck all aside from AEW LMAOO im allergic to watching tv shows which is why i only get a new interest approximately once every 3 years

Currently reading: .....i have like a dozen scientific studies open in tabs on my phone rn about the effects of gene variance on prion disease expression. it's one of the aspects of prion diseases i haven't yet got my head around. I've got the whole polymorphism at codon 129 on PRNP down, that's prion 101, but there's a bunch of other genes they've implicated that i haven't got down with yet. anyway did y'all know im autistic

Current obsession: sorry for still being very into ultrakill everyone

fuck me i gotta tag people UHHHH @picklerocket @morbidoe @corpsegirlmeat @throughthevale @praesaepe @astercontrol @zukkas @jimjamjames @godofshores and anyone else who fancies it! everyone is invited babeyyyy

[moldypaintbrush1942]

Some Spengler headcanons I came up with at 3:00 AM last night.

Some NSFW ones at the end, just fair warning:

Also these are my head cannons considering only the first two films as canon:

And trust me they’ll be more where this came from:

Headcanons

Doesn’t drink alcohol

Never has quite gotten used to using the fire pole

Likes to look at toys in stores and will fiddle with them curiously if given to him

If he ever became a parent he would absolutely go overboard buying the kid toys (as much for himself as for the kid)

Doesn’t like touching strangers, avoids handshakes

Only child. Come on, just look at him.

Really enjoys music and keeps up to date with current artists and songs, just not outgoing about it.

Is guilty of trying samples of his mold, spores and fungus, as a treat

Definitely autistic just undiagnosed in his time

Low contact with parents

Did not have a lot of friends as a child. Many parents actively kept their kids away from him

He hates baths. This is random I know. It’s just the vibe.

Couple headcanons

Enjoys brushing his girlfriend's hair.

The first time he brings his girlfriend to his apartment he probably spends like two-three hours showing her and explaining his collection of mold, spores and fungus.

Kind of obvious but museum dates are an absolute must with him.

Generally a good listener.

Would take a while to warm up to physical touch but after he does he loves it.

Not very touchy in public. He wouldn’t want to hold his girlfriend's hand walking down the street. But he is touchy in private.

Would make a lot of sly dirty jokes towards his girlfriend. Usually science jargon. The kind that make your eyes roll into the back of your skull.

Has a bad jealousy streak / becomes jealous easily. Stems from insecurity.

Does not personally want kids but would be willing to have them if his girlfriend / wife wanted to or would be step up if an accident happened

NSFW headcanons

He’s not very hairy

Boob man all the way

Has a very average libido but goes through periods where he wants it more often, usually simultaneous with periods of him being busier or more active at work

Usually the initiator

Would like doctor roleplay

Would like his girlfriend on top

Definitely a “fuck out his work stress” guy. Whenever he’s frustrated or stressed by work, being intimate helps him relax and clear his mind

He’s easy to get excited

Would love kissing his girlfriend's neck / shoulders / clavicle

He doesn’t sweat a lot during sex

[injaws]

jenna ortega, twenty-three, she/her   ⟡   —   is that ESMERALDA HEROUX i just saw walking around kilmer’s cove? i heard they’re a TOURIST who’s been here for TWO MONTHS. it slipped my mind, since they just tend to hang out at THE LIGHTHOUSE. at face value, they’re said to be INTELLIGENT and RESOURCEFUL, but i don’t know… some people have said they can be quite BLUNT and STANDOFFISH. just don’t get on their bad side, i guess! don’t tell them i told you this, but i’ve heard they DO  believe in all the ghost stories around town. who knows what the future holds for them! 

mention of child abandonment.+ disability (vision)

BASICS:

full name: esmeralda genesis heroux nickname(s): esme, es age: twenty-four gender: cis woman pronouns: she/her sexuality: bisexual biromantic date & place of birth: december 31 in el monte, california occupation: paleontology doctorate candidate & researcher at the tanya b. heady museum faceclaim: jenna ortega piercings: so many. six on each ear, a belly button piercing, and a nose stud traits: reserved, polite, observant, cynical, meticulous, blunt, curious, stoic similar to:  kat stratford (10 things i hate about you), elphaba thropp (wicked), prue halliwell (charmed), gayle weathers (scream), camilla saroyan (bones), monica geller (friends), nancy wheeler (stranger things), beca mitchell (pitch perfect) aesthetics: coffee with an ungodly amount of creamer, humming songs while cooking dinner, going outside at 3 am to look at the stars, accidental 5 hour long naps, an earbud always in one ear, an array of rings on each hand, bitten lips, over the ear headphones notable characteristics: wide, boring eyes, typically shaded by lenses; constant eye bags accompanied lips bitten red; hair hastily chopped at the shoulder with the claim of it being "easier to manage"; chunky soled shoes to make up for the lack of height otherwise; a near-permanent suspicious scowl

BULLET POINTS:

— born as one of two twins. her parents, who didn't know they were having twins, gave her up because they didn't prepare for two children. -- esme, who had been born legally blind, was chosen to be the one given up — was fostered and later adopted by parents aksel and sarah heroux in manhattan, new york. — found her forever home with the two, later coming to have younger siblings of her own (her younger brother aleksei is very close to her heart and practically her best friend) — growing up she was always known as an “old soul” (read: autistic), and on account of both her disability and a personality that favored blunt (but observational) remarks, esme was teased a bit relentlessly — grew to be quite reserved and tightly wound as a defense mechanism, building strong armor in the form of poisonous words and evasiveness (no she will not process any of this please dni) — leant into books, music, film, and poetry to help her escape throughout the years and cherished the time she had with her family (homeschool kid ass energy…) — went to columbia to get her bachelor's in geology, and stayed to begin her doctorate program in paleontology — special interest in dinosaurs and yes it is ridiculously serious — applied to work at a research site in scotland (where dinosaurs actually effing existed), got sent to kilmer instead. not happy about it, only staying because she thinks the museum is actually quite cool — currently maybe getting a bit too curious about finding out what the fuck is happening in town/its history … maybe she should watch where she steps :O 

HEADCANONS:

— wears special glasses that correct the little vision she had – can now see pretty much 20/20 with them on, hates them and sometimes doesn't wear them — when not wearing their glasses usually uses a form of echolocation through little tongue clicks or snaps and wears sunglasses to cover her eyes (has very fun shapes i must say) — autistic special interest is dinosaurs. sleeps to dinosaur jungle asmr. please do not engage unless you want to have your ear talked off. ---  baby loves to cook. always trying new recipes & loves to host dinner parties. she did many a cooking classes as a kid. she also danced for a while, but uses it now more as stress relief than anything else. — always tired. 9/10 if she isn’t replying it’s because she’s sleeping. insane concealer budget — loves film and movies and thinking way too deep into them. her letterboxd goes crazy. that being said, their standards are questionable — big fan of animal crossing. terraforming beast. her sims house goes crazy — she has a black leopard gecko named honey, a black cat named milagro, and an array of fish, including a small leopard catshark named buddy. — collects bugs in amber as well as other small fossils — maximalist and has a bajillion stuffed animals — favorite season is winter — always wearing chunky boots — always cold — wicked sweet tooth — rides a motorcycle (her dad hates it she keeps giving him a heart attack) — never found without her cherry cola flavored vape <3

WANTED CONNECTIONS:

guh. check back l8r.