#sometimes i fucking hate that woman

[raging-guanche]

i just told my mom how im always struggling with pain and that hypermobility is making me myserable at the point that going to a 20 minute walk hurts and holding my phone its uncomfy and she didn't even quit playing her fucking candy crush, just told me "well, u have a doctor appointment next week" and nothing more, i ended up talking to a wall about how i hate every single move i do and that mobility aids would make my life easier

[whatsjulietslastname]

if i see any more Chloe hate i’m going to fucking explode. i’m not even kidding this makes me physically ill i’m going to create a fucking uQuiz about Chloe Price’s character and if you get a bad score you officially do not understand her character and has no right to talk about her whatsoever because you cannot just……say shit like « yeah duh of course i chose Arcadia Bay over her she was so dramatic and annoying and so mean omg 🙄🙄🙄 » i’m coming for you. like you can chose Arcadia Bay it’s a choice based game but if you did it because ‘Chloe was such a meanie 😓’ OH MY GOD. i’m. aidiaoisoz. can someone plz stop me i’m going to jump off a roof /j

[laurrelise]

once again rambling about five and lila because i’m fucking pissed. enjoy

“five and lila were perfect for each other because they had so much in common” yet so many perfect couples have absolutely nothing in common???

they could relate to each other in ways that made them hate each other and that’s why they were SUCH good foil characters, i don’t understand why the romance had to be necessary.

there is absolutely no reason that this romance plotline should’ve been created. it was so ridiculously off-focus from what the plot was (AND should have been) and it literally only made the season so much worse.

do writers understand that not every single character has to fall in love with one another? i mean genuinely?

personally i don’t believe five is aro (though he could be ace) because i can’t help but love five’s love for delores (even if she wasn’t real) but i completely understand five aroace truthers because he truly can be independent romantically as we saw in the show.

i cannot wrap my fucking head around the fact that the writers saw two awesome, dynamic, badass characters with arcs and goals outside of love and attention and decided to turn their personalities inside out and upside down for a dumbass dead-end romance that makes zero sense.

five and lila were the only two people on god’s green earth who could understand each other and hated the other for it. why couldn’t they just be frenemies and call it a day?

god fucking damn it i’m so upset

shoutout to 13 year old 58 year old five hating lila and 29 year old lila despising the fuck out of little five !!! <3

fuck you to the worst, most nonsensical couple of all time and space ❌❌

[ciderjacks]

The JD vs Amber Heard stuff was actually insane. I didn't keep up with it because I disagreed with the sheer principle of publicizing something like *that* but the misogyny was MASK OFF...

NO LIKE FRL IT WAS SO INSANE

[cowboymater]

none of the batboys are "woman-coded" or undergo the "female experience" bc you motherfuckers actually talk about them instead of stripping their backstory for parts and slapping them onto your special guy so that the 839584th whump fic on his ao3 tag can have some extra kick

[bredforloyalty]

like i believe there can be a middle way, a golden mean, between tolerating "men are violent misogynists bc women aren't nice enough to them 🥺" and tolerating those users. i believe it's possible to just not give way to either

[hauntsthenarrative]

what’s ur least favorite yellowjackets headcanon for any character?

any misty headcanon where shes anything other than a disturbed psycho attempted rapist icl i hate that bitch

[sleepysuccubi]

do yall ever have those moments where you’re like wow im literally so sad so depressed nothing good will ever happen every again and then you’re like oh right it’s bc my period is about to start

[lloydfrontera]

i think it fucks immensely that bk moon went out of his way to 1) establish rakiel wished to live a long life and eventually pass away of old age, 2) have him very briefly envy an immortal being only to be told very clearly to be careful what he wishes for by that very same person because living forever isn't all it's cracked up to be, 3) make the main antagonist be another immortal being who is so desperate to die he's willing to destroy the universe just to finally rest and 4) have said antagonist psychologically torture rakiel with the threat of making him live for a thousand years as everyone he loves and knows eventually grows old and dies and becomes nothing but forgotten memories.

only to then end the novel by making rakiel also immortal

like. god. it's so fucking good i love it. i'm not being sarcastic i genuinely think it fucks and it's one of the best ways bk moon could've wrapped up the plot.

it's a happy ending by all means but it has consequences and through the entire novel we've been shown and told over and over again just how heavy the consequences are and/or will be on rakiel.

he got his happy ending but it was at a price and by the last time we see him he's only just starting to pay for it.

it's great i love it

[firenati0n]

gonna sneaky delete this later but it's 5:30am and i am feeling completely fucking insane. self-deprecating rambly bullshit under the cut. if anyone has any advice don't hesitate to reach out over dm or message or whatever. just know this is not who I am normally like?? Just a little blip.

I keep feeling super weird and terrible about my general sense of self/worth and writing and it's made worse by twitter/tumblr/ao3 metrics bullshit. And I try so hard not to think about these things.

I'm not jealous of successful writers (new or legacy) AT ALL because I want everyone to get love and accolades and kudos! There is room for everyone and fandom is gorgeous bc everyone is included.

I was writing proposal au today and feeling super off and thought "maybe i should go back and read my fic on ao3 to remind myself I'm decent" and then I did that and almost deleted the whole thing thinking about my own mediocrity. I hate feeling this way. I hate that i put so much of my self worth and self image into what others say about or to me.

i instead channel it completely inward into the strongest form of self-loathing. Like why would anyone want to hear what i have to say? Or read anything I write? when there's so much gorgeous prose out there and beautiful smut and hilarious crack and sweet fluff and like. What am i even doing amongst y'all. Why am I here.

I hate myself sometimes for wanting so much validation and craving community/support because i feel like i come off as annoying and desperate sometimes???? I just see what fics get rec'd and read and screamed about and I wonder if anything I write will ever measure up. And then I think "no probably not" and exit my doc to stare at the wall and loathe myself for a bit before refocusing and writing some more. Rinse and repeat. I wish I had just stayed in my lane sometimes.

The only person making this not fun is me! And I don't know why my brain won't let me just...Enjoy things!

Sorry for the heinous wall of word soup. I just kind of needed to scream into the void and hope that someone yells kindly back.

[tricoufamily]

once again thinking about how easy it would be for me to be in a relationship if i was cis

[cookinguptales]

now that I'm done imagining a jar of peanut butter, can I just say that I love that Shane and Ryan have shifted away from traditional true crime to just shootin' the shit about weird-ass mysteries?

I always liked the "let's talk about weird mysteries" aspect of buzzfeed unsolved, but being real with you, I'm uncomfortable with true crime and the culture surrounding it. like... as someone who lost a loved one to a violent (and temporarily unsolved) crime, I've seen firsthand how internet theorizing can make a traumatizing time even harder and like. it's fucking rough, man.

I get that it makes money and all (which... is a whole other can of worms) but when you view human suffering as entertainment, it's so easy to forget about the real people who will actually be affected by what's put out there on the internet.

so I'm happy that Shane and Ryan seem to be leaning a lot more into "wow, some unhinged shit happened! how fucked up is that?" on mystery files. more of this, please!!

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[altruistic-meme]

sigh.

[hearts401]

If Cassie’s dad is Jeremy the beta tester I will be so happy bc that’s enough relevance for him to be fun and interesting while giving Cassie a rlly neat backstory and also it doesn’t put him in a main character position above our current ones and gives him somewhat of a history with Vanessa (right? Idk I have not watched help wanted in its entirety) and it’s just better all around imo

[15millionfireflies]

I don't want to grow up. But I do want to hiss at EMTs in a witch costume so I can heal a small child with the medicines I keep in my outfit and between my tits

Then disappear in an alley never to be seen again

And then appear to the child in a forest and give them my number in a cool little locket :3