#bc it means that she has always treated me like i was older than i was and put more on me than anyone else

[cressidagrey]

i loveee the story of mrs piastri! i would love more background on felicity, (i think u mentioned something about felicity being singaporean?).

when i was reading the newest chapter, i was thinking how felicity was saying bee's more piastri than leong, and i was just thinking that bee's an only daughter. with how clinical you wrote the leong family, im sure they have really traditional views like how a daughter is married out of the family and are no longer considered part of the core family once they are married. theres a saying: a daughter married away is like cast out water. idk where im going with this but yeah!

just thinking about how being a daughter means you will end up losing your father's last name too (and how sons are preferred bc of this). maybe more felicity's pov? i was hoping for a leong family reconciliation but with the route we are going its unlikely, one thing grandparents will do anything for are their grandkids, but with bee being a girl, it could go either way.

thats all im going to yap about, i really love (all) your series(es), especially those w oscar!!

always waiting eagerly for your next chap,

sol ☀️🌙

Felicity is Singaporean! But she also went to boarding school in England and made a life there with Oscar, so while she loves Singapore as the country of her birth, she would never want to go back to living there. (Mostly because of her family.)

I imagine her family as like... "Crazy Rich Asian" Level of rich. Like stupidly rich. She has siblings, but don't ask me how many yet, I know at least one older brother for sure.

In my head Felicity's family more than likely expected her to marry somebody they found suitable and handpicked for her, from another family that was from a similar socioeconomic sphere. Oscar didn't quite fit what they had in mind, and they were really not amused when Felicity married him when she turned 18. (Scratch that, her parents were utterly furious and disowned her.)

I don't think I'll go the route of a Leong family reconciliation, mostly because Oscar would be unwilling to even consider letting Felicity's parents anywhere near Bee with how they treated Felicity growing up: More like a possession than a human being.

[jjk4isen]

ꗃ 𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐃, 𝐓𝐖𝐎 𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐏𝐒 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 .

❝ answer me. did you think of her when you're in bed with me? when you're kissing me and holding me— was she the one on your mind? ❞

summary: it's hard knowing you aren't really the person in toji's heart but loving him was something you still did regardless. as for toji, he thinks he's ready to give you his all.

desc: 2.8k words, f!reader (referred to as ‘mama’), canon compliant i think, takes place after mamaguro's death and before toji’s, age gap (early 20s reader, early 30s toji), baby gumi ahhhhh, sfw, angst to fluff to angst again lol, intended lowercase, think you're tsumiki’s mom but without tsumiki bc the relations would be too complicated and also the second wife erasure in the canon storyline?? yeah it's reserved specifically for this fic, not proof read i fear but pls read it's really interesting i can swear by it lmaoqhdhns

dating a widowed man with a son wasn't easy especially when the said man is still in love with his former wife, or rather, his wife who had died.

love is often beautiful but sometimes it's unfair. it can also be cruel. what other reason would make you still stay despite knowing you'll never measure upto the person who had been here before you?

and you've heard stories about her. she was sweet, so beautiful— not just in her appearance but her entire being was beautiful. there always was an ache in your heart upon just the mention of her name.

so how much more would it have ached for toji?

“mama” the spiky haired boy, barely two years old calls you and you realise the silence in the room. “not mama, i’m nana okay?” sick.

nana. not mama but close enough. it doesn't matter anyway, n and m are just letters and next to each other so how much difference would that make? you're the one that's here after all, are you not?

if there's a lump in your throat and your eyes are burning with unshed tears, you force yourself to ignore.

“okay nana” megumi nuzzles his face into your chest, slowly drifting away to sleep. the boy always liked cuddling with you and it melts your heart immensely.

your hands strand through his dark hair. people always said he's the carbon copy of his dad but you'd like to differ. megumi has his mother's eyes and his hair resembled hers more than it did his dad's.

the thought sends another ache in your chest but you push it away– as you always have.

you recall the last time toji had heard megumi call you “mama”. you had never seen toji that livid. he was never a gentle man to begin with but that night, there was nothing else you've been more scared of.

was he like that to his wife? maybe not.

does that matter though? it's not like toji treats you badly. he's decent and loves you an enough amount. you weren't crazy enough to stay when you're not wanted so that must mean you were something to him right?

you also recall the whispers of pity and condemnation thrown at you for just being with toji. him being a brute is one thing but the difference in age is what people seem to have a problem with. you're so much younger than him and have your whole life ahead of you so why are you entrapping yourself this way?

you disagree though. love doesn't know any age and you definitely aren't naive to be head over heels over a guy just because he's relatively older. no, this was real and genuine.

a faint knock disrupts your train of thoughts. “he sleepin’?” toji nods towards the small boy in your arms and you nod back in return.

taking care not to wake the sleeping kid, you slowly pry his hands away from you and pull over a blanket to cover his small body.

when you make your way towards toji, he wastes no time in pulling you closer “missed you” he mumbles, placing a kiss onto your forehead and suddenly all thoughts plaguing your mind disappears. that's all you could ask for, even if it was just for a moment.

“i missed you more” you whisper back, he only huffs out an amused chuckle.

“got bad news though” a frown finds itself on his lips, decorated by a single scar next to it.

“did you lose all your money again?” toji was a gambling addict, another thing you forced yourself to tolerate just for him.

“sorry, doll. thought i’d win this time” he rubs small circles on your back comfortingly and it makes you a bit uneasy to know that he has his way with you so easily.

“it's alright. i’ll just find another part time job”

“so good to me” toji pulls you into his chest and you let out a sigh— of exhaustion? relief? you couldn't really tell but that's not important, toji had you in his arms.

“i’ll try and think of something too. don't worry your pretty little head too much” he lifts you up with ease. while you're in his arms, you feel the safest.

toji really felt bad this time. he was confident he would win but that stupid horse had to trip and lose its lead, ending up last of all places. he knows luck never favoured him but that's didn't stop him from trying again and again and again.

he also knows how you didn't say anything more than necessary about it but he isn't that much of an idiot either. he sees how your expression falters and your shoulders slump a little more when he comes home with another news of his gambling loss.

this is also why he tries, or rather, tried to quit — one too many times, unbeknownst to you. however, old habits die hard and most of the time (everytime) toji gives into his urge and loses yet again. the cycle keeps happening.

maybe this isn't just about gambling.

with the way you're asleep so soundly next to him after putting his son to sleep and taking care of him too, he is overcomed with yet another feeling to be better for you and megumi alike.

toji isn't a gentle man; everyone knows that, you do too — even more than anybody else but he can't help the familiar pool of warm feelings surging through him the longer he stares at your peaceful state.

he remembers the last time he felt it, with another person. it felt like a lifetime ago.

he also remembers how painful it was when he lost it — the person, the feeling altogether. his hands that were making their way to caress your face stops mid air.

toji knows you deserve so much better. you've been nothing but patient to him, so amazing, so perfect to him. still, he just can't do it yet, just not yet.

he will eventually, he hopes you stay until then.

toji wakes up to an empty bed and his heart sinks a little but the creases and wrinkles on the sheets serve as a reminder that you were really here.

he makes his way towards the kitchen, only finding megumi sitting on a chair next to the dining table.

“hey kid, where's your mama?”

toji freezes. it came out so naturally he didn't realise he said it himself and almost thinks he didn't but megumi's wide eyes prove that he actually did.

“m…mama?” megumi says hesitantly and toji nods this time. “yes, your mama”.

“potty potty!” megumi points to the bathroom and giggles, toji follows suit. the man crouches to his son's eye level and pats his head.

“you love your mama, kid?” toji sees megumi's eyes sparkle as the boy nods enthusiastically “very very much!!”

“yeah? i love your mama too.”

toji smiles to himself, he can't wait to tell that to you.

the next time toji got his pay, he finds himself hesitating. instead of heading towards the race tracks, his feet takes him to a jewellery store.

instead of picking out a slot and testing his luck, he picks out a ring. it's not fancy by any means but he thinks it would be the most beautiful band of metal to exist if it slides into your ring finger.

the tiny ring carries all the heavy feelings he has for you.

──

it was one particular evening when you saw an old man lingering by the front gate. its particular because the warm sunset and the soft cool breeze contrasted the ground breaking truth you find out.

“can i help you?” you ask the old man who looks at you up and down, not making an attempt to hide his distaste of your sight.

“is this where toji zenin lives?” he stares down at you with his scrutinising gaze; it makes you feel small.

“zenin?” you ask, confused. is he referring to toji? but his last name is fushiguro is it not?

“yes toji zenin. i heard he has a son as well. you're not the mother are you?”

is it that obvious? you wonder how the old man figured it out. regardless, you're not about to give him his answers so you stood your ground.

“i’m sorry i don't know what you're talking about.” you turn around, about to head inside when his words make you stop short.

“are you fushiguro?”

that's toji’s last name isn't it? not zenin or whatever he called it. so why is he asking you that? is he implying that you're married to toji?

“no. you have the wrong person.”

“why? did he say not to get involved with anyone from his clan?” the old man draws closer, chucking to himself. you're just there unmoving, trying to comprehend the situation and the words coming from his mouth.

“or did he not tell you that either? did he tell you anything at all?” he stands tall in front of you, tearing away bits of yourself with every word he says.

“when he returns, tell him the clan wants to propose him an offer. you can do that much at least won't you?”

…

and when toji comes home that night with the ring cluched tightly in his fist and inside the pocket of his white pants, the world stills.

he finds you in a state he has never seen you before. you look completely and utterly defeated.

“hey, what's wrong?” his hands come to caress your face so effortlessly, the ring and prior nervousness long forgotten.

“talk to me what's going on?” he looks around and the house seems emptier than usual. your laundry that were usually hanging with his were gone.

your small trinkets you placed around the house to “make it more lively” were nowhere to be found.

and there's a bag in the corner of the room which toji prays and hopes he isn't what he thinks it is.

your hands push away his own that were cupping your face. you're not even looking at him.

“say something damn it!”

you flinch and toji takes a step back. he recalls the last time you trembled in fear — when he got mad megumi called you his mom. he punishes himself for it.

“im sorry. please talk to me.” he isn't touching you now but he wants to. he wants to reach out and pull you close, as he always had done. but now there's an unbearable silence and the small distance between you both felt like lightyears away.

“who's zenin” your voice was meek, barely a whisper but toji's eyes widen. how did you find out about that?

no fuck that, he was supposed to be the one telling you. in his own time.

“i can explain” was all that came out of him. he's nervous, he doesn't know where to start. there's a lot of information to unpack and he's not sure how to do it without hurting you too much.

when he doesn't elaborate, you ask another “who's fushiguro then?” your voice falters a bit and toji curses himself for it.

but he's done running away and keeping things from you. “my… my late wife” he says wryly.

your eyes close and a shaky breath leaves your body, as if he just confirmed your worst suspicions. damn life is so funny isn't it? everything you thought you knew apparently wasn't what it seemed to be after all.

opening them again, your vision blurs and you realise tears were escaping your eyes. fuck you didn't want to cry now of all times but they won't stop.

and the way toji was looking at you, it makes you want to throw up.

“i must've been so stupid to you” you let out a humourless chuckle. “did you pretend im her?”

your gaze was sharp and so were your words. maybe all your bottled up feelings were resurfacing. it doesn't make you feel better about it but that doesn't stop you though.

“answer me. did you think of her when you're in bed with me? when you're kissing me and when you're holding me, was she the one on your mind??” your voice was loud now. you should be afraid of waking up megumi who you cradled to sleep just a few hours ago but no, your thoughts are too clouded right now.

toji sighs. he has no excuse.

“i used to” he actually looks ashamed as if he wasn't the one who did it purely out of his will.

your scoff makes him wince “but not anymore.”

his words fall on deaf ears “you know… i knew you did. but i stayed regardless because i thought there would be a chance that maybe one day, you could open up your heart to me. im not even asking for all of it, just a little… i thought you'd let me in.”

you're blabbering and honestly, so distraught.

“but not a moment was there when it was me isn't it? it was always her in the first place.”

now toji should have said something, anything but he stays there planted in place. and maybe that was your breaking point.

you turn around, grabbing your bag and brushing past him towards the door. instead of holding onto you and stopping you, toji clutches the small box containing the ring — your ring in his pocket, almost crushing it in the process, as he hears the door slam.

you think it's funny how toji did not reach out after what happened. it's poetic even. very fitting of him, till the very end, he did not give two shits about you.

so then, why were you back here?

it's been four long years since the trajectory of your life changed. you still don't know if it was for the better or for the worse.

saying it has been hard would be an understatement. it took you a long time just to get back onto your own feet but you did it regardless. however, you left a part of you here long ago and now, you're here to take it back.

that and you missed megumi dearly. perhaps it was an excuse too because you won't deny a part of you still missed toji, despite everything that happened.

standing a few feet away from the place you used to call home, you hesitate.

maybe this was a bad idea. oh this was definitely a bad idea. you'll see them, and then what? what comes after that?

closure? don't make yourself laugh. you’ll just be reminded of how you couldn't be that person for toji— how you'll always come second. and what if they moved?? there's no reason they'd still be here right?

forget this, you don't need to do this. why must you still be the one who put effort? to reach out? four long years passed and still no news means they clearly moved on... right?

you were convinced enough and was about to go back when you saw little megumi carrying a backpack on his back, seemingly coming home from school.

your feet wouldn't move and your eyes wouldn't blink. he grew up so well.

the world pauses as your gaze follows the kid you used to consider your own, now as good as a stranger.

“do you know that kid?” a voice at your back makes you whip your head around. life really is full of surprises and this time, the surprise was in the form of a tall man, no a tall kid with white hair, looking at you curiously through his round tinted glasses.

“... no i don't” well you weren't exactly lying. you don't know the megumi you see now. perhaps if he asked whether you raised him since he was a baby till he was two, then your answer would've been different.

“oh okay” the boy shrugs. “poor guy though”

“why? whats up with him?” you turn to look at megumi again who was minding his business walking home and your heart aches a little.

“I'm here to recruit him. his dad died you see so he's–”

“wait what was that??”

“his dad. he's dead” the amused boy in front of you chuckles and you stare at him, horrified.

“what happened to him?” your voice was shaky and doesn't sound like your own. he leans down to meet your eye level and smirks “why? i thought you don't know that kid. why does that matter to you?”

your stomach churns as you stare at him, not even knowing what to say— the smug expression on his face only widens.

“so you do know him.”

'know' would be a weak word to use when it comes to toji. you knew of his habits, the simple things he does and also of the more complex ones — like the exact place his scar decorated his lips and how it felt to kiss it.

then again, you don't really know anything about him and maybe you never will.

and maybe that's really, the closure you needed.

[bnnysweets]

i’m thinking older abby literally not letting R get away with shit, like not eating or not sleeping enough

SAFE HAVEN

older!abby x fem!reader

author’s note: you’re totally right anon! she’s so dominant omg my legs are weak. i didn’t know if u meant abby being mean or comforting reader, so i made both! (mean abby here). i had a lot of fun with this bc i study more than 12 hours a day n i don’t have time for NOTHING. english is not my first language.

warnings: reader has a stressful week, abby is concerned ‘bout her health. reader is called miss, baby, sweet girl.

“i’m so fucking tired.” it was the first thing you said when you arrived to her house, “well, hello to you too, little miss always tired.” she hugged you and helped with your bags, “i’m being serious! this week was like a truck with elephants ran over me.” you groaned when you finally were barefoot and your backpack was on the floor and not on your back, “i know you’re being serious, sweetie, i just think you funny like this, you get so needy.” you laugh a little in disbelief, “yeah i’m in need of propers meals and sleep, you know how long is since i’ve spent a entire day without migraine? yeah like four whole months.” you said and went to sit at the couch, abby still standing in the front door absorbing the things you said, she walked slowly and you could feel that she was angry.

“so are you telling me that you aren’t eating and sleeping appropriately? babe did you lost your damn mind? how the hell you’re gonna focus in your class if you don’t give your body energy?” she said in a calm tone but it was clear her concern and how furious she was, you stayed silent while she continued to walk until she was in front of you “you can’t just don’t eat or eat junk, you need to eat real food and, oh my god, how are you alive without sleeping enough? you know how irresponsible that is?” she was walking back and forth and you were starting to feel guilty, you didn’t know that abby really cared that much about you, “i just don’t have time abby…” you said quietly, “but why you didn’t told me that?! why?! you’re my girlfriend, you’re my priority, your well being one of my biggest concerns.”, “i’m sorry abby.” you said feeling like a deer caught in the headlights, “you don’t own apologies to me, you own to yourself, when you treat yourself like this you degrade yourself, it’s not fair, i know how hard you try to accomplish your goals, and i know how much you study and work, but i need you to take care of yourself, and not because i want to, but because you deserve it.” abby was crouched in front of you, holding your hands, she was not really angry maybe just a bit she was just concerned ‘bout you. “i need you, but above that i need you to be healthy.” she kissed your hands and looked at yours, now, wet eyes, “im just so tired abby, all the time, i always have something to do, and its so much pressure, and it’s from myself, i’m the one making pressure on me, i’m sorry, i’m gonna try to keep a healthier routine, but i just need comfort right now”. after you said that abby hugged you, she scooped you into her lap, you two stayed like this for a bit.

“i’m so proud of you, you know that? i truly am, you’re the most hardworking person i’ve ever met, you deserve to all your wishes come true. i’m proud of you regardless your grades, you’re a lot more than a number.” abby whispered into your ear, your head was on her neck and it had been so many days since you last felt this way, secure, in your safe space. “i love you” you mumbled, “i love you too, sweet girl.” and you slept like that, above her body, hugging her, abby was admiring you, how peaceful you were, and she was thinking what she would cook for you in the next day to guarantee that you wouldn’t be anemic by the end of the year.

[princessbrunette]

Sunshine!Reader just adores rafe. like i imagine she’s a friend of sarah who has always had a crush on her cool older brother, following him around and watching his every move cs she’s so obsessed with him x rafe who is nonchalant at his very core & basically just ignores her presence even when she’s practically hanging off his arm & living in his skin. “Why is it that everytime i turn around, you’re there?” he just raises his eyebrow at her. “i’m not your friend, kid.” - 🍄

no bc im salivating …….. hang on let me cook

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sunshine!reader who’s always at the cameron home because her home life is bad— more specifically, daddy issues !! it’s a wonder how you’re so sweet n happy toward the people around you when you’re being treated so poorly!

you follow rafe around like a lost puppy, because duh — his nonchalance hurts you in all the right ways that just makes you crave his attention more, a product of your bad relationship with your father. you’re over at tannyhill more and more, increasingly without sarah being there as she starts a life with the pogues— but you don’t mind, happy anywhere as long as you’re not at home.

“are you goin’ anywhere today rafe? can i come?” you seemingly pop out of nowhere in the kitchen, startling him as he closes the fridge— clutching his chest for effect.

“jesus, why is it everytime i turn around you’re there? ‘you ever go n’hang around at your own house or what?” he busies himself, carrying a carton of juice in one hand and moving you out the way with the other as he passes.

“i prefer to be here! hanging out with you!” you chirp and he stops in the doorway, turning to look at you.

“kid, i’m not your friend. a’ight?” he drawls before heading out, the same time his father is entering the room. ward sends you a sympathetic look before he’s trailing after rafe.

“son you gotta be nice to the girl. i didn’t raise you like that.” he nags, speeding up to walk in time with the younger man.

“why? she’s practically living rent free here, should be able to talk to her how i want.” rafe complains, uncapping the carton and taking a swig.

“her home life, it’s not great.” he lowers his voice, swivelling his head round to make sure you weren’t lurking. “she’s — she’s sarah’s friend. i’m taking pity on her, think her dad doesn’t treat her all too well.” he rambles and rafes movements slow to stop, eyes trailing up to meet his fathers, suddenly attentive.

“huh.” he speaks, sinister intrigue occupying his gaze which his father barely picked up on. he continued speaking but rafe had heard all he needed to hear, concocting ways to use this to his advantage.

the opportunity presented itself sooner than he was expecting once he’d got you backed up against the wall in the hallway a few days later, practically pinning you there.

“you— you know it’s time you start respecting me if you wanna be hangin’ out around here. especially now my dads on his trip. i’m older than you, the man of the house now and — and that means you answer to me.” he drawls, quiet and intimate— so close his breath warms your face as you blink up at him.

“i do listen to you rafe.” you chime, losing a little bit of pep in your step under his intimidating gaze. you knew something was up, but you couldn’t help but melt — finally feeling like rafe gave a shit about you. that he was going to save you.

“wanna see you actin’ like it from now on… you know i realised,” his finger comes to his temple, lightly tapping. “you’re missin’ something. someone to guide you. an authority figure… ‘nd it must be your lucky day ‘cus i can be just that. you’ll… be in good hands.” he now drags his finger lightly down the side of your face, scooping round to beneath your chin to lift it.

“i thought you said you didn’t wanna be my friend.” you whisper, eyes flickering between his mouth and his eyes, the proximity tempting.

“didn’t say we would be friends… i was thinking something a little more… hands on.” his drops his voice to a mere whisper, hovering his lips right over yours. you give in to the urge, craning up and pressing your lips against his, which he lets slide for maybe two seconds — before drawing back and slapping you, grabbing your jaw instantly to bring your gaze back.

you gasp, tears springing to your eyes, usual smile wiped from your expression even more so now. “you don’t… you don’t do that without my permission. alright? i said you answer to me now.” he grits his teeth, squeezing your jaw just a little harder making your brows furrow in fear.

he ends up not being too mean on you, especially when you’re later cumming around his cock, the oldest cameron forcing you to call him ‘dad’ whilst you do so.

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[greenunoreversecard]

Kai general and Romantic headcanons

A/N:sorry if I got any of the characters wrong, I was using a combo of wiki/Google translate as I don't speak any of the languages mentioned. Pls let me know if I got any info wrong, i will gladly go in and change it to make it right.

General:

Half Indian and half Chinese.

His and nya's last name is 鄭 (Zheng), but he says it's Smith bc when they where younger he got in the habit of lying about his name so he Didnt have to deal with CPS.

His ma is from Visakhapatnam in Andhra Pradesh, and was a practicing Hindu. Ray is from the 云南 (yunnan) province, and was a practicing theravida Buddhist. Ray is ethnically from the 傣族 (dai people, also spelt Tai in english)

Before his parents dissapearances, they both brought him to their hometowns, and actively taught him both cultures and religions, which he continued to learn about and even teach Nya about after their dissapearances.

When he was 14 he bought a small boat and him and Nya rode it across the costal line, and he promised Nya one day when he was older he'd bring the both of them to their parents hometowns.

He's a Buddhist.

He speaks so many languages.

Like so many

He's fluent in Thai, mandarin and cantonese chinese, telugu, urdu, hindi, Punjabi, arabic and ninjago-ian(idk whatever language ninjago speaks)

Also trying to learn Indonesian.

He also knows yunnan dialect bc his dad would speak in it more often than not

Absorbes info like a sponge

He likes to quilt

He always wears a golden bracelet He got from his moms jewelry box after she left.

Likes to draw but is bad at it, so he colors coloring books

Introvert

He may act all confident, but he really isn't. super insecure

Soooo good with hair

Like, has all the stops. 10 step hair care routine

rivals Zanes cooking skills.

When working out focuses on building rather than lean muscle.

Mother friend

has dragged all of his friends into the water splashing festival.

Fatal flaw is loyalty and kind of hubris (it's conflicting, ik with the insecure and extreme pride, but like- it makes sense in my head. Inferiority/maybe superiority complex.)(it makes sense bc this is such me behavior. Imagine hating yourself but thinking ur the baddest bitch alive)

Likes to stare at fire

If he can't sleep he'll make a small bonfire to stare at and think

insomnia

Chronic cigarette smoker

Romantic:

Hes more show than tell

Def acts of service (me frfr)

Although, he is very cuddly.

Not in public, though. Maybe infront of the other ninja if it was a rough day

Loves to rock you gently from side to side when yall are hug

loves to give you temple kisses

He's very gentle with you, treats you like glass

You wil prolly say ily first, and he'll go;"🧍‍♂️...cool?"

He has mommy and daddy issues, but HEAVY on the mommy issues. Have fun with this hyper-independant fuck who can't accept help without feeling like a failure even though they need it (I'm not projecting you are)

Goes all out for holidays and anniversaries.

Doberman/German Shepard vibes tbh

When it's just you two he doesn't feel the need to fill the air with meaningless chatter, so if he feels safe enough to just share air without talking feel honoured and cherish it bc that means he actually trusts you.

A little rough around the edges, but will remember that thing you said 5years ago on ur first date

Most dates are chill inside and take a nap

But sometimes if he can he takes you on the town or someplace fancy

Also likes to show you his favorite childhood spots

[nat-20s]

Seen people describe The Doctor and Donna's relationship as a sibling dynamic but I think that's only true for some Doctors with Donna so here's a definitive list of which nuwhodoctordonna pairs are and aren't siblings:

NineDonna: No. They are randomly assigned roommates that become the most annoying best friends in the world. Literally the worst fucking people in existence to third wheel for, you're in a constant state of "what the FUCK are you two talking about???"

TenDonna: No. Something much weirder going on for them. I once saw someone describe them as "whatever dr doofensmirtz and perry have going on but platonic" and that's lived in my head rent free ever since. Yes Ten WOULD physically strap Donna to himself in order to confront his parents and then when it went poorly they would watch the sunset and he would tell her that she was his rock. Also very gay best friend and woman on another one of their little adventures/ a lesbian and her favorite himbo. Who's the gay best friend/woman/lesbian/himbo changes on a whim <3 Truly the icons of sticking two freak bi people with unfettered adhd together and seeing what happens

ElevenDonna: okay Yes. that is her little brother that's like 30 times older than her and she is treating him accordingly. (so so so mean but will also kick people in the shins for being nasty to him)

TwelveDonna: Sort of. Less your typical sibling dynamic and more like stepsiblings that only became stepsiblings well into their 30s and have decided to unionize. In another life they would've been a vaudeville duo that are also conmen.

ThirteenDonna: No. Not a single soul knows whatever the fuck those two have going on between them, least of all them. Probably like. The somewhat healthier mirror version of whatever the fuck The Doctor and Spymaster have going on. One time 13 sighs oh so sadly and is like "i wish i could be donna's lap dog" and when the master asks, "Like in a horny way, or???" Thirteen replies, "I don't know I just think if Donna could carry me around everywhere life would be significantly better and I could have an easier time seeing beauty in the universe again." and the master is like. "have you maybe considered prozac" and the doctor says "WELL I WOULDN'T NEED PROZAC IF I WAS DONNA'S LAP DOG NOW WOULD I??"

FourteenDonna: no. QUEER PLATONIC SPOUSES OF ALL FUCKING TIIIIMMMMEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FifteenDonna: Not quite. I think they more have the vibe of like cousins that go to family functions and always seek each other out bc they have a mutual case of "you're the only bitch in this room that I respect. You're the only motherfucker in this house that can handle me." Both of them volunteer to "chaperone" the kids table bc if Donna has to hear one more word from their uncle who won't shut up about how great brexit is she's shoving his face in the mashed potatoes and fifteen is just going to be like "you're doing amazing sweetie"

[oneforthemunny]

I know you always do your horny hours but I am yearning for some angsty hours, especially with cowboy!eddie. The Christmas fic you wrote still has me in a chokehold to this day, I love seeing a rough and tough man break down and ugly cry over his girl, especially bc he thought he was acting like his dad ugh so good. Have cowboy and sweet girl ever had any other rough patches? Or even instances outside of him and sweet girl, maybe when he was growing up? I want you to psychoanalyze this man for me, I need to know what makes him angry/insecure/anxious (if ever) and/or ugly cry like he did in that fic, because he may be all rough and tough but if theres anything brewing beneath the surface I need to know🙏🏻thank u you are doing the lords work🙏🏻

oh baby are you in for a treat today lol. i am very angsty moody today so i'll indulge. full eval below so putting a cut bc it's long. here's the cowboy!eddie lore (the good, the bad, and the slutty ofc i have to hit all demographics):

let's start with eddie's dad and grandpa were drunks. they'd drink all day to get them through the day, then go play cards at the dive bar down the road until they lost all their money and couldn't see straight.

eddie's mom and grandma both were raised with that mindset of you just looked the other way, let them do what they wanted to because they're the men. and it was okay living like that (not really) but eddie's dad was a mean drunk. mean and angry, especially towards both of them.

after his grandpa passed, eddie's dad was supposed to take care of the ranch and keep training horses, keep up with the crops, but he was lazy, drunk, and broke. they used to have a lot more land with corn but they had to sell it because he kept drinking and gambling the money away.

eventually, that's when wayne came back. he'd left, tried to leave anyways, but he came back because he didn't want to lose his family's land. and honestly didn't want it left in eddie's dad's hands, especially after his mom passed.

eddie's grandma mainly took care of him, his dad completely checked out, busy chasing women and drinking and being a bum. wayne and his grandma really were who raised him, and they did their best, a lot better than most, but still as eddie got older, he just got more and more angry.

like i've touched a little on his anger, how he doesn't get mad very often but when he does, it's like a different kind of rage that's terrifying. but before he learned how to control it, he'd just fly off the handle anytime. got in fights at school, ran away from home, flunked out of high school and eventually just dropped entirely, just crazy shit in his teen years.

wayne was who made him start riding and competing. he knew how to do it, grew up doing it, but stopped because his dad did it and he hated it. but when he started acting out and having angry outbursts, wayne made him start training. he'd make him train, show him how to take the aggression out and channel it somewhere different, release some of that tension.

he taught him how to work, like real hard work lol, keep up things around the ranch. how to take pride in things, and not just half ass let them fall apart (like his dad did). it was hard at first, eddie would have outbursts, throw shit and kick shit and walk off because something messed up, and wayne would make him do it again. wayne stayed on his neck honestly, and he needed it. it taught him patience, taught him to not be like his dad.

when his grandma died, she left the land in wayne's name, who kept it until he was ready to move on from it, when eddie was old enough and he left it to him. when he felt he was ready for it, and wouldn't fuck it up.

pre-sweet girl eddie?? a whore. like genuinely, it's a million wonders he didn't have an incurable std or twelve kids. he was sloppy, young lol. had a whole fucking farm to himself, was a cowboy, a good bronco rider who won lots, and he's hot.

he was honestly, a guy that would probably ruin your life if you met him in his whore phase. like he wanted no strings attached, kinky hot sex- and that's it, just sex. and he wasn't mean about it, not like one to lead anyone on intentionally or fuck with their head, but like he's really good at having sex, he's nice, and he's hot- yeah, i'd get attached too lol.

once he kinda stops wanting to compete, he gets more into training, kinda grows out of the whole wild cowboy thing, he's ready to settle down. he starts keeping to himself, kinda focusing on himself in a way, and then meets sweet girl <3

that's all i can think of rn honestly. love my cowboy.

[stellar-constellations]

As much as I like Andrew,and dream to suck his dick, I know he’s no saint. But the way some fans twist things is wild. Saying “Andrew is creepier because he’s the older brother and a guy” or “Ashley didn’t want to abort, he forced her” is just misinformation. Same with the take that “Ashley doesn’t want sex, she’s immature and scared of being left, so she’s just using her body”—( I think nemlei also said something similar which to me is bs,to make Ashley look better bc she the fav of the male gooners) that doesn’t align with her character at all.

They act like there’s a 10-year gap between them when it’s only two. Andrew, despite being parentified and “mature for his age,” was still a kid—he never saw Ashley as a daughter figure. and Ashley clearly was sexually attracted to him,the actions and all,

Besides Andrew didn't forced her to abort, he was being logical: they have not enough money, the environment would be murder, and mentally neither are ready or fit to be a parent, to me, Ashley doesn't got motherly desire,and Andrew doesn't have fatherly desires, besides that would be more stress for him and her. (Besides 22 is way too young to be a parent)

Yes, there’s definitely misogyny—like the guys who cheered when Ashley got hit. But Ashley stans acting like "she’s so complex and hated just because she’s a woman” while tearing down Julia for sleeping with Andrew first is just hypocritical. Plenty of female characters are complex—Azula, Katara (kids shows) and there would be more female complex characters than Ashley in rpg egdy games.

Bottom line: both Andrew and Ashley are abusive and toxic toward each other,they are shitty,they abuse each other ( I don't believe in this phrase bc abuse it's mainly when one has power over other" but those two somehow manage to fucking break that)

and the takes that drive crazy is "Ashley never liked him in that way,it just Andrew" or the ppl that treat Andrew as a saint or "he's predatory" makes my blood boil,like I know he isn't the pope,but come on .

With respect, I agree with some things you've said and I disagree with other things you've said.

For one, I 10000% agree that both are abusers, ABSOLUTELY! Neither of them are good, and they are equally abusive in their own way; Andrew inflicting harm on others such as beating and choking Ashley and murdering a child because they mad him mad (even tho he was literally tryna harm the kid in the first place), Andrew neglecting others' emotions (such as constantly ditching Julia for Ashley, or ignoring Ashley when she feels upset or angry). Ashley being harmful to others such as using intimidation (pointing a gun at her brother, calling Julia threatening to harm her and that she's floozy, murdering a kid as a kid). They're also abusive to themselves; Andrew self-harming by drinking his feelings away and Ashley staying in a toxic relationship with Andrew despite being abused.

But Andrew was indeed attracted to Ashley, it's been proven before in earlier scenes of the game such as his inner thoughts of purposely sleeping in the same bed as Ashley because he had nightmares (which he also admitted to not being that bad of nightmares and Nemelei straight up saying it in a QNA), to making Julia wear ponytails so that she resembles Ashley, to even as an adult always running back to Ashley despite mommy and daddy no longer telling him to take care of Ashley. Andrew was indeed attract to Ashley, not as a kid or teenager, but overtime his hatred to her did start becoming something more once he started accepting that his life revolved around Ashley, he was practically conditioned as a child thanks to his parents for that one; if he didn't watch Ashley, he got punished. If he didn't stay with Ashley, Ashley would throw a fight to their parents and so Andrew would have to be friends with Ashley to appeal to his parents.

And Ashley DOES use sex as a means of currency. Such as telling Andrew she can take care of his sexual needs if it means he doesn't see Julia; she gives sex in exchange for him staying with her and effectively isolating him. Andrew even mentions that he felt like Ashley it was an exchange! And earlier on that note of me saying Ashley doesn't have those feelings, I believe it's true that she doesn't! Her behavior as a child wanting to be with Andrew stems from insecurity and not feeling good enough thanks to her parents disliking her from being hyperactive because their parents didn't understand that kids are going to be kids and kids are loud (I can say that with experience, I work with kids and grew up with four siblings). Ashley didn't have sexual attraction to him, all her comments were sick sense of humor because she has poor coping mechanisms and propositions because she didn't want her only "friend" leaving her, that's why she couldn't kill Andrew, because she didn't want to be alone.

I do agree to some extent about Ashley. Ashley is definitely sexualized more in the fandom. The fan art is disgusting. Her low-cropped shirt (I think that's what it's called) that shows a good chunk of her chest is sexualized too (y'all can we normalize clothing on women? Same with fantasy armor in games too please)? But I don't think Nemelei 100% meant to. I mean, in one of the QNA when someone asked about Ashley's tit size, she said it wasn't as big as people think (Andrew is also facing sexualization from the fandom such as people asking for his dick size). I'm just glad people are sexualizing fictional characters instead of going after IRL people such as celebrities and stuff... Plus, Nemelei doesn't mind the sexualization and she encourages it due to her writing and her art and commentary, so as long as the creator is fine, nobody should really give a fuck because it doesn't interfere with your personal life.

I've only seen the Shot and Such ending, so I might be wrong about something (listen man, that ending was only 6 hours and you're telling me there's more, I already hate episode 3 enough after seeing just one ending, I need time away from it and stay delusional in my thoughts and writing).

Maybe there is something I'm missing, but from my perspective, this was my hot take. Remember y'all, psychological horror game, so everyone interprets it differently because it's psychological and psychological is your way of thinking; nothing it wrong with your brain and how you interpret a fictional video game so long as you aren't harming real people (talking to you attempted doxxers, fucking psychos, you guys need to be off the internet if you can't handle fiction, and that's coming from a anti-shipper and anti-incest person too!)

[your-favourite-yapper]

tll me evrything aplease

tws: cheating, vague mentions of drug use, suicide (1ce by pill 1ce by gun, its not grqphic but you can drfo tell whats happening), age gap (srs isnt tech a child but i dont think that makes anything b8r in terms of morality)(during prongsfoot: srs is 19 james is 27 and in remus x james remus is 27 iames is 45),everyone dies except for rjl (v rare occurence), outing (regulus outs james and sirius), i don't know what time frame this is, i have NAWT read or watched cmbyn bc it's too sad, ships that happen in order: wolfstar, prongsfoot, bitchkiller, jily, remus x james, james x gun (none r endgame except the last 1), ALOT of typos @mrstellmeafuckingsecret this is part one btw bc tumblr is 2 sec from crashing

SO sirius + co. Have a second family home in Italy theyv3 be3n goingb2 since they were babies and like orion is a professor and needs an intern and he usually gets a young woman but him and walburga fight abt this so walburga makes him get an older man (even tho on fridays wc are the days orion works tye latest, she gets the gardener to come 20 minutes early) anyways enter stage right: james

The home is in the Italian countryside bc regulus hates the noises of traffic and in the more rural areas there lives Remus and he's a sweet boy srssage and him and sirisu have an on off rlnship (its on off bc even tho its implicit bn them that they're in a rlnship even when sirius is away srs ALWAYS cheats w other girls and rjl is in the rural part of toen so he walks like 3 miles 2 get service 2 talk 2 sirisu only for sirisu to not respond.....he makes gifts for srs and srs barley responds and saves up his savings for like a month to buy sirius lipgloss after sirius said he wanted one )

Umm anyaways..jfp comes and sirius is v annoyed bc ??? Now he has to LIVE w this hobo??? But they warm up 2 each other and srs was always a Lil mean to regulus but when james was w him he'd acc Bully him and he'd run off wo regulus (he had his bugs hed be fine) and make fun of regulus 2 james bc even tho there's only a barely 2 yr age gap bn them sirius NEEDS james 2 see him as more mature and walburga doesn't like james bc he's taking her bby away from her but since she's a poised matriarch and needs to b a good hostess since her husband is lowkey tweaking 99% of thr time (the other 1% is when hes passed out drunk) she can't threaten him w one of their special occasion knives

And James has to remind himself of the decade of an age gap bn them but how would he do that when sirisu is in absurdly low hung swim shorts and is sprawled by the pool all gangly limbs and silky black hair and open pretty mouth and and his YOUTH bc he's a practically still a child and this is wrong wrong wrong wrong so james is v inconsistent w his behavior to sirius

One moment he's staring at Sirius w his mouth practically dropped open and he's making winky faces at sirius and he's just staring at Sirius from behind his sunglasses and the next he's blowing sirius off and snapping at him w words that cut cut cut and sirius wants to dig his fingers inside those cuts and show james his insides and he's intrigued bc how could he not be? No one has ever treated him like this

and all the while Remus is at his cottage w his sick grandma (who in siriuss opinion should just kick the bucket at this point) in his 2 bedroom house where he lives w 4 ppl and sleeps on a mattress on the floor, staying up late and making anniversary cards for him and sirius. and regulus is watching his older brother sneak off w a complete stranger rather than talk w him abt bugs like they would when they were 8 and all was ok back then but all is not ok rn bc what was so nice abt james anyways?? He doesn't kno 5 languages, he doesn't play 3 instruments, he doesn't kno siriuss breakfast order when Sirius was 9, he doesn't stay up hoping PRAYING that sirius would open his eyes and realize that regulus is-and has always been- RIGHT. THERE.

Anywho ..1 day james kisses sirius under the trees near the pool and sirius can feel his whole world upend but then james pushes him away and srs asks why and james says srs is so young and srs says that's not the rzn and james says that it's all a joke to sirius and sirius says that acc he's still in a 4yr rlnship w a boy so... and james starts yelling at him and sirius kisses him and they make out and have sex and all is good!!!

But guess who also spends his time under the trees near the pool? Collecting bugs and rocks to show his father now that his brother is practically gone?

Regulus tells his parents and he's happy bc finally sirisu would get his dues and maybe after that they might even make up w james out the house!!

Walburga who is ever so composed tweaks. Tf. Out. And James is shocked bc walburga smiled at him and made sure to tell the servants to serve him his eggs abit overcooked bc uncooked eggs make him nauseous and she always made sure the wine of the night would be jamess favourite and now she's screaming at him and ...is that A KNIFE???!!! so umm yeah he takes like half his stuff and skeddadles (coward)

and walburga then screams at sirius and sirius is shocked bc walburga is never mad at HIM and walburga is shocked bc she swore to herself that she'd never yell at sirius and the day he was born he was born STRONG and beautiful and perfect (and not like regulus who was born a stillborn(and he wasnt even orions and so he was contaminated and weak and far too soft and)) and now she was screaming at Sirius and she must have stopped at some point bc when she blinks she's in her bed and she can hear Sirius cry and she doesn't comfort him and infact feels childishly vindicated even tho he won't stop crying and (and the next morning he was gone and the only person left was) regulus.

It's all HIS fault bc why would he tell her that when he knew it'd make her upset at sirius and didn't he understand how pERFECT sirius was??? So she cries and yells and cries and yells and cries and yells and doesn't notice (even tho she does and there it is again that childish vindication) it when regulus takes her sleeping pills up to the bath 2 wks after sirius left and she doesn't care (she does. bc regulus still had her blood if not orion's) bc sirius is GONE

Sirius after running away goes 2 Remus first to beg 4 some cash so he could catch the bus to the hotel james would be sure to be at, and him and remus haven't talked in DAYS and so he doesn't kno that remuss grandma has (FINALLY) kicked the bucket and remus opens the door and app asking for cash first thing is not??? ok??? Bc remus starts yelling at him w red rimmed eyes and sirius is confused bc ?? Bro u got upgraded from having to live w 4 ppl in a 2 bedroom house to 3ppl in a 2 bedroom house ????

But Sirius leaves and stays at a shady pub w the little cash he has and has to share a room w a man w piercings and tattoos and green hair and drugs and he's lonely so they fuck and get high and fuck and get high and fuck get high and get high to fuck and fuck high and he forgets abt Remus and forgets abt regulus and his mother and his father and the stupid gardener who comes 20 min early and he forgets james and and

JAMES ! He tries catching the train and gets the money from the man under the pretense of getting more drugs and goes to the hotel but james left a day ago ashen sirius was busy getting high n fuckin and he breaks down right there in the lobby bc james was probably back at his family home in America and well ummm yeah...he dies(?) In the streets (its v much a lucy gray bird situation i dunno u dunno)

[havocskies]

WARNING this yapfest is mainly about the headcanon about hobie and gwen hooking up. i’m speaking VERY negatively on it but if you don’t like even hearing abt it don’t read all this. i understand not everyone likes hearing abt it but i’ve always thought it was important to talk about and i love talking abt media deeply. this is also all unedited and not looked over it’s truly just me yapping

i won’t get straight back into nsfw (if i even do, i don’t really have an urge to anyway 😭) but i will rant abt things i still care abt. i wholeheartedly believe (even as someone who very strongly thinks hobie is 18 or older) that the ships w him and miles, pav, n even margo were completely fine as a concept. there was never anything wrong w wtv age you saw hobie as bc it was never and has never been confirmed, so if they saw hobie as a minor shipping him was fine. like i won’t lie usually it was wholesome n cute (other than the people who gave them a clear power dynamic bc they think hobie is an adult n jst didn’t wanna be called a proshipper. those were the only people i ever spoke out against)

however. in my full opinion hobie and gwen could’ve never worked out bc one 99% of the shippers base their relationship purely on sex but even for the shippers who didn’t i think gwen was too unstable for a relationship like that w hobie. wtv age you think hobie has there would’ve been a CLEAR power dynamic between him n gwen, he was supposedly the main person letting her crash at his place n was the main person taking care of her emotionally and physically. like i’m sure he treated her as an equal no doubt, but gwen wasn’t emotionally stable she was very freshly traumatized 😭 she would not have been in the headspace to have sex w hobie at all, and i guarantee even if she tried hobie wouldn’t have let her bc i don’t think he’s stupid and i think he would’ve known she wasn’t stable enough to just start hooking up randomly (under the very safe assumption gwen never has before 😭😭😭) like that’s the only reason i ever see people ship her and hobie and it’s horrifying 💔

i think it was implied she had a small crush on hobie in the way you’d have a crush on an upperclassman or an older coworker. but i also think hobie would’ve been responsible enough to not do anything with gwen or even indulge in the idea that he could like her back in that way.

people don’t consider the fact that when smth that big happens in your life and someone immediately shows you so much care, attention, and treats you the way you haven’t been treated in a while it’s very likely to become naturally attached. gwen (safe to assume) probably didn’t have much experience with even DATING, which means in her traumatized brain hooking up could’ve been the only way she thought that a friendship that great could possibly go. it’s so easy to think that way, and i really doubt hobie would’ve taken advantage of her lack of experience n trauma like that just to hook up AND ALSO never even date her ??? he does not seem like the type to have mindless hookups i’m sorry 😭 the whole “i don’t believe in consistency” was not him saying he’s a manwhore, it was him saying constant things to contradict themselves and confuse miles. he’s not a sex addict he’s jst annoying 😭 if you paid attention to most other things he said ON THE SPOT, they were all clearly sarcasm. obviously not him talking abt being an activist n being a punk, bc when he talks abt that he talks in detail the entire time. he isn’t jst pulling it out of his ass like he did w everything else he jst wanted to annoy miles. i very heavily think hobie wld be against hookup culture

now however people who ship hobie n gwen n DONT believe they did anything like that i don’t rlly care like as much as the ship irks me i can’t have anything against it in that way 💔💔💔

and i also know people can ship wtv they want but people are also allowed to dislike it and that’s completely okay !!!

i just think hobie is truly such a well written character and fits the true punk ideals so well, which is rare for popular media and i wish people didn’t brush that off so often just to make hobie creepy and predatory for some reason 💔

[thecustomcosplayed]

oooh boy i am in the midst of rewatching season 2 of Legends of Tomorrow and Sara's entire arc from assassin to captain means so much to me

(rambling under cut and kind of spoilery ig)

like. Stein's "you're no longer an assassin, you're a captain." and then a few episodes later her choosing to save him over the amulet bc she views the team as her family and she can't save her sister but she can save them oooughhh

also continuing into one of the later seasons (either 3 or 4 idk), when Zari says to Sara "you aren't just the captain of the ship, you're it's soul" WHEN SARA HAS STRUGGLED WITH WHO SHE IS AND WHAT HER SOUL MEANS TK HER??

Godd I love it sm. And in S2 when she's still trying to deal with being a captain and the fact that Rip is MIA and she probably felt so inadequate for it but her team shows literally nothing but support to her and are always like "okay so what's next captain" and they (almost) always ask her what to do hshsj

Her struggling with a place in the team in S1 being nothing more than an assassin to Rip but then S2 rolls around and she's a captain and the team (her family!!!) looks to her for guidance and I don't think they really understand how much they mean to her but its just she grows SO well into the role of captain

Everybody who joins the team doesn't even question it, Gideon never stops calling her the captain (and rewatching S1 felt so weird when Gid called Sara Ms. Lance and not Captain Lance), and then when Ava comes around literally the entire team is like "oh okay another time mom. co-captain 🥰"

Sara loves her lil band of misfits so much and I feel like she doesn't realize how much they love her (Jax saying she needs to be captain and he can't be captain in S2 E11, Rory talking to her abt being the only 2 ogs left in S6, Nate treating her like an older sister, Zari and her lowk bonding over dead siblings, etc etc) but theyre a little family and yeah theyre a lil messed yp and broken but they have each other!!

I could talk abt Sara for years guys she's my favorite character from LoT

anyways tldr i really enjoy Sara's assassin/teammate - the (figurative) soul of the ship arc

[squarerice]

this is random but i'm reminded of it bc of the mini tumblr 2025 goldfinch renaissance. it has to do w my fancast for the characters. so i first read the book late 2022 when i was staying w my dad and showing him the german netflix shows dark (2017) and 1899 (2022). (this is relevant, i promise.) he doesn't otherwise have netflix so these shows were a treat for him.

anyway, so i'm reading the goldfinch. first time, knew very little, vaguely recognized donna tartt's name from the secret history being popular on tumblr mid-late 2010s (why i picked TGF from the library in the first place, TSH wasn't there lol) but still knew very little. enter character named boris. no idea he was going to show up/exist. now obviously i think of the character named boris from dark, the tv show i had JUST finished (re)watching for like the 6th time. so béla gabor lenz was my boris faceclaim/fancast.

and the tv show i was CURRENTLY (re)watching was 1899. so i imagined isaak dentler as hobie (gruff bearded older man, though in hindsight dentler is a little too young).

i go through all of the vegas arc not really imagining any of the characters' faces clearly except these two. then theo goes back to NY, i get really depressed and annoyed and want to dnf, and i look up the name of the book to see if there's something online that will push me to continue bc the BEST character/section of the book is over.

enter the goldfinch (2019), starring aneurin barnard as adult boris. and i just-- excuse me???? ONE OF THE THREE LEADS OF THE TV SHOW I WAS CURRENTLY WATCHING, WAS ONE OF THE LEADS IN THE FILM ADAPTATION OF THE BOOK I WAS CURRENTLY READING, WHEREIN I HAD ALREADY PICTURED ACTORS WHO'D WORKED ON THESE SHOWS WITH THESE SHOWRUNNERS???? it was wild. unreal. anyway, that pushed me to keep reading bc i knew boris would come back into the narrative.

then a couple months later i was rereading vegas section snippets and got to this part where boris is explaining his name.

and i look up boris badenov from rocky & bullwinkle and prince boris drubetskoy from war and peace to visualize the joke. and i'm hit smackdab with THIS MAN'S FACE. AGAIN.

anyway, as far as the goldfinch (2019) goes, the movie as a whole is awful. aneurin barnard as adult boris was great, oakes fegley as young theo was alright, ansel elgort as adult theo was ew-ew-ew, and finn wolfhard as young boris was just.... who tf decided to do that....

jeffrey wright as hobie was so good he replaced my mental image of dentler and nicole kidman-- who is that? i don't know her. i actually like luke wilson as larry (the anti-type cast, since he usually plays bumbling good guys) and sarah paulson as xandra is... unexpected but her performance was good with the material she had.

so now when i reread, young theo is oakes, young boris is still bela, adult theo is [static], adult boris is aneurin (kind of, i mean adult boris is still bela but aneurin is also there in spirit. it's complicated), and hobie is jeffrey. no one else really matters as much as far as imagining faces.

even though bela is still what my boris "looks like," aneurin as a performer will always hold a special place as boris for me bc he was in 1899 alongside my original "hobie" (isaak), HE WAS BORIS IN THE GOLDFINCH MOVIE, and he was boris in the bbc adaptation of war and peace. and he understands the character better than john crowley ever will. thank you and goodnight.

[dammit-tazmuir]

TLT Aspec headcanons bc why not

Aro and/or ace and maybe a little agender as a treat. I could be forgetting some and some are more my wishful thinking than others but yee.

Cam is so very aroace and a little averse on both sides. She and Pal also both fluctuate on "maybe I have a gender, maybe I don't?" but don't care enough to question it too much. Cam is mostly focused on practicality. Pal had zero dysphoria in her body, or any he did have was just from it being foreign and different than he was used to (piloting Babs was worse). He can recognize why Pyrrha is uncomfortable but can't relate. -

Corona is lithromantic and knows it but gets frustrated with herself for it, and the longer someone feels unattainable the more she convinces herself that maybe this time she really does want them. (And she might, given enough other foundation, it's just that what she's ultimately craving is companionship, and that part she isn't as self-aware about.) -

Ianthe does not know what she feels anymore and refuses to think too much about it, because that would require examining which feelings she's always had and which she only acquired or that changed or got mixed in some way after she ate Babs. And that brand of feeling confusion doesn't translate to any specific label but listen it's a spectrum okay we can make a little room for her. -

Dulcie is aroace in a way where she's very happy, but likes to meddle with others' relationships and loves the idea of romance, even if she finds a lot of it really cheesy and amusing. It's still very sweet and hypothetically she wouldn't be opposed, and even Pal's proposal was endearing enough she would have considered if he had been a little older and she had been a little less dying. Just left fully up to her she'd have no desire for anything. -

Silas is agender in an "I literally do not care" way and probably some flavor of ace and/or aro. (Like I know he's also young and has "married to the church" energy but I just feel like that's not all of it.) -

G1deon is aro and romance-repulsed, and like gray-ace with a tendency to reciprocate if people are attracted to him first. He just wouldn't normally act on it because he doesn't want anyone developing Feelings, and Pyrrha was the only person he ever trusted to respect him not returning hers Like That. Wake wanting to murder his ass was weirdly nice reassurance actually. -

Augustine is alloaro. I have zero textual support for this, this one is just me being indulgent. He and Mercy are both Partners to John and have been for so long but an extra part of their clashing is Augustine's feelings are fully platonic while Mercy's are romantic, and each is convinced their brand of love is superior and is annoyed the other would dare to act like it's not. -

John is quoiromantic as hell (and maybe hyporomantic at this point). His feelings get blurry super easily and did even before he became a man-shaped eclipse. What does it mean to love God? He's not picky. What does it mean for God to love? Who fucking knows man, not him.

[satsuha]

hi! so i hope this isn't too weird to say, bc i am sadly not much of a temehika shipper (though i do like their dynamic--personally i just vibe in my throchette dingy in the middle of the octp2 ocean of content), but can i just say i ADORE how you write ochette? she's my favourite hero in terms of personality and it kills me /every single time/ when people call her a kid. (as someone who's also short, exciteable, and a bit of a ditz, i do take personal offense to that T^T )also ochehika best friends!!!!! they have SUCH thematic paralells that i just eat up and ahhh i love seeing your art with those two! <3 <3

ah! that's not weird at all, and no worries(?) about not being a tmhk shipper lol everyone has their own preferences...

i'm really flattered that you think that way about the way i portray ochette tho! especially since i don't think i've done as much with her as i'd have liked to... i really really like her personality too, i've always loved how her japanese voice actress (hirano aya, aka suzumiya haruhi as well ?!) is so skilled at making her sound childish but Not a kid.

it feels like a bad faith interpretation to me to say that she's infantilized just because she has different views and priorities from other characters when i think several characters actually treat her more like an adult than others in her age group? my favourite bit of "proof" for that is how temenos doesn't use the honorific -kun (usually used for students or younger coworkers) with her like he does with agnea, crick and throne, the latter two being older than ochette! using castti's relationship with ochette as a means of saying how childish she is feels like a weird strawman argument too because that has more to do with how castti treats others than how ochette is as a character...

speaking of her and castti, i found out that the term she uses to call castti (localized equivalent being "ma") is actually a very masculine way of referring to one's mother, which i just personally find really interesting because it feels like the fact that she chose this very masculine-presenting term for mother is more important to her character than the fact that she's calling castti her mother at all. this sooort of goes for the japanese nickname she uses for osvald too (localized equivalent being "pops"), which is usually a very casual term of endearment for middle-aged men. idk i just think this kind of thing is more interesting than just saying ochette is childish because she uses parental terms for the older travelers.

uhh anyway i got a little sidetracked. i might not show it much but ochette is one of my favourite travelers and it does sadden me how much bad faith criticism or readings she gets subjected to... her relationship with hikari is one of my favourites, i love how they're both a mix of maturity and immaturity and how they can be so silly together at times. seeing them both take on the responsibility as leaders under their own terms at the end of their stories will always make me a little emotional... ochette is just. really good and underappreciated especially in the english side of the community i think. but thank you for giving me an excuse to talk about some things i love about her 🫶

[doomed-era]

for that ship ask game: mipha x link and midna x zelda?

YAYYY I love miphlink and midzel!!!

ok this is a long one so yay we get a cut.

Mipha/Link:

yeeeesss I think these two are cute as hell. I think there's some exploration to be had with their relationship being explicitly romantic. enough that i've written a fic about them, so. yeah I like it. I don't remember exactly when I got into it, it's been in the back of my mind for a long time since I've always liked Mipha. sidon saying Link looks upset after the Mipha memory still gets me

As for why I like them? I've gone over how I interpret Mipha's character a couple of times before but I'll try to sum it up: Mipha and Link are frightfully similar characters in more ways than one. They are quiet warriors who are willing to sacrifice everything for Hyrule (and, in a way, the status quo), and are treated as larger-than-life heroes before and after their deaths. It's difficult to know what they thought about this, because not only do they not talk about their motivations, Breath of the Wild doesn't really want to dwell on them and instead is happy to just see them as their roles. Link is the brave knight who is faithful to his duty and royalty (barf), and Mipha is the. girl version of this which is basically saying she's treated as saintly and passive and self-sacrificial (barf). I want something better for them!! grabs them both like this!!!

WITH ALL THAT ASIDE. I think the whole unrequited love thing Mipha has going with Link is boring unless Mipha and Link's psyches are explored respectfully (heaven knows Some People think she's better off dead and "lustful and creepy." somehow???? putting them in a relationship filters out a lot of that sentiment/I think pining like that can get obnoxious if it's stretched out.) so. I prefer them being in a relationship and exploring how that affects them. because BOY do I think it would. their similar natures would absolutely make their lives hard because they are AWFUL communicators and are constantly throwing themselves in front of each other. mipha keeps trying to figure out what link's doing and what happened to him while. not actually saying this sentiment out loud. and link's just in knight mode, being his. knightly selfless self while that's not what mipha wants! she KNOWS it's just a facade! meanwhile she's trying to keep up her OWN facade of unconditional gentleness while also being under so much pressure and not wanting to have anyone to lean on because everyone ELSE is under pressure too and link won't confide in her because vulnerability is for suckers and mid-afternoon snacktime. YIPPEEEEEEEE!!!! maybe in a better world they'd figure that out. in a world that accepted them for who they are instead of forcing them to perform. in a world that allowed them to be selfish. and maybe, together, they can learn to be selfish for each other.

also I think sidon being link's brother in law is funny

hot take mipha isn't creepy for liking link now that he's older it's like an aragorn/arwen thing. I understand that it's kind of unusual for someone to think that way about a childhood friend, but I don't think it's morally wrong. leave her alone for god's sake the amount of hate i've seen in the miphlink tag makes my blood boil. I've read fics treating her like some sort of byword. you don't have to like her, and criticizing a female character is okay. mipha's writing isn't the greatest (I mean, no female character in BOTW/TOTK is really written adequately, especially if they get slotted into a love interest role) but I think you all are just being sexist and trying to convince yourselves you're morally correct for it by covering it up with puritanism. you're not slick.

OKAY. SORRY FOR THE TEXTWALL LMAO

Midna/Zelda:

OH I SHIP THEM BABEY!!!! mostly bc of some lovely art I've seen on tumblr and rotating the "your heart and mine were one" line in my head (I am paraphrasing i don't think that's the actual line but MIDNAS FACE WHEN ZELDA SAID THAT. AUGH) also their general familiarity with each other/Midna's quips towards her.

why I ship them? uhh well as mentioned. the lines/their chemistry although not really dwelt upon is good. and also I like both of them a lot and TP Zelda is a lesbian midna is bisexual 100% ok byebye

hot takes? idk I really don't have any. I just kinda like them they're pretty

[zukkaoru]

Hi, same anon as before haha, could you ever make a post about visually impaired/blind dazai?

ooo yes i do love the idea of dazai being blind in one eye/otherwise visually impaired. personally i am biased towards him having a prosthetic eye but this is just because of an inside joke with my sister sfdgfhj anyway have some thoughts (specifically based off dazai being blind in one eye/having one prosthetic eye):

for a while, ranpo is the only one in the ada who knows bc dazai is very good at hiding it. they don't say anything bc it's not their business, but they do try to make sure they either approach dazai on his left or make their footsteps loud enough that dazai can clearly hear them coming

yosano is second to figure it out bc she's a doctor. but she only catches on to the fact that dazai is somehow visually impaired and doesn't figure out the specifics until later

kunikida figures it out after a case where dazai gets injured bc the attacker came at him on his blind side and there was too much other commotion going on for him to hear them approach

obviously he's like why would you not tell me this!!!! it's KIND OF IMPORTANT!!!!!

dazai brushes it off like "haha i just forget everyone else has two working eyes :P" but really he. didn't want to expose any weaknesses to the agency members until he knew they could be trusted

after that it's treated sort of like an open secret at the ada. no one really talks about it, but yosano, ranpo, and kuni all do their best to cover dazai's blind side whenever they can. even if 98% of the time he doesn't need it

for a while, junichirou, kenji, atsushi, and kyouka have no idea. bc no one ever talks about it, the older ada members sort of. just. forget the younger ones would have no way of knowing.

so probably they find out when dazai makes some dumb joke about it. and they're all like HELLO????? WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU ONLY HAVE ONE FUNCTIONING EYE!?

chuuya ofc knows and has known since they were like fifteen. they also always did their best to cover dazai's blind side when they worked with him (this i think is canon to some extent,, a lot of official art has chuuya on dazai's blind side during their pm days when his eye was bandaged)

most of the rest of the mafia had no idea what was wrong with dazai's eye (or if there even was anything wrong with it) but also,, no one was going to just ask. mori is the only other person in the pm who knows what happened

dazai likes to joke that he and kunikida have "one working eye total between the two of them" bc kunikida's eyesight is pretty bad without his glasses

most of the agency members walk loud enough that dazai can hear them coming so he isn't caught off guard regardless of which direction they approach from. the one exception to this is kyouka. she has scared him on multiple occasions by approaching from the right. once she realizes what the issue is, she does her best to approach from the left

ranpo does occasionally try to bribe her to sneak up on dazai bc they think it's funny to see him try to mask his surprise. she may have given in once or twice. but only because they promised to buy her crepes.

nikolai & dazai visually impaired worsties,,

^^ they both make jokes about it all the time, bouncing back and forth off each other. everyone around them is annoyed and no one thinks it's funny at all but neither of them care

okay this got longer than i was planning so i'll end here but. yes <3