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my brain won't stop thinking about captain of the scouts levi x marleyan spy reader IM SORRY
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"you're not a curse, you have never been. you were my blessing and my salvationโ€“ the best thing that has ever happened to me. you cleared my skies and showed me how it was to loveโ€ฆ and be loved."
Has singlehandedly saved my weekend from spiraling in other matter, because the desperation, the hopelessness, the grief, the regret I was able to feel is going to ground me for WEEKS.
Thank you so much for the beauty โ™ฅ๏ธ
thank YOU so much for this ask im so so glad you enjoyed reading it <333
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STOPAHSHDHDH you're so sweet to me thank YOU sm ๐Ÿซต๐Ÿ’—
๊—ƒ ๐“๐Ž ๐˜๐Ž๐”, ๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ๐ŸŽ๐ŸŽ ๐˜๐„๐€๐‘๐’ ๐…๐‘๐Ž๐Œ ๐๐Ž๐–.
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โ you're not a curse, you have never been. you were my blessing and my salvationโ€“ the best thing that has ever happened to me. you cleared my skies and showed me how it was to loveโ€ฆ and be loved. โž
summary: when your entire village faced the king of curses' wrath, you were sure you'd be as good as food for him but life decides to weave the strings of fate and intertwine yours with the very person who tries to cut it short.
desc: 8.6k words, f!reader, sfw, angsty angst hehe, major character death, cannibalistic thoughts (sukuna is a cannibal after all), takes place in the heian era, true form sukuna, bit ooc bc we know his ass isn't capable of love, ! slightly gory parts!, this is canon bc i said so, kenjaku isn't known as kenjaku yet โ€“ he's still known as noritoshi kamo, yorozu mentioned, basically just me raw dogging the storyline during the heian era lol.
notes: this took way longer than it should but i battled like three burn out sessions to write this so lmao. also does anybody get the aot reference in the title? this might MIGHT have a part two if i can think of a good plot to mirror it. if you get the reference, you'll alr know what it's going to be titled :P
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must be horrifying isn't it? being a mere human amongst sorcerers and curse users capable of destroying and killingโ€” powerless among the powerful whose thirst for yet more power remain a bottomless pit of unquenchable desire.
in this state of the world, your life wasn't your own. it belonged to the people who were strong enough to kill you or considerate enough to spare you.
and among dangers looming throughout, one triumphs all. one whose name was even powerful enough to send curses back at just the mention of it.
ryomen sukuna. feared by curses and non curses alike. the ruthless evil entity who feeds off of humans. there is no doubt about him being the king of curses, capable of having any being in the palm of his hands.
including you.
your village faced the wrath of the king of curses himself, not a brick was intact nor a rock left unturned. and what's even worse? he didn't have any reason for his destruction. he just did it out of his sheer will.
perhaps you should consider yourself lucky to have your life spared, along with some other women and children. all the men were gone without traces โ€” maybe for the better.
trapped in the basement of the castleโ€™s kitchen, you await your fate to be eaten.
what was that you said before? lucky? no, you realise how horribly wrong you were. the wails and cries of terror as yet another person was dragged out of the small room was enough to ring in your ears forever.
the sudden quietness that followed soon after was enough to suffocate you.
the room was dark, wet and disgusting. it reeked of decomposed bodies and blood. nobody was fed well and even if one or two loaves of pitiful bread were thrown into the small cell, it wasn't nearly enough to feed a group of starving people.
at least the number keeps decreasing day by day.
you'd notice how the people who cried, begged or fought back were likely speeding up their deaths so you kept to yourself, waiting for your turn, even if it's just a while later.
after what you think was a couple of days came your turn. you had lost your perception of everything in this tiny suffocating room; you might as well be dead.
you heard some loud clanks of the metal door and suddenly, a harsh pull sends you essentially flying towards whoever was grabbing you.
โ€œthis is the last oneโ€ you heard a gruff voice say as a light shone inside. it felt like ages since you saw any sort of light, of warmth. in a way, you were relieved. your suffering must be finally coming to an end.
โ€œits this one isn't it?โ€ a low voice asks as they being a lamp closer to inspect you. your eyes were opened and after a long while, you saw again.
โ€œwhy is she in such a weakly state?โ€ the person holding the lamp grimaces at your sight. through your hazy vision, you could still make out the white hair, perfectly in place. they were beautiful.
โ€œwell that ain't my fault is it?โ€ the big creature yanks your arm and you fall wherever it does.
suddenly shards of ice fill the room and the fire from the lamp is put out. in its place is a glowing icy caricature of the creature, holding you intact.
as terrifying as cursed techniques can be, they were also mesmerising. the beautiful fridgid sculpture leave you in awe; the rough hand holding your arm was now frozen and unmoving.
โ€œnow.โ€ the icy person leans down, meeting your eye level, you hadn't realised the dim moonlight illuminating the ice crystals in the room โ€œwhat shall we do with you?โ€
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
the next time you're concious enough to make out your surroundings, you find yourself in a small dimly lit room. it was heaven in comparision to the previous one.
you scrumble towards the small lamp and take in the warmth. you had no idea where you were, what happened or what would happen but for now, you were alive. barely, but alive still.
weakly, you sit on the floorโ€” there isn't anywhere else to sit anyway. upon hugging your knees you notice an apparent bruse on your arm. the same place where you were grabbed, the memories come back slowly.
did the white haired person save you? could you maybe have a chance at life?
no, being in captivity by the king of curses himself tells you enough that you weren't going to make it out of here alive. well, it's not like you necessarily want to either. your home and the people in it were gone, some of whom you witnessed their end.
it's only fair for you to meet the same fate as them.
the sound of the door unlocking interrupts your thoughts, then in came the person with snow like hair.
โ€œfinish thisโ€ they hold out a tray of food and set it down next to you. you only lean away defensively.
without so much of another word, they make their way towards the door that is, until you decided to stop them.
โ€œyou saved me didn't you?โ€ it had been a while since you even heard your own voice and you don't miss the way it sounded more resigned than it had ever been.
โ€œdo not be fooled. it is all in consideration for my master. finish the plateโ€ with that they walk away, leaving you with even more questions than before.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
when the certain white haired person decides to show up, they look pleased with your health. well, it should come as a no surprise since they keep feeding you โ€” overfeeding you in fact. and you know why.
fatten up the stock so that it's in top shape when it's time to consume it.
โ€œfollow meโ€ they say, holding the door open.
obediently, you follow the person you owe your life to, for now anyway, and they lead you through alleys and stairways you had never seen before.
only sounds of footsteps and your exhausted huffs can be heard in the hallway filled with various markings on the wall. you don't even want to know what they mean.
โ€œsoโ€ฆ how do i call you?โ€ you manage to ask, maybe if you try to get close to them, maybe they can help a second time.
don't kid yourself.
no reply comes and you feel heat rush to your cheeks from embarassment. but hey at least you tried.
your wandering eyes missed to see them stop before a certain door and you crash into them with a grunt. they must be well built because the impact did not faze them at all.
โ€œsorryโ€ you rub your nose that was sore from bumping your face into their back.
โ€œi go by uraume. i am master sukuna's loyal servant. beyond this door is the garden and you are to take a walk twice a day to build up your stamina. i shall be checking on you daily.โ€
โ€œwhy should i need to do that?โ€
โ€œdo as you are told. now goโ€ they open the door for you.
beyond the door is a garden too beautiful to belong in the palace of such an abominable being. flowers of all kind adjourn each corner, flourishing in all their bloosoming glory.
the sky was as clear as can be, with the sun brightly shining as if it's wishing people a good day. the birds chirping and the gentle breeze that brushes through your hair reminds you of your home back in the village and your heart aches a little.
โ€œthankyouโ€ you turn back but uraume is now long gone.
gee must people be so cold around here?
you stroll along the garden, savoring your time outside in so long. how long has it been exactly? you couldn't recall. maybe you should ask uraume the next time they come around.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
only this time when uraume does show up, they don't lead you towards the garden. instead, you find yourself at the door of the king of cursesโ€™ throne room.
uraume doesn't say a word and only ushers you in.
is this doomsday? you recall the screams of fear from the people you used to share a home with. the look on their faces, their nails desperately clinging onto the prison bar while pleading for mercy โ€” all of that for naught.
and the silence that followed.
it's possible that the well timed meals and the strolls you took in the beautiful garden was the mercy your people begged for but never got.
maybe you should be thankful you even got to have those.
โ€œmaster is impatient. you should go in right this instantโ€ uraume insists. something about their behaviour tells you if you don't do as told, you'd have a fate worse than what you could ever think of.
with all the courage you could muster, you unlock the door and take strides into it, as confident as you could make it seem.
the four armed monster looms in front of you, starting down at you as if you were only a mere bug.
perhaps you were โ€” small and helpless, under the mercy of the predator who had seen you.
you bow politely, it seemed like it was the only appropriate thing to do.
sukuna thinks you're pathetic.
just a mere human and not worth his time. there was only a small reason as to why he hasn't had his way with you yet.
your flesh and blood.
to him, you smelled hauntingly sweet and hypnotisingly alluring. that was what drew him to your village in the first place โ€” the hunt for the sweet scent that awakened all his senses, although he doesn't have any idea why.
sukuna is a curious being, he seeks to know the mysteries of the world โ€” one of the reasons why he's so wise, adding to his strength.
so until he has his answers, he plans to keep you around. after that, he can enjoy your flesh however he wants.
just you standing mere feet away from him was enough to tempt him to bite you already. how would it feel to sink his teeth into your skin and have your blood flow down his throat? sukuna couldn't wait until he has the chance to do so.
โ€œleave.โ€ the monster only dismisses you after staring at you so intently, he might as well be staring deep into your soul.
you look up at him in confusion, why would he call you here without any particular reason?
โ€œdo your ears not work, human?โ€ sukuna says, rather impatiently.
โ€œlower your gaze and know your place, foolโ€ he practically growls and you look away faster than the speed of light. one more bow and you're bolting out the door.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
your stay at the palace was a cycle of eating, sleeping and taking strolls. it was beginning to get monotonous, boring even. but its much better than facing the king of curses ever again.
you still had no idea why he called you to his throne room and honestly, you don't even want to find out why.
life wasn't so bad โ€” the flowers were beautiful and smelled lovely, the meals were scrumptious and your sleep? well nightmares were inevitable but there were nights when you slept like a log.
and unbeknownst to you, a certain four eyed creature could be seen watching over you. no, observing you. its only right for him to observe his prey right?
it's not out of the goodness of his heart that when you whimper and cry out in your sleep because of a weak nightmare curse looming over your head, he kills it with only a tilt of his own. no, it's only because that curse deters your well being, hence your development to reach your full potential to be a perfect feast for him. nothing more.
weak human, you don't have the means to kill such a low grade curse or even see it. so why were you special? what makes you so different than the other filthy beings with no cursed techniques roaming the earth? sukuna still couldn't tell.
he's aware though โ€” of your silent fear and unspoken resentment you have towards him. he's aware of your quivering soul whenever you sense his presence. he's aware of your desire to escape this place.
but he's also aware of how your smile becomes a little more genuine when you smell a particular flower in his garden. he's aware of how your eyes soften when you see the setting sun. he's aware of how you tried to get close to uraume and only get shut out. he's aware of you.
and that angers him to no end.
what infuriates him even more is how that pathetic servant thinks he can talk to you, and with such ease too. how dare he speak lowly of you? that's a direct insult to him isn't it?
โ€˜you mean less than a concubine?โ€™ sukuna scoffs at him for even comparing you to one.
so the next time he calls the council for a lecture, he doesn't even blink one of his four eyes when the said servant in question gets slashed by his formidable cursed technique.
the room grows thick with the smell of blood that was now splashed all over the carpets and tapestry hanging on the wallโ€”a grueling task for the cleaners later.
โ€œevery tongue that rises against my prey shall fall.โ€ the headless body of his once loyal servant serve as testimony to his words.
the palace may be big but rumours flew around: another servant ruthlessly executed by the monstrous beast. even the people under him weren't given an ounce of consideration.
is it a coincidence that it was the same person who cornered you just a day ago? you don't ponder.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
after the ruthless slaughter of your village and everything in it, it didn't take long for sukuna to find his next target.
it wasn't anything new to anybody at all that he was a bloodthirsty beast, revelling in chaos and ruin. one after another, his victims were crushed mindlessly and so easily, it made you sick how powerless other people are in comparison to him.
out of all his battles and countless destruction, one prominent opponent was the fujiwara clan.
they were an elite clan, taking pride in the strength of their squadrons. the world held its breath upon hearing of the battle, maybe they had the potential to rival the king of curses.
the outcome didn't change though. sukuna remained prevalentโ€”bringing the sun, moon and stars at his feet. the five empty generals did not even measure upto him.
the battle must have been so agonising to the point where the authorities were willing to hold festivals in his honour, out of utter terror.
it was at this harvest festival where sukuna had encountered a certain shameless sorcerer who was on her way to be completely obsessed with him.
yorozu had only one goal: to alleviate sukuna's loneliness with her love โ€” something she believed only she was capable of.
thus why she leeches onto him, much like a hick. perhaps sukuna doesn't see her as a threat or he deems her powerful enough, he didn't get rid of her, for now at least.
however, her dreams were short lived.
yorozu sits next to sukuna in his throne room, enticing him with gentle nudges of her exposed chest. her haori was united and her hair fell graciously past her shoulders all the way down her chest.
she only shrieks in horror as she stares at the uninterested man. โ€œyou look differentโ€ฆ you are different!โ€ she screams angrily.
sukuna only hums in response, deep in thought of how his little prey has been holding up. despite his festivities and celebrations, you were there in the back of his mind, like an itch that cannot be quite scratched.
she stares at him, stepping back further and further โ€œit couldn't beโ€ฆโ€
yorozu brings herself to her knees, looking up at sukuna desperately. โ€œi have so much more to teach you about love and the ultimate strength and solitude that it brings!โ€
she rises, her eyes were erratic, anyone would be afraid of her outburst that was about to come. anyone but sukuna.
โ€œim the one who will teach you about love. that is my purpose and my goal. now tell me, who is it that is taking away your loneliness?โ€
sukuna raises a brow. it's possibly the only time he indulges yorozuโ€™s antics and also the last.
โ€œi will find out who it is! it doesn't matter if i have to tear this palace apartโ€ yorozu violently darts out the room in search of something, anything. to her, if it was powerful enough to move sukuna then she would have no trouble finding whatever it is.
and she doesn't. not because you're too powerful but rather because of the lack of it. you stuck out like a sore thumb with no cursed energy running through your body, weak and unarmed just strolling across the gardenโ€” like the pathetic human you are.
sukuna arrives at the scene, ever observing, ever thinking.
โ€œthat is not true loveโ€ yorozu mutters, her fists were clenched on her sides as her gaze burnt into you who was unknowing of the fury burning inside her.
โ€œyou're mistaken, sukuna. i will show you what real love looks like!โ€ yorozu screams, making her way towards you who could only stare at her in fear, frozen in place.
it would take sukuna less than a blink of his eye to stop her but he was intrigued. what would he feel if you were to be killed? would he feel pain? anger? the beast always finds his answers so he waits.
and what was that about true love? does that woman think he was capable of it? with you, no less? she sees you, a mere human, as a threat so that must mean something.
yorozu lands on you, digging her nails into your skin, blood gushing out of it. sukuna admires the sight.
you scream in agony as she continue to scratch through you and into you with ease. a maniac expression forms on her face at your slowed breaths and now silent helpless whimpers.
but before you were completely gone, sukuna gets rid of her. you were too busy holding onto your life to tell how he did it but one blink was enough for her to be gone and another makes you realise you were caged in the arms of the four armed monster.
โ€œinterestingโ€ you heard sukuna say, before your lashes flutter and your eyes close against your will.
sukuna holds your limp body in his arms protectively with calculated gentleness as if a slight jerk would hurt you. well, in your state, it would.
upon watching you get torn apart, sukuna realises he isn't as heartless as he deemed himself. it drives him angry. how could a being as weak as you would have the capability to move him? how could you inflict pain onto him when you're the one who's at his mercy? he scoffs at how ridiculous it is all.
but when his eyes land on youโ€“ your fragile body almost lifeless and bleeding, his only thought was towards your safety and not towards devouring you, albeit the sweet scent of your blood tempting him and calling out to him to drink it.
he stares at his hands tainted with the pretty crimson colour, glistening in the sun but it pales in comparison to the way your eyes were shut as if you were only asleep. sukuna sighs, alright then.
his reversed cursed technique flows through his body into your own, healing the deep tears and cuts. he only hopes you aren't too angry at him for waiting that long to step in.
your staggered breathing was replaced with slow even ones and your wounds disappeared as if they had never been there in the first place. a peaceful expression forms on your face and all of sukuna's eyes soften.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
the next time you awaken you find yourself in the comfort of your own room making you doubt if everything that happened was a vivid dream. and you would have believed that doubt if not for the person sitting in the corner of your room, his four arms folded into each other.
you flinch upon seeing him and sit straight up, a groan escapes you involuntarily from your sore body.
โ€œyou're awake, bratโ€ his deep voice sends shivers down your spine.
you nod slightly, your eyes on anything besides him.
โ€œhow are you feeling?โ€ this makes you jolt your head towards him because did he just ask about your well being? you would say you misheard but the frown and distaste on his face only confirms that he was, in fact, concerned about your condition somehow.
โ€œim feeling alrightโ€ you say quietly, still a bit afraid of the man sitting in your room who could easily overpower you if he wanted.
โ€œi should hope so. your weak body didn't take much to heal as easily injurable as it isโ€ he sneers from the shadows that enveloped him.
โ€œso it wasn't a dream?โ€ your voice shook a little which doesn't go unnoticed.
โ€œno. i have taken care of the matter. you may rest at easeโ€ he rises to his feet, he looks way too big to feel safe around. you hug your blankets a little tighter. wait, when did you even have that many?
โ€œdo not fear. i do not intend to harm you.โ€ two out of four eyes narrow at you and how scared of him you looked. sukuna doesn't like how that bothers him.
โ€œhow do i know that?โ€ your eyes didn't meet him, rightfully so, if it was anyone else who questioned him, sukuna would waste no second getting rid of them altogether.
โ€œit is i.โ€ a viable answer โ€“ one that doesn't need any further explaination. sukuna maybe a merciless hard hearted being but he's also a man of his words. anyone who knows him would be aware of this fact.
โ€œbut i don't know you.โ€
he supposes you're right. in a way, nobody knows him. this was also why he remained so strong despite people and sorcerers alike sharpened themselves while fighting him. he did not have an opening to allow them to kill him.
โ€œthen you can start from this moment forward.โ€
โ€œi don't want to.โ€ for the first time, sukuna faces disappointment; but it's a different kind of disappointment. normally he would be discouraged at how nobody was able to stand a chance against him but now, he feels helpless. much like he was the prey and you're the predator.
โ€œand your reason for that is?โ€ ever so curious, he glowered at your body which had somehow become smaller amongst the sheets of blanket you're enveloped by.
โ€œbecause thenโ€ฆ then i will grow to understand you. if i do understand you then that would mean id find out you have a heart. someone with a heart would neverโ€ฆ would neverโ€ฆโ€ your voice trails away and you look horrified by the memories flooding your mind.
โ€œso i don't want to know you.โ€ you muster up enough courage to stare into his eyes, all of his eyes and sukuna can feel your soul tremble.
he only watched silently as you fidget under his watchful gaze. great. he's at a loss by someone who's terrified of him, how much more could you hit a blow to his pride.
without a word, he steps out of your room and he could hear you exhale. he huffs in annoyance at how tense you are in his presence. and your words. they might as well be your cursed technique attacking him with every enunciation that came from your mouth.
and they were working.
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the world was somehow shifting. you couldn't exactly pinpoint where or how but it was.
โ€œmaster has assigned you a new room that would be more comfortable for your stayโ€ uraume says, standing in front of you in a polite stance. โ€œplease allow me to guide you there.โ€
if this is his attempt to make you forget about all the destruction he caused, for whatever reason, it was futile. he was irredeemable.
your thoughts might have been apparant on your face because uraume continues, โ€œmaster says he does not have an ulterior motive. he simply wants you to be comfortable.โ€
since when did that beast care about other people's comfort except for his own?
โ€œfine then, show meโ€ if he offered, then there's no problem in accepting. heck maybe you should be taking advantage of his hospitality and ask for whatever you desire. he has put you on death's row and wiped of everyone you knew after all.
you were led to a room that was closer to the main area of the palace, a stark contrast to the basement of the kitchen โ€” where you started from.
pieces of beautiful art were decorating each corner, finest tapestry hanging from the walls, and the curtains? they were of the best material you had ever known. no doubt, this was a room that exceeded even your dreams.
uraume opened the closet revealing kimonos of various kinds, from silk to linen to satinโ€” every kind was there. โ€œi was not aware of your taste so i assorted various kinds.โ€
you were amazed at the room, the materials โ€“ everything but these measly riches don't bring lives back and the monster certainly wasn't capable of any empathy so the words saying he has no ulterior motive were nothing but empty to you.
โ€œwhat? have i been promoted from prey to concubine now?โ€ the word alone makes you sick to your stomach but it's the only explanation that makes sense.
โ€œyou are very wrong. master does not keep concubines. it is only an extension of his kindness.โ€ you laugh, sukuna? kindness? please.
four eyes narrowed at your bitter laugh, sukuna stands in the doorway, each of his two arms folded in each other. he has lost count of how much disrespect he tolerates from you but strangely, it does not give him a drive to kill, only annoyance.
a brow raises when you turn around after being aware of his presence and your laugh, as mocking as it was, dropped into a frown.
seeing how speechless you are, he huffs. from out of nowhere, he conjures up a bow and an arrow to go along with it. sukuna moves stealthily, one step and he's already next to you.
the bow and arrow are shoved into your hands โ€œi have heard you are exceptionally good with theseโ€ sukuna says, his voice was low and calculating โ€“ if you hadn't known better, you'd say it quivered a little.
he wasn't wrong though, you had to hone some sort of hunting skill for food. life wasn't kind and you learnt it the hard way. nevertheless you felt safer with some kind of weapon you were familiar with, even though they won't be of much help against a sorcerer.
โ€œmasterโ€™s very own bow and arrowโ€ uraume interrupted, their face had an expression of shock you had never seen on them before. there was an engraving on themโ€“ the same mark that sukuna had on his body.
โ€œwhy give me this?โ€ you ask and receive no answer. not because sukuna doesn't want to answer you, he simply doesn't have a reason. he just wanted you to have it. it felt natural. he'll be damned before he ever admits that to you or even to himself.
โ€œwhat if i use it on you?โ€ you press on, clutching onto the wooden weapon tightly. โ€œwhat if i wanted to fire this at you?โ€
โ€œi would let you.โ€
it caught you by surprise. why? you want to ask but you also didn't want to hear his reason. you don't want to know him. the little barrier you had put between you both is the only thing giving you leverage against such a vicious being, you couldn't afford to have it break down.
taking a quick abrupt step back, you line the end of the arrow to the bowstring and pull on it with an expert ease, aiming it at sukuna. uraume was about to step in but sukuna waves them off. as if the most feared curse user couldn't defend himself.
he could already have you breathing your last breath in a mere second if he wanted to but of course, he doesn't. he just stands there unmoving. his lack of response to your threat made you all the more aggravated.
โ€œaren't you going to stop me?โ€
โ€œno. proceed with whatever you intend to do, i shall not stop you.โ€ sukuna's folded arms fell to his sides, giving you an open target for his heart.
now you should be firing your arrow with no hesitation right? you have hunted down countless moving targets from as small as a bird to something as big as a deer.
and they were running while you manage to hit a bullseye โ€“ every single time. so now this unmoving big target within just a few meters would be a piece of cake. it's your chance to end the tyranny of his wicked rule and him altogetherโ€“ a chance that had not been granted to anyone who stands against him.
but your hands wouldn't move. they wouldn't let go of the string to propel the arrow towards him. they were frozen in place. you would have doubted uraumeโ€™s technique being in play but no signs of ice crystals found themselves anywhere near.
sukuna waits and you wonder if he was ever this patient.
your hands tremble, slowly letting your form down. why couldn't you just do it?
โ€œhumanโ€“โ€
sukuna's words were cut short by a swift arrow flying towards him. he didn't make a move to avoid it.
your trembling hands were now perfectly stable holding the bow. your breathing was calm, collected even. if anyone were to see you now, they'd wonder who the beast is. empty eyes deadpan at your target.
sukuna stares back, his cheek bleeding from the graze of the arrow. unlike your soul-less face, a satisfactory smile creeps onto sukuna's. โ€œyou didn't miss, did you? you aimed here on purpose.โ€ his hands caress the small wound in awe.
โ€œnext time i wont.โ€
โ€œas i have said, i will not stop you.โ€
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
the new room was comfortable, all your needs were tended to and your conduct exceeded your desires. you were treated equal to a queen, if you knew how.
and uraume, sukuna's loyal servant, was now your own. they were still very distant though, not speaking more than they needed to. not like you really minded anyway.
uraume was there to observe. they were under strict orders to keep you safe and also report your daily status to sukuna. you weren't exactly aware of this part but there's no harm done so by logic, there wasn't a problem with it either.
sukuna finds the corner of his mouth twitch when uraume mentioned that you sang obnoxiously loud because you thought nobody was around. he'd have loved to hear that himself.
the amusing brief about you was however rudely interrupted by a strange person brave enough to march directly into the throne room unannounced.
โ€œyou're from the kamo clan aren't you? have you come to die a meaningful death?โ€ sukuna's thirst for battle heightened upon seeing a sorcerer from one of the three main clans in jujutsu. maybe finally, he can have a strong opponent and enjoy the fight without having it end too early.
but the man only chuckles โ€œno, i have come here to negotiate with the almighty king of curses himselfโ€
sukuna frowns, now staring at him unamused โ€œyou do not have anything worth a value to me. fight or die a pathetic death.โ€
โ€œi will do neither of those.โ€ noritoshi kamo, stands face to face with sukuna without a hint of fear in his eyes and that makes sukuna curious. just what kind of offer does he have to be so bold?
โ€œprove that you are worth my time you filthy scumโ€ sukuna glowers at the man, getting more and more impatient by the second.
โ€œhow about that prey? how is your little prey doing?โ€ kamo smirks and it's enough to tempt sukuna to cut through his skull but no, he refrains because anything that involves you, sukuna doesn't take it lightly.
โ€œspeak up or iโ€™ll have you slashed.โ€ sukuna remarks impatiently.
โ€œit would be a shame to have her taken away from you isn't it?โ€ the old man sneers.
the next thing he knows is his ragged breath and a sharp pain across his chest, kamo falls to his knees. sukunaโ€™s technique had manifested a cut through his chest, although not deep enough to end him. with blood oozing out of the fresh cut and his mouth, he still has the courage to glare at the four eyed creature.
โ€œyou must not value your lifeโ€ sukuna says nonchalantly, leaning against one of his hand, the grotesque sight was nothing new to him at all.
โ€œyour reign is coming to an end isn't it?โ€ kamo laughs, although it comes out through splutters of blood. โ€œno matter how powerful you are, you are not immortal sukuna, you still won't defeat death!โ€
as if sukuna is one to fear death. sukuna only sighs, revelling in the bloodied state of his intimidator.
โ€œand your little human toy won't eitherโ€ that earns a reaction from him. sukuna's eyes narrow at the pitiful man fighting for his life.
โ€œwhat are you suggesting?โ€
โ€œwhat if i tell youโ€“ that there is a way for you to be immortal? and that it's possible to find her in every lifetime?โ€
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
everyone who knows sukuna knows that he does not get hurt. or yet, there's nobody who's strong enough to hurt him. generation upon generation, sorcerers have teamed up to get rid of him but with no luck. not even one of them could land a hit on the ferocious being.
all the more reason for you to be speechless when he returns with a huge hole in his stomach, bleeding continuously.
it was during your stroll that you saw him staggering over to his room.
okay maybe that was a lie. maybe you'd heard that a very prominent sorcerer in the jujutsu society had challenged him. you didn't know much about that world but it was enough to worry you, even if sukuna was undefeated.
so maybe that worry brings you into a situation where he arrived just while you were taking a stroll in the garden. you definitely didn't purposely take longer to watch the birds fly back to their nest in hopes of making sure sukuna returns. definitely not.
that's also NOT why you're knocking on his door boldly.
the door opens, revealing a confused sukuna. your eyes dart down to his injury but it seems the blood had stopped, still looking nasty regardless.
you wince just by looking at it but sukuna interrupts your unwarranted examination. โ€œeyes here human. what do you want?โ€
for someone who's supposed to be prey, you're bold because in the next moment, you find yourself pushing through the door and asking him to sit down.
yes. youโ€” a mere human, barged through his room and asked him to sit. when he doesn't comply, you walk up to him, pulling on one of his hands, guiding him towards his chair and sat him down. and strangely, no hint of protest came from him โ€“ not even a grunt or a growl.
with familiar ease, you call in uraume and ask for an emergency kit. they hesitate but comply regardless.
your expert hands slowly disinfect the wound and start stitching it up, not even sparing a glance at the man who just watches you and lets you do whatever you want to him.
โ€œwhere have you garnered skills to do this?โ€ sukuna asks mid stitch and it's only then that you realised he hasn't done so much as flinch. you could imagine how painful it would've been for a normal human but apparently this counts for nothing to him.
โ€œwhen you're desperate enough, you just knowโ€ the last string goes through his flesh and you tie a knot, snapping the thread off. your movements slow when you realise you're touching himโ€“ skin and all, with your own.
your eyes lock when you search for his and they stare back. this time, you don't see a vicious brute but in its place, you see the eyes of a man. and not just any man, if you allowed your thoughts to wander you'd say it was the same look of a man capable of love.
but you don't โ€“ you look away. and sukuna's could feel a slight pull in his chest.
โ€œhuman.โ€
โ€œi have a nameโ€
โ€œhuman.โ€
the disregard for your name only makes you roll your eyes in annoyance. the man only chuckles at the sight.
โ€œyou do realise i can heal myself?โ€
a pause. of course how could you forget? reversed cursed technique they call it? all these magical powers granted to them made no sense to you at all. you only stare at the wall dumbfounded as sukuna downright laughs at your humiliated expression.
โ€œwhy didn't you stop me then?โ€ your grumble only amuses him further.
โ€œperhaps because i wanted you to acknowledge how foolish you are?โ€ his tone was teasing and not a hint of malicious intent was within it. a smile creeps on your lips and sukuna could swear his heart rate accelerated.
โ€œi could show it to you if you're curiousโ€ your wide eyes give him all the confirmation he needed. sukuna rises on his feet, the prior horrid injury long forgotten.
โ€œyou couldโ€ฆ take off the bandages. if they aren't effective anyway since you can healโ€ you shrug, trying to brush off your wholly service that was in fact not required in the first place.
โ€œi rather they stay.โ€ his hands graze them gently and you could swear he smiled at the pitiful mounts of cotton plastered on his abdomen.
โ€œcome. allow me to show you what im capable of.โ€ he offers you a hand, out of the many he has and his shoulder slumps in relief when you take it without any protest.
he takes you outside and leads you towards your favourite spot in the garden. you don't let yourself wonder if it's a coincidence or not.
โ€œsee that fruit?โ€ he gestures to a ripe apple hanging on its tree โ€“ super red and just the perfect size.
โ€œyeah want about it?โ€ you tilt your head towards him curiously making sukuna more enthusiastic to show you his perfectly crafted technique.
an invisible slash cuts the single fruit out of the tree, making it fall. it was barely noticeable and you'd think it fell on its own if not for the perfect slices it has all while it landed in the palm of your hands.
your wide eyed gaze only delights the man responsible for it. you take one slice off and admire the precision โ€œyou did this?? no way!โ€
sukuna heaves his chest proudly. strangely, your adulation to his antic gives him so much more satisfaction than wiping out an entire village.
โ€œwait till you see thisโ€ sukuna takes a step back, his lips quirking up into a tight smirk upon seeing your expectant expression.
he places his hands together and gestures up signs that were not familiar to you. โ€œfuga ยซ open ยปโ€ his low voice chants while fire manifests into the palm of his hands. he moulds the flames skillfully as it takes the shape of an arrow โ€“ a fire arrow.
and you're left with your mouth agape, he was truly terrifying. such bright flames don't even burn him but instead falls into his command.
sukuna likes the way you stare at him in wonder and was tempted to tell you that he created this very technique in honour of you and your bold decision in grazing his cheek with your arrow but for now, he holds his tongue and lets you admire as long as you want.
when the flames burn away, you're still in a hazeโ€” staring at the man in front of you with diluted pupils: one might think you're in love.
as sukuna focuses his eyes into your own, he's certain he could see into your soul which grows a little more familiar to him everytime he sees you. no it's not how he feels the familiar terror in someone's soul when they tremble in fear of him just as he was about to take their life.
it's not the same shudder of fear he used to feel when he's around you. this time, it's inviting. he feels he could be stripped of his technique and just be a normal being if it meant he could submerge himself in it.
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sukuna used to anticipate how he would die. he wanted to meet someone who would be strong enough to give him a formidable death fit for the most evil being to tread the world. news of fresh generation of strong sorcerers would excite him.
but the moment he knew he was entranced by you, that prior excitement was now replaced by fear. not fear for his death but rather, for yours. if anything were to happen to him, who would protect you?
it doesn't help how his enemies were catching hints on his possible weakness now. it all started with that damn bastard from the kamo clan, whom sukuna swears to kill. him and everybody else that could pose as a threat to you, he swears he will kill them all.
a little part of him also starts to fear for his own end. he fears that no matter how long he lives, he might think he doesn't have enough time with you. how could he when you're here, showing the sides or the world he never knew existed? the same world you weaved with every gentle word you say, no matter how insignificant.
sukuna can't get enough of the small smiles that were appearing more frequently when he reaches out to hold your tiny hand in his big ones.
he can't get enough of your soft snores when you're asleep in his chestโ€“ no more nightmares haunting your sleep because as long as he's around, any curse would have to fight him to get to you. no curse was bold enough to do so.
and mostly, he can't get enough of your small gentle strokes across his face. your touch was feather light and curious but so so loving that even when your hands were about to be pulled away, his own grabs them and makes them stay.
sukuna has nothing at all to base it off of, but if he had to name what he's feeling right now, it would be along the lines of complete devotion to you โ€“ in other words, he suspects it's the feeling these weak humans and yozoru keep preaching about: love.
and he's not denying itโ€“ not to himself at least or he can't. during his recent battles, he observes himself ending it as quick as possible.
instead of luxuriating in the thrill of battle, he finds himself rushing to kill his opponent โ€“ to end it as quick as it was humanely possible because every second he spends away from you is a second wasted.
he was becoming more precise and ruthless now that he has something to protect.
that's why even when you ask about his murder streak and if he could lessen it, he just ruffles your hair and tells you not to worry.
any sorcerer who has gotten close enough to land their sights on you were brutally tortured until they give up on their life altogether.
however, life can be funny at times. his own fear for your well being is possibly responsible for the curse that now latches onto you, consuming and draining the life out of you and sukuna's forced to watch as you slowly became a husk of who you used to be. so really, it's not funny at all.
he feels helpless and he is. none of the cursed techniques he has could exorcise the curse blooming inside you and spreading through your veins.
he has been warned before and he didn't care. he never fathomed to ever find someone to love so he traded his soul for his fervent reign โ€“ a binding vow: any being whose soul remotely gets near his own would ruin itself without any means for its resurrection.
another condition of the vow was for him to forget about it only after it was too late. at the time the vow was made, sukuna had thought, no, he'd known he lucked out by a power at the price of such a feeble condition but nowโ€ฆ now he knows how gut wrenchingly wrong he was.
sukuna slumps in defeat at the sight of your weak body fighting itself. all his four hands encased one of yours as he listens to your staggering breaths that slowly becomes more faint than the last.
for the first time, no matter how tainted his hands were of from the numerous people he murdered in cold blood, sukuna finds himself praying; not for salvation or forgiveness but for your suffering to be placed onto him instead.
he has just found happiness with you, and in you, had just started to learn how to love someone so much that all his wicked ways were something he wished he never did. he had been stupid and arrogant โ€“ too arrogant. he was sure the heaven and whole generations of people he killed were now laughing at him drowning in his own misery. how the tables have turned on him and humbled him.
โ€œkuna..โ€ your barely audible voice mades him lean closer to your face, one of his large hands coming up to caress your face delicately.
โ€œhuman. save your energyโ€ sukuna scolds but his tone was not demanding by any means. it was desperate, desperate for just one more second of you.
a faint smile ghosts your almost now deathly pale face โ€œit's not your fault.โ€ you manage to cough out through staggering breaths.
sukuna's world might as well stop. it was his fault, everything was his fault. from the moment he caught a whiff of your sweet sweet blood to when he looked at you as nothing but prey to the moment when you became the sole reason for his existence, it was all his doing. he has taken you and tangled you amidst the string of despair.
his head shakes in denial, no words coming out of both his two mouths. so much to say, so many ways to say it but nothing.
but you know, the four pupils staring at you take the form of hearts, and that tells you everything. it could be just an illusion you'd heard people speak of on the verge of death but it's enough for you.
your sweet blood slowly looses its essence as you close your eyes, the last light inside you leisurely fading away.
โ€œoi humanโ€ sukuna calls but there was no response.
โ€œanswer meโ€ a plea.
still no answer as your hand slowly goes limp in his own. there was silence and nothing. so much of nothing that was unfamiliar in the otherwise air of curiousity that always surrounded you.
โ€œhuman.โ€ sukuna's voice wavers as his hands come to cup your too peaceful face. he searches for any signs of life but he finds none. before he knew it, a drop of water landed on your clueless yet beautiful features, then another and another.
the monster was crying. not just crying โ€“ he wept.
his entire body shakes as he lets out his pain, holding onto you desperately as if that would bring you back.
โ€œhumanโ€ he dries away his own tears on your face and brushes away the hair that dared hide even a portion of it.
โ€œyou're not a curse. you have never been. you were my blessing, my salvation. you are the best thing that have ever happened to me. you cleared my skies and showed me how it was to loveโ€ฆ and be loved.โ€
sukuna trembled in grief at your loss. the king of cursesโ€“ reduced to a man in love.
perhaps he wasn't the cannibal here. perhaps you were the one who slowly teared him apart and consumed his very beingโ€“ merging yourself into his core without him even realising it.
but one thing he knows for sure is that if he were to do it again, he'd let himself be devoured entirely by you. over and over again. to be loved is to be consumed and he's offering himself to you, flesh and bones on a silver platter.
โ€œuntil next time, my love.โ€ he leans in and places a fragile kiss onto your forehead and that's the first and last time he has a taste of you.
with the last drop of your blood running dry and the absence of the warmth that made you, you; sukuna finds his answer โ€“ the reason why your blood tasted so sweet was because he was made to crave it. something he could quench his thirst with but never getting the chance to do so; a punishment perfectly fit for him.
โ€œyour deal. i shall agree to it on a conditionโ€ sukuna glowers at kamo who only smirks with an โ€˜i told you soโ€™ written all over his face. sukuna would have slashed him to bits if it weren't for the agreement he agreed to take up on.
โ€œi shall trade my soul to become a curse only if i get reincarnated exactly a thousand years from nowโ€ sukuna proposes, no, commands. it is said that a soul is reincarnated only once every thousand years and he wants to make sure he finds you in the next lifetime. maybe then, he'll have enough time with you and if he's lucky enough, be able to love you without bounds.
โ€œthat could be arrangedโ€ kamo quirks his head in a way sukuna despises. โ€œbut she'll have no memory of you. you're proceeding with this knowledge, yes?โ€
sukuna only narrows his eyes and ignores his question โ€œthat is not all. erase her existence from the minds of everyone besides me. generations hence, no one shall know who she is. her name shall be removed from every mouth that speaks of my reign.โ€
kamo smiles lazily โ€œyour soul is not worth that much sukunaโ€. the man strolls freely in the room, not minding the looming presence of the king of curses. โ€œhowever, a binding vow could be arranged.โ€
great. another binding vow. but if that means he'll meet you in a thousand years time, he'll vow as many times as required.
โ€œthe grounds of the vow is as follows: you shall be reincarnated only if there appears a vessel suitable to withstand you.โ€ kamo proposes. โ€œyour fingers will be cut and hidden in vast areas across the world and you shall only succeed in full reincarnation if you find them and consume them, all while being suppressed by the vessel.โ€
sukuna frowns and kamo only laughs โ€œdo you agree to the vow knowing all the risk it carries?โ€
conditions and regulations were a pain but nothing could stop a man desperate enough to give up his soul twice. โ€œvery wellโ€ sukuna agrees.
and that is how the heian era and sukuna's legacy came to an end; sealing himself โ€“ and the memories of you only he carries with him โ€“ into his twenty fingers, each of which turned into cursed objects scattered far and wide like pieces of puzzle waiting until the time comes for it to fit itself together again.
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jjk4isen ยท 5 days
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i keep going back to my roots (aot) and now i wanna write for levi lmfao
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๊—ƒ ๐“๐Ž ๐˜๐Ž๐”, ๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ๐ŸŽ๐ŸŽ ๐˜๐„๐€๐‘๐’ ๐…๐‘๐Ž๐Œ ๐๐Ž๐–.
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โ you're not a curse, you have never been. you were my blessing and my salvationโ€“ the best thing that has ever happened to me. you cleared my skies and showed me how it was to loveโ€ฆ and be loved. โž
summary: when your entire village faced the king of curses' wrath, you were sure you'd be as good as food for him but life decides to weave the strings of fate and intertwine yours with the very person who tries to cut it short.
desc: 8.6k words, f!reader, sfw, angsty angst hehe, major character death, cannibalistic thoughts (sukuna is a cannibal after all), takes place in the heian era, true form sukuna, bit ooc bc we know his ass isn't capable of love, ! slightly gory parts!, this is canon bc i said so, kenjaku isn't known as kenjaku yet โ€“ he's still known as noritoshi kamo, yorozu mentioned, basically just me raw dogging the storyline during the heian era lol.
notes: this took way longer than it should but i battled like three burn out sessions to write this so lmao. also does anybody get the aot reference in the title? this might MIGHT have a part two if i can think of a good plot to mirror it. if you get the reference, you'll alr know what it's going to be titled :P
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must be horrifying isn't it? being a mere human amongst sorcerers and curse users capable of destroying and killingโ€” powerless among the powerful whose thirst for yet more power remain a bottomless pit of unquenchable desire.
in this state of the world, your life wasn't your own. it belonged to the people who were strong enough to kill you or considerate enough to spare you.
and among dangers looming throughout, one triumphs all. one whose name was even powerful enough to send curses back at just the mention of it.
ryomen sukuna. feared by curses and non curses alike. the ruthless evil entity who feeds off of humans. there is no doubt about him being the king of curses, capable of having any being in the palm of his hands.
including you.
your village faced the wrath of the king of curses himself, not a brick was intact nor a rock left unturned. and what's even worse? he didn't have any reason for his destruction. he just did it out of his sheer will.
perhaps you should consider yourself lucky to have your life spared, along with some other women and children. all the men were gone without traces โ€” maybe for the better.
trapped in the basement of the castleโ€™s kitchen, you await your fate to be eaten.
what was that you said before? lucky? no, you realise how horribly wrong you were. the wails and cries of terror as yet another person was dragged out of the small room was enough to ring in your ears forever.
the sudden quietness that followed soon after was enough to suffocate you.
the room was dark, wet and disgusting. it reeked of decomposed bodies and blood. nobody was fed well and even if one or two loaves of pitiful bread were thrown into the small cell, it wasn't nearly enough to feed a group of starving people.
at least the number keeps decreasing day by day.
you'd notice how the people who cried, begged or fought back were likely speeding up their deaths so you kept to yourself, waiting for your turn, even if it's just a while later.
after what you think was a couple of days came your turn. you had lost your perception of everything in this tiny suffocating room; you might as well be dead.
you heard some loud clanks of the metal door and suddenly, a harsh pull sends you essentially flying towards whoever was grabbing you.
โ€œthis is the last oneโ€ you heard a gruff voice say as a light shone inside. it felt like ages since you saw any sort of light, of warmth. in a way, you were relieved. your suffering must be finally coming to an end.
โ€œits this one isn't it?โ€ a low voice asks as they being a lamp closer to inspect you. your eyes were opened and after a long while, you saw again.
โ€œwhy is she in such a weakly state?โ€ the person holding the lamp grimaces at your sight. through your hazy vision, you could still make out the white hair, perfectly in place. they were beautiful.
โ€œwell that ain't my fault is it?โ€ the big creature yanks your arm and you fall wherever it does.
suddenly shards of ice fill the room and the fire from the lamp is put out. in its place is a glowing icy caricature of the creature, holding you intact.
as terrifying as cursed techniques can be, they were also mesmerising. the beautiful fridgid sculpture leave you in awe; the rough hand holding your arm was now frozen and unmoving.
โ€œnow.โ€ the icy person leans down, meeting your eye level, you hadn't realised the dim moonlight illuminating the ice crystals in the room โ€œwhat shall we do with you?โ€
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
the next time you're concious enough to make out your surroundings, you find yourself in a small dimly lit room. it was heaven in comparision to the previous one.
you scrumble towards the small lamp and take in the warmth. you had no idea where you were, what happened or what would happen but for now, you were alive. barely, but alive still.
weakly, you sit on the floorโ€” there isn't anywhere else to sit anyway. upon hugging your knees you notice an apparent bruse on your arm. the same place where you were grabbed, the memories come back slowly.
did the white haired person save you? could you maybe have a chance at life?
no, being in captivity by the king of curses himself tells you enough that you weren't going to make it out of here alive. well, it's not like you necessarily want to either. your home and the people in it were gone, some of whom you witnessed their end.
it's only fair for you to meet the same fate as them.
the sound of the door unlocking interrupts your thoughts, then in came the person with snow like hair.
โ€œfinish thisโ€ they hold out a tray of food and set it down next to you. you only lean away defensively.
without so much of another word, they make their way towards the door that is, until you decided to stop them.
โ€œyou saved me didn't you?โ€ it had been a while since you even heard your own voice and you don't miss the way it sounded more resigned than it had ever been.
โ€œdo not be fooled. it is all in consideration for my master. finish the plateโ€ with that they walk away, leaving you with even more questions than before.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
when the certain white haired person decides to show up, they look pleased with your health. well, it should come as a no surprise since they keep feeding you โ€” overfeeding you in fact. and you know why.
fatten up the stock so that it's in top shape when it's time to consume it.
โ€œfollow meโ€ they say, holding the door open.
obediently, you follow the person you owe your life to, for now anyway, and they lead you through alleys and stairways you had never seen before.
only sounds of footsteps and your exhausted huffs can be heard in the hallway filled with various markings on the wall. you don't even want to know what they mean.
โ€œsoโ€ฆ how do i call you?โ€ you manage to ask, maybe if you try to get close to them, maybe they can help a second time.
don't kid yourself.
no reply comes and you feel heat rush to your cheeks from embarassment. but hey at least you tried.
your wandering eyes missed to see them stop before a certain door and you crash into them with a grunt. they must be well built because the impact did not faze them at all.
โ€œsorryโ€ you rub your nose that was sore from bumping your face into their back.
โ€œi go by uraume. i am master sukuna's loyal servant. beyond this door is the garden and you are to take a walk twice a day to build up your stamina. i shall be checking on you daily.โ€
โ€œwhy should i need to do that?โ€
โ€œdo as you are told. now goโ€ they open the door for you.
beyond the door is a garden too beautiful to belong in the palace of such an abominable being. flowers of all kind adjourn each corner, flourishing in all their bloosoming glory.
the sky was as clear as can be, with the sun brightly shining as if it's wishing people a good day. the birds chirping and the gentle breeze that brushes through your hair reminds you of your home back in the village and your heart aches a little.
โ€œthankyouโ€ you turn back but uraume is now long gone.
gee must people be so cold around here?
you stroll along the garden, savoring your time outside in so long. how long has it been exactly? you couldn't recall. maybe you should ask uraume the next time they come around.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
only this time when uraume does show up, they don't lead you towards the garden. instead, you find yourself at the door of the king of cursesโ€™ throne room.
uraume doesn't say a word and only ushers you in.
is this doomsday? you recall the screams of fear from the people you used to share a home with. the look on their faces, their nails desperately clinging onto the prison bar while pleading for mercy โ€” all of that for naught.
and the silence that followed.
it's possible that the well timed meals and the strolls you took in the beautiful garden was the mercy your people begged for but never got.
maybe you should be thankful you even got to have those.
โ€œmaster is impatient. you should go in right this instantโ€ uraume insists. something about their behaviour tells you if you don't do as told, you'd have a fate worse than what you could ever think of.
with all the courage you could muster, you unlock the door and take strides into it, as confident as you could make it seem.
the four armed monster looms in front of you, starting down at you as if you were only a mere bug.
perhaps you were โ€” small and helpless, under the mercy of the predator who had seen you.
you bow politely, it seemed like it was the only appropriate thing to do.
sukuna thinks you're pathetic.
just a mere human and not worth his time. there was only a small reason as to why he hasn't had his way with you yet.
your flesh and blood.
to him, you smelled hauntingly sweet and hypnotisingly alluring. that was what drew him to your village in the first place โ€” the hunt for the sweet scent that awakened all his senses, although he doesn't have any idea why.
sukuna is a curious being, he seeks to know the mysteries of the world โ€” one of the reasons why he's so wise, adding to his strength.
so until he has his answers, he plans to keep you around. after that, he can enjoy your flesh however he wants.
just you standing mere feet away from him was enough to tempt him to bite you already. how would it feel to sink his teeth into your skin and have your blood flow down his throat? sukuna couldn't wait until he has the chance to do so.
โ€œleave.โ€ the monster only dismisses you after staring at you so intently, he might as well be staring deep into your soul.
you look up at him in confusion, why would he call you here without any particular reason?
โ€œdo your ears not work, human?โ€ sukuna says, rather impatiently.
โ€œlower your gaze and know your place, foolโ€ he practically growls and you look away faster than the speed of light. one more bow and you're bolting out the door.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
your stay at the palace was a cycle of eating, sleeping and taking strolls. it was beginning to get monotonous, boring even. but its much better than facing the king of curses ever again.
you still had no idea why he called you to his throne room and honestly, you don't even want to find out why.
life wasn't so bad โ€” the flowers were beautiful and smelled lovely, the meals were scrumptious and your sleep? well nightmares were inevitable but there were nights when you slept like a log.
and unbeknownst to you, a certain four eyed creature could be seen watching over you. no, observing you. its only right for him to observe his prey right?
it's not out of the goodness of his heart that when you whimper and cry out in your sleep because of a weak nightmare curse looming over your head, he kills it with only a tilt of his own. no, it's only because that curse deters your well being, hence your development to reach your full potential to be a perfect feast for him. nothing more.
weak human, you don't have the means to kill such a low grade curse or even see it. so why were you special? what makes you so different than the other filthy beings with no cursed techniques roaming the earth? sukuna still couldn't tell.
he's aware though โ€” of your silent fear and unspoken resentment you have towards him. he's aware of your quivering soul whenever you sense his presence. he's aware of your desire to escape this place.
but he's also aware of how your smile becomes a little more genuine when you smell a particular flower in his garden. he's aware of how your eyes soften when you see the setting sun. he's aware of how you tried to get close to uraume and only get shut out. he's aware of you.
and that angers him to no end.
what infuriates him even more is how that pathetic servant thinks he can talk to you, and with such ease too. how dare he speak lowly of you? that's a direct insult to him isn't it?
โ€˜you mean less than a concubine?โ€™ sukuna scoffs at him for even comparing you to one.
so the next time he calls the council for a lecture, he doesn't even blink one of his four eyes when the said servant in question gets slashed by his formidable cursed technique.
the room grows thick with the smell of blood that was now splashed all over the carpets and tapestry hanging on the wallโ€”a grueling task for the cleaners later.
โ€œevery tongue that rises against my prey shall fall.โ€ the headless body of his once loyal servant serve as testimony to his words.
the palace may be big but rumours flew around: another servant ruthlessly executed by the monstrous beast. even the people under him weren't given an ounce of consideration.
is it a coincidence that it was the same person who cornered you just a day ago? you don't ponder.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
after the ruthless slaughter of your village and everything in it, it didn't take long for sukuna to find his next target.
it wasn't anything new to anybody at all that he was a bloodthirsty beast, revelling in chaos and ruin. one after another, his victims were crushed mindlessly and so easily, it made you sick how powerless other people are in comparison to him.
out of all his battles and countless destruction, one prominent opponent was the fujiwara clan.
they were an elite clan, taking pride in the strength of their squadrons. the world held its breath upon hearing of the battle, maybe they had the potential to rival the king of curses.
the outcome didn't change though. sukuna remained prevalentโ€”bringing the sun, moon and stars at his feet. the five empty generals did not even measure upto him.
the battle must have been so agonising to the point where the authorities were willing to hold festivals in his honour, out of utter terror.
it was at this harvest festival where sukuna had encountered a certain shameless sorcerer who was on her way to be completely obsessed with him.
yorozu had only one goal: to alleviate sukuna's loneliness with her love โ€” something she believed only she was capable of.
thus why she leeches onto him, much like a hick. perhaps sukuna doesn't see her as a threat or he deems her powerful enough, he didn't get rid of her, for now at least.
however, her dreams were short lived.
yorozu sits next to sukuna in his throne room, enticing him with gentle nudges of her exposed chest. her haori was united and her hair fell graciously past her shoulders all the way down her chest.
she only shrieks in horror as she stares at the uninterested man. โ€œyou look differentโ€ฆ you are different!โ€ she screams angrily.
sukuna only hums in response, deep in thought of how his little prey has been holding up. despite his festivities and celebrations, you were there in the back of his mind, like an itch that cannot be quite scratched.
she stares at him, stepping back further and further โ€œit couldn't beโ€ฆโ€
yorozu brings herself to her knees, looking up at sukuna desperately. โ€œi have so much more to teach you about love and the ultimate strength and solitude that it brings!โ€
she rises, her eyes were erratic, anyone would be afraid of her outburst that was about to come. anyone but sukuna.
โ€œim the one who will teach you about love. that is my purpose and my goal. now tell me, who is it that is taking away your loneliness?โ€
sukuna raises a brow. it's possibly the only time he indulges yorozuโ€™s antics and also the last.
โ€œi will find out who it is! it doesn't matter if i have to tear this palace apartโ€ yorozu violently darts out the room in search of something, anything. to her, if it was powerful enough to move sukuna then she would have no trouble finding whatever it is.
and she doesn't. not because you're too powerful but rather because of the lack of it. you stuck out like a sore thumb with no cursed energy running through your body, weak and unarmed just strolling across the gardenโ€” like the pathetic human you are.
sukuna arrives at the scene, ever observing, ever thinking.
โ€œthat is not true loveโ€ yorozu mutters, her fists were clenched on her sides as her gaze burnt into you who was unknowing of the fury burning inside her.
โ€œyou're mistaken, sukuna. i will show you what real love looks like!โ€ yorozu screams, making her way towards you who could only stare at her in fear, frozen in place.
it would take sukuna less than a blink of his eye to stop her but he was intrigued. what would he feel if you were to be killed? would he feel pain? anger? the beast always finds his answers so he waits.
and what was that about true love? does that woman think he was capable of it? with you, no less? she sees you, a mere human, as a threat so that must mean something.
yorozu lands on you, digging her nails into your skin, blood gushing out of it. sukuna admires the sight.
you scream in agony as she continue to scratch through you and into you with ease. a maniac expression forms on her face at your slowed breaths and now silent helpless whimpers.
but before you were completely gone, sukuna gets rid of her. you were too busy holding onto your life to tell how he did it but one blink was enough for her to be gone and another makes you realise you were caged in the arms of the four armed monster.
โ€œinterestingโ€ you heard sukuna say, before your lashes flutter and your eyes close against your will.
sukuna holds your limp body in his arms protectively with calculated gentleness as if a slight jerk would hurt you. well, in your state, it would.
upon watching you get torn apart, sukuna realises he isn't as heartless as he deemed himself. it drives him angry. how could a being as weak as you would have the capability to move him? how could you inflict pain onto him when you're the one who's at his mercy? he scoffs at how ridiculous it is all.
but when his eyes land on youโ€“ your fragile body almost lifeless and bleeding, his only thought was towards your safety and not towards devouring you, albeit the sweet scent of your blood tempting him and calling out to him to drink it.
he stares at his hands tainted with the pretty crimson colour, glistening in the sun but it pales in comparison to the way your eyes were shut as if you were only asleep. sukuna sighs, alright then.
his reversed cursed technique flows through his body into your own, healing the deep tears and cuts. he only hopes you aren't too angry at him for waiting that long to step in.
your staggered breathing was replaced with slow even ones and your wounds disappeared as if they had never been there in the first place. a peaceful expression forms on your face and all of sukuna's eyes soften.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
the next time you awaken you find yourself in the comfort of your own room making you doubt if everything that happened was a vivid dream. and you would have believed that doubt if not for the person sitting in the corner of your room, his four arms folded into each other.
you flinch upon seeing him and sit straight up, a groan escapes you involuntarily from your sore body.
โ€œyou're awake, bratโ€ his deep voice sends shivers down your spine.
you nod slightly, your eyes on anything besides him.
โ€œhow are you feeling?โ€ this makes you jolt your head towards him because did he just ask about your well being? you would say you misheard but the frown and distaste on his face only confirms that he was, in fact, concerned about your condition somehow.
โ€œim feeling alrightโ€ you say quietly, still a bit afraid of the man sitting in your room who could easily overpower you if he wanted.
โ€œi should hope so. your weak body didn't take much to heal as easily injurable as it isโ€ he sneers from the shadows that enveloped him.
โ€œso it wasn't a dream?โ€ your voice shook a little which doesn't go unnoticed.
โ€œno. i have taken care of the matter. you may rest at easeโ€ he rises to his feet, he looks way too big to feel safe around. you hug your blankets a little tighter. wait, when did you even have that many?
โ€œdo not fear. i do not intend to harm you.โ€ two out of four eyes narrow at you and how scared of him you looked. sukuna doesn't like how that bothers him.
โ€œhow do i know that?โ€ your eyes didn't meet him, rightfully so, if it was anyone else who questioned him, sukuna would waste no second getting rid of them altogether.
โ€œit is i.โ€ a viable answer โ€“ one that doesn't need any further explaination. sukuna maybe a merciless hard hearted being but he's also a man of his words. anyone who knows him would be aware of this fact.
โ€œbut i don't know you.โ€
he supposes you're right. in a way, nobody knows him. this was also why he remained so strong despite people and sorcerers alike sharpened themselves while fighting him. he did not have an opening to allow them to kill him.
โ€œthen you can start from this moment forward.โ€
โ€œi don't want to.โ€ for the first time, sukuna faces disappointment; but it's a different kind of disappointment. normally he would be discouraged at how nobody was able to stand a chance against him but now, he feels helpless. much like he was the prey and you're the predator.
โ€œand your reason for that is?โ€ ever so curious, he glowered at your body which had somehow become smaller amongst the sheets of blanket you're enveloped by.
โ€œbecause thenโ€ฆ then i will grow to understand you. if i do understand you then that would mean id find out you have a heart. someone with a heart would neverโ€ฆ would neverโ€ฆโ€ your voice trails away and you look horrified by the memories flooding your mind.
โ€œso i don't want to know you.โ€ you muster up enough courage to stare into his eyes, all of his eyes and sukuna can feel your soul tremble.
he only watched silently as you fidget under his watchful gaze. great. he's at a loss by someone who's terrified of him, how much more could you hit a blow to his pride.
without a word, he steps out of your room and he could hear you exhale. he huffs in annoyance at how tense you are in his presence. and your words. they might as well be your cursed technique attacking him with every enunciation that came from your mouth.
and they were working.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
the world was somehow shifting. you couldn't exactly pinpoint where or how but it was.
โ€œmaster has assigned you a new room that would be more comfortable for your stayโ€ uraume says, standing in front of you in a polite stance. โ€œplease allow me to guide you there.โ€
if this is his attempt to make you forget about all the destruction he caused, for whatever reason, it was futile. he was irredeemable.
your thoughts might have been apparant on your face because uraume continues, โ€œmaster says he does not have an ulterior motive. he simply wants you to be comfortable.โ€
since when did that beast care about other people's comfort except for his own?
โ€œfine then, show meโ€ if he offered, then there's no problem in accepting. heck maybe you should be taking advantage of his hospitality and ask for whatever you desire. he has put you on death's row and wiped of everyone you knew after all.
you were led to a room that was closer to the main area of the palace, a stark contrast to the basement of the kitchen โ€” where you started from.
pieces of beautiful art were decorating each corner, finest tapestry hanging from the walls, and the curtains? they were of the best material you had ever known. no doubt, this was a room that exceeded even your dreams.
uraume opened the closet revealing kimonos of various kinds, from silk to linen to satinโ€” every kind was there. โ€œi was not aware of your taste so i assorted various kinds.โ€
you were amazed at the room, the materials โ€“ everything but these measly riches don't bring lives back and the monster certainly wasn't capable of any empathy so the words saying he has no ulterior motive were nothing but empty to you.
โ€œwhat? have i been promoted from prey to concubine now?โ€ the word alone makes you sick to your stomach but it's the only explanation that makes sense.
โ€œyou are very wrong. master does not keep concubines. it is only an extension of his kindness.โ€ you laugh, sukuna? kindness? please.
four eyes narrowed at your bitter laugh, sukuna stands in the doorway, each of his two arms folded in each other. he has lost count of how much disrespect he tolerates from you but strangely, it does not give him a drive to kill, only annoyance.
a brow raises when you turn around after being aware of his presence and your laugh, as mocking as it was, dropped into a frown.
seeing how speechless you are, he huffs. from out of nowhere, he conjures up a bow and an arrow to go along with it. sukuna moves stealthily, one step and he's already next to you.
the bow and arrow are shoved into your hands โ€œi have heard you are exceptionally good with theseโ€ sukuna says, his voice was low and calculating โ€“ if you hadn't known better, you'd say it quivered a little.
he wasn't wrong though, you had to hone some sort of hunting skill for food. life wasn't kind and you learnt it the hard way. nevertheless you felt safer with some kind of weapon you were familiar with, even though they won't be of much help against a sorcerer.
โ€œmasterโ€™s very own bow and arrowโ€ uraume interrupted, their face had an expression of shock you had never seen on them before. there was an engraving on themโ€“ the same mark that sukuna had on his body.
โ€œwhy give me this?โ€ you ask and receive no answer. not because sukuna doesn't want to answer you, he simply doesn't have a reason. he just wanted you to have it. it felt natural. he'll be damned before he ever admits that to you or even to himself.
โ€œwhat if i use it on you?โ€ you press on, clutching onto the wooden weapon tightly. โ€œwhat if i wanted to fire this at you?โ€
โ€œi would let you.โ€
it caught you by surprise. why? you want to ask but you also didn't want to hear his reason. you don't want to know him. the little barrier you had put between you both is the only thing giving you leverage against such a vicious being, you couldn't afford to have it break down.
taking a quick abrupt step back, you line the end of the arrow to the bowstring and pull on it with an expert ease, aiming it at sukuna. uraume was about to step in but sukuna waves them off. as if the most feared curse user couldn't defend himself.
he could already have you breathing your last breath in a mere second if he wanted to but of course, he doesn't. he just stands there unmoving. his lack of response to your threat made you all the more aggravated.
โ€œaren't you going to stop me?โ€
โ€œno. proceed with whatever you intend to do, i shall not stop you.โ€ sukuna's folded arms fell to his sides, giving you an open target for his heart.
now you should be firing your arrow with no hesitation right? you have hunted down countless moving targets from as small as a bird to something as big as a deer.
and they were running while you manage to hit a bullseye โ€“ every single time. so now this unmoving big target within just a few meters would be a piece of cake. it's your chance to end the tyranny of his wicked rule and him altogetherโ€“ a chance that had not been granted to anyone who stands against him.
but your hands wouldn't move. they wouldn't let go of the string to propel the arrow towards him. they were frozen in place. you would have doubted uraumeโ€™s technique being in play but no signs of ice crystals found themselves anywhere near.
sukuna waits and you wonder if he was ever this patient.
your hands tremble, slowly letting your form down. why couldn't you just do it?
โ€œhumanโ€“โ€
sukuna's words were cut short by a swift arrow flying towards him. he didn't make a move to avoid it.
your trembling hands were now perfectly stable holding the bow. your breathing was calm, collected even. if anyone were to see you now, they'd wonder who the beast is. empty eyes deadpan at your target.
sukuna stares back, his cheek bleeding from the graze of the arrow. unlike your soul-less face, a satisfactory smile creeps onto sukuna's. โ€œyou didn't miss, did you? you aimed here on purpose.โ€ his hands caress the small wound in awe.
โ€œnext time i wont.โ€
โ€œas i have said, i will not stop you.โ€
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the new room was comfortable, all your needs were tended to and your conduct exceeded your desires. you were treated equal to a queen, if you knew how.
and uraume, sukuna's loyal servant, was now your own. they were still very distant though, not speaking more than they needed to. not like you really minded anyway.
uraume was there to observe. they were under strict orders to keep you safe and also report your daily status to sukuna. you weren't exactly aware of this part but there's no harm done so by logic, there wasn't a problem with it either.
sukuna finds the corner of his mouth twitch when uraume mentioned that you sang obnoxiously loud because you thought nobody was around. he'd have loved to hear that himself.
the amusing brief about you was however rudely interrupted by a strange person brave enough to march directly into the throne room unannounced.
โ€œyou're from the kamo clan aren't you? have you come to die a meaningful death?โ€ sukuna's thirst for battle heightened upon seeing a sorcerer from one of the three main clans in jujutsu. maybe finally, he can have a strong opponent and enjoy the fight without having it end too early.
but the man only chuckles โ€œno, i have come here to negotiate with the almighty king of curses himselfโ€
sukuna frowns, now staring at him unamused โ€œyou do not have anything worth a value to me. fight or die a pathetic death.โ€
โ€œi will do neither of those.โ€ noritoshi kamo, stands face to face with sukuna without a hint of fear in his eyes and that makes sukuna curious. just what kind of offer does he have to be so bold?
โ€œprove that you are worth my time you filthy scumโ€ sukuna glowers at the man, getting more and more impatient by the second.
โ€œhow about that prey? how is your little prey doing?โ€ kamo smirks and it's enough to tempt sukuna to cut through his skull but no, he refrains because anything that involves you, sukuna doesn't take it lightly.
โ€œspeak up or iโ€™ll have you slashed.โ€ sukuna remarks impatiently.
โ€œit would be a shame to have her taken away from you isn't it?โ€ the old man sneers.
the next thing he knows is his ragged breath and a sharp pain across his chest, kamo falls to his knees. sukunaโ€™s technique had manifested a cut through his chest, although not deep enough to end him. with blood oozing out of the fresh cut and his mouth, he still has the courage to glare at the four eyed creature.
โ€œyou must not value your lifeโ€ sukuna says nonchalantly, leaning against one of his hand, the grotesque sight was nothing new to him at all.
โ€œyour reign is coming to an end isn't it?โ€ kamo laughs, although it comes out through splutters of blood. โ€œno matter how powerful you are, you are not immortal sukuna, you still won't defeat death!โ€
as if sukuna is one to fear death. sukuna only sighs, revelling in the bloodied state of his intimidator.
โ€œand your little human toy won't eitherโ€ that earns a reaction from him. sukuna's eyes narrow at the pitiful man fighting for his life.
โ€œwhat are you suggesting?โ€
โ€œwhat if i tell youโ€“ that there is a way for you to be immortal? and that it's possible to find her in every lifetime?โ€
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
everyone who knows sukuna knows that he does not get hurt. or yet, there's nobody who's strong enough to hurt him. generation upon generation, sorcerers have teamed up to get rid of him but with no luck. not even one of them could land a hit on the ferocious being.
all the more reason for you to be speechless when he returns with a huge hole in his stomach, bleeding continuously.
it was during your stroll that you saw him staggering over to his room.
okay maybe that was a lie. maybe you'd heard that a very prominent sorcerer in the jujutsu society had challenged him. you didn't know much about that world but it was enough to worry you, even if sukuna was undefeated.
so maybe that worry brings you into a situation where he arrived just while you were taking a stroll in the garden. you definitely didn't purposely take longer to watch the birds fly back to their nest in hopes of making sure sukuna returns. definitely not.
that's also NOT why you're knocking on his door boldly.
the door opens, revealing a confused sukuna. your eyes dart down to his injury but it seems the blood had stopped, still looking nasty regardless.
you wince just by looking at it but sukuna interrupts your unwarranted examination. โ€œeyes here human. what do you want?โ€
for someone who's supposed to be prey, you're bold because in the next moment, you find yourself pushing through the door and asking him to sit down.
yes. youโ€” a mere human, barged through his room and asked him to sit. when he doesn't comply, you walk up to him, pulling on one of his hands, guiding him towards his chair and sat him down. and strangely, no hint of protest came from him โ€“ not even a grunt or a growl.
with familiar ease, you call in uraume and ask for an emergency kit. they hesitate but comply regardless.
your expert hands slowly disinfect the wound and start stitching it up, not even sparing a glance at the man who just watches you and lets you do whatever you want to him.
โ€œwhere have you garnered skills to do this?โ€ sukuna asks mid stitch and it's only then that you realised he hasn't done so much as flinch. you could imagine how painful it would've been for a normal human but apparently this counts for nothing to him.
โ€œwhen you're desperate enough, you just knowโ€ the last string goes through his flesh and you tie a knot, snapping the thread off. your movements slow when you realise you're touching himโ€“ skin and all, with your own.
your eyes lock when you search for his and they stare back. this time, you don't see a vicious brute but in its place, you see the eyes of a man. and not just any man, if you allowed your thoughts to wander you'd say it was the same look of a man capable of love.
but you don't โ€“ you look away. and sukuna's could feel a slight pull in his chest.
โ€œhuman.โ€
โ€œi have a nameโ€
โ€œhuman.โ€
the disregard for your name only makes you roll your eyes in annoyance. the man only chuckles at the sight.
โ€œyou do realise i can heal myself?โ€
a pause. of course how could you forget? reversed cursed technique they call it? all these magical powers granted to them made no sense to you at all. you only stare at the wall dumbfounded as sukuna downright laughs at your humiliated expression.
โ€œwhy didn't you stop me then?โ€ your grumble only amuses him further.
โ€œperhaps because i wanted you to acknowledge how foolish you are?โ€ his tone was teasing and not a hint of malicious intent was within it. a smile creeps on your lips and sukuna could swear his heart rate accelerated.
โ€œi could show it to you if you're curiousโ€ your wide eyes give him all the confirmation he needed. sukuna rises on his feet, the prior horrid injury long forgotten.
โ€œyou couldโ€ฆ take off the bandages. if they aren't effective anyway since you can healโ€ you shrug, trying to brush off your wholly service that was in fact not required in the first place.
โ€œi rather they stay.โ€ his hands graze them gently and you could swear he smiled at the pitiful mounts of cotton plastered on his abdomen.
โ€œcome. allow me to show you what im capable of.โ€ he offers you a hand, out of the many he has and his shoulder slumps in relief when you take it without any protest.
he takes you outside and leads you towards your favourite spot in the garden. you don't let yourself wonder if it's a coincidence or not.
โ€œsee that fruit?โ€ he gestures to a ripe apple hanging on its tree โ€“ super red and just the perfect size.
โ€œyeah want about it?โ€ you tilt your head towards him curiously making sukuna more enthusiastic to show you his perfectly crafted technique.
an invisible slash cuts the single fruit out of the tree, making it fall. it was barely noticeable and you'd think it fell on its own if not for the perfect slices it has all while it landed in the palm of your hands.
your wide eyed gaze only delights the man responsible for it. you take one slice off and admire the precision โ€œyou did this?? no way!โ€
sukuna heaves his chest proudly. strangely, your adulation to his antic gives him so much more satisfaction than wiping out an entire village.
โ€œwait till you see thisโ€ sukuna takes a step back, his lips quirking up into a tight smirk upon seeing your expectant expression.
he places his hands together and gestures up signs that were not familiar to you. โ€œfuga ยซ open ยปโ€ his low voice chants while fire manifests into the palm of his hands. he moulds the flames skillfully as it takes the shape of an arrow โ€“ a fire arrow.
and you're left with your mouth agape, he was truly terrifying. such bright flames don't even burn him but instead falls into his command.
sukuna likes the way you stare at him in wonder and was tempted to tell you that he created this very technique in honour of you and your bold decision in grazing his cheek with your arrow but for now, he holds his tongue and lets you admire as long as you want.
when the flames burn away, you're still in a hazeโ€” staring at the man in front of you with diluted pupils: one might think you're in love.
as sukuna focuses his eyes into your own, he's certain he could see into your soul which grows a little more familiar to him everytime he sees you. no it's not how he feels the familiar terror in someone's soul when they tremble in fear of him just as he was about to take their life.
it's not the same shudder of fear he used to feel when he's around you. this time, it's inviting. he feels he could be stripped of his technique and just be a normal being if it meant he could submerge himself in it.
โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€โ”€ ๐Ÿƒœ ๐Ÿƒš ๐Ÿƒ– ๐Ÿƒ ๐Ÿ‚ญ ๐Ÿ‚บ
sukuna used to anticipate how he would die. he wanted to meet someone who would be strong enough to give him a formidable death fit for the most evil being to tread the world. news of fresh generation of strong sorcerers would excite him.
but the moment he knew he was entranced by you, that prior excitement was now replaced by fear. not fear for his death but rather, for yours. if anything were to happen to him, who would protect you?
it doesn't help how his enemies were catching hints on his possible weakness now. it all started with that damn bastard from the kamo clan, whom sukuna swears to kill. him and everybody else that could pose as a threat to you, he swears he will kill them all.
a little part of him also starts to fear for his own end. he fears that no matter how long he lives, he might think he doesn't have enough time with you. how could he when you're here, showing the sides or the world he never knew existed? the same world you weaved with every gentle word you say, no matter how insignificant.
sukuna can't get enough of the small smiles that were appearing more frequently when he reaches out to hold your tiny hand in his big ones.
he can't get enough of your soft snores when you're asleep in his chestโ€“ no more nightmares haunting your sleep because as long as he's around, any curse would have to fight him to get to you. no curse was bold enough to do so.
and mostly, he can't get enough of your small gentle strokes across his face. your touch was feather light and curious but so so loving that even when your hands were about to be pulled away, his own grabs them and makes them stay.
sukuna has nothing at all to base it off of, but if he had to name what he's feeling right now, it would be along the lines of complete devotion to you โ€“ in other words, he suspects it's the feeling these weak humans and yozoru keep preaching about: love.
and he's not denying itโ€“ not to himself at least or he can't. during his recent battles, he observes himself ending it as quick as possible.
instead of luxuriating in the thrill of battle, he finds himself rushing to kill his opponent โ€“ to end it as quick as it was humanely possible because every second he spends away from you is a second wasted.
he was becoming more precise and ruthless now that he has something to protect.
that's why even when you ask about his murder streak and if he could lessen it, he just ruffles your hair and tells you not to worry.
any sorcerer who has gotten close enough to land their sights on you were brutally tortured until they give up on their life altogether.
however, life can be funny at times. his own fear for your well being is possibly responsible for the curse that now latches onto you, consuming and draining the life out of you and sukuna's forced to watch as you slowly became a husk of who you used to be. so really, it's not funny at all.
he feels helpless and he is. none of the cursed techniques he has could exorcise the curse blooming inside you and spreading through your veins.
he has been warned before and he didn't care. he never fathomed to ever find someone to love so he traded his soul for his fervent reign โ€“ a binding vow: any being whose soul remotely gets near his own would ruin itself without any means for its resurrection.
another condition of the vow was for him to forget about it only after it was too late. at the time the vow was made, sukuna had thought, no, he'd known he lucked out by a power at the price of such a feeble condition but nowโ€ฆ now he knows how gut wrenchingly wrong he was.
sukuna slumps in defeat at the sight of your weak body fighting itself. all his four hands encased one of yours as he listens to your staggering breaths that slowly becomes more faint than the last.
for the first time, no matter how tainted his hands were of from the numerous people he murdered in cold blood, sukuna finds himself praying; not for salvation or forgiveness but for your suffering to be placed onto him instead.
he has just found happiness with you, and in you, had just started to learn how to love someone so much that all his wicked ways were something he wished he never did. he had been stupid and arrogant โ€“ too arrogant. he was sure the heaven and whole generations of people he killed were now laughing at him drowning in his own misery. how the tables have turned on him and humbled him.
โ€œkuna..โ€ your barely audible voice mades him lean closer to your face, one of his large hands coming up to caress your face delicately.
โ€œhuman. save your energyโ€ sukuna scolds but his tone was not demanding by any means. it was desperate, desperate for just one more second of you.
a faint smile ghosts your almost now deathly pale face โ€œit's not your fault.โ€ you manage to cough out through staggering breaths.
sukuna's world might as well stop. it was his fault, everything was his fault. from the moment he caught a whiff of your sweet sweet blood to when he looked at you as nothing but prey to the moment when you became the sole reason for his existence, it was all his doing. he has taken you and tangled you amidst the string of despair.
his head shakes in denial, no words coming out of both his two mouths. so much to say, so many ways to say it but nothing.
but you know, the four pupils staring at you take the form of hearts, and that tells you everything. it could be just an illusion you'd heard people speak of on the verge of death but it's enough for you.
your sweet blood slowly looses its essence as you close your eyes, the last light inside you leisurely fading away.
โ€œoi humanโ€ sukuna calls but there was no response.
โ€œanswer meโ€ a plea.
still no answer as your hand slowly goes limp in his own. there was silence and nothing. so much of nothing that was unfamiliar in the otherwise air of curiousity that always surrounded you.
โ€œhuman.โ€ sukuna's voice wavers as his hands come to cup your too peaceful face. he searches for any signs of life but he finds none. before he knew it, a drop of water landed on your clueless yet beautiful features, then another and another.
the monster was crying. not just crying โ€“ he wept.
his entire body shakes as he lets out his pain, holding onto you desperately as if that would bring you back.
โ€œhumanโ€ he dries away his own tears on your face and brushes away the hair that dared hide even a portion of it.
โ€œyou're not a curse. you have never been. you were my blessing, my salvation. you are the best thing that have ever happened to me. you cleared my skies and showed me how it was to loveโ€ฆ and be loved.โ€
sukuna trembled in grief at your loss. the king of cursesโ€“ reduced to a man in love.
perhaps he wasn't the cannibal here. perhaps you were the one who slowly teared him apart and consumed his very beingโ€“ merging yourself into his core without him even realising it.
but one thing he knows for sure is that if he were to do it again, he'd let himself be devoured entirely by you. over and over again. to be loved is to be consumed and he's offering himself to you, flesh and bones on a silver platter.
โ€œuntil next time, my love.โ€ he leans in and places a fragile kiss onto your forehead and that's the first and last time he has a taste of you.
with the last drop of your blood running dry and the absence of the warmth that made you, you; sukuna finds his answer โ€“ the reason why your blood tasted so sweet was because he was made to crave it. something he could quench his thirst with but never getting the chance to do so; a punishment perfectly fit for him.
โ€œyour deal. i shall agree to it on a conditionโ€ sukuna glowers at kamo who only smirks with an โ€˜i told you soโ€™ written all over his face. sukuna would have slashed him to bits if it weren't for the agreement he agreed to take up on.
โ€œi shall trade my soul to become a curse only if i get reincarnated exactly a thousand years from nowโ€ sukuna proposes, no, commands. it is said that a soul is reincarnated only once every thousand years and he wants to make sure he finds you in the next lifetime. maybe then, he'll have enough time with you and if he's lucky enough, be able to love you without bounds.
โ€œthat could be arrangedโ€ kamo quirks his head in a way sukuna despises. โ€œbut she'll have no memory of you. you're proceeding with this knowledge, yes?โ€
sukuna only narrows his eyes and ignores his question โ€œthat is not all. erase her existence from the minds of everyone besides me. generations hence, no one shall know who she is. her name shall be removed from every mouth that speaks of my reign.โ€
kamo smiles lazily โ€œyour soul is not worth that much sukunaโ€. the man strolls freely in the room, not minding the looming presence of the king of curses. โ€œhowever, a binding vow could be arranged.โ€
great. another binding vow. but if that means he'll meet you in a thousand years time, he'll vow as many times as required.
โ€œthe grounds of the vow is as follows: you shall be reincarnated only if there appears a vessel suitable to withstand you.โ€ kamo proposes. โ€œyour fingers will be cut and hidden in vast areas across the world and you shall only succeed in full reincarnation if you find them and consume them, all while being suppressed by the vessel.โ€
sukuna frowns and kamo only laughs โ€œdo you agree to the vow knowing all the risk it carries?โ€
conditions and regulations were a pain but nothing could stop a man desperate enough to give up his soul twice. โ€œvery wellโ€ sukuna agrees.
and that is how the heian era and sukuna's legacy came to an end; sealing himself โ€“ and the memories of you only he carries with him โ€“ into his twenty fingers, each of which turned into cursed objects scattered far and wide like pieces of puzzle waiting until the time comes for it to fit itself together again.
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totally did Not forget about this account im working on a sukuna fic and it's 7k in i want to make it 10k because it just feels right
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I feel frustrated by Megumi's scars... I love this concept, but... ugh...
I also think Megumi is having a really hard time with everything that happened to him, and I really wanted to draw that.
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super funny thing happened, saw some old gojo pics in my gallery and now i can't continue with the sukuna fic bc i miss gojo so badly help
writing this sukuna fic and i have so many questions gege needs to drop his backstory
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https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZS2D7bqbX/
Reminded me of your toji fic <3
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no wait that's so sad but so fitting :(((
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writing this sukuna fic and i have so many questions gege needs to drop his backstory
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that toji fic had me staring at a wall. it was so good that i started to imagine scenes in my head like what if she meets megumi again. good job!
omg fun fact i actually wanted to make them meet again and make reader raise gumi with satoru's help (also potentially satoru becoming infatuated with reader but i paused because i was skeptical of writing it)
but yes thankyou for reading im so glad you liked it !!
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what is your other writing blog if you donโ€™t mind me asking? I would love to read your other works!๐Ÿ’“
it's a secret >< i mostly do smaus and drabbles on there but im shy to say it out loud heheheh dw i'll try to be more active on here and push out stories worth reading :>>
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hold onnnn was that Toji fic your first one?? itโ€™s amazing hello?
my first one on this blog lol i do have a prior writing blog but i wanted to make this one to post more lengthy and written fics. im so glad you liked it thankyou so much for the support ml <3
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leaks today were crazy im conflicted on how to feel because jjk ends so SO soon omg...
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that toji fic was seriously the best ive ever read of him ๐Ÿ˜ญ keep up the good work !!!!!! <33
you don't know how much this means to me oh my gosh thankyou so much i will try my best ily ily
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โ answer me. did you think of her when you're in bed with me? when you're kissing me and holding meโ€” was she the one on your mind? โž
summary: it's hard knowing you aren't really the person in toji's heart but loving him was something you still did regardless. as for toji, he thinks he's ready to give you his all.
desc: 2.8k words, f!reader (referred to as โ€˜mamaโ€™), canon compliant i think, takes place after mamaguro's death and before tojiโ€™s, age gap (early 20s reader, early 30s toji), baby gumi ahhhhh, sfw, angst to fluff to angst again lol, intended lowercase, think you're tsumikiโ€™s mom but without tsumiki bc the relations would be too complicated and also the second wife erasure in the canon storyline?? yeah it's reserved specifically for this fic, not proof read i fear but pls read it's really interesting i can swear by it lmaoqhdhns
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dating a widowed man with a son wasn't easy especially when the said man is still in love with his former wife, or rather, his wife who had died.
love is often beautiful but sometimes it's unfair. it can also be cruel. what other reason would make you still stay despite knowing you'll never measure upto the person who had been here before you?
and you've heard stories about her. she was sweet, so beautifulโ€” not just in her appearance but her entire being was beautiful. there always was an ache in your heart upon just the mention of her name.
so how much more would it have ached for toji?
โ€œmamaโ€ the spiky haired boy, barely two years old calls you and you realise the silence in the room. โ€œnot mama, iโ€™m nana okay?โ€ sick.
nana. not mama but close enough. it doesn't matter anyway, n and m are just letters and next to each other so how much difference would that make? you're the one that's here after all, are you not?
if there's a lump in your throat and your eyes are burning with unshed tears, you force yourself to ignore.
โ€œokay nanaโ€ megumi nuzzles his face into your chest, slowly drifting away to sleep. the boy always liked cuddling with you and it melts your heart immensely.
your hands strand through his dark hair. people always said he's the carbon copy of his dad but you'd like to differ. megumi has his mother's eyes and his hair resembled hers more than it did his dad's.
the thought sends another ache in your chest but you push it awayโ€“ as you always have.
you recall the last time toji had heard megumi call you โ€œmamaโ€. you had never seen toji that livid. he was never a gentle man to begin with but that night, there was nothing else you've been more scared of.
was he like that to his wife? maybe not.
does that matter though? it's not like toji treats you badly. he's decent and loves you an enough amount. you weren't crazy enough to stay when you're not wanted so that must mean you were something to him right?
you also recall the whispers of pity and condemnation thrown at you for just being with toji. him being a brute is one thing but the difference in age is what people seem to have a problem with. you're so much younger than him and have your whole life ahead of you so why are you entrapping yourself this way?
you disagree though. love doesn't know any age and you definitely aren't naive to be head over heels over a guy just because he's relatively older. no, this was real and genuine.
a faint knock disrupts your train of thoughts. โ€œhe sleepinโ€™?โ€ toji nods towards the small boy in your arms and you nod back in return.
taking care not to wake the sleeping kid, you slowly pry his hands away from you and pull over a blanket to cover his small body.
when you make your way towards toji, he wastes no time in pulling you closer โ€œmissed youโ€ he mumbles, placing a kiss onto your forehead and suddenly all thoughts plaguing your mind disappears. that's all you could ask for, even if it was just for a moment.
โ€œi missed you moreโ€ you whisper back, he only huffs out an amused chuckle.
โ€œgot bad news thoughโ€ a frown finds itself on his lips, decorated by a single scar next to it.
โ€œdid you lose all your money again?โ€ toji was a gambling addict, another thing you forced yourself to tolerate just for him.
โ€œsorry, doll. thought iโ€™d win this timeโ€ he rubs small circles on your back comfortingly and it makes you a bit uneasy to know that he has his way with you so easily.
โ€œit's alright. iโ€™ll just find another part time jobโ€
โ€œso good to meโ€ toji pulls you into his chest and you let out a sighโ€” of exhaustion? relief? you couldn't really tell but that's not important, toji had you in his arms.
โ€œiโ€™ll try and think of something too. don't worry your pretty little head too muchโ€ he lifts you up with ease. while you're in his arms, you feel the safest.
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toji really felt bad this time. he was confident he would win but that stupid horse had to trip and lose its lead, ending up last of all places. he knows luck never favoured him but that's didn't stop him from trying again and again and again.
he also knows how you didn't say anything more than necessary about it but he isn't that much of an idiot either. he sees how your expression falters and your shoulders slump a little more when he comes home with another news of his gambling loss.
this is also why he tries, or rather, tried to quit โ€” one too many times, unbeknownst to you. however, old habits die hard and most of the time (everytime) toji gives into his urge and loses yet again. the cycle keeps happening.
maybe this isn't just about gambling.
with the way you're asleep so soundly next to him after putting his son to sleep and taking care of him too, he is overcomed with yet another feeling to be better for you and megumi alike.
toji isn't a gentle man; everyone knows that, you do too โ€” even more than anybody else but he can't help the familiar pool of warm feelings surging through him the longer he stares at your peaceful state.
he remembers the last time he felt it, with another person. it felt like a lifetime ago.
he also remembers how painful it was when he lost it โ€” the person, the feeling altogether. his hands that were making their way to caress your face stops mid air.
toji knows you deserve so much better. you've been nothing but patient to him, so amazing, so perfect to him. still, he just can't do it yet, just not yet.
he will eventually, he hopes you stay until then.
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toji wakes up to an empty bed and his heart sinks a little but the creases and wrinkles on the sheets serve as a reminder that you were really here.
he makes his way towards the kitchen, only finding megumi sitting on a chair next to the dining table.
โ€œhey kid, where's your mama?โ€
toji freezes. it came out so naturally he didn't realise he said it himself and almost thinks he didn't but megumi's wide eyes prove that he actually did.
โ€œmโ€ฆmama?โ€ megumi says hesitantly and toji nods this time. โ€œyes, your mamaโ€.
โ€œpotty potty!โ€ megumi points to the bathroom and giggles, toji follows suit. the man crouches to his son's eye level and pats his head.
โ€œyou love your mama, kid?โ€ toji sees megumi's eyes sparkle as the boy nods enthusiastically โ€œvery very much!!โ€
โ€œyeah? i love your mama too.โ€
toji smiles to himself, he can't wait to tell that to you.
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the next time toji got his pay, he finds himself hesitating. instead of heading towards the race tracks, his feet takes him to a jewellery store.
instead of picking out a slot and testing his luck, he picks out a ring. it's not fancy by any means but he thinks it would be the most beautiful band of metal to exist if it slides into your ring finger.
the tiny ring carries all the heavy feelings he has for you.
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it was one particular evening when you saw an old man lingering by the front gate. its particular because the warm sunset and the soft cool breeze contrasted the ground breaking truth you find out.
โ€œcan i help you?โ€ you ask the old man who looks at you up and down, not making an attempt to hide his distaste of your sight.
โ€œis this where toji zenin lives?โ€ he stares down at you with his scrutinising gaze; it makes you feel small.
โ€œzenin?โ€ you ask, confused. is he referring to toji? but his last name is fushiguro is it not?
โ€œyes toji zenin. i heard he has a son as well. you're not the mother are you?โ€
is it that obvious? you wonder how the old man figured it out. regardless, you're not about to give him his answers so you stood your ground.
โ€œiโ€™m sorry i don't know what you're talking about.โ€ you turn around, about to head inside when his words make you stop short.
โ€œare you fushiguro?โ€
that's tojiโ€™s last name isn't it? not zenin or whatever he called it. so why is he asking you that? is he implying that you're married to toji?
โ€œno. you have the wrong person.โ€
โ€œwhy? did he say not to get involved with anyone from his clan?โ€ the old man draws closer, chucking to himself. you're just there unmoving, trying to comprehend the situation and the words coming from his mouth.
โ€œor did he not tell you that either? did he tell you anything at all?โ€ he stands tall in front of you, tearing away bits of yourself with every word he says.
โ€œwhen he returns, tell him the clan wants to propose him an offer. you can do that much at least won't you?โ€
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and when toji comes home that night with the ring cluched tightly in his fist and inside the pocket of his white pants, the world stills.
he finds you in a state he has never seen you before. you look completely and utterly defeated.
โ€œhey, what's wrong?โ€ his hands come to caress your face so effortlessly, the ring and prior nervousness long forgotten.
โ€œtalk to me what's going on?โ€ he looks around and the house seems emptier than usual. your laundry that were usually hanging with his were gone.
your small trinkets you placed around the house to โ€œmake it more livelyโ€ were nowhere to be found.
and there's a bag in the corner of the room which toji prays and hopes he isn't what he thinks it is.
your hands push away his own that were cupping your face. you're not even looking at him.
โ€œsay something damn it!โ€
you flinch and toji takes a step back. he recalls the last time you trembled in fear โ€” when he got mad megumi called you his mom. he punishes himself for it.
โ€œim sorry. please talk to me.โ€ he isn't touching you now but he wants to. he wants to reach out and pull you close, as he always had done. but now there's an unbearable silence and the small distance between you both felt like lightyears away.
โ€œwho's zeninโ€ your voice was meek, barely a whisper but toji's eyes widen. how did you find out about that?
no fuck that, he was supposed to be the one telling you. in his own time.
โ€œi can explainโ€ was all that came out of him. he's nervous, he doesn't know where to start. there's a lot of information to unpack and he's not sure how to do it without hurting you too much.
when he doesn't elaborate, you ask another โ€œwho's fushiguro then?โ€ your voice falters a bit and toji curses himself for it.
but he's done running away and keeping things from you. โ€œmyโ€ฆ my late wifeโ€ he says wryly.
your eyes close and a shaky breath leaves your body, as if he just confirmed your worst suspicions. damn life is so funny isn't it? everything you thought you knew apparently wasn't what it seemed to be after all.
opening them again, your vision blurs and you realise tears were escaping your eyes. fuck you didn't want to cry now of all times but they won't stop.
and the way toji was looking at you, it makes you want to throw up.
โ€œi must've been so stupid to youโ€ you let out a humourless chuckle. โ€œdid you pretend im her?โ€
your gaze was sharp and so were your words. maybe all your bottled up feelings were resurfacing. it doesn't make you feel better about it but that doesn't stop you though.
โ€œanswer me. did you think of her when you're in bed with me? when you're kissing me and when you're holding me, was she the one on your mind??โ€ your voice was loud now. you should be afraid of waking up megumi who you cradled to sleep just a few hours ago but no, your thoughts are too clouded right now.
toji sighs. he has no excuse.
โ€œi used toโ€ he actually looks ashamed as if he wasn't the one who did it purely out of his will.
your scoff makes him wince โ€œbut not anymore.โ€
his words fall on deaf ears โ€œyou knowโ€ฆ i knew you did. but i stayed regardless because i thought there would be a chance that maybe one day, you could open up your heart to me. im not even asking for all of it, just a littleโ€ฆ i thought you'd let me in.โ€
you're blabbering and honestly, so distraught.
โ€œbut not a moment was there when it was me isn't it? it was always her in the first place.โ€
now toji should have said something, anything but he stays there planted in place. and maybe that was your breaking point.
you turn around, grabbing your bag and brushing past him towards the door. instead of holding onto you and stopping you, toji clutches the small box containing the ring โ€” your ring in his pocket, almost crushing it in the process, as he hears the door slam.
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you think it's funny how toji did not reach out after what happened. it's poetic even. very fitting of him, till the very end, he did not give two shits about you.
so then, why were you back here?
it's been four long years since the trajectory of your life changed. you still don't know if it was for the better or for the worse.
saying it has been hard would be an understatement. it took you a long time just to get back onto your own feet but you did it regardless. however, you left a part of you here long ago and now, you're here to take it back.
that and you missed megumi dearly. perhaps it was an excuse too because you won't deny a part of you still missed toji, despite everything that happened.
standing a few feet away from the place you used to call home, you hesitate.
maybe this was a bad idea. oh this was definitely a bad idea. you'll see them, and then what? what comes after that?
closure? don't make yourself laugh. youโ€™ll just be reminded of how you couldn't be that person for tojiโ€” how you'll always come second. and what if they moved?? there's no reason they'd still be here right?
forget this, you don't need to do this. why must you still be the one who put effort? to reach out? four long years passed and still no news means they clearly moved on... right?
you were convinced enough and was about to go back when you saw little megumi carrying a backpack on his back, seemingly coming home from school.
your feet wouldn't move and your eyes wouldn't blink. he grew up so well.
the world pauses as your gaze follows the kid you used to consider your own, now as good as a stranger.
โ€œdo you know that kid?โ€ a voice at your back makes you whip your head around. life really is full of surprises and this time, the surprise was in the form of a tall man, no a tall kid with white hair, looking at you curiously through his round tinted glasses.
โ€œ... no i don'tโ€ well you weren't exactly lying. you don't know the megumi you see now. perhaps if he asked whether you raised him since he was a baby till he was two, then your answer would've been different.
โ€œoh okayโ€ the boy shrugs. โ€œpoor guy thoughโ€
โ€œwhy? whats up with him?โ€ you turn to look at megumi again who was minding his business walking home and your heart aches a little.
โ€œI'm here to recruit him. his dad died you see so he'sโ€“โ€
โ€œwait what was that??โ€
โ€œhis dad. he's deadโ€ the amused boy in front of you chuckles and you stare at him, horrified.
โ€œwhat happened to him?โ€ your voice was shaky and doesn't sound like your own. he leans down to meet your eye level and smirks โ€œwhy? i thought you don't know that kid. why does that matter to you?โ€
your stomach churns as you stare at him, not even knowing what to sayโ€” the smug expression on his face only widens.
โ€œso you do know him.โ€
'know' would be a weak word to use when it comes to toji. you knew of his habits, the simple things he does and also of the more complex ones โ€” like the exact place his scar decorated his lips and how it felt to kiss it.
then again, you don't really know anything about him and maybe you never will.
and maybe that's really, the closure you needed.
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electrotherapy (recent works): one step forward, two steps back (toji), to you, 1000 years from now (sukuna)
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