#some people have been asking me and the answer is Yes my askbox is always open

[mr-payjay]

by the way my requests are Always open! you can literally send things in Whenever and it can be pride themed or not pride themed idc. i do Pick and Choose which asks i answer but feel free to try because i do see them (err i do forget about them sometimes though sorry)

[pedroscurls]

Absolutely no obligation to answer if you aren't taking requests, but could I ask for Hugh x reader? Like Blake and Ryan trying hard to play wingman for them both at an event, only to find out the two have been quietly together/hooking up for a few weeks? Whether it be angsty or fluffy is your choice! 🙂

our little secret (one-shot)

summary: ryan and blake try to set you and hugh up, but little do they know, you've already been secretly seeing each other. pairing: hugh jackman x fem!reader content warnings: smut (18+, mdni) - unprotected p in v (creampie oops, be safe folks), fingering, oral - f receiving, hugh bends you over 🙂‍↕️, no use of y/n. word count: 2.7k a/n: i'm catching up to all the requests that have been sitting in my askbox, so thank you for waiting on this! i know you said it could be angsty or fluffy, but it actually instead became smutty lmao. i had a lot of fun writing this lol - love the sneaking around and eventually getting caught trope 🤭 as always, this is purely fictional! i mean no disrespect to hugh jackman.

The entire night, you and Hugh steal glances from across the room. Either he’s with Ryan or some other group of people that he’s talking to and you’re either with Blake or on the dance floor dancing with her. You can feel the pull you have towards Hugh, yearning to be pulled into his arms but you have to refrain. You have to resist.

No one knows that you’re seeing each other, that you’ve been secretly having a very intimate relationship with him. Neither of you are ready for everyone else to know, so you try to keep your distance. Try not to make it so obvious that you just want him.

“I think you and Hugh should go talk,” Blake grins, nudging you with her arm.

You shrug nonchalantly, doing your best to look uninterested. “I don’t know, Blake.”

“Just one conversation,” she says. “You never know what can happen.”

Oh, you know exactly what would happen. If you and Hugh get a chance to speak tonight, you know that you wouldn’t be able to hide this secret any longer. Especially since the entire time so far, you’ve been trying to think of ways to sneak away from Blake and see Hugh. It’s such a busy event, such a huge party that even if you did try to sneak away with Hugh, someone would see the both of you.

And neither of you need that right now.

“If we somehow get to talking, then sure. Right now, I’m just focused on me.”

Blake narrows her eyes. “I can bring him over here and–”

“Blake,” you interrupt. “Seriously, I’m okay.”

Blake sighs. “Fine, okay. But if he comes up to you on his own, you’ll at least talk to him?”

“Sure. Would be rude of me to just leave if he tries to have a conversation with me,” you point out.

“Ryan and I just think you’d be so good together,” she replies.

“You think I’d be good with anyone,” you laugh.

“That’s because anyone would be lucky to have you.”

“Aw, Blake… It’s a bit early for all these compliments, don’t you think?” you tease.

Blake rolls her eyes. “You’re right. I usually need a couple of more drinks before I get to that point.”

“Okay, ha ha. Can we go back out there and dance?”

“Yes, baby, let’s go.” She takes your hand and leads you to the dancefloor, glancing over her shoulder to see Ryan and Hugh staring at the both of you.

—

“So…” Ryan smirks, watching the way Hugh’s eyes linger on your frame. “You obviously think she’s–”

“No,” he interrupts, pulling his eyes away from you. When Hugh saw you for the first time that night, he had realized just how difficult it would be to keep things a secret. You look so beautiful, the dress clinging to every curve, and he wanted nothing more than to just take you away from this party so that he could have you to himself.

But Hugh tries to remember the conversation you had with him. This has to be a secret for a little while longer, just to see if this is more than just physical attraction. Hugh agreed, but the more time he spent with you, the more he wanted to get to know you. The sex was amazing, but the conversations you had with each other afterwards were just as great.

“Oh come on!” Ryan chuckles. “You should at least talk to her.”

“Not interested,” Hugh lies. “Besides, I already talked to her at your dinner party. She’s nice, sweet, but that’s all it is.”

Ryan arches a brow. “Seemed like you two hit it off that night.”

“Just being polite,” Hugh replies.

“Well, I think you should go and talk to her. See what can happen.”

“Ryan, no.” His eyes deviate to you and he tries to keep his eyes above your shoulder, but he can’t help but let his eyes take in your frame, your hips swaying effortlessly to the rhythm of the song. Clearing his throat, Hugh shakes his head and instead turns his back to the dancefloor.

“Let me be your wingman, Hugh,” he says excitedly. “All we gotta do is walk over there, dance a bit, and then–”

“I’m gonna get some fresh air.” Hugh interjects with a sigh. He knows if he stands here another minute that he’s going to break and he’s going to give in to Ryan because he wants you so badly. Even as he’s walking away from Ryan, he turns to look over his shoulder to see your eyes glued onto him. He gives you a subtle nod and steps outside, glancing around to see that no one but him is there.

With a sigh, he runs a hand over his face and lets out a sigh. Hugh likes you a lot and he’s become tired of keeping this, keeping you a secret. His mind begins to drift when he feels a gentle hand on his back and he turns to look down at you, a smile immediately lining his lips.

“Hey there, stranger,” you say quietly.

Even under the moonlight, you look so beautiful. Hugh reaches out for your hand, yearning to pull you into him and give you a kiss. “You’re really killing me with that dress you got on.”

“You like?” you smile, twirling in front of him.

“Oh, I love it,” Hugh winks. “Would look better if it was on the floor.”

“Oh, you’re naughty tonight.” you let out a quiet giggle. “What would you do if I told you I wasn’t wearing any panties?”

Hugh’s eyes widen and his gaze darkens. “Are you?”

You shake your head slowly. “Nope.”

“And you’re calling me the naughty one,” Hugh whispers, taking a step closer to you as his other hand moves to your hip, bunching up your dress in a tight fist. “Ryan’s been trying to get me to talk to you.”

“Oh?” you ask quietly, hand moving up to rest on his chest. “Blake’s been doing the same. I think they’re trying to play matchmaker.”

“They don’t know we’ve been seeing each other for the last few weeks,” Hugh chuckles, eyes drifting to your lips. “But seeing you tonight… It’s been really difficult to keep this a secret.”

“I know,” you sigh. “I see how the other women are looking at you tonight and I can’t blame them.”

“Not looking at them though.”

“But if you want to, you know you can… We aren’t really exclusive and–”

“I want to be,” Hugh interrupts. “I know we’re still testing out the waters, seeing if this is only physical, but I like you.”

“You know, I didn’t expect to have this conversation tonight…” you say quietly.

“Am I misreading this?” Hugh sighs, pulling away from you but you pull him back to you.

“No, I like you too. I just didn’t–” you bite your lower lip. “I just didn’t want to scare you away if I told you that I want this. That I want you. Only you.”

Hugh tries to hide the smile from appearing on his lips. He looks into your eyes and tucks a strand of hair behind your ear. “You like me, huh?”

“I do…”

Hugh then steps closer, wrapping an arm around your waist to pull you flush against him. “Good because I’m gonna kiss you now.”

Your hand moves up to gently grip the lapel of his jacket. “Please,” you whisper. “I’ve been wanting to kiss you all night and–”

Hugh leans down and presses his lips against yours, hand gripping your hip. He wastes no time in moving his lips with yours, hand slowly dipping lower and lower to your backside. You gasp against his lips, reaching behind you to grab his wrist.

“Mmm, not yet,” you whisper, pulling away slowly.

Hugh’s about to lean in to give you another kiss when you both hear Blake and Ryan’s voices.

“I fucking knew it!” Ryan quips, finger pointing in your direction.

“And here we were, trying to get you two together!” Blake laughs.

You lean against Hugh whose arm still remains wrapped around you. “Surprise?”

Blake rolls her eyes playfully and walks up to you, pulling you into a hug. “Surprise indeed.”

Ryan grins, clapping a hand on Hugh’s shoulder. “So, how long?”

“Since the night of your dinner party,” Hugh chuckles.

“You fucker,” Ryan laughs.

“We wanted to keep it a secret,” you say quietly, reaching out for Hugh’s hand. “But–”

“I like her a lot,” Hugh interrupts, lacing his hand with yours. “Didn’t want to hide this anymore.”

“We’re so happy for the both of you,” Blake smiles.

“Thanks, Blake.”

“Now, if you’ll excuse us, I owe my girl a dance,” Hugh winks. He leads you back inside of the party and wraps an arm around your waist, leaning in to kiss your cheek.

Blake and Ryan join the both of you and once on the dance floor, Hugh turns you around in his arms, hands moving to rest on your hips as your bodies begin to sway to the music. It’s dark and the music is blaring, but your sole focus is on Hugh who’s staring directly back at you.

He runs his hands along your sides and back down to your hips, bringing you flush against his front as you feel the length of manhood hardening beneath his pants. You bite your lower lip, arms coming up to snake around his shoulders and link at the base of his neck.

Hugh dips his head lower, capturing your lips in a slow kiss. He moves a hand to your lower back as the crowd of people surrounding the both of you fades into the background. He gently nips at your lower lip, hearing you quietly whimper. His lips move from your own to your jawline, coming up to gently nibble on your ear as he whispers huskily.

“I need you bad, baby.”

“But the party–”

“How about we leave early?” Hugh runs his hand up your back and down to rest above your backside.

“What about Blake and Ryan?”

Hugh looks over at the other couple who look to be in their own little world and he chuckles, turning his attention back to you. “I don’t think they’d mind one bit if we leave.”

You bite your lower lip and then nod, leaning up to peck his lips. “Take me home then, Hugh.”

“Yes,” he groans lowly. “I’ve been wanting to take you home the moment I saw you tonight. Let’s go.”

—

You don’t make it far once you and Hugh enter his place. He’s on you like a starved animal, hands running along your frame, lips lightly attacking your neck and shoulder. You can feel his length pressing into you from behind as he shrugs off his blazer.

“You make me crazy, baby,” Hugh growls, gently grazing the skin at your neck with his teeth. “Like a fucking teenager all over again.”

“Hugh, baby,” you whimper. “Wait, we should go upstairs and–”

“No,” he groans against you. “Right here.” Hugh bends you over the back of his large couch, immediately lifting the ends of your dress to your hips, giving him a clear view of your backside and your glistening slit. “You weren’t lying… no panties.”

“Have I ever lied to you?” You ask, looking over your shoulder at him.

Hugh glances up at you briefly before he drops to his knees in front of you. His large hands come up to spread your cheeks apart as he licks a strip along your sex, groaning against you.

“Hugh!” You exclaim, hand reaching back to curl into his hair.

“Mmm,” Hugh pulls back and looks at your sex, gaze darkening at the sight of you glistening for him. “Gonna have my taste now, baby.”

Before you could even answer, Hugh leans in and buries his face between your legs. He doesn’t bother to slow down, groaning against your sex as you feel his tongue in your most sensitive areas. You’re close, knowing that you aren’t going to last that long with the way Hugh’s going.

He pulls back momentarily, chin glistening with your arousal as he immediately slides two fingers into your tight heat. Hugh then leans back in and sucks your clit in time with pumping his fingers in and out of you and you’re so wet that the sounds mix in with your loud moans. It’s so lewd and obscene and it only spurs him on even further.

Your grip in his hair tightens as you feel your walls begin to tremble. When you feel a tightness begin to build in the pit of your stomach, you grip his hair even tighter, holding him firmly against you. Your eyes clamp shut as Hugh continues his assault on you, urging you through your orgasm.

Hugh then pulls back and stands up between your legs, his hands coming to undo his belt and zipper of his pants. His fingers are wet with your slick and he lifts to his mouth and sucks on it as his eyes stare directly at your throbbing heat.

Once he pulls his manhood out, he gives it a few strokes before notching his tip at your entrance. He feels you flinch at the sudden touch, smirking to himself.

“Hugh, wait. I need a minute.” You tell him, trying to turn around but Hugh keeps you firmly bent over the couch.

“Ah baby, you can handle it.” He grins, running his tip along the length of your sex, catching your hole repeatedly.

“Hugh,” you plead, reaching back for him but he just grabs your wrists and places them firmly against your lower back. With his free hand, he slowly slides into your tight heat, the slickness of your arousal immediately coating his length with each thrust forward.

He releases his hold on manhood and instead moves to place it on the couch, gripping it tightly. Hugh fills you to the brim, groaning to himself at the feeling of your walls wrapped tightly around him.

“See, told you,” he grins, pulling his hips back. Hugh pulls out to his tip, glancing down to see his length slick with your wetness. Then, he slowly slides back in and grips the couch even tighter, not wanting to leave any bruises on your wrists that remain firm in his grasp.

“Fuck!” You moan aloud. Your walls are already so sensitive and you know that you won’t last long with the way Hugh’s picking up his pace.

“God, you look good like this,” Hugh groans, thrusts moving faster as he repeatedly slams into you. You feel every inch, every throbbing vein and when he firmly slams into you, you move your ass back against him and feel the hair at his base provide the perfect friction against your clit.

He pulls back only enough to see you slide back into him, watching your ass shake and jiggle as you use him to reach yet another orgasm. Hugh knows that he’s getting closer, knows that he’s about to come but he tries to hold off because the sight of you using him like this for your own pleasure just turns him on even more.

“Baby,” Hugh groans. “I’m gonna come and I–”

“Inside,” you whimper.

Hugh feels a sudden rush overcome him at your confirmation and he releases his hold on your wrists to place both hands on your hips. He groans and begins to thrust back into you, his skin slapping loudly against yours as he chases his own release.

“Hugh, baby,” you moan, moving your own hands to rest over his as pleasure washes over you. Your body feels limp, feels like you can just fall asleep bent over this couch, but Hugh’s sharp thrusts work you through your own orgasm.

After a couple of thrusts, Hugh’s hips begin to stutter and you feel his warmth begin to fill you up. His grip on your hips tighten almost painfully as he empties himself into you, every last fucking drop.

When he pulls out, Hugh can’t help the sight of his release slowly begin to trickle out of you and down the inside of your leg. He smiles to himself, gently loosening his hold on you as he turns you around to face him.

“I don’t think I can walk upstairs,” you tease.

Hugh smirks proudly. “Good, because I don’t think I’m done with you yet, baby.”

—-

forever taglist: @haytchee @wolverigrl

[vee-goggles]

I have been working on this project for a week now, here are some screenshots of the game. Details below.

Also, I'm trying to find a suitable name for the game, if you have any suggestions please let me know!

My current plan for the game is to make it a friendship simulation that is played through events rather than linearly. Each character will have their own favorability progress and events.

It will take a long time to complete the game. As I mentioned before: the game programming, painting, and story are all done by me.

Some questions：

[ 1 ] : Why are the figures so poorly drawn and why is there no background?

The story and the painting are in progress at the same time. The characters and backgrounds you see are placeholders I used to quickly show the effect in the story. This makes it easier for me to advance the script.

[ 2 ] : Why are these screenshots so different from the visuals?

In the future, these UIs will be changed again, but I think the current general style looks neat and easy to read. Of course, you can always give me better suggestions.

[ 3 ] : Will the final release be in English?

Yes, I will be looking for a translator when the whole game is finished. English will definitely be available as a option in the final release.

[ 4 ] : Is this game related to another TF2 dating simulation game that is in production?

No, After I started making it, I just found out there was another project in the process. There is no relationship between the two.

[ 5 ] : Will you open partron or ko-fi for support?

No, absolutely not. At least not during the development of the game. I'm very excited to make this game, and I don't want to feel pressured by it. I made this game purely out of love for TF2 and I have 100% control over it. You can support this game by making suggestions for story scripts, which is why I publish the progress online.

Questions from askbox:

[ 1 ] :

Creating a route for each of the nine people is already a huge project. Sorry, but there won’t be multiple endings per merc.

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(I'm sure there are a lot of questions I've missed. You can always come to my askbox to ask me more questions about the game (anon is on). I will answer them every time I release the development progress.)

Anyone with suggestions for art, story or gameplay is welcome. I'd love to hear anything.

The above text is translated by Google Translate. If there is any inappropriate remarks, please contact me.

[patricia-taxxon]

Endogenic systems as a whole are, legitimately, not harming anyone. They aren’t taking resources from anyone. I once made a pretty big post about how being anti-endo also often devolves into racism (it was ostensibly a large post about how White People really like to shit on endo systems and it almost always develops into a like of thinking that is horrifically racist against cultures such as mine where plurality isn’t always medicalized but a tumblr askbox isn’t the place to copy paste it and also I get enough death threats from white anti-endos that I am perfectly happy to remain anonymous)

I am/was a huge fan of your content, but the fact of the matter is you’re (to my knowledge) undiagnosed with a condition that is both unprovable as of right now even for medical professionals and with a condition that many (most) medical professionals outright do not think exist, to the average person and even the average psych, my culturally accepted endogenic plurality and your medical plurality are equally fake, and the fact that you immediately jumped on the ‘yes there are reasons for us to be mad at endogenic systems’ is disappointing but frankly not surprising given how common it seems to be for (especially white) traumagenic systems to think they need to prove something by being ‘the more valid system’ or immediately turning and snapping at people with similar but different experiences.

Do some endo systems suck? Yes. That’s people for you. Some traumagenic systems suck too, I’ve been sent some of the craziest, vilest, most racist asks, threats, and death threats in the world by traumagenic systems but it has never once stopped me from empathizing with and advocating for them, but it does say a lot to me when someone on the other end of the spectrum decides that since endo systems don’t have the exact same experiences as them that we’re dirty and lesser and most be fake claimed immediately.

My feelings do not matter to you, I am an anonymous stranger on the internet, I have a cynical idea in my head as to how this ask is going to be answered, but I feel the need to send it anyway as a plea to please not fall into the syscourse hole like this, I don’t have a parasocial thing going on but I’ve always enjoyed how you seemed to want so badly for people to be their weird authentic selves, and the suddenly starting to veer into this particular side of the discourse is surprising to me — it shouldn’t be, you’re a stranger and I expect most strangers to be this way towards most systems.

I suppose if it even matters I should also point out that a big issue with attacking/fakeclaiming/looking down on endo systems is that a good handful of endo systems are in fact traumagenic systems; they shouldn’t have to be for people to respect the lives of others around them, and saying this always feels to me the same way I feel telling white people ‘you should care about brown people that aren’t your friends too’, but many traumagenic systems who have the very very common memory loss that comes with DID and OSDD often do not remember their trauma and ergo go ‘I suppose I’m endogenic!’

I’m not expecting this ask to be particularly mind changing, I don’t think anyone has ever changed or formed a new opinion or added complexity to their opinion after getting an anonymous tumblr ask, but I am hoping that if you do end up being anti-endo that you can at least do the research and talk to the people necessary to not slide into the abject racism that every single other anti-endo I have ever known has. Because it’s less of a slippery slope and more of a cliff.

To be clear for anyone else because sometimes people think I’m saying this means white people can’t be endo plural; I think white endogenic systems are also perfectly real, but as an indigenous person from a nation where being plural is especially ‘normal’ I am allowed personally to be default wary of white syscoursers/assume white people have internalized racism by default without centering white voices endo or traumagenic.

Oh, so it's proshippers and antis. There's no arguments, just take one take all clusters of beliefs that are foisted onto people as soon as they express something that can somehow be construed to be in line with one label or the other. Thanks.

[ink-and-dagger]

Hiii! I want to start by saying that I love your writing and I have re-read Drink With Me roughly 3 times now and it never gets old. However, with me rereading I can’t help but wonder about some silly hypotheticals regarding the story. So…if you don’t mind me asking, could you enlighten me😩🙏🏾😩🙏🏾😩:

1.) How would Silco and Reader (Astrid’s) mother interact? Do you think she would be scared of him? Or would she have him by the hypothetical balls?

1.5) Also branching off of the previous question: what would be the Readers, mother’s reaction to them getting back together?

2.) Could you see Silco and Reader (Astrid) getting married?

3.) Has Reader (Astrid) moved in with Silco by this point or does she just stay with him off and on?

4.) Since the Marcus fiasco, what would the interactions between Silco, Marcus, and Reader (Astrid) be like? Would there be tension or would Silco and Astrid rub it in his face? Perhaps some threats from Silco?🤔🤔🤔

5.) What would Reader (Astrid) and Silco’s relationship look like to an outsider? This question, I’m asking because two of my favorite chapters post Drink with Me are VIP Booth and Shag Rug. And both are instances where there are other people around or nearby when Astrid is dragged off by Silco😅😂. So I just wonder what the average bystanders would think, considering their relationship is private.

I hope this wasn’t too much. I just finally noticed that the link on AO3 was to your tumblr and I wanted to show some love.

P.S. if this is too much, feel free to disregard!

Thank you so much sweet anon! I'm so glad you enjoyed it enough to reread 3 times sob sob <3 <3 <3 Apologies for taking a hot minute, but here are some answers for you...

1.) How would Silco and Astrid’s mother interact? And what would be her mother’s reaction to them getting back together?

This is probably the number 1 top question/request I always get in my askbox lmfao. Silco has little to no interest in ever meeting Astrid's mother, and Astrid is cool with that too. However, if they ever did meet, mother dearest would certainly not have Silco by the balls. Her initial reaction to meeting him would be fear. After that, it would go either one of 2 ways depending on what mood Silco was in that day. He'd either stoke that fear. Or he'd charm her, and have her referring to him as the son she never had within roughly 10 minutes. I'd say the former is most likely, the latter would only be in order to lure her into a false sense of security before petrifying her with a benignly worded threat at a later date.

As to how she'd react to them getting back together post DWM - she'd disapprove (naturally), and would give Astrid a lovely long lecture about how stupid she is to make the same mistake twice and how Astrid's selfish decision is going to impact her [mother's] life.

2.) Could you see Silco and Astrid getting married?

Yes and no.

My headcanon is that marriage isn't hugely common in Zaunite culture because there's no pressure to prove the legitimacy of relationships (familial, romantic or otherwise). In Piltover, families are tied through blood and matrimony. In the Undercity, they're forged in fire. Genetics are inconsequential in Zaun - if you're kin, you're kin, regardless of the blood in your veins, and that's something that Topsiders by nature will never be able to comprehend. In Piltover, a couple who have been together for 2 years and married for 1 would be taken far more seriously and given more rights than a couple who have been living together for 10 years but aren't married. It's all about societal appearances and expectations up there. But in Zaun, none of that matters. Siblings born in hardship are no less than siblings born in blood. Love and loyalty down in the depths isn't defined by anything so tangible.

I'm not saying that people don't get married in Zaun - I'm certain they do - I'm just saying that it isn't such a thing as it is in Piltover or other similarly built societies. There's no expectation for a couple to get married after being together for a certain amount of time, and there's no judgement if they don't.

The reason Astrid's mother is so caught up with the idea is hard for me to put into a few words. She's resentful of her lot in life; a part of her feels she deserves to be wallowing in the Undercity, and another part of her is envious of those who aren't. She places Piltover on this weird pedestal of admiration. She's the type of working class woman who moans about how shitty her life is at the same time as having a framed picture of the monarch on her living room wall.

3.) Has Astrid moved in with Silco by this point?

Soz babe, I'm sitting on this answer a while longer :)

4.) Since the Marcus fiasco, what would the interactions between Silco, Marcus, and Astrid be like?

Tense.

Pretty much immediately after the epilogue in DWM, Astrid and Silco would have spent the morning in bed talking a lot of things out. Including Marcus. Silco no longer holds the past against Astrid, and they are both committed to moving forward together. Despite this, Marcus does remain somewhat of a sore spot in their relationship. Not actively per se, but Astrid avoids mentioning him at all costs, and tends to stay well out of the way whenever the Sheriff comes for a meeting. At the start of their relationship, she also made sure to stay away the night after any meeting too, to give Silco space as his mood post-Marcus meetings tended to be a little unpredictable. But as time passed and her relationship with Silco became more solid, the intensity of this 'sore spot' became less and less. Astrid still avoids mentioning Marcus, and stays well clear of him whenever he visits, but it isn't so awkward as it was at the start of her relationship with Silco now. That being said - the three of them haven't occupied the same room since that one fateful meeting in Chapter 14...

5.) What does Astrid and Silco’s relationship look like to an outsider?

That depends. By this point pretty much the entirety of Silco's staff knows about them in an unofficial capacity. They just pretend not to know. Let's face it - Silco and Astrid aren't as subtle as they think, and their chemistry is evident to anyone with eyes and half a brain. The only people who know about them 'officially' are Jinx, Sevika, Jasper, Max, Astrid's Mum, and Ran (Ran was an unfortunate accident - they walked in whilst S&A were sharing an intimate moment. They swore to secrecy and it's never been mentioned again).

There may be a few regulars in The Last Drop that suspect something is going on between Silco and the cute bartender - but most would likely assume it's a purely physical arrangement. Those who don't frequent the Drop as often and happen to see Silco pulling Astrid off somewhere private would most likely avert their eyes and think poor girl...

[leopardom]

I'd really like to sit in a corner and see what happens whenever you realise your gifs get burried under other posts or users skip them without giving them the attention you may think they deserve. They're not even that good tbh xx

i didn't want to answer to any more asks of this nature but there were two of them (which i've deleted) + this one sitting in my askbox since last night and i'll answer only this because it's bothering me a bit

god fucking dammit what have i done to you (except for apparently annoying you) that you feel the need to write this? is it really that deep or worth it? besides me giving attention to all this hatemail that it urges you to send more(answering is my fault yes, i could just ignore it), what's so criminal about my online activity that you feel the need to try and bully me out of a website that i've been using for half of my life?

anyway to answer some questions you're probably trying to put out there:

do i put a good amount of time and effort on making gifs that i expect people to at least see? yes

is it normal for people to just skip content on their feeds or not like it? also yes

are my gifs actually good? maybe yes, maybe no, everyone has and can always have their own opinion

does it feel good when a creator sees their work flop? no

but these things can coexist and always have coexisted and you know what? at the end of the day it's not that important. personally i make gifs because i always liked them and now that i know how to make them myself whenever i get excited over a video i will try to gif something out of it. some people may vibe with them, some others not, and that's more than okay

however, this is not tiktok and i'm no influencer so my life depends on the likes and reposts of my content. my life depends more on my very much real job (which is teaching music if you're wondering) than on something that i do for fun online. it also depends on the interactions i have with the people around me both irl and online. thankfully joblr has been very welcoming, and even if i sometimes have my own inhibitions about how people perceive me, this community is very friendly and i'm having a great time interacting with its people or even by simply reading everyone's rambles on posts or in the hashtags

speaking of rambles, i've probably rambled a bit too much with this but even so, i hope you have good reading comprehension and understand what i've written. i don't care what you'll think about this or if you're gonna give me a clapback, i care more about how today i taught one of my students how to sing in tune and about a painting she did for me

have you done something actually valuable instead of being chronically online and sending anon hate to a person you don't know? (genuinely hope you don't do this to other people too)

[stabbyfoxandrew]

I like to collect my questions, so I don't spam your askbox every time a random thought pops into my head. Instead, I just do one big spam because apparently I collected way more questions than I expected, ups. The Angel Neil AU is just so cute, I want to grab its (metaphorical) cheeks and squeeze them. It's also sad, and funny, and interesting, and you balance it all in such a nice way. I've also always had a thing for otherworldly beings, so it just all adds to my obsession for this perfect creation. Anyway, here it goes.

Can angels be re-assigned if they don't like their protectee? Like, if they really really hate them. Does Neil ever get cold? Can he just manifest an outfit, or does he have to physically change (could he manifest the angel outfit that Andrew has been daydreaming about hehe)? Can he teleport? For example, if Andrew was in danger and he was far away (i.e. on a roof), would he have to physically walk/fly there? Can he phase through walls? Can Neil see other guardian angels around, or would they also have to "turn off" their invisibility? Does he always have to be within a specific radius of Andrew? How far high has he flown? Does he have to breathe? Has he touched the clouds? Have Aaron, Nicky, and Kevin all talked amongst themselves about Andrew's absences? Or has each one just noticed separately? Has Kevin noticed? If so, what does he think of it? Speaking of Kevin, how is he feeling lately? I hope Kevin has a guardian angel somewhere too, the poor guy deserves it.

I hope it wasn't too much, it was more than I remembered having :') ily too, how is your week going?

Aw hon, you can spam me anytime. But I totally understand saving up questions. Either is fine. <3 By the way, I’m really sorry it’s taken me so long to get around to answering. I literally said to send me questions and then didn’t answer for two weeks. TwT I’m so sorry. orz

Ahh. Thank you for all the compliments! <3 I also have always loved the supernatural. Werewolves, vampires, demons, angels. They’re all such fun creatures to read/write about. :D 

Answers for your questions under the cut because this is almost 900 words and I don't want to block everyone's dashes because most people probably don't care.

Yes, I think that angels could be reassigned! If absolutely necessary. Because imagine changing your charge and the new one is worse! And you’re stuck with this shittier one till it dies? And if you let it die on purpose, you lose your job and stop existing? Like… D: Yikes either way.

But, most angels don’t talk to their charges. They watch from overhead and intervene when they need to. During down time, most angels generally just hang out with other angels. But… Neil doesn’t know that. And even if he did, he’d rather be with Andrew than some random winged bitch. You know?

Neil can and does get cold/hot!

Neil is still wearing the outfit he died in. He could probably use his Angel Powers to create different clothes, but he doesn’t know how. And besides, these clothes are fine. (Me: You died in them, Neil. / Neil: But they’re comfortable.) But yeah! If he really wanted to, nothing is stopping Neil from popping into the mall and stealing some clothes. Like…  he’s stolen before. And he’s invisible now. It would be so easy. He just doesn’t care to.

If Neil asked, Andrew would buy him more clothes and bring them up to the roof. But as we know Neil has a hard time asking for anything. So he won’t. 

Yes. Neil can just PING to Andrew. (Mild spoiler for a much later part of the fic so skip to the next paragraph if you want to avoid! Before they met, Neil wasn’t a great guardian angel. He thought of being an angel as his second chance at life and wandered around doing whatever he wanted. Until he first felt that pull and realized Andrew needed him. And he popped right to him.)

Neil generally just follows Andrew however his human is traveling. If Andrew is walking to class, Neil walks beside him. If Andrew is in a car or on the team bus, Neil sits on top of the vehicle. He’s thought about taking a free seat in the bus, but he’s afraid he’ll accidentally Become Visible and freak Andrew out. So he hasn’t done it yet.

I hadn’t really thought about it, but why not? :) He can be invisible, he should get other Ghost Qualities. So, sure. He can walk through walls, disappear, and fly! (Sorry for the Danny Phantom reference. But not really.)

Neil hasn’t seen any other angels around. He will eventually! (I’m not sure if they’re purposely hiding from him or not.)

He doesn't have to be in a specific radius of Andrew. There's no limit to how far away he can be and he tested it a lot when he was first given to Andrew.

He enjoys flying, but he never strays too far. At least, not since that first Incident. Sometimes when he’s bored out of his mind, he’ll go up, up, up and glide back down until he gets tired of that. But it stretches his wings and he can see all sorts of things from so high up. :) 

Neil does breathe. He probably doesn't have to have to, but it's a habit carried over from his human life so he still does.

He probably flew through some clouds early on. I imagine learning to fly on your own would be difficult, so controlling the Come Down Aspect would’ve been challenging for him.

Oh yeah, I think they’ve all definitely noticed. And Aaron keeps asking the others about it, but they of course have no idea where Andrew’s been going so they just shrug. Kevin also hates that Andrew keeps disappearing, because hello. This man is supposed to be his partner now, at his side and keeping him safe/sane. But he knows that all he has to do is call Andrew and he’ll come back. So he’s not that worried. Nicky thinks Andrew has met someone, either a girlfriend or a friend group, and he’s happy for him. 

Kevin is feeling alright lately. His hand is getting better by the day and the team is… Well, it’s not getting Worse. So he can’t complain too much. Also, he does have a guardian angel. :) 

Oh my god, you’re absolutely fine! <33 Like I said, I want to talk about my fics. I want to answer your questions! It’s fun. And it helps me, you know? Like, I hadn’t really thought about the Nicky/Kevin/Aaron situation before. (Sometimes I forget there are other characters in this fic because it’s usually just Andrew and his angel.) But your question made me think about it. And now I have a new idea for later! :) So thanks. <33 

Also, the past two weeks have been… A blur? Like always. :’) I don’t really know. I mean, I’ve been trying to write more and working on the kevjean vampire thing. And also I’ve been playing a lot of Webkinz, one of my favorite childhood pastimes. So… Yeah. :) I hope you’re doing good! I love you. <333 Thanks for the questions and the patience. <333 

[opinated-user]

I really can’t believe that I never noticed just how often Lily likes to act like she’s somehow FORCED to answer anon asks that she doesn’t want to or make her look bad. It’s such a manipulative, scummy thing for her to do. She has absolutely no filter for herself, CHOOSES to put up all sorts of terrible/very incriminating things on her Tumblr and up for her Patreon Video votes, and than acts fucking shocked when many other people have a fucking problem with them! Lily is in complete control of what she says/puts up for voting on her Tumblr Blog and Patreon, but wants none of the ACCOUNTABILITY that comes along with that control. It’s such an extremely self-absorbed, egotistical mindset for somebody to have, and even worse that LO has purposefully geared her content towards attracting the most vulnerable people possible. The exact fucking OPPOSITE of the type of people who somebody (like LILY) should be this fucking reckless and uncaring around!!

it reminds me to her "i didn't say that sugar was a nazi sympathizer, but if you got to that conclusion with the skewed and twisted version of this story that i gave you i wouldn't blame you either". she wants to be able to say those words, to do those things, but she doesn't want to be responsible for it so it has to be someone else fault, never hers. which also makes her look just like a child, defenseless and with no agency at all. not really the best of looks for a woman who is past 30 already.

this is the amount of messages i have sitting on my askbox right as we speak. many of them are things i want to keep there, some of them are asks i missed because i was busy with life and now are outdated and some of them talk about stuff i prefer not to publish at all. (yes, i know, one day i should cleaned it up, but that's not the point now) i have absolute control for what happens on my blog. every post, every word, anything that happens on it is always my entire responsibility. nobody can force me to answer an ask i don't want or talk about something i don't want. that's not possible. i'm in fact an adult and can handle my own tumblr blog without infantilizing myself to avoid accountability. so when LO tries to pull the act "i can't help it if my audience wants to talk about incest and give me their incest stories in which they had relationships with their siblings (it's always siblings, how topical!*), but it's okay somehow and i never react negatively to the incest!", i look at that number of asks and know that she's full of it. worse, she's so trusting on her audience being absolute devoid of critical thinking that she thinks they'll believe instantly that she is, in fact, just a innocent little kid who has no choice but to answer every incest ask that she gets. she just can't help it. the anons force her hand every time, don't you feel sorry for her? well, no, i don't.

*watch it change into cousins or something else the moment i publish this. i know you have been reading, LO, hi.

[missamyrisa2]

1,000 followers~<33

Soo~ I've just hit that milestone and I'm floored. Floored like I've just been tackled with tickles by hundreds of loving wriggly fingers, who hover over my body because they've just tackled me with pokes and started stripping away my clothes and are now taunting me into a squirming giggling mess ~

Let me back up. Some of you know, this is my third tumblr. I lost the first when someone I trusted deleted it. The second is still sort of there but it was shadowbanned into dust after the adult content purge. I crossed the thousand follower mark on both, but this tumblr is different.

On my first two blogs I built up a following by creating gifs from tickle and other kinky videos. The teases were something I did in between, but those gif posts were always the posts that had hundreds and even thousands of notes.

This time around I wanted to avoid getting flagged and I wanted to do what I loved most ~ the writing and giving tickles to anyone who wanted them. I'm absolutely fine with people making money from their craft and I love to support people that way too, but for me I always want to give it away because everyone who loves tickles deserves tickles ~ I may not be able to start my dream house of giggles yet but this is the next closest thing where anyone can come in and partake or just read and enjoy~<3

If I ever get around to improving my drawing ability, I'll do those for free too~!

So~ I'm completely amazed and floored and my heart is filled with giggly tingles that I've made it to a thousand followers from my text-based tickle teases. Like it's overwhelming in all the best ways to open my askbox and see the massive line of cuties wanting tickles<33

And even more overwhelming for those of you who are keen to tease me into bits ~ eeee yes I'm going to answer ~those~ asks soon too, but please understand that you melted me into madness when I first read them~

You are all so amazing, so beautiful, just gorgeously sweet and I'm absolutely overjoyed to share this love of tickling every day. I have something special I was planning for this milestone, but I will post it separately soon. Love you alll~<3

[themanirealityshifter]

i can shoot the ask back at you??? cause i want to know about you, too. i don't know if you have answered a similar ask before or not 🥹

List 5 things that make you happy, then send this to the askbox of the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers 🦄

ps: i hope you're hydrated. if not, it's your reminder to drink some water and have some cookies 🍪

yes of course you can!! 🤍

and let’s see…

1.) animals

2.) wings of fire

3.) learning about different communities

4.) reading

5.) and food (i love food sm, even if i have a hard time with it sometimes)

i’ve been trying to stay hydrated, but it’s always hard for me (since i just have so much trouble identifying and feeling hunger and thirst and etc.), but i try my best!!! and thank you for the cookies!! you best stay hydrated and get a snack too!!! ☺️🤍

[elvisabutler]

do you have any more plans for professor presley and belle?

so. yes and no. that sounds like a cagey answer but it's honestly the truth. and let me just explain under the cut because this is a long one, anon.

my thing with professor presley and belle has always been i had like the main story and the epilogue laid out and beyond that it has truly depended on people requesting what they wanted to see. half because i like interaction and crave it to a certain degree ( trust me my askbox is a wasteland of silence and old messages that i keep in there so it's not empty ) and half because once their main drama— the massive miscommunications that started their relationships— was gone what was mostly left was fluff and normal life things, i suppose. like in the back of my mind do i have a vision on how they both entered each other's radar and on how belle goes on with life post elvis's death ( it happens in the 90s, maybe early 00s, if you're curious ), yeah. do i think anyone wants to read it? not necessarily.

which i know, everyone will always tell you to write for yourself, but i am selfish and i want to hear from y'all, i want to know people are reading the fic and enjoying it. when i don't get that— well, it's a bummer. it's a bummer and selfishly has me pivoting toward things that seem to interest more people. or pivoting to things that make me feel creatively fulfilled at least in the moment. professor presley and belle's interest started to go down and so i moved to selkie elvis and attempted ( very key word there ) to do some other things like spark and quiet on the set. and even now i've got some things i believe or at least hope everyone will enjoy that will come later. one of which is the sarge second gen fic with jackson that marina has allowed me to write for that presley kid has got me in a chokehold. and not just because i also really love the love of his life too. but i have additional things that just i want to show y'all soon.

but in answer to you anon, i have a fic that's been stewing with regards to belle's graduation that's potentially going to be released once i finally finish all my smut summer stuff. beyond that? honestly, my requests are closed minus the one caveat of if you want to request something from an established series— which professor presley and belle are one— then i'd be willing to take it. so, basically if you want something more from them minus the one fic i have planned, hit me up anon. otherwise, i don't really have a solid plan for them any more.

also i do enjoy that you're asking anon, i had begun to wonder if anyone cared about them any more.

[squiddokiddo]

Greetings!!! I just wanted to say how much I love your art! The way you draw Gordon is my favourite. Your style is amazing and unique and I particularly love the colours you use, they're so colourful, and all the little details you put into it.

Thank you for all the aro & ace positivity too, I've needed to hear it lately.

I really enjoyed the fic you wrote, and if it is something you enjoyed and want to do more of, I would be very happy to hear more adventures of Gords and Squirt.

I like seeing whatever you make, whether its only Gords, or your ocs, or even just stuff that reminded you of them. And ocean stuff, the ocean is awesome. It's all cool, so whatever makes you happy!

I've kinda been lurking around the thunderfam for a while, hi. Your art is comforting and it makes me smile, so here I am to say thank you. Because, yeah, making any sort of art is hard, and you are amazing and deserve to hear it!

I feel like I should have a question, because this is an ask, so: What is your favourite sea creature, aside from Gordy, of course? :)

--AstraNite (I really like cuttlefish, they're neat!)

Hi, thanks so much for dropping me this ask. It was a really sweet surprise, I definitely needed a pick-me-up.💛💛

I'm going to try and address everything you've mentioned, give me a minute lol.

I'm really glad that you like my drawings, I haven't been getting a lot of comments on them atm so I'm really grateful for your feedback. It's interesting that you find my art comforting since a lot of the things I make are for my comfort too. I've said this before but I had a really rough childhood and TAG and Gordon have brought me a lot of comfort during some really tough times.

I'm happy to hear that my drawings are bringing other people comfort too.💛💛

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Ace and aro positivity: yes I'm also aroace and there's nothing but love for fellow aros, aces and aroaces on this blog.

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I'm so happy that you liked my fic, it was my first so I was really nervous and ocs can be very hit or miss but the fandom seems to really like Squirt which makes me so so happy.

I have been trying out more writing but none of it came out anywhere near as good as the first one. I do hope to post more Bigsquid and Squidkid adventures and hopefully expand on their relationship and Squirt's backstory (which is still an ongoing mystery to me) but I'd also like to try making things that aren't OC centered because I know it's not something everyone enjoys lol.

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Ok onto sea creatures, cuttle fish are very interesting, the way that they change colour to camouflage and intimidate other animals. Yeah they're pretty cool.

My favourite sea creature (apart from Gords) uhhhh I like sharks, no particular species, they're all cool. I think sharks have a really bad reputation when they're actually quite chill. They don't tend to attack humans, their eyesight is bad and they often mistake us for seals and other animals that they eat.

As Gordon would say: They're sea puppies.🦈🩵

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Thanks for dropping into my askbox, I hope my answers were ok. If you ever want to chat or anything my pms and inbox are always open.💛💛

[monkeymeghan]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! Get to know your mutuals and followers ❤️

Happiness is elusive, so this is a good exercise for me to think about it. Hmm… 🤔

My family. We’ve always been super close, and I’m so grateful for that. Especially the last few months, we’ve all really been there for each other. I adore being an aunt, it’s my favorite hat to wear.

My furbaby Oscar. My Sweet Boy. I can’t say enough good things about this little guy. He’s such a good boy, and such a sweetheart.

Stargate sg1. The show, the fandom, everything. I’ve made great friends over the years through shared love of this show.

My friends, particularly my pocket friends. I don’t really know many people IRL, but I do have amazing pocket friends, including all of you! I’ve met some incredible people, especially here on tumblr.

Laying in bed, super comfy and cozy. It’s just such a nice, peaceful feeling.

A bonus answer, because I actually thought of a sixth thing when I didn’t think I’d be able to come up with five! Watching baseball with my dad. We watch most of the Yankees games together (yay for the YES Network) and get really into it. It’s something that brings us closer together, and I love that.

Ooh, and a seventh! A really good cup of coffee. Whether it be my regular coffee with French vanilla creamer, or my fancy Starbucks order (triple grande white mocha with 1.5 pumps of white mocha, nonfat milk, whipped cream, and caramel drizzle). All together it’s delicious, but there’s something special about savoring that first sip.

Thank you for this ask. I took time while answering it and it made me grateful for what I have that brings me joy. Most of the time I can’t see it, so it was a pleasant surprise that I could come up with so many things.

[nasuversekinkmeme]

Frequently asked questions

(or questions I imagine might be frequently wondered)

Can I submit a fill for a prompt that has already been filled?

Yes you can! I am sure the original prompter will be delighted to get multiple pieces for their scenario. If a prompt inspires you, go for it.

I have an idea for a fill, but it involves some unusual kinks the original prompter didn't ask for. Is that okay?

If the original prompter is visible, I encourage you to ask them about it directly. If they're on anon, you can always send me an ask, and if they see it I'm sure they'll answer you.

Unfortunately, the nature of tumblr and the anonymous function means there are no easy way to discuss such a thing without going through me, which means you might get no answer. I would say anything goes unless the original prompter specified they didn't want xyz trope. I will trigger tag appropriately either way, so if you happen to hit the prompter's turn-off by accident they will know to look the other way.

Is there a limit to the number of prompts I can send?

There isn't, though I would ask you to try to fill a prompt for every one you send. (Don't send 15 prompts without filling a single one is what I'm saying.)

When will my prompt be filled?

Could be within the hour. Could be never. Unfortunately, there is no guarantee that your prompt will be picked. Such is the nature of kinkmemes. If you really want your prompt to be filled, I encourage you to try your luck on gift exchange fandom events, or to commission someone. (That being said, as someone who has filled prompts that were literally five years old, trust me when I say you should never lose hope.)

I would love to fill a prompt, but I'm afraid the original prompter will be disappointed.

Kinkmemes are for people of all skill levels, to encourage all sorts of crafts. You drew stick figures? Still a fill. You wrote a complete story in a 80 words flashfic? Still a fill. You made a sprite comic for the first time and thought there was much to be improved? Still a fill. Kinkmemes are as much about prompt filling as they are about improving your craft and trying out new things.

I still have some questions!

Then the askbox is still open, my dear fellow!

[eclipsecrowned]

I just wanted to drop in and say that I am very sorry that today was a culmination of bad for you. Sorry this isn't an ic thing and doesn't fit any of the qualifications in your post I just have very little brain today and am not sure how to throw any of my current active muses at any of your cast of characters. I do want to say though that we have been mutuals for a long time and that you are always such a force of nature and passion and I love seeing you and all your iterations on my dash. You are so creative and you give so much dedication and love to all of the iterations of characters that you portray. It inspires me as I'm sure it does others. Please know that you are loved. And yes, hair grows back. And your doggo will be very happy to see you when you get back and I am sure that all will be well. You deserve these days ahead for fun and relaxation and spending time with your loved ones. All my good thoughts go with you and yours on your vacation, lovely.

are you aware of the situation wherein babies will look at a caretaker or a pet or favorite toy and then have to look away repeatedly? apparently it is because they get so overwhelmed with happiness, because they are so new and still learning how to process things, that they need a second to get what we'd probably call baseline again before engaging with whoever or whatever inspired the emotion again. they need a minute to sit with their happiness and sort through it because it is simply too big for their fat little baby bodies and smooth little baby brains.

yeah that's me right now with this ask. i'm feeling a lot of things today and the overwhelming tenderness and kindness in this message is kind of pushing it all out of the way. i keep having to come back to m askbox and reread this and then go make a shitpost to ease my way into answering this. this was such a wonderful message to receive today, and i want to thank you for taking the time to send it. it also gave me some perspective on events today that frankly snowballed and is helping me to keep my head about it all. your support is more appreciated than you know or that i can properly express, frankly.

especially right now. it's gotten dark and it's rough knowing my buddy's spending it back in a kennel sans context. but he's with other dogs he can hopefully chill out with and people who care for him. i'm on my way to be with humans i can hopefully chill out with and care for me. and if nothing else, my baby besties will be there to keep my blood pressure low.

i wish you all the best, anon, today and for the coming week and forever. i hope someone repays you your grace as often as you need it, and even when you don't. i hope i can continue to live up to your goodwill and your investment in not just my writing, but your faith in me.

[aparticularbandit]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! :D

OKAY I HAVE HAD A COUPLE OF THESE IN MY INBOX FOR MONTHS AND I'M GONNA ANSWER YOURS and then also tag @princescar and @selcouthchaos who both sent me this in...june. >.>;;;;;

I'm so bad about answering memes, y'all.

ANYWAY.

God! Who is not a thing. But thinking about God's love for me makes me feel indescribable. For a lot of reasons. But like - I had this realization while I was trying to figure out how to answer this back in June and like. We're God's blorbos. His specialest little guy! You know, like, when you say you'd stand on a hill and die for your fav? God actually did that! Which is like. an oversimplification. Because we're more than that. to God. BUT! He loves me! He loves you! And thinking about that! Makes me happy!

My friends! (And yes, some family members also count as friends. And vice-versa.) Whether that's here on ye olde interwebz or offline, spending time with my friends nearly always helps my mood get better. Especially! When it comes to:

Talking about my interests! With people! Who want to hear about it! Whether that's current fandom interest or beliefs or something I've been writing and brainstorming - like I know that listening to someone ramble can be both annoying and boring, but like. It still makes me happy to talk about all of the things!

Writing. It's a love hate relationship, but it's more love than hate, I love writing, I love being able to use that to process things, I love being able to share what I've written with other people, and just - maybe you'll notice this common thread, but the act of being able to share something I'm passionate about makes me super happy. Writing is a way of sharing things with myself, too! :)

When something good happens to my friends. I like seeing my friends (and, as above, family members can be included, too) happy, and their happiness has a tendency to make me happy, too!

Thanks so much for asking!