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i just said the same thing twice

seeing jupiter up close with my own eyes or cuddling with a very fat middle aged man would fix me

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seeing jupiter up close with my own eyes or cuddling with a very fat middle aged man would fix me

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i know i'm in the clear with this legally, i'm more confident on that than i am with a lot of my music. i just don't know how easy it's gonna be to prove that, and having any amount of pop music synced to its video component is just an automatic block.

it is extremely difficult to keep up motivation to work on editing this melanie martinez video after how badly my test edit of the first chapter got claimed/blocked. i know there's recourse and i can probably dispute the claim enough to let it be shown when its done, even if it isn't monetizable, but its a big question mark. mad.

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i feel really stupid for spending those years on and off writing & recording this script with the assumption that i'd be able to cut to & demonstrate the things i was talking about

it is extremely difficult to keep up motivation to work on editing this melanie martinez video after how badly my test edit of the first chapter got claimed/blocked. i know there's recourse and i can probably dispute the claim enough to let it be shown when its done, even if it isn't monetizable, but its a big question mark. mad.

[patricia-taxxon]

it is extremely difficult to keep up motivation to work on editing this melanie martinez video after how badly my test edit of the first chapter got claimed/blocked. i know there's recourse and i can probably dispute the claim enough to let it be shown when its done, even if it isn't monetizable, but its a big question mark. mad.

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i think this game has been slowly getting less fun over time without me realizing it. they way they chose to escalate the difficulty of these basic mechanics is really headache inducing. also the game isnt finished apparently and its still full of red herrings, im letting it rest

getting every baby bunny in paquerette down the bunburrows seems like the least amount of fun i could possibly have with a video game, i got over 160 by the time i was told this was a goal and apparently i'm not even close

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getting every baby bunny in paquerette down the bunburrows seems like the least amount of fun i could possibly have with a video game, i got over 160 by the time i was told this was a goal and apparently i'm not even close

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reblogging cus people found my progress flag critical post again

im a contrarian, i think the best iteration of the rainbow pride flag is obviously the philadelphia one, with just the black and brown stripes. i'm not huge on the concept of flags for identities but if i was forced at gunpoint to fly a flag at pride it'd be this one, it strikes a balance

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let's call it White ADHD™

now that its been a year, i think it might be time to admit that james somerton had some extremely severe executive dysfunction that went unacknowledged by the drama storm. it probably wasnt literal memory issues that made him forgor what he plagiarized but that almost gravitational pull he had to the path of least resistance is very familiar to me. it's inertia, he evaded backlash once and then his brain just stopped allocating resources to it.

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now that its been a year, i think it might be time to admit that james somerton had some extremely severe executive dysfunction that went unacknowledged by the drama storm. it probably wasnt literal memory issues that made him forgor what he plagiarized but that almost gravitational pull he had to the path of least resistance is very familiar to me. it's inertia, he evaded backlash once and then his brain just stopped allocating resources to it.

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these 2 would smother and groom me so hard

it is so cool that hte solar system has both a daddy and a mommy

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it is so cool that hte solar system has both a daddy and a mommy

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i'm beginning to realize that most of the time there's some kind of blend happening, two or more guys present but only one fully in control, or maybe one trying their best to mask as another one, it's really quite confusing, especially cus i'm not much of an internal monologue guy to begin with.

i hardly ever hear thoughts from the others in my head, but ive learned to start believing weird hunches and feelings that i have. like i correctly guessed that nix was a mouse before he showed up to confirm it, he must have told me somehow.

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i hardly ever hear thoughts from the others in my head, but ive learned to start believing weird hunches and feelings that i have. like i correctly guessed that nix was a mouse before he showed up to confirm it, he must have told me somehow.

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i think plurality might actually be very mundane. everyone has multiple personalities, its just that they ideally share memories and have perfect continuity so it's practically the same guy. my abuse didn't manifest new souls into my body, it obfuscated what was already there, put up walls so that the isolated parts would percolate and grow away from each other. the severity is just the degree to which the parts diverged, in my case there's still some cross-pollination. so like, whatever, maybe everyone should try faking plurality at least once, for fun. i have a sneaking suspicion that endogenic systems are just very introspective people who managed to discover those dividing lines even though their brain communicates with itself seamlessly.

you could probably stand to be nicer to your internal parts, even if they weren't fragmented off by childhood abuse

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you could probably stand to be nicer to your internal parts, even if they weren't fragmented off by childhood abuse

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Have you watched Carl Sagan's Cosmos before? I've personally found it to be profoundly soothing and inspiring. It pushed me from studying aerospace engineering to studying physics in college, which I'm really grateful for. If you enjoy space stuff it might be a fun watch 🙂

it was played in one of my special ed classes, like among the worst ones, im talking physical injuries, but the part where sagan speaks about hypothetical life on jupiter had a profound effect on me. i should check it out again.