#so i guess its what hormones are doing
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Ofc I'm gonna try Garreth too
Idk if there's a mod for his face on MC tho
You didn't ask but I honestly didn't like Garreth but I respect his beauty u know and your comments made me reconsider my thoughts on him (in a good way)
It's something about gryffindor that is not the vibe for me
Idk I think like the last gryffindor characters I liked were Fred and George
It's 1'30 am I should sleep but u know
Cannot stop overanalyzation process
#ive just read such a beautiful fic with Fred my brain cannot think straight#it's not the vibe... unlesss....#unless they are funny and beautiful and then boom#seb is funny guy tho#and he seems like a guy you should trust#omi is... Slytherin from head to toes and i love it about him#slytherin is for hotties#cannot elaborate#why Leander is in gryffindor tho#???#he looks like a guy i had a crush on in school#im embarrassed#that's what low self esteem does to us girlies#we like guys who are#ugh nevermind#but i also had a crush on garrosh hellscream#so i guess its what hormones are doing#making me like crazy shit#good night 😴#why are you reading this#im gonna kiss u if u wont stop rn#i am looking 👁️👁️
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kinda random but do any of my fellow migraine sufferers have any tips ?
#i usually only get them mayhe twice a month or so but im on my second this week :[#im not really sure what causes mine other than hormones and not much seems to help lol#ive tried lots of water sleep rest ibuprofen ect but none of it seems to do anything#this is a long shot i know but if anyone has a magic trick or smt i guess its worth a shot#migraine#personal
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a once in a lifetime miracle: oc art!! this is Shiva.
doodles from a month or so, but i cant really draw properly right now. but i wanted to do something meanwhile so i colored these :33
#oc art#i would explain a bit about Shiva but i think its way funnier if leave these images here without any context#it is up for you to guess what this thing is meant to be and what it's thinking#anyway about my drawing predictment this month#IT IS ART FIGHT MONTH and IM JEALOUS!! IM JEALOUS!!! want to participate SO BAD but i can't so i had to make SOMETHING#even if it was coloring month old doodles because i cant reallt draw properly rigjt now😞#my body knows its art fight month and taunts me by making my hands hurt more than usual😭#and the flood is coming too and its like... you know what?? you can't draw now we say no#the uterus says no the hormones say no#so i cant really draw properly even outside of artfight right now BWUAHHH😭😭😭 please be patient#a bit sad because this is the second year i cant participate over this YET TO BE CLINICALLY DIAGNOSED PERSISTANT PAIN OF 2 YEARS#((glance at medical system i hate the medical system here its so bad might as well have lit money on fire by this point😭))#BUT ANYWAY I AM STILL FULL OF IDEAS THOUGH#SO ONCE THE FLOOD IS OVER I HAVE AN IDEA OF WHAT TO DO!!!!! i just cant get my brain to work properly right now WWW#so do not worry... you will all be fed... I'll survive the hand pain of july🩷... HOPEFULLY DUNNO HOW TO TURN IT DOWN A BIT#please pray for the daily body pains to be lowered to their usual level so i can use my hands again once the flood is over thank you😊
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i fear the 'surely someone's gonna save me' in sunshine baby has an incredible chokehold on me
#this Can't be the energy going into 2025 sighs#sabs speaks#lowkey had like four different meltdowns today over plans being changed and its like. can we be normal#and then my brain had the audacity to be like ur lying.#like girl what the fuck?? in what world are we doing this for fun#and then do u guys know the horror story of like vampire slumbering just have my headphones on genuinely vampire like and out of NOWHERE my#sister is just above me like Hi.#can u fix this dress for me#like in what world do u wake me up like that girl#i fixed the dress but still like. let me live#times like these im considering dropping out truly having that moment over u need to chill out before the stress kills you before the thing#that's supposed to has a chance#if this all seems disconjointed its because it is and is not hope this helps <3#i also want nothing more than to write about my blorbos but i saw people being wrong about them and now im like shit. maybe im wrong about#them#so i cant do it without feeling insane for that reason and for the second reason that i have other obligations#i think it should be illegal for education to give u things to do over the holidays they dont understand how much guilt i will feel not#getting things done and instead feeling horrific and not resting#i also think learning too much about my health has caused me to spiral a lot like the dr's being so chill about it whilst im in debilitatin#pain is not good for me actually. and has triggered the disability grief all over again#having my pmdd and my menstruation at the same time genuinely i felt like female hysteria and im scared for the next one#its a wonder i did Not do It#a little morbid i guess but i have Morbid hormone disorder shrugs#anyways. 2025 be better i hope#so scared to pull my cards for the year#less actually scared and more like. i dont knowww how much i have it in me to be brave anymore#congrats if u made it this far but mostly sorry to my scorpio rising
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Once again questioning if I've ever managed to cum before or if it's just me getting really overstimulated instead
#i went off bc because my body way fucking me up and now i feel kinda weird about things#i want to know if being off it will help with my “just keeps bleeding for a month straight” thing#i want to be able to have sex like a normal fucking person so i dont get sub drop after sex like 90% of the time#i was going to do a test to see wtf my hormones are up to but i cant afford it anymore so i guess im fucked#the drs have forgotten to give me an appointment for my ultrasound#its back to my nonsexual domming arc because im scared of having sex again#i don't know what im doing with sex and i just feel bad and useless because my body doesn't cooperate#scared of bleeding again too#i also found out im a test tube baby which really puts things into perspective because i literally wasn't meant to exist#i was forced to exist and im the epitome of a mistake
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#ay. looking forward to the future when im back in therapy#like i dont feel terrible rn. i dont exactly kno how to describe it. i feel like ive been tossed up onto the shore of a desert island#after a big storm. like im still lying facedown in the sand bc i dont kno what to do when i stand up#i guess im just still sitting in the desolation of 2yrs of burnout and i kno that things need to change but i dont kno#quite how to manage it. bc the thing abt me is that i have ambiguous handwave undiagnosed obsessive compulsive behaviors#and its like every. everything i do is. like its structure to the extreme. i have to do these things because. because why? idk just because#so im like ok i have to change things so i adjust to the change and the structure just becomes rigid again. the cage changes shape but the#volume stays the same. and its hard bc i cant run rn so its like i cant expell my frustration and its a compulsion i cant fulfill and its#constantly in my head. im also just tired. ive been sleeping more than usual and idk y. like i dont feel that depressed but i guess i do#feel bored and pointless bc im just doing computer stuff rn. and i also just feel like my brain is cloudy#like learning is a thing i like to do but im not allowed to spend time reading papers bc i have to draw bc thats the structure#but i want to learn abt those specific topics and i just feel like my brain is full of holes#like its a very specific feeling. like back after i 1st finished my masters i was taking carbon measuments bc thats#like the most useful thing for me to do in tbus lab but it destroys my brain and then my boss was training me in some culture isolation#stuff that i liked a lot and was more aligned with my interests but i hit this wall where my Brain was like ur not allowed to do that#anymore so i make the choice to let the project go and just do what was useful. idk y i did that but i do it all thr time. idk its just hard#when like everything feels so boring and bleak all the time but with this little glimmers of specialness that im not allowed to reach for#ugh. its just the hormones. bc it's becoming very clear i have high and low moods associated with hormone shifts. and the obsessive#compulsive behaviors. those r just ambient but at time exacerbated by the shifts#unrelated#also participating in trivia stuff triggers me feeling dumb lmao but idk i dont usually memorize facts. i usually go for vibes and like what#do u build with what youve learned. like who gives a fuck if u kno a set of facts if u dont do anything with that info#but thats just me being defensive bc i have a foggy brain full of holes
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i am finally discovering a genre of character i actually really relate to! like, i personally relate to them rather than just love them a lot, i can hardly remember when that last happened to me, if ever, so that's cool. unfortunately, that genre of character is "protagonist of a tragedy severely doomed by the narrative and in no small way responsible for their own fate"
#a biscuit's rambles#i meann tbf i dont think its the severe depression they share that gets me#but like. as someone who tends to feel things very deeply and lean into emotions and also teenage hormone bullshit#but who is also severely uninterested in coming of age stuff or ugh romance#these are actually the first characters i remember encountering who were just.#overemotional. unstable. at least a bit depressed. dramatic. occasionally at the edge of losing it. impulsive. chaotic.#and sometimes they hurt people. and their being that emotional isnt usually good! its not like 'oh its okay actually learn to love yourself#the narrative is saying You Need To Get A Grip and thats just.#damn. THAT is relatable#sometimes i get too emotional and thats not always good! i lvoe feeling deeply but sometimes i do just need to get a grip!#and also im a young and unstable person being thrown around in life with no idea what to do next#maybe i have one goal but the rest is like. Happening i guess#and somehow i only see that in my stupid tragedy protags who are dooming themselves (affectionate)#idk. theyre not role models. theyre messy and often stupid and too quick and. theyre incredibly human#also you get a wide range of emotion besides love bc even tho love is very important its far from the only thing happening#looking at you coming of age stuff#(besides the fact that the characters in coming of age stuff usually arent just fucking Weird either so thats already no relatable)#idk i think the last time i looked at a character and went 'oh hey thats me' was when i was seven or eight and i didnt even realise#like only when i reread that book recently#so. idk. its kinda a big thing for me. and also i think its funny as fuck#*reading hamlet * whoa hes like me fr#(okay hamlet not as much as the other guy but still)
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okay might have just got a period. we aren’t going to panic. let’s wait until we’re done with uni for the day and see where we stand before spiralling okay???
#but also i’ve not had a natural period since i was 14#and i’ve been hoping to all that is out there i have a hormone imbalance#that can be fixed and when it is i’ll have periods and a libido and won’t be depressed anymore#like i was counting on that#i’ve been trying to work up the courage to go to the doctor about it all week#(because i have a lot of bad history with doctors trying to get help with this#and the thought of facing that again makes me cry so i’ve been putting it off)#but like if i do get periods now then i guess im just like this???#i’m not all messed up because of hormones and it won’t be an easy fix and then i’ll have to suffer for the rest of my life#living in this hell#but yeah not spiralling yet as you can see#maybe a just squatted too hard or something and i got a little bit of bleeding#that’s what i can tell myself#i talk and its probably something weird
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hi this is a rant tw transphobia and shitty parents
#I just did a scary thing#like. the scariest thing#the thing ive avoided and lied about and refused to do for three years now#I actually told my parents (well my mom) that im queer. specifically about the trans part#and i told her that I want to start hormones#and i asked if i dtart them can i still come home#because i have lots of younger siblings and they're still little and i love them so so much i practically raised them#and my parents want to keep anything queer away from them so im scared that they wont let me come see my sisters if i start hrt#but my mental health and dysphoria are getting so bad and i cant handle it anymore#theres a place nearby that does labs for free and i really want to do it#but im so scared#so fucking terrified and im sobbing rn and i justs#i want a family. i want a mom#but at what cost i guess#ive been thinking for years *years* about whether or not my parents would come to my wedding#or if they'd let my siblings come#and now its also will i even be able to have them in my life#its so much#but i texted her and told her everything and said someday i will start hrt and i want to know if i can come home still#obviously with more detail but yk#and. i can breathe a little now but it is between sobs so. wins and losses i guess#i just wish i didnt have to deal with this shit
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another day another dollar
#I FEEL BAD!!!! I DONT FEEL GOOD I FEEL BAD DISTINCTLY#EVERYTHINGS FINE. I GUESS. I THINK ITS MORE HORMONAL SHIT AS MY BODY ADJUSTS TO BEING ON THE RIGHT DOSAGE AGAIN#BUT I FEEL SO. LIKE IN MY STOMACH AND IN MY SHOULDERBLADES. JUST BAD.#IM SICK OF WORRYING ABOUT THINGS. IM SICK OF SAYING THE WRONG THING. IM SICK OF PEOPLE NOT LIKING ME#OR RATHER IM SICK OF DECIDING PEOPLE DONT LIKE ME WHILE UNABLE TO BELIEVE ANY ALTERNATIVE AT ALL#I NEED TO BE ELECTROCUTED. I NEED MY ORGANS REMOVED AND REPLACED WITH HEATED CHERRY STONES. I NEED TO BE LOVED EXCLUSIVELY. UNCOMPROMISINGL#i need people to tell me they hate me or tell me they love me and i need to be able to believe what they say#i need to only ever say the right thing#i need to do some crunches or sit-ups or something. i need to be slapped maybe multiple times (not sexual)#i need to lie in the sun and actually just become the dirt#it's shit like this that makes me glad i have the ability to do shrooms
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I feel like my meds keep wearing off earlier and earlier in the day ugh.. having to lie down now im home from work I'm shattered :-(
#was out of it from 2pm i had a whole 2 hours at work where i couldnt tell u what i even did. just so exhausted and empty#and i keep forgetting basic shit. thf i slept badly last night so this isnt representative of every day on meds#trying to keep that in mind before i start wailing abt how they dont work bc they DO. but ONLY if i sleep and eat properly#ah i dont know.. im gonna go to bed early tn anyway im getting rly irritable again#i think i might be coming down w a cold actually my sinuses feel a bit inflamed#so there we go#but yeah ill get back to my dr abt supplementing w short release. and we'll see.#if that doesnt work ill try a week or 2 more at this dose and then decide whether to stick with it or give up on meds#well i dont want to give up. but im rly apprehensive abt non stimulants bc ive heard the ones she suggested can stop periods#and anything that fucks w my cycle always messes me up badly... idk what it is. hormones i guess#and some ppl have said they got rly bad mood swings on them n shit. if i have worse mood swings u wont hear from me again 👍#ah shit i have a nosebleed#changed my mjnd i was gonna take a cold shower but im putting the hot water on i need a long one#ill eat now while its heating up. and then msg dr. and then play a FUCKING videogame bc i haven't all weekend i feel insane#.diaries
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#its so fucking weird that ive just accepted that i wont have sex that i will love completely#im young! im trans! barely a year on hormones! why this pessimism in me when ive spent months seeing myself become more and more myself!#i should be full of energy and hope. but when a friend or a queer person online starts talking about how good it feels to have sex#and how varied their sex life is it feels like theres a rusted spike slowly piercing through my chest#is that yearning? jealousy for my fellow queers? its not like the sex i have is bad#i enjoy it i really do! its just...#im always for the better or for worse a top#i make my friends scream from pleasure#find what makes them tick and then drive them crazy. while no such attention is given to me.#i guess its just jealousy#ill just keep waiting i guess#even though it hurts#rambles
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why am i getting oddly angry at things that don't normally make me angry. this blows.
#i just ate food?? so its not that??#and i had my hormones today so it shouldn't be that either#i dont feel grumpy? just on a shorter fuse#this is weird and i dont care for it#mmmmm. mmmrnrnrhggggmm.#milo.txt#tw vent#not really a vent but. still needs a tag#but like i realize that my frustration isn't logical. so. why am i feeling it#usually theres a body/chemical reason but !!! what the hell !!!#i mean i guess im tired but i cant fall asleep#i really want to argue with someone and then get upset at them. but also why the fuck would i ever do that on purpose
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Ooo can we have a blurb where bombshell! R and Spence were either on a date or were about to have their first time but got called into work? They both look a little annoyed at being interrupted. The bombshell reader series has my heart 🥺
im picturing boyband reid here maybe <3 fem
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“These are trick buttons,” you accuse.
Spencer laughs for the tenth time in as many minutes, perhaps tickled under your hands, more likely that he’s just feeling the same rush of hormones (namely adrenaline) as you are. “They’re not trick buttons, it’s ‘cos your hands are shaking.”
He takes your poor hands in his. “It’s okay,” he adds softly, “I can do it.”
“I’m not nervous, I’m excited,” you say, less soft, more desperate than he is, or at least on the surface.
“I know, I know–” He catches your lips in a sudden eager kiss, a hand jumping to your cheek to ferry you closer, the other sewing down between your two chests to work open his fiendish buttons.
“See,” he says between kissing, “easy.”
“I’d like to see this level of dexterity when you unclasp my bra,” you mumble, kissing with every bit of hunger and love you have for him, lips drifting to his cheek, and then down to his jaw. Your mouth opens of its own accord. Spencer lets a breath slip from him coloured with wanting, the most amorous sound he’s ever made under your hands as you kiss, and nip, and���
Your phone rings from the nightstand, a heavy, repetitive vibration.
“Ignore it,” you say easily, climbing up over Spencer’s lap, hand to the side of his face and rubbing tenderly.
“I was planning on it,” he says. He was shy at first, those first few kisses, but Spencer’s a person like any other and he squeezes your hips closer to his without further argument.
Your phone stops ringing a half a minute later. You smile into his mouth, even more when his fingers climb the length of your spine to slip playfully under the clasp of your bra. “How many tries do I get?” he asks.
You sit back just a touch to meet his charming gaze. “As many as you need, handsome… I’m very patient.”
He pulls you in to kiss your neck just as his phone begins to ring.
“It’s work,” he guesses, paused regretfully under your chin.
“We don’t know that.”
“That’s my ringtone for work.”
You breathe heavily atop him. “Can’t we be late?”
He smiles at you gently. “I’m sorry, angel. If we’re late again this week he might actually bite your head off.”
Things were so perfect. This was it, this was the moment you finally knew each other to the very core, and your stomach aches with how badly you want him. You're startled at the heat behind your eyes knowing it’s not gonna happen.
“Not tonight,” Spencer says, like he can read your mind. Maybe he’d been thinking a similar thing. “But soon, okay?”
You wrap your arms around his neck.
His phone stops ringing before he can catch it. Both of your phones ping with simultaneous text messages quickly afterward, before your ringtone begins again in earnest.
He leans graciously toward the nightstand, allowing you to continue hugging him while also answering the phone. “Hello?” you ask.
“Agent Hotchner’s calling you in.”
You press your nose to Spencer’s shoulder. “Okay. I have Dr. Reid with me too. Please stop calling, we’ll be there as soon as possible,” you say, flustered. You hang up quick.
Spencer pats your back with his fingers, palm flat to your shoulder, apparently the less gutted of the both of you at your missed moment. “Let me get you dressed, okay?” he says. “You’re too sulky. It wouldn’t have even been that good.”
“How rude.”
His teasing continues. “I’m serious. I haven’t been with anyone since that girl in Vegas–”
“What girl in Vegas?”
“–and anyways,” he says, tilting your head back, his smile both playful and adoring at once, “you shouldn’t have been on top.”
“Spencer,” you laugh, pressing your hand to your eyes.
“I have a head full of statistics on female pleasure and I don’t need them to know you should be laying down when we–”
You kiss him. “That’s enough,” you say, pressing the tips of your noses together. “I get the picture.” Your arm curled around his neck feels right, and you’re heartbroken to let it slink back to your side, but you do. “I love you. I wish we’d chosen different careers.”
“I love you, too, but I don’t. Then we never would’ve met,” he says simply.
You let out a happy breath. “I guess not.”
Spencer hoists you off of his lap in an impressive show of strength, but then he dumps you in the mess of sheets, which is less lovely. “What do you want to wear?” he asks, springing up, heading straight for his closet. “I pressed your pinstriped dress yesterday, that would look cute with your stockings. And you won’t need a jacket, it’s hotter out there than it is in here. Why are you looking at me like that? We literally don’t have time for this.”
You love him. You’re gonna rock his world when you get home. “The dress is fine.” You put your arms up in the air. “I’m waiting. And look! We’re half undressed already. How convenient.”
#spencer and bombshell reader#spencer reid#spencer reid x reader#spencer reid x you#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid x fem!reader#spencer reid imagine#spencer reid fluff#spencer reid fanfic#spencer reid oneshot#spencer reid scenario#spencer reid drabble#spencer reid fic#spencer reid fanfiction#criminal minds
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#so theres this terrible thing i do where i force myself to get up way too early and go into the lab before anyone else#bc i get overwhelmed when lots of ppl r around. its terrible bc if u do that over and over it kinda breaks ur brain#but there is something i like abt walking around while its still dark out and on ones on thr roads looking up at the stars and theyre all#haloed here bc theres actually moisture in thr air here. i feel. idk how i feel. more normal i guess. like neutral but in a negative way.#like i dont really care about anything. probably im just tired. i haven't been sleeping well. maybe its the birth control#which im still taking bc im too curious abt how my mood fluctuates when my hormones r controlled. or maybe its my mood. but ive been tired#and ive not been having fun. i just feel like im very no thoughts empty head. here's info do u have anything to say abt it? any observations#? no. no. cant read cant think cant talk in a way that makes may sense. what do we do abt it? i dunno. i dunno.#sleep maybe. stop taking the birth control maybe. talk to my councilor monday definitely. give her an insane rant abt how im definitely not#bipolar lol i think ive got a point. but i go back and forth idk. it doesn't really matter. i just find it interesting#sigh. remember when i had time to draw? remember when i wanted to draw? now im just tired#whatever. ill sleep and feel better. get my executives to function maybe. maybe. but probably not#i did cut off like 3 inches of hair on impulse. got that chin length depression haircut. classic#unrelated
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Getting yourself off again, angel? Second time today, isn't it? Or already the third, fourth, fifth? You're such a greedy, insatiable thing. Now, now, don't stop on my account - no, keep going, you're doing great.
But your touches are a little too intense, don't you think? A little too... on the nose, too obviously intended to make you come. Good little pets don't finish fast - if at all - no, they edge and edge, over and over again, until they finally get permission to let themselves go and succumb to their primitive needs. So... Lighter. Slower. No rubbing, only caressing, no fingering, only teasing your hole with your fingertips.
But first things first, fingers off entirely. Apparently, you need someone to guide you through the entire process, don't you? You're just too impatient and worked up, full of hormones and heat, to be able to regulate yourself, poor baby. Don't worry, I'll do it for you, step by step, nice and slow. Nothing makes it easier for you than having someone to order you around and tell you exactly what you're allowed to do. Now, isn't it extra fun that, even though nothing stops you from going further before I allow you to, we both know that you won't? You'll be good and behave, just for me, less even, just for a few written words, the illusion of a dom hovering over your barely clothed body and whispering sweet commands against the shell of your ear.
Touch your chest first. Even if it does nothing for you, even if you barely have any sensation in it, I want your fingers circling your nipples, your fingernails gently scratching over them, pinching them between two of them, pulling, massaging. Put on a show, as if someone was watching you. If you have some clamps around, get them, and tease yourself with them - not quite putting them on, but rubbing over your areola, using it to pinch and pull as well. Feel that, treasure? That's what you get for being patient and taking your time. That nice pulling feeling in your stomach... Yeah, that's good, isn't it? Good job. Toy with your chest and nipples some more, make them swollen, sore, red, make sure they already ache before you finally put on those clamps. If you don't own any, you go ahead right now, and order some. The most humiliating, the prettiest ones you can find. And I want you reading through this post again when they arrive, so you can properly get off to it.
Now, I'm sure by now your legs have fallen open all by themselves, mh? Revealing a soaked, hot mess in between, throbbing and begging for attention. So tempting to put your hand right in the middle of it and grope yourself, but you'll be good for me and keep your hands to yourself, love. For now, all you're allowed to do is let your fingers brush over your stomach... Drawing little circles around your belly button, long swirls that slowly go further down, ah, there's that nice feeling of your guts tensing up, isn't it? God, you're so predictable, such a simple thing. Oh, it's fine, you're merely a body in need of being fucked right now, no wonder your brain turns into simple mode.
Gently tease yourself with your fingernails along your lower stomach, before you move onto your thighs - oh, my, you're really desperate, spread them out as far as possible, and let me guess, you only just noticed now how far you've opened up, haven't you? A proper slut for the taking, good job, my angel. Touch your thighs, not the inner parts yet, just explore yourself, palms tracing your muscle, reaching up to your hip, moving onto your stomach again, where that nice, tight feeling comes back. Slowly let your fingers glide to the inner part of your thighs, where your ticklish, and it usually only works to get touched there when it's someone else's fingers, but, oh, fuck, darling, today's different, isn't it? Touching yourself so intensely, yet thoughtfully, it's really showing its effect on you, mh? That's perfect, you're doing so well, yeah, touch and tease your thighs some more, move those fingers up until...
Now you're allowed to move them right in between your legs. That feels good, hm? Finally letting your fingertips feel your own heat, swollen and twitching, feeling your own wetness, only caused by a post. Doesn't that truly show how desperately you need guidance and being made to feel utterly submissive? Don't keep those moans in, show everyone that you're such a needy, horny doll, so desperate to touch themselves. Why the modesty? Let it out. Rub yourself - slowly, dear - and feel yourself up, and know that you've done anything to this point because you followed orders, because you obeyed, because you just couldn't do it yourself and needed someone else so fucking badly, you needed someone to tell you what to do, does it feel like I'm there with you, do you like it, mh? Does it turn you on to know that I took the time writing this, for you to follow every step and work yourself up?
If you own a vibrator, you'll use it now. If it's the kind that you shove inside your needy hole, then do it, don't be gentle, don't be slow, shove it inside of you on the highest settings, as deep as it can go, and use your hand to continue rubbing. If it's the kind that you put on yourself, lay it on you, don't press it against you - we wouldn't want you to get too excited now, would we? - and shove your fingers inside of your instead. Fuck yourself. Make it good. Make it hard to not fall off the edge. Make it as rough and fast and overstimulating as you possibly can. Make it feel humiliating how fucking close it gets you that you're doing this in the first place. Feel the weight and tension that your heat brings - lean into it. Open your mouth, let the moans and whines and all those pretty noises out, don't close it to swallow, let your drool run down your chin - pant. It's getting hard to not come, isn't it? Poor baby.
Do you want me to give you permission? You do. I know. It's okay, baby, relax, keep fucking yourself open like that. A little patience.
Getting harder, mh? Feeling it in your guts already? God, you're so...
Think you can manage a bit longer?
Soon, my angel. You sound so good when you're desperate.
Almost there.
Ready, love?
Come for me, right now.
#my own#female sub#male sub#nb sub#trans sub#gender neutral post#degradation.#humiliation.#praise.#joi.#dirty talk.#psychological domming.
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