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I think this illustrates something about the reactionary mind.
The underlying macho bullshit of that old stupid canard about "Hard Men make Good Time, Good Times make Soft Men, Soft Men make Bad Times, Bad Times make Hard Men" is at play here: the assumption is that being able care about your gender or race or disability or class or any other intersectional trait is just something only Decadent Soft People think about because they're too idle and not doing the work of Real People (tm) like backbreaking manual labour or soldiering or other from of Being Professionally Manly And Tough.
In addition to this premise being utterly ahistorical dogshit (too often used by militarist, authoritarian and fascistic pigfuckers to rationalize why they need to take control to make us big and tough again), it's also pathetically oversimplified and fucking factually incorrect. Crossdressing and drag performances were popular among World War 2 troops, and you'd be a fool to consider that this didn't have an impact on folks coming out. Even those that remained closeted were still able to serve defending their country (and all which that entails), and were defended by their comrades when petty bureaucrats tried to use edge-case bullshit to try and deny them what they were owed as veterans.
I pick out the gender stuff because it's the one that most readily pisses off the C.H.U.D.s (don't get girly gay things all over my fantasies!) but things like disability or race or class also factor in just as much. The 1944 Disability Employment Act in Britain was born out of similar conditions, as those getting bodily mutilated in the war were no longer able to serve in the front lines but still could pursue work that could aid in the war effort.
I frame so much of this through 20th century military history because that is what has defined the shape of so much of our adventure fiction, even 80 years after the fact. World War 2 adventure fiction, pulp adventure novels, historical fiction (I'm looking at Robert E. Howard in particular here)... all of it trickles down into the Fantasy Genre as we know it today, especially in the foundational bones of Magic: the Gathering. A lot of the imitators of those works have emerged over the years, and many of them carry on the same thematic assumptions of the genre that thanosisking unwittingly raises in their initial question: why would women/blacks/gays/cripples/etc even fit into those worlds, they're not there in the source material!?
I believe this is just a by-product of folks like OP who don't look at the source fiction and history underlying it in any more than a cursory way. For folks with limited understandings the topic, including themes the ones discussed seem forced. I would encourage these folks to read some Imaro stories or a Jirel of Jhoiry tale - there's a lot more to the genre that actively explores all manner of odd or atypical stories than just the derivatives that have trickled through the corporate publishing houses of the 1990s and onward. I strongly suggest they subscribe to Strange Studies of Strange Stories, and its predecessor H.P. Podcraft - the Weird Tale has a dozen of literary descendants, and they have a much richer history than folks know.
It's fair to quibble about how well some writers handle these themes - folks inexperienced with understanding intersectional matters can be clumsy, and the fact that writing for a corporate entity owned by Hasbro (which has to toe a very particular line called "don't do things that will make shareholders uncomfortable.") But simply barking "there's Forced Woke Diversity In My Wizard Card Game" is the bleating of a black sheep who is best ignored.
With all of the threats to the worlds like Tarkir or Mirrodin or the War of the Spark, wouldn't it be prudent to NOT include anything about race/gender/identity? Nobody was worried about their own gender during WWII because they were worried about survival. I feel it cheapens the threats that characters like Bolas or the Eldrazi present when you stick identity politics like Daretti or Ashiok because those characters seem more occupied with identity than with saving the day.
If you think no one was worried about their gender in World War II, that simply means you’re unaware of history. People will literally put in concentration camps and killed because of it.
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They Made You Cry (MHA/Fem!Reader)
(Laser: I'm sad today, so I curse you with angst.)
Summary: MHA characters reacting to making their girlfriend cry. (Angst, arguments, and some unhealthy relationship dynamics.)
Characters: Bakugou, Dabi, Aizawa, Shigaraki, Midoriya
MHA-MHA-MHA
Bakugou
Katsuki's heart sinks when he sees the unmistakable wetness that mists over your eyes. What's worse, what really makes him feel like the worst kind of bastard, is the way you shy away from his gaze with a sense of bitter defeat. Like he's getting what he wanted. Like his victory, his intention, was pushing you to tears.
As if he could ever consider this a victory.
"H-Hey..." he reaches out to you, awkward and unsure. He's so bad at dealing with tears, especially yours. It's so much easier to take on whatever piece of shit that's made you cry, but in this case, it's him. He's the piece of shit.
You sniffle, hurriedly brushing past him, equal parts angry and hurt.
"Whatever, Katsuki."
Dabi
The thing about you is that you're so damn unpredictable. Sweet one second, drawing blood the next.
Dabi kind of loves it. It keeps things from becoming boring, getting stale. And you're so hot when your eyes are ablaze with whatever emotion is overcoming you.
Just like right now, in the middle of some pointless, bullshit argument, when something he says makes you snap. You tackle him to the ground, your hands fisting into his jacket as you yell in his face. All he can do is grin up at you dangerously, just as angry, but equally as enticed by just how vibrant you look in this moment.
Then something even sweeter happens.
Big, fat tears begin to drip from your wild eyes, and Dabi sucks in a breath. You sob, frustrated and overwhelmed, and his cold, little heart warms at the sight.
"Oh, pretty girl..."
His arms wrap around you as you cry into his chest, cursing his name all the while. He strokes your hair, twisted affection squirming in his chest like a nest of spiders.
Always so unpredictable and entertaining.
Aizawa
"(Name), I-" Shouta falters, all the anger and frustration from your argument washed away by cold, all-consuming guilt at the sight of the tears slipping down your face.
You hurriedly wipe them away, stepping back, away from him, and the guilt deepens.
He knows you hate crying in front of him, even when it isn't his fault. It makes you feel weak, and he knows you worry he'll think less of you, that he'll find your more emotional way of being "irrational."
You turn, hiding your face as you try to walk away, but he stops you, gently catching you by the arm.
"Wait," he pleads, his voice gentle, "I'm sorry." Because no argument is worth making you cry.
"I don't want you to see me like this," you mutter, your head down. But at least you're not pulling away from him. He takes that as a good sign.
"Don't hide from me," he urges. He takes you by the chin and tilts your head up so he can look at you properly. He brushes your tears away, regretful that they're there in the first place. "Let's talk about this, okay?"
He's always so stubborn, set in his ways. But he'll try to meet you in the middle, to understand your perspective. You're worth it.
Shigaraki
Tomura feels no guilt at the sight of your tears, only vindictive satisfaction. Good. He'd been aiming to hurt you when he said those words to you. He really can't stand the way you make him feel sometimes, so he's happy to return the favor.
"You're seriously crying?" he taunts with a cruel smirk, poking at your cheek with a mocking finger.
You smack his hand away, "fuck you, Tomura, you fucking prick," you hiss, trying not to cry even more in front of him. You turn and storm away from him before things get even worse.
"You're so pathetic!" he calls after you, making sure you can hear him before you slam the door behind you.
He huffs, standing there and scratching at his neck. You're so damn overdramatic, a pain in his ass. You deserve to cry a little for the shit you put him through.
The image of your tear-filled face flashes through his mind. He ignores the way it makes his stomach twist with discomfort.
Midoriya
Izuku feels his own eyes fill with tears, watching you hug yourself and cry in front of him.
"(N-Name)... please don't cry..." he begs, his hands brushing up and own your arms, trying to console you.
"I thought I was never going to see you again," you cry, your words making his heart ache. You scrub a shaking hand over your eyes, "I was so s-scared for you!"
"I'm sorry, (Name)," he pulls you into a hug, his own tears running free. He really scared you this time. It was a close call. "It's okay, I'm okay. I'm here."
He shushes you gently, guilt spreading through his chest at the distress he's caused you. His job is always going to cause you to worry, the only thing he can do is try his best to come home to you at the end of the day.
(Requests)
#bakugou x reader#dabi x reader#aizawa x reader#shigaraki x reader#midoriya x reader#mha x reader#fem!reader#angst#drabble#laser writes#i love pairing dabi with a reader that matches his level of unhinged#i was fighting for my life with keeping the tenses consistent
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fic: blue and gold (9/28)
today's @bucktommyfluffebruary prompt is moving in together and my fill is here
so excited, this is the first of my five favourite fills that i've written for this. tumblr version below the cut.
Tommy knows it's going to have to be him that raises it this time. After he blew things up so spectacularly before, there's no way Evan will. Evan's braver than Tommy, more honest, more open. But he's not an idiot. He's not going to go looking to get hurt, and despite how much better they are this time around, Tommy sometimes still senses that slight hesitation before Evan says something heartfelt. Tommy's trying really hard not to beat himself up about that, and he thinks, if he can just stop feeling like he's going up before a firing squad, this conversation will help.
If he can only work up the courage to start it.
This is the fifth time he's tried in the last couple weeks.
"'Hey, Evan'," he mutters under his breath. "'Can I talk to you about something?' Great start, Tommy, that won't freak him out at all. 'Evan, can we touch base about something?' Worse. Fuck. 'This is going well, right? I'm not screwing up this time around, so maybe - ' Oh my god, why is this so - "
"Babe, are you talking to yourself?"
Tommy almost jumps out of his skin.
"Evan! Hey!"
Evan's eyebrows raise and he looks at Tommy like he's…like he's talking to himself in his kitchen and acting nutty, which. Fair, honestly.
"I didn't hear you get out of the shower," Tommy says lamely.
"Well," Evan says. "Here I am. You okay?"
"Yeah," Tommy says. "Yeah, I'm good. You hungry?"
"Tommy."
"Hoo, okay," Tommy says, blowing out a breath. "Yeah, okay. Can we sit?"
Evan looks…anxious. Tommy wants to kick himself.
"O-okay, sure," Evan says, and takes a seat at the kitchen table. Tommy sits next to him, wipes his hands on his jeans because - god, he's sweating.
Now he's actually trying to push through his own bullshit, he's realizing how bad it actually is, how rough this stuff is for him.
"Tommy, you're freaking me out."
"Yeah. I know, I'm sorry." He reaches out and covers Evan's hand with his own. Rip off the bandaid, he tells himself. "I want us to live together. I want us to start talking about living together. But I know that I - I made that a difficult subject for us…before."
Evan laughs, rubs his free hand over his eyes, turns the other under Tommy's to lace their fingers together.
"You idiot. You scared the hell out of me, man!"
"Sorry. Sorry, I know. I've been trying to bring it up for a fortnight."
Evan does that thing Tommy's been crazy about since the night they met - that coy smile, that head tilt, that glance up through his lashes.
"I used to think you were so cool," he says.
"Well," Tommy shrugs. "Now you know."
"Now I do," Evan agrees. "Okay," he says. "Let's talk about it."
Tommy blinks. Evan makes everything feel so easy, and often not even in that way that feels like missing a step in the dark. "Yeah?"
"Tommy. Of course."
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getting real fucking sick of the fact every month my brain spins a wheel with 3 sections labelled irrationally angry, irrationally sad, and irrationally anxiety and then spins another wheel with one section labelled ‘eat sugar until you’re sick’ and makes me live by the two results for an entire week and then afterwards looks back and is like ‘damn bitch you live like this?’ as if it isn’t fucking responsible.
#i don't use the label#ignore me#any longer bc i don't want to imply my thoughts are worthless#but i think bringing it back for this kind of post is valid#don't get me started on the whole#'well you already take birth control and antidepressants so there goes that solution'#'and since your cycle isn't consistent enough to take an extra dose of antidepressants just the first week or whatever of every month..'#'there's nothing we can do'#i also hate the whole 'well you only ate raw cookie dough until you threw up once'#when the takeaway should be#'every month i am exerting an extreme amount of effort to keep myself from eating raw cookie dough until i throw up'#sending five emails took five fucking hours today i swear to fuck#this month is 'intensly irrational anxiety' as if my baseline anxiety wasn't shitty enough#i'm especially mad because i exercised last night aka something that usually helps my anxiety a little#so for it to be so bad today is such fucking bullshit#mother i crave violence
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"Why doesn't their side call out the bad behavior they accuse us of??"
Because they've blocked all the crazies on their side and aren't seeing it. Just like you're not seeing all the bullshit on your side because you've blocked all the crazies over there, too.
Also, they ARE calling it out. You just have everyone on the other side blocked, so you aren't seeing the callouts.
Like jesus fucking christ, can we stop generalizing giant portions of fandom based on the behavior of the worst fucking people in them?? Because I promise you, whether you are seeing it or not, there are really fucking shitty people in ALL corners of fandom.
#signed someone who was bullied so badly on anon by certain fans that i privated all my fic and stopped watching the fucking show#my crime? saying i didn't understand the extreme reactions (on either end) to a character i was neutral about#but yeah sure not a single bad egg on your side#911 discourse#i'm so fucking tired y'all#feeling like starting shit today i guess i don't fucking know i am so tired of people acting like shipping is a fucking morality war#based on the shit the worst people on whatever side decide to pull#also#it is astonishing to me that on the 'block and unfollow protect your peace' website#where half the shit we encounter is through a grapevine and not an op#that people seem to expect everyone to do a deepdive on any poster's past decade of posting to find any obscure bullshit takes#before reblogging an inane everyday post#like jesus christ y'all
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Your election post was the most holier-than-thou, performative, bullshit I’ve ever read. Get a grip and get some self awareness.
i will take "missed the entire point" for 500, alex
#y'all abstainers and third party voters are gonna have so much blood on your hands if this goes sideways#and a lot of that blood will be that of palestinians#but please go ahead and ignore all logic#so over it dude#tired of being nice election day is half over anyway#if you abstained or voted third party#you did the wrong thing#you did a bad thing#hope the moral high ground was worth it bud#perceived moral high ground i should say#all it actually is is selfish performative bullshit#and i am sick to fucking death of explaining why#when trans people are criminalized for existing#when palestine is flattened into nothing but debris#when people with uteruses are forced into pregnancy#and criminalized for miscarriages or still births#when lgbt protections are repealed#when every criminal in office gets a pardon#when education falls apart#when healthcare gets even worse#when our allies turn against us#when we get involved in international conflicts we have no business in#when people die#i hope you remember today and the choices you made#and i hope you never get rid of your guilt#if he wins and the world falls apart i hope you feel the weight of your mistake until the day you fucking die#you make it so hard to believe in the good in people#and i am so tired#diz says stuff
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If there's one thing I've respectively noticed from Zionists and defenders of Israeli war crimes, it's that every source, argument and potential avenue to explore each explanation is riddled with cherry picking, moving the goalposts and mental gymnastics to explain why their conclusions, which typically are barely even related to the sources they use, somehow overshadow literal reality and what we see with our own eyes.
While scrolling, one example I came across was the repetitive misrepresentation of BLM, antifa and quotes from Martin Luther King Jr, as well as statistics, scholarly journal articles and government website information. These are all good sources, yet every single time they're mangled completely until the only possible "interpretation" of any of them is "well Israel is right to defend itself after shorting rockets beforehand because the retaliation was brutal and all Arabs are bad by default therefore". As if any of these sources are even about individual exceptions of Israel versus hatred towards Arabs.
I think what I find most absurd, as someone in the middle of their own studies, is how every bit of critical thinking and logic goes out the window as they do every single thing possible to do what professors worldwide say NOT to do when evaluating sources. It's like watching a race to see who can tangle and misconstrue scientific information to fit their world view the fastest. Then said people say "um actually I studied at university before so it's actually not wrong that I'm doing this exact this everyone is warned not to do because I have a permit". Ignorance I can forgive, but willful and arrogant manipulation? That's another thing entirely.
#zionism#my gods y'all need to get a grip and start remembering that confirmation bias exists#and y'all use sources continually in this way while just generally having so much bs of presenting How To Not Use My Own Sources#or actually to be more correct you clearly do know you just choose not to because you'd rather be justified in resource theft and profit#Like the while tome it's been about either material gain or feeling good about yourself while you shit on strangers#and then I also see y'all make other accounts ro harass random Arabs for fun and random queers who aren't even related like#the fuck is wrong with y'all go sit down and think about why you all do this pointless bs#it's such a waste of your own life spending it looking for fights to help with your bottomless insecurities#Israel#fuck israel#long live palestine#like you can say hamas was bad all you like it doesn't actually change the situation and what y'all have been doing for 76 years#and actually longer but y'all arent ready for that conversation and how Zionists butchered Jews and helped Nazi Germany historically#like sorry that Was a thing that happened and if you want to label yourselves as The Sacred Protectors of Jews then you have to face that#Pretending history didn't happen isn't helpful to anyone including yourselves y'all just making Zionism look even worse and like idiocy#I mean it is but you all aren't helping yourselves by being literal holocaust deniers#and being like “but Zionists saved Jews afterwards” as if that somehow erases the fact they ALSO helped the Nazis#like history is full of contradictory bullshit so when you say “but what about this” you know that doesn't erase the other things right??#“That's worse. You DO see how that's worse right?”#I'm shaking you all and yelling this like it is WORSE that they killed Jews and then started playing the saviour and fellow victims#You do see how that is really bad for Jews today to be in a place created for political power plays and material gain through any means#like you see how that could be REALLY dangerous for Jews if they're that expendable to Zionist entities and the government#and you do realise that is literally what we are seeing from the actions of said government#and how they acting sadly very predictablely when you consider the historical contexts for its existence?#People who research this shit aren't surprised because it happens every single year and has been happening for centuries -#- before Israel the holocaust etc. It's been like this for as long as political Zionism and the French Revolution#It's been going on since pre Marxism and pre a lot of differing things but y'all pretend Zionists haven't ever harmed Jews ever when -#- there's a long history of internal conflict and in fighting that formed modern Zionism and plenty of internalised antisemetism within it#Yeah there's a genuine desire for return to the land (Not Own It just return and live peacefully)#but that is very very different to Political Zionism that formed as a socialist nationalist movement
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grief will have you saying shit like goddamn and fuck maybe the abuse was worth it
#ive made this post before i just cant find it and it’s all im feeling rn#god i miss my parents so fucking much even though they were the cause of SO MANY of my problems that idk if i’ll ever heal from#but navigating life w this grief and without their support- however little it was- feels like hell#but the abuse felt like hell too.#ive said it before but i was JUST getting to a place where i felt i could stand up for myself and knock down thwir shit a few pegs. or at#least become more resistant to it#i saw a future with them in it for the first time in my LIFE#and it was bc i’d done SO MUCH FUCKING WORK. and now i feel like it was all so fucking useless#it’d be easier if i was still in the phase of anger i was at like 19#but i’d processed that quite a bit and was trying to move on#FUCK. i had made SO much goddamn progress right before my mom got sick#then everything went down the toilet cus i cannot fucking have anything#it’s so unfair. i wish i could at least redo the last 3 years of my life#i would’ve done things so much different but i was so traumatized and still so angry and bitter and trying to preserve myself#ive come to the realization tjat the person i am today did not exist back then and therefore i shouldnt beat myself up bc it literally wasnt#available to me. i couldnt have done anythimg different bc i was in such a state of survival#and truthfully ive grown a lot since then even if im still in the trenches#the timeline of my entire life has been so fucking unfair#and i dont know how to reconcile any of it i dont know how to cope with my worst fears coming true#and i mean worst fears. even the way they passed. spot on to my worst fears#i despised what they did to me but i still didnt see life without them until i was at least 30#it was all so sudden and quick and shocking#yeah they were horrible parents but i was a horrible kid too. maybe i straight up just deserved that shit#and i’d go back to that and seeing a future with them in an instant#over this bullshit#it’s so hard. and then losing all my pets too at the SAME TIME. all my babies#everything that i loved ripped away from me in the span of MONTHS#it’s all too much. l oh fucking l. no wonder im 3 shots deep at fucking 3 pm#it just hurts so bad. so fucking bad.
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Sorry for the lack of activity lately! Between being unwell lately and now experiencing a mini-heatwave, focusing on writing hasn't been easy. Got my stuff done for now though and I've got holiday upcoming so hopefully should be able to manage better soon! Also snek updates, Ror is doing so very well. He just had his first hopper mouse and is GLOWING with health, especially with some of that gorgeous sun. At least one of us is enjoying the heat!
He just finished drinking before I took this snap, you might see a teeny water droplet on the end of his chin <3
#🐍 || ooc#;; mun bullshit#tfw you want to write but it's a struggle#I do but life is feeling urghhh still#On the plus I am no longer such an anxious snek momma#Ror and the new baby are settling in well#Just fed both today their new food and they are loving how big and fresh it is!#New baby's food was just a touch too big before so I felt really bad how he struggled last week#Fortunately he's okay and had a small rat crawler just now#Bigger than a pup but smaller than a weaner if that makes sense? Baby's at an awkward size :(#Ror is so fucking pretty though and he's becoming so sociable too!#Always comes to the front of the viv when he sees me :D#All that lovely yellow is POPPING too#Wish the phone was better but it's def one of his best photos#Sorry for random word vomit people I am trying to focus on writing tonight#So warm today though it's like 26'c!!!
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if i had a dollar for every time a religious missionary knocked on my door to "spread the good news" while i was actively in an acute mental health crisis i'd have 2 dollars, which isnt a lot but also. how many times does this have to happen before they stop coming.
#technically ive actually had three but the ones where they come to my home feel more violating and embarrassing#heads up im going to talk about grim things but its so bananas that its hard not to talk about#2 years ago i had one come while i was Participating In An Activity One Does When You're Grappling With SI#and it was a very bad time and an overall terrible encounter#especially bc it was obvious at the time i was deeply unwell but of course they didnt want to actually address it#and today i had two come while i was having an active manic episode and looked DEEPLY insane and was in the middle of some bullshit#and both times as soon as i opened the door i can tell theyre like 'oh fuck' and realize that theres something serious going on#but at the same time. play stupid games win stupid prizes.#if someone is having a MH crisis they try to do it in a safe and private environment like their gotdamn house for a reason w/o strangers#and if you just show up unannounced to talk about Mormonism to a random persons house theres a good chance youre going to be-#interrupting something and that something isnt always good#i know door-to-door solicitors are '''normal''' but the whole thing really whacks me out and makes me feel kind of angry
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you ever get an email from your psychiatrist’s office that makes you immediately wanna throw up
#pay your outstanding balance of over $1000 or we cancel your next appointment (which is on thursday)#where we will renew your life-saving prescriptions (which u are already halving to stretch them out until ur appointment. on thursday.)#i’m gonna have to grovel to my dad. and it sucks so fucking bad.#i don’t wanna find a new psychiatrist because every one i’ve had before this one has been SO TREMENDOUSLY SHITTY.#but i. cant afford this bullshit indefinitely.#jfc. not what i needed today!!!!!!!!!!!!!#izzy.txt
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One of my favorite hobbies is opening the Genius annotations of lyrics I'm checking purely to roast the absolutely ATROCIOUS "analysis" some people throw up with full confidence on that site, oh my god.
#this was about 'the garden' by the crane wives today but I do this with some regularity lmfao#somebody literally went 'the line about hammers and nails is clearly a reference to the crucifixion of jesus'#WHEN THE ENTIRE SONG IS ABOUT BEING BURIED IN THE GROUND. IT IS A REFERENCE TO COFFINS BABE.#you canNOT just jump from eden to the fucking crucifixion oh my god. I cannot deal#what are you a protestant youth pastor??? NO#what kind of bullshit conjecture#YOUR ANALYSIS IS BAD AND YOU SHOULD FEEL BAD!!!#god something else just came out and I was looking at lyrics like 'holy hell they really just let you say anything here.'#like I do think genius is great for finding references to things the artist actually said about what they were writing about#but if you're gonna do specific textual analysis you NEED to actually write out the argument#a lot of it is flat out wrong but some of it is like 'maybe you're right but this is so disconnected that you NEED to make the connection'
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Shit morning. Very very shitty morning. The rest of the day better not suck or I swear to fuck I'm gonna riot
[I highly recommend not reading the tags, but I needed to vent]
#CW blood#cw periods#don't read further if you don't wanna read about me describing my bloody morning#so I knew I had my period right? it's day 3#and I went to bed last night without pants bc they weren't fitting right bc of the bloating#thank you body#as per usual I tossed and turned all night and when I woke up I felt it#I felt the mess#on my thighs and on the bed and I did not wanna get up bc that meant dealing with it#and I did not wanna deal with it (I knew I would have to but I didn't wanna)#it was SO MUCB WORSE than I thought#the bed was a mess and the blood was halfway down my thighs and ain't my stomach and the pad was so thoroughly soaked thru#it couldn't hold anything more even if I wanted it to#I ran to the bathroom and stripped and cleaned myself as best as I could#and then I had to soak my underwear and wash my blankets (cold water folx not hot)#(cold water prevents stains in this specific instance)#anyways my morning was shit and now I have extra laundry to try and fit in before work and oh yeah I still have work today too#it's file tho so just taking down and putting up tags#and I'm off tomorrow so I can stay in bed most of the day and not have to deal with bullshit#I need to yeet the uterus... I can't keep doing this... I shouldn't wake up to messes this bad multiple times a year#I can't say monthly bc I don't always bleed monthly#and my husband and I have talked and there's some decisions we have to make#he said he'll support me and he understands that this isn't normal or okay#and he told me he only wanted to do pregnancy bc I wanted to do pregnancy and idk anymore y'all. I don't know...#is keeping my uterus for another potentially five years worth it? I know the answer is no#god I fucking hate this can someone please just rip it out for me and save me the decision making? pretty please?#personal
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daigo looks great in the new gameplay teaser clip rgg posted <3
#snap chats#rgg has a personal bone to pick with me cause first they hide ichi statue now theyre hiding daigo gameplay LET ME SEE MOTHERFUCKER#love how everyones dogging on this game before it even comes out but not even bout the game#its just buying it is an ass and a half. and i agree Give Me A Physical Release ASSHOLE#anyway unrelated tag ramble time YEAHA#i had a spanish quiz today and why was it so much easier than last time. what the fuck.#there was one bullshit part but the teach realized It Didnt Make Sense With What She Taught Us and was lke#'ok this is extra credit if you get it its EC' and i was lke !!!!!! FUCK YEAH so anyway :)#i went to the dining hall to celebrate and i always feel bad for the people around me cause i always got five fuckin plates#and even after those im still hungry Oops#it cause i dont eat </3 anyway bye#im gonna finish a sketch i started and then i got a fun comm to work on :]
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i’ve been so irritated and angry this week i just accidentally snapped at my coworker 😭😭😭
#build up of everything that happened this week + my other coworkers lacking common sense Because#ok i’m going to complain about what happened at work so far. i found out the dishwasher guy doesn’t clean under the dish machine at all.#i found CUTTING BOARDS? back there like does he not fucking check ?? and someone last night left the bag of chicken tenders out all night#so that had to get thrown away. i have to smoke salmon and someone left. the dirty trays in there from last time and it’s all burnt 😐 Dude#build up of bullshit this week and then work stuff today made me snap at someone. i feel bad#txt#ok sorry had to vent into the void . my friends have been helping me feel better at least
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Hey universe,was cancer not enough?
#i would very much like a bottle of wine tonight but chemo#so i will assuredly be taking an edible when work is done#this is bullshit everything is terrible#gonna go watch some boys falling in love to cheer myself up#how's everyone doing?#feel free to reach out if you wanna vent or cry or whatever#how the fuck did it happen again?#and yes i realize this isnt about me and it sounds like im making it about mthwith the cancer remark but#im just pointing out the bad shit in general lol i dunno today sucks take it however you want#and take a hug if you want pne while we're at it
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