#so even if the bar is on the ground
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Anyone else grow up in a culty denomination and get very specific songs stuck in you head? The kind that aren't hymns cus not enough people know them? You think people will know, so you ask, but then are reminded that your off brand Christianity was the second-star-to-the-right kinda special.
We're adults now, we can do what we want.
#cult#culture#religion#denomination#hymns#When the Bible calls god the Great I Am it's probably because the old/middle English word Eam/Iam/Iom meant uncle/ older male/ patriarch#the cult was really focused on the meaning of The Great I Am#all i hear in my head now is Big Unc#which is a really niche joke#anyway#cult recovery#sometimes my fiance gets annoyed when im impressed that he washed anything#he just scowls and tells me to raise the bar#let him do better#but I've never seen a man wash anything that wasnt a tractor#trailer or car#so even if the bar is on the ground#that's higher than where it was#it used to be buried#I'm resurrecting it.#the bar is jesus#the judgements will commence
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It is okay if you can never forgive somebody who has harmed or abused you. You don't have to forgive them, but you deserve to find peace in other ways. If you can't forgive or forget, then do things for your sake. Find what fulfills you, if to make it easier for yourself. That is okay. Forgiveness isn't forgiveness if it is demanded or expected, and it isn't fair for you
#gentle reminders#abuse#abuse tw#abuse mention tw#i'm pretty sure i've made a post like this but like so many other posts i think this is important#i will never forgive my abusers and that doesn't make me bad or AT ALL 'like them' <3#and it's quite evil to MAKE victim/survivors forgive the people who harm them because it 'makes them better'#forgiveness isn't a moral high ground and it doesn't 'make you move on'#you don't even have to forgive others for your own sake if it's not going to ultimately help you#forgiveness should come from /you/ because YOU want that#and if you can't get to that point then please find something else to help you <3#i'm healing through investing in ME. i don't give a rat's ass about how my abusers feel frankly. they were monsters to me#and i don't have to forgive any of that. and the same goes for you#people like to think that forgiving something like abuse is akin to forgoving somebody for eating the last klondike bar...#...because they do not/cannot/don't want to consider that it's SO much deeper than 'they did small bad thing to me :('...#...so that minimalization makes it easier to blame victim/survivors for the crime of 'not forgiving'
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yall were not kidding about champions
#viv and cole were out like a light#something kept bringing kendis back#but eventually even that was like nah#grapecase plays dai#but dude didnt even flinch#i think ive only had him lose energy twice since he became a higher level champion#and once was bc i didnt see there was a hole on the ground#and it was like the game paused and was like oh right he needs to die when he falls that far#but for a second i thought he wouldnt bc it was a whole five seconds or so his bar was still full green#before the dramatic blargh argh happened#blackwall
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Omfg UK and US 18-25s I'm begging you to vote in the general/presidential election 😭😭😭 young people already don't vote and then to actively abstain (I get it, all your options suck) but then politicians will have zero reason to appeal to you ever! You're entirely excluding yourselves from the conversation! Vote strategically to vote OUT the worst dude but just vote fr
I know they're all doing genocide and it's fucked but like you literally are not preventing genocide by not voting you're just sitting on your hands
#politics#voting#general election#presidential election#potus#uk#usa#tories#labour#lib dems#republicans#democrats#i know i hate keir starmer and rishi sunak too#trump and biden should be in a retirement facility#but trump is a full on nationalist and biden is at least not a complete nazi like thats a low bar and hes still doing genocide#but so is trump like genocide is unfortunately a given for both elections like none of your options are anti genocide#yes this is hell but like you have to show out in large numbers to prove youre even around and caring about this stuff#or like neo liberals and conservatives will run your countries into the ground even more#like the uk housing and healthcare systems rn are about to collapse entirely#trump is going to manipulate the functioning of government to creep into authoritarianism#its like not a secret this is their platform#serious you have to vote#protest vote#strategic vote
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okay none of this is new information but as usual i am thinking about gorrik and arenanet just. really never considered the timeline of his life and the implications of that at all, huh
like, okay, for eod you needed him to have a relationship to ankka and you needed ankka to have connections to the aetherblades, so you threw them both in thaumanova, fine
except. thaumanova. which blew up in 1324.
and no, we don't have a canon age for gorrik. but we know taimi's age, that she was friends with blish, and that blish is older than gorrik
now. taimi didn't know that the brothers had joined the inquest. which means either they'd kept it a secret from her, or more likely, it happened after they lost touch
taimi was born in 1313, meaning that the absolute oldest she could have been when she last saw them, is ten
now sure, taimi skipped a couple years, she's a prodigy even among asura - but age really matters when you're in single digits. for blish to be a friend, rather than a mentor, he can't be much older than maybe four years above her? i'd put that as the reasonable upper limit, they could be closer
(i'd also honestly guess that gorrik is a bit younger than taimi, given a) how much he looks up to blish, and b) that taimi prior to s4 only thought of him as blish's weird little brother, they weren't friends. and again, at that young, age matters - if you're 7, your friend is 10, and his little brother is 8 or 9, your first connection to him is probably not "oh, the little brother", because he's not little to you)
but assuming im wrong on all of that, just going back to our facts, that puts gorrik at the most about 2-3 years older than taimi
which means that the age we're looking at, for joining the inquest, thaumanova, all the stuff with ankka... he was somewhere between 9 and 13. could be even younger but im giving him the benefit of the doubt
gorrik says he never thought about ankka romantically and i believe him, but if there was ever anything there from her side, it was definitely a kiddie's first crush kinda thing, like oh we are a boy and a girl who are best friends clearly this is what romance means
because both of them were so fucking young
god knows spending her teenage years in the aetherblades was not great for ankka's everything, and by the time we find gorrik and blish in bug in the system, they've been working for the inquest for at least 8 years
that's almost half his life, at that point. working for an organisation that the thaumanova fractal and rata primus make incredibly clear does not value the lives of its workers in any way at all - they'll feed you to their latest experiment just for standing there, and gorrik wasn't just keeping his head down and going along with it, gorrik was actively sabotaging their research when he morally disagreed with it
(and this isn't even getting into why they joined the inquest in the first place, which i will bet anything i own on being because of blish's illness and needing the technology to save him)
and to their credit, i do think this comes across in bug in the system! because if you go back to early gorrik, first half of s4, having played through the rest of the story? the difference is shocking, like he is so distrusting and snide and defensive as hell of his brother, he talks like he expects you to attack him or blish at any moment
but then they never do anything with that ever again, and like, i love all the new gorrik content, genuinely i do, but arenanet there are layers to this character that you have entirely forgotten about, and god i wish we had a story that actually explored that
#my friends have heard me give this rant so many times already but tumblr hasn't!#so i need to post it bc it is driving me insane again#asura trio forever in my heart#also i've joked a lot about how funny it is that rama is literally the only npc in the gyala story who's not an engineer#rama also the only person in this mine (bar the commander) who isn't jade brotherhood former jade brotherhood or former inquest#even funnier when my commander is a former aetherblade#like hi rama sorry you are the only person here who can take the moral high ground ever#this is the demon mine of We've All Done Some Shit Okay Get Over It XD#gw2#gorrik#ankka#taimi#blish
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i’m thinking about it but it’s actually really funny how often men on dating apps completely fumble me bc they assume i’m like some kind of goth vixen with how i look, when in reality im a big fucking nerd and if they treated me like a normal human being maybe i wouldn’t have to ghost them
#n.txt#personal#i had it happen recently and it sucks so bad i can’t do dating apps for a bit#like… it’s#i’m not even hard to impress…#the bar is on the fucking ground and men are still swan diving to be lower#like i get it im hot but i don’t wanna talk about SEX i wanna talk about THE ILIAD by HOMER
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heard the most soul shattering johnny cash cover of an amy winehouse song in my dream last night. i can't believe i have to just wake up and be okay with never hearing it again and not even be able to remember which song it was
#i've had you know i'm no good in my head all day so that's the frontrunner#but i couldn't be sure#such a gorgeous like pub or bar or club i heard it in. lots of dark wood and jewel tones and smoke and it was waaaay way high up in the sky#like cloud level even#because there were multiple rooms and a wraparound balcony. and out on the balcony you couldn't see the ground it was just clouds and mist#it was just constant good music in that dream but the winehouse cover in the bar is all i can specifically remember#anyway#mine
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So basically me during this season:
A dark silhouette in the Fold: *is on the screen*
Me: Ivan?
Darkling: And the other thing?
Me: Ivan?
Nadia: But you won't like who else is here.
Me: Ivan?
#shadow and bone 2#so much disappointment in those 8 hours#i don't even know where to begin#i expected so little#like the bar was on the ground#but sab writters got a shovel#fivan#ivan kaminsky#shadow and bone
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If I don't find a new job before September, it's gonna be 9 straight weeks of polls starting in September, every weekend of September and October (including the weekend of Housemate's bday, and the weekend leading up to Election Day)
In addition, no cancels or sick days will be allowed for that period of time. Any cancels or sick call outs will result in disciplinary actions up to a fast tracked firing (to be fair they didn't say this exactly, but the Implication in this part of the email is quite strong lmao.)
Anyone wanna hire me on to do literally anything? Dig holes? Clean your house? Shine your shoes? Feed your cat/dog/fish/cow/etc? Stare at a pot of boiling water for your dinner? Paint your living room then stand there and watch the paint dry then repaint it a different colour and watch it dry again? Anything at all, anything you want, anything-
#text post#i want to think I will have a new job before then bc ive been trying to force myself to be optimistic abt the job things#that said. been trying to feel that way for months and it doesn't seem to be working or making anything happen (which isn't a thing anyway)#despite my consistent sending out of resumes and cover letters to anything i might remotely be okay enough at or could learn quickly enough#so feeling less optimistic more worried and more utterly frustrated with this job#our polls haven't even been chosen by the big news outlets over the last few months!!! everyone uses AP instead (as they should tbh)!!!!#whomst in the fuck are we doing this for??? especially when so many of our questions as of the last few surveys#feel designed to stir up emotions and piss ppl off on both sides and treat it like a reality show voting portion#rather than the extremely serious election that it is#like. are we actually doing something useful here or can we just admit that polling like this to some degree#in its current form at least is a part of the problem#god im sorry i'll end the tag essay here soon but fuck me#i was juuuuust feeling like things were calming down and maybe I could get into later fall w/out major upsets/issues#so of course this is the best time for my manager to drop this on all of us#at least they warned us i guess. the bar is under ground and my manager consistently has a shovel#but he poked his head out of the endless hole he's digging to offer this warning before he pulls us into it with him#im so tired man
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Pls i cant stop thinking about the 5 eccentrics finding out (well, minus wataru) Rei calling Shu like hey, did you hear that eichi got married. And shu being upset wataru didnt tell him, i mean, yes they wanted a private wedding maybe but at least let HIM kno- "no, not to wataru" "......oh tenshouin must have a deathwish then". So it's bad as it is but then they find out wataru didnt know either and ensemble square needs to up its security because theres nothing that can protect eichi from their wrath. I like the idea of passive aggressive rei because he Knows what the others have in store
I think even in that case Wataru would still be like "well...you know, it's a shame but it couldn't be helped" and he'd put such an effort into pretending he's fine but one look at him and it's obvious he's been crying
#and that's the moment Shu decides that he doesn't care about the consequences he just walks up to that dorm room#and Rei and Aira and Mika have to physically restrain him from committing actual murder.#but I think the tragic things is that Eichi would also feel horrible#he would feel so so so bad#because it's true he does love Wataru a whole lot so I think he would be just as heartbroken about tha whole thing#my main gripe I have with him isn't even that he's engaged it's just#you could've at least told him....#like. thats the Bare Minimum#maybe it's because he was scared of losing Wataru if he tells him or something because that would make it realy but just#the bar wasn't high Eichi.....the bar was on the ground.....the bar was almost six feet under#and you still managed to screw it up#I don't even think Wataru would've been angry with him he would've just been sad but I think he'd get it#a sad kind of defeated understanding acceptance of the situation#but at least he would've known#because I mean. what would this entire thing even tell him#Yeah sorry dude he got married to another girl behind your back yes he's been engaged for a year yes he didn't tell you#sorry my condolences seems you weren't important enough to him seems he wasn't as serious about this as you were#seems he saw no issue with that whatsoever seems be was planning to discard you anyways and you were just his bit on the side to pass time#seems you didn't mean enough to him to give you a choice in the matter#looks like he didn't care about how you would feel about this#oh you thought you were partners? oh you thought you would talk to each other about importnat things? sorry. afraid not.#and you're an idiot for thinking so#Eichi Tenshouin you might not be able to fix this one if you don't grow a backbone and communicate. Think wisely if it's worth the losses.#cobalt🐍#wataei#<- I feel like being a little mean
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leans in v close to the mic: "no ethical consumption under capitalism" means like. having to buy necessities from downright evil corporations bc the alternative is not accessible. not spending like 60$ on blood libel simulator so the shitbag who owns the IP can use the money to further campaign to strip trans people of their rights.
#joke ralphing had proudly stated that money she gets from wizard boy properties goes directly to anti-trans groups and politicians#but even if she was a trans ally the games INSANE antisemitism should warrant a boycott in and of itself#like its so insideous and evil#and this isnt like a hard moral quandary. the bar for decency is literally on the ground#jkr cw#harry potter cw#antisemitism cw#tbd
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have been reading fic & thinking abt my relationship to fic, which is of course also among other things a mirror of my relationship to my own psyche, and like—i think all the discourse abt its being ~internalized misogyny~ to mostly/entirely read m/m is not ultimately, whatever the truth of it, all that helpful, either to readers or to Women! but of course that doesn't stop me from feeling weird guilt abt the fact that i don't read more f/f than i do, because if there's anything i love to do, it's feel unhelpfully bad abt myself on the slimmest of pretexts…
however! i did end up reading some f/f earlier, specifically transfem f/f, and it got me thinking—basically what i'm usually mostly reading fic for is the romance/sex, right? like, don't get me wrong, i love when a fic gives me a gorgeous double helix of, like, casefic and romance twisted together, that's ideal, but fundamentally most of the time the feeling up is what i sat down at the table to eat. so in a complex aegosexual way it's a fantasy i'm—not projecting onto, exactly, i don't want to be one of the people in it; but, like, lurking in the wings of with eyes big love-crumbs, to steal a phrase from a relevantly-named poet. :) and so it's no wonder that mostly i don't want to read cisfemme4cisfemme stuff, because that's not a dynamic that feels like it has any room for me, or even like i'm particularly welcome in the room. but like. if it's trans women? i'm there, i love that for them and for me. if there's a butch? i might get tripped up by our differing lenses on gender feelings and stub my toe a little but even so i'm probably here for it. (thinking here abt that one butch/femme geraskier ~cisswap which is, like, a gorgeous bruise i keep periodically pressing. <3)
so really it's just like. shocker: i'm not personally moved by fantasies abt romance which feature conventionally feminine cis women whom i don't personally find relatable or sexually desirable! and when i put it like that, it really instantly dissolves the weird useless discourse-induced guiltgunk. like. give me a woman who's, idk, tall and charismatic and strong and clever and talented at something (though honestly it's like that siken revised tweet, a lot of those characteristics are ultimately negotiable!), like women i've historically crushed on irl, and then give me a pairing for her that's like. another woman who's also enough of those things, or a man who's—honestly the kind of m/f i'm open to would be its own whole post bc holy shit am i fussy, it very much does exist but for now let's just stick a pin in that one—or somebody nonbinary, which… idk that i've ever actually seen nb/f in fic? i'm sure it exists! but i'm not sure it exists in any fandoms i've been into. pondering the question did get me really thirsty for a good 'farmgirl (of the luke skywalker variety) is absolutely stunned-and-ringing-like-a-struck-bell captivated by confident flamboyantly genderqueer love interest (example wanted)' dynamic, though…
#(this is entirely unrelated to the actual topic but every time i use a possessive to modify a gerund bc it's a verbal noun it's like#pls hold‚ time 2 decide whether i'd rather do the esoteric thing—'its being'—and have most ppl think i'm getting it wrong#or do the demotic thing—'it being'—and *know* in my own secret heart i'm getting it wrong#and both scenarios feel Bad! so it really is just lose-lose every time it comes up… a sad situation for a gerund lover like yrs truly. 😔)#(also yes what is 'wrong' when it comes 2 language anyway but like. you know what itches your ears and i know what itches mine.#…& obvs what itches mine somehow does NOT include (mis)using 'itch' as a transitive verb for comedically colloquial effect. shrug emoji!!)#anyway none of this is remotely groundbreaking or even unusual but. soothing 2 me to lay it out like this.#fannish things#i guess also#aut fieri uolo aut futuere#and no‚ the world definitely did not need >500 words retreading the same ground many other ppl have already trodden#however. what is a blog for if not to house long-winded unnecessary posts no one but the author (if that) really needed.#in conclusion anything i say abt My Relationship 2 Fic is really always a diptych with that anecdote abt the woman who called up queer bars#just to know there was a space out there where freedom and joy existed‚ and brush the edge of it‚ just a little#like am i personally embodying/visible as much of what i'm deeply emotionally bound up with? no.#is it nonetheless/therefore hugely important to me to see those possibilities stretched out before me like a far green field? sure is!!
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always vital 2 ask urself if ur actually nostalgic for ur childhood experiences if ur nostalgic for the context of the experience
#like do u rly want 2 be a kid again or do u want experiences to feel fresh again#do u want 2 taste a fruit and never have had the experience of eating anything even remotely like it before#like fundamentally nostalgia misdirects u toward treading old ground when what u actually want is something new#the novelty and joy that u got originally was in seeing and tasting and smelling and feeling new things!!#u won't get that from the old thing again#like!! explore a part of town you've never been!! go 2 a new bar!! try a new cuisine!! engage in a media form u don't usually engage with!!#it'll make life so much better i promise u this
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btw mikibagels has whitewashed pucci and double down on it against twitter backlash
OH…… yuck…………….. thanks for the heads up :(
#the bar is so fucking on the ground for jojo artists and yet#dissapointment even though i expect Nothing
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Guess who finally got Sludge after ages of me forgetting to get it for him!
#flight rising#this man has been in incomplete limbo in my lair for YEARS#i bought him to use the lava eater accent on him#he started off just needing metallic to make him look like obsidian#then eyepocalypse happened and i was like 'oh i'll never get primal for him even though it'd fit'#(i was busy trying to roll rare on a fandragon and was getting nothing but unusual so i had NO HOPE THERE)#sludge got released and i thought it was perfect for him but just... kept forgetting to brew stuff to get my level up#followed by eye vials that i had to save up for (this was before i learned how to do g&g so it took a long time)#and then ground saved me from having to buy metallic because it fit him better (even if i had to abandon the obsidian thing)#and now i finally hit the level to brew sludge without renting a cauldron and he is finally. FINALLY. done#started from bar/shimmer/crackle/common and now we're here :'3#...now i gotta get the genes for maple's expensive ass and get HIM out of project limbo
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i’m literally so used to my coworkers not understanding my neurodivergence, to the point that they straight up tell me i’m not autistic (because i’m like… functioning?) that my manager- who is actually always very understanding- when i said i was having a hard time hearing yesterday, surprised me and was like “you have audio processing problems? yeah” like! idk i didnt think that was as well known of a thing so him knowing what it’s actually called was really nice
#hes never once questioned me if i have a sensory issue or anything#and even correctly clocked that i was struggling w getting overwhelmed BC of my adhd#way back over a year ago#when i asked for advice#its so small but the bar is kinda on the ground at work#love my work wife hes the best
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