#shit has my head spinning

[shotmrmiller]

helloooo

nsfw art

guess i'll go rot in some mafia au 141 where they pick up this slip of a woman off the streets because they're extremely unsafe what are you dumb? girl get in the car and you can't really fight it because a man with that many rings adorning his thick fingers surely didn't earn any of them through being an accountant

and it really is just too bad that one (they all do tbh) took a great liking to you because you're not going back home. not like you have any family that'll miss you, right?

"answer me."

oof i'm so unwell help meeeee

[gootube]

band au eva and skuggy is a crack dynamic i think about more than i should

[deet-doot]

hm

[queenerdloser]

one of my reference letter writers got back to me today to say she was done with my letter but the links on the schools spreadsheet i sent her weren't working (they were just links to the dept websites), so i scrambled to get links emailed to her to upload her letter to interfolio and the like four schools i'm submitting to that don't use interfolio (boo). and that was this afternoon (i responded within an hour to her email) but so far nothing's been uploaded and i'm like... pls upload them pls now i'm super nervous she's going to struggle with the like technical aspect of getting letters uploaded. praying and hoping she uploads this weekend bc then i've got one letter on lockdown.

[fridayyy-13th]

i'm going to a queer school event tomorrow but i'm literally feeling so paranoid about it. what if my mom checks life360 while i'm there, then looks up which event is at that location, and puts the very obvious two and two together. if i put on airplane mode to freeze my location, what if she texts me and freaks out when i don't respond for a good few hours. what if a family friend somehow spots me there and passes the information along. i really wanna go and connect with other queer people here but holy SHIT the thought i could inadvertently out myself simply by taking my phone along is terrifying.

[kickbutts-singsongs]

An interesting conversation my lil sis and I had the other day:

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Her: “I was sad today. But then my friend sent me David Tennant edits and they made me laugh so I felt better.”

Me: “Omg lolllll. Wait was it from Doctor Who, or—”

Her: “No it was Good Omens.”

Me, not expecting that response in the slightest, but feeling absolutely overjoyed: “No way!! I’ve been meaning to watch it! It looks so good!”

Her: “Yeah I watched it with my friend over the course of like five weeks.”

Me, who’s been trying to figure out where exactly she stands on the whole lgbt thing considering our father is homo/transphobic, cuz one day I wanna tell her that I’m ace: “So you’ve seen it!! Did you like it???”

Her: “Yeah, it was good, but— uh…”

Her, shifting on her feet and looking uncomfortable all of a sudden: “I don’t think you’d like it.”

Me: “Huh? Why not??”

Her: “It’s just— it’s very… the whole thing’s gay. I don’t think you’d like it.”

Me, utterly gobsmacked: “Um…?”

Me, who is on the gay blogging hellsite, who reads (and writes!) gay fanfiction, and who is literally queer: 👁️👄👁️

Me, who doesn’t want my lil sis to *know* that I’m on the gay blogging hellsite, that I read (and write!!) gay fanfiction, and that I’m queer: “…You know I have a lot of friends who are lgbtq, right? Like, I’m okay with that. Don’t you hear me argue with Dad when he makes one of his stupid comments?”

Her, quickly walking away: “Uh, yeah okay, idk I just don’t think you’d like it. That’s just my opinion.”

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💀💀💀

MA’AM????????

I can’t tell if she’s homophobic, if she wants me to think she’s homophobic, or if she thinks that I’m homophobic.

[autisticbillpotts]

I'm losing my mind why am I so obsessed with this guy

[sobredunia]

Late-night realisations are always interesting

[googlein1942]

ive been so into rdr2 lately and i keep thinking about public nations verse where people making historical games/movies/shows/etc. consult nation people on historical tidbits and accuracy and whatnot, so queue Alfred “Favorite era of the US was the wild wild west” Jones finding his way to rockstar studios to help them out with the game accuracy/go on about whacky people he met during those days while the studio is just like write that down write that down

[greghatecrimes]

misc headcanon 2/?: when Thirteen was little she did figure skating. She had to quit once her mom’s Huntington’s started getting worse, but she was able to keep it up as a hobby during her teen years after her mom died. It gives her a sense of control over her body and helps her de-stress.

(rambling cont. in the tags)

[analogwriting]

wow i have 100 followers on here and my law fic reached 100 kudos on ao3 at the same time. WILD

[monty-glasses-roxy]

On another note since I can't find my Okami game and before my brain can keep blowing it out of proportion (who cares if the disk is gone is saves to the Wii console not the fucking disk calm your tits brain I can still be a Pomeranian for shits and giggles if I want fuck you) I've been thinking about the Staffbot situation again...

Fucking hell was the staff party actually to round them up and kill the human staff?? Why??? For what purpose??? Were the Staffbots essentially just overcomplicated remote control cars with no AI built in so they used these people as the AI??? Do they want revenge??? Freedom??? Death??? Will they ever get it??? Where did their bodies go??? How has no one noticed so many missing people??? How would you even free them??? Fire??? Some sort of master controller that's preventing their souls from moving on??? Can Roxy see them???

That whole situation is wild and it feels so over the top given everything else that's happening. Like, bro, do we really need more shit happening??? Come on...

[astranauticus]

yknow sometimes i feel like. if fandom was a kindergarten playground i've been spending the past several years just sitting in a corner of the sandbox by myself making my little sand sculptures just for myself to look at and maybe there are other kids who come by to take a peek every once in a while but mostly its just me and my shitty little sand sculptures

and now suddenly i've gotten a lot better at my sand sculptures and the playground is a lot smaller and so there are people who know that im good at making sand sculptures and specifically come by to my corner of the sandbox because they like my sand sculptures and sometimes those people are teachers who walk past and give a thumbs up and tell the other kids to come look and its so. new and cool and exciting but also its so different from anything i've experienced before and im not saying thats bad its just. a lot to get used to. im still not that good at playing with the other kids and i still hate having others be around to watch me make stuff because i've never had that before and i have no idea how to.. do.. a lot of this. but it's okay. i'll learn.

[lazer-cannon-deth-sentence]

siiiighhhhhh

[endlesslycoffee]

my mom started watching everything everywhere all at once bc she saw it won an oscar but didn't even reach the 20 minute mark bc she got bored THATS how i know our relationship is unsalvageable

[oak-and-hurricane]

god i fucking wish i could post some of the wilder stories from my job like those dipshit nurses on tiktok