#shit borderlines do

[dickensian-ronan]

Unfiltered borderline

The most recent and final (for me) episode that ends the life of Cory & Holly. For two years, I swept this type of behavior under the rug, assuming that she just “acts out” when she gets drunk. One day in the middle of a spell. I asked Siri what type of person has to have extreme emotional engagement at all times when the list pops up and BPD was referenced in each heading up clues from the past and present started to come together like the ending of an M night Shyamalan movie. When I spoke to a good friend/therapist/former roommate and told her what I suspected and these are our texts that followed.

Here we are in late October. Her advice, not followed in my personal items, not being returned.

On to the final showdown.

if you have never experienced the arbitrary yet, calculated nature of the borderline, then grab a rosary, some brick dust, and as much sage, as you can muster up and continue reading.

So, let it be known that I didn’t believe her deep down inside, but only a monster would dare be insensitive to a situation of this magnitude. This fact must be considered prior to her taking this course of action to gain an earned sympathy and attention. Wiping away all of her miss deeds and misconduct before this most cruel and ill intended power-play.

however, in the audio conversation that we had when she asked me to call her during the “panic attack “ they may very well have been real as I cannot imagine what it would feel like to do this type of thing, and being aware of it at the same time. She said that she went to the emergency room and had an ovarian cyst that had ruptured. She said that the baby was fine and they transferred her to neonatal in Spartanburg regional healthcare center where she was kept overnight. The following text message is from my first cousin. She is my closest cousin, as we are the same age and grew up five houses apart from each other .

Fish on! As we say, when we hook a tuna when offshore fishing.

“Dog will hunt” you must understand this is the third pregnancy/miscarriage in 2023. Each one following a break up attempt made by me. No paperwork was given nor proof shown of any such hospital stay or miscarriage the fact that she wanted special treatment and sex the day that she supposedly came home from the hospital tipped me off after the second miscarriage stunt.

The following messages are me reaching this topic and asking for proof of miscarriage after I had seen her in person and noticed that they were no telltale signs of a hospital visit, and she was upset that I did not want to have sex in her car parked in a cemetery a few days later. Witnessed the rage in text and imagine the ever present smirk on her face when delivering the character assassinations when blaming me for everything while denying the facts presented.

When I ask myself, what could be her reasoning behind all of this I have to assume that maybe because it was a Tuesday? in conclusion, I’m not upset about any of this. I’m incredibly relieved and I feel liberated. I was hurt by the thought of miscarriage the first time. I was upset and angry the second time. This third time I feel liberated.

google sends me to BPD literature on dozens of sides that all say that the borderline is not being malicious, they honestly can’t help but do these things. I’m not qualified to say if that’s true or not. I can say that these lies are compulsive to a degree, but I can also say that if these behaviors cannot be helped by the borderline, why do they not occur around other people always when there are no witnesses around, they can ruin her false image to the public. I have read that it goes away overtime in most cases if they do not commit suicide by their 40s or 50s I’ve also read it was therapy and the proper help they can learn to cope with these things but I can also say that I am 43 and do not have an extra life to live after these problems are dealt with. She thinks that she has everyone fold , and that she’s the most clever, but being clever is a child substitute for wisdom, and what are borderlines other than grown children. They cannot be diagnosed until adulthood, but from my experience before adulthood, they are just called brats. She is 42 and passed the wall. Her entire life has been spent using her luxe as currency. Born rich, and nearing the eventual bankruptcy of her sexual market value. In the beginning, she said that she was divorced two years but she was still married with her husband and daughter living in the house. Her oldest child and his wife will not allow her around their children unsupervised any longer. As she says, this is all because the wife’s father falsely accused her of sending inappropriate text messages to him. The man is a preacher.

aside from walking on eggshells, not working for two years and becoming cash poor with nothing left, but some hidden bitcoin and a piece of property in Costa Rica, and one small piece of land with no house around the corner from the place that I used to call home I am making my scape and rented a house far away are in the place that I live for 20 years before coming back home 2 1/2 years ago. As far far away from her wave, that she can never leave due to her fear of abandonment, and without her families reputation to hide behind. Her name may be Holly and she may have borderline but to me she’s just a succubus. A product of western culture with no accountability. Just another victim.

[emotionaleating]

pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning

[sad-leon]

what if i gave rise leo BPD...

his anger manifests in the form of self-sabotage and self harm. he asks donnie to sound proof his room when they get to the new lair so he can wreck it without concerning everyone else. before that he'd sneak to the surface and wreck an already messy alleyway

his self harm is recklessness. he gets hurt in fights as much as he can and still get away with just a "please be more careful" lecture from raph

speaking of raph, his oldest brother is his favorite person. so when raph starts to brush him to the side and distrust him, he doesnt take it well. when he does something to impress raph and all he gets is "finally..." thats when he disappears for hours and comes back home with sore arms and usually some scrapes and many bruises

he becomes a medic because they can't ignore him if he helps them. plus he can get better at hiding his breakdowns if he can take care of his own injuries

he wants to be in the spotlight so bad until the spotlight shines on him and suddenly his skin fits wrong

splinter and raph brush it off as teenage hormones. donnie shuts it out. mikey is the first person to realize leo's moods aren't normal, but he doesnt want to confront the fact the bpd comes from trauma, so he tries to support leo as best he can

april doesnt realize how much leo's mood shifts until she spends a night in the lair and realizes that leo isn't as hyper as he presents himself. he tries to mask, but he's too tired and the sudden silence from leo throws april off. it creates a rift between them. even when leo is happier around april, she knows somethings wrong- knows its not quite as genuine as she thought.

she spends more time around donnie than leo and leo thinks its for the best. eventually all his brothers- all his family prefer spending time with someone thats not him. he tells himself its for the better- the less time they spend around him, the less likely he'll be upset around them and end up making them upset

leo convinces himself he's meant to be alone and puts his all into being the team medic and spends the rest of his time alone and dissociating. he hates being the leader- having everyones eyes on him all the time. watching him. waiting for him to mess up- to act out- to prove they were right not to trust him

.... idk.. just a thought

[letsventstuff]

Did you people forget the ADHD?

[agerasiaa]

A crack fic about Lucifer, Vox and Husk making an Alastor Hate Club. And it’s just them once a week bonding over how much they hate Alastor and Husk realizes more and more how he doesn’t actually hate Alastor and is bitter about it, Lucifer randomly trauma dumps about his tragic life, and by each meeting Lucifer and Husk notice how Vox’s sheer hate borderlines on obsession and they share awkward glances every time he starts ranting and shows them his Alastor shrine or something. And when he makes some comments like “Alastor does this and that every day” (some very specific detail about him only a stalker/someone with a long history with Al would know) and the other two are like “how do you know” and he’s like “I just do.”

[clovelie]

i put myself in dangerous situations the second i feel as though i am going to be abandoned just to avoid being alone.

[mothseatinghumanflesh]

[videoviolence]

MEET DOG & DAD!

[smutnarzeczywistosc16]

Marzę by poznać kogoś kto myśli jak ja kto rozumie moje problemy i uczucia kto zostanie na zawsze a nie na chwilę

[cluescorner]

A Batman who kills people is a bad Batman. Except for Terry because he is my special boy. Terry can drown a man it's ok. He can literally shatter a woman it's fine.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

I’m your average person but with the capacity for love that only exists in romance novels

[emotionaleating]

if i ever act like this again shoot me in the face

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i just don’t wanna exist, i just dont wanna think or talk i just wanna chill out and stare at something beautiful for the rest of my pathetic life, write poems abt it obsess over it and thats all who cares.. i don’t care, i don’t care

[letsventstuff]

I can't. I really can't take any more of this.

[storm-of-feathers]

i hope parents who make cleaning a punishment and/or scream at their children for not cleaning "right" know that they only set their children up for failure when it comes to being able to routinely clean.

[clovelie]

i wish impulsivity as a symptom was talked about more, especially when it ends up putting you in a bad situation afterwards that you regret.