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theborzoiarebackintown · 11 months ago

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Margo kicked some serious ass this weekend!! Best Op both days and Best of Breed owner handler today in entries of 16 and 18 borzoi! This earns her another two 4pt majors and two comp wins toward her GCH.

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tommygotwrittenoff · 27 days ago

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bobby says to eddie one shift where buck is home sick with chris. going home to see your boys? eddie smiles and says. yeah. and your boys just Sticks in eddies brain and when he gets home he sees chris and buck curled up on the couch asleep and the sight makes him pause cuz. yeah. those are his boys

#dont get me wrong #im obsessed with buck referring to chris and eddie as his diaz boys but you know eddie would also love calling buck and chris his boys #so he just. calls them that all the time #at a 118 barbeque hes like. well i gotta go round up my boys its time for us to head out.#or buck and chris go to the zoo over the weekend and hes showing hen pics buck sent and shes like. looks like your boys had a good time #and hes like. yeah 😊😊 they did #hes on the phone with abuela and shes like. howre your boys doing??#and eddie is just 🥰🥰 theyre great #he gets home from a 48 he picked up to buck and chris about to sit down for dinner and eddie goes in for hugs (that chris dodges)#and hes just like. i missed my boys #he just loves his family so much. the thought of leaving his boys together makes him so happy because he loves chris and he loves buck #and he loves that they love each other and that they both love him. and so hes always just like. my boys are spending the day together 🥰🥰#hes the guy thats sooo in love with his family and everyone knows and its sooo sweet to the point that it makes people a little sick #a firefighter from b shift chats with him during a shift change and the guy walks away from the conversation being like. i know eddie has a #perfect little family that he loves so much but i didnt know it was like. That perfect and sweet. what a lucky guy. what a beautiful family #because the guy told him to thank buck for the cookies he baked and eddie was like yeah. my boys made a mess of the kitchen making those #and started talking bout chris and buck and how they team up against him and never let him taste the dough (but they eat spoonfuls)#ofc we know buck is prob always saying. gotta go see my diaz boys. or. im making lasagna for my diaz boys tonight #and eddies like. buck you know youre a diaz boy too #yeah. okay. but you and chris are MY diaz boys #me thinks

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cream-and-tea · 4 months ago

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oh pallas and agnes power dynamic you really are SO unbelievably fucked,,,,,

#haven’t been able to write in days so i am posting instead. forgive me.#it’s just so. like. okay pallas has all of the material power here that’s not a question they’ve got much stronger magic they #know how the library works they’re directly placed in a mentorship role at the beginning re agnes she depends on them #for everything.#but also #pallas is very much Not Doing Well mentally (<- understatement of the century) and is pathologically incapable of processing their own #emotions related to this AT ALL. and in the process of trying very very hard to get to Know pallas (so pallas will Like her so pallas will #want to keep her alive) agnes kind of comes to understand a lot of pallas’s issues even better than pallas does and pallas starts to depend #on her for emotional support in a way they NEVER have with anyone else.#and pallas’s ability to show vulnerability has been soooo wrecked beyond belief that to them doing things like sharing part #of their backstory and being visibily hurt around someone is tantamount to placing a knife in someone’s hand and #then circling all of their weak points with a giant red marker while going ‘HEY STAB HERE’#so in their mind by doing this they’re giving agnes an IMMENSE amount of power over them like enough to kill them dead even though very #little else has changed about their dynamic. so pallas believes that they’re standing on much more equal ground then they really are #and agnes partly believes it too she thinks that by seeing this much of how broken down pallas is she’s finally found the balance in their #relationship she’s finally found a way to make it stable. and yeah. to some extent this is true!#pallas DOES listen to agnes more than any other person agnes IS the first person in years to understand them this much pallas’s dependence #on her for their mental wellbeing DOES give her some measure of power over them. but that power is given out on pallas’s terms is the thing #whether they’re aware of that or not. agnes wouldn’t have anything if pallas didn’t actively choose to be vulnerable with her there’d be #no way she’d learn about anything no way she’d get to play this role in their life #they believe that this thing is much more equal much more sustainable than it really is (pallas especially) and they’re #literally all each other have #grabs your face are you listening THEYRE ALL EACH OTHER HAVE IN THIS PLACE THEYRE BOTH IN SUCH HORRIFIC SITUATIONS AND THEY R EATING #EACHOTGER TO SURVIVE!!!!#head in fucking hands #wip: ghost story #pallas and agnes

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shaw-punsexualnerd · 7 days ago

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ever think about how probably the hex get to chill with the drifter also because the drifter does make their job simpler.

Both the techrot and the troops need time to readjust from waves of culling, hence the hex are genuinely thrown in moments where they have time to properly think: whether that brings peace or lets buried grievances resurface is another thing though :)

#Shaw-t up #Warframe #Drifter voice therapy time #I have so many thoughts #Pov: you are a drifter raised with endorphin chase and Arthur asks you drunkenly alone one night how do you deal with killing #And you are just. Uhu. How do I make “I don't have a life besides that so I turned that into my heroin” not sound awful.#Amir: I'm not made to be loved #Torres (drifter): Amir my sweet darling you are cuddling with a killing machine either that or become that but orokin slave #Learning how to make sweet deals with Quincy and helping him find toys and stuff for civils. Getting both a pat on the cheek from a granny #Showing the companions to Lettie and listening to her talk about the day like me w my mother when she talks about her patients after work #Dancing with Aoi. Teaching her the shawzin as the drifter is taught the piano #Idling with Eleanor as she wonders about the void. The drift allows himself to wonder as well. Maybe they experiment with the transference.#I'm normal I promise I'm having a normal one

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noornight · 1 year ago

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Happy lesbian day to the toxic doomed yuri of twst 🐍☀️

#LETS GO LESBIANS LETS GOOOO #twst #twisted wonderland #kalim al asim #jamil viper #jamikali #LOOK AT THEM I DREW THEM AS GIRLIES #yeayeayesyes my melody kalim and jamil brainrot is too strong for me to ignore #IT SUITS THEM #This idea has been brewing in my head for too long i had to make it #and there will be many more to come #hell yea #anyways kalim has long hair and jamil has short haid cause idk i thought itd be funny if it was reversed if theyre both girls #tho i regret it not cause i want jamil to have long hair 😔😔😔😔#i think ill make another one where itll be long hair ponytail gf x long braied hair gf #jamil has less accessories compared to kalim bcs shes only putting up with it cause kalim wanna be matchy matchy #(thats not true she likes it as well but doesnt wanna show it shhhhh)#NATIONAL LESBIAN DAY #LETS GOOOO #there are so many spelling mistakes im so sorry im sleepy rn #fem twst

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moeblob · 10 months ago

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Windy at my house + power flickering = no comm work = quick laptop doodle

#my characters #i genuinely hoped the wind would die down but like ??? nah?#and the last time we lost power without an actual storm it WAS bc of wind #and so i just get so panicked over please dont fry my tablet with a power surge #if it calms down by tonight i really wanna work on art since i spent almost all day yesterday struggling with a pose and i finally #think i thought of something that could work and then (gestures to the wind) fuck me #also in regards to these two you have seen me drawing deacon a lot recently and i only drew armya once so far #she is a devoted follower to fulj which is really rare since fulj no longer has a large following nor a temple #so when fulj finds her its comforting and reassuring and she adores armya a lot #however the fact that fulj relentlessly teases deacon and calls him names is like..... ok wait would you really be mean to me if it wasnt #for her ? like would you still pick on me? :c and shes like lol yeah dude absolutely #deacon is just constantly dunked on by the lightning group and hes so sad because he wanted to be friends :c #but also the guy wouldnt really recognize the followers if it wasnt for the traces of lady fulj #so if they would wander into the city without having been possessed recently he probably wouldnt even cast a glance their way #nothing personal he just straight up doesnt decipher looks fast at all #he could think they look familiar but then not know why ESPECIALLY if they wear something he's not used to them in #like if armya showed up in something other than her loose white jacket he would not be able to go AH YES ARMYA immediately #he identifies people by hair or clothing details so it kinda messes him up if people remove whatever identifying trait they have #long hair getting a hair cut? suddenly a whole new person #and armya knows this very well since he never looked her way unless fulj was possessing her or trailing her #so she does like to tease him as just. we are both in servitude to a deity and same rank but like. bro youre too easy to mock #(fulj agrees)

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mars-ipan · 3 months ago

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Tomorrow Is Election Day And I Am So Fucking Stressed

#marzi speaks #marzivents #hi folks. i haven’t been making much art lately. apologies! i want to be #unfortunately shit is Stressful in both my little world (i’m starting to get overwhelmed with my meds and refills and driving)#and on a broader more societal scale (if trump gets re-elected shit is going to go so fucking bad oh my god)#PLUS we’re in the It Gets Dark At 6PM Zone now #i think i’ve lowkey been catastrophizing a bit with all that’s been going on #i should probs look into those psych referrals my doctor gave me #she offered them bc the almost-dying earlier this year was Traumatic and i was showing signs of anxiety/depression #but i think they’ll just be helpful in general #god though i hate being on prescriptions. it feels like there’s a constant timer hanging over my head #refill these pills before this time so you don’t have to miss a day. woops! the pharmacy’s out of stock on this one #so you’ll have to come back at another less convenient time. fail to do so and the medication goes on hold #which requires a phone call where you speak to a Robot that may not understand the nuances of ur situation #grrrgh it sucks so bad. thankfully i refilled my prednisone the other day and have like 3 months’ worth now #and that’s the one i really can’t afford to miss bc steroid withdrawals could really fuck me up #but uggghhh i hate it. so much. bc it looms over me always #i hate keeping track of when i’ve taken my pills too. i keep a checklist for every day #so i remember what i have to take and if i’ve taken it #but god it sucks. i’m at the point where it’s basically routine now so i do it automatically #but i know if i stop monitoring i’m gonna forget if i’ve taken my steroid one day #and either double dose or skip the day. and that’ll fuck me up pretty good #anyways. hoping hoping hoping this election goes well bc idk if i can take it if our country tis of thee elects the fucking fascist #this one’s fine to rb. i think many of us share this sentiment lmao

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dramas-vs-novels · 8 months ago

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Did you *really* go to college if you didn't do this at least twice a semester?

#my roommates at yonsei- which i'm still amazed Noeul is a yonsei grad- would vanish for DAYS into the library #preparing for their English exams #and like- my girls you have a native english speaker back in the dorm can I help you study #but they would BOTH do this when they finally surfaced for air #sophia- she went by her english name- and ryeong-ah; they were both my Sig #they would come back and just scream 'my bedddd' and dive onto sophia's bed #i say sophia's bed because ryeong-ah couldn't be bothered to climb onto her bunk bed #so she'd just lay quite literally on top of sophia #i have a photo it's one of my favorites because you can see that sophia is about to deliver a violent kick to her spine #love in the air #lita #rain #first semester my roommates were all older than me so i was supposed to be polite and i only ever used polite korean #i was perfectly well behaved #but that first semester in korea my roommates were horrible- all were banned from the program they were so bad #but i remember most that at midterms i was studying so hard for my religion in korean history exams that i'd be at the library until 2am #and then walk back to the dorm a mile away- and like everyone was doing that so it wasn't scary walking the mountain at night #but i'd get back and my roommates would be drunk and yelling in the dorm until 6am or so #and that was almost every night regardless #but during midterms i was so tired and so fried and my classes started at 7am so i wasn't sleeping #and i finally showed my roommates that i can say 'shut the fuck up' in korean without any accent whatsoever #Watch

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sysig · 9 months ago

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Red Eyes and Evil Time, practically the same thing right (Patreon)

#Doodles #Villainsona #Just Desserts #Sona double feature!#Red Eyes and Evil Time /are/ different for the record lol #There's overlap and they're both eye details but they're different #Mmm Red Eyes feels so niiiice <3 And I've been pacing myself so it's Just Red Eyes!#No red shines :) Which can happen even on Red Eyes #In fact it's probably more common - the red shines on Blue Eyes was something of an oddity #No one knows the lore except me I'll explain someday lol #For now it's just fun to be in Red Eyes! :D And the occasional Evil Time as well lol - all the overlaps!#I somehow accidentally made a like?? Cotton Candied Popcorn themed outfit for Eli for the first one lol that wasn't my intention #I mean it's cute I'm not about to fight it lol I'd love for my sonas to have other clothes inspired by each other haha #Eli's eyes are still quite fun to draw as well haha those bright pops of colour - Red Purple or Blue they're all so stark and shaped #Back to their classic feminine outfit good for them uwu #Silly lad #They're also still a scientist first and foremost - it's all chemicals there's gotta be a way to recreate it externally!#Local vampire scientist creates mood stabilizers more at 7 lol #I'm quite pleased with the three-red two-purple one-blue gradient as well hehe - the decay! :D I like it as a visual #Charm tiiime <3 <3 Happy Charm time in Evil Time! Usually better than bad mood Evil Time lol - at least for those around her #Still chaotic to be in it haha - but happy chaos is happy! Lol #Again more fun with eyes the light bounce in the one where she's holding the melt is so cute and looks so nice on my paper too <3 #I had a silly comic idea for her for the next time I get into Red Eyes as well - if I remember lol #Big Love is hearts! It just makes sense #Also I am Really proud of the cleaning job I did on that last one lol - from original to this? Night and day ngl #Guess that goes to show how little cleaning I do on-page lol #For some I do! Others...#Still thinking up outfits - you can probably just make out ''Hero Charm'' in her hair lol trying to think around different themes #Something that could become something else! Add or subtract an element and it changes the ''meaning'' of the outfit #Kinda like her initial caped design that Kaiein rejected hmmm

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samodivas · 6 months ago

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I hate to be that guy (lying I'm a born hater) but I couldn't give less of a fuck about Morrigan being in DA4. yawn. show me Merrill or fuck off

#they did my girl Merrill so fucking dirty in both DA2 and DAI.... and idgaf about Morrigan fr like #clearly she is the devs' fav character (along with Varric) fine whatever but at this point she might as well be a playable character #retire her ass fr fr show me characters you've been IGNORING for more than a DECADE #p: mine

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jitteryjive · 7 months ago

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i need to remake my cup bros ref… both cup and human designs… it’s been almost a year(?) and i’ve developed the headcanons and i would like to share with the class!!! (i wrote thirty tags. Please help me)

#my little hc i kinda showed in the refs but didn’t point out: cuphead’s handle appears broken/in human form his ear is halved #cause he has microtia (that also affects the eustachiantube/middle ear). basically i am a HoH cuphead truther #also to add onto that i think he has poor auditory processing issues cause i also see him as AuDHD #double also. while he would use ASL on a bad hearing day i think regularly he also uses home signs to express words/concepts #autism-related btw. it’s actually a bit visible in insert cuphead media (to me at least LOL) that cuphead expresses a lot of body language #so not liking conversation oral or signed as well as replacing oral words w home signs is in character. at least to my headcanon whatever #floats your boat!#OH! plus his split upper lip that i draw him with isn’t related to the microtia. he just roughhouses and chipped/tore his lip open when he #was younger #cuphead is also a trans boy. it feels right to me LOL #even back in 2017 when i barely knew the game or also much about trans people i saw cuphead and was like hm. hm!#tbh he just pawned his clothes onto mugman. who i’ve also changed my hc for i see him more as bigender than a cis boy now #LOL. i cast bi on mugman. sorry buddy #OH HIM TOO. im so sorry mugsy i have like two headcanons for you 😭😭😭#she uses he/she 2 me. i like casting personal parts of myself onto mugman even if i gravitate more towards cuphead/chalice #i see him as a bi ace as well. and a hopeless romantic. i don’t ship uhh i don’t remember what it’s called #i don’t ship cala maria X mugman (respect though) cause i see the cups as kids and i’m also a hilda X maria shipper LOL #but in the show. i will be real that she is a hopeless romantic. Look at that dork #FORGOT TO MENTION. i am a cuphead aroace truther to my grave. KEEP THAT MUSHY ROMANCE OUT OF MY HIGH SEAS ADVENTURE!!!!#like i said w cuphead before mugman is AuDHD (they share. many genes LMFAO)#however the difference is that they express it in different ways; while cuphead’s is more linked to his hearing/social behavior #mugman’s is more related to her emotions. i see it through my headcanon colored glasses that especially in the show mugman has more #meltdowns between the two cups #he has high emotional sensitivity both in positive and negative ways; former as in being strongly attached to cuphead and latter as in #more prone to meltdowns as well as being very literal #which isn’t a bad thing of course. mugman we are shaking hands so hard we are the same #OK that’s all the ones i want to share right now. i also haven’t shared her human or cup design i did but i’m workshopping chalice!!!!!!#i am leaving her out intentionally she deserves her own post because i luv her so much #ok post over. twenty minutes dedicated to autism about the twins out of the trio #cuphead

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mysimsyuri · 4 months ago

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FINALLY got to watch the musical episode !! im now more in love with my partners than i was before . you will always be famous to me jamaican inspector man o7

#styx says #💛heard it both ways🍍#💛heard about pluto💊#💜an evening with you☯️#gonna talk spoilers in the tags now watch out !!!!!!#IM SO DEVASTATED ABOUT YANG. I FUCKIN KNEW IT WASNT HER SHAWN YOU BITCH #but also i liked the song she did w mary :'] i miss mary every day </3 #unfortunately i did get spoiled for him cuz hes the designated 'no beta' tag on ao3 which sucks. like ig hes a main character who gets offe #but like in season 5. we couldnt have picked smth else????? thats over halfway through the show and Most fics take place season 4 or before #anyway that turned into me complaining abt the fandom lmaoo the musical was rlly good !!!! they can all sing soso well cant wait to put #santa barbara skies on repeat forever now <3333 #gotta think abt how to put video in it somehow . i kinda have him conveniently out of town during the yin/yang stuff itd be funny if hes go #like strep throat or smth and cant sing dfghjdkfg #ANYWAY. sorry i gave up on the tober my depression didnt go away like i wanted it to . whoops. ok ill stop talking now dfhjdfg o7

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nexus-nebulae · 3 months ago

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just realised that the first media we consumed that made us REALLY sympathetic for the monster was that fucking point and click Mystery Case Files Ravenhearst game. bc that entire game i was legitimately fucking TERRIFIED of the ghost lady in that game but the second i found out her husband was abusive i doubled down on trying to help her escape. and the ending of that game Did make me cry out of fear but hey at least i did in fact help her escape

#i think that was the first game we ever like. completed. as well #NO it was hidden expedition amazon bc that one was less scary so it was easier to beat LMAO #we had both of those games on a single disc as a kid #one o those like. buy 2 for cheap game discs at like. best buy. i love those cheap bargain bin point and click games #hidden object games were my entire thing from the age of like. 8 to 12 #we also had like. three ispy game discs one of which had FOUR separate worlds to go to #which upon my recent googling was like. multiple ispy games packaged into one which i cannot find any record of??#i know for a fact it had a space section the fantasy one and the school days one #and then we had treasure hunt and spooky mansion as separate discs #I FUCKING MISS SPOOKY MANSION i have a download of it but i CAN'T PLAY IT bc it was made for computers older than windows 7 #it fucks up the aspect ratio of the screen and the mouse like. shows the cursor being about an inch to the left of where it Actually Is #its weird #anyway complete non sequitur here but I GOT THE STUPID ASS MULTIPLAYER ITEMS IN TERRARIA #i forgot i could just. make a multiplayer world. and not invite anyone to it. and get the items that way #so this can still be a purely singleplayer challenge i just have to click on a different menu to get these items #NOW I JUST HAVE TO FUCKING PAINTING HUNT. HOORAY 😳#they need to make a version of that emoji without the blush. i am not flushed i am fucking STARING AT U LIKE A MADMAN #the fucking. uluru painting. i chewed through 7 ENTIRE LARGE DESERTS FOR THAT FUCKING THING #7 LARGE WORLDS. DCU. DESTROYED ALL TRACE OF SAND. ONLY GOT ULURU IN AN OLD ABANDONED WORLD INSTEAD 😔#and now. now i have to search for fucking WALDO?????? WALDO????? this actually looped back around to the initial topic of the post huh #any hidden object BOOKS i would fucking eat up as well the Can You See What I See books??? i liked those better than ispy actually #walter wick is the one man responsible for my LIFELONGGGGGGG obsession with hidden object games #i LEARNED TO READ with ispy books initially and i fucking LOVED it it was so fun making learning a game #i learned to read like. wayyyyy faster than other kids apparently?#i dont remember what age but i was definitely early bc i knew enough that when i entered preschool i was like. past their starting level #i dont remember the details i just know like. i learned to read really early. and i was a late talker #but neither of my parents think i was. bc both of them were delayed in speaking too so they think its normal--#but like. my mom was Deaf she absolutely was a late talker #and my dad. well. lets just say my mother has less of the tism tendencies to gift to me #and also both were part of very very large chaotic families so like. mild neglect was part of the package yknow

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acourtofquestions · 4 months ago

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Boots crunched in hay, and then he was knee to knee before her.

Aedion.

There was nothing kind on his face. No pity or warmth.

For a long minute, they only stared at each other.

Then the prince growled softly, "Your plan was bullshit."

She said nothing, and couldn't stop her shoulders from curving inward.

"Your plan was bullshit," he breathed, his eyes sparking. "How could you ever be her, wear her skin, and think to get away with it? How could you ever think you'd get around the fact that our armies are counting on you to burn the enemy to ashes, and all you can do is run away and emerge as some beast instead?"

"You don't get to pin this retreat on me," she rasped. The first words she'd spoken in days and days.

"You agreed to let Aelin go to her death, and leave us here to be slashed to bloody ribbons. You two told no one of this plan, told none of us who might have explained the realities of this war, and that we would need a gods-damned Fire-Bringer and not an untrained, useless shape-shifter against Morath."

Blow after blow, the words landed upon her weary heart. "We—"

"If you were so willing to let Aelin die, then you should have let her do it after she incinerated Erawan's hordes!"

"It would not have stopped Maeve from capturing her."

"If you'd told us, we might have planned differently, acted differently, and we would not be here, damn you!"

She stared at the muddy hay. "Throw me out of your army, then."

"You ruined everything." His words were colder than the wind outside. "You, and her."

Lysandra closed her eyes.

Hay rustled, and she knew he'd risen to his feet, knew it as his words speared from above her bowed head. "Get out of my tent."

She wasn't certain she could move enough to obey, though she wished to. Needed to. Fight back. She should fight back. Rage at him as he lashed at her, needing an outlet for his fear and despair.

Lysandra opened her eyes, peering up at him. At the rage on his face, the hatred She managed to stand, her body bleating in pain. Managed to look him in the eye, even as Aedion said again with quiet cold, "Get out."

Barefoot in the snow, naked beneath her cloak. Aedion glanced at her bare legs, as if realizing it. And not caring.

So Lysandra nodded, clutching Ansel's cloak tighter, and strode into the frigid night.

"Where is she?" Ren asked, a mug of what smelled like watery soup in one hand, a chunk of bread in the other. The lord scanned the tent as if he would find her under the cot, the hay.

Aedion stared at the precious few logs burning in the brazier, and said nothing.

"What have you done?" Ren breathed.

Everything was about to end. Had been doomed since Maeve had stolen Aelin. Since his queen and the shifter had struck their agreement.

So it didn't matter, what he'd said. He hadn't cared if it wasn't fair, wasn't true.

Didn't care if he was so tired he couldn't muster shame at his pinning on her the blame for the sure defeat they'd face in a matter of days before Perranth's walls.

He wished she'd smacked him, had screamed at him. But she had let him rage. And had walked out into the snow, barefoot.

He'd promised to save Terrasen, to hold the lines. Had done so for years. And yet this test against Morath, when it had counted ... he had failed.

He’d muster the strength to fight again. To rally his men. He just ... he needed to sleep.

Aedion didn't notice when Ren left, undoubtedly in search of the shifter with who he was so damned enamored.

He should summon his Bane commanders. See how they thought to manage this disaster.

But he couldn't. Could do nothing but stare into that fire as the long night passed.

#Chapter 34 #Kingdom of Ash #Sarah J. Maas #Aedion Ashryver #Lysandra Ennar #no spoilers please #first read #read with me #read along #more tags more spoilers below and above warned #the magic thread - if only there was Aelin - the fire - what the sky shows - he had failed - retreat and live fight and die - to Perranth #the sound of shields is giving infinity war vibes and while I try to stay a little optimistic even I must admit things are getting sticky #the Crown Prince splattered with blood both red and black. — Manorian I’ll bleed whatever color you tell me to lol — the Thealis reference #Ashryver eyes dim — okay that one hurt — I will follow you cousin however this may end but we cannot keep this up not — to whatever end #Where is the Queen? Where is her Fire? but if the Firebringer fought without flame they would know — She has run away. AGAIN.#asking why Aelin of the Wildfire did not burn away their enemies Did not at least give them light by which to fight. Ok but I luv Wyvern Lys #Two Silent Assassins noticed on the second night that the dead soldier still lay on Lysandra's back. — a line that broke me #They treated her with kindness nonetheless. No one made to reach for the lone horse — Aedion should’ve been there should’ve been kind to her #Even the Queen of the Wastes was pale her wine-red hair plastered to her head beneath the dirt and blood. —no ur plan was bullshit #he’s not speak to her it’s him to him-You don't get to pin this retreat on me she rasped. The first words she'd spoken in days and days.#She wasn't certain she could move enough to obey though she wished to. Needed to. Fight back. Rage at him as he lashed at her. but she knew #he knew it and he’s wishing she’d punish him for it but she didn’t #Barefoot in the snow naked beneath her cloak. Aedion glanced at her bare legs as if realizing it. And not caring.#So Lysandra nodded clutching Ansel's cloak tighter and strode into the frigid night. — this chapter hurt me — I’m with Ren WHERE IS SHE #Aedion stared at the precious few logs burning in the brazier and said nothing… well not nothing & braziers double haunts me forever #Everything was about to end. Had been doomed since Maeve had stolen Aelin. Since his queen and the shifter had struck their agreement.#So it didn't matter what he'd said. He hadn't cared if it wasn't fair wasn't true… mmm no those words mattered they were awful #why must we repeat HoF mistakes per ship #He wished she'd smacked him had screamed at him But she had let him rage. And had walked out into the snow barefoot #soon — they will come soon — they ghost leopard dis not falter — the Crochans and Rolfe and ugh so many people just need to show up soon

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teethpaste · 7 months ago

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I never should’ve let mustached love bomber back in , he is so toxic and unstable and bad for me and it is ADDICTING

Like I eat it up. I feel myself feeling crazy! I know it’s gonna crash and burn by August so I’m like ? Just lean into it? Enjoy it for what it is and know he’s gonna leave and that’s okay. Life is short like I may just have 1 month of fun, right? Right?

#unhealthy #but #oh well #he wants me to dom him and maybe that will make it work this time #he’s addicted to ketamine and an alcoholic and I see literally so much of my addict self in him #like the need to constantly escape reality due to trauma #like we are both in the we have OD’d have a dead parent and are clinically depressed club #it’s so fun to fill that void with sex and substance abuse #but it’s sooooo unhealthy #it’s like is it showing that I’ve grown some bc I at least can see what I’m doing #self aware to notice but not enough to make myself stop #I’ve been avoiding my therapist she’s gonna have a field day when I talk to her #I should have just blocked his number and I never would have gotten the I miss u text #also lying to my closest friends bc they would murder me if they knew I was talking to him #but the sex we have is insane and we both fuel each others delusions and I think he’s so hot #I also know it’s all fake but I eat it up when he talks about a future together #it’s so fun to pretend and live in that fantasy for a few weeks #even tho I KNOW it is not real #my dumbass listening to Lana’s thunder while typing this shit up #that’s what it feels like!#whatever I’m gonna go out tn with my girls and #try not to have him over at 2 am tonight

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saintlesbian · 2 years ago

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god forbid a lil sheepy has a fun weekend

#pentadraws #general hospital #michael easton #josh swickard #heyyyyy so. i know i told myself i wasn't gonna go to anymore of these til i got a job #and i was kinda on the fence about going to this one in the first place #but then i had a REALLY good job interview on thursday #it went so well they hired me the same day :3 so this sheepy is now officially emPLOYED #and i thought id get a ticket to this weekend's event as a treat for myself #anyways. did the sketches on the train and did the watercolor part during the show #they signed my sketchbook and they even liked my animal print sketches so much they to pics of them #also yall remember the playboy bunny chase drawing i did right. well i gave JS a tiny print of it >:)#he liked it :D they both found it amusing so. mission accomplished #also some folks recognized me from the last fan event i went to and from the sprina fanzine!#sidenote i was really hoping the funny waitress w/ the deep voice would be there so i could draw her picture #but alas she wasn't working today... maybe next time #also i remember i gave my lunch to some homeless guy bc i was afraid i was allergic to it #tried a virgin bloody mary today and it was. very weird!#and i spent the train ride home playing pmd on my ds #also im gonna go see spiderverse and eat crepes for breakfast ttomorrow #all in all! pretty good way to end the week!#thanx 4 reading gn :P

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